#you expect me to keep watching?!

[hangmanshoney]

Is it just me, or does this particular chicago wednesday feel like an utter shit show and it’s not even over yet?!

Like i literally feel like I’m watching the entire one Chicago universe implode before my eyes and the writers expect us to be happy about it or at least just move past it & keep watching?!

From that unbearably cruel fire ending to seeing jay turn into the one thing he’s always hated & said he wouldn’t become right before they write him out - I literally cannot think straight besides the sheer heartbroken anger fuelling me rn.

My brain is freaking scrambled and I honestly cannot see how these decisions are gonna get them anything but a loss in fanbase?!

MAKE. IT. MAKE. SENSE.

#one chicago spoilers #chicago fire #chicago fire spoilers #chicago pd #chicago pd spoilers #evan hawkins #jay halstead #hawkami #upstead #I am beyond heartbroken #feel like someone has physically gutted me #like two of my faves in one night ARE YOY JOKING?! #you expect me to keep watching?! #I cannot see getting past this now #someone come get me before I scream

[mobius-m-mobius]

It's a pretty cool name.

Loki + the progression of saying Mobius' name for @percheduphere

#mobius #loki #lokius #mcuedit #lokiedit #marveledit #owen wilson #tom hiddleston #tysm for the amazing request because GOD did making this hit harder than i'd even expected?? #like it's kind of a given mobius fell first #but i've been so swamped all month i basically only had time to finish maybe a gif per night #and let me tell you watching loki progressively fall harder with each and every scene was uh. an experience all right 🙃😳 #in S1 loki's so obviously trying to keep their guard up until mobius gets pruned protecting them and it's like a switch flips #the walls come down and you see the power of being believed in the pure RELIEF mobius' presence brings #how much he's valued and needed and LOVED as loki tries to hold him close only to lose him again and again #leading to desperation building until the only option left is to sacrifice everything not realizing now they're both left wanting #y'all i'll never recover 😭 #marvel #owenwilsonedit #dianagifs

[vigilskeep]

i need to wynnepost. somebody has to

#its crazy how people will assume she is all the tropes she subverts and then ignore her #also how sympathy for circle mages’ indoctrination only lasts until they get old i guess and then fuck them #because its not as if they were ever a terrified child who’d never had anything better than a single templar’s mildest kindness and any kind #of home even if it was the tower #so an orphan kid who had no memory of anything but scurrying between farmsteads and hiding in barns #didnt want to leave. what a shock. you guys dont get the place comfort has in keeping circle mages complicit #so it’s violent and terrible and you never have privacy and your children get murdered and you’re always watched and hated #its also a warm bed and community and a chance to succeed #do you honestly think every kid from fucking THEDAS knows theres anything better out there #that doesnt make the circle good. it makes it horrific that they prey on vulnerable kids to teach them the world hates them #and only the circle is ‘safe’ #i just think there should be some sympathy for those kids and what they grow up into #its easy for the player to walk in and say their character would hate the circle and never have listened to the templars #its easy for say an amell or even a surana with a family back home to not fear what they left behind #wynne genuinely thinks without the circle mages would all be murdered and she’ll fight and die protecting her fellow mages #from the right of annulment #yes its a flaw that she goes on to teach others the circle must be tolerated and that is precisely how the circle is perpetuated ove #over generations #but its amazing to me to just act like its her fault #well. this is more tags than i expected it to be

[mumblesplash]

season 9 has been amazing but i’m kinda excited to be around for the beginning of a hermitcraft season, they were well into the empires crossover arc when i started watching double life (which was pretty much my introduction to mcyt in general) so this is gonna be my first time actually being around for the early game

#man i REALLY fell into this whole thing ass backwards #it literally all started bc of scar #my sister knew about him and i was like ok so i’ve just seen this man play minecraft #and it was somehow the most stressful thing i’ve experienced in my life #and she was like ‘would you like to see someone desperately try to keep him alive for approximately 6 episodes’ #i watched all the life series (at the time) in reverse order and then moved on to hc 8 #which i feel is worth mentioning bc this watching order caused me to have what seems to be a pretty unique series of realizations #it was like oh wow scar really is that stressful to keep alive -> oh shit there’s prequels to double life?? -> #oh shit the double life (and prequels) players are in OTHER minecraft series??? -> holy shit the double life guys can BUILD???? -> #(discovers the swagon was a ‘starter base’) HOLY SHIT the double life guys can BUILD -> MOON BIG??????? -> #NORMAL HERMITCRAFT SEASONS ARE *HOW* MANY EPISODES???????????? #-> */CROSSOVER EVENT??????????????/* #and that’s just the major story beats that shit was a JOURNEY #mumbling #there were some other notable shocks along the way #like the discovery that the popular fan interpretations of the life series involved any angst whatsoever threw me for a LOOP #bc they're all so clearly being silly goofy with their buddies #to be clear i'm so on board with taking it all extremely seriously for the sake of Lore #it's all very fun #but going in i was not expecting it at ALL

[vmbrq]

ovulation horny is something neither ethan landry nor charlie walker is equipped to handle LMAOO

unless.

#you push them down under you and they just stare at you eyes big as hell #they’re both fine as fuck how could they not expect to be jumped #CONSENSUALLY OFC EVERYTHING IS CONSENSUAL #now i’m thinking of cnc with ethan landry or charlie walker but instead of them being the ones in charge it’s you #ethan could be studying or charlie could be watching a movie or or or or or really anything i’m just #*gnaws at the bars of my enclosure* #them putting up a bit of a fight (CONSENSUALLY) or trying to deter you but eventually giving in and letting their sweet gf use them #pushing or grabbing at you to deter you turning into either hands being pinned above their heads or grabbing at you to pull you closer #protests and insistences and weak complaints fractured by curses and groans until they dissolve into moans and whimpers #telling you that you two shouldn’t be doing this right now or you have to stop even though their breath is trembling and they’re on the #verge of cumming #and they choke on their words when you clench around them and dig your nails into their chest and keep using them to get yourself off #OR them just being ready to give you whatever you want #they just let you do what you want #you wanna suck their dick? say no more. you wanna sit on it? say no more. #SCREAMS #I JUST #claws at floorboards #SOMEBODY PLEASE TELL ME YOU SEE THE VISION

[hussyknee]

Okay who the fuck is the Al Qassam Brigade's media unit?? All their videos go harder than a freight train. Hollywood couldn't afford them.

#Idk whether I've just lost the capacity to be horrified by seeing people murdered by the IOF #but that ''time is running out'' video really fucks #and that ''you arrived too late'' tunnel video #and the trailer thingy where you keep zooming into drawings of Hamas clashing w the IOF #and that training montage video that was just a fully clothed thirst trap #i'm an extremely impressionable girl you can't just show me ripped men training to kill baby murderers and expect me to be normal about it #they really do understand the morale boost of watching the IOF get blown up #i think this is the feeling Inglorious Bastards wanted to evoke #except they couldn't because it was just white Americans fapping to their own sadism #glory to the resistance #knee of huss #free palestine #al qassam brigades

[ageless-aislynn]

Nowwwwww, I facetiously mentioned at the bottom of this post about the Halo: Reach achievement:

To do that, you have to go under or close to par time on pretty much each level ON LEGENDARY.

I have beaten Reach on Legendary but it probably took me closer to 30 hours than 3 because I did my slow, methodical strategies to get through. I did the par time achievement by running past everything I could on Easy. Can I combine the two successfully?

I decided to give the first level "Winter Contingency" a try (after watching some Youtube vids on getting this achievement, of course 😉). Par time is 15 minutes.

That was my third try, the first was 16 and some minutes, the second got it to 15 and some and then that one got under the par by 32 seconds! I should note that this is considered one of the easiest levels to do on Legendary and the guide I watched by the ever-awesome Halo Completionist did it under 12 minutes and you're going to need every spare second you can scrap together to give you a buffer for some of the long, difficult levels. But still!

It's silly, I know, but I feel so proud of me! I'm an old lady (well, middle-aged, if I'm being generous 😜) playing Halo with shaky hands but I made under par time on Legendary! 🥳🥳🥳

PS - Tried it again and got 13:55!

#halo #halo: reach #halo reach #this is my game tag #it's silly i know but i really am proud of me #nobody will ever realize how little i expected to be able to even finish ONE of the mcc games on easy #i wanted to be able to do it but i just didn't think i'd be able to #and then i made it through halo ce #and then the others slowly one at a time #it means something to me #i don't even know why but it does #i'm not good at games but i'm tenacious i'll keep trying #i'll watch different strategies then try to find something that'll work for me #i'll work at it until i get there #it's not pretty nobody would ever want to watch my twitch stream that's for sure lol #but i get it done #i'm proof that you don't have to be some amazing gamer to do some amazing things #i feel like there's a life lesson in there or something i dunno #is anybody still reading down this far in the tags? #have a cookie if you're still here #love you frens #thanks for letting me share with you #ageless aislynn

[whamss]

anyways top two tips for finding media with well written female characters! 1) consume media written by women and 2) stop consuming things written for adolescent boys!!!!

#talk tag #‘women just aren’t written well’ says mha pfp GET OUT OF HERE #honestly the second you stop watching shitty anime made for little boys the amount of well written women is overwhelming #sorry you have the media taste of a teenager but the adults are talking #not to be too mean it gets to me sometimes #but honestly even if you exclusively watch shounen anime (why?) it isn’t like there isn’t anything that writes women well #tpn and csm instantly come to mind #both manga that were/are massively popular during their runs in wsj #csm is up and down but the depth with which fujimoto writes female characters still astounds me #asa you are so special to me #but this is to say i still think that people need to make branch out more and maybe start having like #higher expectations for their japanese media #if they want to keep on consuming manga and anime #but seriously at some point i’m just going to assume you’re misogynistic no matter what if you refuse to look at female characters ever #people assume depth for male characters when there isn’t any and call every female character bland

[catkin-morgs-kookaburralover]

"i mess up things and then i don't have the energy to fix them up" yes brain true sentence but no brain the appropriate response is NOT "therefore i should kill myself (and here's how)"

#tw suicide #i wish i was joking #i am just so so tired of keeping myself alive! can't someone else do it for a change? or better yet kill me?? #said something to the emergency room psych #she queried it and i confirmed i had said precisely what i intended #she blinked and said 'i usually hear that from jaded forty year olds not twenty year olds' #i won't share what because it was a highly specific explanation of precisely how i might see myself suiciding or how/whether i thought i #could. she asked me and i answered. apparently she wasn't expecting that level of detail and confidence #is it funny to anyone else that i always struggle with confidence but i can confidently tell her specifics about suicide thoughts? #this is reminding me of the fifteen year old yesterday i was conversing with and he randomly started listing all the suicide methods he #could think of and i was internally like you missed a dozen i can think of. didn't say that obvs #i don't know i am. tired. of everything. and i had a long and good conversation with an older woman from church last night (mother of the #boy. i have confided in her before she's great) #she's hte only person irl who now knows about the second suicide attempt (tho she doesn't know it was the second) and she was encouraging m #to see the psych and escalate care #but all day ive been regretting telling the psych or bro or anyone honestly #it would be so much EASIER to have said nothing and gone through with my plan #i wouldn't trust myself not to rn if i had access #i mean. i know multiple ways in this room i could kill myself. but i won't #there's a couple of specific methods that are most of the thoughts usually so they're the specific ones i gotta watch out for more if that #makes sense #ooh gosh im rambling i should shut up xD #personal #puddleglum hours

[keungking]

watching people shamelessly admit that they just skip over every only friends scene that isn't firstkhao

#don't get me wrong the eclipse is good but i thought we were watching a movie #like for the plot #not for the memory of another movie #only friends is so good too! i didn't expect it to but it's queer cinema fr like i love queer cinema #''the other characters are boring and uninteresting'' this might be presumptuous of me but that might be bc you skip all their scenes #the amount of people i saw both on here and on twitter say they might drop the whole show when raymew happened was flabbergasting #it's such an interesting story to me! all these life situations and fates and experiences and how they intersect and bring different things #to light #and you're just watching to get to see akk and ayan kiss again? #i was gonna say no judgement but that is exactly what i'm doing i am judging HOWEVER you do you tho like keep it up! if that makes you happ #i'm just surprised at the state of things #only friends #keung talks

[skitskatdacat63]

2009 Australian Grand Prix - Jenson Button(ft. Rubens Barrichello & Jarno Trulli)

#brawn is like amr to me in which they make me very weepy and emotional and unhinged #me watching the podium was just me screaming internally: JENSONNNNN JENSONNNNNNNNNN sob sob #also i spoke abt this at length before but still the jump in production quality vs 2005 vs 2009 vs 2023 is so jarring honestly #and related to that ^ what did i say about ending up with a million gifs what did i say....tho less than i expected tbh #btw this post is my comfort post in case baku is chaotic #also omg i am still screaming over seb's DNF like the way he and kubica had a double takeout ;;;; #him continuing to drive another lap with his whole ass wheel basically broken off LMAO #maybe this is bcs its still fresh in my mind but its so funny to compare this race to aus 2023 #like do you remember the kmag red flag in 2023? like one wheel popped off and they had a red flag #meanwhile in this race kubica's tires were literally rolling around the track and theyre like 'eh safety car okay ig' #es tut mir leid jarno and rubens but jb is my babygirl and i love him #i hate having to cut out gifs but i want to try to keep it to ten UGHHHHH #if i let myself be uncontrolled these posts would be like 20 gifs.... #jenson button #jb22 #rubens barrichello #jarno trulli #f1 #formula 1 #formula one #we do a little bit of f1 #2009 australian gp #2009 australian grand prix #(2009: 1/17 races watched)

[skrunksthatwunk]

why the fuck did i write about birds this fucking sucks. i just found out birds only sleep for a few minutes at a time, hundreds of times a day. do you know what this is going to do to my structure? the logistics of their road trip? this is already like three days late and i've been fighting for my life to get A Plot Like Any Plot That Makes Sense out and now the birds fucking sleep for 5 minutes at a time.

#i should've just bailed and written another story when i had the chance #i'm not joking i've never fought a fiction piece this hard before. usually because i'm not writing for specific deadlines #and not a piece so big. and not one that's gonna be workshopped. i wanna blow them away but if things keep going the way they are everyone' #gonna tell me the pacing sucks and it feels pointless and the characters feel really confused. I KNOW. I KNOW THAT. FUCKK #i'm the type to do about 15 passes before i let someone see my 'first draft' and i'm just not gonna be able to do that if i want to get it #in time for a workshop. every day i delay is making things harder for my classmates y'know?? but i've been writing like 1k words a day #and it's still not done. GUHH #I DON'T LIKE WRITING THESE CHARACTERS THAT MUCH THEY'RE NOT FUNNY OR ENDEARING AND THAT'S MY LIKE. #MAIN SKILL AND VIBE WITH SHORT STORY DUOS. BUT NOOOO I HAD TO MAKE THEM DIFFERENT CUZ I WAS SICK OF DOING #THE SAME DYNAMIC OVER AND OVER. BITCH THIS IS YOUR FINAL!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! TRIED AND TRUE GETS THE BLUE (RIBBON)!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! #head in my hands head in my hands head in my hands head in my hands head #going to work on it some more. fuckk #the voices aren't consistent and i'm trying to make it clear that this is toxic bird yuri and not a mother/daughter thing but the maternal #themes are kind of fucking with that but they're important and i don't wanna get rid of them but it feels forced cuz im forcing it #sigh. i'm gonna have to cut the yuri. these two don't work romantically at all. what a waste of time. #i watched the entirety of mnthly girls' nozaki-kun in the past two days while avoiding writing. did you know that? the lengths to which i'l #go? anyway it was fun i appreciate fellow creative agony and i uh never knew how they did screen tones and wasn't expecting that somehow #so i learned something new (hooray). anyway back to. fucking. bird story stuff #i'm so mad i hate these two (<- lying. just pissy) i hate this story (<- mostly exaggerating. throwing a tantrum) #eughhhhhh i just wanna lie on the floor and cryyyyyyyyyy (<- completely deadpan irl. not That upset just kind of sick of shit) #i'm so burnt out and it's only gonna get worse. ughh #why can't someone just come in and write it for meeeeeeeeeeheheuhhh (<- would hate that)

[books-are-my-life-stuff]

It's such a shame that in this episode, it's VERY apparent that Sasakoi is crumbling apart, animation and production-wise. And this makes me really sad because I LOVE how the story is going. I love the characters so far, the songs are great too, and the voice acting is also amazing!

My nagging feeling about the production of this anime turned out to be proven true. So much for the one-season delay, and having two studios working on it...

And this is NOT the fault of the animators either. They're just working their job, at extremely tight deadlines, with very little pay. Please don't blame the staff and animators working on this anime.

I'm just really sad because this is among one of my most anticipated series. I'm so sorry, Sasakoi. You deserve a better-funded adaptation. And to all animators who are suffering over unreasonable deadlines to the point of risking their lives just to get the episode done in time... I hope someday they'll be in projects where they're treated better.

#personal #whisper me a love song #sasayaku you ni koi wo utau #i think i'm just going to pick up the manga now #i will still watch but i'll keep my expectations in check

[gemstarstarlight]

IDK if you've seen Crown of Candy yet, but it's treatment of Not-Christianity is much better even if ultimately still negatively-oriented. It's more centered around the historical institution with Not-God being more of a force than a sapient being, and the pagan representation turns out to be sinister so it's consistent in not endorsing any strain of divinity in particular. Ravening War likewise does some interesting stuff with church-drama that doesn't cast genuine faith in a bad light.

I have watched both of those and I agree with you! It’s definitely a bit better because of all of that. It’s also more my genre anyway, which made it more fun.

It’s so tricky because there’s truth in both Comida and Fantasy High’s depiction of religion. I’ve met the Bobby Dawns and read up on the Belisabeth Brassicas. I understand that God can feel distant, like a force and nothing more. I am so angry and grieved at the damage the church has done to people. Any time there is a grasp for power or a putting down of others or another goddamned cult I want to just cry because this isn’t what it’s supposed to be and it’s horrible to just watch. Also I do believe that as much as possible there shouldn’t be an endorsement of one religion over another in entertainment, so not endorsing any particular religion in Dimension 20 is good.

But I feel such a connection with characters like Sir Morris Brie. Because I’m a Bible-believing Bulbian. I’ve studied my god and I’ve also met him. And he’s not like Helio at all. He loves me. Has always loved me. Has always wanted what was best for me. Has grieved with me when I’ve lost everything in little ways over and over again. Has been my father and friend when I haven’t been able to trust one and didn’t know how to have the other. And I’ve been able to trust the Bible over and over again even if I haven’t always agreed or understood.

And it’s just never represented. D&D has always felt like the closest thing to representation for me, as a Bible-believing queer person. And Dimension 20 (again, understandably, it sounds like Ally’s experience was awful and part of healing has been leaving) rarely if ever portrays someone with genuine faith in a Christian-esque god. Or if they do, it’s portrayed as toxic or ill-informed. And that sucks, frankly.

I get it, I truly do. No one gets more irritated than I do at bigoted ignorant Christians and I will fully doxx myself by saying I have been to the American South and I would NEVER live there willingly because of the culture.

But I tend to listen to the more neutral Dimension 20 campaigns. It took me so long to try A Crown of Candy. Because I don’t just respect my religion; I love my God. And I hate to see the slander, especially because some of it is true and even more especially because some of it is not.

#thanks for the ask op sorry for the vent #maybe that wasn’t what you were expecting but it did make me think #tbh a big part of biting the bullet was realizing some of the best D&D play comes from ACOC #yes I keep watching clips of fhjy every time there’s a cool game mechanic thing done #yes I cackled and said “got him” along with Lou when Zac did Mindless Rage and Brennan realized he was got good #and I may have actually watched the latest episode because it’s all high level combat and I’d like to get better as a player myself #and because watching it fucking rules #but at the end of the day #I wish Christians weren’t afraid to create content that explores their own religion more #(in a narrative way rather than a teaching way) #and I wish non-Christians could see more of the good of the God I know #christianity #dimension 20

[coredrill]

oh also headsup to everyone that i will be TRYING to see if i can’t catch the new bravern ep earlier than i usually do tomorrow so y’know. beware the Posts

#like i wont be able to focus on anything once it drops anyways so like. MIGHT AS WELL #i could barely focus on anything today tbh. LMAO #i don’t even know why i’m so anxious like i fully trust that it will be good and satisfying and i have zero expectations plotwise #i just want isami to be happy i think 😭 he and lulu #either way tho it’s been such a fun time keeping up w this show :] #like i’m rly glad to watch it while it was airing and see all the fanarts and talk abt silly theories w my friends and make Posts #and i still do think ep9 in particular maybe even elevates this to like. fav stories ever been told type of deal #like recency bias ofc but also. bravern himself is SO 😭 #anyways. LMAO #t.txt #what a special show :] #OH MY GOD WAIT I DO WANNA SAY #WHOEVER GOT THAT GIF OF MINE TO BE LIKE ONE OF THE FIRST BRAVERN GIFS IN TWITTER SEARCH #THANK YOU BUT WHY IS IT ONLY SEVEN PIXELS 😭 EVERY TIME I SEE IT I CRINGE #wait also again i lied earlier on. rip. i actually DO expect smith/bv to come back in some fashion #like i’d bet money on that. but like. i do also trust the show to make it work if he Doesn’t ykwim? #its just one of those scenarios where it’ll be like. happy ending: will make me very happy #bittersweet ending: will stay with me forever and ever and ever and ever and ever an #okay sorry for editing this post four millioj times i gotta go do chores

[thechosenanubis]

Eddie Miller and Steve Harrington are the same person in different fonts.

#house of anubis #eddie miller #why are you booing me? i’m right #i've been rewatching stranger things #and their parallels hit me like a truck #It's probably nothing but sometimes i go 🤨🤔😮🧐 #and i'm here with receipts! #steve (s1) 🤝 eddie (s2) -> saving the day in the finale even if they don't know what's going on #steve 🤝 eddie -> the protectors of their group of misfits #steve 🤝 eddie -> curating a fake persona ( king steve and Eddie's bad boy front) to protect themselves from society's expectations #I could keep going but this would get too long #This is my delusion talking BUT I'm more and more convinced that one of st writers watched/was influenced by Hoa/hha/dha... #or maybe the tropes are just that popular and cliche... oh well ¯\_(ツ)_/¯