the-wiggles

[the-wiggles]

#this made me pee a little #in a cool way dw #it may very well be the I didn’t sleep last night

[the-wiggles]

Oh my goodness the idea juice is HITTING tonight

#is it the monster? yes #is any of this idea juice going into my homework? nope! #I have added 3 fully formed ideas to my ideas list #typically my brain requires 2-3 business weeks and a long shower between ideas #normalize using monster or redbull instead of adhd medication bc the side effects are so so bad horrible bad #but also it’s probably a good thing that 3rd grade me getting my hands on my diagnosis was not actually given the focus juice #it would’ve exacerbated the kidney failure methinks #beth for the love of god do your homework PLEASE

[the-wiggles]

Every time I add a silly little fic idea to my long list of things I’ll never get around to writing I ponder where I’d be if I didn’t make my personality for 5+ years around how much I hate writing

#and now I’m in college and writing is #different #but I hate being wrong but also now I wanna write but djcjdncjcnsndjc #atp I’d probably crack if I knew someone would want to read things I write or get any modicum of joy from it but alas #also I have absolutely zero time and mental availability to add yet another hobby but #I am a weak kindawoman #womanish even #I really really should be writing my essay due tomorrow but urgggggggg #I chugged a monster and I’d rather not waste that ~2$ self medication and not be productive but #silly little gay app and gay ideas and gay little people whomst I want to put in jars and protect but also emotionally torment bc I’m secr #secretly evil but not really but yes really #okokok instead I will put [historical figure] in a jar and absolutely dickride his writing despite the fact that he’s a misogynist bc #all the good he’s done outweighs the bad atp and this is literally the best piece of persuasive writing ever in the history of ever and mayb #maybe he deserves a little dickriding #as a treat #how the actual fuck did this tangent end here #oh well #shutupbeth

[the-wiggles]

#not sure why but I assumed everyone would be on my brainwave and was shocked to discover that only 3% chose Marlene #but like maybe I’m just a gay little bitch but #I fully believe that Marlenes death was a turning point in the fate of most of the others #and this is all personal opinion and headcanon but #but it’s a domino’s situation #Marlene’s death directly leads to Dorcas’ death #I believe that Marlene dying helped Peters turncoat stay hidden #the statistical odds of the whole secret keeper debaucle would be less likely for betrayal with dorlene being alive #like they do would’ve been candidates for being secret keeper #so that covers James and lily #and if the switch still happened and peters betrayal went through #there’s no way Marlene would immediately accept that Sirius was the betrayer #in canon Remus is really the only one left to deal with the aftermath and clearly all the angst and relationship fallout and whatnot #would impact his confidence in doubting what’s being said about Sirius because of how much things are wrapped up in both suspecting the othe #but Marlene would’ve been able to evaluate and doubt and seek closure/ want the truth #so she’d wanna talk w Sirius and voilà hed have someone fighting his case and boy oh boy do I fear for any and all standing in marlenes way #obviously this doesn’t truly cover everyone on this list but I truly think her death was a huge turning point in the rest of the #first war casualties and such #anyways I’m supposed to be writing a rhetorical analysis essay but here we are

[the-wiggles]

S: "Silver wolf"

R: "Old dog"

They get older every time I draw them but they deserved to grow old together. Wolfstar the age they should be now, in their mid 60s

(Stg no one mention tlou like on insta 💀)

#please tattoo this onto my eyeballs #I want to look at it forever

[the-wiggles]

Quick little Marlene for youse :)

#mmmmmmmmmmmm #women

[the-wiggles]

young minerva

#oh lord #I am #feeling things #I have been looking at this for 5 uninterrupted minutes #I really need to figure out why I’m so attracted to older women bc what the hell #anyways #foaming at the mouth #marry me #COLLARBONES

[the-wiggles]

cowboy remus lupin.

art by me!! @lunarparacosm on tt twt and ig

#yeah #he

[the-wiggles]

OH THANK FUCK ITS BACK

Ao3 crashing as I try to load the last chapter of the best thing I’ve read in weeks is frankly my last straw

#thank you ao3 #thank you universe #now I can sleep peacefully #also if you haven’t read it #among the gumtrees by wolfstargarden #is. so. damn. good. #read it read it read it #I want to give the author a kiss

[the-wiggles]

Ao3 crashing as I try to load the last chapter of the best thing I’ve read in weeks is frankly my last straw

#this week has been so shit #ao3 please #I need you #I wrote a paper today I earned a silly little bedtime story #bethisms #ao3 down

[the-wiggles]

"Lost with you, in you, and without you. If I am anything, I am yours."

#asdfghjhgfdsdfgh #i love #them #*passes away*

[the-wiggles]

Did I just waste TWO ENTIRE HOURS finding canon loopholes to let regulus be stupid

#oopsie #I have .. regrets. #where did we truly get the assumption that he’s smart #like I know where but also wouldn’t it just be so funny #and it would just piss the shit out of walburga #getting stuck with an heir-head #ba dum tsh #on that note it’s definitely 3am

[the-wiggles]

What if I jarjar binksify regulus black what then

#prev tags continued bc I ran out #I’ve noticed that in throwing around the word himbo in this fandom that we typically give this role to #characters of color and plus sized characters #which I find really disappointing and negligent #so I was thinking #how to satiate the need for himbo but in the most unexpected place #and this is where I ended up #I did not realize I could have so many thoughts about such a silly idea but oops #marauders #marauders era #regulus black #regulus arcturus black #jar jar binks #star wars #clone wars #potential crackfic?

[the-wiggles]

What if I jarjar binksify regulus black what then

#ok hear me out so #imagine regulus being stupid #like so so stupid #but also weirdly lucky #like in canon we really only know like three things about this man #we know that he was in slugclub but like he could’ve just fucked shit up good enough to make excellent potion after excellent potion #not to mention that slughorn couldn’t resist collecting the new black heir #we also know that he loved kreacher beyond reason and also regardless of familial beliefs and treatment of house elves #that is so jarjar #kreacher probably saved this poor kids life mildly once and our little idiot went well I guess I love you forever and ever #lastly we know he was a disillusioned deatheater #so imagine our little guy just sort of #goes along #with what his family expects and what his friends are doing #but he just keeps accidentally finding out shit that does not sit right #which leads him to the locket etc #and his luck runs out #UNLESS #mans survived but just got mega lost afterwards #like imagine this idiot escapes barely via botched apparition #and he’s flat out dumb plus concussed plus he has actually no idea where he ended up #so he just #makes a life wherever that little dummy ends up #presumed dead by all in his past #people who deadass knew him and knew how stupid he was have all these theories #that maybe he was secretly an evil genius and Voldemort felt threatened after he gained too much power #ring any bells? #can we please binksify him #I do truly love the current characterizations of regulus but #can you fucking imagine

[the-wiggles]

sometimes I have these ideas that are too big to stay in my head but also im so scared that if I put the effort in and wrote them that nothing would see them but the abyss

#for context I hate writing #but lately I have been consumed with the urge #I have so many fully fleshed ideas #but I would die without validation #im also insanely fucked up in the brain and #everything I do HAS to benefit other people or I can’t do it #it’s so unhealthy that I can’t do things just for me but no therapist has ever offered any solution #ANYWAYS #I think I will hold onto my ideas until I find a way to hate them #writing

[the-wiggles]

Adding one Bartimus Crouch Jr to this list

If you told me a year ago that I’d be crying over the death of Evan rosier, I wouldn’t have believed it but here we are

#i just finished chapter 67 #umm #i don’t think I’ll be okay again #i can’t be snotty crying in the dorms like this 😭😭 #one of my roommates started sleep talking while I was reading and I nearly pissed myself #the worst part is #i knew #i knew that they were gonna die #the minute I realized Marlene was never getting a pov I knew she’d die #and I don’t think I will ever recover #all of it hurts #can’t wait to start my semester off tomorrow 🙃 #crimson rivers #marauders #marauders era #barty crouch jr #i really did love barty btw #reading 66 and 67 back to back let me forget a little bit in favor of other pain but #he was so everything he needed to be #and just because my tears got diverted does not take away from the fact that there were tears #oh barty #how did we get from canon to here #why does it hurt more to love you than to hate you

[the-wiggles]

marauders girlies on tiktok be like “we need a name for the marauders era ladies” and then every suggestion is just

#if you know you know #i am not trying to be mean but every single idea I’ve seen is just. i hate it #if we are going to call them anything then we should call them My Wives #marauders #marauders era #marauders girls #lily evans #mary macdonald #marlene mckinnon #dorcas meadowes #alice fortescue #emmeline vance #pretty poisons #riverdale #marauders tiktok