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valeries1ventacc · 1 year

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I need to stop eating. I need to stop eating. I need to stop eating. I need to stop eating. I need to stop eating. I need to stop eating. I need to stop eating. I need to stop eating. I need to stop eating. I need to stop eating. I need to stop eating. I need to stop eating. I need to stop eating. I need to stop eating. I need to stop eating.

#tw ed relapse #tw ana diary #ana stuff #anorexies #anorex14 #rexie #tw ana relapse #tw eating issues #tw ed in the tags

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valeries1ventacc · 1 year

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miss little cant leave toxic people

#self mutalition #tw s3lf harm #tw self destruction #personal vent #self h@rm #self mutilator #vent #cw vent #selfharn #sewer slide #toxic #toxic relationship

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valeries1ventacc · 1 year

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So i used to write to cope with $h urges, and i finally got rid of my writers block :)

TW-$H, MASKING?

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As I traced the blade across my skin, a trail of blood followed, slowly running between my thighs. It felt as though it was my only escape from my thoughts, a short feeling of relief in knowing I could forget about my problems. I would do anything to escape the suffocation of my thoughts. To be able to ignore my anger, my sadness, my fear. I would sacrifice my innocence, my flesh and blood. I would carve my own skin to be happy. To escape the living hell I existed in.

For a while, I sat on the bathroom floor, thinking about how nobody would know if I slit my wrists, if I cut my entire body. Not a single person in the world knew me enough to realise I wasn’t okay. Not my family, definitely not the people who called themselves my friends. The person who they liked was a better version of me. A mask hiding all of my damage.

I wondered if anyone would even miss me if I was gone. Would they notice my absence? Would they remember the girl who always tried to make everyone laugh but couldn’t stop crying when she was alone? Would they remember the girl who wore long sleeves in the summer or had scars on her legs? The one who always said she was fine but was drowning on the inside? I doubted it.

#self mutalition #tw s3lf harm #tw self destruction #personal vent #self h@rm #self mutilator #vent #cw vent #selfharn #sewer slide #ventcore #sh vent #spoilers

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valeries1ventacc · 1 year

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i didn’t ever recover i just said i did <3

#cvtt1ng #self mutalition #tw s3lf harm #tw self destruction #personal vent #self h@rm #self mutilator #vent #cw vent #selfharn #sewer slide #sewercide #may be triggering #triggering themes #tw #ed but not sheeran #tw ana diary #tw ed diet #tw cvtting

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valeries1ventacc · 1 year

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i hate forced recovery.

#personal vent #self mutalition #self mutilator #tw self destruction #vent #tw s3lf harm #cw vent #self h@rm #selfharn #sewer slide #sewercide #may be triggering #triggering themes #tw #ed but not sheeran #tw ana diary #tw ed diet

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valeries1ventacc · 1 year

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back to the “blade in my phone case” era

#self mutalition #sh thoughts #sh vent #tw cvtting #tw self destruction #tw sh relapse #self h@rm #sh tumblr #tw s3lf harm #tw self destructive behavior

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valeries1ventacc · 1 year

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“$H is bad for you!!”

damn bitch i didnt notice😱😱

#self mutalition #tw s3lf harm #tw self destruction #personal vent #self h@rm #self mutilator #vent #cw vent #selfharn #sewer slide

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valeries1ventacc · 1 year

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i think its the scars fading that makes it even worse. i dont feel valid and then im back at it relapsing again. i want to get better but whats the point if my experience is invalidated because i have no scars?

#personal vent #self mutalition #self mutilator #tw self destruction #vent #tw s3lf harm #cw vent #self h@rm #selfharn #sewer slide #sewercide #may be triggering #triggering themes #tw

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valeries1ventacc · 1 year

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i said i'd get clean for you

i said i'd do better for you

i'm sorry i was too weak to do it

the pain was just too much

and it felt so good to take it out on myself

#sh cw #shblr #shtumblr #tw s3lf harm #s3lfh4rm #s3lf harn #self h@rm #tw cvtting #cvtt1ng #cvtting board

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valeries1ventacc · 1 year