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xseekingsaturnx · 2 months

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on this episode of what’s keeping me up at night:

do you think lloyd developed his own music taste eventually? or is it just…. a bizarre mashup of all the ninja’s tastes? with the occasional meditation music cd?

#the big questions #is he indie ukulele #or death metal #i must know #ninjago #ninjago lloyd #lloyd garmadon #lego ninjago

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xseekingsaturnx · 3 months

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the ninja and their various traumas: a headcanon(?)

jk some of these are def canon

kai!

shouldered far too many responsibilities after the disappearance of his parents

from this stemmed a Phat Ego & deeply ingrained need to prove himself…

…and fiercely protect everything & everyone he cares about because he trusts precious few people and as a child he felt like everything could fall apart at any second

is constantly fighting against impulses that would drag him into darkness if he followed them

nya!

permanently rooted fear that she’s an inconvenience AKA fear of abandonment

mad social anxiety bc homegirl was not in school like she should’ve been

anger issues bc childhood was so unstable & she finds anger easier to comprehend than fear

fear of failure bc what if she looks stupid and what if she’s in her brother’s shadow forever and what if she’s not good enough (see: fear of abandonment)

died one time and no one remembers but her and jay

jay!

anxiety in every shape and size and color

insecurity that he’s “too much” from years of being called loud & annoying by peers

history of investing too much of himself into things and people/hyperfixating bc he only knows how to love & feel with every cell in his body and he’s constantly terrified of overwhelming people

and this doesn’t come in til later but the revelation he was ADOPTED?? he & nya are “fear of abandonment” twins now

watched nya die one time and no one remembers except her

cole!

loss of his mother AKA the softer presence in his life; unrealistic expectations from his dad and constantly facing lou’s disappointment

shitty coping mechanisms. would rather physically over-exert himself than process his feelings. also a stress eater

under a lot of pressure and often behaves too mature for his age bc he’s afraid everything will collapse if he doesn’t hold it together

is competing w kai for mom of the group bc he feels immeasurable responsibility for everyone he cares about

zane!

literally is a robot

and found out he is a robot after years of having LOST HIS MEMORY

always a little nervous he is going to annoy someone/offend someone/further alienate himself (fear! of! abandonment!)

on that note: afraid he will never understand the human experience and will always be lacking in some important quality or ability to connect with others

exploded and was rebuilt and had to regain his memories

lloyd!

actually invented the fear of abandonment.

severe mommy & daddy issues. like “severe” doesn’t even BEGIN to cover it

quite literally grew up too fast

keeps finding out his lineage contains more weird mystical components and is fighting off identity crises with a broken broom

was possessed

and that’s just the tip of the iceberg, feel free to add to it. there’s also PTSD across the board & various deaths/near-deaths & FSM knows what else.

#its 2 in the morning #i was bored #ninjago #lego ninjago #ninjago jay #ninjago zane #ninjago cole #ninjago lloyd #ninjago kai #ninjago nya #hc #headcanon #trauma

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xseekingsaturnx · 4 months

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anyone else start getting shaky when someone gets into an interest of yours or is that just me

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xseekingsaturnx · 4 months

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i headcanon that nya and kai’s relationship is actually a lot more complicated than it looks, because she views him as an older brother PLUS a parental figure PLUS a friend. because growing up, he was all of those things to her. and simultaneously, he views her as a younger sister and something of a daughter.

they were so busy being EVERYONE for each other that, by their teen years, their dynamic is so tangled and confused. when they go live with the other ninja, nya and kai have to relearn each other and unravel all this overlapping emotion.

this, in my humble opinion, would explain why they’re usually pretty soft with each other. they bicker like siblings but he looks out for her like a dad would, and she looks to him for approval like a daughter would. and at the same time, they’re so close that they usually don’t even realize how synced up they are.

idk. just my thoughts, it’s an interesting thing to explore! i’ve been doing my best in my fanfic, which you can read here if you so choose !

#ninjago #lego ninjago #kai ninjago #nya ninjago #smith siblings #myfic

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xseekingsaturnx · 4 months

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new chapter!

i live!!! new chapter of my ninjago fic is up, it's so much fluff. like i think around 8000 words of fluff??? and christmas nonsense. go run hurry run now go

(and if you haven't read the rest yet, wyd? indulge)

#ninjago #myfic #lego ninjago #nya ninjago #kai ninjago #fanfic

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xseekingsaturnx · 4 months

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one of my favorite things about nya is that while she was hiding her samurai x identity from the ninja, she would actively alert them to a situation with the serpentine, gasping and alarmed...

only to then intentionally BEAT the ninja to the scene and deal with it herself. and then laugh at them, like "haha pathetic puny losers."

she is so mean for that and i love her.

#my brother is rewatching ninjago #from start to finish #like on the old dvds #as he should #and im joining him duh #ninjago #nya #ninjago nya #nya ninjago #samurai x

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xseekingsaturnx · 8 months

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slipping through my fingers

A study of "I love you"/"I know" that I found in my drafts. Enjoy, all who are interested. Han Solo/Leia Organa

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Somehow she’d always known they were running on borrowed time, precarious moments all loosely strung together by the will of luck.

Or—by the will of the Force. She doesn’t know which. The two most prominent men in her life have such divided perspectives concerning how things come to be. Personally, Leia’s never quite believed in luck. And the Force is a little out of her element. Bygones, she supposes.

But if either happens to exist, Leia prays one will intervene. Now would be the time.

Please.

Leia curses herself for not knowing, not realizing sooner. She curses this star-forsaken gas mine and Lando Calrissian’s crackling audacity. Most of all, though, Leia curses the name of Darth Vader. So help her, she has half a mind to go tearing at him full force, screams rattling her throat.

But Leia knows better than that. It would only worsen matters. Not that things could get much worse, but she’s not in any mood to risk jinxing the situation.

Not when Han’s life is on the line.

“Nothing to worry about,” he’d said, upon their landing in this traitorous sky metropolis. “Trust me.”

She’d trusted Han, truly. Really, she had. It was Lando who triggered her suspicions and it was Lando who betrayed them. Leia should’ve trusted herself, when have her instincts ever led her astray?

Now the love of her life is being ripped from her white-knuckled grasp and Luke is most assuredly on his way, moments from tumbling into this mess, just as Vader intended. It’s a disaster, it’s a catastrophe, it all could’ve been avoided if only she—

Leia’s mind is racing faster than Coruscant traffic, there’s so much static between her ears that she hardly notices Chewbacca’s raging tantrum or Threepio’s panicked shouting. She’s lightyears away, she may as well be back in that revolting slug’s throat, that’s how utterly useless she is—

Han’s gaze locks with hers, green and brown mingling, expressions tight with sorrow and suddenly Leia is rendered immobile. The most basic of functions now sit just out of reach. Breath hanging idly in her lungs, heart resting motionless in her ribcage. For one electrifying beat they are a portrait, etched in the shattered passage of time.

The next double-crossing second sends time barreling onward once more and in a desperate instance of impulse, Leia is grabbing his shirt and Han is crashing into her and they’re tangled together in a kiss born of a nebula.

They’re breathing each other’s air, starved of this closeness, passion rushing through fingertips and fingers brushing through hair and all Leia wants is this. This this this, this forever, until the end of time itself.

And just as suddenly, Han is pulled away, brute force dragging him farther from her arms, farther from her lips, farther from her, and Leia has never known a pain like this.

That pain—that hollow, yawning cavern spreading through her chest—is what drives her to the words.

Words she’s never said, words that were always reserved for family, words so powerful that perhaps Leia’s gripping some obscure hope that they might reconcile this tragedy.

The words leap from her mouth.

“I love you!”

They explode, echoing across the chamber, dancing their way to Han’s awareness and she sees the way his eyes flood with something cosmic.

“I know.”

He knows.

He knows he knows he knows—

That smart-mouthed son of a bantha, of course he knows, he’s known all along but she’s too late, too late, and the platform is lowering and Han is disappearing and—stars, if the circumstances weren’t so bone-achingly grievous, she might actually laugh.

He knows.

That information isn't much but it’s enough, it’s enough to fill the chasm, it’s enough to soften the sharp-edged agony coursing through the tunnels of her veins. Twin tears streak down both cheeks and she doesn’t even care, she doesn’t care about her reputation or her image or anything.

With a final inkling of self-preservation, Leia turns away, burying her face in Chewbacca’s fur coat because she can’t watch anymore. Everyone has limits. She should’ve reached hers years ago. It’s nothing short of miraculous that her knees have the strength to keep her standing, the cold, durasteel floor has never looked so enticing.

Threepio is rambling on, robotic anxiety rolling from his speakers. Leia hopes Lando feels this anguish, she hopes he’ll remember it for the rest of his back-stabbing, rotten existence in this merciless galaxy. She hopes the torment of guilt will haunt his sleepless nights, she hopes it’s unbearable.

And when the steaming slab of carbonite is lifted from within, Leia’s eyes have a mind of their own and she risks a treacherous glance.

There he is. Her whole heart, frozen in a contortion of dismay. Stuck there. Trapped there. She wonders if he felt it. She wonders if he was afraid.

She shouldn’t have looked.

Vader’s imperious rumble cuts through the air, “Well, Calrissian? Did he survive?”

A question, reminding her how dire these circumstances really are, reminding her he might not have survived—

Leia’s stomach lurches with anticipation and she’s seconds away from another spiral, but then Lando chimes in.

“Yes, he’s alive. And in perfect hibernation.”

Relief. Alleviation rushing across sweat-soaked skin, premature consolation spreading like the sunlight of daybreak. He’s alive. Han is alive. And despite the trials she knows are about to bend her in half, Leia feels oddly renewed. Love has finally found her. She sure as hell isn’t about to let it slip through her fingers.

#starwars #han solo #leia organa #princess leia #empire strikes back #fanfic #myfic #romance #wrote this two years ago i think #whoops

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xseekingsaturnx · 10 months

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I saw that there’s a few more chapters on wattpad, are nya’s lights gonna get destroyed when the momentary burns down?? ☹️😭

i think so, unfortunately 😭 i don’t think much survives the fire

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xseekingsaturnx · 10 months

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Just binged your nya fic on ao3 and omg it’s literally the best thing in the world

Take your time and I hope you enjoy writing it as much as I enjoy reading it !!!

omg hey !!! thank u thank u, im in the process of touching up some of the earlier chapters and then i have new ones coming :D i appreciate u!