#like its a sunday. but it did go through so i wont worry about it

[sol-flo]

um. ok. got my first hrt appointment tomorrow morning :3

#i was just browsing the calendar to get a feel for the availability #and there was one literally tomorrow 9am. it's quite affordable. plenty of good reviews. it's remote. #there's a place for blood testing nearby too so it's a quick uber away #or i could maybe even ask a friend to take me there so i dont have to go alone #the one thing im kinda nervous about is if i scheduled in too short a notice? #like its a sunday. but it did go through so i wont worry about it #the second worry is of course about the blood test but that's the cart in front of the horses #like. my blood is fine i last got a test last year. but well. 'mom im heading out to get a blood test' 'why?'. yknow #i am however home alone until tuesday or maybe wednesday so thats my window #otherwise my hand will be forced. but! cart! horses! #maybe the doctor looks at my face and says 'wow whatever you say gorgeous here's your prescription' #that's professionally irresponsible or whatever though. shouldn't be #make that shit otc right now

[meg-bone]

Humphrey bone one shots [scenarios]

a/n hey guys sorry if its not to great this is my first attempt at writing anything like this, just wanted to get it out there because of all the new Humphrey content in season 5, please critique me! no beta read we die like Julian here.

friendship scenarios:

living friend scenarios :

when Humphrey was alive, he was pretty alone in the aspect of friends, the same went down in the afterlife, so when he round out that you could see ghosts he didn't expect much. just for you to ignore him like everyone else does and to get on with the rest of the ghosts. but when you started speaking to him, he was pleasantly surprised. at first he was a little awkward as he usually is but eventually when he got used to you he started opening up, telling you about his marriage and how he felt like everyone would ignore him all the time.

he really enjoys hearing about your traveling experiences and your school days, considering he had near to no experience of travel from when he was younger.

he LOVES to have some company wherever he is, usually when you two would beet and you would find his head on the floor of on the stairs, you'd lie down with him and you could talk to one another for hours.

dead friend scenarios:

when you first died, in all honesty he was quire annoyed, it meant that he would have to another person blatantly ignoring him. he didn't know much about you or your time at the house because of his 'immobility'. you were typically quite antisocial so when you did die, you were quickly scared by the other people in the house, you found comfort in Humphrey as he was the only one who didn't scare you in all honest, all robin would do is yell and Annie and Mary were pretty close friends already, it felt like Sunday school where everyone already had friends leaving you all alone. so when you found out that Humphrey was in the same situation as you, you quickly became good friends, though you had barely anything in common, you enjoyed speaking to him and listening to his stories, he really appreciated someone that was willing to chase down his body for him and carry his head around with you. it made him feel more involved rather than just 'gathering dust on a shelf'

though he did always worry about you passing on, he wouldn't know what to do with himself considering all of the other ghosts just passed him around [literally], so when Annie passed on it really made him realise how great full he was to have you as a friend

romantic scenarios:

I wont be doing any living head canons ATM but feel free to request if you like :)

you two had been friends for what one could consider a life time, or a deathtime. you had both bonded over you situations and your lack of other options, you found comfort in Humphrey, he as much nicer than any of the other ghosts you had ever met. you never had an official ' first date' and in he best way to describe it, it just kind of happened. there was never an official word. but one day both his head and his body agreed that the one thing they both agreed on would be you. though the remained separate on certain occasions, they finally began to work together over time. Humphrey was always very affectionate towards you, even when you were just friends, but now that he and his body agreed, hugs were one of his favourite thing, literally almost every other second he wanted a hug, or just just genuinely be close to one another and considering his lack of romantic affection in his life, he wasn't going to miss out in his death.

he adores for you to comb your hands through his hair and caress his face, this was also one of your favourites as it could be carried out when him and his body are disagreeing, initially you would watch a film with his head in your lap, finding your hands wandering to run through his hair as if they had a mind of their own. though when you found that he didn't mind you made a habit of it, combing his hair with your nails into a specific neat style considering how messy it got sometimes.

warning! mild nsfw content below the line (this is assuming that ghosts can indeed, have sex.) i wont go into detail just a little taste, feel free to request more on this behalf again ill do a sep story

when both of you had started dating, you didn't really think about sex being something that would get brought up considering your lack of living-ness. though with Julian's habits with the plague ghosts you both became very aware of the possibilities to say the least. it took years of awkwardness around the topic for it to get brought up. both of you had grown up in very private lives and sex outside of marriage was never something you would think of. though eventually you became curious about what it would be like, both of you being dead and all. and then it became all you could think of, how his hands would feel, the whole detachable head brought a wide range of filthy ideas into your head, fannys book reading gave you a bit of inspiration for that. Humphrey took longer to warm up to the idea than you did, him being married in his past life that is. though eventually his 'primal urges, would take over and he'd cave in to your desires. he was a major people pleaser. doing whatever you would like him to on command. he wouldn't even touch himself without your word.

#bbc ghosts #humphrey bone #Humphrey bone x reader #reader #headcanon #x reader #drabble #senarios #smut #fluff #friendship #captain bbc ghosts #julian bbc ghosts #pat bbc ghosts #fanny bbc ghosts #kitty bbc ghosts #thomas bbc ghosts #robin bbc ghosts #alison cooper #mike cooper

[thigh-o-saur]

May God Bless Us All.

yandere priest is a man who is manipulative but you wouldn't know because he claims that he has no greed and that his life is gods (I think we know that's not true tho)

yandere priest who loves seeing your face every sunday and always making the sessions just a tad bit longer for the people just so he can stare at your cute little face.

yandere priest who feeds you the holy bread and always manages to accidently brushes against your lips and when everyone leaves he sits there staring at his finger which brushed your lip and brings it to his lips to kiss it imagining its you.

yandere priest who doesn't feel guilty at all for having those feelings for you as he now knows what he always wanted.You.

yandere priest who will use his power to his advantage and persuade you to spend some more time with him and to talk about your worries. This now happens after every session at church.

yandere priest who listens to your worries with such a thoughtful face that no one can ever imagine him thinking of such evil things like kidnapping you so he can have you just for him. Of curse he wouldn't do that! You are his beloved person. His trusty friend. His person. All his...

Yandere priest who will most likely masturbate into his hand at the thought of you. And when you touched him (Actually just patted his shoulder) he believed he was sent to heaven right then and there. Oh the things you do to him~

yandere priest who would love to take you all to himself but will restrain for a tad longer so you can depend on him more and slowly forget your life with others. Afterall, he didn't put that much effort of buy and and adding sleeping powder into your drink just for it to go to waste.

Yandere priest who will internally shriek in happiness when you finally agree to lean on his shoulder thanks to the hard work of the sleeping powder doing its job inside your cute little body. Who would believe that the yandere priest offered his shoulder because of other purposes? Well certainty not naive little you.

yandere priest who will gently take your head and lay it in his lap as you doze of. His soft plump lap that is so nice and warm, nicely comforting your head as you fly off to dreamworld.

yandere priest who will take this time to snatch your phone and look through your contacts and emails and messages and photos and and and... well everything just to send everything to his phone and delete some unnecessary contacts.

Soon his precious little bird wont need their wings. After All they have him. He can be everything you have ever wanted, just give him a chance. And if you don't? Well. He did try asking first but your making this hard. But don't worry his basement is nice and comfy for you already. Ok?

#yander #priest #church #obsession

[e17omm]

Interesting. Welp, lots of thoughts about HSR 2.2 below.

Lots of thoughts so Ill start with a checklist.

Firefly: good so far. It doesnt seem like she hates her life being trapped in the SAM suit, and thats good. I was worried they were going to make her despise having to be Sam. Seems that she can survive for a while without the suit, which I find fine.

Now as long as they make her fight AS Sam and they wont really have screwed up anything with her. Not everyone needs to have superpowers. Let Firefly's powers come through Sam. She'll be a really unique character that way. Seriously, who else fights using a mechanical body armor like an anime Iron Man in a Hoyoverse game? I'd have no issues with Firefly then.

Well, except one thing, but I'll get to that later.

Now, the fucking plot twist? Holy shit. This really went from "that was kinda anticlimactic. We really went from "we do the cool thing" to "someone else does the cool thing" to "we pass out before we see the cool thing" like, really? Everythings solved and we're already ready to leave? We get on the train, have a chat with everyone, vote on where to go. And (presses hands together in front of my mouth) holy fucking shit.

My one issue is that I wish they actually ended the 2.2 story after the plot twist reveal. Of all the "cliffhangers" and "plot twists" they have tried to do, THIS WAS THE SPOT TO DO IT. THIS WAS IT. This was HUGE. Its in the third Penacony mission, so it would have avoided that thing with "oh yeah you totally wiped out the Herrscher of Dominance halfway through the second chapter" thing. Like, this is the end. We're done. We won and are leaving. In the 3rd story mission. This was THE moment to reveal the plot twist, just barely start it to not leave everyone confused, and then end it and save it for a 4th story mission in 2.3

But it was way too short. It was way too easy to just, get all the crucial pieces and solve the puzzle. We started Act 3 of the story and it only lasted like 20 minutes. It really could have done with SOME difficulty in getting all the important pieces to solve everything.

But we just learn about the plot twist, everyone important groups up, and we fight the final boss. Just like that.

Next on the list, Acheron! Or should I say, Raiden Mei? When that shadow asked for her name, I was PRAYING that Hoyo knew what they were doing, and they did! They didnt skimp out on it! Didnt go the whole "I have lost my memory of it" which would have been such a cop-out. But nope! They did it!

And the Honkai music? Fuck I had chills. And this is pure nostalgia of the best parts of HI3. Those parts were so good that you remember the music and the feelings you had with those notes.

I cant remember much of the music at the later stages of HI3. The story just hasnt grabbed me like chapters 5 to 25 did. (Hoyo should take notes of their own work, ngl)

Now... onto "Death"

"Death" might be the WORST character design I have ever seen. Not from the looks, but from their role in the story and how Hoyo uses it.

A shady character shows up, pulls out a gun, and shoots another character in the head. And later you tell me that that wasnt actually a murder? Bullshit. Get that garbage out of here.

And you know the worst part? ONE SCENE is what ruined "Death" for me.

Firefly's "Death" scene. Delete it. It ruins so much. She is the only one we see "Death" "killing". Why. She's not dead. Why did you show that "Death" "kills" like that? Who sat down and wrote that part? Literally just make us not see this scene and heavily imply that it killed her like they implied that "Death" killed everyone else and this would've been fine!

I can buy that Robin and Sunday are alive because we see neither of them dying. Robin is off-screen and Sunday is hidden from the camera.

But we saw a death when it killed Firefly.

Next time someone is shot in the head on screen I will be expecting it to be an imposter, a stunt actor, an illision, or WHATEVER ELSE. BECAUSE EVEN WHEN THEY SHOW DEATH THEY CHICKEN OUT. AND ALL THIS WOULD HAVE BEEN AVOIDED IF FIREFLY'S TRACES DISAPPEARED RIGHT BEFORE WE COULD SEE HER. WE COULD EVEN SEE "DEATH" SNEAKING AWAY AS WE ENTER THE ROOM. BUT DONT SHOW THE DEED BEING DONE.

...

Onto the final boss. ... Its... I mean, the boss fight is neat. Um, not sure if Hoyo now thinks that "big thing is intimidating" but this boss was just kinda, eh.

We've already defeated two big things with Cocolia's (now our) mecha, and then Phantylia. And now this sympthony thing.

Uh, Hoyo does know that big doesnt immediately equal "intimidating" or "scary" or "impressive", right? I just wanna be sure. Because this boss is none of that.

Uh the music also get a bit too pop-star-y? Its not bad, I just feel like it goes against the tone of what the story wanted this moment to feel like.

I also wish that Acheron actually did something to help in the end. She kinda just "eh well you can fight now. Me? Byeeeee~" I know that she had a glory moment in 2.1, but like, come on. Sunday just gives up fighting because we told him that people dream in order to wake up. Which doesnt sound philosophical enough to me to make Sunday have a freaking reality check and fall from the platform in shock and defeat.

Hoyo has really been trying to make so much of their stories in the Honkaiverse have a higher meaning and be a matter on philosophy, and then they keep asking why birds fly and I am so fucking tired of it.

Like, this is all they got and its not even a joke.

So, yeah. I kinda really wanted IX to show up and just, consume Penacony. That would've been cool and been decently foreshadowed. Could have had everyone go numb or like, whatever happens to us when we get close to IX in the Simulated Universe, and then have most people try to scramble to the ships to gtfo, and then have IX appear and consume the place.

But as long as we head to the Edo Star next, I'll be happy.

A place under attack by the Antimatter Legion and their distress signal recently went out? Send me there. Right now. Not even a question. I want to see the Antimatter Legion actually live up to what everyone has said about them. Dont fucking bait me on this Hoyo.

Oh yeah, another thing before I finish this!

Where are our ability to hear Stellarons? Did Hoyo forget that we can hear the voice of Stellarons? That is like, one of the most interesting parts about the Trailblazer!

Imagine a world where we get to Penacony in 2.0, and everything's fine and the same as it was. Except... we can hear the voice of a Stellaron. But, there's no signs of it. There's no Fragmentums. There's no sign of it at all. But we keep hearing its voice.

It could have slowly told us the story of Penacony over the course of these three patches so that we didn't have to get a history lesson before the climax of the story.

It would have easily added some mystery and questions while basically requiring no changes to the current story. Is there a Stellaron on Penacony, or are WE the only Stellaron on Penacony?

Speaking of the Stellaron inside of us... It has barely mattered after Belobog...

Hoyo... This should be a big deal throughout the story. Herta is shocked that a human body can host a Stellaron. We can hear the voices of other Stellarons. We could go nuclear if it goes out of control. Why has it not really mattered after Belobog? Hoyo, this isnt something you should just wave off like you have been doing with the Traveler's ability to wield 5 of the 7 elements. Dont make the same mistake twice.

This is dragging out, but I just keep remembering more things!

Hoyo, please dont tell me that you are unable to make long-term stories anymore. Everything has been self-contained recently. And sure, you've TRIED to make it feel like it has a larger impact, but in the end it always hasnt.

HI3 Part 1.5? It MIGHT be important later. I dunno if Vita has any importance at all to part 2 so far. All the regions in GI are basically self contained. You could take Mondstadt Traveler and toss them straight into Fontaine and you would basically not have to change them at all. All of HSR has also been rather self-contained. Happy that Dan didnt actually call the Luofu, that would have just made this all seem even more miniscule and also extremely convenient.

But... Remember when Himeko fucking died and the next 16 chapters was the fallout of that? Remember when we could have big story moments that still mattered for more than 3 months of real time?

Penacony's story is over, and I dont think that anything that happened here will have any impact on the next destination. Did we even actually pick up any new crewmembers?! Please tell me that the cowboy and Black Swan actually joins us for a while. You Chekhov's Gun'd it all the way back in Belobog!

So in short. I liked Penacony act 2 and 3 a lot. Not close to anything in HI3 chapters 5 to 25, but it was good. Could have been a lot better with (imo) rather small changes.

Also wtf is up with Hoyo's budget allocations? They put so much budget into the filler generic battle part of act 3. That was so much effort put into just filler. What's up with that?

#honkai star rail #long post

[hysterical-response]

Tendou satori x fem. Reader

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Y/n is an artist in this

Description: fem.y/n and tendo celebrating their anniversary: fluff, slight angst

Warnings: none

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Tendou and y/n have been dating for almost 2 years now. Their anniversary was about a week away and both were excited for them having each cleared their schedules so that they can spend the whole day together.

Tendou was at practice while y/n was off to the side. Tho they were acting a bit different today. They where walking around the sides of the gym taking random pictures with a high quality camra the whole time. She had done this a few times befor through out the school year but her attitude seemed different this time

Practice soon came to an end and while tendou was picking up the net he took a quick look at his girlfriend only to see her and ushijima looking at the camra screen. She had a huge grin on her face while talking to him which made tendou feel kinda uneasy.

After y/n finished the conversation with ushijima they picked up the camra and rushed over to tendou in the supply closet giving him a big hug.

"You were so cool today baby" y/n said slightly pulling back from the hug to look up at her boyfriend.

"Awww you really think so. Thanks babe. Ummm...hay what were you and ushijima talking about just then?" He responded

"Ummm...well...just dont worry about that for now. OH hay do me a favor and dress kinda casual this Sunday please."

"Hmmmm. Ok babe I will " tebdou responded kinda upset that she wouldn't tell him about the conversation. She usually tells him everything. And I mean EVERYTHING, but he liked it that way. It reassure him that she was truthful and that she trusted him.

"Oh and I'm really really sorry but I wont be able to walk home with you today , I have something I need to go do. But I promise ill make it up to you later ok!"she said pulling him out of his thoughts.

"Its ok but I'll hold you up to making it up to me. " he said jokingly.

"Ok, I promise I will. I got to go I'll see you later love you baby" y/n said standing on her tippy toes to kiss his cheek then leaving the gym.

After that day y/n was acting really weird. She didn't go to practice with tendou like she always would and when she did show up she would only be there talking to ushijima then kiss tendou goodbye. She also talked to him less in class. Tendou was really worried. Why was y/n acting like this? Did he do something wrong?

The week had passed and it was not Saturday. So tendou dicided to call y/n and see if she wanted to hang out.

"Sorry baby I'm not feeling to well today maby another day, love you."she told him over the phone befor hanging up.

Having been left alone for the day he dicided to go out anyway. He went to some of the places he liked hanging out with his gf. While walking he passed by y/n's favorite art store and dicided to go in and buy something for her for their anniversary in two days. As he just finished checking out and was about to leave he spoted semi (one of his team members) look threw the paints.

Confused he walked up and asked his teammate what he was doing there.

"Oh, just picking something up for y/n so she can finish- I MEAN NOTHIG!" He exclaimed catching himself mid sentence.

Tendou raised an eyebrow at his sudden exclamation.

"Ok well bye then" tendou replied skeptically leaving the store. He was upset and confused. Y/n has always only asked HIM to bye more art supply's if she needed them. Not to mention if she was really sick like she told him this morning then why would she be painting.

He dicided to head home for the rest of the day.

***time skip to Sunday***

It was Sunday morning and their anniversary. Tendou was headed to y/n's house with flowers what he had bought yesterday and some chocolates.

As he was arriving at her house he saw her getting out of ushijima's car, and wave as he drove off. Tendou walked up and handed her her gifts kissing her on the cheek with an enthusiastic "Happy Anniversary my paradise"

He had decided to ignore what he had just seen and enjoy their day together.

"Awwwww happy anniversary baby! I'm so exited for today!" Y/n exclaimed.

"I'm glad to here" tendou said as y/n kissed him on his cheek. "Now go get ready I'm taking you out babe"

**time skip to after y/n is done getting ready**

Tendou new that to fancy of a place would make her uncomfortable so he took her to her favorite cafe for breakfast and them to the zoo for some fun.

After they left the zoo they headed back to her place for some alone cuddle time. Tendou was really enjoining the afternoon, or at least he would be if it wasn't for his girlfriends phone constantly going off.

After she checked it every time responding to the texts she gave him a kiss. When he asked who she was talking to and why, she just brushed him off obviously hiding something.

The last straw was when she had gotten a text that caused her to have a huge grin on her face as she replied. He quickly snatched her phone as she was going to put it down and healed it out of her reach.

"What the hell y/n? Who are you texting? Why is this so much more important than me? Did I do something wrong?  You've been avoiding me all week and lied about being sick yesterday! I saw semi at the art store and he said that you asked him to go there for you! You always ask me! Why was this time different? And you where with ushijima this morning! Are you cheating on me?" He yelled

Y/n sat there with wide eyes surprised at what he just told her. Furrowing her eyebrows she said "no oh god no baby I would never" she lowered his arm gently taking back her phone as she pulled him into a hug sighing "well it's not 7 yet but ushijima just told me that everything is ready so I guess we can go now." She said pulling him twords the door

It was a quiet walk to the park. Tendou was still upset but also really confused. He had no idea what was going on.

When they got there y/n lead him to a secluded part of the park where the whole team was waiting. Y/n had texted them earlier leting them know that they where coming earlier than planned.

"HAPPY ANNIVERSARY!" the whole team yelled suprising tendo as y/n ran to the side of a framed painting on a stead. Looking around he saw that this small part of the park was decorated with balloons and string lights with a table off to the side with a big cake and other foods.

Taking a closer look at the painting he saw that it was a picture of him and his team together in a frame made of resin filled with pictures of him having a good time with his team during practice. Even a few of them celebrating victories that had after they won a few turnornts.

"Do you like it?" Y/n asked nervously fitelign with her fingers as she looked up at him.

"I LOVE IT" he eaxclamed as he ran to pick her up hugging her and spinning her around while kissing her. "I couldnt have asked for anything  better" he said placing her down with a big smile on his face.

"I'm sorry I haven't been paying much attention to you this week I've just been working on and planning this all week so it would be perfect & on time for today to surprise you, the whole team was in on it. Me and ushijima where going around looking for a place to set up this morning for everyone to come and work on today. Thats why I was getting all those texts earlier, we were just making sure everything was perfect. And semi was picking stuff up for me to finish the painting yesterday."

"But I still dont understand why you just didnt ask me."

"Because you always ask to see what I'm working on and I cant say no to you cutie" she said giggling "happy anniversary tendou I love you"

"I love you too"

The rest of the night was spent with them parting and having fun. While the painting wound on the center of tendous wall for him to always look at and remember all the good times he had with his team and how much he loved his girlfriend and how much she loved him.

#tendou #satori tendou #tendou x y/n #tendou x reader #tendou fluff #tendou satori #haikyuu #haikyuu x reader #haikyuu headcanons #haikyuu x y/n #haikyuu scenario #haikyuu!! #haikyuu tendou satori #haikyuu tendou satori x reader

[indigo474]

Oct 15th- sunday funday

I've been nothing but tired and hungry all weekend. I've been sleeping really good and eating healthy food. lots of protein and veggies. i was tempted to order out tonight but decided against it. My body- oh my body.. I woke up with my back hurting.. and me being sore. i'm guessing from packing and picking up boxes and moving things here and there. i was thinking this must be how people feel when they complain about being/getting old. i did go for a run- it wasn't the best- my body just feels worn out. I got a lot done today... mostly everything is packed- i have a lot of clothes and a lot of shoes. too much- i think i will be unpacking forever.... I had to repack all of the old photo albums. i was able to skim through them without crying. i did get emotional when i found a picture of my Mom and Grandmom- ohh how i miss her. she was smiling big in the picture. thats the thing about pictures- they show the good times- the birthday parties and the holidays. everyone's happy and smiling.. how many nights did i sit in the front room scared to even move.. i would sit on the couch frozen waiting for him to go to bed so i could go in the kitchen and clean up from dinner. how great of a mom could i have been? I was there but not really there.. ahh and the more i'm able heal the more i realize how sick i was.. i just didnt know it.. and this is where self forgiveness come in.. the absolute hardest thing i have done and have to do is forgive myself-it's not something that is done once and move on.. oh no- it's just like everything else on this journey- the healing happens a little at a time.. it's a spiral.. things that would have floored me in the past.. no longer do. bit by bit- day by day.. i'm no longer clawing my way out of a black hole.. pain comes- pain goes.... sit with it, feel it, let it change you and let it go. weird i saw something today that i saw in a dream.. a procession of sorts.. i still don't know what i saw- in my dream i asked- what are they doing- who did i ask? I dont know, but i got an answer.. today i asked myself- i wonder what they are doing- very strange to me.. seeing something in my dreams and seeing it in real life. it's not the first time its happened. hopefully it wont be the last. its always odd- holy shit i dreamed this.. i fucking saw this in my dreams-it's normal in a sense because i'm seeing it for the 2nd time- and its happening.. but is it really normal? Someone said to me in casual conversation, yeah its like when birds fly into your car.. i didnt say anything at the time but i was like wow that happens to you to?? a few weeks later i asked her if she remembered saying that to me and she said yes it happens to me all the time.. i told her it happens to me too. I asked her if it was normal and she said she didn't know, i asked her if she thinks it happens to other people and she said she didnt know.. i told her i thought it only happened to me until she said it happens to her. she said weird stuff happens to her all the time.. me too, me too.

I cant believe this is really happening... i need to find someone that knows how do stuff. I need a new garbage disposal.. and a battery back up for the sump pump.. maybe i can do it by watching a few youtube videos. maddy is worried about money.. i am not. not yet anyway.. i dont want to worry... i want to enjoy this time in my life.. i want to enjoy my life period.. no worries.. just love .. its all going to workout.. all of it.. good things good things.. i have to believe in something.. i have to believe that what's ahead of me is much much better than that is behind me.. i haven't lived my best days yet. busy busy week..

[perksofbeingamaineiac]

November 24, 2022

I made it through the day. It still really hurts. Its only been 2 full days, 3 painful nights, and I wish I knew what he was thinking or doing. 

I tried to get out tonight and ended up zoning out. I didn’t know what was going on around me. I could only think about us. As I think back, I realize that anytime he was near my family he was never happy. Even when we went to the pumpkin patch. At dinner on Sunday he was also stone faced. I feel bad, and I wish he would have talked to me about it and we could have sorted it out. 

I also remembered that last week I jokingly asked him if he still liked me and he said “what kind of question is that? Of course I do”...liar. 

I can’t change the past, and neither can he. I do wish he told me sooner. Maybe I would have been over it by now instead of worrying about if I love him yet and figuring out I did. I also know if I were to talk to him and try and rationalize, it wouldn’t change the feelings or the lack there of that has already developed. 

I didn’t think I had any of his stuff, and then I realized I think I have some type of clothing of his, and his lifting belt. Which, he said he wanted back when we were at the gym on the weekend. I found it strange at the time, but it makes sense now. He went from please use it, I wont. To, I want it back. I feel stupid for not seeing the signs, or at least not addressing them. I don’t want to be bitter with him or anyone else in the future, but how will I know when I can trust that they just wont up and leave me. I don’t want to create a trauma, but I feel it boiling. The insecurity of not being enough is starting to boil to the surface. 

I just need to keep my mind busy until I am tired enough to fall asleep. I made plans for tomorrow, so I should be excited for that. I am not, I also can’t eat still. I tried to eat Mc Donalds fries and got so anxious and nauseous. They also felt like they were coming up after. I did kinda try, I just didn’t want to deal with the feelings of forcing it. 

Hopefully this weekend will be a good weekend and I can feel better. 

I am wondering how long he is going to take to message me. I also get scared he wont. At what point does my need for an answer trump his need for space? I want to give him his stuff back. I don’t want to think of him every time I use it. I already don’t even want to go to the gym. 

I want this pain to go away. 

[thatfuzzyfamiliarspace]

I had written like two paragraphs but I guess its just deleted them ? What did I even put, I cant remember.. 

I know I thought I;d have to put extra oomf in this week to stay happy and productive. Saturday was great and I loved it but now its over and there’s no more nights out to look forward to.. I have the spa day with Mal on saturday but thats just extra anx. She’s gonna re-install insta just to post pictures and she has everyone from school and their nan on there. If I dont feel like I look good I just wont look forward to the day because I’ll be worried about that. Everytime she posts me ppl from school request to follow me its just ugh coz I know they just wanna pree and stalk. 

Nonetheless, I still wanna try and get through this week without any hiccups. I just need to have faith that once J has his uni work sorted and he’s not tired from work he’ll reschedule the rewards we’ve missed. I dont wanna burn him out by doing too much. I want him to have his time to switch off at home too and play his games. I wish i could just sit on his bed and play my switch while he does that. I wouldnt wanna bother him, just be in his presence while we both do our own thing. I still wanna finish off the models Ive got too. Might spend sunday doing that. 

But for now. I just need to get through the rest of this day. Get gym done. Then it’ll be fine from there. I really dont wanna do kick boxing tomorrow but I cant get out of it. I enjoy it but now J says I’m spending too much idk what to do. Makes me feel bad for going. 

I’m glad he was happy with the duvet day yesterday. It was really nice. He really has spoilt me and treat me so well this past few days. Considering I was all moody Friday night and he had to come out to an event he didnt wanna go to all of saturday and he stayed so long ! I’m so proud of him for doing all of that. He stayed happy for most of it too. He really does do so much for me. 

[hans-alter-ego]

Tom Holland x Reader Smut

(Not my gif)

Summary: Its was Sunday, both you and Tom (along with Sam, Harry and Tuwaine) were invited to go round to Harrisons for a nice little lunch, the plan was to just have a few drinks outside as the weather was amazing, but Tom found your new lovely spring dress more than fitting and couldn’t keep his hands off of you.

Warnings⚠️: contains smut! Swearing, unprotected sex, alcohol, kinda public sex? Also kinda funny

Word Count: 1.4k

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                 Oh no, we heard 

“Right, who fancies a beer then?”

Harrison asked and all the boys answered with a cheer in unison. You shook your head and when Harrison had came back with a few beers he looked to you.

“Don’t you worry y/n, Tom told me to get some wine for you”

Harrison winked at you and went to go get you a class of wine. You looked to Tom and smiled

“Thank yooou”

“I got you babe”

Tom have you a kiss and Harrison came walking back with a glass of white wine a slightly over filled. You all toasted and soon the lunch was served. Harrison did a good job on supplying enough food for the boys, Harry, Sam and Tuwaine had completely devoured the food infront of them, Tom had moved from a few beers to his second glass of whiskey and coke and you had had atleast a whole bottle of white wine to yourself. You couldn’t help but notice how Tom looked at your every single time you stood up from your seat to get something. His hands always fiddled with the bottom of your dress as your stood up or sat down and sometimes he’d even move his hands upmyour thigh under the table

“Toommmyyy someones being touchy”

“Can’t help it baby, you look amazing”

His hand grabbed your thigh roughly and you had to hide a little gasp. Harry sat next to you and felt you fidget

“You alright?”

You pushed Tom’s hand away and a chuckle came from him

“Can’t wait to take that off you”

Tom whispered to you ever so lightly sending goosebumps to your skin

“Yep! Its a bit hot here right? Wooo yeah need to go get some ice”

Harry rasied an eyebrow at you and his eyes gazed to Tom. Tom kept quiet and tried to not laugh. You got up from your seat struggling because you were tipsy but went for it anyways.

“Haz you’ve got ice right? I need some cold cold water”

Harrison took a sip from his beer before answering

“I got a bag in the freezer, dont use the fridge machine one, its fucked”

You nodded and walked to the kitchen getting a cup from one of the cabinets. Before you could open the freezer to get some ice you felt hands go to your waist, you quickly turned around and came face to face with Tom who had a cheeky grin spread to his lips.

“No no don’t cool down baby”

He was definitely drunk but not drunk enough to be completely rat-arsed. His lips went to your neck and quickly nibbled and sucked on your sweet spots, you held back a moan the best you could but it just slipped out a little

“Tom-”

“You look fucking delicious in this dress baby”

You felt your cheeks go hot at his words, your hands moved to his arms where they carressed them.

“Baby you gotta be careful the boys-”

“Screw the boys, I need you y/n please”

His kisses moved up your neck and he nibbled on your ear making you melt and tingle, it was a weak spot of yours. His hands tugged on your dress causing it to scrunch up a bit. Deep down you wanted to have him inside you, but you couldn’t handle the boys walking in at some point.

“Tom, we can’t what if they walk in”

“We can find somewhere they wont look trust me. Just give me 5 minutes to make you feel good baby, I promise to be quiet”

They way Tom looked at you it made you cave and you couldn’t say no

“5 minutes or less”

“Fuck”

Tom grabbed your hand and you two went off to one of the guest bathrooms, Tom quickly locked the door and returned his hands to your waist picking you up and putting you next to sink. You couldn’t help but laugh at Tom’s drunk clumsiness as he fiddled with his trousers. Once unbuttoned his hands moved under your dress and he basically ripped your panties off

“Tom!-”

Tom was quick to react to your loud voice and his hand came to cover your mouth. It turned you on when he did this for some reason

“Shhh baby, remember we gotta be quiet”

Toms voice was enough to send wetness inbetween your legs. Tom definitely didn’t hesitate, taking out his hard member he pumped it a few times with his hands and entered you. You screamed a little but the sound was muffled by his hand. You were tight around him, and that itself caused Tom to give a low moan.

“Holy fuck y/n— tight as always”

His voice was breathy as he began to move in and out of you. Once he got used to your tightness and you had adjusted to his size, Tom began thrusting harder and quicker remembering he only had a 5 minute time limit. Your hands were all over eachother, grabbing and tugging hair or clothes. His hand was still covering your mouth and you had closed your eyes tightly as you enjoyed the roughness coming from Tom.

“You look so fucking good in that dress baby fuck”

He grunted as he fucked you harder. The way his moans came out made you wet and the whole ordeal of having a quick hidden hook up with Tom was adding to your arousal. You gave a muffled moan in response as that was all you could do. Your hands tugged at his hair as you felt yourself getting closer

“I wanna feel your pussy cumming baby”

Tom must of forgetten about keeping you quiet because he removed his hand and placed it to your clit where he began rubbing it quickly, sending a huge wave of pleasure through your body, you bit your lip but a somewhat loud moan still escaped you.

“T-Tom Tom I-”

“I’m gunna cum too!”

Before either of you could say another word, you both came together. You arched your back and pulled Tom close to you as you came. Toms pace slowed down as he twitched and filled you up, his breath panting and hot on your skin. You both stayed there for a few seconds before Tom pulled out from your and cleaned up with some toilet paper. You quickly did the same and tried to dry yourself up a little. Tom handed you back your panties and you slipped them on quickly, flattening out your dress and making sure you looked ok in the bathroom mirror. Tom gave you a kiss and you two quickly left the bathroom. Toms hair was still messy and his face still red from what just happened. Your dress was slightly scrunched up in places even though your tried to make it look nice again. When you walked back into the dinning room all the boys looked to the both of you and they all cheered and laughed at the same time.

“Bruv aint no one gunna do the crazy shit you two do”

Tuwaine got up and laughed, Sam awkwardly looked to you and joined Tuwaine as they made their way to the living room. Harry got up from his seat aswell, giving a slight applause to the both of you

“Nice one Tom nice one, really gave it your all”

“Oh fuck off”

Harry laughed as he teased Tom. Immediately you knew that everyone knew what you and Tom got up to. It wasn’t till Harrison came from the kitchen behind you guys and put his arms around the both of you.

“You don’t think they heard… right?”

“Oh we definitely heard what you guys got up to”

Harrison said cheekily

“Mate…”

Harrison looked to Tom and just laughed, he then turned and winked at you, you gave him a slap and he laughed again.

“Gotta say, i feel like we all shared a close moment together”

“Don’t be a twat”

“Me? A twat? How rude of you Thomas! Here I am supplying a lovely guest bathroom for you to fuck in and you call mea twat!”

Harrison loved to tease Tom and right now this was his best chance to rile him up. Giving you a squeeze on the shoulder he removed his arms from both of you and laughed again.

“Bet you need some ice now huh y/n”

“Harrison I swear. To. God. I will slap you”

Harrison quickly ran off to the living room with the rest of the boys, you felt completely embarrassed and really flustered after everything that just happened. Tom put his arm around you and comforted you.

“Don’t let them get to you baby, one more word out of them and i’ll make em shut up”

“Just promise you’ll let me atleast smack Harrison once”

“Deal”

You both laughed and Tom gave you a quick kiss

“Still fucking love that dress”

#tom holland one shot #tom holland imagine #tom holland x reader smut #tom holland x reader imagine #tom holland fluff #tom holland x reader #tom holland #Harrison osterfield #smut #Peter Parker #tom-holland-is-spiderman-archives #please reblog #tom holland x reader fluff #tom holland fanfiction #tom holland fanfic

[justalittletomato]

another soft sunday  ramble trip with dad!maul , uncle! Savage and baby tomato

Summary: The three go on a “mission to Dathomir” for mushlings and to say hello to one of their own. 

It’s still dark out when the three venture out.

Cress slumbers in his tiny crib as his mother gently wishes him safety on his journey. She presses tiny kisses to his face causing the little one to coo and purr. His Starlight places another soft star plush into the crib and gives the baby one last gentle smile, “ Make sure he stays warm, you know he hates the cold.” She doesn’t need to remind him Maul knows this well, it's not everyday your baby leaves on his first “mission”.

He doesn’t mention he has stashed more blankets on the ship and maybe more supplies than they need for Cress, he doesn’t want to come unprepared.  

Maul watches as she hesitates, she’s worried. Dathomir is not a pleasant place, too many things have happened there. But  at only 3 months he was already overdue for his markings. Her son was a child of two worlds, she wanted him to know them both.  

Savage had been the one to mention it, a tradition that was often done as soon as a child was born. His Starlight was not the one who needed convincing to give Cress any markings, but Maul knew that it would call for a journey to his home world, thier home world.

He never saw himself returning to that place, he had been stolen, brought back in a state of madness and then leaving with only revenge on his mind.

Savage had lived his life there, if it was much of a life, as cast away nightborther or slave to a night sister. They were trained to become warriors and received no thanks. Left to fight another when a night sister willed it and controlled them. It was not a pleasant place.

Yet, there were the brothers he had grown with there, the boys he had fought with and told stories with when the elders had sent them to bed. Whispered back and forth about what was up in the sky away from Dathomir’s red mists.

He had once promised Feral that they would get to see it.

Feral, the brother Maul never met and uncle Cress lost long before he was born. Maybe on this journey they would at least get to visit where thier  brother now rested and get to tell Cress all about him.

They would get to share about the new life they had and the places they had visited, how Savage had found thier lost brother. The palace on Mandalore and the wonderful sister they now had. Oh and best of all the little Nephew they shared! A nephew that was adored to no end by all of his family, and Feral if you had seen how his mother loves him, did you know a mother could do that?

Maul’s Starlight sees Savage looking up at the sky, and hugs  him, “ He would have loved him” Savage would likely mention. “ He would have loved you both.”

Maul kisses his Starlight one last time and promises to be back soon with… What did you call them Savage? Mushlings? Yes Mushlings.

There’s no pull to the planet, just a sense of bittersweetness. Cress has woken up and fussy as Maul picks him up, “ Look little Star, that is Dathomir. Your uncles and I were born here.”

Cress coos at the sight. Savage chuckles, “ He probably just likes it because its as red as he is,”

“Its a good color.” Maul retorts.

Savage avoids landing anywhere near the mists, he settles for the village where he had grown up, where they had grown up. Maul immediately  scowls, “ Snow. “

Maul does not want Cress getting cold, he bundles up Cress who is delighted to snuggle up against his father’s chest in his little wrap.

Savage shakes his head. Maul wont be able to have Cress like that when they venture out. The crib will have to come, the floating pod follows them out.

It was expected that they’d bring attention to themselves, but they didn’t expect all the Nightbrothers to gather about. Immediately there is shouts of surprise and elation, their brother had returned!?

Savage is immediately bombarded by both Nightbrothers young and old hugging him tight.

Maul stands back, and huddles Cress closer, he is an outsider here. Even among his own.

A curious little Nightbrother notices him and points, “ And who is that?”

Savage smiles, “ My brother. I found him at last, this was the Nightbrother stolen from us long ago, this is my brother Maul. And the little one is Cress, my nephew”

They note Maul not wanting to get closer and they don’t crowd him, there’s a gentle hum of welcomes and little ones who want to see the baby. It has been some time since a baby had made its way here.

“He’s red like you. We never see red. Its rare. Very rare. Pretty baby.  He has no markings. why does he not have any?”

Maul is unsure how to answer, and little Cress is just elated at the attention.

It is the elder named Viscus who has them settle down, “ Maul was taken as a child, he couldn't have known.”

He gives the red Zabrak a sympathetic smile Maul is unsure what to make of it or also the strange feeling that the elder Zabrak slightly resembled him. He shakes the idea out of his head. “ It's is wonderful that you have brought the child to partake in the tradition. And to see that you two are together to raise him, many are not so luckily it has been so long since we have seen added a new Nightbrother. “

Maul does not pry more into what he meant, so he correct Viscus, “ My wife, she didn’t join us in this journey is to thank as well, “

A mother. the children ask, we know of Mother Talzin she’s scary.

Savage clarifies, “ The child’s mother is human. it is different.”

There’s not equivalent here. “She loved him the moment she learned she was expecting him. She hums him lullabies and soothes his tears. She makes sure he is always safe and warm”

“ she sounds nice. Lucky little Cress. A human mother sounds wonderful”

The two go quiet at what the children say.

All the while tiny Cress reaches out a hand to Viscus and coos.

The elder looks to Maul, who nods. “ you are quite the blessed child, Cress,” he gently squeezes the tiny hand. Cress laughs and Maul feels a swell of pride at Viscus’s comment.

The brothers are taken to the sight of the Mushlings, an odd plant only grown here, they are gathered, the pods leaving black marks that take time to fade. Cress got hold of one and smudged his cheeks. Maul hissed, “Cress do you want to get Daddy in trouble?” his baby merely laughs and smudges some on his father’s face as well.

Savage laughs and is promptly smudged as well. The three laugh at the sight of  another and pack away the mushlings for later.

There is one last place to visit.

Feral is buried by the cliffs, another trove of mushlings grow here, they are left to freely grow and spread.

Savage kneels down, “Hello brother. I’m home. We're all home. This is Maul and Cress, our brother and nephew. “

Maul kneels next to him and Cress coos, the bonds around him quieted.

It is time to listen.

“I’ve missed you brother. So much has changed. I was able to leave, I found our brother. We have a new home now. Mandalore, you would have loved it. There’s a garden and its so open and different from the village. “ he pauses “Brother we have a sister now, she’s a bit of a nuisance at times. “

Maul frowns.

 “ But she is kind, and wonderful. She loves us both, well Maul more, actually Cress more... it's a different sort of love. Brother, she would have loved you. Feral you would have adored her, she pesters as much as you. and Maul, he’s what you expect of an older brother, he bosses you about but he cares. He’s “a bit” rough and dramatic but you get used to it, but when he’s with his Starlight and his Star you should see how gentle he can be with them. “ Maul doesn’t get upset, he just sits quietly and listens as his brother continues through tears. 

“ Oh, and Cress, you should have met him. He’s the most precious thing. He smiles at you like you're the sun. He will have the most wonderful life….but he wont have you…he should have…you would  have loved him…” his voice breaks as a new onslaught of tears fall.

Cress whimpers as he feels the sadness, he reaches out and Maul brings him closer to Savage, who cradles  his tiny nephew. “ He’s a very caring child,” Maul says. “ I would have loved if you met him. I am sorry I never got the chance Brother, but we promise Cress will never suffer as we had. We swear. “

The sun on Dathomir begins to set and the bothers know why this spot was chosen as thier brother’s resting place, as the sun sets the red sky is tinged in a  spectrum of colors, reds oranges yellows and pinks on the snow. A perfect place to rest.

#maul #darth maul #savage opress #savage #dad!maul #feral #baby tomato #dathomir #nightbrothers #zabraks #zabrak oc #darth maul x reader #maul x reader #Cress #star wars #star wars fanfic #as you can tell I dont like Talzin much #What is cloud implying about Viscus #cloudsdrabbles

[peachiikawa]

Caged Bird | Prince!Oikawa Tooru x Reader

a/n: if you know anything about fairytales then you might realize that the reader has the flute of the pied piper, though modified for the story. been watching a lot of once upon a time and got the idea from the neverland arc. hope you enjoy!

word count: 1.9k

genre: fantasy, romance

trigger warnings: reader gets hurt a bit but nothing graphic

summary: oikawa has always lived a lonesome life in the cage that is his castle. one day he sneaks out and a beautiful melody leads him to you, a traveling musician. oikawa is about to find out that his luck is going to change for the better.

oikawa gazed out over the town from his balcony

he let out a long sigh as he grew bored from his studies

“why the long face trashykawa?”

his bestfriend and knight walked up next to him and leaned against the railing

“oh you know, just bored of being in this castle. theres a whole town of people out there and im stuck in here. gets tiring after a while”

iwaizumi listened to his friend and nodded along to what he was saying

“then sneak out for a day”

oikawas eyes widened

“youd help me sneak out?”

“only if you come back by sundown”

so oikawa grabbed his cloak and thanks to iwas help got out of the castle

despite being born and raised in this town oikawa had no idea where he was

and after about ten minutes he was completely and utterly lost

until he heard the faint sound of a flute

he followed the sound until he ended up in the mostly cleared out town square where he saw you playing a small wooden flute for those who were present, though you had no audience

everyone walked past you as if you were invisible like you werent playing such a beautiful song

he approached you slowly and listened until you finished your performance

“that was really good”

you looked up at him and smiled

“always a pleasure to play for those who need it”

the bright smile on your face felt warm and inviting

like he was meant to be here

“would you like to take a seat next to me?”

you gestured to the spot next to you and he gladly took it

“so...whats your story”

hes hesitant to answer your question

“ill tell you mine if you tell me yours”

you set your flute down in your bag next to you

“well first of all my names y/n and my life is nothing too interesting. im a traveling performer and play my flute as a way to pass time and help those who need it. always come across the most interesting people this way”

traveling. thats something oikawa could only dream of

“so cmon now tell me about you”

he peaked at you through his hood

“ok but dont make a big commotion..im oikawa tooru”

you laughed a bit

“thats funny you share the same name as the prince”

you stopped laughing when you saw the serious look in his eyes

“oh..oh! im so sorry for being so rude!”

you started to scramble around when he grabbed your wrists to stop your movements

“shh yes im the prince but stop flailing people are starting to look”

once you had calmed down he went on

“ive been confined to my castle my whole life and stuck to certain rules i have to follow. it seems like even if i catch a break something else comes along. i have to stay this perfect image because im the prince and it just gets so lonely. its as if im a bird trapped in a cage and theres no way out”

ah so there it is

the reason he could hear your flute

you picked a flower that was growing next to you and placed it in his hair as you spoke

“im sorry your lifes been like that but oikawa, if i may be so bold, even a caged bird will become wise enough to break free. the dream of flying is too great to resist”

Once you had properly placed the flower you smiled at him before standing up from your spot and grabbing your bag

you then held your hand out to him

but he couldnt gather his thoughts

you were so bright it was almost blinding

“now cmon! lets go have some fun!”

he looked at the hand held out to him

and with a leap of faith, he took it

he was going to get out of this cage, this perpetual cycle

and finally add some meaning to his life

day after day you two spent your time together

oikawas days that were once filled with hollow words and empty actions were now filled with happiness

filled with you

and everyday slowly but surely he was falling for you

passing glances turned into prolonged gazes

his heart could no longer stay still around you

you became the key to his happiness

but for now...he had to be content with just being next to you

it would be too selfish otherwise

to ask you to stay with him here in the kingdom...he could never trap you like that

“so what are we doing today y/n?”

you were strolling through the town on a quiet sunday afternoon like you had the last few sundays

“how about we go to the bakery? theyre usually busy but since its sunday i bet its not as packed and then i want to take you somewhere”

he was curious as to what you had in store but decided against asking questions

so you two got some baked goods and headed out towards the woods

“cmon we’re almost there”

you pushed some branches and shrubs out of the way

and one eventually hit him in the face

“watch it y/n! i keep getting wacked by you”

you just chuckled a bit which oikawa had found adorable in itself

it made his heart slow just hearing it

“just come on!”

eventually you two made it to a clearing over a beautiful lake

he didnt know that there was something like this so close by

he was absolutely amazed by it

“take a seat oikawa! we can rest and eat here!”

this moment was just too perfect to him

with you here he felt as if nothing bad could happen

that if he only could see your smile everything would be alright

being content with just being at your side...was no longer and option

he knew that if he wanted this he needed to take his chance

“y/n”

your eyes were full of life and he couldnt help but feel so happy next to you

and before he knew it he was closing the gap between the two of you with a hand gently cradling your cheek

but right before you two could kiss you were ripped away from him

“dont you dare touch the prince commoner!”

oikawa frantically looked around as many of his guards came out of the brush

“get your hands off of them!”

you were pressed to the ground and the sight almost broke his heart

“sorry your highness but we’re under strict orders to bring you back and throw whoever was seducing you to leave the castle into the dungeon”

the guard that had been on you lifted you up like you were a sack and bound you by rope

you gave oikawa a final smile before you were taken away even though you were so banged up that it made him want to puke

he was speechless

this is what he was talking about

being so controlled and monitored made him feel so small and helpless

and he absolutely abhorred it

“your highness your mother is waiting for you in the throne room”

oikawa was beyond upset

this isnt how he wants to live

“mother how could you throw the only good thing in my life away!”

his mother sneered at his words

“only good thing? what need to you have for that filthy peasant! and how dare you cast me aside as if i hadnt given you everything you own, everything you are is because of me! i will not allow for any of this nonsense! now go wash up. and dont you dare ever leave the castle again and i forbid you from seeing that nasty peasant again. wasting your time with such a person...”

he gritted his teeth and was about turn to leave

his emotions were running too high

he wasnt himself and he knew it

but even so...he wont allow it to end like this

he was going to end it on his terms

“no”

“what did you say?”

he stood his ground

“i said no mother. im going to live the way i want and with who i want. ill gladly give up my title because frankly, i never wanted it in the first place. and dont you ever call y/n filthy or nasty again. their so incredibly kind and full of joy and laughter. i can only hope to be like that one day. so ive decided that im leaving. with y/n.”

as soon as the doors shut behind him he let out the breath he didnt even know he was holding

but it also felt as if there was a giant weight off of him now

“im coming y/n dont you worry”

it had been a couple hours since you were brought to your cell

you didnt have any major injuries, just a few cuts and scratches from when you were body slammed to the ground

“do you mind if i play?”

you pulled out your flute and the guard nodded

“thank you!”

you started playing and filled the cell you were in with a relaxing tune

“why do you play if it doesnt make noise?”

you stopped and looked at the spiky haired man who stood outside your cell

“it takes a certain person to appreciate its music”

he just looked at you as if you were crazy

but you continued anyways

until you heard frantic running coming from down the hall

“iwa you gotta let them out”

oikawa was panting trying to catch his breath

“dude no offense but your mom would kill me and you if i just let them out”

oikawa grabbed the key from iwaizumis waist before he even realized what had happened

“dont worry about it iwa. and dont worry about me. today i start my new life. it was good knowing you buddy”

they gripped hands the way they always had. A solemn but knowing look was shared between them

“if i had known me letting you leave the castle one time would lead to this...i would have done it a lot sooner. good luck out there bud”

oikawa quickly turned to you and helped you off of the ground

“you ready to run?”

he cupped your cheek and ran his thumb over one of the small cuts

hed be sure to treat that later

you nodded and leaned into his hand

“are you sure this is what you want?”

you were happy to leave with him

its more than you could ever ask for

“y/n youre the only person thats made me feel free. and by doing this i will be.”

you two finally got to share the kiss you had been deprived of and not only was it full of love but also full of hope for your future

“then lets go”

and you two sprinted off to your next adventure together

the flute you possessed was one he could no longer hear the sound of after that day

for it was enchanted, only to be be heard by those who were lost and lonely

with you he was neither anymore

and he couldnt be any happier than living out the rest of his days with you as a free man, a bird outside of its cage

#oikawa headcanons #oikawa x reader #oikawa toru x reader #oikawa tooru #oikawa tooru x reader #haikyuu!! #haikyuu imagines #haikyuu x reader #haikyuu!! x reader #haikyuu headcanons #haikyuu!! headcanons #haikyu x reader

[dsmpdaily]

Hey, sorry I disappeared. My brain just kinda shut off and wouldn't let me do anything. So I baked, and I baked, and I baked, and please help me I'm drowning in baked goods over here.

*Shoves 80 bowls full of baked goods your way* you don't want to know how much baking I've done. But then I went on Minecraft with a Technoblade skin and best all my friends and killed Twitter the zombie.

Enough about me, how have you been? Staying positive even though negative people are trying to bring you down? Remember that hatred stems from their own problems in life and they want to make others feel bad to bring themselves up. Have you been eating enough? Eating healthy? Having fun? Taking breaks? Drinking water? Playing with your dog? Showering? Making your bed? Cleaning your room?

Also I did my call today and I have an interview on Sunday so that'll be good, get something to do other than lay in bed or bake until my oven’s temperature gauge breaks and the fire alarm goes off. Do you like baking? Been doing any Minecraft lately?

“The mere sense of living is joy enough.” -Emily Dickinson

“The only thing that will make you happy is being happy with who you are.” -Goldie Hawn

“Spread love everywhere you go. Let no one ever come without leaving happier.” -Mother Teresa

"A hero is an ordinary individual who finds the strength to persevere and endure in spite of overwhelming obstacles." -Christopher Reeve

"I don't have crushes on women, Wilbur, they have crushes on me. Even if I did have crushes on them, I'd have to hide them for my brand. I must stay womenless or keep them in the shadows." -Some child

:3 who decided it's too long for colours but hopes you are doing well.

hello! dw about it, ive been kind of out of it recently so i completely understand. also baked goods are nice :0

in doin okay, nothin to do with that hate anon the other day im really not worried about them 👍 reading through your questions yes ive been takin' care of myself and my lil dog

i dont know how to cook or bake ^^; i could probably follow a recipe easily but i just never was taught & im not trusted in the kitchen i think

havent done any minecraft my laptop wont turn on haha.. its been over a week and i just stopped messing with it but ill try to take the battery out later or something. i hope you're doin well :D

#-SOME CHILD SHDH #:3 anon #long post

[sykuui]

glint | kuroo tetsurou

Kuroo x gn!reader

Genre: angsty. very angsty.

Warnings: none!

Saturday 12:16p.m.

“Take two, tetsu!” You crouched on the dusty floor, holding your stomach from laughing so hard, surrounded by empty cardboard boxes.

You pulled yourself off the ground, the sweat making your tshirt stick to your back. Dust from the surroundings making your skin feel dry. However, the discomort was nullified by the presence of the tall, bed headed boy standing in the middle of the room. You and kuroo were finally moving in together after 2 years of dating.

He looked at you with one brow raised, amused at the sight. “This is the fifth time you’re making me do this.” He rolled his eyes, a mischievous smirk played on his lips. Getting back on your feet, you tiptoed towards him, sliding your hands into his hair.

“Come on. One last time.” You whispered putting your forehead against his. The sweat and grime creating a mingling tickle.

Hands wrapped around your waist. A short release of breath was felt on your lips, sending tingles down your spine.

“One. More. Time.”

Breathing a sigh of content, you lifted your eyes to meet his, a grin threatening to break out. God, the things this boy did to you.

“Tetsu..” you started. “What do you see when u look into my eyes?”

Kuroo chuckled, his eyes glinting in that special way that made your blood pressure drop. The grip on his shoulders tightened as you steadied yourself.

He looked into your eyes like he was staring directly into your soul. You, like an open book, with chapters upon chapters of writing and endless thoughts with your conciousness being the only thing binding them together. And kuroo, the one who reads you, studies you like the most complex yet delicate being known to humankind, with a catlike grace and elegance as if he might shatter you like with the slightest touch like the wing of a butterfly.

You two were like the sun to each other’s moon. Yin and Yang. One completing the other. Nothing could ever, and will ever, get between the two of you. At least that’s what you hoped.

•••••••••

Monday 6:59a.m. 3 years later

The blaring of your alarm clock woke you. Groaning in your still half asleep state, you throw a hand out to the right side of the bed, expecting a warm chest or back to meet it, but to no avail.

Your arm lands onto the cold sheets next to you. Eyebrows furrying at the lack of of your boyfriend on the bed you both shared.

He must’ve woken up early. Did he say he had his practice earlier than usual? You couldn’t recall.

But it was a Sunday, there was no practice on sundays. You shake your head out of annoyance. Memory was never your strongest suit.

Slipping out of bed, you head to the bathroom to clean yourself up.

The person staring back at you in the mirror looked different.

“Were my eye bags this bad?” Pulling slightly at the thin skin under your eyes. Dark circles evident on your usually even toned skin.

Kuroo had developed a habit of going out with his friends recently and you, being the worrywart that you are, would stay up till odd hours of the night waiting for your beloved to return.

At first he would be back by 11pm, but as the months progressed, so did the time he came back home. You tried not to let it bother you. Why should it? You loved and trusted him and you knew that he was capable of taking care of himself. But was his safety concerning you? Or was it perhaps..

The sound of running water paused your train of thought as you splashed cool water onto your face. You couldn’t bring yourself to ever talk about it with him. Something would always come up whenever you both found time for yourselves.

“Sorry, my friends and I planned to meet up.”

“Not today, sweetie. I’m taking some extra time with the team. I’ll be back soon.”

“I’m at kenma’s house. Wont be back till late.”

Every line followed by a chaste kiss to your forehead and a wave of goodbye while you stood there, eyes cast down with a meek smile on your face. You’ve pretty much heard every excuse in the book. So there was no reason as to why you couldn’t just confront him about it.

Wiping your hands on the towel, you stepped out of the bathroom and exited your shared room.

“Tetsu?” You called out into the halls.

No answer.

“Tetsu baby, are you home?” Maneuvering past the furniture and into the kitchen, your eyes searched the house. Empty.

He hasn’t come back.

You feel the same gripping feeling creep its way into your stomach, twisting your intestines into knots.

“Where are you?”

There’s one person who knows where he’d be if it wasn’t you. Kozume Kenma.

You pulled your phone out of the pocket of your shorts. A slight tremor in your hands as you unlocked it.

The line ringed thrice before a soft voice was heard. “Hello?” A sleepy voice spoke.

“Kenma! Im so sorry to wake you up like this but do you have any idea where kuroo is?”

“K-kuroo?” His voice’s tone much louder than before.

“Yes..” your fingers tapped anxiously against the back of your phone, awaiting a response.

A few moments of silence passed.

“Uhh I think he crashed at Lev’s place. Why? Did he not come home last night?”

“He didn’t. I’m sorry. I didn’t know who else to call so-“

“No, no. Please, don’t apologize. I’m always here to help.” Kenma cut you off. “It’s what friends are for.”

A sense of relief washed through you at his words. “Yes. You’re right. Thank you, by the way.”

“Anytime.”

You ended the call and grabbed your keys from the basket near the shoe rack.

Everything is ok. He’s probably just got drunk and stayed over at one of the boys’ house. Nothing to worry about, you affirmed to yourself.

Lev’s house was about a block away so it took you not more than a couple minutes to arrive.

You parked the car on the curb just outside of the house and pulled the keys out of the ignition.

You stayed glued to your seat for a minute, fingers drumming against the steering wheel.

“You can do this.”

A click of the car door was heard followed by the sound of your shoes against the asphalt.

Nervously biting your lip, you press the doorbell.

No answer.

You weren’t about to spend the next who knows how long waiting for one of them to open the door, so you gently push down on the knob. It’s open.

You stumbled inside, almost tripping over a pair of heels that were messily thrown right in front of the door.

A familiar pair of shoes lays near them. Also messily thrown around.

Kuroo’s shoes.

It’s Alisa’s shoes. It has to be. But doesnt Lev live alone?

Your heart started to race as you tried to convince yourself that it was nothing to be concerned about. Taking a deep breath, you decided enough was enough and that you were going to have to talk to kuroo about this.

You wandered further into the house, in search of your boyfriend, carefully avoiding the spilled juice in front of you.

The place was a mess. Beer cans and fast food packages littered the floor and tables. Broken glass and used napkins too. A party of some sort must’ve taken place. Surely no person can live like this.

After a couple minutes of looking around, you saw kuroo’s jacket hung on one of the chairs.

He’s here.

“Te-“

“That’s enough kuroo!” A female giggle resonated through the halls. You froze.

No. No it can’t be. You’re hearing things, the stress of the situation is just messing with you.

“Tetsu!” The female voice chimed again.

Tetsu.. that was the nickname you gave to him. The name that only you, were allowed to call him by. The name you gave him when you both had first met all those years ago. So who...

A breath escaped your lips, a burning feeling developing in your throat. The sound came from the room right across you.

Your mind now clouded with adrenaline.

Loud footsteps were heard as you speed walked towards the source of the sound. You didn’t care anymore. You just wanted your boyfriend back.

Your hand met the cool wood of the door and stopped. Eyes stinging from the tears. It’s now or never.

Pushing the door wide open, your breath caught in your throat at the scene in front of you.

Kuroo was on top of another girl. She was a giggling mess and he was no different. Their backs were turned to you.

They didn’t even notice you.

He didn’t even notice you.

Your emotions came crashing down like a tsunami as you stood there in silent pain. Watching the love of your life, with another girl.

A loud sob escaped past your lips. Slapping a hand over your mouth, you crumpled onto the floor on your knees.

“Y/N!”

Your eyes slowly lifted themselves up to meet his.

“How long... how long have you been..” It hurt. It hurt so bad that you couldn’t even finish what you wanted to say. What emotion were you even feeling? Anger? Sadness? In that moment, You felt everything and nothing at the same time. You lifted up your hand. The one which had the engagement ring on it. His promise to you. Did it mean nothing to him?

“No- it’s not what-“

“No, Kuroo. Don’t say anything.” you cut him off.

“How about you do one last thing for me, yeah?” Tears streamed down your face and onto the floor. Blurring your vision ever so slightly.

“Baby please-“ he started.

“No. No don’t.. don’t call me that, ok?” Forcing a smile onto your face, you gestured for him to sit down in front of you.

His mouth opened like he was about to say something, but he stopped and obeyed.

“Okay..” you wiped the tears from your eyes, not that it helped in any way.

Placing a hand under his chin, you tilted his head to the side. Hickies covered the nape of his neck down to his collarbone. Taking a sharp inhale, you let go.

“You don’t have to do this y/n. Just let me explain.” He grabbed both of your hands with his. The familiar feeling of his warm hands felt like home to you. He felt like home to you.

“Kuroo please. Just stay quiet.”

Silence.

“Tetsu.. what do you see when you look into my eyes?”

“No, not right now not this.” He pulled you into his chest, arms coming in contact with your back. “Y/N please just listen to me.”

Breaking out of his hold you hold his arms in place.

“Kuroo. Im begging you. Do it for me. One last time.” Sobs escaping your lips. “One. More. Time.”

Your searched for that familiar glint. The one that would appear every time you asked him this question. It never mattered how many times, the glint and the look of pure love in his eyes kept you alive. It was your energy source and you needed it. You needed him.

His eyes stared into yours, but not the way that they used to, the love, the admiration, everything that kept you going... was gone.

And at that moment you knew, that you were fighting a losing battle.

It was time to let go.

A/N: ahhh ok this is my first ever haikyuu short fic! I hope you liked it (｀・ω・´) constructive criticism is always welcome and pls feel free to leave any comments!

#haikyuu #haikyuu imagine #haikyuu fanfic #haikyuu kuroo #nekoma #kuroo #kuroo tetsurou #kenma #kozume kenma #haikyuu lev #lev #haiba lev #kuroo imagine

[albino-whumpee]

An old thing 4

First

Continued from here

Possibly the angstiest part of this. Not much whump really.

I´m gonna go ahead and tag @the-host-and-colton for this one. It´s not the BBU but I suppose the Boxies with babies dynamic is there. “Baby doesn´t understand the situation but the parents do” kinda thing. Excuse the ping!

CW// Dehumanization, slavery, human trafficking, forced breeding, mentions of past dub con and non con, blood, implied and mention of past whump of minors, hazing, noncon child separation, creepy and explosive whumpers, physical and emotional abuse.

Everything will be tagged and if there´s tags to be added, tell me please.

After five years, Kit was a rowdy little boy. Running around with a smile on his face at all times. You wouldn’t think he was a slave if it wasnt for the thin black collar on his neck.

In how obedient he turned with his masters. Even though he didn’t understand the concept yet.

“Master? Why are Roahn and Shy here?” Kit asked Danae once. Layo and Danae weren’t mom and dad. They were master. But for his little mind it was just the same thing.

“To serve you and us, Kit. You will understand it better when you grow up”

“Alright” Kit said watching Roahn taking care of the garden with her big bump “Master? Will I be able to play with Roahn’s baby?” Kit asked again.

“No more questions Kit” She said annoyed. The kid was quiet but he still looked at Roahn with curiosity.

-

“Roahn?” Kit asked the woman being hugged by Dimitri in their floor mat. She woke up as it was the middle of the night, and when she saw him, he shook Dimitri awake. They sat in the other side of the cell.

“Hey there Kit” Dimitri smiled at the toddler.

“Hi Shy” Kit said.

“What is it Kit? Are you hurt?” Roahn said stretching her arm for the kid to hold her hand through the bars. The kid took it.

“I am cold upstairs. So I thought you were very cold here too. Its always chilly down here” the kid grabbed the blanket he had carried all the way down and gave it to Dimitri. “I dont want the baby to be cold”.

They looked at each other with a pained and proud expression.

“Do you…wanna see how she moves?” Roahn asked the toddler who instantly put a smile on his face.

Roahn went close to the cell and told the kid to get closer. Kit did. She grabbed his tiny hand and put it on her abdomen. Curiously she moved. As if the little one inside her knew.

“She’s rowdy!” Kit said. The word coming from how Layo would call him sometimes. Kit was an smart boy.

“Yes she is!” Roahn laughed along.

“I cant wait to play with her!” Dimitri and Roahn went stiff “I mean, if I can…” Kit cleared up sensing their discomfort.

Roahn took his hand into hers and gave it a little kiss.

“Of course you can” she said looking at her son in the same hazel eyes she had. His worries escaped his face to be turned into smiling.

“What would you call her, Kit?” Dimitri asked him.

Kit reflexed for a bit, looking at the ceiling.

“Bunnie!” He said “oh! Or Sara! Or Emi!”

“Where did you take those names from?” Dimitri giggled. They were good names.

“Master is writing a new book. I am a character there too!” He said proudly.

“Oh? You are?” Dimitri said, resting his chin in one hand. Roahn thought it had been a long time since she saw him smile like that. Not since Olivia.

“Yes! I am a dog!” Dimitri stopped right there with a shocked face. He cracked a humorless laugh. He really hated Layo for doing that sick joke.

“Do you like dogs Kit?” He asked anyways.

“Yes!! Sadly master doesn’t like them…” Kit pouted.

“Hey Kit, what if I told you there’s a place where you could have a lot of dogs?” Dimitri asked him Roahn looking at him.

“Eh?! Really? Where’s that?” Kit asked getting closer.

“I can take us there but I need you to tell me something. I only will ask you to see one thing everyday ok?” He said getting closer to him. The camera and the microphone were not a problem. They had been tricked for years.

“Everyday?”

“Yes”

“What?”

“If you ever see big men with black suits tell me what day they come in alright? Or if master says something about an auction tell me. And then we will go to that place, Alright?” Dimitri said. Roahn wasn’t sure if the kid had gotten all, but Kit was smarter than they could see.

He already knew how to read.

“An auction? Like last time?”

Dimitri couldn’t help himself from looking down for a bit.

“Yes, Kit. Like last time. Would you do that for us?” She asked him calmly.

“Ok. I will tell you” Kit said. “Im going to sleep. Goodnight” Kit said going away.

“Wait!” Dimitri yelled, the kid turned back.

“Thanks for the blanket” Roahn said covering her and Shy.

“We love you Kit” Dimitri said. The kid didnt know how to take that and just blushed before running off.

Dimitri and her laid down again. After a moment, the woman’s arms squeezed him lightly.

“Are you sure?” Roahn asked him.

“We cant let this slip off again, Roahn” he said.

“You have changed” she told her “I remember you telling me you didnt have bad thoughts about your owners”

Dimitri embraced her stronger dipping his face into her neck.

“Ivan was all I had. And he was taken from me. He was killed by a bunch of brainless fuckers. I told myself I wouldn’t fixate on his dead. And tried to forget. But when that happened…” Roahn reached for his hand and squeezed “I knew I couldn’t ignore it anymore. I cant let this freaks fuck with us anymore. We have to go before the auction. Much more longer before that”

“Three months” Roahn said “after she’s born, three months and we will go”

“In that time I’ll have it all ready” Dimitri kissed her shoulder “I wont fail this time” he said as she smiled.

His face had a big scar that went all the way from his cheekbone to his neck.

Layo had tried to cut his carotid when they tried to escape the first time. And he almost succeeded.

-

The baby was born a week later. Kit was amazed by the baby’s arrival. Apparently her name was Jen. Although Kit thought how Bunnie would have had suit her better he went on. For him Dimitri was the only way of knowing how she was doing. Kit was a curious child so he would ask him lots of questions. Dimitri had received some education but many of his questions beat him. At those times he would pat him and tell him the library had a book about that day’s question they could read together.

Sometimes, when they knew there was no one in the house but them, he let Kit sit on his leg.

By now Dimitri and Roahn had to wear clothes at all times except when their genitals were required. They weren’t that used to be so covered but definitely it was warmer. And less humiliating. But the mounting…those were nights were those rules didn’t matter.

“How is Jen and Roahn?” Kit asked him.

“They’re ok. Jen is a very healthy baby. You would love her” Dimitri said.

“I would have loved if she was named Bunnie though…” the kid pouted. Dimitri laughed.

“You know my name isn’t Shy?” He said the kid opening his eyes amused.

“Then what’s your name?”

“Dimitri” He said with a bitter sweet smile. It was the name his brother had gave him. He wanted to tell him to call him dad, but right now that was too risky.

“What a pretty name! Why are you called Shy by Master then?” Kit asked. Dimitri pursed his lips together and touched his scar.

“Its a nickname”

“Nick…?”

“A name only good friends call each other”

“But you don’t like Master at all…”

“Well, some nicknames are for people you don’t like” he giggled wryly.

“Hey, Sh—Dimitri, what does “slave” mean?” The kid asked him, getting his full attention.

“Master called me that the other day when I dropped a bit of juice. I dont know if its a good nickname…” Dimitri held him strong.

“You dont need to know that Kit” he said to him “You’re a good boy ok?”

Kit thought about the many times he had been called bad things and found comforting he said that. So he hugged back.

They stayed there like that for a while.

—

At night, report.

“They havent mentioned it yet then Kit?” Dimitri asked him from the other side of the cell. Kit shook his head, his curly black hair flopping.

“Thats perfect. And what is master doing on thursday?”

“They have their cocktail party and go early” kit said. Dimitri was making mental notes.

“When do they go on their trip?” Dimitri asked him looking up.

“On sunday”

Dimitri has made his plan. Five days were a bit short but the three months had passed and he had it all ready. The few money he could slip from change. A few clothes. Tools. Food. They were ready to go.

“Kit, in Sunday I need you to do something fun. Would you grab your binoculars and tell me when they go and bring me the keys in Master’s office?”

Kit physically did a step back.

“What is it?”

“Im…not allowed there…I cant…”

“It’s ok Kit. Dont worry. Can you play explorer and tell me when they go then?” The kid shook his head vigorously. “You’re such a good kid, Kit” he revolved his hair. And gave him a candy hidden in the downside of the mat.

“Ah! Thank you Dimitri! I love you!” Kit said while hugging him through the bars. Dimitri had to be really strong to hold the tears in.

“I love you too Kit” he said watching him go off.

He stared at the ceiling unable to sleep.

How much he wished Cal and Olivia were there too. But the pain of losing them wouldn’t happen ever again.

Even if he died at it. They would go and get freedom.

#an old thing #whump #writing #tw slavery #tw swearing #tw dehumanization #tw forced breeding #tw forced pregnancy #tw past dubcon #tw blood #whumping of a minor #hazing #noncon child separation tw #creepy whumper #physical abuse tw #emotional abuse tw #hurt comfort #angst #roahn #demetri #this is the fluffiest yet tho #collars #escape attempt

[barnesandrogersfanfics]

Home - Part 10

We spent all of Sunday at my place, Bucky and the girls seemed right at home which was nice. When it came time for them to head home Bucky asked me to go with them, Sam hadn't managed to track down Jack yet so he didn't want me staying home by myself. I didn't need much persuading, i packed an overnight bag and went home with Bucky and the girls.

Monday morning was soon here and it was nearly time to get up and get the girls ready for school, Bucky was still in bed with me, usually he would be up and dressed by now.

"As much as i love having you in bed with me Buck, arent you going to be late for work?"

"Not today doll, I've got an appointment with Mrs Potts at 9:30 then I'm working from home today"

"Who's Mrs Potts?"

"Principal, you still wanna come with?"

"If you want me to" i nodded stroking my fingers over his stubbled jaw.

"I want you too"

"Okay, count me in" I kissed him quickly before getting out of the bed "im gonna go jump in the shower and get dressed before the girls wake up"

"Shower with me" he wiggled his eyebrows.

"We don't have time for that Buck" i laughed and left the room before he could change my mind (which wouldn't take much to be honest the man was irresistible).

"Good morning James, please come in and take a seat" Mrs Potts said coming out her office. Bucky stood up taking my hand and leading me inside the office.

"Morning Pepper" he smiled at the woman with a familiarity, Mrs Potts.... Pepper, looked me up and down waiting for introductions.

"This is my girlfriend Y/N" Bucky introduced smiling down at me.

"Pleasure to meet you Y/N, I'm Pepper Potts" she reached out a hand which i quickly shook before taking the seat next to Bucky.

"So James, you said you needed to talk to me about Allie's teacher Ms Harper?"

"I do, honestly Pepper i don't think the woman should be aloud to work with kids" Bucky told her getting straight to the point.

"Okay.... what makes you say that?"

"Doll? Tell Pepper what happened"

"Sure....she made Allie cry because she wanted to wear a tutu and cowboy boots for a start, that alone was bad enough but the main problem was when i turned up to the mother daughter picnic to hear Ms Harper telling our 5 year old she shouldn't be at the picnic because she doesn't have a mom was the final straw!"

"She said what??" Pepper asked with wide eyes clearly shocked to hear this.

"Exactly! When i told Ms Harper she can't be saying things like that to a 5 year old she didn't even apologise! Just shrugged and said 'why not its true, her moms dead' i mean who says that to a kid Mrs Potts?? its disgusting and unacceptable behaviour from an adult who quite frankly should know better"

"James, Y/N im so sorry! Your 100% right, that is unacceptable behaviour from one of my staff and i will deal with her accordingly i promise"

"Thank you Pepper, i knew you would. I know you don't tolerate this kind of thing. I thought it best to sit down with you personally about the matter" Bucky said sounding very professional even though Pepper was clearly a friend.

"I just don't understand why she would target Allie like this"

"Ms Harper and i used to go to school together, she had always had a crush on me. Then when the girls started here she'd ask me out all the time and i'd turn her down. Ask Tony about Joanne Harper, im sure he'll remember her" Bucky rolled his eyes "she's never been spiteful to my kids until Y/N started doing the school runs"

"Even called me Mrs Barnes the first time we met" i added remembering that first confrontation with the she witch.

"Y/N was our nanny before we started dating" Bucky told Pepper "we haven't been dating long"

"I see, so she see's Y/N turning up everyday for school runs and assumes you got a wife? Wow" Pepper let out a breath as she tapped her pen against her notepad she had been making notes in.

"Crazy huh?" Bucky scoffed

"Id say so yeah, leave it with me. I'll deal with her".

After thanking Pepper for her time Bucky and I left hand in hand walking back to his car. We passed Allie's classroom and she smiled and waved happily, Ms Harper saw us both and was suddenly white as a ghost. I couldn't help but smirk at her 'i told you not to mess with my kid' i thought to myself as we continued the walk to the car.

"I come in peace" Steve called through the door before walking in with Rosie. I hadnt spoken to him since dinner the day he asked if i was sleeping with Bucky.

"Hi Steve" i laughed rolling my eyes at how dramatic he was acting.

"Hey sweetheart, are you still mad at me?"

"No, how can i stay mad at that face huh?" I let him pull me in for a quick hug with the arm not holding Rosie.

"Thank you, i promise to keep my mouth shut next time"

"It all worked out okay in the end so dont sweat it" i shrugged.

"Yeah? So you and Bucky....?"

"Are together, so thank you i guess" i chuckled "guess we needed that push to admit to how we both felt"

"Your welcome" Steve smiled looking proud of himself.

Steve came with me to pick the girls up from school later that afternoon, Bucky was at home working, his assistant Chloe was sat on the sofa in his office quietly scrolling through her phone waiting for Bucky to tell her what to do.

"Chloe could you grab me a cup of coffee please?" I heard him ask her as i walked passed the doorway.

"Hey, nanny?" I heard her call from behind me and turned to look her way "Mr Barnes wants a cup of coffee"  she said before i could ask what she wanted.

"Im his nanny not his maid, besides he asked you to get it not me" i told her and continued on my way to the kitchen where the girls were sat at the table with Steve colouring.

"So girls what do you want for dinner?" I asked them.

"Spaghetti!" Brooke answered loudly sounding hopeful.

"Okay sure i can do that" i smiled and started to pull out what i needed.

"I want pork chops" Allie bounced in her seat .

"I don't think we have pork chops Al" i said looking through the fridge and freezer.

"But i want pork chops!" She pouted with crossed arms.

"Okay let me see what i can do" i said not wanting to let her down. I headed towards Buckys office to tell him i was popping out to the store but got stopped by Chloe.

"Im sorry but Mr barnes is busy, just because your his nanny doesn't mean you can just walk in".

Y/N: Your assistant is a pain in the ass! X

Bucky: what did she do? Xx

Y/N: I was coming to tell you that i need to run to the store, Allie wants Pork Chops for dinner but your guard dog wouldn't let me in, said just because I'm your nanny doesn't mean i can just walk into your office xx

Bucky: what a load of bullshit! You can come into my office anytime you want ;)

Y/N: haha!

Bucky: can you come to my office please? Xx

Y/N: Fine I'm on my way xx

As i approached Bucky's office Chloe stopped me again!

"I thought i told you that you cant interrupt Mr Barnes!"

"Bucky asked me to come see him"

"Bucky? Its a bit unprofessional for an employee to use his first name so casually don’t you think?"

"Its a good job I'm not just an employee then isn't it" i snapped pushing past her to Bucky's office. I felt her hand grab my arm and spun to face her "you better remove your hand from my arm before i break it" i said through gritted teeth.

Bucky's office door opened and he saw Chloe grabbing my arm.

"Chloe what the fuck do you think your doing?" He practically growled.

"I told her not to interrupt you sir but she wouldn't listen"

"Let her go, right now! I asked her to come see me"

"Oh....." she released my arm looking a bit sheepish and i walked over to Bucky.

"You okay doll?" He asked rubbing my arm where she had grabbed me before pulling me into his arms.

"Chloe you should go home, its not like your much help to me here. We'll talk at the office tomorrow"

"Okay" she nodded grabbing her things and making a quick exit.

"She's lucky you opened that door Buck, i would have knocked that bitch out!"

"Im sorry about her babe, i'll talk to her tomorrow don't worry. Ive ordered the pork chops by the way, they'll be here in 20 minutes"

"What? Who's delivering you pork chops?"

"I know a guy" he shrugged pulling me into his office.

"What are you doing Buck i need to start dinner...."

"Ive missed you all day"

"We can't do this now" i laughed as he pulled me down onto the sofa "Steve and the girls are in the kitchen"

"I'll be real quick they wont ever know" he mumbled as he kissed my neck.

"Behave Mr Barnes!" I wriggled off his lap "i'll make it up to you tonight i promise, but we got 3 hungry girls and a Steve to feed right now"

"Fine okay, but i'll hold you to that"

"I should hope so, you done in here?"

"Yeah i'll be out in a minute" he said resting his head back against the sofa as he tugged at the crotch of his pants that had gotten considerably tighter.

"You make it so hard to walk away Buck" i moaned at the sight.

"You just make it so hard doll" he smirked making me laugh.

"Down boy" i winked and quickly left.

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blurb night idea? petey and you have been dating since like. kindergarten. but your relationship is like he texts you once a week and doesn't even talk to you anymore, and its super awkward (you know about the 'internship') so one day you talk to him about it, and u realize he's just afraid to mess things up and when u assure him he wont he turns into a clingy, cuddly baby and calls you pet names and all the fluff ❤💗💕💖💘💓💝

i feel like you’ve sent this in a few times (absolutely no shade i promise!!) and i’m rlly sorry for avoiding it djfkdhskdh i just wasn’t sure how i wanted to write it

three days. three days since peter parker has spoken to you. no texts, no calls, nothing. four day weekends should be spent cuddled up with your boyfriend for at least 48 of those 96 blissful, free hours, in your opinion. but it’s sunday and you’ve spent approximately none of them with peter. and unfortunately, that’s the way it’s been for what feels like forever with peter.

you know he loves you— he tells you lots and tries to make plans when he can. you’ve known each other since the two of you were barely in school and you think you’ve loved him the whole time. but “when he can” and “lots” seem to be very loose terms; the times you do spend together are great, but the definition of “date” with you two is certainly... plain. dinner occasionally, but usually just study dates, little grocery shopping trips, or excursions to the library. sometimes he holds your hand, but it’s often only meaningful smiles and puns he gives to show affection. usually, you don’t mind it. that’s just peter, just the way he is. but lately... it’s been bothering you.

maybe it’s the way you always see your friends kissing their significant others at festivals, holding hands on the way to class. maybe it’s the couples you see being freely affectionate in public, holding each other for all they’re worth and pressing soft kisses to each other’s cheeks. fairy tales all around you that you’ve always dreamed of with peter but can’t seem to realize. when you were younger, it hardly bothered you that peter wasn’t affectionate. but now? you’d be lying if you said you didn’t want him to join you on the couch, that you didn’t want to rest your head on his chest and doze off half on top of him. you’re touch-starved, plain and simple.

it’s been three days since peter parker’s talked to you, and you miss him. and way more than usual. so, you do the only thing one in this situation can do: you text him.

can you come over? the simple message reads. peter’s contact name is ‘petey’ with lots of hearts and cute emojis next to it; it’s how he makes you feel. you question whether he really feels the same. guilt settles in the moment you do, but still... you can’t shake it.

surprisingly fast for peter, a new message comes in.

of course.

twenty minutes later, just after the clock strikes eight, your little prince walks through the doorway, backpack shouldered and curls tousled. he looks so cute, wearing the absolute coziest sweater you’ve ever seen on him. wanna wear that, you catch yourself thinking. if only he would offer

“hi,” he says, smiling awkwardly. he plops down in an armchair across from the couch and takes in your surroundings. his eyes soften at the cozy atmosphere; fuzzy blankets strewn across the sofa, a mug of tea on the coffee table, and a sweet romcom he watched with you one playing on mute. and you, probably the love of his life, curled up in the center of it all. his heart aches.

“hey,” you greet gently. silence lingers for a few minutes more. peter watches the television, trying to decipher what the characters are saying with an adorable pout on his face. it’s a sight to see, truly, but you really need to talk.

“peter,” you bite your lip, “peter, i... i really need to talk to you about something?”

brown curls and eyes flit towards you, attentive and curious.

“sure, b-“ he stops himself, closing his eyes and sighing softly. your brow furrows. b? finish that!!! finish that sentence!!!

but he doesn’t. “of course,” he says. “you can tell me anything.”

tentatively, you pat the space next to you. perhaps he won’t want to take it, but you’re damned if you don’t try.

“sit next to me?”

peter’s eyes widen. he opens his mouth, like he’s ready to speak, but he doesn’t, which is both a relief and a disappointment. after a moment, he nods, drops his bag, and shuffles over. he sits next to you. you smile, but it dulls quickly.

you sigh a little. here goes nothing.

“look, i shouldn’t beat around the bush about this, i... it’s been eating at me. so.. just...” you shake your head, “peter, do you like me?”

for the first time in a while, peter parker looks truly dumbfounded.

“like you?” he breathes out. “of course i like you. i like you so much. so much.” he realizes he’s babbling before he can stop it and his cheeks go bright pink and he toys idly with his fingers. you frown.

“wh-where did that come from?”

once again, you sigh. “you just... you never really, i dunno, do anything. say much. a-and it’s okay if that’s not your thing, i get it, but...”

your gaze drops. peter follows it. “but what?”

“i see so many couples, y’know? and i get, i guess, jealous? god...” you bury your face in your palms; how much dumber could you sound? your fingers feel clammy and cold against your flushed skin. saying this feels so surreal, even if you know you have to.

it’s silent for another moment, but peter does finally speak. his voice is so, so soft that it makes your chest ache.

“are you talking about how i don’t... like...” he swallows thickly, “get... affectionate?”

you nod, still covering your face. “i’m sorry, i-i don’t mean to pressure you. i just- i just want that sometimes.”

“the pda and stuff?”

“...yeah.”

“really?”

the shift in his tone makes your head pop up. you expect an awkward explanation from him, another patch to work through in progress. instead, you hear hopeful curiosity pricking in his voice, lilting and sweet like a cool drink of water. upon meeting his gaze, you find peter’s eyes shining and round.

“well... yeah,” you say sheepishly. “we don’t really cuddle. or use... nicknames, or anything. it seems nice, i guess.”

peter bites his lip, looking irrevocably cute. he looks down, blushing deeply, and oh my god are his hands shaking? what’s he thinking?

“i want that too, y’know,” he mumbles.

your heart practically stops.

“you- you do?” your eyes widen, genuinely surprise. “like.. are you sure? because you never-“

“i know, i know,” he sighs out, squeezing his eyes shut. shaky and nervous, he places a hand over yours. god, his fingers are soft. and warm..

peter meets your gaze. “i know i never really show it, but i do love you. a lot. and i wanna, y’know, hold you. kiss you.”

you nudge him softly. little smiles brighten across the both of your faces. peter looks somehow relieved and tense all at once.

“well, why don’t you?” you ask; not judging, not harsh, but really, really curious. peter huffs.

“i don’t wanna mess things up,” he admits. “god, i’ve liked you since i still wore pull-ups, and i’m still too much of a wimp to kiss your cheek. i didn’t... i’m just afraid i’ll be bad at it. the mushy stuff.”

the mushy stuff. it makes a lot of sense, now that you think about it. the pained looks whenever your hands brush, the quiet sighs when you think he might kiss you and he doesn’t, the same longing stares at cute couples on the street that you possess. maybe if you’d looked a bit harder, you would’ve noticed your prince in his little tower, feeling alone because he wants to hold your hand but doesn’t want to mess things up by doing so. and what a doozy that is.

with only slightly hesitant movements, you scoot closer to peter and wordlessly take his hands. breath hitches in his throat quite audibly when you squeeze and find little calluses among his soft, soft skin. he’s so pretty, you think, counting the freckles across his noses the and lighter flecks in his dark eyes. and, huh, has that curl always fell like that? you’ve known peter parker since before you could count, but right now, you feel like you’re seeing him clearly for the first time.

“is this okay?” you ask, close enough to kiss if he wanted to. he nods, smiling widely.

“yeah, baby. so okay.”

baby. that’s all that echoes in your head, lingering like whiplash. baby. baby. baby. you stop in admiring your boyfriend to kiss him firmly. and, oh, it’s so nice.

you’ve kissed him a few times before, but this is different; deeper, softer, and best of all, lasting more than a few seconds. you stay in your position, cross-legged and holding his hands, until peter takes your arms and wraps them around his neck. a pleased sigh escapes you when he pulls you closer. it feels so nice.

once you’re practically in his lap, pressed flush to him and fingers curling in his hair, you pull away to breathe. peter hums softly and tucks his face into your neck, where you can feel his forehead burning (not with fever).

“i love you,” he whispers. “i should say that more. i want to say that more.”

“i love you too. and please, bub, please feel free to say that, like, all the time.”

with something like a giggle falling past peter’s lips, he lifts you against him. you gasp a little as he tilts his head to pepper soft, quick kisses all over your face.

“now,” he murmurs in between pecks, “tell me.. i gotta know the pet names you like.” he utters a new one after each kiss.

a kiss on your cheek. “baby?” you giggle; another on your forehead. “princess?”; one in between your brows; “pretty girl?”

after each one, you murmur an “mhm” and silently wonder if he’s just been waiting to call you sweet things. he keeps kissing all over your face and neck like he absolutely can’t get enough; you’re worried he’ll be drunk off of you.

as you both calm down, settling into each other’s arms for the first time in a long, long time, peter speaks.

“thank you for waiting for me,” he whispers. “i really do wanna be more, y’know, close with you. sweet with you. i just... needed some time, i think. but i’ve always loved you. i hope you know that.”

thank you for waiting for me. truthfully, you hadn’t even thought of it as “waiting.” as much as you wanted to kiss him, hold him, be affectionate with him, you weren’t waiting for that. your love for peter had never been put on hold or locked away because he was nervous to show you physically how he felt. nothing ever felt forced or delayed, even if you’d pent up some of your needs. for peter, you would’ve waited a thousand years for him. you would’ve waited a thousand life times for a kiss because, really, the physicality is not a be-all-end-all. all you need is peter.

slowly, you nod, and draw your fingers across the back of his hand. “i know,” you say back. “i’ve always known.”

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