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cocomeow · 1 year

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Update after 1 month of Coco being here

I didn't expect her to be this cuddly? When she's not tired she's mostly still not seeking out cuddles, but if she is, then she's immediately coming up for snuggles and ENJOYS them a lot. Lays sometimes on my chest/neck/almost face, to the point I can barely breathe. Often meows at me before laying on me, too.

Besides that, she's still the sweetest independent princess. Even when wanting to be alone she's staying near one, but just wants her personal space. Didn't expect that too of her tbh cause she always fled from her littermates and mom, but she's kinda clingy with all of us.

Did I ever mention she sits on me when I sleep sideways? Apparently my shoulders are very comfy.

Grooms herself so loudly that she is always waking me up.

Has a bad attention span and can't focus on a toy for more than 2 minutes, especially on her own. Playing with her works mostly better but not always. Only if the toy is new.

Dislikes most soft textures? She doesn't acknowledge her own little bed, blankets (she likes to get them put on her, but she always prevents having to walk on any), pillows, anything cuddly tbh, but loves cardboard and other rough textures.

Doesn't really seek out warm places!? Often prefers cold areas. I'm confused about that cause they're originally desert animals and I always knew cats that love it as warm as possible?

Got used to living here cause she's seeking out a few more sleeping places than the bed only, she's getting comfy at more locations.

Plays hide and seek & tag T_T it's the most adorable thing I've ever witnessed in my life.

Her agility improved soo much, she's so extremely fast and more confident when climbing.

Started chewing on cables, oh boy... She doesn't scratch any furniture or walls, but she's still obsessed and goes haywire (ha) with anything stringy. At least I got to do cable management bc of her.

When I try to distract her to not chew on cables, she'd rather chew on the cables than play. No distraction ever works, so they have to be hidden.

She also doesnt't (want) to listen, the vet said that clicker training would work, well? we tried it out and it's just not... working. She knows she's going to get a treat after listening to "no", so she does stuff she isn't supposed to, listens shortly, until she gets a treat and then repeats the process a few times. But she's also a cat, so I am not surprised she's not immediately supposed to know everything. She doesn't ever do anything maliciously, as she doesnt get aggressive, so I'm unsure whether she's very clever or actually possesses only 3 braincells and is forgetful.

Speaking of never getting aggressive, she never once hissed yet. The worst she tried was a gentle nibble, but usually she flees stressful situations.

Most stressful situations for her so far have been my noisy relatives, and the telephone ringing. She got used to the vacuum cleaner really fast.

Food is everything for her and she tries everything possible to get it. Meows like crazy when she wanna get treats, too.

Giving her deworming pills was more than easy cause they got hidden under food and she just... devoured it.

Once she went to her toilet, then she heard that we prepared food for her, RAN towards the noise as if a lion was chasing her and left a poop in the way... she didn't finish going to toilet bc of utter excitement, just did it while running lmao. Sounds worse than it is tbh, was pretty cute to see her THAT excited (besides the cleaning up part ofc)

Clipping her nails works really good when she's tired, I read to give cats treat rewards for each nail so they know it's positive. For her it doesn't work, she gets feral after a treat and afterwards it's not possible to clip them cause she's so hyper and immediately awake after getting something to eat. So everytime I need to brush her or clip her nails, it's not needed to give her a treat. She's fine with almost everything the moment she's tired.

Very very curious, has to discover EVERYTHING. What is extra cute is, that she likes when people clean here, change sheets, etc... She always sits beside and watches.

Often scream-meows when leaving her alone, sometimes even when it's only for a few minutes. Poor baby waits at the door and meows and meows. ;_; If she realizes it takes a bit more to come back, she goes back to sleeping.

Once one scary moment happened, it sounded like someone got shot outside and we all just panicked a little. Coco seemed to notice, as she went person to person, purred, and afterwards laid on her back, showing off her stomach. She is truly sweet, I really think she tried to calm us.

Gave her save plants to eat and she absolutely destroyed them. She only tried a little bit to eat them, but she plucked like 70% of the leaves and played with them instead.

Also already reacts to catnip? I thought kittens usually don't, but she does. She just rolls around on her back then lol.

Conclusion:

she's a kitten, ofc I expected her to be a bit stressful, but every moment has been 100% worth it so far and I can't adore her more cause all good moments outdo anything negative 🤍

#my cat #cats #cats of tumblr #cat #kitten #baby cat #coco #pictures #diary #british shorthair #cute

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twentyfivemiceinatrenchcoat · 5 months

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ARI *slams palm on table* i WOULD LIKE TO KNOW. YOUR JJK CHASE ATLANTIC THOUGHTS PLEASE. (i agree very geto very gojo very megs)

SEL. take a seat we’re gonna be here for a while. here r some snacks for u while u read <33 🍦🥪🥤

but okokokok so these are my general assignments!!!!! pls let me know what u think…

gojo; heaven and back, ozone, obsessive, vibes

geto; swim, triggered, hold your breath, moonlight

megumi; roxanne, august

FIRST OFFFF heaven and back…… obvious gojo pick. sue me but it rly is so Him. so pretty and angelic and high and mighty………. but also kinda melancholic?? the way he flirts w godhood…. yeah. the chorus makes me think of him so bad sel. and the instrumental in general.. hhhh…. T_T

and then!! ozone!!! star and space symbolism aside…. its just so pretty and soft n hypnotic. and the lyrics GOD the lyrics sel…. the angst of it all. the same person that i need is the one i’m running from // i don't know why……….. oh, no, you don't understand // i neglected you again (explodes)

as for obsessive and vibes….. no pun intended but both of these just have gojo vibes to me. Extreme gojo vibes. they feel so warm and nice 🥺☹️ n make me smile sm!! i can see the edits in my head

BUT ALSOO the lyrics in vibes……….

oh, she says i’m out of her league // i don't think so // i’m not ready to leave, but i should go

and i’m ready if you're ready to go // just say the word, just say the word // please say the word

let this feeling slide // and girl, i’m yours tonight

HEAVY on the last one im a big advocate of satoru ”im yours” gojo <33

(also sel…. i just finished reading col 2 and im gonna write a whole bible for it BUT for some reason these lyrics just make me think of col!reader and gojo…… idk why exactly its just such a lovely song and it makes me think of like. gojo being w someone hes comfy with!!!! after hes started letting his guard down more…. can i imply that it’s alright to let me in? // just give me time PSJFJD THEY MAKE ME INSANEEE)

but okok gojo aside. cracks knuckles….. Sugu Time

ive assigned him angsty songs but also some that r very soft bc to me he just has that contrast yknow…. teen sugu is the softest boy in the world to me but obv breakdown sugu is angsty and cult leader geto is just Twisted. and i love them all!!!!

swim…… its just. mesmerizing and pretty but also just a lil twisted to me… i feel like it can work for a lot of different versions of sugu. you picked a dance with the devil and you lucked out……… world is on my shoulders // keep your body open……. i’m exorcising demons, got ’em running ’round the block now???? its HIM.

AND AND….. triggered. this one is mostly just the overall vibe and the way it sounds but like… idk. i can just SEE the edits in my head yknow……. geto during his deterioration…. the moment he just snaps. and then his acceptance afterwards…. patience is a virtue // and i’m all out of time right now…….. tell me u see the vision

angsty songs aside i had to give him smth soft because soft sugu is real to me. so we have hold your breath…. obv emphasis on teen sugu here but i just think he loves so gently…. hold your breath // we’ll be just fine….. the smoke’s building in my lungs // well, goddamn, i’ve gotta have you…….. 😔😔😔

and finally the biggest sugu song of them all imo!!!! (and also my fave :3) is moonlight. i just adore it soo much its so lovely…. and above all else sugu is so unbelievably mooncoded to me. which is weird bc canonically hes suncoded. but hes also such a moon character……. and the ocean!! any kind of mention of drowning/waves/etc just makes my brain go ”suguru”

the lyrics are just. so so SO sugu like;

we’re diving through the bottom of the ocean // swimming through a bottle of emotions, girl

you’re hanging for a good time // something that'll make you stay

caught up in your own small world // well, i might wanna see it then // call it hesitation, girl

we’re running in the moonlight // could you show me the way again?

and then FINALLY we have gumi ….. to me hes just such a softie. so both these songs are soft and a little sad bc hes also a sad boy.

roxanne is sooo pretty and the lyrics make me think of him!! in particular college!gumi (ur influence)……. i don't ever wanna let you down // no, i just wanna kiss your lips in the rain // you know i’ll pull you closer if you start to drown…… hes cute.

as for august gumi is just SUCH an autumn boy. so ofc i had to give it to him. but its also just a pretty song for a very pretty boy!! the vibes are very Him :’3 and some of the lyrics too… you said you wanted to ride away from everything // keep pedaling, we're on our way out // i never said we should try to be anything…. yeah.

OK IM DONE 😭😭 as u can see jjk x chase atlantic is a concept im extremely normal abt. BUT SEL PLSPLSPLS……. lemme know ur own thoughts 🎤🎤🎤 recs 🎤🎤🎤🎤 anything 🎤🎤🎤🎤🎤

#sel at this point i think part of our brand is u asking me a casual question and me answering w an essay PEJDKDBD #I JUST. i love assigning lyrics and songs to characters sm <///3 its so fun!!#chase atlantic is just very very jjk coded #ask tag ✩

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witchwhaat · 4 months

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hello, here to share my opinions on troye's new album (sorry if it gets too long) 😌 as i said im absolutely OBSESSED with this album. like i always enjoyed his music, but to show this level of iconography????? CMON????? there is one problem i have with the album tho: every time i try to listen to it from start to finish, i get delayed by the fucking masterpiece that is "one of your girls" :/ every time this song comes on, i have to listen to it at least 5 times. wtf troye???? i would say it's my fave on the album, but that's an understatement. that's the best song of the whole year for me. god. isnt this giving daft punk like hello????? THE MV ALSO?????? 🤯 okay moving on to the other songs sjsjdhdhf u know that i loved all the singles, and they sound even better in the context of the album!! there is not a song i dont enjoy in this album, i couldnt even make a ranking because they are all so good. overall, THE BEATS in this album got me floating in space and shaking my ass at the same time. THE LYRICS???? i reallllly love the lyrics too i feel like they elevate the experience a lot which is so cool. the songs i find myself replaying the most (other than the obviously stated one above jsjdhf): in my room, honey, got me started (this one is a grower tbh). also i really feel like the songs are really cohesive and work so well together. i feel like every song will have their turn of being my fave in the upcoming months, because i intent to keep this on rotation ABSOLUTELY. this will be a contemporary pop classic and now troye is one of the main pop girls, sorry i dont make the rules... anyway, what are your thoughts? 😌

hello my beloved, finally answering to this ask!😭 sorry for keeping you waiting for so long aaaaaah

okay, first of all, i love your thoughts and i couldn't agree more about everything you said! <3 i keep coming back to this album, idk what troye put in it but it's SO addicting aaah! oh i absolutely understand the obsession with "one of your girls" bc GOD, it's amazing. chef's kiss on every level, the lyrics are perfect, the production is 10/10, the mv!!! (and yeeees, the daft punk vibes!!) are you kidding me?!! imo, the mv perfectly shows the transition between this album and troye's previous albums, he's confident, he's serving and he knows what he wants! and that's actually something i love about the whole album, it's very touching to see him being even more mature with his music and SO confident and it feels so freeing! genuinely, i'm so happy and grateful that i grew up with his music, it was veery important to me in my teenage years and it makes me so happy to see him grow as an artist (and person) waaah🥹 and i think that's also why i love this album so much, bc it's another step! ANYWAY yeeees, that's something i love so much about troye's music - how lyrics elevate the sound and vice versa. and oh yeah, the sounds and beats got me ascending aslkfkdsjfkjsah like come oooon!! and yeees the album is cohesive but i also like that every song has it's own story bc that's another thing i really like about troye's music haha which is narration! and with this album, i really like that there are themes that connect everything together, but that it's also all pretty "loose" and bc of that the songs are both good on their own but also work very well together! what can i say, troye gets it and he's The pop girl! fr, i was so excited about this album and had high expectations and he did not dissapoint! i love every single, although yeah, i also wasn't convinced about "got me started" at the beginning but it's a really good sample and i enjoy it A Lot now. it's soo hard to choose a fave, but i love rush (i could write a whole essay on rush AND i'm OBSESSED with the mv), still got it, can't go back and what's the time where you are? (perfect "me and this song against the world and life horrors aka going to work/uni" song) the most i think. troye saved this year with that album and he saved me during winter semester lol i'm so devastated that he's not coming to poland on his tour WHY troye WHYYY😭 (like what do you mean you won't come to poland but there's 5! FIVE germany dates come oooon)

#pelin i love talking about music with you mwah!#again so sorry that i kept you waiting for an answer for so long😭#ask #kimmkitsuragi #this got so long aaaaaaaaa sorry🫣

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bittersweet-folder · 10 months

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2: If you could meet anyone on this earth, who would it be?

15: Do you prefer to be behind the camera or in front of it?

29: Do you believe in ghosts? How about aliens?

2: I wonder who would it be, hmmmmm my online friends and Tumblr mutuals . I mean there aren't much people ik tbh. OH AND my favorite bands- signed copies of albums would be so good to have 😭😭 I want some from my favorite bands 😭 and yess few authors too because why not 😭 and get my favorite book by them signed. I'll be so freaking happy 😭. (I sound like a crazy fangirl)

15: I am the photographer soo behind the camera ofc

29: YES I BELIEVE IN GHOSTS. and call me crazy but I had a whole phase of being obsessed with the history of horror urban legends which tbh still exists along side with true crime podcasts I listen to. And I've had paranormal experiences as well.

About aliens: honestly I totally believe that it's made up. But this is my opinion totally. But at the same time what if they do. Think of it. Human imagination can create the most quirky, out of the box things ever and human intelligence helps it to come into being. So in a way humans might have thought that "what if life exists in space?" "what if there's a another planet in which life may have existed" Curiosity helps us to know about the unknown but SOME ABSURD SIGHTINGS makes us wonder otherwise making us stick to that thing to research for it more. And at the end of the I feel like if aliens did exist we should mind our business and they should too.

"I ain't bugging you, you ain't gonna bug me"

This should a sign board in space on a rocket ship or something fr if aliens exist ✨

#raina dii🩵#asks <3

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placeinthisworld · 3 months

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I’m that anon and this might sound over the top but I genuinely feel so so so heard right now because for the longest time when I followed them their takes and the way Taylor just fully consumes their life made me feel drained. I remember always side eyeing how they would conveniently side step criticising Taylor whenever she would genuinely mess up like saying oh they’re not a part of that group so they don’t want to take up space but it’s like okay I get it, hell I can even respect that but why aren’t you reblogging posts criticising Taylor made by the people she has directly hurt from her actions then. the way that fans go into dissecting very minute details over there sometimes made me think of how inevitable it is for Taylor to not grow and change cuz these are the blogs that always filled up Taylor’s feed and realistically fans like this is what she’s exposed to and on a human level I can’t imagine being treated as if every minor action of mine is worth extensive praise. The mental development of a celebrity impacted by being placed on such high pedestals has always intrigued me. I won’t lie there was a time, whenever I came home from school I would sit and obsessively consume only Taylor content and would be very defensive over her in real life as well but ( and I’m not trying to be super judgemental here) I can’t imagine being that committed to protecting, coddling, praising and borderline worshipping somebody like that when I know that individual never even considers my existence for like a second, I genuinely can’t imagine doing this for years and years and never growing past it especially with everything Taylor has done.

I still remember how condescending and truthfully mean they were being to anons when some fans questioned why Taylor swapped out invisible string for the 1 and they defended joe so so so much as if they were his lawyer or something but as soon as they broke up the absolute switch up kind of floored me cuz I always thought that they genuinely started liking joe for his work at one point cuz of how much they would place him on a pedestal as well before but damn I got whiplash from soo many blogs after the breakup. I know this turned into a giant rant and I’m so sorry but it’s just I’ve never come across anybody that felt the same way cuz generally literally everybody praises that blog and treats it like royalty sometimes so it’s like getting to vent to somebody for the first time 😅😅😔😔

100000000% bestie i agree with everything you’ve said 😭

i followed them too for the longest time and always kinda followed that same mindset too. but something changed when eras started that made me just kinda….feel like there was a tswift overexposure/ blowup where it suddenly felt like people were only online again to gain clout, and then the breakup happened and everyone and their mom was suddenly a diehard swiftie with all these opinions about it and it started to make me feel icked out by the way people just…..casually discussed and debated/speculated about her personal life and their entire relationship without knowing really anything more. when the breakup happened i definitely saw the switch from just another swiftie to literally suffocating up taylor’s asshole. i mostly blame tumblr too for giving them that attention lol i think that definitely fed into their dialogue. i remember being kinda sad when i unfollowed but knew it was better for me bc their interactions with anons and their opinions were so wild lol. i also remember starting to feel like i was a bad fan/ swiftie if i couldn’t defend taylor like that in good conscience so i figured disengaging would be enough, but then meathead came into play and suddenly their narrative became clear that they were really just ready to support and defend taylor about absolutely everything (and then somewhere along the way they blocked meeeee and ngl i wa so caught off guard bc i had unfollowed so long before that i couldn’t even tell you when it happened or like what i said to cause if LMAO i’m sure it was one of my criticism posts about taylor but like still find it funny!) because at the end of the day we’re all just fans seeing what taylor wants us to see and nobody really has any insight as to what taylor is thinking or how she feels, yes even if you spent a few hours with her once 5+ years ago……

overall is been a very eye opening experience as to how parasocial relationships develop and how weird people are on social media…..i always said (jokingly) that swiftism was a disease but like i actually feel like it is

#answered #anon #anonymous #anon i’m so glad u feel heard bc i also feel heard i thought i was just a bad swiftie

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mytrasheden · 2 years

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SPOILER ALERT: MOONAGE DAYDREAM

Things on top of my head after seeing Moonage Daydream:

- Very specific stereo sound system mix, can be too loud at times, but most of the times it let the bass go straight to your chair & your heart and my God that was amazing

- Really good visualization, but at times I feel like I'm watching a very dedicated cinematic fanvid., which in a nutshell is technically what the movie is. It's not a documentary chronically his career, though it loosely, very loosely follows chronically his career, but more on how his artistry and opinions evolve and simultaneously stay consistent through time

- Hence, weird pacing at time. The mid part lags on for a bit

- Very focus on his 70s to Modern Love period musically and quote wise. His talks during the 90s were streamlined through out tho so it's actually more than what people think. Still, very 70s focused, but I wouldn't say they didn't try to put a shine on his 90s opinion, they are just divided and shown through out the movie

- I wish there was more Diamond Dogs & Isolar tour (the 1st one) contents.

- The Earl's Court is similar, but holy fuck I love the quality of these videos

- LOVEEEEEEE THE REMIXES. Aside from Heroes. Ironically they butchered that with the loudness & some production issues. HALLO SPACEBOY WAS SO GOOOOOOD I LOVE THIS VERSION SO MUCH. Same as Word On A Wing, Let's Dance, Ashes to Ashes, Space Oddity, Rock n Roll Suicide, Warsawa, Subterranean, V2 Schneider, Moss Garden, All The Young Dudes, those are really good that I can remember. Probably best version of Let's Dance I have ever heard.

- Special things: there are ALOT of mash-up of different songs that turned out REALLY WELL. Like songs I wouldn't think to mix together. Black Star & Hallo Spaceboy was sooooo good. Same as Sound & Vision + A New Career in A New Town, the Modern Love mix was with Station to Station (?) I think. The Word on A Wing + Heroes mash-up was so hopeful and then Heroes was butchered pretty bad.

- Basically, I would go to hear a lot of those music's again. Lots of good quotes, mainly good new narrating from Bowie at the beginning. Man this man is obsessed with his horoscope and natal chart.

- LOTS of stuff you can definitely find online and have seen if you are my deep into the rabbit hole tho lmao just not as good quality. I'm kinda disappointed that the vault was opened and I have kinda seen most of these. Bowie's own footages of stuff are good tho!

- HE WAS SO BEAUTIFUL IM CRYING. That Earl's Court look and the Let's Dance non-perm looks Osjbdhamkxhgghsk his blond hair was soo sooo good

- That vid of him being messy painting his stuff,

Overall, I like it, I wish the pacing was better in the middle, but really good later half and good first half. Overall more of an experience and artistry manifestation of Bowie rather than a documentary. You would learn some and some if you're a casual fan but like, casual fans don't know much about this at least in my area soooooo we have all known most of these things. Musically I would pay to hear those again when they come out. Earl's Court Bowie and Serious Moonlight non-perm Bowie are ethereally beautiful fight me. I'm not paying the IMAX price to see it again but holy shit that sound system.

#david bowie #moonage daydream

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foursdarkdays · 7 months

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i like a girl lol

Sooooooooooooo ummm the title of this rant? would be "i like a girl" lmaooo Soooooo yeah theres a girl i kinda like?? its nothing serious tho but yeah i like her ig, she's not really my type tho but idk . She treats me so well i cant help it. i feel things lol. I keep checking my phone every second of the day (just did again) and it sucksssss. She kinda likes me back? atleast thats what she says . but idk i dont think so. The possibility is too narrow but yeah.

She has a boyfriend lol and its not like i care tbh cause its not like i wanna make her cheat on him something i mean she wouldnt and i wouldnt want her to. Also i know this isjust a phase for her and itll go away soon. for her or for me. Yk know i cant like someone for long especially if i dont see a possibilty of us dating. so yeah im gonna go with the flow rn. She told me that she had a crush on me since months tho but again ahh i dont think so. maybe shes overthinking . maybe she just wants to be my friend.

anywayyy soo im just going with the flow. we flirt a lot. we blush a lot. Thta bitch flirts with othets and makes me jealous lmao dumb fuck and i do the same bwahaah. sooooo yeahhhh i know after whatever this thing is ends im gonna be sad af for 2 weeks i think? cause we talk so much and its gonna be lonely. but again im a pro at moving on soooooooooo

7/10/23 (1:51am)

(im gonna keep adding the rants)

and the best thing about this is that i'm very well prepared for the heartbreak so im sure it wont hurt much lol im actually very sure about that. I always expect the worst in these things so its going to be chill. I'm sure shell come out of this phase soon and it will only be a memory for both of us. mostly in a good away tho. I'm not gonna take this too seriously and just have fun. you're flirting? okay ill flirt back. you're treating me well? ill do the same yeah thats it lol

i have a strong gut feeling that this is gonna end soon like 3-4 days? i dont know. lets see

7/10/23 (18:25)

Oh wow soooo it almost ended that day lollll but then yeah we kinda talked it out? Anyways i feel like something changed after that. I think in a good way? The obsession feelings decreased and maybe the good friendship feelings increased? I honestly have no idea and i should probably stop trying to figure it out lol. Anyway now I'm back and i think she doesn't like me anymore. Maybe I'm just over thinking? But lol nvm let's see how it goes

11/10/23 (2:05am)

Lmao bitch read this post. anyways im gonna act like no one knows about this account. Its soooooo scary i know i've told this before but its just really scary. See i have trust in myself that if IF something goes wrong ill move on fast, OKAY WHY AM I OVERTHINKING AGAIN. lets fuck this. SHES SO CUTE IM SO OBSESSED I HATE HER SO MUCH. ITS SO MUCH FUN TALKING TO HER. even though sometimes i really wanna push her off a cliff but its okay. I wanna write so much but im blank again wtf

14/10/23 (01:48am)

Why do i feel like she hates me now. Maybe she'll finally lose feelings. i mean yeah thats okay and understandable but it'll be too sudden so idk. I'm ready for anything at this point . I wanna text her but i guess ill give her space. I'll just distract myself and sleep. She has nooooooo idea about the amount of over thinking im doing rn. im so sure shes done with me and will never see my face again. lemme prepare myself. Thankfully im veryyy tired so ill fall asleep easily.

14/10/23 (9:22 pm)

i randomly have such sudden outbursts of love for this baby. i want to cup her face and kiss her whole face , i want to hug her to my chest and kiss her head and baby the fuck out of her. She's gonna cringe reading this (please dont). I want to like put our foreheads together and close my eyes and feel it yk??? i sound soooooo weird. Please dont be creeped out

15/10/23 (10;02pm)

I like her so much like so so so so so so much. Its very scary and i know for a fact that i will be hurt later but ugh its sooooo worth it. I'm sooooo happy with her. The feelings keep growing and i dont think im gonna let it stop. its okay ill let it grow. yoloooo sooo ahhhhh. We just had a pubg date sksksksk shes soooooooo ahhhhh. She flirts so confidently , i was panicking behind the pubg call sksknjiuck. anywaysssss ugh I want to kiss her sooooooooooooooooo bad like fuckkkkkkkkkk i wanttttt!!!!!!!!!!!!.

20/10/23 (01:13am)

Hiii so idk bro she says she's more obsessed with me but obviously i disagree. I think i really fell harder lol I mean it's scary af but anyways. Idk she can go for hoursssss without talking to me and be fine and me ? Lolllllll I try to text back whenever I can but she doesn't do that. Maybe I'm asking too much. Okay i should chill out fr. I don't wanna depend on anyone lol. I only want fun stuff here even though i know I'm kinda in deep but anyways it'll be okay. I know she's putting a lot of effort i shouldn't complain. I'm getting more than i deserve anyway. And I AM happy af. I just miss her i guess. I sound sooooo stupid. Ugh I hope she doesn't read this

21/10/23 (17:12)

(23/10/23) 1:40am

She didn't text me back today. But I'm gonna be understanding. I don't want to overthink. Not today . There are so many possibilities and i wanna listen to her . I really want to be understanding. Because i genuinely care . I didn't text her back till 2pm due to some valid reasons tho but anyway I feel calm now. I texted in our gc and she seen zoned but maybe she has her reasons . Let's see . I don't want to think about anything. I really hope she's alright .

It's like i want her to text me about her day and all but then I don't want to expect much i don't want her to do zyada also idk she's already treating me nicely and it makes me happy. Its honestly more than enough and I don't want to be greedy.

23/10/23 (19:12)

okay sooo ummm the reality is hitting me these days. I was okay being the side chick but its really hitting me lol. Its not like she makes me feel that way nahhh she shows that she cares. Its just that idk maybe im only stupid. she flirts with others and sends me screenshots and everytime she does that i lose little feelings. Even though she does that for fun idk. If she keeps doing this, i might actually lose feelings lol idk how to tell her that. I dont wanna bicker or anything i dont have the strenght and anyway she'll be like nooo i do it for fun only because im cool. **heavy sigh** nvm . but should i let her know? communication is good yk. i guess ill try tonight. if she doesnt fall asleep. Okay ill tell her that, rest is her wish lol .

oh yeah btw todays our 1 month anniversary???? ehehehehe

okay she fell asleep, shes really sick so i hope she feels better soon.

but anyway i keep feeling stupid lmaoooooo i need to stop feeling this way and accept it. Thats the only way lol

21:23 (30/10/23)

Wah its been long, soooo umm idk we kinda had a disagreement? i honestly dont know what that was but yeah im 1000% sure that it wasnt my fault. i took my time to write and explain everything but nah i guess shes mad at me? ofcourse she is. we didnt talk the whole day and its kinda driving me crazy but im trying to look normal. I wont text her first , not because i have ego or anything but because im not at fault here. She took things a little too far and i got triggered. But again i did explain her everything like why it triggered me and all because i didnt want any misunderstanding. But yeah shes mad at me for that? i honestly dont know what to do. is this the end of us? i dont want it to end like this. I'm not ready but i also wont text first. She needs to own up to her mistakes. I miss her. I miss her so much . please text me ughh .

its okay i guess. this is like a break for us i think i dont know how this will end up

22:56(7/11/23)

lmao i got on with a lot of thoughts in my head but as usual im black again. sooo i cant stop thinking about her and its scaring the shit out of me. Atp im pushing myself to go out with friends and family just to divert myself from thinking about her lmaooo yeah its that bad. The worst part is even k-pop idols are not helping me this time. Its always her on my mind. But ill try my best to distract myself because i feel very one sided. Its prolly not but kinda is . idk. But i'm also behaving the same way with her ig? i talk about idols and behave like they're the only ones on my mind when its absolutely false. I'm sure its not the same for her tho. she really isnt that whipped for me lol. and thats okay. ill keep trying to calm myself down . BUTTT the more i try the more i think. What do i do?

05:36am (17/11/2023)

we had a talk yesterday and it hit a nerve, It hit a wrong spot and now idk what i feel anymore. It was hurting. My heart felt like it would explode. I felt too much that i dont feel it now. No i'm not over her. It'll take time for sure but something snapped for sure. I'm taking a break today, from her. I need to analyze my feelings and emotions and think. I need to be ready for whatever is about to come. and i will be, Im strong and i can do it.

I never spoke about this or wrote it here but i think i should now. I need to analyze my feelings and write it out. I like her. i like her a lot. It was all happy happy at first, just us flirting. It wasnt that serious. But it did get serious later. A lot of feelings got involved. I know i know that she has a boyfriend and that i am a second option. I know its genuine and she really likes me. But i sometimes i wish the other way around. Everytime she mentions her boyfriend, its like a stab in my heart and reality hits me. I get distant for a bit. idk if she notices. its not her fault tho, I cant talk to people about this because i know what they're gonna say. "its all your fault, you knew she was taken but you still chased her. its all on you. you"re stupid for even hoping or wanting something from a straight taken woman" oh dont even get me started on how much it hurts when she tells me shes straight. Its gives me mixed signals. she says she wants to kiss me, hold me and do things with me and then she says shes straight. see i know sexuality is not an easy thing, it takes a lot of time and courage and thinking to come to a conclusion and tbh its okay even if she doesnt, but i cant stop my feelings and my overthinking. what if she doesnt really like me and its really just a phase shes going through. because im confident about the way i feel. i like women, i like her, romantically , emotionally and sexually.

i want her. i want her so bad even if its for a month, i want to experience how it feels like to be in a real relationship with her but i know its impossible. Like that equation doesnt even exist.

yesterday night, when she told me she loved me. i couldnt say it back. I didnt have enough energy to feel things because my heart was already hurting. Thats why im taking a break from her today, Her calling me baby , princess and whatever cute things she does , its making me feel guilty. She shouldnt do those things for me, but i want it . i dont know what im typing honeslty. i just want her so bad but i know i shouldnt. i NEED to tone down now . from my side, ill take the love shes giving me, also reciprocate. but not more than that because even i feel guilty and shes going through things because of me, she says its worth it but is it? i know that one day both of us will move on from this. I'm pretty sure we're gonna think about this and laugh but right now i want her, But i also dont , But i do. lol.

14:04 (21/11/23)

Hi, lol. I feel so much for her. like so so so so much. what we have is so precious and important to me. i dont want to let her go. As a girlfriend, yeah i guess one day we'll have to part, but as a friend? i dont want to lose her. I may sound greedy but along with her girlfriend(idk what we are but lets pretend im her girlfriend) right now, i also want to be her second best friend. Is it too much to ask ? i mean i guess it is. It hasnt been that long but our emotional bond is too strong and idk if ill ever find it anywhere else. Even if i dooo ugh idk i just want her for a long time. Even after we break up and take our time off, i want her to talk to me. This may sound selfish but yeah. I still want her to come nag to me, complain about things and share her problems, emotions etc. Relationship issues, marital issues, friendship issues, work related issues, family issues, financial issue etc like literally anyyything. I want her to feel comfy with me, I will never force her tho. I just hope things turn out this way instead of us completely falling apart. Because if it breaks , im sure itll take more than 2 years for me to open up tp anyone again. After my last ex best friend , i really shut myself off and it was lonely. I do have friends and i know they are always there for me but i cant open up to them. emotionally. But with her i can. So i want her , need her for a long time. We may drift . life is unpredictable and people change so its okay but i hope both of us try our best. I know she said she ignores and ghosts her close friends when she feels something is off and then they drift apart but i want her to really try for us. Idk if it will be worth it for her but i want her to try because i know i will. unless she wants otherwise. lol why am i having such emotions today? this is the first time im feeling this way. with us i mean. okay ill stop now.

26/11/23 22:30

I think I'm in love lol idk I tried so much to not be 'in' love and to just love her but I think I failed at it. I'm even scared to admit it to myself because I'm a coward. I still don't want to admit it to myself. I love her so much . I feel so stupid for loving someone who loves someone else. I was never like this. What is wrong with me? Idk but can it be helped? No. I know I'll move on in the future and everything will fall into place but right now ugh i love her and I feel stupid af. Like really really stupid. I'm never telling this to anyone tho. They'll make fun of me lol. They won't understand. I myself don't understand anything. I'm giving away so much of myself and it's going to take a lot of time for me to get it back like after we break up. Anyways I hope she gets well soon. She must be in a lot of pain. It hurts to even think that she might be in pain ughhhh stupid**inserts my name* get it together.

Come back soon . I feel like a zombie without you

Lol I just looked at my instgram activity and was wondering why I had spent 4 hours on Instagram yesterday when we didn't even talk. Then I realised that we did. It has only been a day but it feels like weeks? Wtf? What is going on with me. I'm scared I'm so so scared.

28/11/23 (23:43)

Happy 2 months to us lol sksksk anyways I didn't miss her yesterday. Probably because I was dealing with my own shit . Doesn't mean I like her any less. I still care . I hope she feels better soon

30/11/23 (00:19)

I googled the recovery rate and the death rate of dengue and I'm more paranoid now. Maybe I'm crying too much because I'm sick . I cry a lot when I fever like it heightens whatever I feel and now I'm worried about everything. Myself , her ahhh.

This is way too scary. New fear unlocked. I don't wanna say it but ugh just the thought of your loved one not being there hurts lol. I think I'll never move on from it. Never. So dear universe or whoever is listening to me , you've been mean to me these days , there are only 2 things that I want the most right now. The most. And I'll do anything for it. 1. Her getting well soon. 2. I need freedom from my life . Which means moving away to another country. I need these so bad. I don't care if I don't die anymore. I know I've always wanted to die and that was the only prayer in my head but now no. I want these 2 . Please please please. I won't be able to take it please ahh I'm crying again. I'm never getting attached to anyone again.

It's December already, please please please I promise that if these two things happen, I WILL NEVER NEVER EVER think about killing myself again. I promise this. I really really really promise you. But , if not , then that's it. You know I've always wanted to die , ever since 2011, so I'm giving up on this if I get the things I want. Atleast the 1st one. I won't be able to live at all.

Why am I crying so much. It's too much to handle. I feel like the nerves in my head will tear open with the strain. Its been long since I cried so much . I know I'm over thinking but why can't I fucking stop. STOP. Okay I'll just sleep .

1/12/23 (00:05)

I didnt miss her at all these last 3 days but i think i miss her a little today. I suddenly think about her and feel like crying. This is not because i miss her but idk. I feel like every bad thing happened to me at once and my mental health is at stake. 1. her being extremely sick with that deadly virus? whatever it is. 2. My uni thing. 3 me falling sick as well. i cant control my emotions when im sick. especiallllyyyy fever. i feel so weak and that stupid fever aftertaste on my tongue is making me wanna puke. i think im sleeping a lot these days. like 16 hours a day or something, maybe physcial and mental exhaustion is catching up to me. fuck this life . anygays idk i hope something good happens please. i wanna cry again lol. crying feels nice all of a sudden . its all because im sick lol. i guess ugh idk fuck this

i slept on the couch yesterday night, i think ill do the same tonight lol. i always sleep on the couch when im sick i guess??? ah im sleepy again. prolly med effect. ill eat and sleep now. i hope my baby feels almost better tomorrow. wow im sleepy af all of a sudden . no energy i think ill fall off byee

01/11/23 (20:16)

Lol i haven't written in so long ahhh yeah idk it's going okay I guess. We were having a call on gmeet with another friend of mine and she spoke about her boyfriend today. Idk what happened to me and why it happened but I cried wtf? Like wtf?????? Idk what to do anymore. It's reality I know but it's hurting. I know I'm just a ummm what am I again? No one omg fuck this

03:20 (18/11/23)

i love you

22:36(uk time zone) 11/02/24

Ah i need you so bad but i yeah i should be understanding. I’ll be. But know that i need you so bad like emotionally but im not brave enough to text you .

15/02/24 1:14pm

I love you . It feels sad now . When i think about her, my brain makes me sad lol. Whenever i imagine fake scenarios with her my brain keeps constantly reminding me that im just delulu and nothing will ever happen. I already know that but lemme be happy? i keep thinking about the break up that will happen soon when she gets engaged. I know there’s time, there’s a lot of time but i can’t stop thinking about it. It’s like it’s always there at the back of my mind. I just wanna be delulu , carefree and happy. I don’t wanna think much okay bye

29/02/24(2:30am)

I hope you dont see this but I’m so sorry. There are so many thoughts running in my head rn. I feel like im ruining something perfect. i mean you and him. I know nothing will change , yall are the end game and i dont want that to change. But the guilt is hittinf me these days. Am i that bad? Am i that selfish? What am i supposed to do? Shouldi stop? I dont want to stop but i dont want to be so selfish. Am i really a homewrecker? fuck

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Hmmm I like romance, but the ideia of having a partner is soo scary. Because I'm a people pleaser and I know I'm not perfect so feeling not enough is really terrifying.

ʕ´- ᴥ -`;ʔ

More asks!

1. what do you consider green flags in a relationship?

2. If u had the money to buy a space ship, would u buy a space ship?

3. U think money change people?

Awe well I'm sure if you meet someone who knows you're a people pleaser and they really like you they'll probably make sure you're not just trying to please them and actually get to know you. Ik that's hard to find but I feel like I wouldn't take advantage of someone knowing they can ppl please so maybe there's more ppl like that :) [also I'm putting #1 last because it's long oopsi]

2. I would, just to go to the moon, get some moon rocks and bring it back to my girl, then I would donate it to science but still have it under my name just in case the girlie wants to go to mars or something

3. Yes, in different ways. Some change in the sense of no longer hanving anxiety about spending and others change in the way they use it to be superior to others. Either ways it's going to change your mindset it just so happens it can be good growth or negative

1. oooo green flags🟩🟩🟩 there's not a green flag emoji lmao how rude but um

Being emotionally available I'm not saying you have to have absolutely zero mental illness to date like that's shitty I mean it as communicate with your partner if somethings up instead of just immediately breaking up

Emotionally intelligent kinda goes with that^^^

Stands up for partner

Committed

Clear intentions

Goes to get mental health assistance if needed and wouldn't shame me if I need to get any

Romantic or wouldn't shame me for wanting to do romantic gestures

If they talk to about me to other ppl I take it as a green flag because to me it means you want ppl close to you To know I belong to/with you heehehe

Healthy possessive obsessive!!!

Can admit when they were wrong and wouldn't take advantage of me when I admit that I'm wrong (this goes hand in hand with not taking advantage of a vulnerable moment)

Doesn't do "breaks" like if you do need a "break" from a relationship I would expect you not to go with someone else cuz the whole point is that you'd come back to that relationship. Which is why I'd probably communicate something like ah we are still together you just need time to focus on whatever etc.

Communication and comprehension in general.

Likes doing things together even if they may not necessarily know much about it or enjoy it but if they seriously don't like to then wouldn't pressure the partner (it's okay to have different interests! ^-^)

Doesn't make fun of my culture, cultural wear, or accent. Like there's a difference in laughing if I pronounce something wrong like I'd laugh along too but don't like dig into it with insults like "you should look it up on the dictionary, how do you not know, why is your accent so thick now you sound like a dramatic Mexican on a TV show"

Not judging each other's family like I had an ex insult my cousins house and I was livid because that's all they could afford(that's the kind of judging I mean, now if they're racist etc that's fine lol they had it coming)

Will split house chores with me or do them with me

Cares about their health and appearance I'm not talking about a social beauty standard lmao I'm just talking about like just be clean homie. (However, wouldn't judge the partner if they're in a depressive state,and would take care of each other if that were the case) there's a big difference between those too😅

Good Sexual chemistry, mental and emotional connection,perhaps bonding souls 👉👈

Help each other grow and meet goals

Huge green flag if the relationship is actually based on true love

Huge green flag if both partners know that a relationship doesn't have to be perfect and the person doesn't have to be perfect for it to work

Isnt afraid of Couples counseling if needed

#sweet anon #asks #anon #green flags #relationships #healthy relationships #of course i wouldnt put anything on the red or green flags if i didnt abide by them like that is just wrong to ask that of someone #personal #txt

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LATE NIGHT TALKING

A/n: and absolute bop! Can’t wait to hear the studio version! Here’s a little something that includes, grapes, matching tattoos, The Notebook, hot tubs, hitties and a load of giggles and cuddles. This is soo random but I hope you like it, notes reblogs and feedback would be much appreciated <3

No warnings just fluff and a few suggestive themes.

‘Harry you’re getting grapes all over the floor’ you scowl at him not wanting grape juices all over your carpets, but when he tries to catch another grape in his mouth and nearly falls off the sofa in effort to catch it you can’t help but burst out laughing at your silly boyfriend.

‘Just one more go, gonna get it in this time’ you shake your head because he had said that about 6 times already. He concentrates on the task at hand, then throwing the fruit up in the air before it lands straight in his mouth with a popping sound.

‘Yessssss’ he punches the air dramatically at his achievement.

‘ Well done’ you clap sarcastically not very happy that is was 12.30 am and you were picking stray grapes up off of the floor, when you could have been watching a film or just…just anything except that.

‘M’sorry let me help ya baby’ he gets on his hands and knees right next to you picking up the small gapes in his hand, his hips bumping into yours every soo often making you chuckle.

When you’ve done you you both take the remnants of grapes to put in the kitchen bin ‘H are we crazy, it’s nearly 1 am and we are still wide awake’

‘Probably darling, we maybe shouldn’t of had those coffees at the cafe after dinner earlier’

‘I guess so, they were really good though’

‘I’ll give you that baby, and besides I get to spend more time with my favourite human’

‘Aww you’re cute H’ you walk to him and wrap your arms around his middle, and he wraps his arms around your shoulders gently swaying you both side to side.

‘What should we do now?’ He asks softly in the small space between you two.

‘Hmm’ you look as though you are concentration racking your brain before coming up with a summative conclusion.

Well firstly I think you should give me a kissy and then we should go and put a rom-com on the telly, but it has to be in that order’ you specify making him chuckle.

‘Deperate for my kisses now are we darling’

‘I wouldn’t go as far as desperate’ you counter his statement going out of your way to not fuel his ego.

‘Hey, take that back you love my kisses’ he pouts down at you.

‘Im joking baby, of course I am’ you give in leaning up to press your lips to his and he instantly kisses you back, the action instantly reminding you of the lyrics ‘kiss in the kitchen, like it’s a dance floor’ making you smile into the kiss, this then gives Harry the perfect opportunity to deepen the kiss by letting his tongue explore your mouth, and you have to suppress the moan that was threatening to fall from you mouth.

He pulls away after a few minutes and many kisses later, ‘you still haven’t admitted that you love my kisses’ he pries for you to say the words that would satisfy his ego.

‘I love your kisses baby’ you shake you head smirking, knowing that he wouldn’t have let you get away with it.

‘Thankyou, now should we go and put a film on and get snuggly upstairs’ he suggests.

‘Yeah that sounds like a good plan, do you want any snacks’ you say into his chest still having not moved out of his embrace.

‘Think I’m okay for now darling, why don’t you get everything ready upstairs and I’ll get us a drink’

‘Okay thanks H, don’t forget to lock the front door and turn the lights off’ you remind him.

Don’t worry I won’t darling’ he assures you and with that you skip upstairs, and when you get to the bedroom you turn in the fairly lights that seemed to adorn every surface of your room, you had to say that you had a little obsession and wouldn’t even think twice about buying them when you saw them in a store. You get some extra blankets and light a scented candle, and flick on the TV choosing a film quickly which happened to be ‘the notebook’ that you had starting watching the other night for the millionth time and you knew that it would probably become background noise anyway.

When Harry finally makes it upstairs with the two drinks in his hand trying not to spill them, his tongue stuck out in concentration he can’t help but look at you in awe of how pretty you look with the lights hitting your skin making it look like what he can only describe as honey gold.

‘Careful H’ you warn.

‘Its not my fault you look soo dam good’ he protests and you can’t help but laugh as he passes you your drink and then puts his down on the nightstand.

He then dives onto the bed from a standstill nearly landing on top of you ‘ahhhh H’ you shout.

Once he stills on the bed he turns his head towards you, ‘hiya baby’. He asks says sweetly.

‘Hi H’ you say turning on your side to face him, stroking your fingers through his curls.

‘What do you want to do tomorrow, well today’ you correct yourself.

‘Not sure, we could go and get breakfast if you want at that little bistro that you like’

‘The one with the really good avocado toast’ he practically drools at the though of it.

‘Yeah that one, and we could then see what Sarah and Mitch are doing and do something with them and the baby’

‘Yeah we could, that would be nice, feel like I barely spend anytime with them outside of music or touring’

‘That’s not your fault H, your just a very busy person, they know and they love you no matter what, just like I do’

The crease inbetween his eyebrows softens at your words ‘m’too hot’ he quickly announces before sitting up and whipping his t-shirt off and throwing it god knows where on the floor.

He lays back down and you can’t help but admire his bare torso and the lights glistening off of his skin and tattoos and you find you hand trailing from the top of his chest down to his abs and you do not miss the fact that his eyes stay glued to your hand as it moved .

‘Do regret any of the tattoos you have’ you ask randomly.

And he sticks his arms up the air as off to inspect them ‘not sure really I like all of them they’ve just become apart of me, think I would look weird without them, like I did when I filmed don’t worry darling and they covered them all up’

‘I could barely recognise you without them to be honest’ you chuckle.

What about the word big on your big toe’

‘That one is pretty stupid’ he agrees.

‘You know what we should do’ you wait for him to try and guess.

‘I’m not sure, what should we do baby’ he says in a questioning tone.

‘We should get matching tattoos’

‘What would we get’

‘I was thinking cute little fishes, because I adore you’ you refer to the adore you music video.

‘And I adore you baby, and how that mind of yours works, that would be soo cute’

‘I know, so should we?’

‘I’m all down for that darling, gonna love matching with you’ he leans down to press a kiss to you lips sealing the deal.

You both turn your attention back to the film happy with your little agreement, and its the scene where Allie and Noah are kissing in the rain.

‘I wanna kiss you in the rain’ he pipes up again.

‘Why, it’s just like normal kissing but a bit… wetter’ you cringe at your choice of words.

‘A bit wetter, oh it definitely would be’ he laughs finding a double meaning in your words.

‘Oh my god Harold’ you facepalm, knowing that you led yourself straight into that one.

‘That gives me an idea actually’ he points his index finger into the air.

‘Oh no, what now’

‘Don’t worry it’s not a bad one, think you might like it’

‘Okay go on’ you prompt him to carry on with his idea already intrigued.

‘I think we should get a hot tub, and put it on the deck in the garden’

‘Oh now we are talking, imagine how relaxing that would be, we could practically go in it whenever we wanted’ you say not even having to be convinced by him.

‘Knew you’d want to, know you love it when we stay at a hotel with one, have to practically drag you out of it at the end of the night’

‘Hm we can start looking online, find some shops to look in aswell at some point’

‘You know what would be the best think about it, we can go in it, naked’ he points about in excitement.

‘H, you are unbelievable, is that the reason you want one’

‘Well I’m not going to lie and say that I haven’t imagined you naked in a hot tub an unhealthy amount of times’

‘You’ve got such a dirty mind Harry’

‘Stop complaining, you love it really’

And you do, you don’t admit that to him out loud but you know that he can practically read you like a book by now. You focus back to the tv and the ending credits have started rolling and you have gotten considerably more sleepy not what it was nearing 2am.

You shift your self above H, and he lies flat on his back knowing what you were silently asking for, and so then you place your head on his chest laying your arm across it aswell before hooking you leg over his.

‘That’s better, your titties make the perfect pillows baby’ you say dreamily into his chest, you hand focusing on brushing his swallow tattoo back and forth.

‘I don’t have titties’ he takes fake offence knowing that you are only trying to wind him up.

‘Then how do you explain these then, they are the perfect size, just saying.’ You press a kiss to his skin just where you head lay.

‘What ever you say darling’ he gives up, huffing out in defeat.

‘I love you baby’ you say sweetly.

‘I love you too… I suppose’

‘Hey that’s not very nice’ you give a look of fake offence.

‘M’only joking, course I love you, love you more than life itself’ he says and it makes your heart melt.

‘That’s impossible, because I love you more’ you protest.

‘Nope, can’t ever happen’ he argues the invisible measurement of how much he loves you.

You can’t find anything clever to say so the only other option was to kiss him, hoping the power behind it would show him the enormity of your love for him.

You pull away after a couple of minutes, getting lost in each other’s lips and you fall into a serene silence but you think of something you need to say to him, you just hope he hadn’t fallen asleep because you couldn’t quite see his face when yours was tucked into his chest.

‘H, baby thankyou’ you say breaking the silence in the room.

‘What on earth for?’ He say bewildered.

‘Jus…just being able to talk about random shit with you till the early hours of the morning, I don’t know it just makes me really happy’ you smile widely at hun.

‘That always my aim baby, to make you happy, you don’t need to thank me for it, that why I’m here’ he smiled back his heart going all gooey at your admittance.

‘I do though’

‘You make me the happiest person in the world by just being you darling’ he says truthfully his fingers carding through your hair.

‘H, you’re gonna make me cry’

‘Don’t cry, tryna make you happy’ he says in fake aggression as he places his hands on your sides tickling you, and you break out into fits of giggles.

‘H,stop im gonna pee’ you manage to get out breathlessly.

‘Sorry darling, don’t really want to be sleeping in you pee’ he removes his hands opting to stroke your sides up and down instead.

When you calm down you can’t help but let out a yawn, probably the hundredth one in the past hour.

‘Why don’t you go to sleep baby’ he suggests noticing how droopy your eyes had gotten.

‘Mhhh okay’ you give not battle, making yourself comfy on his chest again, sleep now aching to take over you.

His hand finds your cheek where his thumb grazes ove the soft skin, ‘close your eyes darling, I’m here, I’ve got you’ he reassures.

‘I love you H’ you sleeping say.

‘I love you to baby, hope you dream of me’ he sings songs.

You let out a sleepy laugh before wrapping yourself even more closely to his body, letting sleep take over you, Harry can’t help but watch you in this peaceful state still stroking your cheek before gently pressing a kiss to you forehead.

Harry tries to get to sleep after realising that is was last 2am now, he closed his eyes and sleep does not find him even after a good five minutes, he thinks that his love for your late night talking had emancipated his brain into a florry of thoughts, and that’s when he realised that the real reason was, the fact he just couldn’t get you off of his mind. He could complain, but knew that he wouldn’t want it any other way.

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astxrissm · 3 years

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tea, anyone?

Pairing: Levi Ackerman (tea shop/modern day AU) x Reader

Summary: The best part of your day is when Levi Ackerman visits you in your tea shop. However, schedules don’t always work out as planned.

Word Count: 2k

A/N: My first fic in... oh geez, has it already been four months? YEAH things got crazy with school and stuff, but now I’m back(for good, hopefully, fingers crossed LOL)! Expect to be getting a lot more Levi fanfics soon, aot is my officially my new obsession 😳

Anyway, I hope you all enjoy!

My mind wanders as my eyes flit past the draped shop window, searching for the familiar figure. It’s almost time- and he’s never late. Maybe this time he’ll be wearing his black trenchcoat or the patterned scarf that he knows I love so much. It’s been so windy today, maybe his hair will be a wild mess. Then I’ll tell him how funny he looks, and he’ll give me that scowl. The one that-

“...and that’ll be all for me.” the woman finishes with a satisfied nod.

“Right,” I say, snapping out of my daze. I lean down to finish the order form, hoping that the woman didn’t notice me spacing out. It’s been difficult focusing today, for whatever reason. Things only get worse as the day goes on, as the thought of Levi visiting my shop clouds my mind, distracting me. Sometimes it’s worse than others-usually when I’m busy, time flies by so quickly that I have to do a double-take when I see him walking through the front door. Other days, when there aren’t as many customers, I find myself counting down the minutes until his arrival. Usually, I’m able to focus, but today is definitely one of my worst by far.

CLANG.

I jolt, the hand that holds my pen scribbling across the order. It proceeds to fling out of my hand and onto the floor with a clatter. Quickly, I swoop down to pick it up, standing up so fast that I can feel the blood rush to my head. When I glance back down at the paper, a dark, deep line has covered the bottom of the order, making a couple of the written items almost unreadable.

But that’s the least of my problems right now.

“Sorry Ma’am, did you say that you wanted anything else?” I ask, trying my hardest to ignore the sounds coming from the back kitchen. Something obviously has happened, but I need to finish this woman’s order first. I’ll just pray that the delivery people don’t break anything else in the process.

The old woman’s eyes flick to the back door, an amused smile spreading across her thin lips. “It sounds like someone’s dropped something.”

An awkward laugh escapes my mouth and I cast a hurried glance back at the door. “Yes, it’s probably the delivery crew. Let’s just hope they didn’t drop my new order of china.”

“Oh my, that would be terrible! You don’t think that…”

I smile and nod as the conversation continues on, seeming to drag on forever. The sounds in the storage room seem to have muffled after the original crash, but that’s hardly a good sign. If I were to put money on it, I would say that whoever’s back there is trying to clean up whatever they can before I find them. After all, this is the second time this month there’s been an… incident.

When the woman finally says her goodbyes and shuffles over to a back table, I whip around and make my way to the door as fast as I can. My mind is racing through so many scenarios that I can barely even focus on one. Did one of the flour bags explode? Maybe one of them slipped? Or maybe it really was the china, and I’ll have to figure out some way to make enough money to buy more.

I don’t have to wait long to figure it out, because, within a matter of seconds, the door is swinging open.

It takes me a moment to process the sight in front of me. First, my eyes land on the two regular delivery workers. Both are highschoolers-Amy, with her eyes just about as round as her glasses, and Jin, with his jet-black hair and disapproving stare. They’re locked in a furious whispering argument- at least, Jin is arguing. Amy seems to be doing a lot of sniffling and shaking her head.

They both stop as soon as they hear the door opening, their gazes snapping to mine. It’s when they turn that I can see the mess on the floor.

“I-I don’t know how it happened!” Amy exclaims, seeing where I’m looking. Tears stream down her face as she talks but she doesn’t seem to notice them in her fit. She clutches the half-empty bag of matcha to her chest, the rest spilled on the floor and down the front of her apron. It coats the tiles, sprinkling the previously white floor with blotches of green.

Jin only rolls his eyes and raises his arms exasperatedly. “What do you mean you don’t know how it happened? You tripped and fell-”

“Guys.” I cut in, and they both stop, glancing over at me. “It’s fine. I’ll just clean it up.”

Amy’s eyes widen even more. “But that was your only order this-”

“I said it’s fine.” I repeat, the words coming out sharper than I intended. Amy flinches, and regret shoots through me instantly. “Just get me a broom from the supply room, would you?” I ask, softer this time. She nods quickly, not wasting a second to hand off the bag to me and escape through the door.

I sigh as I glance into the bag. Amy was right- this is the only order of matcha I have this month. Considering how much of a staple it is in so many drinks, I doubt that I’ll be able to get by with it, even with the other container I have.

“Do you need help cleaning up?” Jin asks, tearing me from my thoughts. His brow is furrowed as he gazes at me, seeming to try to read just how much this is going to cost me. Even though he and Amy are a good decade younger than me, they’ve always had a special concern for my tea shop. The whole of their high school does, as a matter of fact. The shop is at its best when on a Friday afternoon, students coming filling in to catch up and get their special drinks. The babble of conversation washes over the shop, filling the room to the brim with warmth.

And of course, Levi sitting at the table closest to the register, ‘reading’ or ‘catching up on his work’. I know that he sure as hell isn’t paying attention to the words when I talk to a student by the register or flit past him on my way to bringing out an order. Our time together is always so short, there seems to never be enough. The glances we sneak at each other, the shared conversation when no one is ordering- those are our best moments in my shop. The times when it seems that there isn’t anything else in the world- only him, me, and the cup of black tea between us.

I glance back at Jin’s concerned expression, turning my mind back to the present. The number of times I’ve consoled Amy, given advice to Jin. If any of the students care about my shop the most, it’s those two.

But I only shake my head. “It shouldn’t take too long. You can just unload the rest of the things.” Jin casts me a doubtful glance but begins to turn around. But just as he’s about to exit the building, I call out to him. “Oh, but also… try to be easier on Amy, alright?” he opens his mouth as if to say something, but seals it shut a moment later, giving a curt nod.

I hate to mom him, but he knows what he’s doing isn’t right. I can always tell when he’s at his worse- Amy cries when she’s upset, he gets angry. Neither of them needs any more stress in their lives, especially not from each other.

Just as I hear him open the back door to retrieve more boxes from the truck, Amy rushes through the entryway to the kitchen. She clutches the broom in one hand, a dustpan in the other. Her tears have dried in streaks down her face, and her eyes are still red. But she seems to have been able to compose herself enough to slow her breathing.

“Thanks, Amy! You can just get through the things already in here.” I amend. She nods and moves towards the rest of the unpacked boxes, seeming to still not trust herself to talk.

I turn around swiftly, bending down to clean up the spilled matcha. She’ll come to, I know it. Jin is frequently short with her, I have a feeling there’s a deeper meaning behind his frustration. It’s something I’ve been meaning to talk to the two of them about for the past couple of weeks, but I just haven’t been able to find the time.

Add that to the list, I think as I sweep the matcha into the dustpan. As my thoughts turn to my to-do list, they increase the pace. With a start and a glance at my watch, I realize that Levi should be here. Him and probably a million other customers that I’ll need their orders taken.

As fast as I can, I polish the powder off the floor and scoop it into the trash. I need to get that first woman’s order together, refill the coffee beans, check the-

Pushing open the door, I catch a glimpse of someone waiting at the counter of the corner of my eye. “Hi there, how may I-”

But I break off mid-sentence when I see who it is, a slow grin breaking over my face.

“Levi, what a nice surprise,” I say steadily, moving over to the front of the counter. He gazes back at me, a small smile tugging at the corners of his lips. Even though to most his expression would look impassive, I can tell just how happy he is to see me by the way his eyes twinkle, how his hand twitches at his side. Everything is subtle with Levi- you just have to figure out where to look.

“Hello, (y/n),” he says, resting ever-so-slightly against the register.

We hold each other’s gaze for a moment, my eyes reflected in his steely gray ones, amusement flickering behind the depths. I tease him for a few more moments before I break the silence, leaning away and picking up a pen. “Your regular, I presume?”

He opens his mouth to speak but is promptly cut off by the slamming of the back door.

I turn around to find Amy standing in the doorway. “H-hi (y/n).” she starts, her eyes flicking briefly to Levi before looking hurriedly away. “I finished unpacking the boxes. Do you want me to run the shop so that you can go out?”

My eyes widen, and it takes a moment for her words to process. “Really? Are you sure you can manage the shop by yourself?”

“She won’t have to.” another voice speaks up, and Amy whips around. Jin steps beside her, emerging from the storage room. He awkwardly glances down at her. “That is, if you’ll accept my help,” he adds.

“Of course!” Amy responds quickly. “At least, don’t yell at me anymore.” she amends, glancing up at him uncertainly.

Jin looks away, resting a hand on the back of his neck. “Yeah, sorry about that.”

“Aw, okay, while you two make up I’m going to head out,” I say, shucking off my apron and tossing it into the back room. I ignore their mutters of dispute and push open the half-door, joining Levi’s side.

“You can never resist, huh?” he asks as he glances back at Amy and Jin, who are now setting up shop and talking in hushed tones.

I smile at him contently, taking his hand and bumping our shoulders together. “No, I can’t.”

He glances at me out of the corner of his eye, really smiling now. It nearly takes my breath away. “Where are we going?”

I shoulder open the door, a cool breeze drifting over us as we step outside. “Somewhere in the city. Somewhere beautiful.”

“But your tea shop is the best place here,” he says, pulling a face and looking over at me reproachfully.

But I only wink at him, squeezing his hand. “Trust me, I’ll make it up to you.”

(Uhm, part 2 anyone?? I had a lot of fun writing this, I might write a second part if I get enough requests! Hope you all enjoyed 💖)

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beauty-of-depravation · 3 years

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Wanna make love ?

Gif not mine ♥️

Okey I've written the whole damn thing in one go, i didn't read it twice, I'm thirsty for Bucky everyday of my life.

Warning : explicit sexual content +18. Fingering/fucking/Making love/ condom is not an option/from slow to rough/ slow burn/FwB kind off/ dom Bucky/dirty talk

You always were a bold girl.

The afternoon had been going amazingly. Bucky is your best friend, and recently you both have been feeling off. You don't know if it's the approaching winter, or the work related stress, or just the weight of your pasts, but you needed this afternoon. A whole afternoon spent talking, about big everythings and sweet nothings. You went from talking about tragic events and confessing some pent-up feelings, pretty intimate emotions and impressions, to laughing and fooling around. the wind was strong and the rain fell violently on the window. Bucky was sitting on the wooden bench under the window and you were sitting cross-legged, on the carpet, your half-emptied glass of wine in hand, and an empty pack of cookies by your side. You still have a huge smile on you lips, and your belly still hurts from laughing soo hard, Bucky is one goofy motherfucker. The calm slowly comes back, and you let yourself fall on your back, still smiling softly. The silence is not awkward, it's serene.

And then you feel it.

They say nothing good happens after 2 am. They say it all seems to start after few taquilla shots. They say that hot summer nights are the most likely to lead to sex. The stories talk about how two best friends are in love, the girl comes back after a terrible date, her guy best friend invites her to drink. Maybe him too had a terrible night. after few shots, they flirt, fuck hard, then confess.

What about calm rainy afternoon. What about sharing a bottle of red wine. What about the fact that Bucky can't get drunk, and you only had two glasses. and then you want to make love ? What about If you are not in love, you just want to make love.

What if you are not falling in love but just falling in desire ?

What could possibly go wrong ?

You tilt your head back up, and look at the man by the window. One leg bent against his wide firm chest, the other on the ground, his long brown locks framing his face, his amazingly beautiful eyes are fixed on the apocalyptic landscape behind the glass. He is wearing a black t-shirt, and sweatpants. Your eyes wander over what you know to be a perfectly toned chest, and to his metal left arm which is facing you. He doesn't really like to leave it seen by everyone like that, but with you, he doesn't have this complex.

You stand up, walking to the bench, and sit beside him, also admiring the stormy weather.

— Wanna make love ? you say in raspy, dreamy voice, without looking at Bucky.

— What ? you hear him turn around to face you.

— I said, wanna make love ? you repeat, still not looking at him.

— Y/N what do you mean "make love"

— Bucky, are you completely dumb ? you finally turn your face.

— You mean ...sex make love ?

— Yes, James, because we are six. Sex make love, you reply with humour in your voice.

— i mean, where did that come from? he asks hesitantly.

— i don't know. I want to make love.

— right now ?

— yes, right now.

— with me?

— yes, with you.

Poor man is so confused, but you can see his body tensing.

— i ...i just want to have you inside of me right now, while we look out the window, look how much it's raining, and how the thunder rumbles, wouldn't it feel so good ? You heard his breathing go heavy, but you still add, if you don't want to just say no.

— it's not that I don't want to, he answers quickly, just need to make sure ...are you drunk?

— A little tipsy. Not enough for me to not know what I'm asking for and not enough for you to feel guilty.

— So, you are just a weirdo ? Some humour is back in his tone but you feel like his voice is ... deeper.

— Yes.

— will it ...make things weired ?

— no, consider i want ....a really deep hug.

— from me ?

— James, if you don't kiss me in the three next seconds consider that I've changed my mind.

But you decide to go easy on him, and lean down half of the way, he comply and bring his lips to yours, gently, slowly, you start kissing eachother. It's ... poetic. Like you wanted it to be. You weirdo beauty obsessed girl.

You and Bucky, it feels perfect. Two souls permanently damaged. Two best friends. Why do people always think that "soulmates" is a word for couples only?

His tongue gently caress your lip and you part them, letting him invade you.You taste eachother the wine and the tenderness. His flesh hand is soon traveling along your back, to the back of your neck, and it sinks into your hair. A muffled moan escapes your lips when his metal hand grab your ass and push you against him, pressing your chest to his.

— Wait, wait, you breathe.

— What ? Bucky move his head back, and look deepe into your eyes, half- worried, half disappointed.

— Relax, we are not stopping, James. Just, let me straddle your lap.

He chuckles, you love this sound, it makes you smile whenever you hear it.

— come here, he whispers, as he grab you ass more firmly, extend both his legs on the bench, leans his back to the wall behind him, and pulls you close, he initiates another kiss, and you start slowly moving your hips on his.

You hear him grunt, and a cheeky smile come to your lips, as you feel him getting hard. You feel him smile arrogantly to, and you don't understand why, until he suddenly push his hips up, crashing his hardening cock with your crotch, a loud moan escapes your throat, you open your eyes and meet his gaze analyzing you, his metal hand take control of your hip rolling, and he makes it more intense. You can feel it now. The man is...god blessed. Fuck.

— Bucky...! you whine.

— Yes, doll ?

— don't tease.

— Then get of me.

— What ?

— Don't worry, Y/N, we are not stopping. You stick your tongue out at him, falsely irritated as he quotes you. But you face becomes red pretty soon when he adds in a dangerously low voice, his lips against your ear, Let's just get you ready for my cock, yeah ? Let me taste this pussy, doll.

He chuckles at how fast you jump off his lap. He slides down from the bench to, drop to his knees and tap the space on the bench in front of him, taken by a sudden shyness you sit at some distance from his face. A loud laugh escapes his throat, and he suddenly grab under your knees and and pulls you toward him.

— Don't shy away, doll. Now, you are not allowed to cum, and don't you dare move. Understood ? he instruct while pulling down your pyjama pants and underwear at the same time.

— Yes.

— good girl. I'm going to take great care of you. he says, with nothing but sweetness and desire in his voice.

And suddenly, his mouth is on your pussy, his tongue flat against your clit. You mewl your pleasure, and your forearm covers your eyes, as he licks a line along your sex.

— Oh, god !

An deeply amused "Ehmmm" is his only reply.

He kiss your lips, bite your inner thigh and leave a hickey there. Then licks again, from your entrance to the head of your clit. You squirm at the feeling, and his metal hand push your hips down

— Doll, i really want to take you, make it hard for me to prepare you, and I'll push inside of you right now.

— Then do it, I'm wet enough, you argue.

— No, you are not, I'm to big for your little pussy.

You moan and your inner walls clench imagining him

— Cocky shit.

— I saw how you clenched, into dirty talk sweetheart?

— i can still change my mind about what we are doing.

He chuckles again, and ...it's weak to say he gets to work. He fucking eats you out like you are his last meal. He roughly suck at your clit, making his name spill from your lips like a plea, both his hands on your thighs forbid you to move an inch, as he keeps pushing and playing with the devil's door bell.

His tongue flicks your nub, and it takes a scream of pleasure away from you.

— I'm going to push a finger in, doll.

You moan and try to make a move toward him.

— ohh, so needy... Alright. But you have to tell me which one.

Your eyes snap open.

The mother fucking bastard. He knew, and you knew he knew. And you knew he knew you knew by the tone he used.

Okey. You might had confessed to Bucky, about a month ago, that you were...very curious of how his metal fingers felt inside a woman. And be might have answered by :

"They never get tired"

And you said "your too sweet to put a woman through that in bed" and he replied with a wink and "try me"

Ohh. Ohh. No.

But as if he was reading in your mind, he said :

— don't worry doll, not tonight. Tonight, we are going to make love slowly, by the window, for as long as you want. But i still want you to admit it.

— Oh, please..

You slaped yourself mentally, you were aiming for a sharp tone, but you sounded...needy.

— Say it, or you'll never know...

— You fucker... alright...i want the metal hand...

— what do you say?

— fuck off.

— alright alright, We'll work on manners another time.

And with that, he pushes knuckle deep one cold metal finger.

— how does it feel, sweetheart ? Tell me, his voice is sweet but still firm.

Oh that, that is an exercise you love. You focus on the feeling.

— it's cold, and it contrast with my temperature, i can't feel the hard metal on my walls, and ...oh when you move it like that, i can feel the tip of your finger lightly pushing on the spot...

Bucky is focused on your breathy description...and when you mention the sweet spot, he suddenly push harder on it.

— oh yeah ? This one ? Like that ?

— Oh fuck, Yes yes there Buck, right there.

— yes m'aam.

And with that, a second finger push inside of you, and he start pumping a little faster, pushing on your sweet spot.

— Oooh your fingers fill me up Soo good buck.

— Two fingers and already full, doll ? Unless I make you take at least three, my cock is going to stretch you out...oh doll, you just clenched around me. Like the idea of being stretched out on my big cock, hmm ? Good girls take a little pain, perfect girls enjoy it, which one are you ?

As you moan and don't answer, a third finger roughly push inside you, no warnings.

— Ooohhh buckyyyy !!!

— I said, which one are you ? His voice is now commanding. And his fingers fuck you harder, waiting for the answer.

— Pain is part...fuck.... part of beauty.

You feel him smile against your thigh, as he kiss it sweetly while fingering fucking you with all his might.

You feel your orgasm coming, you focus your mind on the sound of the rain behind you, and the feeling of Bucky's fingers pumping in and out of you at a demential pace, and his lips are back on your clit as he draw circles on it. Your soul is about to leave your fucking body. And you smile, the image of it is beautiful, you have this amazing man between your legs, and behind you a storm is ragging.

You moan loudly, and grip the sides of the bench and ...

— WHY DID YOU FUCKING STOP ?

a loud laugh, a real sincere laugh echos in the room as you sit up, looking at Bucky.

— Oh my God, your reaction is priceless doll ! You are the most fun I've had in decades!

— well that's not a surprise...you mumble, rolling your eyes, as he keeps laughing.

— Soo light headed... He says, taking off his shirt, and then his sweatpants. He went back to serious, and you had a hard time swallowing your saliva with the look he gave you. I told you, you were not to fucking cum. And you forgot.

Your eyes open wide. Shit.

He then grabs you by the waist, and sits down, his back to the wall, and make you straddle his lap once again. You wiggle on his muscular thighs, as he sows wet kisses on your neck, his long fingers grab the hem of your t-shirt. He slowly takes it over your shoulders.

— Fucking hell, i'm still a man doll, your tits freely bouncing at every movement you made had my head spinning all afternoon.

You giggle and he smiles at you sweetly, giggling to.

— Your skin is so soft...

He kisses a line between your breasts, then capture one of your nipples between his teeth, making you arch your back. He swirls his tongue around the sensitive nipple and suck on it passionately, as his flesh hand plays with you other boob, massaging it, pinching and rolling the nipple between his fingers. He then make his way of kisses up you neck, stopping behind your ear, he whispers:

— So now, sweetheart, let's follow the original plan, you are going to sit on my cock, and we are going to make love, as slow as I command you to, looking out at the storm. And if you want to cum, you are to beg for it.

— What ? But i..

— Oh, no back talk now sweetheart. Those boxers are getting tight.

You look down at the huge bulge. Ohh. He wasn't kidding... forgetting about the arguing, you caress his length through the thin fabric, and he release a deep growl. You slowly kiss his neck while sliding your hand in his underpants, feeling how his cock jumps at you touch, how heavy, and hot it is between your fingers.

You can barely close your fingers around it's girth.

— Told you you needed to be prepared... He expire between two heavy breath as you play with him.

You don't answer him. Because you can't deny he was telling the truth, and you don't want to flatter his already flattered ego.

— you planning on taking the boxers off at some point, doll ?

— Hmmm, you might need to say please...

— Fuck...

You squeeze harder on his shaft, and he moan.

— Okey, okey i guess I earned that ...please doll, take the fucking boxer off so I can ruin you pussy ?

Your entire body shudder, as you finally push the boxers down, letting his erection bounce to his stomach. Your hand slowly travels up and down his thickness, spreading the precum. You want to taste him. Want to know how much if him you can take in your mouth, in your throat, maybe he'll push your head down and make you take more, You look up at him, his head is thrown back, his eyebrows frowned and his mouth slightly opened. That's... beautiful. You want to see what he will look like when the head of his dick will hit the back of your throat.

— Fuck...i want you in my mouth, Bucky.

— Fuck ...I'm going to get cursed for missing this opportunity...fuck. no.

You have an obviously desapointed look on your face, as you keep slowly stroking him.

— Oh doll, don't play the puppy eyes on me. I want to see you choke to, but another time. Right now, come here, on top of me, so i can play with your perfect tits, and lower yourself on me.

You moan, excited to have it inside of you, You lift your hips and slowly, slowly move down.

— Ohh fuuuuuck.

The tip going inside of you is the most delightful feeling. It's heavenly.

You feel Bucky tense under you, he is trying to keep himself from moving with all his might. You devilishly decide to play a little more.

You sink few centimeters more, not even half way down, and then back up, then back few centimeters down, and you stop. Acting like you need more time to accommodate his size, even though you only have the tip in.

— oh Buckyyy, you are Soo biiiig, you feel so goooood, you moan in a fake porn star voice.

He gets it, your playing with him

You know what they say about teasing ? It backfires.

— Oh really ? Then doll, why don't you take all my fucking cock, you.fucking.tease. and with that he grabs you hips and snap them down roughly.

The next moans that escape you mouth are everything but overplayed.

— Fuck Bucky...

— That's what you get for being a tease, now bounce, slowly, and everytime you stop, I'm going to spank that ass. Leave pretty hand prints on it, yeah ? Now, bounce.

For how long did it go ? You can't even say anymore.

— Oh ... sweetheart, your legs are shaking ? Well, to.fucking.bad. *SMACK* take it harder. Ohh sweetheart, i didn't mean harder like that, it's not enough for a tease like you, is it *SMACK* ? More like that, he says as he grab you hips and empale you on his cock, up and down, up and down, no breaks, you are not going fast enough for his liking? No problem, he bucks his hips up, meeting you halfway.

— What, you want to cum ? But no, you can't. Don't even think about it. *SMACK SMACK*

— Doll, look in my eyes, right, look at me, you are doing so good for me. Go slower, you can't cum just yet remember, go slower.

— Look at those beautiful nipples, you like when I suck on them, yeah ?

— Grab on my shoulders, kiss me.

— What ? Why did i spank you this time ? Because I wanted to sweetheart *SMACK*

— tomorrow there will be my handprints all over those pretty cheeks. *SMACK*

— sweetheart ? Let's take a break. Yes, sit down, no, no, keep me inside. Just sit down, you wanted to make love right? I think you know better then to tease me know ? Yeah ? Good girl. Keep me inside of you, let me wrap my hands around you, let's look at the storm, aren't we confortable like that ?

You looked at the storm. From time to time he's move slowly. Or you'd readjust to feel him. the pleasure was a slow burn.

You grabbed the wine bottle from the floor, and you shared what was left of it. From time to time between heated kisses and touches you or him would crack up a joke, a dirty comment or a philosophical one. You asked eachother how come not more best friends had sex like that ? It was the best feeling. You had nothing to prouve to each other, you had no expectations, you were just here to feel good. You kissed for what seemed like hours, sometimes open eyes, sometimes closed, sometimes heated kisses, tongue swirling and mixing breaths, sometimes just gentle pecks.

By the end, you were both on the verge of insanity. You needed to cum. Bucky was sweaty and struggling to keep control, his hands all over you, his breath heavy and his voice as desperate as yours.

— Okey, what do you think about fucking me now ? You propose, heavy breathing.

— We done with love making? Asks Bucky with the same tone.

— The storm calmed down, you reply with a smile.

— Fuck, finally. Get on you back doll, he orders.

You painfully got off him, your legs muscles were sore.

— you're an asshole

— and I'm going to make you cum, get over yourself, he replied, still finding in him the strength to keep up with you temperament, as he stands up before you, towering over you body. God the man is beautiful. What a sight.

he raises your legs and puts your feet on his shoulders.

— Ready ?

— More then FUCK.

You head throws back.

— Oh. Fuck. Fuck. Fuck. He curses to as he pushes inside of you and immediately starts pounding. You really are crazy tight, fuck.

Your sounds of pleasure mix in the air, the room is full of the smell of sex. It feels soo good. No one can fuck you like that, no one can understand how you like it like he immediately does. And no one except you can make him confortable enough for him to fully enjoy the moment. You both have wicked mids which are always afraid of something, afraid of an inversible threat that is constantly around you, the only thing you trust, is each other.

— Bucky, bucky I'm going to cum, fuck fuck, Bucky !

— yeah ? You are going to cum on my cock, doll ? He fucks you harder is that's even possible, and his metal fingers go to your clit and furiously rub it. Say please.

— Fuck...Fuck off.

You didn't think he'd be capable to stop. But he did. immediately. Everything stopped.

— You are not going to fucking cum if you do not beg, I'm not backing off of this. You say please, Bucky, make me cum, please. Or i leave you like that.

— Oh my God are you...arggg your breath is taken away from you as he roughly snap his hips, pushing himself all the way in, as a warning.

— fine! Fine, please Bucky make me cum! Please!

He smiles, and start pounding and bullying your clit so much you might cry.

— see. What. Arggg, a fucking good girl you ...can be. let it go, doll, cum, cum around me, ohh god, your clenching Soo hard, you feel Soo fucking good, don't try to escape, keep cumming, keep fucking cumming, oh God I'm cumming to, oh god doll you feel Soo good, so good...

You scream and cry out, your orgasm dragging out as he keeps playing with your love button, and his cock twitchs inside of you as he spills his hot sperm deep inside you.

— oh fuck, doll Fuck. Fuck. Fuck. He grunts and moan, and bite at your calf as he orgasms. And collapses on your chest. You hug him tightly, and you stay like that. Both panting.

They say it all ends with a happily ever after.

But maybe love story's always have to bring tragedy. They make us irrational, and some philosophs say that being in love brings the worst out of us, jealousy, insecurities, codependency...etc

What if the best love stories are friendship stories. And nothing says we can't spice them up a little, right?

They also say male/female friendship doesn't exist.

At the time you didn't fucking care what they said.

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For Jester please, weird asks that say a lot: 9, 11, 16, 18, 19, 21, 22, 23, 26, 27, 29, 30, 44, 51, 55, 56, 57, 58, 66, 67, 68, 73, 75, 87, 88, 89, 91, 93 and 94, please? If it's too much, feel free to only answer the ones you like the most, or completely ignore <3

Thank you so much for this!! It's been ages since somebody asked about Jester, and it's always a pleasure! DISCLAIMER: I usually answer oc asks that are worded directly towards the OC in character...obviously that's kind of difficult for Jester...but I said fuck it and did it anyway.... soo here are her answers roughly translated from cat language (I guess):

Don't judge me too hard.

weird asks that say a lot

for Jester

9. favorite smell in the summer?

My human. Something about his sweat makes me all giddy

11. what you have for breakfast on an average day?

The human sometimes leaves out some wet jelly food...but he obviously doesn’t know what’s good for me so I make him give me some of his food. If he doesn’t have any I’ll roam the area for some nice goodies in the trash. There are some treasures to be found there.

16. most comfortable position to sit in?

I prefer lying down over sitting any day. Paws tucked under my belly. That's the life.

18. ideal weather?

Sunshine.

19. sleeping position?

Flat on my back...if I’m comfortable enought to show my belly. Otherwise I usually nap on the side.

21. obsession from childhood?

Zippers...I think that’s what they’re called. At least that’s what my human calls them when he pleads me to stop munching on them. They’re hypnotising...I can’t help it. Never could.

22. role model?

The Cat in the Hat.

I don't know much about the lad, but if you own a fancy hat, and have your own biography, you've got it made, its plain to see.

23. strange habits?

I eat the noisy plastic things. The world feels small and safe when I munch on the plastic, so leave me be human.

26. favorite activity to do in warm weather?

Dozing off on a sunny bench or something akin to that...its pure bliss.

...the good season makes me very lazy.

27. favorite activity to do in cold weather?

Visiting various humans that take pity on me. Its a nice change of pace...and I get a lot of well deserved attention.

But I never stay for long.

Somebody has gotta check on my human after all.

29. best way to bond with you?

Be polite and give me space. But be ready to give me attention if I need it and I’ll do the same for you.

30. places that you find sacred?

The store of the chicken man. (the Grilled Chicken stand in town)

I have yet to convince the chicken man to give me some of his offerings. For now all I can do is stand and sniff in awe.

44. favorite scent for soap?

Soap is evil, there is no goodness in the scent of soap, only terror.

51. current stresses?

The piece of paper that is stuck under my foot. I'm trying to accept that it might stay there forever. We are one now, whether I like it or not.

55. favorite fairy tale?

What's that? It sounds yummi.

56. favorite tradition?

I like to wake my human with a sing song every morning. He doesn’t always approve of it, but I myself get great enjoyment from it.

57. the three biggest struggles you’ve overcome?

1) Unexpected change. I never liked things to mess with my shedule. It took me long enough to get used to the antics of various humans in my life... if things suddenly don’t fit the pattern....it’s jarring...but I learnt to handle it very well.

*cuts to Jester clinging to Mel’s head and hissing during fireworks on New Years Eve*

Mel: Totally...

2) I have encountered vacuums in various shapes and sizes and I have survived them all.

3) Having been rejected for reasons I have yet to figure out. But it doesn’t matter anymore, I found a good substitute human.

58. four talents you’re proud of having?

I have a marvellous singing voice

I can get humans to do my bidding with my hypnotising stare

I can see into the future. I can tell my human is gonna trip minutes before it happens...

...i'm good at making humans trip.

66. favorite flower(s)?

The fuzzy yellow things, that pop up everywhere when the rainy season is over. Seeing them excites me for some reason...and they don't taste too bad either.

67. good luck charms?

I like to bite my human's hand before I go on a stroll, it brings good fortune.

68. worst flavor of any food or drink you’ve ever tried?

Some weird sticky stuff with some crunchy bits (peanut butter) ...it smelled infinitely better than it tasted and I couldn’t get it out of my mouth, no matter how much I tried. The shame...of having my human laugh at me while I’m in such a pickle...it only added to the horrible taste.

73. favorite weird flavor combo?

Newspaper and salty things Apart from the fact that it annoys my human it’s an exilerating experience.

75. when did you lose your first tooth?

I don’t pay attention to such things.

87. your greatest fear?

Being rejected again....and being trapped in a room full of vaccums with no escape.

88. your greatest wish?

...a chicken from the chicken man.

89. who would you put before everyone else?

I don’t play favourites, whoever appeases me the most at any given moment, will be my first. After my human of course...because he’s just lost without me.

91. boxes or bags?

Boxes for comfort, bags when I'm feeling frisky.

93. nicknames?

Jes(s), Cutie (with various suffixes), HEY!! Your majesty, potato princess (a personal favourite, it sounds very elegant) diva, fool, WHATTHEFUCKAREYOUEATING, rude bitch, Chonkybutt, Jester Bennington

I think the human forgot my actual name quite a while ago and is just too embarrassed to admit it. Not that I care...I like the variety of titles.

94. favorite season?

Theres only three seasons for me. "Rainy season", "Cold season" and "Good season". Go figure, human.

#for clarification #the info she gives is canon #the fact that she talks is not #but I friggin felt like it #sims 3 #Oc asks #Oc: Jester #drawing way outside the lines

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Broke Me First - Rafe Cameron

Request: I just read your Exile fic and it was soo good! If you have the chance, could you do a Rafe fic about “You Broke Me First” by Tate McRae, totally fine if you cant! Have a great day😊💕 @k-n-e

A/N: So...totally obsessed with this song now lol.

Outer Banks Masterlist

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You slipped passed the group of party-goers in the hallway, ignoring the person calling your name though you knew that he knew you had heard him. Why else would he be following you through the house, weaving around drunk couples and friends of friends as he called your name again. The sound of your name wasn’t completely drowned out by the bass of the sound system in the living room but you pretended it was as you opened the door and walked outside, the cool night air hitting you like a wave, washing over you as your feet hit the driveway. You were almost free, almost to your car.

The door slammed behind you and a warm hand grabbed your upper arm, turning you around and forcing you to come face to face with Rafe Cameron.

Despite the look on your face, on of complete shock, you weren’t surprised at all that he had followed you outside. It had been months since the two of you had talked, since he told you that he was “over” the two of you and moved on. And just when you thought unblocking his number didn’t matter, he started calling you again, texting you about how much he missed you and asking for another chance.

“Let go.” You insisted, standing there slack and not bothering to fight against the hold. As if Rafe would simply go back inside, poof away like smoke.

“Can we just talk?”

You blinked, looking up when you felt the familiar sting of tears. You’d given him months of them and you wouldn’t cave again. Not this time. He was the one who showed up to this party with his new girlfriend, how was he going to follow you outside like this now.

“Just go back inside. She’s probably waiting for you.”

Rafe scoffed, “I don’t give a shit about her.”

“You didn’t give a shit about me until two weeks ago. So what else is new?” You replied, pulling away this time. Stepping back so there was space between you. The further away the better, you kept telling yourself.

The further away the easier to remember who he really was.

“I didn’t mean it like that.”

“About her or me?” You asked. He’d been through plenty of different girls since he broke it off with you. You’d seen them all on his timeline. And maybe you shouldn’t have been looking or maybe you shouldn’t have let yourself believe that him hoping from girl to girl meant he was unhappy but you couldn’t do this. You wanted to, you wanted to let yourself trust him, to let yourself listen to whatever excuse he could muster.

You weren’t the center of universe though. You weren’t his other half, his partner in crime, his confidant. You weren’t anything but another way to pass the time.

“Why do you have to make this so hard?” He commented, running a hand through his hair. The frustration showed as he cracked his knuckles and tried to regroup, to say something.

“It’s hard cause you don’t mean any of it and I know that.” You replied.

“I just-”

“What?” You asked, “weren’t in the right headspace? Didn’t mean it? Was afraid? Of me, of commitment, of your feelings. What Rafe? Which one is it?”

“Why can’t you just let me fucking apologize?”

“Because you don’t mean it!” No amount of blinking could stop the tears this time, your voice cracking at the end as you tried desperately not to lose your composure. You could feel it slipping out of your fingers though and there was nothing you could do.

“I came all the way out here.”

“Congratulations. You forced me to pay attention to you. Once again.” You replied. “It’s always the same with you. Screaming ‘look at me’, you always have to be so important.”

When you turned this time Rafe didn’t follow after you, watching you walk to your car instead. “So that’s it?” He called after you, “you just don’t care anymore?”

You stood at the door, clutching the handle. Deep breaths, the outside lights were bright enough that you could see your reflection in the car window and you wanted to put your fist through the glass. “No.”

You waited, holding your breath as you listened to the slamming of the front door, before you got into the car. You shut the door, leaning back against the seat and screaming. It was loud and awful and you imagined it smashing all the glass around you but the car was still intact when you opened your eyes. Alone, in your car, in the dark. You slumped over the steering wheel, pressing your forehead to the leather and crying.

“I’m losing my fucking mind.” You muttered, hands shaking as you reached for the seatbelt, a knock on the window making you jump in your seat, startled in the dark of the car. You look out the window before opening the door. “Did Rafe send you out?”

“No, I saw you guys come out here and when Rafe came back in I figured it was worth it to check that you were okay.” Kelce replied, holding the door as he stepped into your space a little more.

“I’m fine.”

“Okay.” He nodded, looking back at the house, “I’ll head back in.”

“Wait, Kelce.” You stopped him, though he hadn’t moved at all. He turned his head to look back down at you, “I can’t drive.”

“Scoot over.”

You climbed over the center console, falling into the passenger seat as Kelce climbed in the car and took your keys. You pressed your hands against your face, as if you could soak up the tears that had already fallen, trying desperately to erase the image of Rafe asking you to forgive him. When you got home you knew there would be messages from him, ones that you would stare at, tempted to read them even though you knew that all it would be was the same meaningless bullshit he’d tried to feed you outside.

“Can we go somewhere?” You asked, “I’m not ready to go home.”

“Sure, lets take a drive.” Kelce agreed, passing the street for your house and continuing on toward the beach.

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