A lil explanation about this peice and the work that goes alongside it!
Tw below the cut for SA! If you can't read it I understand and hope you're doing well ♡
I created daisy to go alongside my paintings wildflower which can be found here
This series was my way of working through accepting my assault and coming to terms with the fact it was something I couldn't keep avoiding. This was all triggered when I started college to find out my abuser was not only on the same campus, she was across the hall from me everyday. I had to see her for the first time in two years and it brought back this wave of emotions I didn't know how to deal with.
So I did it in the only way I knew how, art. I created my paintings and this digital video that also has a physical version.
The poem was about my struggle with my abuser. I decided I wanted to focus on creating a poem around the way you can become fully reliant on somebody in a toxic relationship to the point your willing to give them your all. Despite knowing it will never be good enough. I also wanted to hint at the feeling a lot of people go through when they are mentally ill or wanting to stay sicker or be sicker. This can be amplified by a toxic partner who wants to be seen as a good person and "fix" a sick person while also making them worse than before.
I also wanted to capture the desperation in my words along with the naive way of thinking that I had at the time.
Daisies were her favourite flower, they also ironically symbolise themes like innocence. Forget me nots are a self explanatory flower, I find it bryond infuriating that I will have to live with what she did but she gets to move on and forget. Pomegranates can be used as symbolism for death and fertility, two sides of the spectrum. I found it fitting as my abuse felt like the beginning of a new me and a death of an old me.
Thankfully this series of work led to me going to therapy that was specifically for victims of assault. A copy of this poem now sits in the waiting room of the centre and I've been told that it has resonated with multiple patients.
So if you've ever struggled with anything like this I want you to know you aren't alone. It can get better x
I've been resource gathering for YEARS so now I am going to share my dragons hoard
Floorplanner. Design and furnish a house for you to use for having a consistent background in your comic or anything! Free, you need an account, easy to use, and you can save multiple houses.
Comparing Heights. Input the heights of characters to see what the different is between them. Great for keeping consistency. Free.
Magma. Draw online with friends in real time. Great for practice or hanging out. Free, paid plan available, account preferred.
Smithsonian Open Access. Loads of free images. Free.
SketchDaily. Lots of pose references, massive library, is set on a timer so you can practice quick figure drawing. Free.
SculptGL. A sculpting tool which I am yet to master, but you should be able to make whatever 3d object you like with it. free.
Pexels. Free stock images. And the search engine is actually pretty good at pulling up what you want.
Figurosity. Great pose references, diverse body types, lots of "how to draw" videos directly on the site, the models are 3d and you can rotate the angle, but you can't make custom poses or edit body proportions. Free, account option, paid plans available.
Line of Action. More drawing references, this one also has a focus on expressions, hands/feet, animals, landscapes. Free.
Animal Photo. You pose a 3d skull model and select an animal species, and they give you a bunch of photo references for that animal at that angle. Super handy. Free.
Height Weight Chart. You ever see an OC listed as having a certain weight but then they look Wildly different than the number suggests? Well here's a site to avoid that! It shows real people at different weights and heights to give you a better idea of what these abstract numbers all look like. Free to use.
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