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due4amiracle · 7 months

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Bad dreams come true I make them for you

Yo

Sup

i really hate the new tumblr blog post window. it's pretty shit. but whatev.

So.

Ye.

Uhhhh. A proper post.

Return Of The Listo:

Anime - Watch 2 episodes - Bungou Stray Dogs 5th Season i enjoy this season, much like the other 4. It's a wild ride. D20 - Watch 1 episode Reading - Dead to the World (Crossroads Queen 1) by Annabel Chase with A Study in Drowning by Ava Reid on deck. TTRPG - Work on stuff Homemaking - Filled a trash bag with boxes and styrofoam containers and empty energy drink cans. Nice. Games - PLAY A GAME Challenge level - impossible. Extra - Uh so. yesterday i went on walkies, that was pretty great. today i started my period. yea.

Ever Onwards and Upwards!

#Multiple Sclerosis #ADHD #OCD #Arthritis #Spoonie #Daily #TTRPGThings #exhausted #migraine #period #walking #Bungou Stray Dogs 5th Season #Dead to the World (Crossroads Queen 1) by Annabel Chase #A Study in Drowning by Ava Reid

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due4amiracle · 7 months

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BOOKS.

Alright so. Wow this is just gonna be books. There's everything i read in September, and everything i've read so far in October. i'm not putting all these in the tags. Suffer. ♡

Zhara (Guardians of Dawn #1) by S. Jae-Jones 4/5 - i adored this book, it was so good. It was so anime and i really loved that. Very excited for the next book!

The Vermilion Emporium by Jamie Pacton 1.5/5 - Just... didn't feel this one.

Crown of Moonlight (Court of Midnight and Deception #2) by K.M. Shea 4/5 - Doot doot KU UF? Yesss~

The Spirit Bares Its Teeth by Andrew Joseph White 5/5 (Probable BotY!!) - OH FUCK. This book saw me, saw right into my deep dark dirty secrets and ripped them out into the light and oh shit this was good. i love AJW, i really do, and i'm excited for more!

The Slow Regard of Silent Things by Patrick Rothfuss 5/5 (reread) - Auri is love, Auri is life!

The Queen's Crown (Court of Midnight and Deception #3) by K.M. Shea 4/5 Yep yep yep. This is probably my favorite of the trilogies so far?

Hunted (Pack of Dawn and Destiny #1) by K.M. Shea 3/5 - Fun fun~

United (Pack of Dawn and Destiny #2) by K.M. Shea 3/5 - Book two of a cute grumpy romance~

Together We Rot by Skyla Arndt 2/5 - Argh i wanted so much more from this. >_>

Godkiller (Godkiller #1) by Hannah Kaner 4/5 - AHH! This was so good, i really enjoyed it and i really need the second one!

Monstrous by Jessica Lewis 3/5 - This was pretty decent. It kinda made me crave a second book, but i'm fine without.

What Stalks Among Us by Sarah Hollowell 4/5 - Eek, another book that ripped me open! This was so good, i love it!

Fated (Pack of Dawn and Destiny #3) by K.M. Shea 3/5 - Finish off this trilogy!

Starter Villain by John Scalzi 4.5/5 - The bloody madlad did it again. i love Scalzi, i really do, and this book was no different. It was so much fun and had me yelling multiple times. (And come on, the cover is a cat in a business suit, how do you not love that!)

A Gathering of Shadows (Shades of Magic #2) by V.E. Schwab 3/5 - The very slow progression of my reading of this series. It's aight. Am actually kinda intrigued as to what's coming up next.

Fireborne (The Aurelian Cycle #1) by Rosaria Munda 4/5 - THIS. This is what i wanted Fourth Wing to be!! Very good, very spicy.

I Feed Her to the Beast and the Beast Is Me by Jamison Shea 4/5 - Oh i do love a villain origin story. This was vicious and darkly thrilling and so so beautiful. It had light brushes of romance, strong platonic connections, a deep pool of mystery that reveled in horror and delighted in misdirection, the deep underbelly of ballet, and a young woman tearing her way through it all by teeth and claw and sheer force of will. And a little bit of eldritch horror-y magical machinations thrown in.

Shadow Coven (The Witchery #2) by S. Isabelle 2/5 - This one is sad. i really loved the first one, but oh no this one… had so much bouncing around. So many PoV's so many different places so much happening - it was so hard to keep track of anything. i kinda don't really know what all went on. Overwhelming. But what i could keep track of, i did enjoy quite a bit.

What Became of Magic by Paige Crutcher 3/5 - i have a love/dislike relationship with Paige Crutcher. The Orphan Witch i absolutely adored, it was such a good book, it really hit me in a lot of heart places, i absolutely adore a found family chaos adventure! Then came The Lost Witch which was… bland. Convoluted. Lackluster. Sad. And now we have What Became of Magic. It lands kind of in the middle between the two. Often enough, it hit, and oh did it hit good. But otherwise it was… i found myself skimming to get to the next 'hit'. It was kinda disappointing. Maybe next time, Paige!

Cage of Dreams (City of Nightmares #2) by Rebecca Schaeffer 4/5 - WHAT A GOOD BOOK ahhh what a good duology what a good ending. That ending! How dare. i want more. i crave more. Gimmie!

Hex of the Witch (The Other Witch #1) by Heather G. Harris 4/5 - i love Harris' The Other Realm books, and this one is fantastic. AmberxBastion is my OTP! Can't wait for book 2 next month.

Dire Straits (The Austin Wolves #3) by C.P. Rider 3/5 - i really love this UF KU series, the whole extended universe. It's very good.

Gray Days (Black Hat Bureau #9) by Hailey Edwards 4/5 - i have read and will continue to read everything Hailey Edwards has put out. This book -- THE ENDING uuughhhh how dare, so cruel, so evil! So excited for more!

What i've read through October thus far! - The King's Captive (Gates of Myth and Power #1) by K.M. Shea 3/5 - Book 1 of a pretty good trilogy.

The King's Shadow (Gates of Myth and Power #2) by K.M. Shea 3/5 Doot doot KU UF gogo!

The King's Queen (Gates of Myth and Power #3) by K.M. Shea 3/5 - Alright and now we start the wait for More Magiford Gogo!

Flamefall (The Aurelian Cycle, #2) by Rosaria Munda 2.75/5 - i really struggled with the first, oh, 3/4 of this one. i understand the stakes, but oof, gritty abuse for abuse sake is a lot. i can't wait for Ixion's death, i hope it comes soon into book 3, what a pos i'm very interested to see where book 3 takes me!

Furysong (The Aurelian Cycle, #3) by Rosaria Munda 4/5 - HELL YES! That is how you fuckin' end it, i'm SO thrilled!

Beholder by Ryan La Sala 4.5/5 - This is going to be like, top 3 of the year, imo, this was so so so good, another one that ripped me open. So good. Whew. Loved it.

#books #so many books #seriously #you don't even understand #September wrap up #bookses #my preciouses #i love books #hell yes #UF #KU #Horror #YA #Other stuff #idk

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due4amiracle · 7 months

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Do you feel cold and lost in desperation?

You build up hope, but failure's all you've known Remember all the sadness and frustration And let it go Let it go

Well. That was an interesting swing about.

Tuesday - Appointment with my Psych. We started on a medicinal journey (or so he says). Dropped my Prozac and halved my Wellbutrin - and put me on Clomipramine. It's to help with my OCD, so hopefully. Hopefully it's good. Of course, of course, it's still in for a prior-auth with my insurance and, well. i was supposed to stop my Prozac. i started spiraling because of the next item on the list, and it only got worse. (i restarted the Prozac so things are looking back up. -_-)

The car - after my appointment, Sir went out to go do a little shopping and the car wouldn't start. It attempted to turn over, but it just didn't do anything. So we got into contact with the local auto shop and they said they'd come get it - Friday. Sigh. Which means they won't look at it until Monday.

Wednesday - TTRPG! We did Madoka things, it was lovely. Tbf it was only rolling dice for upgrades and whatnot, but still, it had been a month. So that was nice.

Thursday - i had a thing with my insurance (healthy home visit) that i did telehealth, so that was a thing. Granted, they called Two Hours Early but that's fine. That's fine. i just wasn't ready. >_< Had to scramble around for all my medicines so i could report them all (which is ridiculous considering they were attached to my insurance so they should just have a fucking list why am i repeating all of the things on your damn screen?????) Blargh.

Thursday was also my worst day, honestly. i was very deep in the muck and Sir and i had a misunderstanding but we figured things out. It was alright.

Friday nothing really happened, they came and got the car, that was about it.

Then today we did DnD and that was fun.

i read:

A Gathering of Shadows (Shades of Magic #2) V.E. Schwab - 3/5⭐ i enjoyed it quite a bit, the ending was very good.

Starter Villain by John Scalzi - 4.5/5⭐ SCALZI DOES IT AGAIN i love this book so much, it hits all the right notes!

Fireborne (The Aurelian Cycle #1) by Rosaria Munda 4/5⭐ THIS is the book i wanted Fourth Wing to be. It did everything right, things made sense, and oh fuck i can't wait to continue reading!

and am currently reading:

I Feed Her to the Beast and the Beast Is Me by Jamison Shea

#Multiple Sclerosis #ADHD #OCD #Arthritis #Spoonie #Daily #TTRPGThings #exhausted #migraine #CW: medicine #CW: medical #A Gathering of Shadows (Shades of Magic 2) V.E. Schwab #Starter Villain by John Scalzi #Fireborne (The Aurelian Cycle 1) by Rosaria Munda #I Feed Her to the Beast and the Beast Is Me by Jamison Shea #books #read a book

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due4amiracle · 7 months

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every day is exactly the same

there is no love here and there is no pain

ye. i did it. here i am again.

two days in a row. how delightful.

uhm.

we've been fighting with my Neuro's office to get refills, for no other reason than they just moved to a new office and everything has promptly shit the bed. They have new people answering the phone (when it actually gets answered anyways) and they've moved their online thing from one thing to another and... oof. It's all just a disaster.

Been reading A Gathering of Shadows (Shades of Magic #2) by V.E. Schwab. Got a few books on deck. Yep.

uhhh... that's kinda everything? -_- executive dysfunction is strong.

#Multiple Sclerosis #ADHD #OCD #Arthritis #Spoonie #Daily #A Gathering of Shadows (Shades of Magic 2) by V.E. Schwab #books #executive dysfunction #cognitive function

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due4amiracle · 7 months

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so you can throw me to the wolves

tomorrow i will come back leader of the whole pack

Oh hi there. Fancy seeing you here. (me, fancy seeing me here)

Every once in a while i get an email "so and so liked your post!" "so and so followed you!" - sure 99/100 times it's a pr0n bot with shady links all over their everything but every once in a great while it's a real human being (or human shaped at the very least) and i remember

Hey, self, you literally haven't posted in months. Forever months. You might should want to do that.

Then i don't.

S o y e a h. That's fun.

my executive dysfunction and my cognitive function have been... less than stellar lately. So i just... haven't. Haven't done much of anything, really, just barely existing.

But, i do want to start this up again.

i'm not promising anything!

But i do want to. And i'm going to make a vaguely decent hopeful effort at it. It'll be good for me. Gotta stop losing things.

So yea.

Hi like 4 people who've been liking my post. i see you. Thank you. ♡

#Multiple Sclerosis #ADHD #OCD #Arthritis #Spoonie #Daily #exhausted #migraine #cognitive function #executive dysfunction #no promises but i will try

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due4amiracle · 1 year

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carry on my wayward son

Listo:

Laundry/cleaning, Reading, Watching, TTRPGThings.

Laundry/cleaning - Boxes were broken down, trash was taken to the road.

Reading things - - Book: i am currently at 16 books for the year so far, with 1 DNF. Sir and i had a bit of a tiff last night, He’s been listening to HWFWM and is on book 4, and keeps giving me little hinty bits of things. Normally i’m pretty ok with it, buuuut i was dumb and things happened so i said to myself i’d start book 2 today. i got a decent chunk into it. It’s a good series, i’m really enjoying it. Hopefully finish bk2 tomorrow. - Wild Country (The World of the Others #2) by Anne Bishop 56% - He Who Fights with Monsters 2 (He Who Fights with Monsters #2) by Shirtaloon 68%

Watching things - - Anime: Still haven’t started yet. -_-

#TTRPGThings - Tomorrow is the next session! We fight the Boss of the area, who has even More Tricks up their sleeve, to hopefully keep the party from one-shotting it. i mean, it has a rez, so, that’s going to keep it from being a one-shot regardless. But still. xD

Other - Another good night’s sleep last night, but oof this cluster of migraines i’ve been having the past couple of days (they tend to come like this, bleh) has been kinda crappy. So, ick. But, was a pretty good day, didn’t do much beside read, but that’s ok.

Food: A - Yummy, very good. Liquid: A Pain: D - Migraine, wrists and fingers - especially the left wrist/hand - the arthritis (that the rheumatologist told me i didn’t have without even looking at me) is acting up and OW, and oof my jaw is Hurting, ugh. Brain: B - Tired, very tired, and a brief amount of Down On Myself but, overall ok.

Tomorrow: Laundry/cleaning, Reading, Watching, TTRPGThings.

Ever Onwards and Upwards!

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due4amiracle · 1 year

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new year...

...same old me.

It’s... been a little while since i last properly posted. hell, it’s been a while since i... did anything, really. It was a bit of a rough time, the end of the year, but thing are starting to round upwards, so that’s pretty nice.

But... honestly, i need to restart all my proper rituals to just get myself back on track. So, with that being said - let’s get that list, shall we?

Listo:

Laundry/cleaning, Reading, Watching, TTRPGThings.

Laundry/cleaning - Boxes need to get broken down, but things were sorted better.

Reading things - - Book: i am currently at 16 books for the year so far, with 1 DNF. Here’s what i’ve read, starting from the first of the year and ending with what i’m currently reading! - Tress of the Emerald Sea (The Cosmere) by Brandon Sanderson 5🌟 - Oh i dearly loved this book, it was so good! - Spirit Prophecy (The Gateway Trilogy #2) by E.E. Holmes 2🌟 - The Empress of Time (The Keeper of Night, #2) by Kylie Lee Baker 3🌟 - This book disappointed me so deeply, the first book was SO good and this... oof. Not Good. - Spirit Ascendancy (The Gateway Trilogy #3) by E.E. Holmes 2🌟 - The Poison Season by Mara Rutherford 2🌟 - Critical Role: The Mighty Nein—The Nine Eyes of Lucien by Madeleine Roux 5🌟Long may he reign... - Spells Trouble (Sisters of Salem, #1) by P.C. Cast 3🌟 - Omens Bite (Sisters of Salem, #2) by P.C. Cast 2🌟 - Redemptor (Raybearer, #2) by Jordan Ifueko 3🌟 - He Who Fights with Monsters (He Who Fights with Monsters, #1) by Shirtaloon 4🌟 - Bad Cree by Jessica Johns 3🌟 - Living Dead Girl by Rachel Vincent 2🌟 - The Wicche Glass Tavern (Sam Quinn #3) by Seana Kelly 3🌟 - The Hob and Hound Pub (Sam Quinn, #4) by Seana Kelly 3🌟 - Biergarten of the Damned (Sam Quinn #5) by Seana Kelly 3🌟 - The Nightmare Man by J.H. Markert DNF🌟This was so... bouncy? Back and forth between groups, back and forth in time... just. No. No. - City of Nightmares (City of Nightmares, #1) by Rebecca Schaeffer 3🌟 - Wild Country (The World of the Others #2) by Anne Bishop 17%

Watching things - - Anime: Haven’t started anything... yet. But i need to! i plan on it. Probably going to go with Lycoris Recoil.

#TTRPGThings - The sessions continue unabated, traipsing through this underground dungeon, it’s been a lot but also a ton of fun.

Other - Well, we got a new bed, it was very expensive but last night was the first good night’s sleep i’ve had in a while so, that’s pretty nice.

Food: A - Tasty Everyplate meals, very good. Liquid: A Pain: D - Migraine, left shoulder, wrists and fingers, just not great. Brain: C - A bit dissociatedey, floaty, but nothing too terrible.

Tomorrow: Laundry/cleaning, Reading, Watching, TTRPGThings.

Ever Onwards and Upwards!

#Multiple Sclerosis #ADHD #OCD #Arthritis #Spoonie #Daily #TTRPGThings #Tress of the Emerald Sea (The Cosmere) by Brandon Sanderson #Spirit Prophecy (The Gateway Trilogy 2) by E.E. Holmes #The Empress of Time (The Keeper of Night 2) by Kylie Lee Baker #Critical Role: The Mighty Nein—The Nine Eyes of Lucien by Madeleine Roux #Spells Trouble (Sisters of Salem 1) by P.C. Cast #Omens Bite (Sisters of Salem 2) by P.C. Cast #Redemptor (Raybearer 2) by Jordan Ifueko #He Who Fights with Monsters (He Who Fights with Monsters 1) by Shirtaloon #Bad Cree by Jessica Johns #Living Dead Girl by Rachel Vincent #The Hob and Hound Pub (Sam Quinn 4) by Seana Kelly #City of Nightmares (City of Nightmares 1) by Rebecca Schaeffer #Wild Country (The World of the Others 2) by Anne Bishop #Food: A #Liquid: A #Pain: D #Brain: C #migraine #shoulder #wrists #fingers #dissociated #floaty

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due4amiracle · 1 year

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hi

i still exist

just kinda

taking a break from life and whatnot

i’ll get back to this

sorry

love you all

#what is life #if not suffering

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due4amiracle · 2 years

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Day 475

It’s day 3 of Acthar.

Everything is A Lot.

i did things.

Reading things - - 4 Ebooks for me, 0 Audiobook for Sir! ...Yea. 230 for the year, 10 for the month! - Glimmer of Hope (The Other Realm #2) by Heather G. Harris 1%! - Glimmer of The Other (The Other Realm #1) by Heather G. Harris 100%! 3🌟 - Blood Heir (World of Kate Daniels #13) by Ilona Andrews 100%! 3🌟 - Sweep with Me (Innkeeper Chronicles #4.5) by Ilona Andrews 100%! 3🌟 - Sweep of the Blade (Innkeeper Chronicles #4) 100%! 4🌟 - One Fell Sweep (Innkeeper Chronicles #3) by Ilona Andrews 100%! 4🌟 - Sweep in Peace (Innkeeper Chronicles #2) by Ilona Andrews 100%! 3🌟

Watching things - - New York by Night: Season 2 - Episode 2/?! Everything that can go wrong has gone wrong. Oh lort. - Hunter Garage, Hunter: The Reckoning - New WoD thing, watched session 0 today. Was very good. Enjoyed.

Other things - Daily Diarrhea Diary - Okish. No perioding. Everything is better today, but it's not ALL better. Both ears ache, but mostly only the left. my joints all ache too. lungs are better, only the slightest rasp. And omg my head Hurts. and oh my legs are sore. Mood was overall pretty decent, Utterly exhausted, and yet utterly wired. Acthar go brr. Warm has finally kicked in, was Cold all day. Then again, it was a chilly day. The gods know it's below freezing right now. Very scattered. Very overwhelmed easily by everything. Today was So Much A Lot Acthar AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH. Did a Very Big Walkies today. Was going to go to the Farmers Market that happens every saturday, only we pulled up to the square and everything was blocked off - apparently there was A Car Show Thing going on. So they moved the Market deeper in, behind the blocks. That was a no-go. So we went to the danger place. Aka the rollroll store. Aka the place in town that is the only place to get anything TTRPG related that isn’t Walmart. It was a Big Walk uphill and up stairs. But i did it. And then walked around the store. my legs ache like hell. But i did it. It was quite nice.

Then Sir went and bought me Pokemon cards at Walgreens. Apparently they had these tins, so, Sir bought them. i have 4 of one set, and 1 of another. xD Because of course there’s like 30 sets of 5′s. But then Sir went and bought the last tin online in the set.

What a money waster He is. Then again, He’s getting paid well now. So, there’s that.

Nothing really else has been happening, these last few days. Acthar just goes brr.

Food: A Liquid: A Pain: D Brain: C

Ever Onwards and Upwards!

#Multiple Sclerosis #ADHD #OCD #Arthritis #Spoonie #Daily #TTRPGThings #Glimmer of Hope (The Other Realm 2) by Heather G. Harris #Acthar #Steroids #Steroids go brrr

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due4amiracle · 2 years

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Day 474

Listo:

Laundry/cleaning, Reading, Dailies, #TTRPGThings, Watching.

Laundry/cleaning - Some garbage thrown away, always more to go! ✔

Reading things - - 3 Ebooks for me, 0 Audiobook for Sir! ...Yea. 225 for the year, 4 for the month! - One Fell Sweep (Innkeeper Chronicles #3) by Ilona Andrews 38%! - Sweep in Peace (Innkeeper Chronicles #2) by Ilona Andrews 100%! 3🌟 Choo choo! UwU♡ ✔✔✔✔

Dailies - - Waifu Did mah dailies! Also, level 0/50 BP now~! AND! Tree lvl 40/50! Also! 27/43 max friendship namecards acquired! New MONTH! new weeklies! Gem thingy now level 9/10! ♡ω♡✔

#TTRPGThings - More preparations! AHH! Tomorrow! ...Maybe! We have one player who’s going through a Week Of Hell Appointments, and i get that, so. It’s a maybe! Here’s hoping... +0 -> 2448 words for the backstory! Still sick, rip.✔

Watching things - - Vancouver by Night: Season 1 - Episode 10/19! - New York by Night: Season 2 - Episode 1/?! OH shit this is getting SPICY! i love the new cast?!

Other things - Daily Diarrhea Diary - Fine. No perioding. Everything is better today, but it's not ALL better. Ears both still ache, and my lungs are rough with acheyness and tightness. my joints all ache too. Mood was overall pretty decent, Utterly exhausted. This might just be "you're not using your CPAP" or it might also be "you're sick so now you suffer and are tired hf". Or just MS. Ya know. Pick ya poison. Didn’t really do anything today. Oh well. Tomorrow.

Food: A Liquid: A Pain: C Brain: B

Tomorrow: Laundry/cleaning, Reading, Dailies, #TTRPGThings, Watching.

Ever Onwards and Upwards!

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due4amiracle · 2 years

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Day 473

Listo:

Laundry/cleaning, Reading, Dailies, #TTRPGThings, Watching.

Laundry/cleaning - Some garbage thrown away, always more to go! Sir did His first day of work! He mopped the kitchen floor omg. And i changed my living room trash, He changed His, broke down two boxes, and took the bags out to the can! Sick. This job is great. xD✔

Reading things - - 3 Ebooks for me, 0 Audiobook for Sir! ...Yea. 222 for the year, 1 for the month! - Sweep in Peace (Innkeeper Chronicles #2) by Ilona Andrews 2%! Choo choo! - Clean Sweep (Innkeeper Chronicles, #1) by Ilona Andrews 100%! 3🌟Welp was wanting to read this and... fuck it right? lmao - Moon Island (Vampire for Hire Book 7) by J.R. Rain Pause%! Decided i... didn’t wanna read this right now so! Pause. - Shield (Ghost Mountain Wolf Shifters #9) by Audrey Faye 100%! 5🌟AHHHH???? P-P-POET?! AHH! Yes i’m very excited for book 10 i will wait forever! UwU♡ ✔✔✔✔

Dailies - - Waifu Did mah dailies! Also, level 0/50 BP now~! AND! Tree lvl 40/50! Also! 27/43 max friendship namecards acquired! New MONTH! new weeklies! Gem thingy now level 9/10! ♡ω♡✔

#TTRPGThings - More preparations! AHH! +0 -> 2448 words for the backstory! i... have not been feelin’ too well. So. Ya know.✔

Watching things - - Vancouver by Night: Season 1 - Episode 10/19! - New York by Night: Season 2 - Episode 1/?! OH shit this is getting SPICY! i love the new cast?!

Other things - Daily Diarrhea Diary - Okish. No perioding. my ears hurt!, head hurts bad, my everything aches, and my lungs are grungy VERY as hell. Mood was overall pretty decent, exhausted, my face itches so badly? Fuckin’ MS. Ugh. Just... feeling rather like shit.

Food: A Liquid: A Pain: D Brain: B

Tomorrow: Laundry/cleaning, Reading, Dailies, #TTRPGThings, Watching.

Ever Onwards and Upwards!

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due4amiracle · 2 years

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Day 472

Oh hewwo there.

Listo:

Laundry/cleaning, Reading, Dailies, #TTRPGThings, Watching.

Laundry/cleaning - Some garbage thrown away, always more to go! ✔

Reading things - - 3 Ebooks for me, 0 Audiobook for Sir! ...Yea. 222 for the year, 1 for the month! - Moon Island (Vampire for Hire Book 7) by J.R. Rain 2%! Started this one right before i got the email. xD - Shield (Ghost Mountain Wolf Shifters #9) by Audrey Faye 90%! OH GODS i got the email and. Oh i squealed! i was worried about Audrey, but here we are! i don’t care if it’s a year, or 5, i’ll always be waiting for the pack! What a blessed book. - Vampire Games (Vampire for Hire Book 6) by J.R. Rain 100%! 3🌟Still riding this train. First one of the month! - Vampire Dawn (Vampire for Hire #5) by J.R. Rain 100%! 3🌟Choo choo. - House of Hunger by Alexis Henderson 100%! 4🌟WOW this was quite good! i picked up some things as it was going on, but oh shit i was not prepared for that ending. Whew. Wild. UwU♡ ✔✔✔✔

Dailies - - Waifu Did mah dailies! Also, level 0/50 BP now~! AND! Tree lvl 40/50! Also! 27/43 max friendship namecards acquired! New MONTH! new weeklies! Gem thingy now level 9/10! ♡ω♡✔

#TTRPGThings - More preparations! AHH! +0 -> 2448 words for the backstory! i... have not been feelin’ too well. So. Ya know.✔

Watching things - - Vancouver by Night: Season 1 - Episode 10/19! - New York by Night: Season 2 - Episode 1/?! OH shit this is getting SPICY! i love the new cast?!

Other things - Daily Diarrhea Diary - Okish. So! You might notice i deleted all the CPAP stuff. Why? Did i get it taken away? No, actually. Ok so, went in for the appointment, and they tried downloading the card. And that took forever. And hey guess what - it didn’t work. Again. As it always does when we take it in? So he was essentially like “Ok so, do you know what you numbers are?” and i’m like “yea here you go”. He was like “i have absolutely no idea why he wanted you to come in again when your numbers are and have been good enough. So! i’ll see you in a year! Bye, call us if you need anything.” and... that was that. So i don’t have to stress about the numbers anymore. Yea i shouldn’t be lax about it, or skip tons of time, but... i don’t have to keep track of every second and every day. :D

In other news! Oh i’ve been not doing good. my lungs have been... not great. And then today? Oh fuck. The blinding, screaming, stabbing pain - in my ear. The pain that i get that means nothing because nobody can find a damn thing. >_< But it fucking hurts and i’m in so much pain. And i was kinda running a fever. So. That’s fun.

Took a bath today. Bathnap. Aka i got into the tub and sat in the hot water dozing for like 45mins. i love doing this. It’s good. It’s comfy. It’s nice. Sir washed my hair, that was lovely.

Anyways. No perioding. Oh my gods my ear though, head hurts bad, pressure behind my eye, my everything aches, and my lungs are grungy as hell. Mood was overall pretty decent, a bit fluffy from the migraine pill, and oh shit i’m so exhausted i overdid it.

Food: A Liquid: A Pain: D Brain: B

Tomorrow: Laundry/cleaning, Reading, Dailies, #TTRPGThings, Watching.

Ever Onwards and Upwards!

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due4amiracle · 2 years

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Day 471

Listo:

Laundry/cleaning, Reading, Dailies, #TTRPGThings, Watching.

Laundry/cleaning - Some garbage thrown away, always more to go! ✔

Reading things - - 3 Ebooks for me, 0 Audiobook for Sir! ...Yea. 218 for the year, 25 for the month! - Vampire Dawn (Vampire for Hire #5) by J.R. Rain 53%! Chugged through sommore of this before i read my email and saw i had a hold come in lmao. - House of Hunger by Alexis Henderson 3%! HOLD CAME IN ahh i’m very very excited for this one! - Spells for Forgetting by Adrienne Young 100%! 3🌟 You know what. It was pretty decent. It went places i wasn’t prepared for, but it left us with a tiny teaser of something that maybe, one day, mayhaps, might be A Thing. Or not. That’s fine too. UwU♡ ✔✔✔✔

Dailies - - Waifu Did mah dailies! Also, level 0/50 BP now~! AND! Tree lvl 40/50! Also! 27/43 max friendship namecards acquired! New MONTH! new weeklies! Gem thingy now level 9/10! ♡ω♡✔

#TTRPGThings - More preparations! AHH! +0 -> 2448 words for the backstory! More kitten things! They’re getting adopted and i’m all weepy about it!✔

Watching things - - Vancouver by Night: Season 1 - Episode 10/19! - 100 Club: Episode 5/??! So... behind... oh no... x_x; - New York by Night: Season 1 - Episode 8/8! SEASON TWO T O M O R R O W AHHH

Other things - Daily Diarrhea Diary - Okish. CPAP timer - ?.? hours with ?.0?disturbances. ???/9. CPAP so confused. i took the mask off last night and read the 4.8 on the screen. i know i did. This morning? There it sits, a big fat 0. i’m very confused. It’s very confused. But! It’s got night before last’s numbers at 4.7 0.2 so... ??? idk. i’m sure this will continue. i’ve got it written down and i am going to take it with me to my appointment tomorrow. So yea.

In other news! We learned so many things today. First and foremost - we cannot be removed from this apartment unless we suddenly commit a felony, start doing/dealing drugs, or other such chaos. That’s it. Once you’re in, you’re in. Whew. Secondly, Sir’s income, because He hasn’t worked for at least a year before this, will not count against rent (aka increase rent) for the first year He works, then the second year it will count halfsies, and the third year it will count fully. That’s... wild. And amazing. Thirdly, as to His Medicaid - Medicaid counts us each as single families, because we are not married, so He would lose Medicaid. But because of The Bad C currently still going on, Medicaid is not removing people. At all. Period. So He will not lose Medicaid until things change. Then it’s ACA and you get what you pay for, so, find the good stuff, and pay good for it. So all of that to say - 40 hours a week is a go. We are already planning on money uses and expenditures and Fixing The Car and Building Battle Stations and Donating Money To Places and other stuff. It’s... wild. It’s amazing. This is the most income we’ve literally ever fucking had. Whew.

Also had my Therapist appointment today, she’s so thrilled for us. But bless her, her poor shitting-the-bed computer just would not acknowledge her camera or her microphone. At all. Period. Thankfully someone in corporate or somewhere apparently got fed up with constantly getting called about The Computers Are Fuckin’ Dying Again WTF Fix It and new computers are being built to arrive Soon™️ so that’s fantastic. So essentially, we sat in Zoom, with me on cam, but us talking on the phone. It was hilarious. It was a great appointment overall.

Anyways. No perioding. Oof my head Hurts, mild abdominal pain, both ears ache, back aches, joints all just kinda ache, lungs kinda grungy. Mood was overall pretty decent, after the stress was relieved, and sobbing about kittens getting adopted, but i’m very tired so. Ya know, SSDD.

Food: A Liquid: A Pain: C Brain: B

Tomorrow: Laundry/cleaning, Reading, Dailies, #TTRPGThings, Watching.

Ever Onwards and Upwards!

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Day 470

Listo:

Laundry/cleaning, Reading, Dailies, #TTRPGThings, Watching.

Laundry/cleaning - Some garbage thrown away, always more to go! ✔

Reading things - - 4 Ebooks for me, 0 Audiobook for Sir! ...Yea. 218 for the year, 25 for the month! - Vampire Dawn (Vampire for Hire #5) by J.R. Rain 21%! - Spells for Forgetting by Adrienne Young 50%! This is interesting, it’s... kinda jumping around a bit in time, which kinda confuses me and loses me, but i understand that There Is A Big Thing that we’re working towards and we need that thicc background shit. So. We’ll see if it pulls it off or not. UwU♡ ✔✔✔✔

Dailies - - Waifu Did mah dailies! Also, level 0/50 BP now~! AND! Tree lvl 40/50! Also! 27/43 max friendship namecards acquired! New MONTH! new weeklies! Gem thingy now level 9/10! ♡ω♡✔ ok so i played a little today and? Fuck dude i did like three rolls and that was it.

Candace wanted to come home, i guess. xD

#TTRPGThings - No game today! That’s ok, next week! This gives me more time to Prepare Things. +0 -> 2448 words for the backstory! i meant to write i swear but oh i was distracted by kittens!✔

Watching things - - Vancouver by Night: Season 1 - Episode 10/19! - 100 Club: Episode 5/??! So... behind... oh no... x_x; - New York by Night: Season 1 - Episode 8/8! T_T SEASON TWO FRIDAY AHHH

Other things - Daily Diarrhea Diary - Ehhh, okish. CPAP timer - ?.? hours with 0.0 disturbances. ???/9. Ok look. The CPAP is confused ok? i wore it last night (9/27), all night long, for like 10 fuckin’ hours ok? It’s marked as 0 hours. However, the night before last (9/26), that was marked as zero? Yea it’s marked as 6.4 .2. Which, sus as fuck. And THEN the night before that (9/25), that i have marked down as 8.4 .0? Yea. It’s marked as 11.2 .1. What. The. Fuck. But it’s ok, because i might be able to finagle one of my ‘missed’ days as a ‘mushed’ day (because i did not wear it the night before that, 9/24, which is not even marked down at all - which happens when you don’t wear it on a day.) So! Maybe, could finagle 9/24+9/25 as a “CPAP was confuse, skipped me a day and mushed everything up????” idk. Something like that. Shrug. It’s fine.

Uh yea so. Anyways. Sir went to His training today! Was gone for like 7 fuckin’ hours. Came home. Told me some massively wild astounding news - He’s getting paid $15 an hour. FIFTEEN. We were expecting like, ten? No no no. F I F T E E N. Holy shit. Ok that, first of all, is amazing. But second of all, is terrifying? But it’s ok, Sir did the math, if we bump Him down to 32hrs/week (His hours and stuff are incredibly flexible) He’ll not only squeak in just able to keep His Medicaid, but we’ll also be under the limit for housing! HELL YES! Yes, we’ll lose SNAP, and yes He’ll probably be paying some medical fees now, and yes He’ll be doing some debt consolidation and working down His debt but... we’ll be able to afford it. We’ll be ok. We are ok. This is wild. It harkens back to my last Tarot draw that i did, a few months ago. PPF, 5 of cups, Tower, Chariot. Bitterness, disillusionment || chaos of change || determination, confidence, victory. It’s finally here. We’ve had the chaos, and we’re finally getting that victory. Whew.

Anyways. No perioding. Stress induced migraine, mild abdominal pain, both ears ache, shoulders-but-just-the-back-connected-to-neck-area aches, lungs kinda grungy. Still Very Stressed even though the cards are right and Sir is right and i need to just relax but oh gods the change is bad change is bad. Also very tired. And cold. It’s delightful to be cold and not in the “oh i’m just very sick and it makes me cold” kind of way but more in the “oh it’s actually chilly out” kind of way!

Food: A Liquid: A Pain: D Brain: C

Tomorrow: Laundry/cleaning, Reading, Dailies, #TTRPGThings, Watching.

Ever Onwards and Upwards!

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due4amiracle · 2 years

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Day 469

Listo:

Laundry/cleaning, Reading, Dailies, #TTRPGThings, Watching.

Laundry/cleaning - Some garbage thrown away, always more to go! ✔

Reading things - - 3 Ebooks for me, 0 Audiobook for Sir! ...Yea. 218 for the year, 25 for the month! - Vampire Dawn (Vampire for Hire #5) by J.R. Rain 21%! - Spells for Forgetting by Adrienne Young 9%! Eeee hold came in! UwU♡ ✔✔✔✔

Dailies - - Waifu Did mah dailies! Also, level 3/50 BP now~! AND! Tree lvl 40/50! Also! 27/43 max friendship namecards acquired! New MONTH! new weeklies! Gem thingy now level 9/10! ♡ω♡✔ i have been playing a bit of this here and there. But. Not much.

#TTRPGThings - NPCs are done! Area is done! Updated current areas with New Info! Lots of little things UwU. +206 -> 2448 words for the backstory! Didn’t get to write today, too distracted!✔

Watching things - - SAO Alicization: Season 2 - Episode 1/12! - Vancouver by Night: Season 1 - Episode 10/19! - New York by Night: Season 1 - Episode 8/8! T_T SEASON TWO NEXT WEEK AHHH - 100 Club: Episode 5/??! So... behind... oh no... x_x;

Other things - Daily Diarrhea Diary - Ehhh, okish. CPAP timer - ?.? hours with 0.0 disturbances. ???/9. Ok look, this wasn’t my fault? i wore it last night. Granted, for not too long, but, we went to bed at like 11pm. i woke up at like 2:30am and took it off then. That’s like 3 hours fam. It didn’t record it. That’s on it not me. No perioding. Headache, mild abdominal pain, both ears ache, back and knees ache, lungs kinda grungy. Stressed and still worried about things. So yea, like i said, i woke up at like 2:30am. And again at like 5. And again at like 7am and that’s when i got up. :/ Of course, each of these times i got up, i struggled to get back to sleep. (And to get to sleep in the first place) So. i barely slept last night? That kinda sucks. i washed my hair today, did a body wash with pads, changed clothes, and... yea. Tomorrow Sir goes off for hours of training, leaving me alone to do whatever i please. (aka sit at my computer and vege out as i typically do, heh.) Maybe i’ll watch more anime? Maybe play some video games? Shit fam idk.

Food: A Liquid: A Pain: D Brain: C

Tomorrow: Laundry/cleaning, Reading, Dailies, #TTRPGThings, Watching.

Ever Onwards and Upwards!

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Day 468

Listo:

Laundry/cleaning, Reading, Dailies, #TTRPGThings, Watching.

Laundry/cleaning - Some garbage thrown away, always more to go! ✔

Reading things - - 3 Ebooks for me, 0 Audiobook for Sir! ...Yea. 213 for the year, 20 for the month! - Vampire Dawn (Vampire for Hire #5) by J.R. Rain 3%! There’s supposed to be a short story here, before this one - i didn’t read it. Shrug! - Moon Child (Vampire for Hire, #4) by J.R. Rain 2🌟100%! Very obvious things happened that were very obvious. But is ok. - American Vampire (Vampire for Hire #3) by J.R. Rain 3🌟100%! UwU♡ ✔✔✔✔

Dailies - - Waifu Did mah dailies! Also, level 3/50 BP now~! AND! Tree lvl 40/50! Also! 27/43 max friendship namecards acquired! New MONTH! new weeklies! Gem thingy now level 9/10! ♡ω♡✔ i have been playing a bit of this here and there. But. Not much.

#TTRPGThings - Working more on the NPCs UwU lots of work. Might not be a session this week - Sir has some kind of class thing? It starts at like 8am, it’s a half hour drive, He’s gonna be there for like 4-6hrs and then drive back. He’s gonna be fuckin’ exhausted and worn out. But He says He might have an adrenaline rush or someshit idk. It’s gonna be wild being alone for that long... hrm. +0, up to 2242 words for the backstory! Didn’t get to write today, too distracted!✔

Watching things - - SAO Alicization: Season 2 - Episode 1/12! - Vancouver by Night: Season 1 - Episode 10/19! - New York by Night: Season 1 - Episode 8/8! T_T SEASON TWO NEXT WEEK AHHH - 100 Club: Episode 5/??! So... behind... oh no... x_x;

Other things - Daily Diarrhea Diary - Ehhh, okish. CPAP timer - 8.4 hours with 0.0 disturbances. Still at 7/9. No perioding. Migraine, mild abdominal pain, both ears ache, back and neck and spine and everything is HURT OW ugh, lungs kinda grungy. Stressed and still worried about things, but SIR HAS A JOB HECK YES, but oh no please don't let us get evicted oh no stress. But yes you read that correctly, Sir has a job! His job? To continue doing the same things that He’s been doing - only now He gets paid for it. Which... could be a fantastic thing! It... could also be a fucking terrible thing if that means we get kicked out. i adore this place and it’s the best we’ve ever had and i want to live here for the rest of my life. >_<; But, if He does get $10/hr (which is probably highballing it, lbrh, even though it is medical stuff, He’s not going to be that certified, so... ya know. Probably more like $9) but anyways at $10/hr we will still (kinda barely but will still) squeak under the limit for public housing. Phew. i’m still stressed about it omg. Bleh. Uhm. Watched the last... season? The last 4 episodes. Ye. Of MagiReco. And... i’m angy about it. i’m angy about how they ended it. Guess i’m going to have to go read all the translated shite for the MagiReco game chapters. >_<; However. That first episode though? The girl’s wishes?! Oh shit that feeds into my TTRPG so hard omg i didn’t even know. Fuck.

Food: A Liquid: A Pain: D Brain: C

Tomorrow: Laundry/cleaning, Reading, Dailies, #TTRPGThings, Watching.

Ever Onwards and Upwards!

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due4amiracle · 2 years

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Day 467

Listo:

Laundry/cleaning, Reading, Dailies, #TTRPGThings, Watching.

Laundry/cleaning - Some garbage thrown away, always more to go! ✔

Reading things - - 3 Ebooks for me, 0 Audiobook for Sir! ...Yea. 213 for the year, 20 for the month! - American Vampire (Vampire for Hire #3) by J.R. Rain 28%! - Vampire Nights and Other Stories (Vampire for Hire #2.5) by J.R. Rain 100%! 2🌟Short stories are very short. It was a trio of stories, only one was Sam-related and the other two were trash. So. 2 stars! - Vampire Moon (Vampire for Hire #2) by J.R. Rain 100%! 3🌟YEA GET FUCKT DANNY! UwU♡ ✔✔✔✔

Dailies - - Waifu Did mah dailies! Also, level 3/50 BP now~! AND! Tree lvl 40/50! Also! 27/43 max friendship namecards acquired! New MONTH! new weeklies! Gem thingy now level 9/10! ♡ω♡✔ i have been playing a bit of this here and there. But. Not much.

#TTRPGThings - Working more on the NPCs UwU lots of work. +0, up to 2242 words for the backstory! Didn’t get to write today, too distracted!✔

Watching things - - SAO Alicization: Season 2 - Episode 1/12! - Vancouver by Night: Season 1 - Episode 10/19! - New York by Night: Season 1 - Episode 8/8! T_T SEASON TWO NEXT WEEK AHHH - 100 Club: Episode 5/??! So... behind... oh no... x_x;

Other things - Daily Diarrhea Diary - Ehhh, okish. CPAP timer - 0.0 hours with 0.0 disturbances. Now at 7/9. That... That means i have essentially 1 more left. Fuck. Five nights straight. i... really hope i can do it. i’m really stressed about it. >_< i really don’t want to lose this CPAP. omg. Ugh. And i need to wash my hair?! Ughhhhh! No perioding. Very Ow Migraine, mild abdominal pain, left nipple is achey grr, both ears ache, kinda just achey all over, lungs kinda grungy. Stressed and overwhelmed, very tired.

Food: A Liquid: A Pain: D Brain: C

Tomorrow: Laundry/cleaning, Reading, Dailies, #TTRPGThings, Watching.

Ever Onwards and Upwards!

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