existinginthevoid

[existinginthevoid]

It's my 5 year anniversary on Tumblr 🥳

I’ve publicly been complaining about my life for 5 years now 😂🎉

#5 year tumblrversary #tumblr milestone

[existinginthevoid]

“Some days feelings of ‘why me’ and the unfairness of it all burst through every pore of my being and overwhelm my sensitive soft soul. Other days I laugh along with my dark cold cynical soul at the shit hand I’ve been dealt”

-tnh

#self loathing #self destruction #addiction #self deprecation #angry #iv user #mental health #pill head #fuck life #mentally drained #self deprecating #depression #bipolar #special needs mom #pulled apart #schizophrenia #psychotic disorders #hallucinations #cold

[existinginthevoid]

“not being believed when you’re telling the truth is an awful awful feeling”

-tnh

#self loathing #self destruction #addiction #self deprecation #mental health #fuck life #mentally drained #angry #iv user #pill head #kill me #i feel sick #not fair

[existinginthevoid]

“i am strong in front of others. in private i break. i’m scared i’m losing myself. but they’ll never hear my voice shake”

-tnh

#self loathing #self destruction #addiction #self deprecation #mentally drained #mental health #fuck life #fml #i’m fine #everything is fine #depressed #losing it #scared

[existinginthevoid]

“does everyone know how they would off their self or is just me?!”

-tnh

[existinginthevoid]

“something i like about going to bed and feeling the burn in my eyes after a long hard cry”

-tnh

[existinginthevoid]

#self loathing #self destruction #addiction #mentally ill #self deprecation #angry #depression #iv user #pill head #mental health #insanity #sad #self harm #bipolar #suicidal #depressed #hurt #fuck love #fuck off #self hate #griefstricken #im lost #death

[existinginthevoid]

#self loathing #self destruction #addiction #mentally ill #self deprecation #angry #depression #iv user #pill head #mental health #insanity #sad #self harm #bipolar #suicidal #depressed #hurt #fuck love #fuck off #self hate #nice #hateful #asshole #sweetheart

[existinginthevoid]

🎶why is everything so heavy🎶

-Chester bennington

#self loathing #self destruction #addiction #mentally ill #self deprecation #angry #depression #iv user #pill head #mental health #insanity #sad #self harm #bipolar #suicidal #depressed #hurt #fuck love #fuck off #self hate

[existinginthevoid]

Thank you @fuckoffanddiee and everyone who got me to 1000 reblogs!

“Definitely one of those days I just want to leave my house and go die somewhere. Not somewhere super far away, just somewhere I won’t be found right away. I’m just….sick of life. Don’t want to anymore”

-tnh

#tumblr milestone #thank you #1000 reblogs

[existinginthevoid]

“my thoughts are scattered and my mind is a mess. no one notices which means i’m hiding it well. but it would be nice if someone asked if i was ok. then again, i would just say i’m fine”

-tnh

[existinginthevoid]

“i’m breaking. i’m scared. i don’t think i’ll come out of this this time. no one has even noticed that i’m literally falling apart”

-tnh

#self loathing #self destruction #addiction #mentally ill #self deprecation #angry #depression #iv user #pill head #mental health #insanity #sad #self harm #bipolar #suicidal #depressed #hurt #fuck love #fuck off #self hate

[existinginthevoid]

#self loathing #self destruction #addiction #mentally ill #self deprecation #depression #angry #iv user #pill head #mental health #insanity #sad #self harm #bipolar #suicidal #depressed #hurt #fuck love #fuck off #self hate

[existinginthevoid]

[existinginthevoid]

“what hurts the most is that he doesn’t even see how bad he’s hurting me. completely fucking oblivious”

-tnh

#self loathing #self destruction #addiction #mentally ill #self deprecation #angry #depression #iv user #pill head #mental health #insanity #sad #self harm #bipolar #suicidal #depressed #hurt #fuck love #fuck off #self hate #betrayed #piece of shit

[existinginthevoid]

“i feel disassociation coming on and i gladly accept it”

-tnh

#self loathing #self destruction #addiction #mentally ill #self deprecation #depression #angry #iv user #pill head #mental health #insanity #sad #self harm #bipolar #suicidal #depressed #hurt #fuck love #fuck off #self hate #unappreciated #let down #low

[existinginthevoid]

“out of nowhere the sadness hits like a kick in the chest. so powerful it makes it hard to breathe and even harder to try and explain”

-tnh

#self loathing #self destruction #addiction #mentally ill #self deprecation #depression #angry #iv user #pill head #mental health #sad #self harm #insanity #bipolar #depressed #suicidal #hurt #fuck love #self hate #fuck off