midako17

[midako17]

wow, it's been a year and im still in this shit. i hope you are doing well and you are recovering. if not, i wish you to achieve your goals

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[midako17]

hi, sweeties!! how are you? im fine, i've been starving for almost 2 days. there were no reports because it's a bit tedious. i hope you are doing well and are already preparing to celebrate the new year.

#tw eating things #ed related #ed stuff #edtmblr #not pr0 just for me #just ed stuff #just ed shit #tw ed thoughts

[midako17]

hi, sweeties!! sorry for the long absence. at first i overeated for 3 days. but since saturday, ive been back in the mode, so reports will come every day.

08/12/2021 – binge

09/12/2021 – binge

10/12/2021 – binge

11/12/2021

breakfast:

coffee (2 kcal)

lunch:

coffee (2 kcal)

dinner:

shawarma with chicken (581 kcal)

total: 585 kcal

12/12/2021

breakfast, lunch and dinner:

coffee (2 kcal)

total: 6 kcal

13/12/2021

breakfast:

2 bananas (210 kcal)

lunch:

low-fat milk 500 ml (160 kcal)

dinner:

oatmeal porridge (221 kcal)

total: 591 kcal

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[midako17]

hi, sweeties!! how are you? i cant figure out what im feeling other than endless fatigue. on the one hand, i see that my weight is decreasing. but on the other hand, it seems to me pointless, because just because of my low weight, no one will love me. im tired of being the second choice

07/12/2021

breakfast:

protein cookies (108 kcal) and coffee (2 kcal)

lunch:

protein bar (187 kcal) and black monster ultra (13 kcal)

dinner:

salad of crab sticks, corn and carrots (190 kcal)

total: 500 kcal

#not pr0 just using tags #tw eating things #tw ed related #tw ed thoughts #ed related #just ed shit #not pr0 ana #tw ed shit #ana diary #ed stuff #tw ana things #thinspo #ed things #edtmblr #not pr0 just for me

[midako17]

hi, sweeties!! how are you? today, after college, i cleaned up a little at home and almost immediately fell asleep until 11 pm. i feel strangely tired

06/12/2021

breakfast:

coffee (2 kcal)

lunch:

salad of crab sticks, corn and crackers (276 kcal)

6 cookies (281 kcal)

dinner:

skipped

total: 559 kcal

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[midako17]

hi, sweeties!! today was a hard day.

05/12/2021

cheat meal (i didnt count calories)

mom said when i get home, ill weigh myself. and if my weight is less than 50 kg, she will fatten me. today we called by video link, and she saw that my face had lost weight. so im a little worried that i might have to gain weight :(

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[midako17]

things that i will be able to afford after i become thin

dont be afraid to eat in public places

wear tops and shorts

dont look at the calorie content of products

feel needed and loved

dont be afraid to be the center of attention

go to the beach in a beautiful swimsuit

be confident no matter what

go on dates

be in the first place for someone

be someone's thin inspiration

#tw ed account #not pr0 just using tags #tw eating things #tw ed related #tw ed thoughts #ed related #just ed shit #not pr0 ana #tw ed shit #ana diary #tw ana things #ed things #ed stuff #edtmblr #tw ed meme

[midako17]

hi, sweeties!! how are you? last night my friend said to me while i was scrolling tumblr: «are you not recovering?» and i wondered: «do I eat so much that it seems like I'm recovering? should i eat less?»

04/12/2021

breakfast:

coffee (2 kcal)

lunch:

salad of crab sticks, corn and whole-grain yeast-free bread (214 kcal) and karkade tea (19 kcal)

dinner:

bud light (185 kcal)

total: 420 kcal

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[midako17]

im so tired of lying to my parents about what i eat. i know they care about me and want only the best. i feel like i don't deserve the care they give me. the worst thing about ed is constantly lying to parents and friends

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[midako17]

hi, sweeties!! how are you? today it was impossible to drink only coffee and tea. i feel weak and worthless. i would like fasting to be as simple as it was when i was just starting to lose weight. i have such a wonderful opportunity not to eat at all, but i eat anyway

03/12/2021

breakfast:

coffee (2 kcal)

lunch:

protein bar 30 gr (105 kcal)

dinner:

curd mass with vanilla 180 gr (263 kcal)

total: 370 kcal

#not pr0 just using tags #tw eating things #just ed shit #tw ed related #tw ed thoughts #not pr0 ana #tw ed shit #not pr0 just for me #ed related #edtmblr #ed things #ed stuff

[midako17]

hi, sweeties!! how are you? today i overslept my first lesson, so the whole day was kind of chaotic. calories came out a lot for me, but tomorrow i will only drink coffee and tea (maybe something protien), so i try not to worry about it and not get upset

02/12/2021

breakfast:

yogurt 500 ml (350 kcal) and coffee (2 kcal)

lunch:

greek yogurt 140 gr (94 kcal), 2 mandarins (53 kcal) and coffee (2 kcal)

dinner:

shawarma with chicken 200 gr (302 kcal)

snack:

whole-grain, yeast-free bread with mustard (46 kcal)

total: 849 kcal

should i take photo reports of what i eat?

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[midako17]

i dont want to recover what if i lose mY sPaRkLe?!

my sparkle:

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[midako17]

lalisa is the ideal figure and personality that i strive for

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[midako17]

sometimes it seems to me that the only way out is to constantly go on diets, because i have no other goals than losing weight. i would like to be happy without it

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[midako17]

someone: oh, you have such cute cheeks.

me: thanks, i have compulsive overeating, which im still struggling with

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[midako17]

the problem is that i stopped distinguishing physical hunger from emotional hunger, and even if i really want to get well, i won't be able to eat with hunger because i don't feel it

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[midako17]

hi, sweeties!! how are you? today was the dedication to students, so my friend and i decided to celebrate it. i hope you observe the water balance and eat well!!

01/12/2021

breakfast:

coffee (2 kcal) and apple (80 kcal)

lunch:

apple pie (186 kcal) and tea with sugar (36 kcal)

dinner:

vodka with tea (200 kcal)

snack:

apple (38 kcal) and 2 mandarins (53 kcal)

total: 595 kcal

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