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I know this blog hasn't been active for a while, but wanted to tell you how much I loved Forget Me Not! You are such a talented writer and I hope one day you feel up to returning to this work <3

I’m so glad you love it! 🫶 thank you for reaching out, I genuinely didn’t think anyone was reading it anymore so this was a much needed boost ❤️

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Saeyoung & MC’s Garden Date - Journal Entry #6 (707hearts606 zine)

Pairing: Saeyoung/MC

Word count: 753

A/N: My second out of three zine pieces for @707hearts606 zine! This one is my personal favorite out of the three ✨ 

💕 Extras are up for sale so be sure to get one before they run out! 💕

The look on her face in this moment is one I want to engrave and carry in my heart for as long as I live. The smile that always filled me with an unknown warmth beamed with excitement after her every word. Her gaze followed every point of her finger before they looked back to meet mine, shining with a curiosity to see my expression. Carefree and completely at ease, yet entirely enamored by her surroundings.

She spoke with passion; unbridled joy seeping through every explanation and anecdote that came along with every flower she could find. I always knew she liked them, but I never saw how she truly felt until now. It was like setting a child loose in a candy store, sweet innocence and all.

When I first suggested a picnic in a garden a week ago, I could see the underlying joy she tried so hard to hide behind an almost passive “should be fun.” The wide grin from ear to ear and eager bounce in her step gave it away. It was one of the widest smiles I had seen on her, how could I not take her?

Somehow, as we sat on the picnic blanket surrounded by the growing beauty, her smile managed to grow much wider than before. It radiated the kind of happiness that felt more than contagious, it captured my entire being. She was obviously in her happy place.

She, in turn, is my garden. She has a delicate air to her that makes me want to protect and preserve everything about her. Her kind and nurturing love melting and mending my heart whenever I need it most. The soft sun bathing us in warmth didn’t compare to the way she made me feel just from being beside her. She was like a nice summer breeze that pulled me close and left me longing for more. No flower in sight could compare to her beauty.

I wonder how she knows so much about flowers. She seemed well versed, her knowledge was expansive, as if reading directly from a book. Even when I tried to trip her up with made up flowers, she could see right through it. In between plants, I couldn’t help but notice that she spoke more passionately about the flowers with more loving, romantic meanings. The slight blush on her cheeks and loving look in her eyes, one that made the grip on my heart tighten, left me knowing that those words may have been for me. Even if they weren’t, I knew I felt them for her.

When she wasn’t looking, I grabbed some flowers that stuck out to me— the ones I knew she’d love. The pile beside me grew bigger with her every few words, making it hard to block her view from it. How she didn’t notice was beyond me, but I was thankful my small surprise wasn’t ruined.

As oblivious as she was, she was ten times more adorable for it. The dreamy, awed look on her face spoke volumes about her sincerity and child-like wonder; completely unaware of anything around her or that my attention was focussed solely on her. It’s going to make surprising her for the rest of our lives so easy.

I really could gush for a while about the way she seems more vulnerable around me, letting her guard down completely to let me in. She has a special way of making me just as susceptible. It has made for our most honest moments and I wouldn’t have it any other way.

Once she came to, noticing my intent gaze, she tilted her head curiously— as if suspecting what I had up my sleeve. Before she could even formulate a question to ask, I placed the small, makeshift bouquet on her lap. Her eyes widened at it, suppressing a gasp before she held it tight to her chest with another wide smile. Even between scolding me for picking them off the stems, she looked so happy.

If I’m remembering correctly, I gave her Crimson Polyanthus, meaning the heart is a mystery. Red Daisies for beauty unknown to the possessor. Baby’s Breath for innocence and pure of heart. Honey Flowers for a sweet, secret love. And Purple Hydrangeas for a desire to deeply understand.

My heart is a mystery that I can’t fully grasp.  I don’t know that I can see the beauty it may possess. Her heart however, radiates a sweet and generous love, the perfect remedy to my unspeakable past.

#mystic messenger #saeyoung choi #saeran x mc #707 #luciel choi #mystic messenger 707 #mystic messenger saeyoung #drabble #fanfiction #fan fiction #fanfic #imagines #fluff #zine #zine piece

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Saeyoung & MC’s First Date - Journal Entry #1 (707hearts606 zine)

Pairing: Saeyoung/MC

Word count: 706

A/N: One of my three zine pieces for @707hearts606 zine! It’s been exciting and an honor to be apart of this project & to write for my one and only love ❤️

💕 Extras are up for sale so be sure to get one before they run out! 💕

She didn’t seem to notice that I was staring at her, as if she was entirely oblivious to how endearing and cute she looked right now. The reflection of the stars in her eyes appeared brighter than the real ones I could see by looking up at the sky. Her gaze was entirely fixed on the glittering display above, and I couldn’t find it in me to look away.

Somehow, she made everything around her light up, even as we sat outside in the dark. I could still see the smile on her lips, spreading wider as she glanced over to me. Her hair was a halo that framed her face perfectly: angelic in a way I couldn’t fully understand, but a captivating mystery nonetheless. She was entirely at peace in this moment, not a care in the world except for the stars in the sky and the company beside her.

Her hands were so small and delicate, I felt like I had to be careful holding them. They were so soft compared to mine, but she still held me tight; not minding how calloused and rough they must feel. I noticed my thumb tracing over her skin, hoping to memorize the feeling of tranquility she radiated under my fingertips.

I was nervous, in every way a person could be nervous. She could probably feel how sweaty my hand was in hers, but she didn’t seem to notice as she scooted closer to my side. As soon as her head rested on my shoulder, I could feel my breathing completely stop. I think she noticed, giggling to herself in a way that made my heart skip a beat.

I didn’t expect her to be so bold and trusting on our first date, her confidence striding for miles beyond my own. She seemed entirely relaxed and composed, contrasting the way my heart was rapidly thrashing against my chest. But I could tell she felt safe right by my side, melting into my touch and inching as close as she could. I’ve never had someone be so comfortable around me, it was different but…nice.

Actually if I’m being honest, it was more than nice. I may be a nervous wreck, but I was at least comforted to know that she was right beside me, somehow making every worry outside this moment disappear. The field of bluebells surrounding us added to the dreamy atmosphere, and if it did turn out to be a dream, I desperately hoped to never wake up.

Something about the stars tonight seemed different. Whenever I had looked up before, they had left me with a vacant feeling, a sense of nothingness. Looking into the sky was like looking into a cold and distant unknown that I could never learn to appreciate.  It always seemed out of my reach.

Most times, gazing up at it for too long made it feel like I was slowly drifting away. I was entirely alone in the dark void, disappearing without a true trace of myself to hold me down. No one and nothing around to help as I floated away. I thought I was bound to be consumed and forgotten.

And yet… the serene look on her face in that moment reminded me that I was no longer alone. Every time I felt like I was getting lost in the dark sky, her touch brought me back down to earth, grounding me to my new reality. A reality where I could dare to be selfish. One that left me feeling safe and secure under her foreign, but captivating presence. I was sitting right next to the brightest and warmest star; one that was entirely my own.

It may have only been our first date, but I truly felt like I had known her my whole life. As if no words needed to be spoken because they wouldn’t do justice to the feeling of pure love in the air. From the instant we started the evening, I knew for a fact there would be many more dates to come. More opportunities to convey and articulate my deep, endless feelings for her.

I can’t wait to explore the expanse of the universe with my one and only space cadet <3

#mystic messenger #saeyoung choi #saeyoung x mc #707 #luciel choi #mystic messenger 707 #mystic messenger saeyoung #drabble #fanfiction #fanfic #fan fiction #imagines #zine piece

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CHARACTER SPOTLIGHT - Saeran!

Art preview by: @meowlayn-art​   & @wxynter​ Fic preview by: @mysticmylifeisamess-enger

Our preorders are now open! Get a copy here: https://ourgardenofeden.bigcartel.com/

Thank you for sharing

@faneventshub @zinewish @anizines @atozines @zine-scene @fandomzines

#mystic messenger #mysme #preorders are still open till the 28th!! #saeran choi #ray #saeran #choi twin #choi twins #ray choi #fandom zines

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Reblogging once again because I just caught an error in that last section & just fixed it 😅

Anywaaaays, pre-orders are still open, please go check out the zine ✨

Super excited to share a bit of my piece for @mysmezine in collaboration with a very talented artist @wxynter & to have written for Saeran, my favorite flower boy ❤️

All the art & fics I have seen for this zine look amazing & everyone did such an amazing job bringing this together, please go support the project!

✨ pre-orders are open till February 28th, here’s a link to the shop ✨

#mystic messenger #saeran choi #mysme #mysme saeran #mystic messenger saeran #mysme ray #mystic messenger ray #zine #Zine Preview #zine preorders

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Super excited to share a bit of my piece for @mysmezine in collaboration with a very talented artist @wxynter & to have written for Saeran, my favorite flower boy ❤️

All the art & fics I have seen for this zine look amazing & everyone did such an amazing job bringing this together, please go support the project!

✨ pre-orders are open till February 28th, here’s a link to the shop ✨

#mystic messenger #saeran choi #mysmezine #mystic messenger zine #zine preview #mystic messenger saeran #mysme saeran

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And we’re live! Pre-Orders for the Our Garden of Eden: A Mystic Messenger Fanzine is now open!

Sorry for the long wait, but the store is officially open! Visit our shop at ourgardenofeden.bigcartel.com and shop now!

Read more about our bundles and stretch goals under the cut or click on this link to head to the shop.

Keep reading

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Happy New Year! It’s time for another contributor spotlight!

It’s Isabel and Jafndaegur this week! They can be found on tumblr at @mysticmylifeisamess-enger and @jafndaegur. Please welcome them and give them a follow!

#mystic messenger #contributor spotlight #check out this zine im in!! #the theme is so cute & all the work put into it came out beautifully!!! #mystic messenger zine #zine

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[MM] Update Announcement on Two DLC’s, an SNS Event, and a New Merchandise Available on Cheritz Market

Hello, this is Cheritz.

We are thrilled to finally share this wonderful news with you!♥

Ray’s After Ending will be updated on Mystic Messenger!

We have more news regarding other surprises, such as Jumin Han’s Bad Ending DLC and special events prepared for Jaehee’s birthday, so please read this notice carefully until the end!

< 1. New DLC: Ray’s After Ending >

On the 18th of December, 2020… Ray’s After Ending, which many of you have been waiting for, will finally be released!!

What do you think awaits the last journey for Ray, who has been there from the very beginning - when Mystic Messenger was first introduced to the world? Will it be a love story? A thriller? Why don’t you find out this December?

Anyone can access his After Ending contents through the DLC or the After Ending page - it is not required to see the Good or the Normal ending of Ray’s route first .♥

The title image of the game will also change in commemoration of the update as well! Title Illustration: 14th - 27th of December (KST)

※ There will be a separate notice regarding the in-game update schedule. ※ The release date may vary depending on the circumstances.

< 2. New Merchandise in Commemoration of Ray’s After Ending >

Following the new update, Ray will be getting his very own set of merchandise.

Please also take note that out of the group of people who purchase the new merchandise, twenty lucky people will be drawn at random to win 2 postcards signed by the voice actors that took part in Ray’s After Ending and Jumins Han’s DLC recordings!

Don’t miss out on your chance to get your own Ray’s After Ending SET! (The merchandise will be available for purchase starting from the 18th of December.)

※ There will be a separate notice showing the detailed images of the merchandise.

< 3. New DLC: Jumin Han’s Bad Ending DLC >

In addition to the After Ending of Ray, there will be a separate story you can enjoy as well!

Jumin Han, a trustworthy CEO-in-line with a promising future has a particularly memorable Bad Ending. Do you remember the red high heels? Well, we were surely aware of the positive feedback we got from that story and had no reason not to look back over it just because it wasn’t a Good Ending.

The privileges of the CEO-in-line: the story after his Bad Ending

Please look forward to Jumin and MC’s romantic story filled with twists and turns!! *Jumin Han’s Bad Ending DLC can be found on the DLC or the After Ending page.♥

※ There will be a separate notice regarding the in-game update schedule. ※ The release date may vary depending on the circumstances.

< 4. SNS Event: Spending December with Ray’s, Jumin’s, and Jaehee’s Dark Sides >

Did you know that Ray has three distinguishable characteristics? He tends to the gardens. He bakes tarts. However, he has a “dark side.” And have you ever found yourself particularly charmed by his “dark side?” Well, if you have, then this event will be perfect for you!

This December, in commemoration of the new in-game updates, you will be able to meet the dark sides of Ray, Jumin, and Jaehee on the SNS!!

So get ready to fall head over heels in love!

< 5. Game-Access Event >

Last, but not least, the most reliable member of the RFA member, Jaehee Kang, has her birthday in December. Log in during the following period to see the new title illustration in celebration of Jaehee’s birthday!

Please also note that if you log in during the following period, you will be able to receive 50 hourglasses as a thank-you gift for celebrating Jaehee’s birthday and Christmas with us!

Title Illustration: 1st - 13th of December, 28th - 31st of December (KST) Event Period (hourglasses): 26th - 28th of December (KST) *Can be received only once during the event period. *Can be received by entering Mode Select > Main Menu.

This is all we have for today!♥ We are delighted to share lots of news, after the long wait. Thank you once again for being patient with us, and we sincerely hope that these new updates will bring a smile on your face.

Thank you.

Best,   Cheritz.

#AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH #that daily saeran account probably just felt the biggest relief aksbdhhdhbd #bUT HOLY SHIIIIIIIT

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Hi! I'm reading the Saeran forget me not fic and I'm hoping to god it's gonna have a happy ending or my heart will snap in half :') currently on chap 8 ❤️

(but also ahbjckd thank you so much for stopping by & for reading ❤️)

#Anonymous

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Your version of Saeran in Forget-me-not is my favorite! 💕 It really touches me to read about him being warm, sweet, and happy. May I ask when we'll get another chapter? I can't wait for MC and Saeran to be together again. 🤧 But most importantly please take care of yourself! I don't want to pressure you. Hope you are doing well. 💙

Thank you so much for reaching out & leaving this sweet ask ❤️ & thank you for reading my fic, it always means so much to hear that & to know that it’s being read in the first place ajhvdgbhkn I’m hoping to have the next chapter up by mid November or around that time after I finish a few pending works ^^ I’ve been having a rough time writing for the last few months with everything going on and some personal matters in my life, but it hasn’t fully stopped me nor will I let it! Thank you for checking in & I hope that you take care of yourself and are also doing well ✨

#Anonymous #ask

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Be Greedy, At Least With Me

Pairing: Gavin/Reader

Summary: To have Gavin voice his desires, what he truly wants, always proved to be a challenge.

Word count: 2,250

A/N: the literal first few notes of this fic that I had written down were just “I wanna suck the soul out of this man’s d*ck” so I think that’s really all I can add to this for you to know what to expect avhgcjhbxn also I’m sorry this took a year, a lot of other things got put on my plate in the time between

Not safe for the kiddos below the cut (+18)

Keep reading

#anyways look! a smut fic from my mlqc blog!!! #im not near a laptop rn so edits will be made on monday if there are mistakes #mlqc #not for the kiddos #mr love queen's choice #mr love gavin #not mm

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i need to say this or i will regret it, I FREAKING LOVE YR WRITING ESPECIALLY FORGET ME NOT SERIES, the flavorrr of your writing😔👌🏼.

akwjdhdjdbndn YOU ARE SO SWEET & IM SO GLAD YOU LIKE MY WRITING 🥺

#my heart is but a puddle at this ❤️ #ask #anonymous

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Ink and Its Carrier pt. 25

Author’s Note: Ok, honestly, hello everyone. 

I am immensely sorry for how long it’s taken me to get out this next chapter. After the last one I wrote something that I liked, but never could find the energy to finish. Writing “Saguaro” made me realize something though, and that was that the pacing would be off if I used the chapter I had originally written. I couldn’t figure it out for 9-10 months, and then literally in one day I realized the issue and took out about 2k words. I also pushed us deep into angst country by including some work I wrote almost TWO years ago (YES I had half of this chapter written before I even got to Chapter 10!!!! Apologies if you notice a shift in style, I tried hard to rework it but some lines are exactly the same as my writing back in the day), and also included some new writing and editing. 

I guess I just felt the need to explain what happened with me? I was genuinely just stuck at one part, and realized that sometimes the best plan to to start from scratch. Glad I learned this lesson, SUCKS that it took me so long to realize. Also, life has been WILD with work stuff, then COVID, and so much more. 

But I finally feel the desire to write again and that’s fueling me. I hope you all enjoy, and I hope to have more for you soon.

Deep down she didn’t want to go out that day. A part of her longed to wallow in the memories and feelings of yesteryears, become one with her couch, and remain immobile for the next fourteen hours but she chose not to. One, because she knew that was disgustingly unhealthy at this point. She had had a wonderful conversation catching up with Namjoon, her breakfast had been small and filling, and wasting that head start by remaining in her pajamas and watching nostalgic films with beautiful scores would just be a slap to any progress she had made. And two, well, she had plans. Plans she did not want to cancel.

Keep reading

#mystic messenger #jihyun kim #lemme just push this amazing fic on yall again since it updated #cannot fucking recommend this enough

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Thank you @space-kitten-606​ & @mysticmataki​ for the mentions 💕 I don’t have anyone else from the top of my head, but the above are definitely great recs!

heyo~ if anyone has any sfw mystic messenger fanfics/scenarios/headcanons/writing blogs/etc, please hmu! tyty

#whenever I end up on these lists I always cry in the club!! #the thought that people think of me to add to these is just so sweet ❤️ #& kat & kitten are both great writers that I wholeheartedly reccomend

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Forget Me Not - Masterlist

A series I’m prouder of than I should be ^^ They each should have their own summary, word count, and rating, but for those stumbling upon it from this, it is a Saeran x MC/Reader Flower Shop AU based off this art (and I’m in love with this artist, pls love them too). Also I made a playlist for this which is just songs I listen to while writing it.

Prologue | AO3 Link | Fanfiction

Chapter 1 | AO3 Link | Fanfiction

Chapter 2 | AO3 Link | Fanfiction

Chapter 3 | AO3 Link | Fanfiction

Chapter 4 | AO3 Link | Fanfiction

Chapter 5 | AO3 Link | Fanfiction 

Chapter 6 | AO3 Link | Fanfiction 

Chapter 7 | AO3 Link | Fanfiction 

Chapter 8 | AO3 Link | Fanfiction 

Chapter 9 | AO3 Link | Fanfiction 

Chapter 10 | AO3 Link | Fanfiction 

Chapter 11 | AO3 Link | Fanfiction 

Chapter 12 | AO3 Link | Fanfiction

Chapter 13 | AO3 Link | Fanfiction 

Chapter 14 | AO3 Link | Fanfiction

Chapter 15 | AO3 Link | Fanfiction 

Chapter 16 | AO3 Link | Fanfiction

Chapter 17 | AO3 Link | Fanfiction

Chapter 18 | AO3 Link | Fanfiction

Chapter 19 | AO3 Link | Fanfiction

Chapter 20 | AO3 Link | Fanfiction

Chapter 21 in the works 

Extras:

Holiday Special | AO3 Link

Main masterlist | Commission info

#reblogging for update #mystic messenger #saeran choi #fanfiction #flower shop au #forget me not #masterlist

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Forget Me Not - Ch. 20

Pairing: Saeran/Reader

Word count: 2,492

Summary: Saeyoung gets ready to throw hands, for realsies

Warning: I mean if you’re reading to this point, there have been a ton of spoilers but I warn again, spoilers for Ray route & Saeyoung’s route. 

A/N: This chapter took me a while to write due to 1) how much I wanted in this & 2) contrary to having more time on my hands, quarantine made it hard to write. I hope that you are all safe during this time, wearing masks, & social distancing ✨ And don’t forget to demand justice for Breonna Taylor

Context references (if you need them): Letters mentioned are from chapter 11 & 15.

AO3 Link | Chapters Masterlist

Previous Chapter | Next Chapter (in the works)

What V saw could only be described as his deepest fear; one he didn’t realize he had until it was in sight. A fear that knocked him to the ground, left him watching on as the wrenching feeling deep in his stomach topples him over. He was numb and a voice in the back of his head repeatedly whispered ‘this is over.’

In front of him was a monument to his incompetency; every lingering doubt that led to complete and utter hopelessness, every time he hesitated and it ended up being too late, and every minor mistake that left a crucial impact. It was all too far out of his grasp now.

It blew out the small flame of hope that kept him going, descending into a dark unlike any other and fueling his self-hatred and deprecation. The only thoughts running through his mind is how he could have prevented this, all of this.

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As the door shut behind him, V slumped against it at the thought of being home. A place that should have felt safe, that should emanate warmth and security, held a menacing and unsettling air that always ran a deep chill down the length of his spine.

“You’re back.”

“Rika, I-”

“I told you not to follow me.”

“You didn’t leave with a choice, I had to see for myself what you were doing,” he said, collecting himself as he pressed forward. “And this has gone too far, you need to end this.”

“You know I can’t do that.”

“But you can, and I can help you,” he said as he reached for her hands to fully plea, only to retreat right as soon as he made contact. “Please let me help you end this. I understand wanting to help those people, but this isn’t the way to do it. Those are innocent lives you are hurting.”

“You never understood my intentions and you never will!” She snapped, pacing the room as she spoke. “I’m saving those people from their pain! They look up to me, they need me! How can I turn my backs on them now in their time of need?!”

“This isn’t saving anymore.”

She scoffed at his words, rolling her eyes before continuing.

“You said you would be there for me, help me in any way you can. You said you would always put me and my needs first. What happened to that? Once it’s something as big as this, you want me to stop?”

“Rika-“

A banging on the door startled V in his place, a momentary paralyzation until he heard the voice on the other side.

“V, Rika, open up right now!” He immediately recognized Saeyoung’s voice, followed by incessant pounding that shook the door. He didn’t hesitate to walk over, disregarding the argument at hand.

“What kind of sick fucking game are you two playing here?!” He hissed as the door opened, pushing passed him as he made his way in.

“Is everything oka-“

“You’ve got some fucking nerve to be asking that,” he snapped, though his movements hadn’t ceased as he rummaged through the drawers of their coffee table, moving all over the living room to find any sort of hidden compartment.

“Saeyoung, what has gotten into you?” Rika asked, taken aback by the intrusion.

He didn’t answer, he simply pushed passed her to the hallway, opening each door until he reached her office. He flicked on the light and quickly rummaged through each drawer, the two watching in disbelief from the doorway.

“Well V and I were in the middle of something, I think you need to leave-“

“Found it!” He exclaimed, pulling out handfuls of letters from the bottom drawer.

“Care to explain these to me? And I want the real explanation,” he emphasized his last words with a wave of the papers in his hand.

“I told you, these all piled up on the door of your shop.”

“You and I both know that’s a lie, now tell me the truth.”

“Would I ever lie to you?” She asked, fearlessly inching towards him with the same uncanny smile.

“You are, you’re lying to me right now!”

“I’m not, I told you I found these at your door.”

“Then why did I see you leave them?!” He questioned, voice raising in demand.

She fell stunned, taking a step back at the venomous words aimed at her. Her gaze flicked between him and the letters in his hands, but she couldn’t find it in her to look him in the eyes. Instead, they fell to her feet as she spoke.

“I-,” she paused, collecting her words, “I don’t know what you’re talking about.”

“Unbelievable,” he scoffed in annoyance, “I have video from a CCTV of you leaving letters taped to the door the same time we received them. I saw you do it, now tell me why?!”

She was at a loss for words, unable to find a response as her eyes continued to dart anywhere but his. His patience wore thinner, turning back to the desk and sifting through the documents that sat atop. He picked up a journal out of the pile, opened it up, and pointed at the writing on it.

“Is this not your handwriting?” He said, comparing the letters side by side, “It’s a perfect match, now why did you do this?!”

She turned to V, looking for some sort of help from him only to meet an expression that was just as perplexed. He was stunned to see him like this, but he knew this was bound to happen. But he looked at her with slight curiosity as to how she was going to explain this.

“And why didn’t you tell me it was her?!” Saeyoung’s accusatory finger moved to the tall man behind her, “Why did you let her get away with this? You have no idea the mental hell you put us through, and for what?! Tell me why you two did this!”

He was fuming, jaw and fists clenched as he watched them flounder for an answer. A burning rage in his eyes that they had never seen before, practically scorching the two that couldn’t bare to meet his gaze. A long, drawn-out silence only serving to further boil his blood before V broke it.

“Saeyoung, I-I’m so sorry, I-“

“Sorry doesn’t explain it! I want an explanation!”

From his peripheral, V could see Rika contemplating her next words, looking over to him desperate for an answer. She could see the subtle plea in his eyes to tell the truth once and for all, a silent conversation that had Saeyoung frustrated as he watched the two.

“I was scared,” she admitted, finally looking at Saeyoung. His expression hadn’t shifted as he waited for her to go on.

“I didn’t want to lose you and Saeran, I thought you two were slipping from me so I used scare tactics to keep you close. And I know it was wrong and I shouldn’t have done it-“

“Lose us to what?” He interrupted, maintaining his stern gaze, “You’re not making any sense.”

“To MC,” she said, sighing deeply as she continued, “I didn’t get a good feeling from her and I saw Saeran falling in love way too fast. I thought it would lead to him leaving the RFA so I acted on instinct.”

Behind V’s shades was a downcast look of absolute disappointment. The frown on his face deepened slightly, eyes averting from the scene in front of him. He fought back a twinge at the ache in his chest, knowing that the amount of transparency in her statement was none.

“But I shouldn’t have judged so quickly, and I definitely should not have interfered like I did. I’m sorry.”

Her words sounded heartfelt, but something in her features contradicted it. Looking over at V, he found where that sincerity went.

“I can’t forgive you for this, you’re only sorry because I caught you in the act,” he paused, collecting his thoughts, “I have to tell the others about this.”

“No, you can’t tell them anything,” Rika blurted in a panic.

“Why shouldn’t I? Give me one good reason I shouldn’t get them involved.”

“Because even though you’re upset with me right now, I know you still want to trust me. There’s a part of you that, passed this anger, still sees me as your guardian,“ she answered without skipping a beat, regaining her composure. She circled Saeyoung while speaking, as if sizing up her prey, “When I first took you in, I did everything I could to keep the two of you safe while having a normal childhood. I put you two before my own needs and I never regretted it.”

He could still feel her unnerving ambiance fill the room in tenfold, but he couldn’t help her words getting to him. He felt that maybe he owed her that much, a second chance. Her reasoning didn’t add up, the air around this situation only making it more suspicious, but maybe digging deeper wouldn’t turn up anything he didn’t already know.

“This was all just a mistake that’ll never happen again, trust me.”

“You can’t do this again, I won’t give you the chance to even think about doing it once more. If I so much as see anything off about you, I won’t hesitate to tell the rest of the RFA about this.”

“I understand, and you have my word that it won’t. But know my intentions were in the right place,” she said, earning an exasperated, sarcastic laugh.

“You think that leaving threatening notes from someone that wants us dead is ‘in the right place?’ You think that fear mongering and convincing us that we’re in danger correlates with good intentions?” He asked rhetorically, “I knew you were starting to become different, but I didn’t realize you were becoming delusional too.”

“Saeyoung-“ V tried to intervene.

“No, I’m done with you excusing this! You told us you knew exactly who left these from the start, and you continued to let it happen!”

The silence that enveloped the room brought attention to the way his chest rose and fell heavily from tension, taking slow breaths to even out. His fists unclenched to reveal the way his nails dug and marked his palm. Once his shoulders fell, a sudden thought occurred.

“Where were you really?” he asked calmly, watching the puzzled look on V’s face.

“The business trip you were supposedly on the last few days that restricted you from taking our calls. Where were you really?”

“I can’t tell you that.”

“Why not? If it really is just a case of an impulse decision going too far, if you’re not hiding anything, then why can’t you tell me where you were?”

“That,” he started, looking over to Rika before settling on his words, “You’re just going to have to trust me when I tell you that it has nothing to do with this. And that I won’t let this happen again.”

One long look at the taller man, and Saeyoung could see the dark circles under his glasses. His furrowed brows softening with every passing second. And the longer he stared, the more he noticed the features on his face seemed different.

This wasn’t the same V from even a month ago. He seemed tired and worn out, the weight of the world on his shoulders and he couldn’t quite shake it off. But the most noticeable were the bruises behind the dark shades. He was told not to worry about it before, but it only seemed to get worse.

“Alright,” he settled, “I want to trust you. But this can’t happen again.”

“It won’t, you have my word,” V said.

Looking over at Rika, the same feeling of uneasiness from last night surfaced, but with it an anger bubbled in his chest. He couldn’t look at her the same, no words to say as passed the two to leave.

“I’ll walk you out,” V said, following him down the hall and out the door.

Once they were outside and the door clicked closed behind them, Saeyoung noticed the large envelope in V’s hand, eyes darting back up to meet his dark glasses. He extended it forward, waiting for him to take it only to receive a puzzled look.

“What is this?” Saeyoung asked, taking it hesitantly as he opened it.

“It’s every piece of evidence I could find on your father’s crimes,” he said, much more collected than before, “Every election he rigged, hitmen he hired to take out his competition, allegation he avoided by paying someone to look the other way, and countless of other heinous acts. I spent years collecting these, waiting for the right time to expose him publicly and end his hold on the two of you.”

The stack in his hand was thick, sifting through to see exactly what he was describing and more. Everything Saeyoung had found last night and much more sat in his hands.

“Why are you giving this to me now? Why didn’t I get this sooner?”

“There’s still a lot missing, but I felt I owed this to you now. I thought I could take care of this myself, but I’ve proven I can’t. And I need you to help me end this now, I can’t drag this on any longer.”

“Once you feel like you have enough, I’ll help with handling this information,” V continued, “But with this, I have to ask that you keep everything that just happened between us three while I take care of it.”

Saeyoung struggled to look him in the eyes, contemplating the weight of this decision. He knew none of this was right, taking this and staying silent didn’t seem morally correct. But the idea of being out of his father’s grasp, for Saeran’s sake, outweighed the days of psychological torture.

He shoved the documents back into the envelope and without a word, turned to leave. A few steps in and he couldn’t shake a thought that weighed heavy on his mind, turning back around immediately.

“Did,” he paused, collecting himself as he pushed his words out, “Did Rika do that to your eyes?”

V fell silent for a moment, eyes averting his gaze and almost confirming his answer. His expression went cold for a second before they met Saeyoung’s attentive look. It was like watching him collapse in on himself, the V he saw mere seconds ago completely gone.

“She wouldn’t, you don’t have to worry about this” he tried to assure, but his body language contradicted.

“You should head home, you look like you haven’t slept all night.”

Before Saeyoung could respond, he had made his way back inside. A feeling in the pit of his stomach turned at the thought of what V could be walking right back into, contemplating whether he should knock again and find out. But he fought it, instead turning back around and leaving.

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