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The Tamar and Tolya actors make me believe Bi privilege exists

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i am already in love with wylan's actor, i mean, holy shit

#shadow and bone #wylan van eck #six of crows #crooked kingdom #wylan hendriks

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reblog if you think that transgender people who only changed their terminology and not their body are perfectly valid members of the trans community 

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I think the message of Howl’s Moving Castle is that in order to maintain a successful relationship with some kind of fucked up wizard, you must find it in yourself to also be some kind of fucked up wizard.

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just had the funniest conversation with a new kpop stan. she was like "well you don't really know kpop" just because i said the only fourth generation groups i'm really loving so far are txt and stray kids.

little did she know i was there when shinee and 2ne1 debuted, girls' generation were still trying to achieve their well deserved spot in history along with big bang, and ft island were just starting.

i supported bts and exo since their predebut era. i cried watching b.a.p and secret getting mistreated by their company. i was there when the whole kris-luhan-tao shit happened. and i don't want to get into the tragedies in the following years because waking up one morning and finding out that your bias and role model in one group is dead is not something i'll ever be ready to talk about, especially when kpop was such a big part of my mental safe space.

i'm not attacking anyone when i say that i'm not really into some newer groups. sometimes it's not my cup of tea, sometimes i don't vibe with their auras, but i still wish every group to achieve what they want, to be healthy and successful. it takes courage to follow your dreams and every group is doing exactly this, and they all deserve respect and admiration.

#kpop #shinee #2ne1 #stray kids #bts #skz #exo #i'm not even 23 yet and holy shit i'm a preistoric kpop stan #i didn't even talk about teen top and other groups i loved so freaking much

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this is why i share the same one braincell with oikawa

#haikyuu!! #hq #oikawa tooru #aoba johsai

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proud of being european, ashamed of being italian, now more than ever.

This is a video of the Italian senate today. They are celebrating after voting against and blocking an anti-discrimination law that would have protected lgbt and disabled people. I’m in disbelief.

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My taste in books? Magical and sexy

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genshin rly said "ah you don't want ayaka cuz you're poor af and still building kazuha? GUESS WHAT BITCH"

#genshin impact

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"loki is the new tumblr sexyman" bro hes an original. hes one of the blueprints. this isnt new, this is just a revival

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#it's coming rome

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Rhysand's "problematic" behavior towards Feyre in ACOTAR

I have just finished reading A Court of Thorns and Roses. I have been in book fandom for a while so I've heard criticism towards this particular relationship and author, so here I am debunking/explaining why that criticism isn't justified. Not saying you can't dislike the book obviously, but a lot of bad things said about this came from a place of ignorance and not reading in between the lines nor with full attention.

Now, if you're a passionate anti with no chance for changing your opinion, please do turn around and look at posts about something you enjoy :) Let's all stay in line and be civil, I am merely going to explain something a lot of people seemed to have missed in this book.

Words in blue are quotes.

First of all, lemme say that I totally understand why someone would think this book is "problematic", it seemed that way to me as well at first but when you read carefully and in between the lines it's not problematic, dark yes, hence why it's new adult and not young adult, but not problematic.

Rhys definitely does bad things to Feyre and comes off as an asshole at first, which is why I hated him, but if you approach it more carefully you'll see that there is a lot more beneath the surface.

Feyre has two moods while Under the Mountain - depressed and angry at Rhys. Rhys, as he states himself, is on Feyre's side, because he, much like everyone, hates Amarantha and wants Feyre to succeed in freeing them.

Something I haven't noticed immediately is how Feyre is sinking deeper and deeper into depression and some dark corner of her mind, and every time she bounces back is with Rhysand. He makes her angry, because that is the only emotion he is capable to provoke in her and the only one that would keep her from falling apart. Being lovey-dovey or friendly or sad, as we have seen Tam and Lucian were with her, didn't help, it just made her more depressed.

By keeping her angry he is keeping her alive: "It took me a long while to realize that Rhysand, whether he knew it or not, had effectively kept me from shattering completely."

To be fair I gotta add that it wasn't his only way of keeping her alive; he healed her arm, did one of the tasks for her to keep her from being roasted, and led her to the correct answer on her second trial.

Also, something really important, he forcefully kissed her. When I read that I was furious and wanted to kick him honestly and I am not excusing him whatsoever, and imo he could have been a little more gentle, but he did that in order for Amarantha to believe it was him who kissed her, not Tamlin who was kissing her before. If Amarantha saw Feyre and Tamlin together, which is something Rhys interrupted, she would have gone wild because she is obsessed with Tamlin. Not only did Rhys save both of them (and Lucien, for that matter, because Amarantha kept pushing him in Tamlin's place) through his shady method I in no way approve of, immediately after his mood shifts. He knows Amarantha for 50 years, and he knew he'd take the punishment for kissing Feyre, which was, sadly the thing Amarantha is doing to him all the time, r*pe, which was obviously worse than usual because he was in a very mental state afterward: His tunic was unbuttoned at the top, and he ran a hand through his blue-black hair before he wordlessly slumped against the wall across from me and slid to the floor. “What do you want?” I demanded. “A moment of peace and quiet,” he snapped, rubbing his temples. I paused. “From what?” He massaged his pale skin, making the corners of his eyes go up and down, out and in. He sighed. “From this mess.” I sat up farther on my pallet of hay. I’d never seen him so candid. “That damned bitch is running me ragged,” he went on, and dropped his hands from his temples to lean his head against the wall. “You hate me. Imagine how you’d feel if I made you serve in my bedroom. I’m High Lord of the Night Court—not her harlot.”

Again, I am not excusing his actions because it was not okay, but he took r*pe as a punishment for the forcful kiss so Feyre and Tamlin wouldn't get something worse, which was probably death. He, once again, did a bad thing to prevent a horrible thing, but this time suffered himself as well. I personally, as a reader, can get over that, if you can't that's totally fine.

"If he hadn’t been kissing me, if he hadn’t shown up and interrupted us, I would have gone out into that throne room covered in smudged paint. And everyone—especially Amarantha—would have known what I’d been up to. It wouldn’t have taken much to figure out whom I’d been with, especially not once they saw the paint on Tamlin. I didn’t want to consider what the punishment might have been."

Feyre herself at one point starts looking forward to seeing Rhys and going to the parties with him and drinking glamoured wine, because it is the only rest her tortured mind can get: "A permanent darkness settled over me, and I began to look forward to the moment when Rhysand gave me that goblet of faerie wine and I could lose myself for a few hours. I stopped contemplating Amarantha’s riddle—it was impossible. Especially for an illiterate, ignorant human. Thinking of Tamlin made everything worse."

All he is doing, whether good or bad, is to help her succeed. I am not saying his actions are to be excused, but they are definitely reasoned. He isn't an asshole for the sake of being an asshole. His way of helping Feyre was a messed up one, but it was the only way. He was doing bad things (while also keeping certain boundaries) to prevent a horrible thing, which would be Feyre mentally shattering.

Feyre herself is in a similar situation at the end of the book, the only way to free everyone from Amarantha was to finish the final trial, which was to kill three (actually two) faeries. Murder is obviously wrong and something that can't be excused (except for Amarantha she deserved it), but taking two lives to save thousands was the only reasonable thing to do, and that's why Feyre did it even though she was disgusted by the deed. The same thing happened with Rhys, it just wasn't as clear and simple.

"Regardless of his motives or his methods, Rhysand was keeping me alive. And had done so even before I set foot Under the Mountain."

It is definitely DARK, and definitely not something that could be applied to a real-life situation.

I hope it helped clear that up, I'm not saying you should like Rhys or the series, I personally do enjoy a more dark and complicated story and characters, I hope if you're not a fan that you have plenty of other books to enjoy :)

#finally #rhysand #feyre archeron #feysand

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Ace & Deuce are canon wow 

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Us as a child, us in the future and us as an alligator. It's best not to question it.

Loki 1.05 | Journey Into Mystery

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“And tell Rowan,” Aelin said, fighting her own sob, “that I’m sorry I lied. But tell him it was all borrowed time anyway. Even before today, I knew it was all just borrowed time, but I still wish we’d had more of it.” She fought past her trembling mouth. “Tell him he has to fight. He must save Terrasen, and remember the vows he made to me. And tell him … tell him thank you—for walking that dark path with me back to the light.”

Sarah J. Maas “Empire of Storms“

art credit : faeriereverie

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-Pursuit-

This soul, so small. Yet so bright, to pierce through such a construct of anguish and rage. High, did the Moon set her gaze down on the Agent of Darkest Hell and his pursuit of her light made flesh. For she did not fear the children born of the darkness she watched over.

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