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they’re not your teachers anymore bud

rate my poem

strawberry blonde locks intertwine salt and pepper streaks

big bang theory marathons that go on for weeks,

olive green sweaters and alpha wolf tees

having picnics on his hill house in the warm summer breeze

typewriters clacking writing flawless sweet notes

watching horrible histories after taking off green camo coats

sneaking tender glances mid re

coming out and finally feeling free

@scrvwnycherub publicly shaming you for writing love poetry about my teachers

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testicles

no

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omg hiii 😍

do you have any chrali or carinder hcs the brainrot is so bad rn ☹️

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picture chrali conversion camp au

chris: “om gosh! camp newgrace like south park! south park reference? councellor have you seen north by northwest by alfred hitchcock?”

do you have any chrali or carinder hcs the brainrot is so bad rn ☹️

Publicly shaming you @scrvwnycherub

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😔😔

do you have any chrali or carinder hcs the brainrot is so bad rn ☹️

Publicly shaming you @scrvwnycherub

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#me #it’s like a junk food addiction i can’t fucking stop

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rate my dick

thats like 1 mm bru

#clearly you’ve never seen a packet of ginger nuts #fake brit smh

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yes 😔💔

This you?

#omg the tags are so aesthetic #i am crying

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In another universe, I take more pleasure in reality than daydreams. In another universe, it’s not painful to perceive.

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all of my memories and all of my remnants of happier times are slowly fading away.

months ago, i used to sob and look at pictures of those times because i couldn’t help it because i thought it was the worst feeling in the world.

i felt a pain in the pit of my stomach, a feeling of grief and deep yearning for those times back, but knowing it was impossible.

i am losing myself, i am drowning in grief and forgetting who i once was.

the grief is halting my tears, and now when i see those pictures, or listen to those songs, or think of those places, i just feel numb.

i feel stuck in place, while the rest of my friends have long since grown up, im still frantically looking for remnants of peace to cling onto, even just temporarily.

it’s like after everything that happened, i got stuck in a bubble and lost contact with the rest of the world, hell, lost contact with myself.

i don’t feel like the same person anymore.

i don’t feel like a person anymore.

i wish i could feel, i wish i could remember, i wish i could unsee it all, i wish i could cry and god, i wish more than anything that i could live and not just get by.

#art #poetry #writing #bpd #poem #artist #aspiring poet #love #poet #write

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god has selective hearing

if god heard me when i cursed, and when i lied and when i questioned his existence

why didn’t he hear me yelling into the pillow, begging him to fix this, to fix me.

begging to be cleansed, to be purified, to be healed.

to revert the wine in my veins back to blood, and to silence the ever-going storm that never seemed to stop.

maybe i wasn’t the best to him, maybe i wasn’t the strongest or most salient disciple.

but what kind of god makes a 10 year old carry everyone’s burdens when ever saint christopher himself couldn’t?

#tw religion #art #poetry #writing #poem #artist #bpd #mental health #poet #write

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This is crazyy 😭😭

#not super into the beatles but this is so funny #like you’ve got jung kook megan thee stallion and then the mfing beatles

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In another universe I wasn’t hard to love.

#yesterday i remembered that one time my dad called me hard to love #and then this came up on my dashboard #god #i’m gonna sob

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so aesthetic thank you 🥰🥰

#nsfw #(?)

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trees

i weep, weep like the thin, propelling branches of a willow, as the tender, fragile leaves sway ritualistically.

ever the same, never different.

i weep, i weep, i weep.

i pine for my life prior, pine like the thick, prickled needles adorning the trees in the woodland coating my primary school.

every memory is like a jabbing pine needle to my psyche, until i am nothing but a spiky coat of pain.

i pine, i pine, i pine.

i am ash, not ash like the tall, bright, strong tree, but i am simply ash.

every hurt was a burn mark, a kindling to my flame, until i eventually burned into a pile of ash.

i am ash, i am ash, i am ash.

#idk #tree poem #poem #poetry #writer #writing #trees #bpd #bpd poet #bpd poem #bpd poetry #write #art #love #poet #mental health #sapphic #artist

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to trace the stars on freckle-abundant cheeks

and kiss in retrograde,

to stare into a galaxy teeming with life, beauty and wonder

and to whisper

“how lucky am i to be able to align with you, and be a part of your intricate universe,”

#idk #poetry #space #poems #romance poem #romance poetry #space poetry #sapphic poetry #(?) #never really specified #but it’s about a sapphic relationship #art #writing #author #gay