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mylifeinthechi · 2 years
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Exploring Cal-Sag Trail in Palos Heights
Exploring Cal-Sag Trail in Palos Heights
Location: Alsip, Blue Island, Calumet City, Dolton, Lemont, Palos Heights, & Riverdale The Cal-Sag Trail will eventually stretch 26 miles from Sag Quarries in Lemont to the Burnham Greenway near the Indiana border. The first 13 miles opened in June 2015. Paved, Estimated Total Length 26.8 miles Hiking & Walking, BicyclingDogs(on-leash only)Cross-Country Skiing
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sook9i · 1 year
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— I SAID LOOK
. . . GENRE ! yeonjun x afab!reader | smut
. . . CONTAINS ! dom!yj, sub!reader, implied edging, fingering, mirror sex, choking, yj kinda rough, some marking (tried to keep readers skin color ambiguous as possible tho is it described that red from bite marks can be seen), finger sucking 😞, reader naked while jun is still semi-clothed, reader is a little…dazed, pet names (yeonjun called junnie; reader called baby, darling, handsome, pretty, & cute), i think that’s it lmk if i missed anything !
. . . WORD COUNT ! 772
. . . NOTES ! I hope you enjoy our first fic !! yeonjun posted that fucking photo and i lost all coherent thought 😵‍💫
. . . ADMIN ! written by fairy cal 🐱
“Come on, baby.” The voice is silky, devilish, right up behind your ear. “Look at me.”
Your head is filled to the brink with fog. All senses dulled and yet turned up to one hundred. The firm feeling of his thighs spread out beneath yours is driving you crazy. Yet the sound of his command swims in and out of your ears, never sticking. Your only response is to let out a high-pitched whine as you struggle to grind your hips back into his.
The movement is quickly brought to end as he delivers a sharp slap to the inside of your thigh, drawing out a gasp.
“No, darling,” His hand travels up your thigh and over your hips and stomach, fingers fleeting on your bare sternum, until a strong grip takes hold of your chin. “I said look.”
Your head is yanked away from his comforting shoulder, forced forward straight at the mirror. Yeonjun’s half-lidded eyes meet yours in the reflection. His black tresses dangle down into his sight-light, drawing more attention to the sly smirk hanging on his lips.
Oh how proud he is of himself to have you like this.
Focusing on yourself in the full-length, you see just how much damage he’s already done. Your neck is littered in red, unlikely to disappear for the next couple of days; Your thighs draped wide on top of his reveal the leaking wet in between them. He has you completely naked, while only his top remains bare. Looking into your eyes, the gaze is far away and you let out another soft whine. His other hand, draped upon your lap, inches ever closer to where you need him most. Still, he continues to refuse you.
He’d been so tired coming back into the hotel room. Shoulders sagging, eyes heavy, you wanted to do anything you could to make him feel better. Thinking maybe a massage or running him a bath perhaps. Three ruined orgasms later, you can barely think beyond how desperate you are for his touch.
“Aren’t you so handsome? Look at how pretty I’ve made my baby.” Suddenly so much more energetic the moment he had you in his lap, quickly submitting to every touch.
Two long fingers poke at your lips, signaling you to open them. You gladly do, letting the rough pads run across your tongue, pushing down the back of your throat. Your eyes flutter shut at the feeling. The gag reflex pushes back up your throat, you swallow it as it’s replaced with a whiny moan.
He pulls the fingers away and you quickly peel your eyes back open, watching dazedly as he trails them down to your clit. Keeping with a soft touch, he begins circling the nub, barely pressing down. He moves at a torturous pace. A mewl breaks out of your lips, squeaky and needy. The deep vibrations of his chuckle shake against your back. Every movement of his bare skin against you drives you deeper into a haze. The two fingers dip further down, spreading slick up and down your folds, toying at your wanting entrance.
“J-Junnie, please! Please, I’ll be so so good for you! Promise-Just please give me anything, please!” Your voice hikes up, feeling tears begin to bubble up in your eyes. Need taking over, your hips buck against his hold, trying for any sort of relief you can get.
“God,” Fingernails dig into your sides as he stops your movements. “You’re so fucking cute.”
In a moment his lips swallow up yours. Eating up every delicious moan that spills out once he finally pushes his fingers into you. The pace he sets is fast revealing a need comparable to yours. Two fingers stretch out your walls again and again with a slight sting, yet you still want more. Yeonjun seems to think the same as he soon adds in another. That draws out a moan which he lets ring out, pulling away from your lips and back down to your neck. There his teeth scrape on the red skin. Pain fogs up your senses until it leaks into aphrodisiacal pleasure. Bombarded with so many sensations when he places his thumb back to roll circles around your clit; your head lolls back onto his shoulder and your eyes screw shut. The sounds you release grow higher and louder with every second past. Your high creeps up closer and closer, so close to finally getting there.
Yeonjun’s free hand soon finds purchase tight around your neck; grip harsh when he squeezes and forces your head back up. “I told you to look, baby. Watch how I ruin you.”
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myveryownfanfiction · 10 months
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18+ MINORS AND THOSE WITHOUT AGE IN BIO DNI
warnings: swearing, sword fighting
Walking through the library, I looked up and down the aisles. Biting my lip, I sighed as I paused and leaned against one of the stacks.
“Flynn!” I called out. The sound of a sword fight caught my ears and I turned towards where I heard it coming from. “Flynn!” I smiled as I watched him fighting with Excalibur. He turned towards me and smiled back.
“(Y/N)!” He called as he parried cal. “Give me…one second.” He grunted as he tried to disarm the floating sword.
“Jenkins know you still do this?” I asked as Excalibur floated away. Flynn pulled the tie off his head and started to put it back on as he walked over to me. Putting his hands on my hips, he leaned in to kiss me. I cupped his cheeks and hummed happily.
“no. And I don’t want him to know.” Flynn said with a smile as he pulled away. “Something about using ancient artifacts for the wrong things and tempting fate playing with cal.” He shrugged as he wrapped his arms around me tighter. I smiled at him and laid my head on his shoulder.
“I see. Your secret is safe with me.” I laughed as I leaned up kiss his cheek. Flynn blushed slightly before wrapping his arm around me and starting to walk through the library again. He swung his sword at his side as we walked. “Can you teach me?” I asked suddenly. Flynn looked over at me confused.
“teach you what?” He asked. I smiled at him.
“how to sword fight.” I said. Flynn made a small noise and nodded.
“yeah. I can do that.” He paused and looked around for another sword. “Here. You can use this one.” Turning around he found the umbrella stand of swords that Jenkins kept around for some reason.
“ok.” I took the sword and took up the fighting stance I’ve seen Flynn use time and time again. Putting the tie back around his head, Flynn walked around me and gently tapped my feet to readjust me.
“you’ve done well already from just watching me.” Flynn acknowledged. “You know how to move?” I looked over my shoulder at him and nodded.
“think so.” I said with a smile. Flynn took a step back and I copied the movements I’d seen him make. Flynn regarded me with a smile. With a hand on my back, he leaned over my shoulder to kiss my cheek.
“not bad.” He said as he lined up in front of me. “The rest is just reflex and instinct.” Flynn crossed his sword with mine. “Ready?” I nodded. “I’ll go slow.” I nodded again and Flynn swung his sword. I blocked and moved forward with my own hit. I smiled at Flynn as I realized how easy it was coming to me.
“this isn’t bad.” I said with a smile as we crossed swords again at one point. Flynn smirked at me.
“you remember something I said a while ago? That I would do anything for the librarians?” I nodded and Flynn got a mischievous glint in his eye. “That includes teaching them to protect themselves. In all cases.” Flynn stepped up and started to move faster, his strikes more harsh and less predictable.
“oh shit.” I mumbled as I tried to move as quickly as he was. I stumbled a few times, making Flynn pause. I always waved him off before starting to match him. Flynn crossed swords and leaned into it. Smiling at me, he leaned between the swords to kiss me.
“you’re doing wonderfully for your first lesson.” He whispered against my lips before pulling back and starting the dance again. I paused when the tip of Flynn’s sword appeared under my chin. “And that’s match point.” He said, pulling it away. I sighed and sagged slightly against him.
“that’s more work than I thought I was.” I breathed as Flynn kissed my forehead. Flynn took the sword from me and put both of them away. Wrapping his arm around me, he steered us towards the annex.
“yeah. But it’s eventually worth it. Some of the people we interact with…” Flynn trailed off, looking around at some of the artifacts he brought back. “They are infinitely better with a sword than I am. It’s not something anyone every would have prepared us for out there. Only in the library are there threats like that.” I nodded against him as I wrapped my arm around him.
“lucky for me I have you.” I smiled at him. Flynn nodded with a smile back. “Thank you for teaching me.” He leaned over to kiss me.
“any time.”
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feralandmoonstruck · 2 years
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Falling In Love Will Kill You Pt 3
WC: 851
Tag List: @adie-dee @pheita @kainablue @jezifster @aschlindartroom
“Listen, I’m ready for you to take my soul or whatever, but if you let me stick around for a little longer, I could give you another hug in a bit.”
    He looked down at her, “I will grant you one more day, mortal.”
    She grinned and stepped back. “Hugs and brownies,” she whooped, “that’s not a terrible way to spend my last day al-” her celebration stopped mid-sentence, “Wait. I’m really going to have to go to bed knowing that I’m gonna die when I wake up. I don’t think I can sleep with that knowledge.”
    “We do not sleep, so if you would like I could keep you company.”
    “As long as I keep the hugs coming?”
    Caldizaar shrugged. “I will not force the hugging. I would like them in exchange for your final day, but you may choose the amount.”
    “Cal, this is turning out to be one seriously fucked up day.” She ran her hands over her face. “You want another brownie? Because if not I’m going to eat this whole fucking pan myself.”
    “You say that like it’s a bad thing.”
    She chuckled, “It’s usually not considered a good thing. That much sugar is bound to make you sick. Well, it would make me sick at any rate. Sharing would be best I think."
Caldizaar rolled his eyes. "If you insist."
"Great! Thanks," she threw her arms around him again. She let go with a laugh, "Do you know how wild it is to hug a demon? Like. This is probably the weirdest thing I've ever done."
"I would think it's much like a demon hugging a mortal. These things just aren't done."
"Yeah, that's true. Guess we're both in new territory here."
"It would seem so."
"Hey, by the way, do you want wanna sit down? I have chairs. Or, wait. Will you burn my stuff if you sit down?"
Caldizaar looked at his feet, then back to the scorch marks trailing across the floors. "I'm not certain. That is another thing I've never done before."
She shrugged, "Well, I guess today is a day for new things. Besides, if I die tomorrow I don't have to worry about burned chairs. Wanna sit at the table or on the couch?"
Caldizaar looked at her with the face of a man defeated. Like he couldn’t believe he would be forced to say it, and yet, he could not resist. "What is a couch?"
She grinned at him, "Okay, we are definitely sitting on the couch. C'mon, it's way comfier than a chair." She grabbed the pan of brownies and breezed past him.
Caldizaar followed her into the living room. The door remained lodged in the wall, sagging at the top from a ripped hinge. She dropped herself onto a long cushioned surface and set the brownies on a table in front of her. He eased himself down next to her.
"Comfy, right?"
"I still do not know this word 'comfy' but this is pleasing to sit on. Why is it so soft?"
"The cushions make it nice and comfy. They're these squares of foam covered in cloth."
"So comfy means soft?"
"Not entirely. I mean, yes it does mean soft, to an extent. But it's also something that makes you feel happy and relaxed."
"So, hugs can be comfy?"
"I never really thought of it like that, but yeah, you could say that hugs are comfy."
"And brownies are also comfy?"
"I don't see why not. You want another one?"
"I suppose."
She cracked a smile, "You know you can just say 'yes', I promise I won't tell the other demons that you have had brownies and hugs."
He narrowed his eyes at her. "I'm still not impressed with your mortal food, but I must relent that I do like the brownies."
"You can be 'not impressed' however long you want to. Brownies don't need approval to exist. They just do."
"Do they spring into creation whenever you wish?"
"No," she laughed, "they have to be made. No magic, remember?"
"So mortals can make things out of nothing?"
"Depends on what it is, I guess. Art usually begins in our minds and then we translate it into a physical form, but brownies are just made from ingredients like flour and cocoa and oil. Mix it all together, pop it in the oven for a while and when it's done you've got brownies."
"That still sounds like magic to me, mortal."
"It’s really not. Also, what's with all this 'mortal' stuff? I have a name."
"I don't usually have the opportunity to use a mortal's name. They've never been alive long enough for me to care."
"How do you know who to kill if you don’t know our names?"
"I know them, I've just never bothered to say them, Tam-a-ra."
She couldn’t help the laughter that burst from her chest. "It’s Tamara, or Mara for short. Really it's only my family that calls me Tamara."
"I would like another brownie,” he paused for a moment as if learning how to shape his mouth around the letters, “Mara.”
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anubianwrites · 7 months
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3. Lover's Fear
Glory’s lungs burned as he ran down the cobblestone streets.  He turned down Samhain Street towards the Towers of Seasons, where some of Martha’s friends lived.  The towering structure loomed at the end of the road, gleaming in the dim gloom of day, the dilapidated looking towers flying their colored banners.  Here the Seasonal Coven dwelt, five sisters, five hags of power.  He entered the grounds, a neglected garden of weeds and dead trees, moldy stone benches and tables.  Pots whose plants withered away ages ago.  Within the grounds were four archways scattered around the central structure.  A large castle-like mansion with four bannered towers flying flags that represent each season a hag ruled over.  He passed one of ice and blue steel, past one of rusted metallic heart shapes painted pink, chipping and decaying.  He came to a large wooden archway carved with designs and wrapped in burned maypole ribbons hanging limping as a soft breeze moved them.  
Glory entered the summer gateway entering into another realm, a pocket world where the summer hag lived that he sought.  He stopped to catch his breath as his chest burned, heart thundering in his chest.  He struggled to draw breath in the hot air of the summery world.  It was hot, grass grew wildly, beautiful summer flowers bloomed and wafted.  The scent of burning wood was potent and mixed with the floral scents.  A dirt trail leads deeper into the realm, lined by a colorful series of painted staves and rope.  Glory stalked the trail as he recovered his breath.  Far along the trail were two buildings, a large estate home that was crumbling and surrounded by large bonfires.  A field creating a scorched volleyball field where five heavily muscled demons wreathed in flames were playing volleyball with ferocious competition.  Several feet away, a comforting bungalow farmhouse with a large garden painted in summer colors.  Glory squinted his eyes in the bright sunset summer light, he could make out a bonfire by the house, and a lounging area where two people were sitting watching the volleyball game.  
Glory moved towards them, the heat was intense.  A stark difference to the cooler and dark dank of the Darklands usual environ.  He shook off the temperature differences and stormed over.  A large lawn chair is set out under a sagging melted decrepit beach umbrella, a small table holding it aloft over the chair, a pitcher of lemonade and several glasses sit on the table.  A beautiful young woman dressed in a colorful and floral patterned orange, yellow, red, and other summer colors, a witch, she wore sunglasses and a large witches hat that was altered to be a sun hat.  She was sitting on her boyfriend's lap, a handsome young looking fire demon named Cal.  He had his arms wrapped around her waist and they were cuddling as they watched the game.  She was Haggie Darksummer, one of the seasonal coven hags.  Haggie spotted Glory approaching and waved to him.  The demon called out “Glory, my man!  How's it going bro?!  You here to play?  We can sub ya in man!”  Glory smiled and waved.
“No no, I need help!  Martha’s gone missing!”  The tone turned serious as Haggie and Cal jumped up, their faces displaying their concern.  
“What do you need, sweetie?  How can we help!”  Glory explained the situation to them, Haggie took off her sunglasses and called the other fire demons over.  Cal issued the marching orders to find Martha, find where she is.  Haggie took Glory by the hand  “Come with me.  We’re going to use the big map.” 
She led him inside as Cal and the fire demon frat boys ran off to scour the city.  The little door to the cozy cottage opened as Haggie and Glory entered.  A flaming rooster crowed as they entered, disturbed by the stranger.  “Quiet, Frank, you know Glory.   Go fetch my casting bones, now.”  Haggie commanded, the rooster shot Glory a dirty glare before fluttering off to obey his mistress’ command.  Haggie led Glory through a red bead curtain into a dark sitting room with a large round table covered in a yellow tablecloth.  The entire cottage was painted in bright summery colors, giving the lair a sense of warmth and friendly ambiance, despite the true nature of the young woman who lived here.  Haggie claps her hands, magical crystal globes come to life emanating a cold light throughout the room.  The large round table changed as the young witch touched it and tapped it with a crystal wand from her sleeve, morphing from a yellow tablecloth covered in green and darker yellow sunflower patterns to a map of the city.  Haggie handed out a hand as the rooster flapped into the room from a darkened hallway on the other side of the room.  He carried in his talons a red sunflower studded cloth sack which clanked in her hand.  The rooster then took a perched stance on the table as Haggie stroked his head and back thankfully.  The proud rooster trotted up her outstretched arm and settled on her shoulder.  The witch then took a seat in a thick wooden chair upholstered with red velvet seats and gestured to Glory to do the same.  
Glory’s heart beat in worry and anticipation, hoping this would yield some result.  He watched intently as the witch whispered magic words as she rubbed the bones in her hands before casting them across the map.  She applied little effort in tossing them, they clattered on the map and rolled around as if lost before crashing off the table.  Haggie snapped her fingers and called them all back to her hand and tried again, the same result, the clattering bones spread across the floor.  Glory kept a calm veneer but his heart was hammering in fearful worry for his sibling, he clenched his fists in his lap, he could feel his nails have pierced flesh.  Haggie tried again, for a moment the bones reacted differently, something was happening, they rolled across the map and began collecting near the western side of the city map before whatever caught their attention faded and the bones again clattered to the floor.  Haggie was silent, she laid back in her chair deep in thought.  Glory stared at her with intense purpose.  The silence between them was deafening.  Glory was impatient, too much time had already passed.  
“Well?!  What’s going on?  What does this mean!?”  the tiefling demanded, the frantic worry rang loudly in his angry tone.  Haggie’s yellow eyes snapped to look at him, the rooster cawed in offense at his tone, but remained silent, as if puzzling an answer to give him.  Glory shot to his feet, “Haggie what does it mean?!”  his voice broke.  The woman finally sighed and answered.
“I don’t…I don’t know…I felt nothing, then something flared, pulsed…like a heartbeat for a moment…but it was gone as quickly as moving through a door…I sensed some sort of energy…I just cannot place it, like the hint of a flavor and it’s one I’ve not felt.  I almost want to say it was demonic but it tasted neither infernal or abyssal…I can’t place it.  If I can’t place it, I cannot search for it, let alone find it again.”  She sighed.  “I’m sorry Glory, but I’m not going to stop trying, I have a few other ideas.  Maybe that will yield some results.”  She tries to reassure him as she puts the collected bones back into her pouch and places them on the table.  She stood up and took his hands in hers, looking into his crimson eyes.  “We’ll find her.  I won’t stop trying, ok!”  she squeezed his hands.  Glory sighed, calming himself as he nodded, she was right.  But he felt so useless here.  He felt like he could be doing something more, and he was lost as to what he could do.  
“What can I even do…I feel useless, I worry Martha’s hurt or worse…I wish no harm to my sibling, she is precious, all my family is precious.  What can I do, Haggie, how can I not be useless.”  Glory sank down into the chair and slumped over.  He wasn’t a magical genius nor as skilled in sorcery as his father.  He sighed.  Haggie knelt and took his hands in comfort and pity.
“You can ply your skills.  You are her blood, and you have the power of your family in you, you don’t nurture it enough and you don’t listen to it.  It has a will and a voice, if you calm yourself and learn to tap into it…maybe you can hone in on her better.”  Glory sighed, dismissing the idea.
“Grandmother and Mother are far better skilled at that, they search the city even now, Mother’s using her craft to try and find her.  There must be something more I can do.”  He said meekly.  Haggie contemplated.
“There is a blood rite you could try.  It’s powerful but easy to conduct.  Let me find it, Frank, fetch my book with the green cover.”  The rooster chirped and fluttered off to his task.  Haggie moved to a desk on the other side of the room and fetched a few sheets of parchment.  She outstretched her hand as the rooster returned and dropped it into her hand.  She flipped through it and with a few words and a wave transcribed the ritual onto the parchments.  She then bound them with ribbon and presented them to Glory who watched with hope.  “You’ll need at least two others to help anchor you as a conduit.  A familiar is best but two people you have a deep connection with will work fine as well.”  Glory perked up and accepted the bound sheaf, hugging Haggie tightly.  
“Thanks Haggie, I hope it will work!”  Haggie smiled and hugged the tiefling back.
“Of course, anything for you and your family, sweetie.”  She smiled brightly.  “The moon will be full tonight so you’ll be best equipped to utilize Noctis’ energies for this.  The instructions are all there, you should hurry and gather your conduits before it rises!”  Glory nodded, hugged the witch again and took off.  Haggie watched him run down the road, a smile on his lips.  But she couldn’t watch long, she had work to do to try and help find and secure Martha.
Cal shouted at the fire demons as he ran ahead of them out of their lair.  “Come on dudes, move it!”  Pyraeus brought up the rear of the squad, he hid it well with his stoic expression but he too was deeply worried.  Martha’s always gone out of her way to be nice to him despite she was nice to all of them.  He adored her and secretly was madly in love with the young tiefling.  If he ever felt down she would just appear and talk to him, though how she could tell he felt anything behind his stone face is a mystery.  There she was to uplift his spirits, and he listened to her, intently, he loved hearing her voice and whatever she spoke about.  She’s the only one that manages to make him smile.  Martha made him feel emotions like happiness and love, adoration, and compassion.  He liked that she brought this out of him.  He liked how it felt, what he imagined Cal felt and why he was so protective of Haggie despite being bound to her.  Pyraeus felt protective of Martha.  Even though Haggie was always nice, helpful, compassionate, loving and always made sure the fire demons had anything they needed, she was more like a mom for them or an older sister then a lover.  
Cal commanded them to stop as they entered the city proper.  He turned to them like a general, their leader, their team captain.  “Ok dudes, fan out through the city, use those demon instincts bros!  Just like that time we got hired to find that succubus for Maconthent!  No gangbang this time though!”  The fire demons bellow and fist pump as they chant in infernal.  “Ok bros, fan out!”  Cal barked.  He clapped his hands with a gaunt of flame bursting from them, they all went their separate ways.  
Pyraeus had an advantage, he secretly marked Martha with an energy tether so he could always find her.  He worried for her, she was so kind, and he wanted to ensure she was safe.  His fears were justified now, as she was missing.  He turned down an alleyway and made his way to a large empty space he knew was abandoned.  The flagstones smooth with traffic.  He knelt down and began tracing mystic symbols into them, infernal demonic signs, complex geometric shapes forming interlocking rings and squares.  Finally he took position at a large demonic sigil and began to center himself.  He felt out the threads of energy.  Focusing his mind as he body wreathed in intense flames.  The sigils around the circle glowed and sizzled.  He began chanting the demonic words of power.  His mind faded into a complex web of connections, some led back home to the infernal planes, or other pocket realms he connected to.  He focused as the tether felt…distant…strangely distant.  He reached out to feel it, to tug at it, his mind flew down the tunnel of energy, he heard a whimper, he saw darkness.  So far away.  Something resisted him, something felt familiar, something demonic…but not a signature he has known.  He pushed past the resistance, it didn’t expect him, it didn’t know him.  His consciousness emerged in a dark place, he could see Martha, he could feel her, trapped, he could feel the chains on her wrists, the ache in her arms as she hung there.  He could taste her terror and fear as she was trapped.  The tears rolled down her cheeks as she cried.  He looked around the chamber, seeing a withered body on a stone slab, and a large empty dank dungeon.  It stank of death.  He saw a male figure in the darkness attending to something.  Pyraeus watched, he knew this man, it was Malachai the sorcerer Martha fawned over.  Someone the fire demon hated for capturing the tieflings' attention.  Now he hated him for hurting the woman he treasured.  He stowed the fury as his connection began to waver and reestablish.  The man then straightened up.  Like he heard something.  Malachai turned around with a start.  “I can feel you.”  he said, looking around the room as if searching for an invisible enemy.  Pyraeus could see his face, it was not human, it was twisted, a mask, a facade his demonic eyes peered past.  Now he saw why it was so familiar, so strangely known to him.  Pyraeus gritted his teeth and clenched his massive fists.  Malachai focused on Pyraeus and smirked “I can feel you…little cousin.”  
The connection broke and his vision went black.  Pyraeus didn’t waste a moment.  He held the connection and began chanting something new.  Fire gathered around him, swirling, wrathful flames licked from the ground as he tore the veils.  He found the creature’s lair, and now he had a hole to burrow through.  Reality tugged at his enraged will, red energy crackled as he ripped the boundaries asunder in sheer stubborn determination.  The strange realm Martha was caught in resisted his access but could not defy him.  He was a creature of fire, energy, rage and now…love.  He could not be denied.  He was ready to tear the creature to ribbons.  The portal opened as he made his somatic gestures, a howling void like a tunnel in the world drawing all things into it like a void.  Pyraeus didn’t care.  The dark moon glared down from above as he stepped through ready to show this abusive beast the wrath of Avernus.  His massive frame vanished into the howling abyss and snapped behind him like a hungry maw.
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daydadahlias · 3 years
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Remind Me
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omg me?? writing a lashton body worship fic about Luke’s thighs after that new video dropped?? idk sounds super out of character.  This is literally just a 4.6k Body Pos. PWP that I wrote today while watching my chickens lmfao but please enjoy anyway. 
Summary: Ashton catches Luke frowning to himself at Calum’s pool one afternoon, and decides to remind him how pretty he is. 
Words: 4,602
Rating: Explicit
Pairing: Luke Hemmings/Ashton Irwin
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—Remind Me— 
It’s as Luke is getting out of Calum’s pool that Ashton notices it.
They’re all together, as they often are—for marketing reasons only, of course, seeing as they secretly despise one another—at Calum’s place, Cal and Mike inside doing whatever it is those dumb shits like doing, leaving Luke and Ashton alone in the backyard.
Ashton is lounging out by the side of the pool, a book in hand—because he just hasn’t been in the mood to swim and would rather read—while Luke has been taking careful laps. 
He’ll look up every so often to catch Luke leaning against the edge of the pool, his pale arms folded over the top of it, huffing like he’s out of breath, a frustrated pout drawn on his features, but Ashton figures it’s better to not ask why he looks so irritated. 
If Luke wants to tell him, he will. 
It’s only when he fully pushes himself out of the water and gets out of the pool that the problem arises. 
Ashton can see him start to climb out, bracing his arms on the asphalt, and of course, he looks over the top of his book to get a better view; to watch how Luke’s back muscles shift beneath his skin, how the sinewy veins of his biceps strain to hoist himself up. 
Luke has never been the strongest of them but he isn’t poorly built. Granted, with quarantine, he has added on a couple of pounds but nothing too significant. It’s healthy weight if anything, brought on by him eating better food he’s learned to make himself, working out a little more to get his arms larger. 
He looks good, there’s no disputing that. 
When he gets out of the water, Ashton’s eyes successfully trail the line of his back, the way his swim trunks have sagged to make his hips more visible, the slight heave of them over the waistband of the swimsuit, how it clings to his thighs enough to look like the fabric is straining to stay closed. 
Yeah. He looks good.
It’s as Ashton's gaze is hovering on said waist and thighs that he notices Luke give an awkward pinch to his side, the squish of a love handle beneath his fingers, glancing down at himself with a deep grimace, before he walks to retrieve his towel, looping it up around his waist higher than it needs to be. 
Now Ashton is the one who's frowning. 
Because he knows Luke well enough to know what that means. 
Luke hasn’t always been the proudest in his body; even when he was a fucking pipe cleaner back when the band first started, he was still nervous about what people thought of him in terms of his weight. 
It’s always upset Ashton that it seems no one could ever dislike what Luke looks like as much as himself. 
And so to see him, with that telltale distaste on his handsome features, scrunching his nose up as he adjusts the towel to cover as much as he can... it's enough to make Ashton's mood dip. 
He turns to walk back and almost instantly notices the way Ashton is looking at him, stopping in his tracks. He asks, skeptical, “What?”
Ashton tries to uncrease his brow the best he can, and he shakes his head, knowing better than to say something about it now. Instead, he merely flattens his smile and says, “Nothing. M’thinking.”
“Penny for your thoughts?” Luke asks and Ashton chuckles. 
“Yeah, unless you’re hiding a penny up your ass right now, I don’t think you have one to offer.”
“It’s a metaphorical penny,” Luke replies, walking to sit beside Ashton’s legs on the pool chair. 
He shifts the towel up further when he sits and Ashton doesn’t miss how he tries to keep his posture straight so his stomach won’t fold.
Ashton’s frown deepens. 
“Is something wrong?” Luke asks him. 
“Not with me,” he answers.
That seems to confuse Luke more than anything else and his eyes widen as he says, “oh.” He softens in a moment and it’s nervous as he opens his mouth before he closes it, giving Ashton an anxious glance. “It’s not… me, is it?”
Ashton cocks his head, smiling to reassure him, closing his book. “Of course it’s not you.”
Even though it is. But he’s not about to say to Luke, ‘yeah, something is wrong. The way you’re looking at yourself is wrong. Why did you pinch your side and grimace like that?’ Because he knows Luke will make an excuse. Luke will brush it under the rug and won’t want to talk about it and will avoid Ashton and his eyes to the best of his ability. 
Ashton respects Luke's choices and he’ll always respect them. But he certainly doesn’t want Luke thinking like that. Doesn't want him thinking he's anything less than beautiful.
He informs, “I’m just thinking like I always do, you know how I am. You ready to head out?”
Luke raises his brows. “Now? We just got here.”
“Uh-huh. I'm ready to go.” Ashton smiles, reaching out to tug at the corner of Luke’s towel. “Wanna take you back to mine.”
Instantly, Luke’s expression shifts and he adjusts the way he’s sitting, sending his blue eyes hurriedly to the open door of Calum’s house to make sure no one will hear them. 
He glances back at Ashton and his lips hint up at their corners almost cautiously. “You do?”
“Mhm.” Ashton hums, scooting closer to him so he can press a kiss to the underside of his jaw, and he doesn’t miss the way Luke stiffens to the touch, tilting his chin up to give Ashton more access to him. He says against Luke’s jawline, “Wanna get my hands on you.”
Luke takes in a sharp breath. “Yeah?”
Ashton briefly opens his mouth against Luke’s neck, drawing his tongue over his pulse point, and says, “Yeah.”
He continues to kiss along Luke’s neck and when he sucks at the bend of his shoulder, Luke lets out a soft whimper that has Ashton's dick twitching in his own shorts. 
“Wanna hold those nice hips of yours against the bed when I fuck you,” he says to Luke’s shoulder, “I’ll make you feel so good, Lu, I promise.”
Luke inhales roughly, fingers clenching at the fabric of his towel and he squeaks, “Okay. Yeah. Nice. No complaints here.”
Ashton chuckles as he moves away, briefly cupping Luke’s cheek before he does, pulling him in for a soft kiss on the mouth. He loves how smooth Luke’s lips are, how they open up so easily for him every time, always asking for more in just the way they form something as simple as a smile.
He says, brushing his thumb over Luke’s cheekbone before he draws away, just so Luke knows, “I’m the luckiest guy in the world.”
Luke’s cheeks go pink and he coughs, darting his eyes away. “You’re the cheesiest guy in the world, I’ll give you that.”
“You say cheesy, I say incredibly charming, that’s fine.” Ashton shrugs. “Also, it’s your turn to give Cal and Mike an excuse as to why we’re leaving early.”
“Sounds good.” Luke stands up, adjusting his towel. “Nothing’s gonna beat that time you told them we were going chocolate taste testing though.”
“I’m a musician,” Ashton replies, “not an actor.”
Luke smiles at him, and he reaches out to brush his fingers under Ashton’s chin in a gesture of fondness. Ashton loves his fingers. Thin piano playing fingers that look so good when they grapple to get a hold on bedsheets or when they dig into Ashton’s shoulders, sink their nails into his back. Just one of the many things he loves about Luke's body.
He grins back and says, leaning his face into Luke's hand, “Maybe just say it’s past our bedtime.”
Luke giggles. “It’s five in the afternoon.”
“Practically midnight.”
Luke doesn’t do much but snort before he turns away, fingers slipping from Ashton’s jaw as he trails inside. He fixes the towel once as he goes, holding it tighter to himself, and it makes Ashton frown again. 
While he really does want to fuck Luke for the obvious reason of, well, getting to fuck Luke, there’s an ulterior motive for this evening. 
He wants to show Luke just how pretty he is.
They say their goodbyes to Calum and Michael before they leave, who look like they don’t believe for a second that Luke really has a zoom meeting to get to at 5:30 but don’t make any protest. 
They know Luke and Ashton well enough to know if they want to leave, they're going to leave. So they allow it.
The entire drive home, Ashton keeps his hand on Luke’s thigh in the passenger seat, lightly rubbing his thumb against the inside seam of his jeans, and Luke’s blue gaze stays on his hand the entire time. 
Ashton wonders if Luke is thinking the same thing he is. That even Ashton’s large hand isn’t big enough to cover his whole thigh. 
It’s all Ashton’s thinking about if he’s honest. He's honestly having a hard time paying attention to the road with how much it's dominating his thoughts. How fucking wide Luke’s thigh is. How much he wants to grab it in his hand, squeeze it and feel the soft flesh sink beneath his fingertips. How much he wants to smack it just to watch it shake. 
Fuck, he’s already hard. 
He practically drags Luke through the door when they get home, and the second it closes, he shoves Luke back, loving the way a surprised yelp pulls from Luke’s chest as he’s pinned against the door by Ashton’s body weight. 
“Been wanting this all day,” Ashton grunts, tucking his face into Luke’s neck to start mouthing at his skin. “Looked so goddamn good today, Lu. Wanted you so bad.”
Luke gasps, exposing his neck more, eyes slipping shut as Ashton works at sucking hickeys into his throat. He chokes softly, like he's unsure it's the truth, “Really?”
“So bad,” Ashton affirms, a hand working between their bodies to force itself beneath Luke’s waistband into the stretchy shorts he’d changed into before they left Calum’s house. “Wanted to get you home all afternoon. Get you beneath me; get to see all of you. Almost fucking grabbed you right there when we were changing and put you on Cal’s sofa, spread you out right there.”
Luke moans, pushing desperately against the hand in his pants that's wrapped around his cock and he fucking begs for it, voice high and cracked, “Oh God. Please.”
“Uh-huh,” Ashton says, hooking his fingers beneath Luke’s shirt and helping him haul it over his head. 
Caught in the heat of the moment, Like scrambles to get it off and shimmy out of his pants and underwear as Ashton does the same, leaving the clothes in a messy pile beside the door before Ashton returns, grabbing Luke by both sides of his face to kiss him. 
“So lucky to have you, Lu,” Ashton mumbles against his lips between kisses. “Tell myself all the time.”
Luke bites at his lip, muffling a groan when Ashton takes him back into his hand, jerking him slow and purposeful. 
“Such a pretty boy, Lu. Look at you. What a pretty boy.” Ashton kisses him deeper as he fists Luke’s cock, reveling in the wanton sounds Luke lets out. 
He moves his hand away a second later, putting his thigh in place of it, pressing it up between Luke’s legs, and he grins instantly when Luke starts to rut against it. 
He chuckles quietly to himself at the sight, mouthing at Luke’s jaw once more, his hands moving to Luke’s hips to tug him closer against his leg and he says into Luke's ear, “Couch. Now. Want to put you on my thigh and watch you ride it.”
Luke moans loudly, and follows without a second of hesitation when Ashton pulls away and gets to the sofa, sitting down into the cushions. 
He swings his leg over Ashton’s like he's in a rush, straddling his thigh and they both let out sharp breaths at the feel of Luke’s hard-on against Ashton’s bare leg. 
Luke hisses out a strained, “oh, fuck,” and instantly begins rubbing himself against Ashton’s thigh, closing his eyes and tilting his head back. 
Ashton can’t help but smile to himself, watching how Luke swallows thickly, his throat bobbing, and he says quietly, “God, Lu, fucking gorgeous.”
Luke whines and Ashton takes that as the incentive to reach out and take a hold of Luke’s waist, forcing him to go slower, controlling the roll of his hips against Ashton’s thigh. 
“Slower now,” he says, holding Luke down against him, eyes flitting over his body. “Wouldn’t want this to be over too fast, darling.”
Luke clenches his teeth, swallowing again like it pains him to do so, but doesn’t protest, letting Ashton guide his movements. 
“There you go,” Ashton praises in the same low voice as Luke’s thrusts slow down to smooth rolls of his hips against Ashton’s leg, and Ashton is drawn to the hard red cock that keeps grazing his thigh. He wets his lips, watching it twitch at his words; how much affect he has on Luke. “Perfect, Lu. Just like that, baby. You’re so pretty for me. Such a good boy.”
Luke chokes, “Want to be.”
“You are,” Ashton promises, smoothing his palms down Luke’s sides to his hips and he hovers there, grinning to himself. 
Luke is truly a fucking vision like this. Something out of mythology. Something to be written about, songs and poetry and prose. Something to worship. The blonde loops of his curls around his ears, the hot blush on his cheeks that brings out the speckling of freckles over the perfect slope of his nose. 
He’s made of fucking stained glass, this boy. Made of beautiful fragile art and Ashton wants to sit and admire him all the time, give him whatever he needs whenever he needs it. Do nothing but kiss Luke and touch him and praise him every moment he can. 
Luke pushes his hips down more desperately, even with Ashton’s hands holding onto him, and Ashton directs his eyes from Luke’s face lower to where Luke is grinding against him, and he notices the quiver of Luke’s large thighs and takes in a sharp breath. 
God, he’s gorgeous.
And as his eyes wander, it makes Ashton aware of his stomach, the soft fold of his tummy with how he’s sitting on Ashton’s thigh, the way his body shakes, the ripple of his skin as he moves. Ashton grabs at his hips roughly, pulling him harder down, feeling how Luke’s wide thighs clench around his own leg, how the muscles in his abdomen clench beneath the soft layer of fat that covers them. 
“Luke,” he huffs, eyes trained on the soft body on top of him, the way Luke trembles as he hurriedly rubs himself off against Ashton’s thigh, ignoring Ashton’s recommendation to go slower, needy to get himself off. “Luke, honey, you’re goddamn gorgeous. Prettiest boy in the fucking world. Can’t believe I get to have you like this. M’so lucky.”
Luke whimpers, head dropping as he ruts down faster at the words, making the shaking that much more pronounced and, seriously, what is Ashton expected to do but gently slap the side of one of Luke’s thighs to watch it wobble when he does?
“Love these too, you’ve got no idea,” Ashton murmurs and he puts his hands down on Luke’s fat thighs to massage them, digging his fingers into their soft flesh. “Can’t even get my hands around them, Lu. Goddamn. Can’t wait to watch how they’ll shake when I fuck you.”
Luke comes hard onto Ashton’s thigh, panting as his mouth falls open, hips rocking against Ashton to ride the feeling out and Ashton gladly lets him, using his hold on Luke’s thighs to grab him roughly and help him move.
“There you go,” he says as Luke comes down, chest flushed and heaving. “Now, c’mon, let’s get you in bed, baby. Wanna feel every part of you. Get all of you under my hands.”
Luke bites his lip and lets Ashton lead him back to his bedroom as he has so many times before, still trembling slightly from coming. 
“Under the covers,” Ashton tells him and Luke does so, slipping beneath the sheets and blinking up at Ashton with big baby blue eyes. How pretty he is. How absolutely stunning. 
Ashton eases in after him, bringing the lube with him to coat his fingers and he watches Luke carefully as he does. Watches the soft rise and fall of his panting stomach, how soft it looks, the beautiful flush that’s decorated his pale skin, making him red and lightly shining with sweat, like he’s a flower dressed in morning dew.
“Have I told you how lucky I am yet?” he asks while pushing one of Luke’s legs up. 
Luke snorts, smiling at him breathlessly. “Only a couple times. I’ll hear it again.”
Ashton dips down to kiss him, grinning as Luke opens up easily and lets Ashton taste him, tongues pressing together. He says between a kiss, “I’m ridiculously lucky. Luckiest guy ever.”
Luke closes his eyes and he takes in a deep breath as they kiss, one of Ashton’s hands sliding up and down his bent leg. 
“Gonna finger you now,” Ashton says, listening to Luke’s breathing hitch. “Nice and slow now, okay, show you how much you mean to me. Show you just how pretty you are.”
Luke huffs and his brows arch up slightly. “I know what you’re doing.”
“What am I doing?” Ashton wonders, as if he's surprised. 
Luke stares up at him. Such big blue eyes. “You saw what I did at the pool.”
“You mean how you pinched your side and made a face like you’d eaten a lemon?” Ashton asks. “Yeah, I saw that.”
 Luke chews at the inside of his cheek, directing his eyes away toward the wall of Ashton’s bedroom, the expression he sports nothing short of embarrassment.
Ashton tries to draw them back with a soft, “Hey. Luke. Look at me, sweetie.”
Luke mumbles, refusing to look back, “You don’t need to do this.”
“Do what?” Ashton asks him while he continues to rub at Luke’s leg in a tender motion.
“Try to… make me feel better.” Luke swallows. “About being fat.”
Ashton draws his brows in tightly, scowling at the word. It's not even the word, is it? It's more that Luke's given it a bad connotation. 
He’s known Luke long enough to not jump right in and tell him he’s in no way fat. It wouldn’t help anything, because once Luke’s gotten something in his head, he’s not going to get out of it. 
This kid had himself convinced he was fat back when he was 16 and was as skinny as a rail. Luke’s always had problems with his body. Ashton, sadly, doesn’t think there’s gonna be a time when he fully embraces how beautiful he is. And while it devastates him, it just means he’ll have to try harder to make Luke see it. 
“That’s not at all what I’m doing,” he replies curtly, pulling at Luke’s thigh. “I’m not trying to make you feel anything. I’m just doing what I always do.”
Luke finally glances back at him, confused. 
“I’m fucking my boyfriend and I’m telling him how beautiful he is, nothing abnormal about that, because guess what, Luke?" Ashton gives him a pointed look. "You’re beautiful and I’m not taking any arguments on that fact.” 
Luke opens his mouth like he’s going to protest but Ashton doesn’t let him, abruptly pressing a slick finger inside him, cutting off whatever words he was going to say with a shocked gasp, Luke's thin fingers clawing at Ashton’s shoulder as he exclaims, “Fucking shit!”
“Yeah, you’re full of it if you think you’re anything other than gorgeous.” Ashton thrusts the finger in and out, feeling Luke’s fingers dig into the muscle of his shoulder, searching for purchase as his hips move down against Ashton’s hand without a beat of thought. “Look at you, Luke, see? Look at how pretty you are. You’re unreal. You’re fucking otherworldly.” 
Luke chokes on air when a second finger is pushed in, his hips jerking down on the stretch, and Ashton scissors them apart, tracking the way Luke shudders with a small smile. 
The way Luke keens at the touches, how his body arches and he groans quietly, trying to bite it back by sinking his teeth into his plump lower lip, and that makes Ashton finger him more purposefully, hoping he can pull one of those sweet little moans from him; the ones where his voice squeaks with it, where it sounds so overcome with need.
“Love your body,” Ashton says gently, fucking his fingers in and out to make Luke whimper, slow and with intent, memorizing how Luke’s fingers grip harder at him. “All of it. Love the way you feel, Lu. All soft beneath me. Love these hips, love these thighs.”
For emphasis, he uses the hand not fingering Luke open to pinch at the handle of his hip, squeeze the soft skin in his hand, feel how it sinks beneath his fingertips.
Luke groans, one of those hitching, squeaking sounds Ashton fucking loves, and he presses in a third finger as a reward for the noise. 
“Gorgeous boy. Prettiest boy I’ve ever seen, Lu, you know that.” Ashton slides his hand down Luke’s hip, grabbing his thigh, biting back a sound from his chest when he feels how it gives under the pressure, how goddamn easily it gives. “Fuck. You know that.”
Luke’s legs give a violent twitch when Ashton finds his prostate, Luke’s head falling back on the pillows, eyes squeezed shut, his hair splayed out so elegantly behind his head and his voice so high when he whispers, “There. Oh, God, right there.”
Ashton pushes in against the same spot, proud of himself beyond belief when Luke mewls at the sensation, grinding down onto Ashton’s hand, his thighs shaking as he does, and Ashton has to watch the way they move, the way they tremble, unable to tear his eyes away. 
He says, “Love being between these thighs, Lu. Can’t wait to have them around my waist. Can’t wait to feel them squeeze my sides when I push my cock in.”
Luke cries out quietly as Ashton’s fingers press into his prostate and his voice is hoarse when he pleads, eyes shut tight like it would hurt to pry them open, fingers sinking nails into Ashton’s shoulder, “I’m gonna come. Ashton, please, I have to. I’m gonna come.”
“Not until I’m inside you,” Ashton replies simply, slipping his fingers out, reveling in the way Luke sobs desperately at the loss. 
Without another word, Ashton gets the condom on and slicks himself with lube, lining himself up, and there’s no warning but a light grab of Luke’s hip before he pushes in. 
“Fuck! Yes, yeah, fuck, oh, fuck me,” Luke groans, hips moving towards Ashton as he eases in, clenching his teeth at how warm Luke is, how good he feels, and he lets out a rough moan thinking about how he’s the only one who gets this from Luke. He’s the only one who gets to feel him like this, gets to see him so wrecked and worn down, so fucking needy for more, so needy to be told how beautiful he is. 
Ashton mutters through clenched teeth, putting his head to Luke’s shoulder as he bottoms out, their hips flush together, “Feel so good, Lu. So fucking good.”
“Uh-huh.” Luke is breathing in whimpers. “You—fuck, move. Please, please, Ash, move.”
“Get those thighs around me, baby, and maybe I will,” Ashton replies, biting at Luke’s throat, feeling how fast his heart is going, how his breath heaves. “Want to feel them. Want to feel them shake, Lu.”
Luke lets out a broken moan and he raises his legs, wrapping them around Ashton’s waist, altering how Ashton is pressed inside him, and Ashton groans at the shift, a hand going back to grab one of Luke’s thighs tightly, hoisting it up higher, clutching onto it. 
He feels the way Luke’s thighs squeeze his waist and he groans, fucking forward, moving Luke’s body slightly up the bed as he does, and Luke’s returning moan is cracked and loud. 
“Pretty boy,” he grits out as he pulls Luke onto him by his thigh, sinking his fingers into the soft skin. Each word is punctuated by a thrust that has Luke whining. “So beautiful for me. Love you. Love you so much.”
Luke wraps his arms around the back of Ashton’s neck, legs growing tighter around his waist, and he babbles out, “Ash, I can’t. I can’t. Gonna come. Have to come.”
“Then fucking come,” Ashton replies simply, a hand going between them to wrap around Luke’s leaking cock. 
Luke’s body spasms at the words, spilling between their bodies, and his thighs clench around Ashton’s waist like a vice, making Ashton impossibly aware of their softness, how wide they are, how cushiony against his sides and he comes too with a groan, burying his face into Luke’s neck. 
“So beautiful, so so pretty,” Ashton continues softly as they come down, panting together, bodies damp with sweat, Luke still beneath him, and when he lowers his thighs, they quiver, and Ashton’s hips respond with a gentle thrust into him that makes Luke whimper. 
As he pulls out, Luke lightly wincing as he does, he presses a quick kiss to Luke’s forehead.
He mutters, running his hand down Luke’s side, “Pretty boy. Can’t believe you’re mine.”
Luke laughs quietly, watching Ashton move away to lay beside him and he says in a huff, his cheeks a hot shade of red, “The same goes for you. I love you.”
“Well, that’s to be expected,” Ashton replies cockily to cover up how it makes his heart stutter in his chest every time he hears Luke say those words. How perfectly they flow from his mouth, how nice they sound on his plush lips. “I’m me. I'm very loveable.”
Luke laughs, reaching to pinch Ashton’s bicep. “Asshole.”
“I think I’m charming.” Ashton shrugs, smiling, thoroughly out of breath. 
“You would.” Luke rolls over on his side to give Ashton a gentle kiss and Ashton tries to not act surprised by it.
He says quietly when their noses bump, “I love you.”
“I know,” Luke replies, kissing him again. "I'm very loveable."
“Oh, so you agree?” Ashton asks. “You think you’re very pretty?”
“Don’t quote Mean Girls to me.” Luke's dimples have appeared. "You have to earn that right."
“Admit you’re pretty then,” Ashton demands in a whine and Luke laughs. “C’mon. Say it for me. Please, for me? Admit you’re beautiful. Admit it.”
Luke takes in a shallow breath, eyes darting over his face. “I think you’re beautiful.”
Ashton simpers. “Was that ever up for debate?”
“No.” Luke kisses the corner of his mouth. “But it’s nice to be reminded every now and then.”
And he’s right. 
Which is one of the many reasons Ashton turns over and pushes Luke back against the sheets, leaning over him to join their mouths in a tender kiss. 
Because he’s more than happy to remind him again.
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It Wasn’t Me
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This idea hit me while I was playing Among Us with a group of my friends. The only thing going through my mind at the time was “What if Among Us was scary? And put Bangtan in it?? And so, this story was born. This is my lousy attempted at thriller/horror, so sorry if I couldn’t get the feeling across just right. BUT I hope everyone who reads my story will at least have a little bit of fear striking their heart while reading this :> Also I apologies in advance if you’re upset at how the story plays out. Sadly, this is a horror story, based on a game about killing people and shitty decision making.
Words: 5.8K
Warnings/Triggers: A lot of dark places, lots of noises, OC Death, Character Deaths, Some gore (but not extremely descriptive), False accusations, Swearing (lots of it), One or two people have a panic attack (not extremely descriptive), Blood gets mentioned quite often, BTS MEMBERS DO DIE (You have been warned), Talking about dead bodies (I tried to keep it down on describing them), Memory Loss, My really shitty attempt at Horror/Thriller XD, Sorry if I missed anything :(
Music: I was listening to this while writing https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=HmTkm_o9Glo
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Everyone was quiet. No one making eye-contact, everyone except for Namjoon that is. He was pointedly staring straight at Jungkook with a harsh glint in his eye, or that could just be from his helmet visor reflecting the low light of everyone's flashlights strapped to their shoulders.
“I know it was you Kook, you can give up pretending like you were actually doing something” Namjoon’s words cut through the dimly lit cafeteria. His cyan coloured glove easily scrolling through his tablet searching for Jungkook’s name, the prompt for voting appearing.
“It wasn’t me! Guys I swear it wasn’t!” Kook pleaded to the others, giving up on trying to convince his elder.
“How isn’t it you JK? We last saw her with you!” Taehyung pipes up from his corner of the simplistic dinning bench. “We don’t even know where the body is guys, so everyone calm down we don’t really have time to throw around accusations with no substance to them.”, Yoongi’s apprehensive gaze looks over Jin’s shoulder, a red digital watch blinking as seconds go by threatening to cut their communication with each other.
“Hobi?”, Jimin looks in Hoseok’s direction. Nervous red gloved hands fiddling, his erratic breaths leaving his lips as he tries to keep it together. Tears turning his eyes glassy and unfocused, his mind recalling seeing your body ripped in half on the floor. “It was in Naviga-” his words faulter, a sob running through his entire body, tear stained face falling into his shaking hands.
Everyone looks on with heartbreak in their eyes, Taehyungs leaving the crying man to look at where you would have been sitting right across from him. He bites his bottom lip, swallowing down a sob of his own. Namjoon speaks up again, “Hobi, could you tell... tell if it was fresh?” “Namjoon!” Jin’s voice raises a few octaves, hand ready to slap the younger one behind the head but his arms are restricted by an unknown force and his pink gloved hand returns to his lap. Hoseok wails even more, but he shakes his head a faint mumble of ‘I couldn’t tell’. Jimin looks on, desperate longing to comfort Hoseok.
“Well then, where was everyone? State your current position, one at a time” Yoongi eyes the ticking red digits again, nerves clearly showing in his tone.
“I was busy here in cafeteria, I had to fix the wires!” Jungkook was quick to respond, desperation in his voice. “I was busy redirecting our power source through to our defences, I saw Taehyung with me. But it was dark, I don’t know what he was doing.” Jimin’s shaken voice calls through shortly after, his sad eyes resting on Taehyung. Everyone’s gaze shifted towards him, awaiting his answer. “I was busy downloading Electrical Bay logs, never got to it though so now I need to go stand there again.” A shiver runs down his spine, with his restricted vision in a place as isolated as their electrical bay, he’s sure everyone can relate to his distaste.
“I was with Yoongi in Medical, busy preparing the vial tests. I’m sure he was doing his scan behind me so he must be clear.” Jin’s voice echo’s through the dark room, his nod towards Yoongi is recuperated with a nod back. “Yeah, I was almost done but the... The... Y/A’s body got reported.” Yoongi fights with himself, unable to bring himself to refer to you now as a thing. A dead thing. Fuck, you were alive only minutes ago, he saw you run past Medical. You still gave him a wave of acknowledgement. His black gloved hand lifts out of its own, his fingers mimicking the wave he sent back your way at the time. Namjoon clearing his throat breaks Yoongi out of his trance. Unfocused eyes looking towards the man calling all attention.
“So then that leaves Jungkook, Hoseok and myself as the possible killer. I was in our administration room busy swiping myself into the system. Hobi I need you to pull it together man, what were you doing that side of the ship?” Hoseok’s body doesn’t stop shaking, but he tries to answer through his broken voice. “I just finished cleaning out the oxygen filters, I was on my way down to defences when I saw the blood trail leading to... to her...” His voice finally giving in, nothing but harsh breathing leaving his dry lips.
“Namjoon, I know you’re convinced it might be Jungkook but it’s not enough. It’s risky to vote someone out now. There's still the possibility the monster could be anyone, we don’t even know if there’s more than one. Keep an eye on JK for now, but it would be foolish to vote now.” Jin’s voice is soft, trying not to make his friend fly off the rails again with accusations. “Fine, this is a warning then Kook.” Namjoon’s cyan coloured gloved fingers cancelling his pending vote on Jungkook. Out of the corner of Taehyung’s eye he could see the visible relief in Jungkook’s body, his shoulders sagging and a held breath being pushed out through his nose.
Soon everyone scrolls to the bottom of the list of their names, all casting their votes on passing this meeting off as inconclusive. The digital timer behind Jin fades out, a scratchy robotic voice playing through the intercoms throughout the ship.
“5 votes Inconclusive.” The five crewmembers who voted, their eyebrows shoot into the sky in shock.
“1 vote Namjoon”, this made his heart race, someone is suspecting him? But who? His eyes dart into Jungkook’s direction seeing the youngest already looking his way, sweat gathering by his temples. It must be Kook, he’s trying to get rid of him!
“1 vote Hoseok”, dread colours his face, how can anyone suspect him of killing you? No, nonono this isn’t right. He was your friend; he could never bring himself to breath a bad word in your direction much less be able to kill you! He needs to partner up with someone, he possibly has a target on his back now. He needs to prove how innocent he really is.
“All members return to your duties.”, And with that the intercoms shut down with a muted screech. As if their suits come to life, their helmets start shutting, visors sliding over their faces and locking in at the latch by their chins. Restricted vision in the already darkly it ship with nothing but a low powered flashlight, everyone starts leaving the dinning bench. Jungkook’s purple helmet disappears into the shadows towards the upper end of cafeteria, Jimin and Taehyung running together towards the southern hallway. Namjoon still idles by the dinning bench, the emergency button tempting him into using his one and only use of it. His hands fist by his sides as he has an inner battle with himself, but finally he decides against it and follows Jin and Yoongi’s retreating figures that ran towards the west side of the ship.
Hoseok thought he was going to starts hyperventilating, he found himself alone in the dark. His mind repeating over and over again “target on your back... target on your back...” hesitatingly he runs towards south hallway in search of Jimin and Taehyung. Taehyung... he said he would be in electrical bay. Hoseok finally know his exact destination he disappears into the shadows as he searches for his green helmet friend.
Unable to speak to each other, Jin and Yoongi trod along towards Medical bay again. Not close enough to touch each other with stretched arms, but close enough to still make out each other's body in the shadows. Yoongi doesn’t know how long they’ve been on the ship, his memory completely wiped. But he does remember doing his duties and that was the only thing driving him at this point. He can only vaguely recall all his supposed friends faces but even that gave him a headache if he focuses to long on it. The faint thumping of boots can be heard behind them but that soon fades away, sounded far as well so neither of them grew concerned.
The green flickering lights of Medical bay soon lights up the entryway, the letters ‘cal’ completely busted and the letter ‘i’ flickering on and off. Here Yoongi stops and gets ready to turn, but Jin doesn’t follow him. Yoongi’s stress levels spike at this, Jin just continues walking further down the hallway throwing Yoongi two fingers over his shoulder, ‘Peace’. Jin is abandoning him. Before Yoongi could run after, he was gone from his sight. Just the faint thumping of his boots getting softer and softer till the only thing he can hear is the blood rushing in his ears and his panicked breathing.
“You can do this Yoongi, just do your scan and leave. All it takes is 10 seconds, more than enough before anyone can catch you alone.”, he tries to encourage himself, knowing no one can hear him over the busted communications in their helmets. Slowly he walks into the supposed Medical Ward. It was anything but that in his eyes.
The room looks like it hasn’t seen anything human in over 50 years. Ward beds lay toppled over or stacked against the wall to his right, some with wheels, others with what looks to be constraint-straps. This room wasn’t as frightful when he was in here with Jin. This ship is a lot better to handle in general when you're with someone else, he thinks to himself.
He accidently kicks over something that looks like a bedpan, nearly shitting himself at the loud clatter that echoes around him. His heart thundering in his chest, he shakes out his hands in front of him. ‘Fucking calm down Min Yoongi. Since when were you the biggest pussy on this ship?!’ With a neck roll he walks in deeper, passing the discarded beds he eyes the floor. There he sees it, the fucking vent. The second thing that drives a knife through everyone’s hearts. He hastens his steps towards the body scanner, he's been in here longer than he would like already. He hears boots running on top of the steel flooring close to the entrance, he holds his breath. The thumping gets louder but he can’t seem to pinpoint if it's from the left or right, just that it’s getting louder.
Deciding not to stand around and look like he’s not doing anything, he turns away from the door and jumps up onto the filthy podium. He can see his boot prints in the dust from when he was standing there previously before discovering your fate. His hand darts out and starts typing in his crew ID, the old machine groaning as it boots up. “Come on, come on, come on... Fuck switch on already you piece of shit!” as if the scanner could hear him it boots up, what used to be lime green lights settling on his form and so the program starts running.
Yoongi could see nothing, the scanner’s lights bouncing off his visor, barely able to see his own intel on the little black monitor in front of him. The whirling and beeping of the machine are deafening, drowning out the hurried footsteps he heard coming towards him. By the time he’s done, a simple 10 seconds he wishes never to experience again, he was climbing of the podium and sending his scan towards admin. Not waiting to see if the scan goes through, he goes running out of Medical while checking his right wrist for his remaining tasks. He heads east, thinking he’ll shortcut through cafeteria. There he bumps into a nervous Jungkook heading the same direction. They stood and stared at each other for what seemed hours. Yoongi could hear footsteps coming from south hallway, Jungkook’s head snapping towards it as well. Yoongi signals east and beckons Jungkook to follow and continues on with his journey. Weather Kook followed him or not, he doesn’t really care because he wasn’t going to look behind him.
Hoseok nearly ran head first into a stack of boxes when he entered Storage Bay. This room always gave him the creeps. Boxes of God-knows-what stacked high to the ceiling. He hates it, he hates it so much here. ‘I just want to go home’, he thinks to himself. ‘Where even is home? Do I have one? This place can’t be my home... right?’, his steps faulter, inner monologue interrupted by movement. He swears he saw someone’s boot out the corner of his eye. “Buddy system Hobi, look for a buddy and stick by them”, he reminds himself, blinking away something wet from his eyes, not sure if it’s tears or sweat at this point. He slowly makes his way between unmarked boxes, vaguely remembering this is the path to the garbage shoot. He sees the silhouette of someone. His heart in his throat, he nears apprehensively, a yellow helmet coming to life. Jimin turns around and his mouth opens in horror when his eyes land on Hoseok so close to him. He goes tumbling to the floor, his arms thrown up in a defensive manner in the hopes it will make the killing blow less painful.
When nothing happens Jimin opens one eye and peaks through his arms. Hoseok just standing there waving his arms telling Jimin to get back on his feet. With a huff Jimin drags his body back into a standing position and eyes Hoseok warily. He dusts of his white spacesuit's pants, doing nothing but spreading the dust and grease over himself even more. Hoseok points towards the west, asking Jimin silently if he would go with. Jimin shakes his head and points east, he has tasks to do that side of the ship. Hoseok clasps his red hands together, contemplating if he should stick with Jimin or continue on his search for Taehyung. Lifting his right arm, he checks his task list. He needs to be at reactor. He waves to Jimin and leaves his yellow friend behind and continuous looking for Taehyung.
Jin leans back in the rickety chair inside security. The chair is missing two wheels and an arm rest but it’s the only comfort he can indulge in right now. He watches the security cameras in a bored haze. He was curious as to why Yoongi left Medical and went back to cafeteria and not come looking for him. Jin leans back as far as the chair will allow before hearing the plastic cracking. He didn’t like having his back turned to the doorway, much less the vent. He eyes the grated hole in the far corner away from him. It’s barely hidden in the shadows but he could still see the dry blood-stained metal in the low light. The room was practically empty except for a lone broken desk, document debris scattered on its top and the floor around it. He already searched through those notes; he still doesn’t know anything. If anything, he was even less wiser than what he was ten minutes ago. He turns back to the cracked monitors in front of him. He needed to find a way off this damned ship, even if it killed him while trying. He knew he had a family somewhere out there, he needed to get back to them. He watches on silently, his right wrist beeping red. He swears he could hear the creaking of metal on metal.
Jimin having turned his back on Hoseok, walked towards defences. The hallway felt longer and darker when he was alone. He could only hear his erratic breathing and his foot falls on the steel below him. He paused. The entrance of communications greeting him. He peered in but saw no one. The room was filthy. Nothing short of looking like a hurricane tore it apart. Electronic equipment shattered and broken litter the floor. Confusi9on clouded his brain, “What happened on this shi-?” A splitting headache seized him between his eyes at that very moment. He fell to his knees screaming himself hoarse. The feeling of hooks tearing his brain apart, membrane from membrane, he tries clutching at his helmet trying to pray it off of himself. Not soon after Jimin’s vision turns black, his body shutting down and his head bangs against the steel floor.
Jungkook walked quietly behind Yoongi, far enough to just see his elder’s boots in his line of vision. He wasn’t even sure if Yoongi knew he was still following him. He watched as they passed the ship’s gun room. It was more a laser shooter in Kookie’s eyes but he felt the time to bring up the debate of room names was not now. He looks down to his right wrist, red light beeping silently. He continues following Yoongi towards what looks like Navigation Room? Jungkook decides it was best to break off there and head into the oxygen maintenance room, his eyes following the cracking glass plant tank, from there he follows the banged-up pipes all along the walls. He remembers Hoseok saying something about cleaning out the filters here. He looks over his shoulder, hoping Yoongi would have paused and waited for him. No one but darkness greets him. With a shake of his head and shoulders he tries to calm himself down, he disappears deeper into the room in search of a small leaver.
He flicked open his left wrist, opening the small red map on his visor. He wonders if his brother has feasted yet, the idea makes his stomach rumble. He growls jealously at the idea, no, he needs to feed before he becomes unbearable, before he starts slipping up, before he gets caught. He goes for the easiest option, a low grumble of ‘Lights’ sets the mood just the way he likes it. Everyone plunges into darkness. All power gets cut in seconds, flashlights, wall lights, even monitor lights die.
Multiple running footsteps can be heard heading in his direction, he smiles and sticks to the boxes in storage. One set of footsteps are the closest to him, he focuses on the south hallway.
When Jimin comes to he realises he's on the floor, his face clammy and an incessant throbbing inside his head. Slowly he climbs back onto his feet, a shake of his shoulders makes himself feel dizzy, the feeling of vomit coming up his throat makes him turn green. After a few deep breaths Jimin tries to remember what he was doing, lost in thought standing in the even darker hallway. This makes him blink a few times, slowly realisation hits him, the faint blaring of an alarm ringing in his ears. He needs to head to Electrical Bay, hoping he chooses the right direction, he sets off.
Jungkook has never been scared of the dark, not that he can remember that, but he's never been plunged into this type of void before. His hands outstretched in front of him, making sure he won't bump into any walls on his way to see why the power system is failing. He calls out for Yoongi in desperation forgetting that they have no way to communicate with each other. He continues calling out regardless, some messed up way of soothing himself. His shin hits the cafeteria bench, he curses and bends down to rub away the pain. ‘Fucking stupid Kook, why are you even here? You’ve done nothing but make yourself look like an idiot, now you’re walking into shit as well! Fucking useless!’, his internal monologue deafens him from hearing footsteps approaching. The last thing Jungkook saw was sharp white teeth coming straight at him as he stood back up as the lights faded on.
All remaining members were seated at the dinning bench. One by one their visors opened and they quickly saw who was missing. Jungkook and Jin. The vacant seats mocking them.
“WHAT THE FUCK?! WHO THE FUCK KILLED JUNGKOOK? TELL ME NOW YOU FUCKING BASTARD!” Yoongi tried to jump from his seat but he struggled against his suit, as if he was glued to his chair. He was losing it, Kookie was right behind him. Right behind HIM. That means the killer was close by. It could have been him. It SHOULD have been him. He was to chicken shit to look out for Jungkook. He’s responsible for the loss of a crewmate. He breaks down, elbows slamming onto the table, black gloved hands flying to his hair and desperately starts pulling at his strands. Tears freely running down his face.
“Yoongi, it wasn’t Jungkook that I saw in there. I... I saw... Fuck... I saw Jin. He was... He was everywhere... I...”, Taehyung’s voice wavers, he’s staring at the table top but his eyes were watching something else entirely. Just blood, so much blood... was everywhere.
“Where TaeTae?”, Jimin wants to reach out towards his friend. Comfort him and clean his mind from the horrors he witnessed.
“Was in security. I didn’t see anything but I was with Taehyung. I had to go to reactor, Tae came with me so I wouldn’t be alone. He went right and I left and... now we’re here.”, Hoseok’s voice sounded lifeless. His skin was pale and ashy, dark rings decorated his eyes and his nose was raw and red.
“Jimin where were you?”, Namjoon’s eyes darts towards the yellow crewmate. Jimin quickly throws his hands in the air. “No, NO! It wasn’t me! Hoseok can confirm I was in storage and I went east towards defences. Hobi please tell them! There’s no way for me to get to security even with using the vents!” Jimin grabs at the sides of the dining table, his entire body shaking with unshed tears. “Hobi please!”
“Namjoon, he’s right. Even if it was... recent or not, there’s no way it could have been him.”, Hobi hangs his head, hoping he wasn’t making a mistake by defending Jimin.
“Where the fuck were you Namjoon? Huh? WHERE THE FUCK WERE YOU MOTHERFUCKER?!”, Yoongi tries again to lunge over the table but still he was held to his chair. “YOU HAD IT OUT FOR HIM FROM THE GET GO! JUST ADMIT YOU FUCKING KILLED KOOK!” he was seeing red, the veins on his forehead and throat looking as if they will pop any second. “He has a point Namjoon... Where were you? I was in storage on my way to Electrical to check the switchboard and I didn’t see you in there”, Jimin tries to rub away one of the grease stains on his yellow glove, eyes refusing to look up.
“Yeah Joon, Taehyung and myself fixed the lights, you weren’t in Electrical Bay area at all.”, Hoseok’s the one with the pointed glare now.
“Why are you looking at me? I was back in administration, where the fuck were you Yoongi?” Namjoon was bringing up his defences, he puffed out his chest and tightened his hands into fists on top of the dull table. “I was busy in Navigation you fucker, WHY WERE YOU IN ADMIN AGAIN?”, Yoongi’s voice echoed all around them. Creaking of metal could be heard around them. The darkness filled with silence reminding the crewmembers where they were. A jarring reality compared to the screaming that engulfed them mere seconds ago. The scratchy robotic voice on the intercoms greeted them.
“Voting ends in 10 seconds” The faint blaring of an alarm sounds, slowly getting louder as the seconds tick by.
2 seconds was all it took. 2 seconds of making split-second eye contact and the crewmates were voting.
“1 vote Inconclusive”, no one was making eye-contact. Some breathing louder than others. Jimin could swear he heard Hoseok letting out a sob, or was it Taehyung?
“1 vote Yoongi”, Hearing this made him snap in Namjoon’s direction. “YOU MOTHERFUCKER, YOU THINK I WOULD KILL HIM? HUH? FUCK YOU, PRICK! YOU FUCKING MURDERER, FUCKING MONSTER!”, Yoongi was barely keeping himself together, feeling of rage taking over his being, that is till he hears the last casted voting announcement.
“3 vote Namjoon”, Yoongi breaks out in hysterical laughter. HIs voice bouncing back against the broke walls of the cafeteria. “Looks like you’ll be getting what you deserve after all!”
“You guys made a mistake, it’s not me. If you kick me out now, all of you will die. Please think about this, we can still go ba-”, “Like hell we are! Filthy scum trying to fool you all into trusting it!”, Yoongi was finally freed from his suit’s constraints to the bench. “Come on everyone, the votes have spoken.”, He stalks over to Namjoon, showing him to get up and start walking towards the airlock at the top of the cafeteria. Hoseok gets up and joins him in ushering Namjoon off the ship. Taehyung and Jimin remain at the table, refusing to partake.
Yoongi pulls the latch down, the solid metal doors sliding open with a hiss. With no protest Namjoon steps in, back still turned towards them as Yoongi pushes the latch back up. The doors creak and struggle to close, but seal after a few minutes. Hoseok has moved towards the windows looking out into the vacant space way outside. “This is for Jungkook. Rest in Hell.” With as much strength that Yoongi could muster he slammed his fist down on the eject button. His head barely had time to rest on the cold dirty metal of the airlock panel before their helmets started shutting again.
“Namjoon’s gone.” Those are the last words Yoongi heard pass Hoseok’s lips before they were sealed back into their spacesuits, voiceless. Little did Yoongi know he meant that his body disappeared.
Jimin was the last to leave the table this time. He was unsure of himself. Unsure if his crewmates made the right choice. His right arm beeped red, sighing he flicked open his task list. The flashing of the Reactor Room bouncing off his helmet visor. He didn’t even know which direction the rest of them went in. Slowly he got up, heading west. He heard faint footsteps getting louder the closer he got. The hallway was a mess, broken glass crunched under his boots. ‘Where did this even come from?’, His thoughts distracting him, not even noticing the creaking of metal on metal behind him.
Yoongi walks out of Electrical Bay with confidence, just finishing his tasks and not a soul knew he was in there. Deciding he should check out the security cameras and see where everyone was hiding, but before he could take a step towards the west side of the ship the alarms were blaring again. Oxygen was depleting, and fast. ‘Fuck!’, ignoring his original plan he made a dash for the administration room, hoping someone would already be at the top for the second half of the system reset. It was practically impossible to run into Admin. The number of boxes of files thrown everywhere had Yoongi nearly tripping five times just to get to the back of the room. Finally, he was able to get to the keypad, ripping the yellow sticky note off the monitor. He was squinting as much as he possibly could, barely able to make out the numbers. ‘Is that a six or an eight?’, smashing his thumb on the green button he got the code in with four seconds to spare. He didn’t even realise the depleting oxygen was making him dizzy. He stood in Admin for what felt like an hour, just taking deep breaths. “Where in the ever-loving fuck is everyone else?”, he asks this to himself out loud with no answer returned.
Jimin was a broken mess on the floor, not only did he get a fright when the alarm went off, but once he turned around to go towards the emergency, the doors sealed him in security hallway outside reactor. He pounded as much as his body could against the door, eventually cowering against the corner crying for help. He was convinced he was a goner. His eyes refused to look down the long empty and dark hallway. The only sounds around him the ticking timer of the doors, his sobs and the sound of dripping water.
When the alarm stopped screaming in his ears, not soon after the doors opening, Jimin was astonished that he was still alive. Counting his lucky starts he moved towards his final task in reactor. This room had more light than any other room on the ship, making Jimin squint for a few seconds trying to adjust his eyes to the brightness. Jimin stepped in a pool of water, the soft splash making him jump out of his skin. Jumping back, his eyes fall to the floor. But what Jimin sees might scar him for the rest of his life. He saw a red glove next to a red puddle. Jimin bends to pick it up but drops it instantly when he feels there was weight to it. He felts as if he was going to throw up again, his vision going double and he stumbles back, hitting the reactor door frame. “No, please no, not Hobi... Please not Hobi!”, His voice is scratchy to his own ears. His throat raw and painfully hot.
He heard the tapping of something wet hitting the top of his helmet. Slowly he lifted his head. His eyes were greeted with the horribly mangled body of his beloved elder handing from the wires dangling from the ceiling. Jimin not being able to tell the red blood apart from the red on Hoseok’s suit, he let out a deafening painful scream only his ears could hear and flicked his left arm, with panicked fingers he fumbles to press the report button on his suit.
One by one the visors open of the remaining crewmates. Jimin’s the last to open. Taehyung just lifts his hand and points at Jimin. “Yoongi, it was Jimin all along. I saw him, I caught him with Hoseok’s body. HE WAS STILL TRYING TO GET RID OF THE BLOOD ON HIS SUIT!”, Taehyung’s voice slowly raised into hysteria. Yoongi was confused, his head moving from Taehyungs direction and then Jimin’s and then back to Taehyung.
Jimin’s eyes widening, seeing how Taehyung could have seen this as a misunderstanding. “No! NO, IT WASN’T ME! Tae please you don’t understand what you saw! I found Hobi’s body there, I was freaking out BECAUSE HE WAS LITRALLY ON TOP OF ME IN THE CEILING! I wasn’t cleaning blood off of me I was trying to press my report button! Please this is just a huge misunderstanding, Yoongi, you believe me, right? Right?!”, Jimin’s eyes brimmed with tears, his words stumbling as he’s trying not to cry himself into hysterics while trying to plead for his life.
“Jimin... How... How could you?” Yoongi was speechless. It all made sense now. It was never Namjoon that killed Jungkook, it was Jimin. How did he not figure this out? He’s been quiet in every meeting. Used Taehyung as an alibi. He was in defences when he and Jungkook went to Navigation. Lights were killed and he could have easily offed Kookie behind his back. And now, Jimin wasn’t stopping the oxygen depletion because he was busy feasting on Hoseok’s body.
“Taehyung?”
“Yes?”
“Where were you this whole time?”
“I was busy in Weapons. Oxygen emergency popped up and I walked down to Oxygen Room and typed in the reset keycode.”
“And before that?”
“I saw Hoseok leaving cafeteria towards the west. You left south. Jimin stayed in cafeteria for a while, I stayed with him, but after a few minutes I decided to go do my last task so I left east towards weapons.”
Yoongi sat there for a long while, the digital timer in front of him placing pressure on him.
“Jimin?”
“Y-yes?...”
“Can you confirm anything Taehyung just said?”
“I-I can’t remember... Honestly I can’t! I left cafeteria going west, I didn’t see anyone passing me on the way back. As soon as I got into Security Hallway, all the doors shut on me. I went and hid! I thought I was going to die!”, Jimin was a blubbering mess at this point, he couldn’t see clearly, he could smell the blood on his suit drying.
“I’m not convinced... Die with the rest of your kind, monster. Your fake tears won’t work on me any longer!”
“NO WAIT!”, Jimin’s last plea fell on deaf ears. Taehyung and Yoongi placed their votes and Jimin had no other choice but to place his as well. The scratchy robotic voice lulled to life over the intercoms.
“1 vote Taehyung”, Taehyungs eyes widen at this, his eyes quickly darting between Jimin and Yoongi in panic.
“2 vote Jimin”, and at hearing his final fate Jimin wails. He screams and cries as loud as he could. Yoongi could feel the release on their suits from the bench and proceeded to walk towards the airlock. He pulled the latch down, the sealed doors opening with a creek and groan. Jimin refused to get up from his seat, holding on to the table as tightly as he could. He will make one last fight for his life.
Taehyung huffs at him. “You traitor. Hoseok trusted you. I trusted you. Every single one of us trusted you. How many did you kill while my back was turned to you? Huh?” Taehyung’s words cut through him like a knife, each lashing with his tongue made Jimin’s heart bleed. “Please Tae, please, please, please, it wasn’t me. What you saw was a misunderstanding! PLEASE YOU MUST BELIEVE ME, DON’T DO THIS!”, Taehyung walked up to Jimin and hooked his arms in under his armpits. He dragged the kicking and screaming man to the airlock. Yoongi was watching all of this unfold. His eyes never leaving Jimin, hoping that his disappointed face would burn into his mind. Taehyung threw Jimin on the ground in the middle of the airlock as if he weighed nothing. There Jimin stayed on his knees, elbows on the ground hunched in on himself, quietly sobbing.
Taehyung nodded in Yoongi’s direction, signalling him to do it. Without thinking twice, Yoongi pushes the latch up, waiting for the old doors to seal back up. The last words Yoongi hears from Jimin are, ‘It wasn’t me I swear’. He pauses, his finger just above the eject button. “Yoongi, do it. Do it so we can go home.”, Taehyung’s voice sounds stern, Yoongi follows through. He joins Taehyung by the window to watch Jimin disappear into space.
The first thing Jimin feels is cold. Extremely cold. He feels nothing at the same time, just his body floating in nothing. He tries to hold his breath for as long as he possibly can. As his body twists and turns away from the ship, his sight quickly fading, the last thing Jimin witnessing is Yoongi’s body against the window. Soon followed by a large splatter of blood and his lifeless body falling to the floor of the cafeteria. Jimin closes his eyes in a final goodbye, a single frozen tear stuck to his cheek as the void swallows him whole.
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Not a prompt as such but could you write something fluffy and nice for Ballum please?
hey anon!! thanks for the prompt!!! here’s some post-kidnapping bathtime fluff <33
The light is soft over Callum’s cheeks.
That’s the first thing Ben notices when he nudges the bathroom door open, so gentle that it stays blessedly silent from it’s usual creaking, so tentatively that Callum’s eyes don’t flicker open. They’re alone in the flat, Stuart had whisked Rainie away for a Valentine’s Day surprise and even thought of it is enough to have Ben’s stomach churning.
It’s hitting evening-time now, sun setting down between the trees and pouring dappled, milky reflections through the window, splayed along the tiles, just a hint of wintertime hanging onto it’s last breath.
“Hey,” Ben whispers. The door closes behind him without a click.
Callum shifts, eyes flicking open, almost translucent where the light hits, like pale, stained glass. There’s something so delicate about the way he blinks, lashes tangled together by droplets, his brows mused, hair sticky on his temples. The water laps mutely against his skin when he lifts an arm to brush a loose curl from his eyes, a heady silence draped around them.
“Hey,” Callum says. His voice sounds loud in the quiet.
Ben lets himself drift towards the bath, the water is pink, a summer sunset on it’s last breath before the burn of sunlight flares up in ambers and golds. The bath bomb is one of Lola’s, she’d given it to Ben and told him to relax, yet there was someone who needed it more. He dips his fingers in the bath and watches as the colour swirls and the bubbles rift among them slowly, absently, water baying and moulding under his touch.
There’s a vulnerable haze to Callum’s tired eyes, so young-looking with his hair dripping and clumped at his forehead.
“How’re feeling?” Ben questions, not able to hide the wobble in his voice. He settles himself on his knees, reaching a hand out to trace his fingers over Callum’s shoulder.
Callum leans into him, like instinct, and Ben lets out a tiny sigh at it, the comfort of touch, of Callum letting him whisper his fingertips over the outline of his bones. He glances up at him, from under his wet lashes, under his messy brows. Sunlight dances on one side of his face, pale strips of it that bring a white glow to his temple and the tip of his cheekbone.
“Alright, I suppose,” he echoes for the umpteenth time that day, shifting forward to lean his arms on the edge of the tub, torso stretching, ribs just poking through the delicate skin there. Water slides in droplets along his arms, a soft rhythm as it drips from the tips of his elbows. “Just tired, you know?”
“Relaxed?” Ben asks softly, dipping his own fingers into the bathwater, lukewarm.
“Mm,” Callum leans his cheek against his arm, sleepy. “Thank you for this, you didn’t have to go to all this effort.”
“It’s only a bath, babe.”
“Still,” Callum lets linger.
“Well, there’s no need to thank me,” Ben replies. He tucks a stray piece of Callum’s fringe back in place, letting his fingers linger and watching the way Callum’s eyes flutter shut again, butterfly wings as he breathes in deep. Ben rests his fingers among his hair, scratches gently, both of them silent save for the muted sound of the water pressing up close against Callum’s side. “I’d do anything for you, remember?”
Callum’s breathing is steady, cheek squished against his forearm, the delicate skin of his cheeks so pale compared to the callus of his fingertips and the defined bones of his hands. Slowly, Ben trails his fingers to Callum’s jaw, thumb pressed up against the hinge of it, stroking in minute little movements, nails still scratching gently at the wispy hair behind his ears.
“Gonna fall asleep and drown if you keep that up,” Callum murmurs, almost sighing the words on a quiet breath instead of speaking. A tiny smile tugs on the corners of his mouth, content, and Ben’s heart warms, thaws like hot coals are brushing over his skin.
Ben pulls his hand away slowly, but Callum whines and reaches for him, loops his long fingers over his wrist gently and places his hand back against his cheek, so that his palm cradles it now. He nuzzles into it, eyes still closed. Ben wants to rest his fingertips so carefully by his eyes, by the scar there, a wipe it away with just one brush. Erase Callum’s pain and all the memories it brings. Callum holds them like that, his hand lined up against Ben’s, long fingers overlapping his shorter ones.
“How’re you always so warm?” Ben says. He presses his thumb gently under the cradle of his eye, where his skin is shadowed and bruised, a thin veil of lavender.
“`M warm on the inside,” is Callum’s reply, muffled against Ben’s palm, finally opening his eyes. His lips are wet, scraping over his skin, peach dusted and soft.
“Yeah?” Ben laughs softly, finally leaning close enough to let their foreheads touch. Callum’s skin is wet against his own, hair leaving thin streaks of water over Ben’s temple. “Suppose one of us has to be.”
“Shut up,” Callum lets out in a breathless laugh. He reaches his other hand out and guides Ben’s palm to his chest, holding it over his heart, fingers brushing against a scar, deep and red and frightening. But all Ben can feel is the thump-thump of Callum’s heart, the pulse of warm blood in a warm body, his world beating steady and sure. “You are warm Ben. You’re warm, and you’re kind, and you’re fiercely protective. It’s why I’m with you. It’s why I’m still here.”
They’re curled together now, Ben’s elbows folding over the edge of the tub, fingers firm over Callum’s cheek, where Callum’s fingers are curling into his own.
“Cal,” Ben says, and it’s a hiccup of breath, noses bumping together, Callum shifting closer, as close as he can.
Their lips brush, but they’re still just breathing, just feeling the warm air settling around them, feeling the warmth of their limbs tangled together. A tiny droplet of water falls from a strand of Callum’s hair and lands on Ben’s cheek, streaking down his face in a race with the stray fallen tear. Callum brushes it away with his lips, the drag of his mouth barely a kiss, just a gentle touch, to feel. “You are* good Ben, you’re good and you're warm and you make my world all soft and bright.”
And finally, when their mouths do meet, when Callum dips lower towards him and tucks Ben’s bottom lip between his own carefully, all is blessedly quiet, like the world is just for them, just for this moment. Wherever Ben’s hands trail, wherever his fingers spread of curl, Callum follows, fingertips a whisper over the fine bones of Ben’s wrists, holding on, palms encasing. It’s been far too long since they’ve had this, and Ben’s shoulders sag with the weight of the last few days, falling into the touch helplessly.
Callum is a rose beneath him, unfurling his first petals, soft and pink and shadowed at the edges, mouth so open and wet against his own, droplets pinging against the pastel bathwater like shiny pearls. He presses closer, curls over the tub to cup Callum’s jaw gently, that forgiven feeling of stubble nearly pulling him under once more, searching for the feeling he knows they’re both craving. He wants to open him up entirely, card his hands through the softness that’s settled around them, care for every fragile, vulnerable whisper that Callum is breathing into his mouth.
Finally, he feels the whisper of his lashes, wet and heavy, feels Callum’s shaking breath when he tries to clamber closer, clinging to Ben’s hands so desperately, despite how soft their lips fold, how careful their tongues touch.
Ben slides both his hands over Callum’s jaw, tilts his head back and soothes his thumbs back and forth along the line of it, fingertips stroking among the short hairs around his neck. Callum makes a quiet sound in his throat, and there, with the sag of his shoulders and the sigh that he breathes between Ben’s lips, Ben finds his comfort, his home.
“Love you,” Callum whispers, quick and swallowed straight up by a kiss. Ben fumbles their mouths together, breath stuttered and short.
“I love you too,” Ben whispers, but it catches in his throat, choked on a cry. “Should’ve told you that ages ago, but I do. I love you. So much.”
The words are smudged against Callum’s bottom lip, his chin, and then their lips are just brushing again, just feeling skin while they breathe. When he opens his eyes, Callum is staring up at him, wide open and vulnerable, cheeks flushed the same colour as the bathwater, this tinged peachy pink that matches his lips.
It still scares Ben, how much he feels for him, how this boy makes him feel so soft, like his skin is puddy, ready to be taken apart, petals torn from a flower. He-loves-me. He-loves-me-not. He-loves-me. He-loves-me. He-loves me.
“Stay,” Callum whispers, voice tightly coiled like there are fingers pressed up against the curves of his throat. When he speaks, the words flutter over Ben’s lips. “Please.”
“Always,” Ben drops a firm kiss to his lips, turns his palms to tangle their fingers together properly. “I’m not going anywhere.”
“Don’t want to be alone again,” Callum says thickly.
“Hey,” Ben soothes. “You won’t be, not ever. Besides, I ain’t ever letting you out of my sight again.”
“Is that a promise or a threat?” Callum questions, a delicate, teasing edge to his voice.
“Whatever you want it to be.”
The bathwater is cold now, the bubbles sunken and drifting aimlessly with the waters heartbeat, thumping along with their own press of whispers. The light outside is changing, sunset pulling an array of colours on its way. It gives Callum an aura of bronze. All is soft and quiet, Ben’s mind settled, his heart in rhythm with Callum’s, his fingertips grazing the pink flush on his soft cheeks, content and warm.
You’re safe. We’re both safe. I love you.
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It Wasn’t Me
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This idea hit me while I was playing Among Us with a group of my friends. The only thing going through my mind at the time was “What if Among Us was scary? And put Bangtan in it?? And so, this story was born. This is my lousy attempted at thriller/horror, so sorry if I couldn’t get the feeling across just right. BUT I hope everyone who reads my story will at least have a little bit of fear striking their heart while reading this :> Also I apologies in advance if you’re upset at how the story plays out. Sadly, this is a horror story, based on a game about killing people and shitty decision making.
I also just want to take this time to say a big thank you to @bang-tan-bitches​ for the opportunity to partake in their Monster Mash competition. I had so much fun writing this and reading the other stories that partook with me! I can’t wait to read any future stories from you :D and also a big thank you to @nomimits7​ for letting me bother her so much for ideas and corrections on this story. I wouldn’t have had the balls if you didn’t push me to send it and post it!!
Words: 5.8K
Warnings/Triggers: A lot of dark places, lots of noises, OC Death, Character Deaths, Some gore (but not extremely descriptive), False accusations, Swearing (lots of it), One or two people have a panic attack (not extremely descriptive), Blood gets mentioned quite often, BTS MEMBERS DO DIE (You have been warned), Talking about dead bodies (I tried to keep it down on describing them), Memory Loss, My really shitty attempt at Horror/Thriller XD, Sorry if I missed anything :(
Music: I was listening to this while writing www.youtube.com/watch?v=HmTkm_o9Glo
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Everyone was quiet. No one making eye-contact, everyone except for Namjoon that is. He was pointedly staring straight at Jungkook with a harsh glint in his eye, or that could just be from his helmet visor reflecting the low light of everyone's flashlights strapped to their shoulders.
“I know it was you Kook, you can give up pretending like you were actually doing something” Namjoon’s words cut through the dimly lit cafeteria. His cyan coloured glove easily scrolling through his tablet searching for Jungkook’s name, the prompt for voting appearing.
“It wasn’t me! Guys I swear it wasn’t!” Kook pleaded to the others, giving up on trying to convince his elder.
“How isn’t it you JK? We last saw her with you!” Taehyung pipes up from his corner of the simplistic dinning bench. “We don’t even know where the body is guys, so everyone calm down we don’t really have time to throw around accusations with no substance to them.”, Yoongi’s apprehensive gaze looks over Jin’s shoulder, a red digital watch blinking as seconds go by threatening to cut their communication with each other.
“Hobi?”, Jimin looks in Hoseok’s direction. Nervous red gloved hands fiddling, his erratic breaths leaving his lips as he tries to keep it together. Tears turning his eyes glassy and unfocused, his mind recalling seeing your body ripped in half on the floor. “It was in Naviga-” his words faulter, a sob running through his entire body, tear stained face falling into his shaking hands.
Everyone looks on with heartbreak in their eyes, Taehyungs leaving the crying man to look at where you would have been sitting right across from him. He bites his bottom lip, swallowing down a sob of his own. Namjoon speaks up again, “Hobi, could you tell... tell if it was fresh?” “Namjoon!” Jin’s voice raises a few octaves, hand ready to slap the younger one behind the head but his arms are restricted by an unknown force and his pink gloved hand returns to his lap. Hoseok wails even more, but he shakes his head a faint mumble of ‘I couldn’t tell’. Jimin looks on, desperate longing to comfort Hoseok.
“Well then, where was everyone? State your current position, one at a time” Yoongi eyes the ticking red digits again, nerves clearly showing in his tone.
“I was busy here in cafeteria, I had to fix the wires!” Jungkook was quick to respond, desperation in his voice. “I was busy redirecting our power source through to our defences, I saw Taehyung with me. But it was dark, I don’t know what he was doing.” Jimin’s shaken voice calls through shortly after, his sad eyes resting on Taehyung. Everyone’s gaze shifted towards him, awaiting his answer. “I was busy downloading Electrical Bay logs, never got to it though so now I need to go stand there again.” A shiver runs down his spine, with his restricted vision in a place as isolated as their electrical bay, he’s sure everyone can relate to his distaste.
“I was with Yoongi in Medical, busy preparing the vial tests. I’m sure he was doing his scan behind me so he must be clear.” Jin’s voice echo’s through the dark room, his nod towards Yoongi is recuperated with a nod back. “Yeah, I was almost done but the... The... Y/A’s body got reported.” Yoongi fights with himself, unable to bring himself to refer to you now as a thing. A dead thing. Fuck, you were alive only minutes ago, he saw you run past Medical. You still gave him a wave of acknowledgement. His black gloved hand lifts out of its own, his fingers mimicking the wave he sent back your way at the time. Namjoon clearing his throat breaks Yoongi out of his trance. Unfocused eyes looking towards the man calling all attention.
“So then that leaves Jungkook, Hoseok and myself as the possible killer. I was in our administration room busy swiping myself into the system. Hobi I need you to pull it together man, what were you doing that side of the ship?” Hoseok’s body doesn’t stop shaking, but he tries to answer through his broken voice. “I just finished cleaning out the oxygen filters, I was on my way down to defences when I saw the blood trail leading to... to her...” His voice finally giving in, nothing but harsh breathing leaving his dry lips.
“Namjoon, I know you’re convinced it might be Jungkook but it’s not enough. It’s risky to vote someone out now. There's still the possibility the monster could be anyone, we don’t even know if there’s more than one. Keep an eye on JK for now, but it would be foolish to vote now.” Jin’s voice is soft, trying not to make his friend fly off the rails again with accusations. “Fine, this is a warning then Kook.” Namjoon’s cyan coloured gloved fingers cancelling his pending vote on Jungkook. Out of the corner of Taehyung’s eye he could see the visible relief in Jungkook’s body, his shoulders sagging and a held breath being pushed out through his nose.
Soon everyone scrolls to the bottom of the list of their names, all casting their votes on passing this meeting off as inconclusive. The digital timer behind Jin fades out, a scratchy robotic voice playing through the intercoms throughout the ship.
“5 votes Inconclusive”, the five crewmembers who voted, their eyebrows shoot into the sky in shock.
“1 vote Namjoon”, this made his heart race, someone is suspecting him? But who? His eyes dart into Jungkook’s direction seeing the youngest already looking his way, sweat gathering by his temples. It must be Kook, he’s trying to get rid of him!
“1 vote Hoseok”, dread colours his face, how can anyone suspect him of killing you? No, nonono this isn’t right. He was your friend; he could never bring himself to breath a bad word in your direction much less be able to kill you! He needs to partner up with someone, he possibly has a target on his back now. He needs to prove how innocent he really is.
“All members return to your duties”, and with that the intercoms shut down with a muted screech. As if their suits come to life, their helmets start shutting, visors sliding over their faces and locking in at the latch by their chins. Restricted vision in the already darkly lit ship with nothing but a low powered flashlight, everyone starts leaving the dinning bench. Jungkook’s purple helmet disappears into the shadows towards the upper end of cafeteria, Jimin and Taehyung running together towards the southern hallway. Namjoon still idles by the dinning bench, the emergency button tempting him into using his one and only use of it. His hands fist by his sides as he has an inner battle with himself, but finally he decides against it and follows Jin and Yoongi’s retreating figures that ran towards the west side of the ship.
Hoseok thought he was going to starts hyperventilating, he found himself alone in the dark. His mind repeating over and over again “target on your back... target on your back...” hesitatingly he runs towards south hallway in search of Jimin and Taehyung. Taehyung... he said he would be in electrical bay. Hoseok finally knowing his exact destination he disappears into the shadows as he searches for his green helmet friend.
Unable to speak to each other, Jin and Yoongi trod along towards Medical bay again. Not close enough to touch each other with stretched arms, but close enough to still make out each other's body in the shadows. Yoongi doesn’t know how long they’ve been on the ship, his memory completely wiped. But he does remember doing his duties and that was the only thing driving him at this point. He can only vaguely recall all his supposed friends faces but even that gave him a headache if he focuses to long on it. The faint thumping of boots can be heard behind them but that soon fades away, sounded far as well so neither of them grew concerned.
The green flickering lights of Medical bay soon lights up the entryway, the letters ‘cal’ completely busted and the letter ‘i’ flickering on and off. Here Yoongi stops and gets ready to turn, but Jin doesn’t follow him. Yoongi’s stress levels spike at this, Jin just continues walking further down the hallway throwing Yoongi two fingers over his shoulder, ‘Peace’. Jin is abandoning him. Before Yoongi could run after, he was gone from his sight. Just the faint thumping of his boots getting softer and softer till the only thing he can hear is the blood rushing in his ears and his panicked breathing.
“You can do this Yoongi, just do your scan and leave. All it takes is 10 seconds, more than enough before anyone can catch you alone.”, he tries to encourage himself, knowing no one can hear him over the busted communications in their helmets. Slowly he walks into the supposed Medical Ward. It was anything but that in his eyes.
The room looks like it hasn’t seen anything human in over 50 years. Ward beds lay toppled over or stacked against the wall to his right, some with wheels, others with what looks to be constraint-straps. This room wasn’t as frightful when he was in here with Jin. This ship is a lot better to handle in general when you're with someone else, he thinks to himself.
He accidently kicks over something that looks like a bedpan, nearly shitting himself at the loud clatter that echoes around him. His heart thundering in his chest, he shakes out his hands in front of him. ‘Fucking calm down Min Yoongi. Since when were you the biggest pussy on this ship?!’ With a neck roll he walks in deeper, passing the discarded beds he eyes the floor. There he sees it, the fucking vent. The second thing that drives a knife through everyone’s hearts. He hastens his steps towards the body scanner, he's been in here longer than he would like already. He hears boots running on top of the steel flooring close to the entrance, he holds his breath. The thumping gets louder but he can’t seem to pinpoint if it's from the left or right, just that it’s getting louder.
Deciding not to stand around and look like he’s not doing anything, he turns away from the door and jumps up onto the filthy podium. He can see his boot prints in the dust from when he was standing there previously before discovering your fate. His hand darts out and starts typing in his crew ID, the old machine groaning as it boots up. “Come on, come on, come on... Fucking switch on already you piece of shit!” as if the scanner could hear him it boots up, what used to be lime green lights settling on his form and so the program starts running.
Yoongi could see nothing, the scanner’s lights bouncing off his visor, barely able to see his own intel on the little black monitor in front of him. The whirling and beeping of the machine are deafening, drowning out the hurried footsteps he heard coming towards him. By the time he’s done, a simple 10 seconds he wishes never to experience again, he was climbing of the podium and sending his scan towards admin. Not waiting to see if the scan goes through, he goes running out of Medical while checking his right wrist for his remaining tasks. He heads east, thinking he’ll shortcut through cafeteria. There he bumps into a nervous Jungkook heading the same direction. They stood and stared at each other for what seemed hours. Yoongi could hear footsteps coming from south hallway, Jungkook’s head snapping towards it as well. Yoongi signals east and beckons Jungkook to follow and continues on with his journey. Weather Kook followed him or not, he doesn’t really care because he wasn’t going to look behind him.
Hoseok nearly ran head first into a stack of boxes when he entered Storage Bay. This room always gave him the creeps. Boxes of God-knows-what stacked high to the ceiling. He hates it, he hates it so much here. ‘I just want to go home’, he thinks to himself. ‘Where even is home? Do I have one? This place can’t be my home... right?’, his steps falter, inner monologue interrupted by movement. He swears he saw someone’s boot out the corner of his eye. “Buddy system Hobi, look for a buddy and stick by them”, he reminds himself, blinking away something wet from his eyes, not sure if it’s tears or sweat at this point. He slowly makes his way between unmarked boxes, vaguely remembering this is the path to the garbage shoot. He sees the silhouette of someone. His heart in his throat, he nears apprehensively, a yellow helmet coming to life. Jimin turns around and his mouth opens in horror when his eyes land on Hoseok so close to him. He goes tumbling to the floor, his arms thrown up in a defensive manner in the hopes it will make the killing blow less painful.
When nothing happens Jimin opens one eye and peaks through his arms. Hoseok just standing there waving his arms telling Jimin to get back on his feet. With a huff Jimin drags his body back into a standing position and eyes Hoseok warily. He dusts of his white spacesuit's pants, doing nothing but spreading the dust and grease over himself even more. Hoseok points towards the west, asking Jimin silently if he would go with. Jimin shakes his head and points east, he has tasks to do that side of the ship. Hoseok clasps his red hands together, contemplating if he should stick with Jimin or continue on his search for Taehyung. Lifting his right arm, he checks his task list. He needs to be at reactor. He waves to Jimin and leaves his yellow friend behind and continuous looking for Taehyung.
Jin leans back in the rickety chair inside security. The chair is missing two wheels and an arm rest but it’s the only comfort he can indulge in right now. He watches the security cameras in a bored haze. He was curious as to why Yoongi left Medical and went back to cafeteria and not come looking for him. Jin leans back as far as the chair will allow before hearing the plastic cracking. He didn’t like having his back turned to the doorway, much less the vent. He eyes the grated hole in the far corner away from him. It’s barely hidden in the shadows but he could still see the dry blood-stained metal in the low light. The room was practically empty except for a lone broken desk, document debris scattered on its top and the floor around it. He already searched through those notes; he still doesn’t know anything. If anything, he was even less wiser than what he was ten minutes ago. He turns back to the cracked monitors in front of him. He needed to find a way off this damned ship, even if it killed him while trying. He knew he had a family somewhere out there, he needed to get back to them. He watches on silently, his right wrist beeping red. He swears he could hear the creaking of metal on metal.
Jimin having turned his back on Hoseok, walked towards defences. The hallway felt longer and darker when he was alone. He could only hear his erratic breathing and his foot falls on the steel below him. He paused. The entrance of communications greeting him. He peered in but saw no one. The room was filthy. Nothing short of looking like a hurricane tore it apart. Electronic equipment shattered and broken litter the floor. Confusi9on clouded his brain, “What happened on this shi-?” A splitting headache seized him between his eyes at that very moment. He fell to his knees screaming himself hoarse. The feeling of hooks tearing his brain apart, membrane from membrane, he tries clutching at his helmet trying to pray it off of himself. Not soon after Jimin’s vision turns black, his body shutting down and his head bangs against the steel floor.
Jungkook walked quietly behind Yoongi, far enough to just see his elder’s boots in his line of vision. He wasn’t even sure if Yoongi knew he was still following him. He watched as they passed the ship’s gun room. It was more a laser shooter in Kookie’s eyes but he felt the time to bring up the debate of room names was not now. He looks down to his right wrist, red light beeping silently. He continues following Yoongi towards what looks like Navigation Room? Jungkook decides it was best to break off there and head into the oxygen maintenance room, his eyes following the cracking glass plant tank, from there he follows the banged-up pipes all along the walls. He remembers Hoseok saying something about cleaning out the filters here. He looks over his shoulder, hoping Yoongi would have paused and waited for him. No one but darkness greets him. With a shake of his head and shoulders he tries to calm himself down, he disappears deeper into the room in search of a small leaver.
He flicked open his left wrist, opening the small red map on his visor. He wonders if his brother has feasted yet, the idea makes his stomach rumble. He growls jealously at the idea, no, he needs to feed before he becomes unbearable, before he starts slipping up, before he gets caught. He goes for the easiest option, a low grumble of ‘Lights’ sets the mood just the way he likes it. Everyone plunges into darkness. All power gets cut in seconds, flashlights, wall lights, even monitor lights die.
Multiple running footsteps can be heard heading in his direction, he smiles and sticks to the boxes in storage. One set of footsteps are the closest to him, he focuses on the south hallway.
When Jimin comes to he realises he's on the floor, his face clammy and an incessant throbbing inside his head. Slowly he climbs back onto his feet, a shake of his shoulders makes himself feel dizzy, the feeling of vomit coming up his throat makes him turn green. After a few deep breaths Jimin tries to remember what he was doing, lost in thought standing in the even darker hallway. This makes him blink a few times, slowly realisation hits him, the faint blaring of an alarm ringing in his ears. He needs to head to Electrical Bay, hoping he chooses the right direction, he sets off.
Jungkook has never been scared of the dark, not that he can remember that, but he's never been plunged into this type of void before. His hands outstretched in front of him, making sure he won't bump into any walls on his way to see why the power system is failing. He calls out for Yoongi in desperation forgetting that they have no way to communicate with each other. He continues calling out regardless, some messed up way of soothing himself. His shin hits the cafeteria bench, he curses and bends down to rub away the pain. ‘Fucking stupid Kook, why are you even here? You’ve done nothing but make yourself look like an idiot, now you’re walking into shit as well! Fucking useless!’, his internal monologue deafens him from hearing footsteps approaching. The last thing Jungkook saw was sharp white teeth coming straight at him as he stood back up as the lights faded on.
All remaining members were seated at the dinning bench. One by one their visors opened and they quickly saw who was missing. Jungkook and Jin. The vacant seats mocking them.
“WHAT THE FUCK?! WHO THE FUCK KILLED JUNGKOOK? TELL ME NOW YOU FUCKING BASTARD!” Yoongi tried to jump from his seat but he struggled against his suit, as if he was glued to his chair. He was losing it, Kookie was right behind him. Right behind HIM. That means the killer was close by. It could have been him. It SHOULD have been him. He was to chicken shit to look out for Jungkook. He’s responsible for the loss of a crewmate. He breaks down, elbows slamming onto the table, black gloved hands flying to his hair and desperately starts pulling at his strands. Tears freely running down his face.
“Yoongi, it wasn’t Jungkook that I saw in there. I... I saw... Fuck... I saw Jin. He was... He was everywhere... I...”, Taehyung’s voice wavers, he’s staring at the table top but his eyes were watching something else entirely. Just blood, so much blood... was everywhere.
“Where TaeTae?”, Jimin wants to reach out towards his friend. Comfort him and clean his mind from the horrors he witnessed.
“Was in security. I didn’t see anything but I was with Taehyung. I had to go to reactor, Tae came with me so I wouldn’t be alone. He went right and I left and... now we’re here.”, Hoseok’s voice sounded lifeless. His skin was pale and ashy, dark rings decorated his eyes and his nose was raw and red.
“Jimin where were you?”, Namjoon’s eyes darts towards the yellow crewmate. Jimin quickly throws his hands in the air. “No, NO! It wasn’t me! Hoseok can confirm I was in storage and I went east towards defences. Hobi please tell them! There’s no way for me to get to security even with using the vents!” Jimin grabs at the sides of the dining table, his entire body shaking with unshed tears. “Hobi please!”
“Namjoon, he’s right. Even if it was... recent or not, there’s no way it could have been him.”, Hobi hangs his head, hoping he wasn’t making a mistake by defending Jimin.
“Where the fuck were you Namjoon? Huh? WHERE THE FUCK WERE YOU MOTHERFUCKER?!”, Yoongi tries again to lunge over the table but still he was held to his chair. “YOU HAD IT OUT FOR HIM FROM THE GET GO! JUST ADMIT YOU FUCKING KILLED KOOK!” he was seeing red, the veins on his forehead and throat looking as if they will pop any second. “He has a point Namjoon... Where were you? I was in storage on my way to Electrical to check the switchboard and I didn’t see you in there”, Jimin tries to rub away one of the grease stains on his yellow glove, eyes refusing to look up.
“Yeah Joon, Taehyung and myself fixed the lights, you weren’t in Electrical Bay area at all.”, Hoseok’s the one with the pointed glare now.
“Why are you looking at me? I was back in administration, where the fuck were you Yoongi?” Namjoon was bringing up his defences, he puffed out his chest and tightened his hands into fists on top of the dull table. “I was busy in Navigation you fucker, WHY WERE YOU IN ADMIN AGAIN?”, Yoongi’s voice echoed all around them. Creaking of metal could be heard around them. The darkness filled with silence reminding the crewmembers where they were. A jarring reality compared to the screaming that engulfed them mere seconds ago. The scratchy robotic voice on the intercoms greeted them.
“Voting ends in 10 seconds” The faint blaring of an alarm sounds, slowly getting louder as the seconds tick by.
2 seconds was all it took. 2 seconds of making split-second eye contact and the crewmates were voting.
“1 vote Inconclusive”, no one was making eye-contact. Some breathing louder than others. Jimin could swear he heard Hoseok letting out a sob, or was it Taehyung?
“1 vote Yoongi”, Hearing this made him snap in Namjoon’s direction. “YOU MOTHERFUCKER, YOU THINK I WOULD KILL HIM? HUH? FUCK YOU, PRICK! YOU FUCKING MURDERER, FUCKING MONSTER!”, Yoongi was barely keeping himself together, feeling of rage taking over his being, that is till he hears the last casted voting announcement.
“3 votes Namjoon”, Yoongi breaks out in hysterical laughter. HIs voice bouncing back against the broke walls of the cafeteria. “Looks like you’ll be getting what you deserve after all!”
“You guys made a mistake, it’s not me. If you kick me out now, all of you will die. Please think about this, we can still go ba-”, “Like hell we are! Filthy scum trying to fool you all into trusting it!”, Yoongi was finally freed from his suit’s constraints to the bench. “Come on everyone, the votes have spoken.”, He stalks over to Namjoon, showing him to get up and start walking towards the airlock at the top of the cafeteria. Hoseok gets up and joins him in ushering Namjoon off the ship. Taehyung and Jimin remain at the table, refusing to partake.
Yoongi pulls the latch down, the solid metal doors sliding open with a hiss. With no protest Namjoon steps in, back still turned towards them as Yoongi pushes the latch back up. The doors creak and struggle to close, but seal after a few minutes. Hoseok has moved towards the windows looking out into the vacant space way outside. “This is for Jungkook. Rest in Hell.” With as much strength that Yoongi could muster he slammed his fist down on the eject button. His head barely had time to rest on the cold dirty metal of the airlock panel before their helmets started shutting again.
“Namjoon’s gone.” Those are the last words Yoongi heard pass Hoseok’s lips before they were sealed back into their spacesuits, voiceless. Little did Yoongi know he meant that his body disappeared.
Jimin was the last to leave the table this time. He was unsure of himself. Unsure if his crewmates made the right choice. His right arm beeped red, sighing he flicked open his task list. The flashing of the Reactor Room bouncing off his helmet visor. He didn’t even know which direction the rest of them went in. Slowly he got up, heading west. He heard faint footsteps getting louder the closer he got. The hallway was a mess, broken glass crunched under his boots. ‘Where did this even come from?’, His thoughts distracting him, not even noticing the creaking of metal on metal behind him.
Yoongi walks out of Electrical Bay with confidence, just finishing his tasks and not a soul knew he was in there. Deciding he should check out the security cameras and see where everyone was hiding, but before he could take a step towards the west side of the ship the alarms were blaring again. Oxygen was depleting, and fast. ‘Fuck!’, ignoring his original plan he made a dash for the administration room, hoping someone would already be at the top for the second half of the system reset. It was practically impossible to run into Admin. The number of boxes of files thrown everywhere had Yoongi nearly tripping five times just to get to the back of the room. Finally, he was able to get to the keypad, ripping the yellow sticky note off the monitor. He was squinting as much as he possibly could, barely able to make out the numbers. ‘Is that a six or an eight?’, smashing his thumb on the green button he got the code in with four seconds to spare. He didn’t even realise the depleting oxygen was making him dizzy. He stood in Admin for what felt like an hour, just taking deep breaths. “Where in the ever-loving fuck is everyone else?”, he asks this to himself out loud with no answer returned.
Jimin was a broken mess on the floor, not only did he get a fright when the alarm went off, but once he turned around to go towards the emergency, the doors sealed him in security hallway outside reactor. He pounded as much as his body could against the door, eventually cowering against the corner crying for help. He was convinced he was a goner. His eyes refused to look down the long empty and dark hallway. The only sounds around him the ticking timer of the doors, his sobs and the sound of dripping water.
When the alarm stopped screaming in his ears, not soon after the doors opening, Jimin was astonished that he was still alive. Counting his lucky starts he moved towards his final task in reactor. This room had more light than any other room on the ship, making Jimin squint for a few seconds trying to adjust his eyes to the brightness. Jimin stepped in a pool of water, the soft splash making him jump out of his skin. Jumping back, his eyes fall to the floor. But what Jimin sees might scar him for the rest of his life. He saw a red glove next to a red puddle. Jimin bends to pick it up but drops it instantly when he feels there was weight to it. He felts as if he was going to throw up again, his vision going double and he stumbles back, hitting the reactor door frame. “No, please no, not Hobi... Please not Hobi!”, His voice is scratchy to his own ears. His throat raw and painfully hot.
He heard the tapping of something wet hitting the top of his helmet. Slowly he lifted his head. His eyes were greeted with the horribly mangled body of his beloved elder handing from the wires dangling from the ceiling. Jimin not being able to tell the red blood apart from the red on Hoseok’s suit, he let out a deafening painful scream only his ears could hear and flicked his left arm, with panicked fingers he fumbles to press the report button on his suit.
One by one the visors open of the remaining crewmates. Jimin’s the last to open. Taehyung just lifts his hand and points at Jimin. “Yoongi, it was Jimin all along. I saw him, I caught him with Hoseok’s body. HE WAS STILL TRYING TO GET RID OF THE BLOOD ON HIS SUIT!”, Taehyung’s voice slowly raised into hysteria. Yoongi was confused, his head moving from Taehyungs direction and then Jimin’s and then back to Taehyung.
Jimin’s eyes widening, seeing how Taehyung could have seen this as a misunderstanding. “No! NO, IT WASN’T ME! Tae please you don’t understand what you saw! I found Hobi’s body there, I was freaking out BECAUSE HE WAS LITRALLY ON TOP OF ME IN THE CEILING! I wasn’t cleaning blood off of me I was trying to press my report button! Please this is just a huge misunderstanding, Yoongi, you believe me, right? Right?!”, Jimin’s eyes brimmed with tears, his words stumbling as he’s trying not to cry himself into hysterics while trying to plead for his life.
“Jimin... How... How could you?” Yoongi was speechless. It all made sense now. It was never Namjoon that killed Jungkook, it was Jimin. How did he not figure this out? He’s been quiet in every meeting. Used Taehyung as an alibi. He was in defences when he and Jungkook went to Navigation. Lights were killed and he could have easily offed Kookie behind his back. And now, Jimin wasn’t stopping the oxygen depletion because he was busy feasting on Hoseok’s body.
“Taehyung?”
“Yes?”
“Where were you this whole time?”
“I was busy in Weapons. Oxygen emergency popped up and I walked down to Oxygen Room and typed in the reset keycode.”
“And before that?”
“I saw Hoseok leaving cafeteria towards the west. You left south. Jimin stayed in cafeteria for a while, I stayed with him, but after a few minutes I decided to go do my last task so I left east towards weapons.”
Yoongi sat there for a long while, the digital timer in front of him placing pressure on him.
“Jimin?”
“Y-yes?...”
“Can you confirm anything Taehyung just said?”
“I-I can’t remember... Honestly I can’t! I left cafeteria going west, I didn’t see anyone passing me on the way back. As soon as I got into Security Hallway, all the doors shut on me. I went and hid! I thought I was going to die!”, Jimin was a blubbering mess at this point, he couldn’t see clearly, he could smell the blood on his suit drying.
“I’m not convinced... Die with the rest of your kind, monster. Your fake tears won’t work on me any longer!”
“NO WAIT!”, Jimin’s last plea fell on deaf ears. Taehyung and Yoongi placed their votes and Jimin had no other choice but to place his as well. The scratchy robotic voice lulled to life over the intercoms.
“1 vote Taehyung”, Taehyungs eyes widen at this, his eyes quickly darting between Jimin and Yoongi in panic.
“2 votes Jimin”, and at hearing his final fate Jimin wails. He screams and cries as loud as he could. Yoongi could feel the release on their suits from the bench and proceeded to walk towards the airlock. He pulled the latch down, the sealed doors opening with a creek and groan. Jimin refused to get up from his seat, holding on to the table as tightly as he could. He will make one last fight for his life.
Taehyung huffs at him. “You traitor. Hoseok trusted you. I trusted you. Every single one of us trusted you. How many did you kill while my back was turned to you? Huh?” Taehyung’s words cut through him like a knife, each lashing with his tongue made Jimin’s heart bleed. “Please Tae, please, please, please, it wasn’t me. What you saw was a misunderstanding! PLEASE YOU MUST BELIEVE ME, DON’T DO THIS!”, Taehyung walked up to Jimin and hooked his arms in under his armpits. He dragged the kicking and screaming man to the airlock. Yoongi was watching all of this unfold. His eyes never leaving Jimin, hoping that his disappointed face would burn into his mind. Taehyung threw Jimin on the ground in the middle of the airlock as if he weighed nothing. There Jimin stayed on his knees, elbows on the ground hunched in on himself, quietly sobbing.
Taehyung nodded in Yoongi’s direction, signalling him to do it. Without thinking twice, Yoongi pushes the latch up, waiting for the old doors to seal back up. The last words Yoongi hears from Jimin are, ‘It wasn’t me I swear’. He pauses, his finger just above the eject button. “Yoongi, do it. Do it so we can go home.”, Taehyung’s voice sounds stern, Yoongi follows through. He joins Taehyung by the window to watch Jimin disappear into space.
The first thing Jimin feels is cold. Extremely cold. He feels nothing at the same time, just his body floating in nothing. He tries to hold his breath for as long as he possibly can. As his body twists and turns away from the ship, his sight quickly fading, the last thing Jimin witnessing is Yoongi’s body against the window. Soon followed by a large splatter of blood and his lifeless body falling to the floor of the cafeteria. Jimin closes his eyes in a final goodbye, a single frozen tear stuck to his cheek as the void swallows him whole.
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malumsmermaid · 4 years
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I’d Do Anything Chap 3.5
Someone brought this post up into my notes again recently and I decided to flesh it out a bit.
Part of my poly/CEO! Cashton universe, it takes place somewhere inbetween chapters 3 and 5.
Word Count: 1.9k
Rating: M (18+ only)
Warnings: female receiving oral, unprotected sex (est. relationship), bi Calum? bi Calum.
Calum and Lily didn’t have too much to do at work that day, opting instead to stay at Calum’s house and get what little work they had done first thing in the morning so that they could spend the rest of the beautiful day together. Lily ended up finishing her work first, Calum having to wait for someone to call him still, so he handed her his card and a grocery list, “Get something for yourself too, sweetheart.” He added, smiling as his girlfriend’s cheeks turned pink.
Lily took his card, pausing for a kiss before she walked out to her car, driving over to Target. She wove up and down the aisles, getting detergent, ingredients for dinner, and some snacks before meandering over to the clothing. It was nearing March and they had had bathing suits out for a month now. She had a feeling that, with the mild Southern California winter, they would probably spend the afternoon sitting out by Calum’s pool, so she slowly began flicking through the racks, after glancing at some of the shirts and bags first. She considered a green bikini for a moment, before an olive one-piece caught her eye. There was a decorative bow between the cups, and a cut out below, finding one in her size and carrying it back to the fitting room, falling even more in love once it was on her. She quickly put her clothes back on and checked out, driving back to Calum’s.
She quickly put up all the groceries, glancing out the patio doors to see Calum leaning back on the cushioned bench, tank top discarded next to him. She ran her eyes over him for a moment, smiling to herself before making her way to the bedroom, setting the book she’d also bought on a pillow before stepping over by the window, a wicked smile spreading over her face. She stood directly in his line of sight, slowly stripping off her clothes, bending over slightly more than she really had to as she stepped into her new swimsuit, slowly pulling it up her body and pulling the straps over her shoulders before reaching behind her and clipping it in place. She ran her hand through her copper hair, tossing it back over her shoulders before slowly swaying away from the bedroom window, grabbing two glasses of water before going to join Calum on the deck.
When she set the water down she realized that Calum was on the phone, her hands immediately flying up to cover her mouth, eyes wide as she looked at her boyfriend. He just nodded at her, biting back a smirk as he pointed over towards the other bench across from him. She sat down across from him, looking down at her lap as he cheeks flamed. She wouldn’t have changed into her swimsuit the way that she had if she had noticed that his phone was pressed to his ear.
She could hear Calum humming in response to whatever the other person on the line was saying, finally chancing a glance up at him, swallowing back a gasp at the sight of his hand disappearing under his black swim trunks. He gave her a lazy smile, eyebrows raising slightly behind his sunglasses. She couldn’t tear her gaze away from him now, tongue poking out to wet her lips as she pressed her thighs together. Calum’s own tongue poked out as he watched her squirm slightly in her seat as she realized what he was doing. His fingers were tapping impatiently against the back of his phone, eyes squeezing shut as he continued to listen. Finally, he found an opening to cut in, “Everything sounds great, Luke. Keep doing what you’re doing and send me an update next week…..Yeah, thanks man, see you in a couple months for the charity thing, bye.”
He had been fighting to keep his tone even, and not overly rushing to end the call. He let out a sigh of relief as he set his phone on the table, before motioning for Lily to join him on his side. She stepped over the table, holding her arms out for balance as she stood in the middle of the coffee table before she stepped down, Calum’s arms reaching out to catch her if she fell. She settled into the cushions of the bench, tucking herself against Calum as he leaned over, his head resting in the crook of her neck. “You looked so cute the second you realized I was on the phone, sweetheart.” He started, voice low as he began trailing kisses up her neck. “But that show you put on for me...so good love, you were all confident and everything. Wish I could’ve seen you get the idea, your pretty face lights up whenever you think of something to do to me like that.”
She sighed, tilting her head slightly to give her boyfriend better access as he slowly continued to work his way to her jaw. “Thank you so much for getting my groceries, and for bringing lunch out here to me.” Lily smiled, eyes fluttering as Calum’s kisses grew harsher, saying “Mm, didn’t bring lunch just wat-ooh.” She paused as she looked down at Calum, her boyfriend having pulled away, a teasing smirk and raised eyebrows causing a shiver to pass through her body.
He laughed softly as he pushed her to lean back against the cushions, shifting until he was kneeling on the deck. He grabbed her leg, pulling her closer as he licked his lips. His sunglasses had slipped down his nose and Lily was able to see his dark eyes glittering with excitement as he slowly began pressing kisses up the inside of her thigh, teeth gently nibbling the sensitive skin as he left his mark there.
She finally let out a soft whine as his fingers grazed over her core on top of her swimsuit, a smile playing over his features. He looked up at her as he pulled the olive fabric to the side, humming softly, “Always sound so pretty love, imagine if one of my neighbors hear us...think they’ll be like that guy in that forensic files episode you put on last night? Take a peek over the fence? Good thing they’ll get what he wanted to see and not murder, yeah?”
Lily let out a soft giggle at his statement and Calum grinned, squeezing her leg before ducking his head down, tongue running the length of her slit. She gasped, spreading her legs further for him as he attached his lips to her clit, sucking harshly while his finger circled her entrance. He quickly settled in, finding his pattern as he lazily went down on her, long languid strokes of his tongue combined with the slow thrusts of his fingers had the familiar warmth spreading through her body.
Calum grinned as he heard her moans mixing with whines and becoming more and more desperate. He pulled back slightly, smiling as he went back to gently brushing his lips along her thighs, slowly curling his fingers inside of her.
“Cal,” Lily whined, her hands reaching for his head, grasping at his dark hair and trying to pull him back.
Calum smiled, leaning his head against her thigh, “Yes doll?” He teased, making a show of slowly licking his lips.
Lily just let out an exasperated whine, head bouncing off of the bench’s cushion as she laid back. Calum smiled to himself, pulling his fingers out and humming as he cleaned them off, a low groan vibrating through his chest, making sure there was a loud pop when he slipped them from between his lips, a soft whine leaving Lily at the noise before he attached his lips to her center once more. Her body jolted in response to the sensations shooting through her, legs wrapping tightly around his head. Calum groaned, his own hips thrusting forward desperately as both his hands gripped Lily’s hips. He squeezed his eyes shut, quickly working her back to her high, finally working her over the edge and through, smiling as he cleaned her up.
He let out a satisfied little moan as he pulled back from her, pulling his body back up onto the bench, holding himself over her as he leaned in for a heavy kiss. He moaned as his hips pressed into hers, swallowing the gasp that she let out. Desperate for friction, he continued moving his hips, hard cock brushing against her thighs through his swim trunks, eyelids fluttering as the feeling overtook him.
“Wish Ash would make up his mind a little faster,” Calum stated, forcing himself to hold still, breathing heavily as he pulled away from Lily slightly. “He definitely could’ve helped me out a minute ago. Want you to see how pretty he looks in the afterglow, wanna have both of you in my bed looking like that, both so pretty, all dewy and glowing, fully spent and satisfied.”
Calum let out a low groan, his eyes fluttering closed at the image he’d just conjured in his mind. Lily smirked, reaching up to cup his cheek, “Want me to jerk you off while you think about your past and possible future escapades involving Ashton again?”
He hummed, eyes slowly opening, “Hmm? Oh, no, not right now, maybe later, think for now I just wanna love on you.”
Lily laughed softly as he leaned into her touch before bending down to peck her lips, hands pulling away from her to push his swim trunks down just enough to free his cock, slowly sinking into her. His body sagged against hers, a relieved moan falling from his lips as he finally felt her around him. Lily just smiled, combing her fingers through his curls while he composed himself.
After a minute he pushed himself up, pulling one of her legs higher on his waist as he slowly pulled out, chewing his lip as he stared down at her, eyes fluttering as he sunk back in. He was only able to keep up the slow pace for so long, his attempts at stalling to try and build stamina seemed to have failed, based on the amount of his own arousal that he’d been able to feel on his length when he’d finally released it from its confines. Lily egged him on, pushing back to meet his thrusts, so he picked up his pace, chasing after his own high as he pushed one of the cups of Lily’s swimsuit to the side, mouthing sloppily at her breast while his thumb pressed to her clit, trying to help her along too. They both hastily came to their ends, Lily following after Calum as he spilled inside her, both collapsing into each other.
Calum stilled in her, staying in her as he caught his breath, finally pulling back enough to check his phone after a minute, fumbling for it while he continued holding his girlfriend close. He opened one text he had gotten, humming as he read it, “Ash wants to come by in about an hour for lunch, whaddya say we get cleaned up and swim for a bit before I fire up the grill?”
Lily nodded tiredly, leaning up to press a kiss to Calum’s cheek before he pulled out of her and helped her to her feet, the pair leaning into each other as they walked inside.
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sunnytumbies · 4 years
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look at the stars (look how they shine for you)
So...what we have here is another plot fic, one that wound up having a relatively small stretch of kink. I planned to have more fiendish scenes, but it would’ve just been unnatural and forced, and this chapter is primarily meant to set up some background info about the subplots of this story and to reveal some stuff about Quincy/Cal’s past that will make writing kink drabbles and side fics a lot easier (aka I won’t have to cartwheel around stuff that hasn’t been revealed in plot yet!) That said, we’ve got a good 1044 words of fiendery! 
Suffice to say, the next thing I post will be a fully-fiendish side fic, I promise. No hard feelings if you don’t read this due to the low kink to plot ratio, but I hope someone out there enjoys it! 
Title comes from “Yellow” by Coldplay (I know, I know)  Word count: 10,508
Warning! This fic includes violence, transphobia, graphic descriptions of wounds, depression, anxiety, and mentions of a suicide attempt (fleeting and not elaborated on). Please stay safe should you choose to read! 
2005  
Virginia Pembrook is damn good at her job, even when her hands shake. She’s seen people burned to death in fires, gunshot wounds to temples, seen bodies that were left for weeks before they were found, smeared Vicks VapoRub under her nose and carried on like nobody’s business. She is, objectively speaking, a badass.  
Virginia is damn good at her job, but this is Mary Kline she’s looking at, and a month ago she was swapping pie recipes with Virginia, planning their group Thanksgiving. She’s having trouble looking down at her and not seeing that kid, too damn young to have lost his mother this way. Truth be told, there is upsettingly little left to identify. Fires are like that. 
But she volunteered for this, because Henry Kline insisted on the autopsy (which, despite her pleas, Virginia was not permitted to perform, and God if the thought of someone cutting Mary open like she’s any other cadaver that comes through their lab doesn’t cause her pain, sharp and aching and difficult to describe), because he similarly insisted on the toxicology screen that has taken an agonizing month to come back, dragging out the funeral and putting that kid through hell, not giving him the damn closure he needs.
She exhales. She was not permitted to perform the original autopsy, but she can do this, at least. She can review the toxicology screen, can sign off on the report, can finally give Cal the closure he’s desperate for, why won’t Mommy come back, Ginny? Why is Daddy so sad?
She can do that, at least. 
She’s been at it for an hour and a half when she sees them: two small, perfectly round marks just shy of what would have been Mary’s jugular. She grows cold, all of a sudden--they look like bullet holes, albeit of a particularly small caliber, or maybe some sort of puncture wound, nearly small enough to escape her notice. Nearly. 
The thing is that Mary died in a fire. 
That’s what it says on the report, at least, in Dr. Stephens’ unusually neat handwriting. There is no note of any puncture mark, of any wound other than post-mortem damage from the blaze. Virginia takes a deep, steadying breath. Dr. Stephens is not a careless man. Ballistics aren’t even Virginia’s area. Perhaps the marks are simply burn blisters, she reasons, but finds herself fighting prickles of unease, like part of her has registered something she hasn’t yet consciously realized. 
She’s being ridiculous, she tells herself, trying to shake off her sense of foreboding; she’s simply overly-emotional because this case is far too close to her. She’ll check the toxicology report and go from there. 
It isn’t until she reads over the report that Virginia’s hands begin to tremble. 
It is, for the most part, unsurprising. No ethanol in Mary’s system, no amphetamines, no drugs; Virginia can’t help but feel a flicker of morbid amusement when she flips to the positive findings section, which lists nicotine and caffeine--of course those would be present in Mary’s system, Mary who could never take a damn break--and then Virginia is frowning in confusion as she reaches the last finding: 
Compound: Uncategorized barbiturate Result: positive Units: mcg/mL Matrix source: 001 - Peripheral blood 
Virginia has seen many toxicology screens in her day, far too many. She has never, ever seen an uncategorized result, and regardless, why would Mary test positive for anesthesia, particularly running through her veins? Mary died in a—
Mary died in a fire. Because she didn’t--couldn’t--get out of the house. 
All at once, Virginia is  hyper-aware of the sensation that she’s being watched, of the gruesome expression Mary’s face is pulled into underneath the sheet, of the flickering fluorescent lights and the smell of death permeating her nostrils. Suddenly and undeniably, she is terrified, and she drops her tape recorder with a clatter (she’d forgotten she was even holding it, what with how she has been taking dictations all evening), letting the toxicology report fall with it. 
Tomorrow, she decides. She is clearly in no state to handle any of this now. Tomorrow she’ll come back and reevaluate, when she’s had enough sleep;  maybe she’ll call the reporting chemist to inquire as to why he approved such a baffling report. Maybe it’s an error--she’s tired, that’s all. Overwrought. It’s a relief to sink into the comforting embrace of logic, of jargon. She’ll research. She’ll find an explanation that makes sense. 
Still painfully aware of the feeling that she is not alone, Virginia opts to endure the inevitable flak she’ll receive for leaving the report and the tape recorder where they’ve fallen, rushing to gather her things and flick off the lights. She’s almost made it to her car when she’s stopped by a cold, hard hand gripping her wrist. 
She has time to yelp in surprise before another cold hand clamps over her mouth like a vice, a cloying scent filling her nostrils.  “Mary Kline died in a fire,” says a voice, low and furious and far too close to her ear, and her head is yanked to the side, to a pair of blood-red irises making intent, startling eye contact. She’s shaking, she thinks, and dimly she is registering terror, fight-or-flight, urgency, but she is transfixed by those eyes, dizzied by the scent filling her senses, cloying her lungs. She can’t scream, can’t think, but struggles to remember why that matters. “There is nothing strange on the tox screen,” she hears that voice say, feels her head nodding like a thing that doesn’t belong to her. 
“Nothing strange,” she murmurs behind the hand, her tense muscles slackening as the fight drains out of her. Her mind is cloudy.  
“That’s right. Mary Kline died in a fire. Say it back to me, would you, sweetheart?”  
“Mary Kline died in a fire,” she parrots back obediently, confused. Why is she having to repeat a truth so obvious? “Nothing strange in the report.”  
“Good.” The hand releases her wrist, pulls away from her mouth to let her breath fresh air. “That’s good, Dr. Pembrook.”  
“Good,” Virginia murmurs absently, or someone else murmurs through her lips. She can’t be sure, but can’t find it within herself to care very much. 
 Later on, Virginia will find it strange that she can’t remember anything between leaving work and driving home, that there’s a chunk of missing time there, but she’ll put it off to exhaustion. She’ll think nothing of the strange, musky herbal smell that has been trailing her all day, putting it off to a mixture of her rosemary-scented shampoo and the grime of working a few days in a row. She’ll chastise herself for leaving a sloppy work station the night before, picking up her tape recorder with a frown--she didn’t notice it falling out of her lab coat pocket, but it wouldn’t be the first time it had happened. She casts a brief glance over the toxicology report, simply affirming that it’s signed--she’s surprised that her signature is so neat, given what a rush she was clearly in at the time--and finally, finally signs off on the death certificate with a morose shake of her head. 
“It was smoke inhalation,” she’ll lie without knowing it to a still-grieving Henry Kline, a hand on his shoulder. “She wouldn’t have felt a thing. I’m so sorry, Henry.” 
“It didn’t hurt?” Henry manages, lifting his head to meet Virginia’s sympathetic gaze with watery eyes. 
“Not at all,” Virginia soothes. “It would have been like falling asleep.” 
Now
Quincy is moving into the apartment anytime after 2 per Cal’s text message, but it is Tuesday, meaning that he is expected to make it to an 11am lunch with Graves. His alarm, as per usual, is scheduled to go off with enough time for him to spend an hour or so wallowing in bed before he really has to get up and get ready. 
Quincy does not like mornings.   
This is why he does a double take when he stretches and glances at his clock to see that it's only a few minutes after eight--a good hour before his alarm--and even more perplexingly, that he's looking forward to getting ready. He's standing in front of his full-length mirror deciding between two sweaters (one mustard yellow, one navy blue dotted with white stars) before he realizes that he's only considering the yellow one because Cal had so much trouble looking away from him the last time he wore yellow. He frowns and yanks on a collared denim button-down and then the navy blue sweater, rolling up his sleeves a bit more aggressively than is technically called for.   
Cal is good, Quincy thinks. Cal is good and kind, and Quincy cannot do this, cannot even think about doing this.    
He forces himself to shake it off, casting a cursory glance around his dark bedroom. It's filled almost to capacity with boxes, most of their contents new; others are filled with his clothes, the only material possessions he lets himself hold onto. The only well-used items in the room—his plain mattress, sagging on its pathetic box spring, and a CD player that wheezed its last wheeze weeks ago—will not be coming with him. Everything else he'll cram into his Mercedes.    
He'll miss this place, he supposes, in a useless, nostalgic way with only tenuous ties to reality. He's not going to wax poetic on the perpetually damp air, the water stains on the popcorn ceiling, the busted window screens.  
He guesses what he's really going to miss is solitude, because there is a certain sort of safety in lonesomeness that he has taken for granted over the years. Like the proverbial fool who doesn't know what he has until it's gone, Quincy knows that he is on the edge of something, here, and he is frightened.    
(It’s just that Quincy is not allowed to be frightened. This has to be done, and Quincy is the one who has to do it, and that, like so much else in his life, is simply the way of things.)   
He takes an unnecessary breath and calls Graves.    
"Little bro! You're up before noon!"
Quincy rolls his eyes, because despite everything, he is still capable of being annoyed by Graves, an extraordinarily ridiculous man. They aren’t related, but they certainly aren’t merely friends--brother is much more accurate, and besides, Quincy enjoys the confused glances as people slowly process their extremely disparate skin tones. 
"Don't get used to it," he says, reaching into his pocket. His keys are there, of course. They always are. He flicks open his knife with his thumbnail, the motion fluid, carried out with the ease of familiarity. It was a gift from Graves for his birthday last year, a short, cold-iron blade that looks like a key when he flicks it closed. "I was wondering if we could meet earlier than 11. I'm, uh, hungry."    
Quincy has to pull the phone away from his ear to save himself from Graves’s top-volume belly laugh, no doubt in response to his obvious lie. "Eager, huh? Does Quincypoo have a cruuuuush?"  
Quincy's brows furrow. He doesn't understand his brother, sometimes, the way he can live the way they live and still be downright goofy.    
"I just want to get started, I guess. There's nothing left for me here.”
Graves goes a little somber, then, or at least as somber as he gets. "I get it. When can you be there?"  
"How soon can you meet me?" Quincy counters, and presses the button on the key fob to unlock his car, but not before slipping on his rumpled jean jacket, stained and holey as it is. It's the only article of clothing he knows for a fact that Graves hates.    
 *  
Quincy has mixed feelings about Noxboro, the little town just west of the university, with its clusters of locally-owned curiosity shops and its rainbow-painted crosswalks. It's less crowded than the area immediately around the university but just as congested, and everyone is so nice to him, chirruping cheerful good morning!s and how are you?s when he passes them on the sidewalk. He is inconspicuous in an unassuming, progressive Southeastern town sort of way, but he is also extremely conspicuous as someone walking alone in an unassuming, progressive Southeastern town, and thus an ideal candidate for being showered with the well-meaning friendliness of strangers. Quincy isn't antisocial, but he would still rather be left unbothered. He flips up his collar, pulls his jacket more tightly around himself.    
Alice’s Diner was one of Graves’s finds, nestled in Nox Mill Mall. In World War II, Nox Mill was a munitions factory, and it was bought out after the war to become a woolen mill. It was briefly an underwear shipment facility—a fact that amuses Graves to no end—before being abandoned when the mills closed. They were going to demolish it, but the little Noxboro community petitioned to have it turned into Nox Mill Mall, a sturdy brick building with a couple of restaurants, a toy store, and a tea shop. Quincy tried to visit the tea shop once, and there was a guest speaker, a woman with grey hair in braids down to her waist talking about aliens walking among us. Quincy does not believe in aliens, but she looked at him like she knew, and well. Quincy doesn't like tea that much anyway.    
Quincy likes Noxboro, is the thing. He likes buying fresh milk at the co-op grocery store, likes to listen to Alice herself talk about her mother’s recipes and peddle her cake mixes on Sundays (I'm gonna throw in something extra, honey, she always says, and Quincy invariably finds protective amulets and sachets tucked into his coat pockets, recipes passed down in Alice’s family as meticulously as the recipes she makes at her restaurant). He smiles at the middle schoolers in band t-shirts clustering to take pictures of themselves on the rainbow crosswalks. He likes that, to get himself out of an unfortunately awkward incident involving a very flirtatious waitress, he lied, haltingly, without looking Graves in the eye, uh, I—I have a boyfriend, and the waitress—Sammie, he later learned—said, Aw, Forrest, we're just playing here, that's all it is. My girlfriend and I could just eat you up. (He doesn't know why she called him Forrest. When he asked, she threw her head back and laughed.)    
Quincy likes Noxboro. But between Nox Mill Mall and the co-op is a big-name corporate grocery store, and last time he bought some of Alice’s cake mix she was crying. Mama spent her whole life here, she said, voice trembling, did you know that? Started that restaurant with sixty-four dollars, no more and no less, $40 for food and $24 to make change. Used the money she made at breakfast to make lunch and the money she made at lunch to make dinner. No recipes, no nothing, just her eyes and her mouth. Quincy remembers nodding, squeezing one of her hands that she'd placed in both of his. She stayed here forever, spent her whole life building this community, and now I don't know if I'm gonna be able to afford to let her retire here.
Quincy loves Noxboro, and that is the problem. He is not supposed to get attached, not supposed to put down roots (is certainly not supposed to have rapport with locals, God, what is Quincy getting himself into, here?). He’s not supposed to know things like that Alice’s grandchildren run around outside without shoes on, half because they want to and half because they're the only shoes they'll get to have for the rest of the year and they want them to stay nice for church. It’s certainly not supposed to make Quincy's heart ache. 
But he comes to Alice’s, every Tuesday. And he keeps buying cake mix.   
Quincy pushes his way inside the diner, nods at the tired-looking hostess who recognizes him by now. He slides into the booth across from Graves, who already has food on the table, one plate on Quincy's side, one on his. Really, it's just Graves’s order twice.    
"Howdy, Forrest," Sammie purrs, and Quincy looks up in surprise to see her sauntering over to the table. Eleanor—the girlfriend, Quincy learned some time ago, who does in fact look like she would eat him—trails after her with an amused expression. The restaurant is fairly empty, and he supposes they have nothing better to do. Eleanor semi-permanently has that look on her face, like everything Sammie does is funny in just the right ways. When Eleanor isn't looking, Sammie looks at her the same way. It's love, Quincy guesses. He's glad for them. "Anything I can get for you?"  
“As usual, no,” Quincy says, perhaps more flatly than he entirely means to, because he is accustomed to Sammie’s antics. Still, he adds a perfunctory, "But thank you."  
Sammie doesn't push, just clears Graves’s already-empty plate and snorts as Graves drags "Quincy's" plate toward himself. Quincy doesn't eat his—never does—but Sammie doesn't question it, not ever, and for that Quincy is unbelievably grateful. He doesn't think for a second that she doesn't notice, that she doesn't know, and that's the thing about Noxboro, really. This town, and these people—so many of them have a way of knowing, in the most italicized sense of the word, a deep and perceptive kind of knowing. They've grown up with the old magic of kudzu and jimson weed, of lightning bugs clasped in their palms, of preachers who believe the words in the Holy Book, believe fire and brimstone as feverishly as most people believe in the earth going around the sun. There's something about growing up surrounded by belief like that that breathes a different kind of understanding into them.    
Quincy was afraid, at first, but now it's familiar. Comforting. The way Sammie looks at him when she thinks he isn't paying attention, like he's a puzzle she's trying to figure out, may as well be a mother's lullaby. It means Quincy is real. It means that he is not quite as far removed from reality as he thinks he is.  
"I hate that damn coat," Graves says then, pulling Quincy from his mental abstraction. "I keep telling you you need to let me dress you once. Just once, and you'll see how much potential you have."    
"I like my clothes," he says with the simplicity of someone who has had this fight many times. His nose wrinkles in disgust as he watches Graves shovel down his second helping of hashbrowns, licking crumbs off his lips. It wouldn't be so bad if Graves didn't insist on smearing them with strawberry jam. His exasperation at his own brother makes him think of Cal and his found family, of the brotherly disdain in his voice when he talked about Amy’s tarot and her well-meaning gestures centered on Cal’s health, and Quincy promptly shoves that thought back where it belongs.    
"So what is he like?" Graves asks with his mouth full, so so much for that, Quincy guesses. "Did he suspect?"    
"Suspect what?" Quincy says irritably, keeping his eyes on his hands. He'd usually tear up his napkin for something to do with them, but he's been toying with the rack of jam sitting on the table by the napkin dispenser. He picks up a container of strawberry to fight the urge to empty the rack and count them all. He looks at the light reflecting off its foil cover, tilts it so it alternates between reflecting and not reflecting. "He was...kind, and welcoming. He had no problem with me moving in so soon." Reflecting, not reflecting. Reflecting, not reflecting.    
"Good. That's good." Graves takes a swig from his massive mug of hot chocolate, and when he comes up for air he has a whipped-cream mustache.  
I feel strange about this, Graves, Quincy wants to say. I don't usually mind, but this one feels...different.    
He's working himself up to maybe saying it out loud, but then Graves states, very decisively, “As much as I love these brunches of ours, Quincypoo, it is especially important today. We have a Dick problem."  
Quincy wonders if this is a joke about Cal, and says flatly, "What."  
“A Richard Brandt problem, to be precise,” Graves says, and slaps a newspaper down in front of Quincy.  
BRANDT BREATHES NEW LIFE INTO NOXBORO, screams the headline, with a photo of the man himself grinning sleazily into the camera, posing in front of the new grocery store’s double doors. Quincy notices, not without bitterness, that they have cropped out the protesters who were posted just to the left of the entrance.  
"Brandt is behind this? Why?"  
"Not just the grocery store, bro. Read the article."
Quincy's eyes widen the more he reads. "What?"  
"I know. If the hard-hitting journalism is to be believed, Richard Brandt Enterprises isn't stopping with the superstore. They want to completely overrun this place."
"They have no reason to lie to the people. What’s the point?" Quincy murmurs uselessly, his brow furrowing as he gets to the part of the article that details the corporation's plan to construct more mainstream stores as cheaply and quickly as possible: According to Richard Brandt, CEO and founder of Richard Brandt Enterprises, "People want brands they can recognize. It's all about brand recognition. By making Noxboro a hub for those kinds of stores, we're going to ultimately bring in more people than ever before." In response to the concerns raised by protesters concerning how this plan will impact local business, Brandt had this to say: "That's ludicrous. The more people we bring in with these big-name stores, the more people there are for those local businesses that Noxboro prides itself on." He went on to say, "At Richard Brandt Enterprises, it's all about the people.  
"That's not how that works," Quincy says, looking up from the paper. "He's going to bankrupt these people. He's going to drive them from their own homes!" He thinks of Alice, his chest tightening. (He thinks of Cal, and hates how gently he pushes the thought away.)  
"Thank you, Captain Obvious. Like I said. We have a Dick Problem."
Quincy is opening his mouth to object, but then Graves pauses mid-bite, eyes focused on a place somewhere behind Quincy's right shoulder.    
"What is it?" Quincy murmurs, muscles tensing reflexively. His hands, still tilting the jam back in forth, clench into fists around it.    
"At the co-op." Graves puts down his fork, and without moving his gaze puts a wad of cash on the table beside his plate. "We have a problem, little bro. Non-Dick-related."    
"We always have a problem," Quincy says, very quietly, because in truth doing what they do is still better than doing nothing.    
"Go out the back door and I'll meet you there, okay? Bring the car around."    
"Okay," Quincy says, and Graves is gone. He can be fast and practical when he wants to be, which is rarely.    
"Peeling out already, Forrest?" Sammie calls. So she was paying attention after all, not just making out with Eleanor in the kitchen.    
"Why do you call me that?" Quincy asks, futilely. This, too, is a fight he's had many times.
Maybe he looks as wrung-out as he feels, because Sammie’s face softens marginally as she watches him stand up, push in his chair after himself.  
"Dunno. Like the move? Forrest Gump?" she says, and shrugs. "You remind me of him. The kindness part, not the clueless part. I guess nicknames are my love language."
She gives him a wink, of course, because any interaction with Sammie would be incomplete without blurring the line between conversation and flirtation, and Quincy bites his cheek to keep from smiling. He needs to move.    
He considers the wad of cash, then considers Sammie’s shirt, long-sleeved and wearing thin in places, completely inadequate for keeping her warm, considers how she, too, is probably suffering from how Noxboro is changing.    
How she's going to keep suffering, if Richard Brandt goes through with his plans.
"Keep the change," he says quickly, and he's out the door and halfway to the Mercedes before he realizes he's still holding the little packet of jam. He slides it into the breast pocket of his jacket.    
I guess nicknames are my love language, he hears Sammie saying in his head, feels the packet of jam jostling close to his heart. He thinks of Cal calling him Quince, how the nickname settled like a blanket on his shoulders, easy and familiar and right.    
He cranks up the car and thumbs at his key-knife. He wonders if Cal ever goes to Alice’s, if he sits across the table from Amy or Zara or anyone and laughs open and red-faced at someone's joke, initiating conversation around bites of toast. He wonders if he spreads jam on it, if he prefers strawberry or orange marmalade.    
It's probably been enough time, now. He cranks up the car and thinks maybe he'll leave the jam packet where it is, out of sight but noticeable against his chest. It reminds him that Cal is kind, that Cal is so, so fragile.  
It reminds him that he's not allowed to have this.  
*
When Quincy pulls the car around to the co-op, Graves is waiting at the curb. As he edges closer to the passenger door, Quincy sees him tuck his blade back into his sleeve, dripping with black blood. He's holding a paper grocery bag in one hand.  
"How many?" Quincy murmurs.
"Three," Graves says, voice tired. In their line of work, it is not particularly uncommon to have to kill their own kind, but it always hits Graves particularly hard. "And they were all hunting the same girl. I was just in time."  
"What?"   
Daytime hunts are rare. Group hunts are even rarer. The odds of both happening at once are slim to none, and yet the black blood that's starting to seep through Graves’s shirtsleeve is as convincing evidence as any.
"I should clarify that it is not just any girl,” Graves intones, and Quincy goes very still. “It’s Amelia Fournier.”   
“What are the odds of that?” Quincy asks rhetorically.
“They already think that Kline knows something. The fact that you’re getting so closely involved probably just confirmed it, and it’s not like the kid has blood family.” 
“They didn’t waste any time,” Quincy murmurs. He feels sick, the knowledge of what could have happened had he not just happened to ask Graves to meet him earlier than usual heavy in his stomach.
“You can say that again. Fucking creeps.” Graves’s grip on the paper bag tightens, crinkling in his fist.
"Do you think there will be more?" (What he really wants to ask is, is Cal safe?, the question reverberating so loudly and urgently in his skull that he’s sure Graves can hear it.)
Graves meets Quincy's eyes. "I think we have some time, but...yeah. They were working for someone."  
Quincy hisses out a curse, resting his forehead on the steering wheel. "Any idea who?"
"Someone big," Graves shrugs. "They wouldn't name them, and there are only a few people with that kind of intimidation factor."  
"Fuck," Quincy says. He doesn't swear often, but there is little else to say in this particular situation. "We have to tell Alexandria."  
"I imagine she'll want to call a meeting," Graves affirms, scratching at his forearm, where the blood is no doubt beginning to coagulate on his skin. "As if she didn’t already have a bug up her ass about the roommate thing. And I have to take care of this now." He gesticulates wildly with the paper sack. "Looks like you'll have to postpone move-in."  
*
Cal wakes up early in that strange way that happens to him sometimes, groggy-calm, opening his eyes to stare up placidly at the ceiling. When they first moved in, he and Amy got wine drunk and stuck glow-in-the-dark stars up there. "I'm gonna give you the best constellations," Amy slurred, because she was, despite all her talk to the contrary, a lightweight, but as it turned out the only one either of them knew was the big dipper, so that's what they did, over and over and over. Big dipper after big dipper after big dipper.  
Cal smiles at the memory and has approximately two more peaceful seconds before his brain explodes with Quincy, Quincy, Quincy, and he bolts upright with the sudden, crushing terror that he's slept too late, that he's missed it, but his clock reads 10am and he sags, relieved. It's Tuesday, so he doesn't have any classes, and this is probably the first Tuesday he's woken up before 2pm all semester. Weird.
He sits there for a second, a strange but familiar feeling welling in his gut that he recognizes as anxiety—not just anxiety, but nerves, about-to-go-onstage nerves, high-school-graduation-and-my-name-is-next nerves. He's not stupid. He knows there's a one-to-one correlation between this feeling and the fact that is he going to be seeing Quincy later today. He's just having trouble getting over how monumentally stupid that is.  
As it stands, he can't think of a single problem he's ever had that's been made worse by showering, and his back aches from binding his chest, so basically he can't think of anything he wants more in this moment than water as hot as it will go, his bougie peppermint-scented shampoo, his bathrobe. He heaves himself off his bed, albeit reluctantly, and shuffles into the bathroom.
The thing about Cal, he thinks as he waits for the water to heat up, is that he doesn't hate his body the way he's supposed to, the way they tell you you're supposed to, because his body has never been the real problem. It's not his smooth, unstubbled face that he hates. It's not his soft body, his curves, the chest he binds every day; it's not even the hair he chopped off as soon as he told Henry, Dad, I'm not your daughter, I'm your son. Yeah, he feels more comfortable when he has his binder on, but he thinks that's mostly because the problem isn't his body, it's other people's assumptions about it. The problem isn't that his body isn't a boy's; the problem is that it is, but no one else saw it until he changed his name and cut his hair and started binding, and well.  
Of course he gets dysphoria sometimes. He steps into the shower, and yeah, it's a day where he has trouble feeling at home in his skin, but.  
The thing about Cal is that his body is not the problem.  
By the time he gets out of the shower, it's only 11, and he's feeling restless and doesn't want food yet, so he sits on his bed, fidgeting restlessly, before he realizes who he wants to talk to about... this, this feeling in his belly like he swallowed a fish.  
He decides to call Zara.
 "So what I'm getting is that he's incredibly hot, incredibly intelligent, and you've dropped the dead dad bomb and the trans bomb."   
"That...sums it up very concisely, yeah," Cal says, sighing and flopping back onto his bed. "But I've talked to him for a grand total of...I don't even know, an hour, maybe? So let's reign in the value judgments."   
"Not only did you drop those bombs, but he just rolled with them."   
"Yes, Zara."   
"That's kind of perfect."   
"I don't know. I'm not going to give him too many points for the trans thing. That's just him not being a shitty human. The dad thing, though."
“The dad thing though," Zara replies, emphatically, and Cal misses her so badly that his chest aches.   
Zara Pembrook is the one person from high school that Cal didn't completely sever ties with. Her mother, Virginia, is the medical examiner over on the far side of the city, and her dad is the chief of police. It's not that Cal's parents were bad, exactly, it's just that they were often gone, Henry off guest lecturing and Mary busy first with going back to school for nursing, and later on, pulling graveyard shifts at the hospital, and later on, when Cal turned seven, she was just in the graveyard dead, and Henry kept guest-lecturing, kept staying absorbed in his now-all-important research. There was always a seat for Cal at Virginia and John’s table, he and Zara kicking each other's shins just out of Ellen's view. Before Cal was Cal , he and Zara braided each other's hair and let John teach them about cars in equal measure, Zara patiently letting Cal do her makeup sometimes (he never liked wearing it himself) in between their competitions to see who could shoot the most bottles off the old wood fence out back. Later on, they traded bottle-shooting for sneaking out to the only bar in town that didn't card, a seedy place with an arcade on the first floor, where Zara would bat her lashes and make bets with beer-drunk, middle-aged men, shattering high scores on all the games that used a gun (until, of course, the night Cal decided to try tequila, the night that he only remembers in flashes, vomiting on his shoes until his stomach cramped emptily, Zara’s tears, Virginia’s stormy face and her eyes full of concern, an IV in his arm and hair being smoothed back from his face, no, baby, we know you're sorry, we won't tell your daddy). And then when Cal became himself, traded short skirts for flannel and boot-cut jeans, it was Zara who cut his hair over the kitchen sink with a pair of rusty scissors (Virginia whose eyes grew big as saucers in abject horror, who took the scissors for herself and gave him something resembling a decent haircut).    
So yeah, when Cal erased everyone else from his life before college, erased every trace that anyone other than Cal Kline, trans man ever existed, Zara stayed. Zara was always going to stay. Virginia wanted her to be a nurse, but to no one's surprise, Zara would have nothing to do with that. She's going to a two-year college to get her degree in mortuary science , which makes her infinitely more interesting then Cal will ever be, but also makes her kind of disgusting to talk to.  
Exhibit A. "Ugh. You're getting to demystify uber-hot Sweater Guy. Meanwhile I'm pretty sure I've figured out where the smell is coming from, and the answer is all of the clothes I've worn to lab in the last week. The lab with dead people, Cal."  
"Um."   
"My clothes smell like dead people. Mom, my clothes smell like dead people. My mom just walked in, Cal. She says hi."   
"Hi, Ms. Pembrook."   
"Cal says hi, Ms. Pembrook. Cal, my mom says shut up, you haven't called her Ms. Pembrook since kindergarten, it's just Virginia or Ginny and you know it. "  Cal hears the words twice—once from Virginia murmuring in the background and again from Zara’s spot-on impression—and he feels warm, feels something akin to homesickness.  
"Anyway. Your boy," Zara says decisively before Cal can wallow too much.  
"He is not my boy. I can't stress this enough. We basically stalked him for months, Zara, and he finally talked to me. He's intriguing. He talks like he's never really talked to people before, and I just...I don't know. I feel like there's more there. Intriguing. "   
Zara gives an exasperated huff so familiar that Cal can see the face she's making, can practically feel the puff of breath on his cheek the way he used to when they'd lay on his bed at home, curled together like a couple of parentheses. “Counterargument: we basically stalked him for months, Cal.” She lowers her voice in a pretty decent imitation of his. “I’d say that makes him your something.”
“Fuck you,” Cal says, but he’s biting the inside of his cheek to keep the smile out of his voice.
Zara, for all of her and Cal’s outlandish shenanigans, only got suspended once in high school, and it was for Cal.
It was in gym class--Cal swears to this day that gym class is an unjust institution designed to pit high schoolers against each other in some Hunger Games bullshit. Cal had just come out to his father a couple months before, and as such been on testosterone for a couple months. The transition from what he was before to Cal was hard at school, but if he wasn’t feeling brave, Cal just told people it was a nickname he preferred, and no one cared enough to press the issue. It wasn’t until he cut his hair and started binding his chest that certain problems arose.
Certain problems, of course, primarily referred to David, a greasy, weaselly guy that Cal had the pleasure of enduring from kindergarten until the day he graduated (and even then, Cal thinks now, bitterly. David got into the university on a full scholarship. He’s a business major, which came as a surprise to no one).  
“You’re in the wrong locker room, Kline,” David hissed that day, far too close to Cal for his liking. He remembers squeezing his eyes shut against the onslaught of sour breath, reflexively pulling his crumpled t-shirt to his chest.
“I’m not,” Cal said, voice wavering, because it had taken several angry phone calls on Henry’s part and some tenuously legal under-the-table funding for the school library, but Cal was changing in the boys’ locker room with the law (and the principal) on his side.
“You won’t mind if I check to be sure,” David purred then, reaching around Cal to cup his chest in his binder, and before Cal could say anything, Benny--also a longtime classmate of Cal’s--put a hand on David’s shoulder.
“Dude,” he said, and Cal remembers opening his eyes, daring to hope. “Cut it out. Just let Cal be.”
David slunk away, but not before pinching Cal’s ass when Benny’s head was turned.
“Thanks,” he managed to squeak out to Benny, before throwing on his shirt and grabbing his sneakers, resolving to put them on on the bleachers.
Zara noticed immediately, of course.
“Cal? You look like you did that time you tried to out-hot-dog me.”
Cal hung his head, trembling a little, and he just about lost it when Zara’s voice softened.
“Dude, seriously, what’s up? Are you okay?”
Cal told her what happened in a voice barely louder than a whisper. Before he could do anything about it, Zara was up and off the bleachers. He barely had time to register who he was marching toward before she punched David in the face, hard enough for him to curse and clasp both hands to his face, blood spurting through his fingers.
“Welcome,” she said grandly, cutting Cal a vindictive grin he remembers clear as day, “to the 21st century, asshole. We respect people and we punch transphobes in the face.”
“Zara!” Cal cried in shock, but the gym coach was already running toward her. She didn’t fight when he told her on no uncertain terms to hoof it to the principal’s office.
“It didn’t even bother me that much,” Cal lied feebly, later on when they were sitting cross-legged on Virginia’s couch. (Virginia was angry for about a minute and a half, but when she heard what happened, she rerouted them to Dairy Queen. Anything you want, baby, she said, kissing Zara on the top of the head, and then Cal, too.)
“Maybe not,” Virginia had said, not calling him on his bluff, “but it bothered me.”
And it’s not like David stopped after that, but it was still incredibly badass, and Cal is remembering this and is swelling with love for Zara, is going to ask her if she remembers, when she says "Shit, Cal, I'm running later than I thought. I gotta go. Keep me updated on your love affair!"  
"It's not a love affair, Jesus," Cal says, but she's already hung up the phone.
  *
 Cal is off the phone for about thirty seconds before it occurs to him that he hasn’t Facebook stalked Quincy yet, in this, the 21st century, asshole. He barely has time to process the thought before he pulls up the app on his phone.
It's not difficult to find. He pulls up the university Class of 2020 Facebook page and searches for "Quincy" in it, and it's not exactly a common name. The profile is almost entirely blank, and he only has fifty-two Facebook friends. Even Cal, after cutting off everyone he knew in high school, has a couple hundred.   
Cal wonders if he's lonely. If that's why he was so quick to jump on the prospect of rooming with Amy and Cal—because he doesn't have anyone else. Maybe the way he's treating Cal is how he'd treat anyone, given enough time and attention.
Cal really doesn't want to be the kind of person that resents that.  
There's only so much to be gleaned from a blank profile, and Cal flops back onto his bed. He doesn't have another shift at the hospital until Thursday, and with no classes to fill his time, he has nothing to do but agonize over this.  
As though in direct response to his restlessness, his phone vibrates insistently. He tries not to hate himself for how quickly he snatches it up.  
 From: Quincy Washington
Sent: 12:34PM
Hello, Cal. I apologize, but I am afraid I must postpone my move-in until further notice. A pressing family matter has come up. However, I do not anticipate this delay taking more than a day or two. I will keep you abreast. Sincerely, Quincy Washington
Cal snorts reflexively—he hasn’t known Quincy for long, but him composing text messages that read like business memos feels very in character — but beneath the amusement is a creeping disappointment that he cuts off before he has to think about it further than that.
 From: Cal Kline  
To: Quincy Washington
Sent: 12:36PM
heh heh. breast. =P
 Quincy responds immediately, wow ur so mature, it's a good thing ur eyes are so pretty ;], and Cal just about chokes on his own lungs, but a second message appears almost as quickly as the first:
 From: Quincy Washington
Sent: 12:38PM
I apologize. That was my brother, Graves. He can be...difficult.  
 From: Cal Kline
To: Quincy Washington
Sent: 12:40PM
does he read tarot? and/or drink health shakes? I would kill for amy to do something natural like steal my phone once in a while
 From: Quincy Washington
Sent: 12:42PM
I asked him, and now he is in tears from laughter. Apparently, you are hilarious.  
 Cal smiles at his phone and types out, I won't let it go to my head, lol, and then, after a moment of thought, see ya around, Quince. hope your family is okay.
 From: Quincy Washington
Sent: 12:47PM
Thank you, Cal. I look forward to seeing you soon.  
 That last text message is almost but not quite enough to alleviate the heavy feeling in Cal's chest, and he tries to make himself focus on it, but instead his brain is shouting there's no urgent family matter, no one texts during something like that, he's just having second thoughts about moving in, and before he can stop it he's trapped himself in a tightening gyre of self-doubt, chest tight with anxiety.  
Why do you care so goddamn much? He screams at his brain. The trouble is, he knows why. Quincy made him feel more understood in half an hour than anyone else has in years, and that matters to him. He thought maybe Quincy felt the same thing, based on all the smiling he did (and God, Cal thinks, what a smile he fucking has ), but maybe Cal was just projecting. Maybe he's gotten this all wrong. Maybe...
Like always when this happens, when Cal gets this clawing feeling behind his sternum, he thinks of his dad. Don't fucking psychoanalyze it, but he thinks of his dad.  
Cal remembers a different Henry, before—the Henry who took him fishing that time, who told him bedtime stories whispered quiet and conspiratorial after his bedtime. When Mary died, she took some of Henry with him, and doesn't that just hit like a punch in the gut every time.  
(Cal remembers Mary too, of course—you remember his thoughts on hospitals. Cal remembers soft nightgowns and grocery store pies because who has time to bake, a soft voice singing him back to sleep after nightmares, showing him how to tie his own tiny toddler shoes. Mary used to give Cal these elaborate hairdos when he was younger, and Cal grumbled about it until she said to him, eyes sparkling, you’re going to be such a beautiful bride one day, and yeah, okay, that's its own fucking can of worms, that his fucking mother Mommymommynoplease, Daddy why is Mommy gone died thinking that she had a daughter, Cal's not fucking talking about that right now.)  
Before Mary died, Henry made pancakes on Sunday mornings. Chocolate chip, shaped like Mickey Mouse ears. Afterward, Cal was lucky to see him three times a week. It was Cal who packed his own lunches, Cal who puzzled through his own homework (Virginia who picked him up and drove him to her place, gave him a good hot meal and let him stay over more often than not).  
Cal doesn't exist in a vacuum, okay? He knows that most people who knew Henry think that he had some kind of psychotic break, that it led to his death, somehow.  
The thing is that Henry never acted quite the same after Mary died, threw himself into his research like never before—strange veins of his research, more precisely, that almost cost him his highly-anticipated tenure more than once.  
Every country in the world has a vampire story, Cal, he told him once, eyes glinting feverishly across the table. Don't you think that's odd? I think I'm really on to something here, kiddo.  
I guess so, Cal mumbled that way kids do when they're 15—because, like, come on Henry, Cal was fucking 15, he had a geometry test the next day, he didn't give a fuck about your latest goddamn research interest—and Henry had pushed the food around his plate a little longer before rabbiting off to his study again.  
Because yeah, there's another reason Cal tries to avoid saying his full name within earshot of anyone who might know anything about Henry Kline: it means willfully associating himself with a professor of theology who plunged off the deep end headfirst. He used to be proud of it, is the thing, showed off his Dad and his research on every single Father's Day assignment in elementary school. Kids got less forgiving as time went on. Buffy, they used to call Cal behind his back in high school, hahahaha —Buffy as in the Vampire Slayer. As in crackpot Professor Kline's kid. 
In college, of course, no one cares about that kind of bullshit. Never did. They whisper about Cal for different reasons: that's Cal, you know. That professor's kid—you know Dr. Kline? Yeah, the one who died, usually followed by something like oh my God yeah, my friend's sister's cousin took Religion 101 with him, that is so sad, et cetera, et cetera.  
It's just that Cal wishes he would have listened more.  
After Henry died, Cal was obsessed with listening to the last cassette he left in the truck--a mediocre Steppenwolf album, Cal remembers. He listened to it over and over and over, memorizing every word, trying to derive some meaning from it being the last one Henry ever played.  
When Mary was alive, she used to give Henry feedback on the articles he submitted to scholarly journals, proofreading them and scrawling her own thoughts on whatever the subject was in the margins. The last thing Mary did before she died was give Henry feedback on one last journal article—coincidentally, which is code here for really fucking uncoincidentally, that article was on the topic of universal myths, the topic that Henry would later dedicate his life to. Universal myths, of course, are legends that crop up in one form or another in every area in the world. Like dragons, Henry posited in his article. Like vampires.
He doesn't think his dad was crazy. He thinks he was coping.
*
“You look like shit," Amy says as soon as she walks in. To be fair, Cal is a lump of junk food wrappers and blankets on the L-shaped couch, blanket-burritoed legs stretched in front of him, the blaring television (Food Network, Cal's first and only love) the only light source in the room, but still, Cal huffs indignantly.  
"We can't all be hyper-productive all the time," he grumbles.  
"Where's Quincy?" Amy hangs her keys up on the key hanger—Christ, when did they get a key hanger?—and Cal gets that tight feeling in his chest again.
"Oh, yeah," Cal says, going for casual. He makes eye contact with Gordon Ramsay on the television, who is currently yelling at a guy who dropped his freshly-plated shrimp alfredo, because at this particular moment he seems a lot less threatening than Amy and her soulful eyes or whatever the fuck. "He had to postpone. Something came up. He'll be moved in in a day or two."  
"Rent's due in three days, Cal," Amy says, not unkindly, but Cal flinches anyway.  
"I know, Ames," he murmurs, and he must sound as tired and beaten down as he feels, because Amy switches on the lamp and turns off the TV, sinking down beside Cal on the couch.   
"You doing okay?" She says it so fucking softly, and shit, you know?
The worst part is that Cal still finds himself with a joke on the tip of his tongue, but it was Amy who the summer after first year had to bring clothes to Cal in the inpatient program he was in for a suicide attempt (a hard night, a handle of liquor, a bottle of pills). It was Amy who had to measure out Cal's antidepressants for him once he got out, Amy who suggested they live together for their senior year. That's the funny part, hahahaha,  about the fact that Cal's even thinking about lying to her: Amy has already seen him at his worst.  
Hahahaha.  
Cal shakes it off, mumbles, "It was a depression day, but I'm fine," and Amy nods, because they've been doing this for a while now, and against all odds Cal has gotten pretty good at telling the difference between what he can and can't handle.  
"Anything trigger it?"
Fuck. Amy knows him. 
"Yeah," he says finally, and then against his better judgement, "I was kinda thinking about my dad."  
Amy sighs, long and sad. This is a whole thing with them.
“Cal, I know you’re still struggling with this--”
“I’m not, okay?” Cal says, immediately and defensively, because he can’t help it. “I know he’s dead. It’s not what you think.”
“Then what is it?”
This is far from the first time they’ve had this conversation, but Amy looks no less earnest every time, like she genuinely wants to understand. Cal guesses that’s why he keeps trying.
“It’s just…” He lets his eyes slip closed, leaning his head back against the back of the couch. “I know you all think Dad was crazy. And I get it. I do. The dude clearly had some issues. But I just…”
“Just what, Cal?”
Nice try, Ames, Cal thinks, because he remembers their joint session with Dr. Moore, the one where they talked about active listening and good support systems, but he guesses it’s working because he still finds himself saying “Just everything, Amy, fucking everybody.”
Amy doesn’t say anything, so he forges on. “Just fucking...you all assume he was a crackpot, but aren’t even just a little bit curious about what had him so convinced? About why he got so hooked on that idea? It’s like no one even thinks about him as human, you know? He’s just crazy Dr. Kline, that professor who died tragically or whatever the fuck, and like...no one’s drinking beers, talking about his life. No one’s here to fucking miss him except me, because even Zara, Amy, even she, the closest thing besides you that I have to a sibling, moved on so fucking effectively, and I’m happy for her, but she didn’t know him before, before Mom. Back when he was just...Henry, father of one. Fuck. I don’t know.”
Amy’s quiet for a minute. “You feel...alone in this.”
“Yeah,” Cal sighs, rubbing his temples. He has a goddamn headache.
“Look, honey,” Amy starts, and Cal looks up. “I don’t harp on you moving on because I think he was crazy. I just…” She shrugs, and suddenly she’s the one looking exhausted. Cal is suddenly and acutely aware that this is, in effect, his baby sister sitting here. “I think your life would be better if you could. That’s all.”
Cal doesn’t drink anymore, but he really, really wants a beer. “Well, Amy,” he says, “we can at least agree on that.”
There is a moment of tense silence before Cal hears a little sniffle, and God if that doesn’t have his head snapping up in a second. Amy’s head is bowed, her shoulders shaking slightly. 
“Amy? Ames? Oh my god!” Cal throws the blanket off his legs, immediately folding Amy into his arms, tucking her head under his chin. “Holy shit, babe, what’s wrong?” (He doesn’t flinch at the pet name. He doesn’t. Amy is safe. He can be real with her. She can know he loves her. She won’t hurt him.) 
“I’m sorry,” Amy says, with this heartbreaking, wet little laugh. “I just--I just had kind of a bad day. Nothing exciting, just school stress. And I--” Her breath hitches, and Cal feels his heart break a little in his chest. “I don’t want you to feel bad for being down, too. That’s not what this is. But it really sucks that I c-can’t help you like Zara did, the way you need--” 
“I’m gonna stop you right there,” Cal says, faux-sternly, making sure to gently pull Amy back so she can see his face, set in a soft little grin. “You do help me the way I need, sunshine. You are literally a bundle of joy--wait, that’s something you say about babies, isn’t it? Okay, you’re not a baby, but the point is that you’re amazing and warm and lovely, and you’ve supported me so much that I don’t know how I’d survive college without you. You’re my sister too, Ames, and I love the shit out of you.” He tucks a loose strand of red hair behind her ear, and she sniffles, a bit less despondently than before. “And if I was a chem major I would definitely be dead, so I don’t want to hear anything about how you’re not allowed to be stressed out too. The tragedy olympics is banned in this household.” 
Amy leans into his hold, pillowing her head in the crook of his neck. “I’m sorry. I know. I love you. Everything just happens so much sometimes, you know?” 
Cal opens his mouth to respond--he does, in fact, know--but all at once he hears and feels a deep, irritated growl from Amy’s stomach. 
“Amy,” he says when she immediately flushes, “When’s the last time you ate?” 
“This...morning?” She says sheepishly, as though it’s a question, and Cal shakes his head in lighthearted disapproval. 
“And you’re wondering why you’re crying! That’s it. Tonight’s a pizza night.” 
“For real?” Amy says, grinning a little despite herself. Their pizza nights are sacred--pizza delivery and Lactaid are both expensive indulgences when you’re a college student, but like, come on, you expect Cal to hold out when Amy’s big brown eyes are still glistening with tears, when her nose and cheeks are still flushed with the exertion of crying (when her stomach is growling with increasing irritation, and Cal can practically feel the queasy ache of hunger pangs that she must be feeling?) 
“For real,” Cal says decisively, and pulls her in for a tight hug, burying his nose in her hair. 
*
“Oh my god,” Amy moans. “Oh...my god. Oh my god. I’m full as a tick.” 
Cal bites his lip to hide his smile, continuing his gentle ministrations. Amy is splayed across the length of the couch, her head resting in Cal’s lap, her tummy a downright mound, churning laboriously around a truly alarming amount of pizza. Cal has one hand cradling her lower belly, providing much-needed support, his other hand stroking across the bulge beneath her ribs, working against the occasional cramps and twinges as they arise. 
“You don’t feel sick, do you?” he asks, pausing to brush a few strands of hair from her eyes, feeling a flicker of concern.
“No, just--” She grabs his wrist, replacing his hand on her upper tummy, arching eagerly into the touch. “Don’t stop.” She flushes a little. “Please?” 
Cal melts, obediently massaging at her bloated tummy, and Amy exhales in relief. She’s pulled her shirt up over her ribs--your hands are so warm! It feels nice, she’d defended herself indignantly--and Cal notices absently how tightly the skin is stretched over the bloat, extremely noticeable on her slight frame. 
“I find that hard to believe,” Cal murmurs, as Amy’s tummy gives a laborious gurgle. She’d plowed through an entire margherita pizza single-handedly, and Cal was as delighted by her actually eating as he was alarmed by the determination with which she did so. “You’re just so small! And that was...so much pizza.” 
“It was,” Amy mumbles, a little breathlessly. “But it doesn’t hurt! I’m just...very ful--oh--” Cal has kneaded against a particularly tight spot to alleviate the pressure, and she wheezes with the relief of it, looking a little dazed. “Oh my word, you’re good at this.” 
“I guess I’ve had a lot of practice on myself,” Cal says, pleased and a little touched that he can help Amy for once. 
“Are you doing okay, by the way?” Amy manages, cracking open one eye and resting a hand on Cal’s own belly. “How’s the Lactaid working?” 
“Perfectly,” Cal soothes her, stroking her lower belly, receiving another grunt of contentment. “Besides, I ate, what, three slices? I wasn’t quite as ambitious as you.” 
“That means leftovers,” Amy says gleefully, impossibly, shimmying a little, before groaning at the effects of the movement on her stomach contents. “For tomorrow. Oof.” 
“You’re insane,” Cal says, bending down to kiss her affectionately on the forehead, rubbing careful, small circles into the bloat beneath her ribs. Somehow, Amy cuddles closer, shifting in Cal’s lap so that she’s pressed against his torso. 
“Yeah, yeah,” she mumbles sleepily, flushing when Cal’s ministrations coax up a tiny burp but looking  exceedingly relieved. “Just...keep doing what you’re doing. Please.” 
Cal is content and very, very warm, the unique pleasure of being helpful chasing away the gloominess from earlier. “I wouldn’t dream of doing anything else.” 
Amy sighs happily, having moved from the precipice of too-full to the relief of being wonderfully, comfortably sated; Cal’s own stomach is pleasantly full, the comfort of it all dragging at his eyelids. 
Right now, he can think of nowhere he’d rather be than this blanket nest, with his best friend--no, his sister. 
*
Later that night, after walking a very sleepy Amy to her own bed, Cal can’t quite fall asleep. He rolls over, quietly pulls open his bedside drawer to keep it from squeaking (and fuck if he doesn’t smile a little to himself at the habit--what, he’s going to wake up Zara? That’s not exactly a concern anymore) and pushes aside the bed of crumpled tissues and used spiral bound notebooks until he feels smooth leather under his palm.
The book is objectively beautiful. Even Cal, self-proclaimed not-a-literature-guy, can admit that. The title is embossed on the dark brown cover in gold script: The Writings of Ebenezer Finch. Unlike most of Henry’s book collection, the pages are well-worn from use in addition to age. It feels good in Cal’s hands. Solid.  
Cal was the first to brave Henry’s study after he died (who else was there, really?). A lot of things, he put into boxes to deal with emotionally later--photo albums, journals, and the like. He got through both of Henry’s desk drawers and dropped something--a stapler, he thinks it was--and frowned when it landed with a hollow thunk. After some finagling, he managed to find a latch underneath the lip of the desk, and when he pressed it, the false bottom of the drawer popped out.
His hands shook as he reached for it, expecting...he didn’t know what. And what he found was The Writings of Ebenezer Finch.
He didn’t know what to make of it at first. Didn’t touch it for months. By the time he finally cracked it open, he was almost disappointed to find that it was high-concept vampire fantasy--not surprised, given Henry’s line of research, but disappointed. Still, he felt compelled to keep the book a secret, reading it in snatches after Amy had gone to bed, the yellowed pages comforting and familiar beneath the buttery yellow of his bedside lamp.
It only took him a couple of weeks to get through it, that first time. Now, he goes back to it on nights like these, tries to curl up and hide in the words and understand why Henry cared about it so much.
Tonight, despite the comfort found with Amy earlier, his heart hurts with the weight of the day, so he starts on page one.
 In the beginning, there were three.
The greeks called her, the first her, Empusa. They believed her to be the offspring of Hecate, and housewives whispered her cautionary tales to their husbands once their children went to sleep. For Empusa, they warned, was a seductress, and once even the most steadfast of men had fallen into her grip, they would not be free of it until she had consumed them entirely. The second being, they knew by his sons--the striges, the bird-creatures, sinister in intent and biding their time to snatch children from their beds. The third and final being, they knew as Lamia. A secret lover of Zeus, they said. When Hera discovered Zeus’s adultery, she slaughtered the children of Lamia, swiftly and without remorse. As retribution, Lamia, too, took to stealing children and drinking their blood to sustain herself. The blood of babies, according to Lamia, was the sweetest of all.
They were wrong, of course, if only in name, and in some of the details. These things do become muddy with the passage of time, and humans do prefer a story they can understand.
Here is the real story: the first she was called Lamashtu, the second being Gallu, and the third, Lilitu. Humans don’t know the truth of them and never have, but if you are holding this book, you are about to.
This story, like most good stories, begins with love.
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maniatis-mia6-blog · 4 years
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Nature
Hello fellow bloggers! It seems fitting for me to discuss the importance of nature in our lives on the day we see snow in the middle of April. When I woke up and saw my outdoor surroundings covered in snow I was speechless. Barely a week and a half ago we were blessed with 70 degree weather. That’s the beauty of the MidWest! So, the importance of nature. Nature allows us to accomplish many things, mentally and physically. Nature gives us a chance to escape from our crazy society and take some time to breathe. Mentally, spending time to connect with nature can help us clear our thoughts, relax, and de-stress. Physically, time spent with nature can help our health and bodies, by refreshing our systems with clean air or getting some exercise on a run. Especially during this tough time, nature has been a useful outlet for many people. For me, a simple walk on the nearby Cal Sag Trails goes a long way. I enjoy these walks, runs, bike rides, whatever they may be, because I am outdoors, breathing fresh air, and staying active, without the nagging of stressful thinking. I hope everyone is staying happy, healthy, and active!
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brendansise-blog · 4 years
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A Change in the Weather
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I have been able to do a lot more since my last post. One fun thing we did today was have a large zoom meeting with all of our family friends to celebrate my dad’s birthday. It was great to see some of the people I have not seen since even before the quarantine began. My mom ordered cupcakes and had them sent to all of their houses so that we could eat them together over face-time. We spent most of the time putting in bad pictures of my dad as backgrounds and just catching up. We are all in the same position right now, so it is difficult to strike up new and interesting conversations out of the blue. I think one positive thing that this quarantine has given us is the ability to engage in different and unique forms of interaction. The other day, we took a trip to my mom’s preschool- which is shut down- to help clean and do some other work. It is hard to see my mom so stressed out because running a small business at this time is almost impossible. It really makes you realize how many different people you have to rely on all the time, and the fact that when society is shut down- so are some people. Aside from the work, it was nice to get a change of scenery without being worried about catching or spreading the virus.
I remember I said in an earlier post how much of a difference the weather can make. We have had good weather the past few days, so I took advantage of this and went on a bike ride. Going down the Cal Sag trail, it was fun to be back on my bike again and get a breathe of fresh air despite the smell of the river. I did a good job of keeping my distance between other people on the trail, but there were a lot of people. I think one positive is that this quarantine is actually forcing more people, like myself, to exercise more. Maybe some people who do not catch the virus will come out of this even healthier. How Ironic! I also spent some time flying my drone outside and getting some good photography of some of the trees coming into bloom and the sunrise/sunset. Maybe the weather turning around is a sign that our situation will turn around as well!
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forlornmelody · 5 years
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Traitor, Martyr, Spy Chapter 3 -- So Far, So Close
Rating: Explicit (this chapter has smut)
Ship: Miranda Lawson x Femshep
AO3 Link: Here
Summary: The Reapers are finally here, and Miranda would do anything to help Shepard, but she has far more personal things to worry about.
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The moment Arcturus Station blows up, Miranda knows about it. She has contacts spread throughout the galaxy, near every relay--in case someone, or in this case something shows up to threaten those she loves. Miranda calculates how long it’ll take the Reapers to reach Earth, and Elysium, where Oriana’s family is hiding. Not long. Always Miranda has stayed calm even in the worst circumstances--even when she was certain she was walking into a suicide mission. Any moment she dared to doubt herself, she only proved her father right. But now Miranda feels nearly powerless to protect her loved ones.
What can she do against a thousand-foot-tall god? What can anyone do? Miranda is used to human targets, or at least, smaller targets. How does one fool a reaper? How does one foil their destruction? It’s selfish. It’s not what Artemis or Oriana would want, but Miranda focuses her limited resources on keeping them safe. She sabotages Cerberus shuttles heading toward Mars. While Miranda can’t take care of all of them, she can stop a few. Hopefully it’s enough. Artemis has been through worse, Miranda. Get a hold of yourself.
Her fingers rattle her coffee mug when she tries to take a drink. The cup slips from her hand and falls to the floor, but nothing spills out. Apparently, she forgot to refill it the last time she took a drink. How long has it been since she slept? Since she ate?  Miranda’s kitchen stands empty, save for a box of protein bars. Munching on one, she sends in orders to move Ori and her parents to a new home. It’s a risk, but so is leaving them one system closer to the invasion.
Hours later, and the Normandy leaves Mars safe and sound--though Miranda discovers a med evac request on enroute to the Citadel. Her heart throbs in her chest as she skims the request for names, and sags with relief when she sees Ashley Williams name there instead of Artemis Shepard. Nausea fills her stomach as she looks over Doctor Chawkwa’s preliminary report. She just saw Ashley a few months ago. Ashley was alive, and... mostly well. Likely just as stressed over Shepard’s trial as Miranda was. And now she has a concussion, internal bleeding, and likely more. Despite their past, despite Ashley’s past with Shepard, Miranda can’t help but feel a loss. Artemis must be reeling. Miranda finds herself debating the morality of hacking into Artemis’s omni-tool to check her vital signs.
Ori would have a fit.
I need you to trust me. Trust that I’m just as capable as you of taking care of myself. Trust that I can protect myself. I’m 19 years old for crying out loud!
Oh, to be that young and brave. Miranda envies her all the time, despite being largely responsible for her normal life. But her sister is right. She needs to trust them both. Artemis can take care of herself. So can Oriana.
But it wouldn’t hurt to check up on her sister.
Miranda sips a fresh cup of coffee and logs into the security feeds of her sister’s home. Or, at least, she tries to. The screens are all black, and when she checks the logs, she finds an error message. Taking a deep breath, she contacts an old associate that she had moved in across the hall. Cal always responded within five minutes--Miranda had timed him. She waits 10 minutes before she allows herself to panic.
It’s probably nothing.
Ten minutes pass and nothing is exactly the response Miranda receives. She calls again. And again, without waiting. Miranda calls her other contact, and nothing. She checks the school Ori attends, and damn them--they don’t keep attendance records. Taking a shuttle to the Citadel, Miranda checks the security logs for the classes Ori should have been in the past few days. Nothing. The university Ori attends stretches nearly over an entire city. There isn’t time for Miranda to search it on her own.
Shepard would help. But Shepard has her own problems to deal with. An ex in critical condition in the hospital, a war to fight--there’s even reports that Shepard has more favors to do before she can get Turian support. As much as Shepard would want to help--she won’t be able to jaunt across the galaxy--and she likely would try. Miranda can’t ask her to sacrifice the war effort.
But Miranda can pay her a visit. If she can hardly focus because of their time apart, how must Artemis feel? While Miranda could say she’s visiting Shepard because she knows it’ll boost her morale--she must admit it’s for more...selfish reasons. As the shuttle lands, Miranda’s mind and body thrum as if her lover sits in the seat next to her. To hold Artemis close, wind her fingers through her silken hair, inspect every mark the war and Cerberus drones have left behind--
Her mind spins so quickly that when Miranda does finally spot her, walking through the docking security, she almost doesn’t recognize her. The Artemis in Miranda’s mind is happy, full of vigor, a self-satisfied smirk on her face not unlike the one she wears when she invites Miranda to bed. This Artemis has dark bags under her eyes like she hasn’t slept since Earth, and skin that hasn’t seen the sun in weeks.
“Miranda?” Artemis says her name softly from behind her, making Miranda jump inside her skin. She had just sent that message an hour ago. Hardly enough time for Shepard to make it here, unless this was her first stop. Her voice is thick and her eyes sluggish as she looks Miranda over like she’s stuck in the same recurring dream.
“Shepard!” Coyness has always been Miranda’s default with romantic partners, but then before, she’d never seen the same person twice. She must sound like a lovesick puppy right about now. “It’s so good to finally see you.” Miranda steps closer, close enough to touch.
Artemis steps back, rubbing her shoulder. “You too, Miranda.”
Not the reunion she dreamed of, but Miranda will take whatever she’s offered. She starts walking down the corridor, Artemis picking up speed to walk with her. They never hold hands but their fingers brush against each other as they talk.
“Glad to see they let you out.” Miranda passes it off like a joke.
“Had to. Who else would fight their goddamn war?”
They talk about Earth, and Artemis’s eyes go distant as she recalls all the lives she saw snuffed out. Artemis shakes the fog out of her brain, glancing back at her. “What about you? Why are you here?” She looks worried.
Miranda stops in an alcove away from the security cameras’ prying eyes. “I know what I’m doing, Shepard.” Sure, the Citadel seems like one of the worst places a former Cerberus operative should linger, but Miranda has made a career of hiding in plain sight. Not to mention Kai Leng and his ilk will have a harder time taking her out here, and she won’t go quietly. The Illusive Man would never let them heighten security here. Too many wasted opportunities.
Artemis’s eyes widen, realizing how she must sound. “I know. Sorry. I... I just have a lot on my plate.”
“When don’t you?” Miranda dares to reach over and squeeze her hand, and goosebumps race up Artemis’s arms. “I know you have a plan.”
Squeezing her hands, Shepard nods, but she doesn’t elaborate much. Is she keeping it from her on purpose? Have they really been apart that long?
“Am I part of your plan?”
Artemis squeezes her hand fiercely. “Always!”
Miranda presses a finger against her lips. “Shh. You don’t want the whole docking bay hearing us, do you?”
Artemis eyes her like a desert traveler who’s just discovered an oasis. Her words crack as they fall from her mouth. “I want you in my life, Miranda.” She kisses Miranda’s finger as if to illustrate her point, squeezing her wrist with her other hand for good measure.
“You sure?” Miranda leans closer, slipping her free hand around Shepard’s waist. “This is your chance to back out.” She doesn’t hold on, meaning every one of her words, as much as she doesn’t want to. She won’t grip onto people like her father did.
Pulling her against her chest, Artemis answers her with a kiss. Their lips crash against one another, their hands tangled in each other’s hair. Who cares about being discreet? There’s a war on, and who knows if Miranda will ever see Artemis again. It pains her to think about it--she even holds Shepard a little tighter at the thought--but she must be realistic. Accept all possibilities, no matter how much they hurt. Pressing Shepard against the glass wall, she trails her hands down her body, feeling for when she flinches. And yes, she does more than once, but more often her breath catches in her throat, and she tightens her grip. Just when Miranda’s about to lose her carefully held control, Artemis parts for air.
“Don’t be stranger, Miranda.” Artemis tells her with a grin, her lips bruised, and her breath ragged.
“I don’t want to be, Shepard. Believe me, I want to stay close.” She steps back. “It’s my sister. Something’s happened.” Usually Miranda’s so eloquent--something drilled into her by her father, but now she stumbles over her words as she explains. “I just know my father’s involved.”
“What do you need me to do?” She asks without hesitation, reaching her hand as if to whisk her away from all this.
Miranda can so easily imagine Shepard charging into Oriana’s home--her campus, even, gun in hand-finger on the trigger. As much as Miranda wants her to help--she knows Artemis isn’t one for cloak and dagger--she’ll only complicate things. And she has enough to deal with already. “I’ll be fine.”
Artemis looks unconvinced. “Okay.” She holds her arm, as if punched. “I understand.”
Miranda reaches over, squeezing Artemis’s hands together. “I was tempted to break in and see you.”
Quirking her head, Artemis scrutinizes her expression. “Wait. You didn’t.”
Unable to help her grin, Miranda replies. “Define ‘do.’”
Artemis shakes her head. “There’s no way you would’ve made it through security.” Then her voice drops low. “You’re a wanted woman, Miranda.”
Miranda lets a hand wander past Artemis’s lower back, never quite squeezing, but enough to feel that unbearably toned arse of hers. Mm. Maybe not as toned as it used to be. “I’m well, aware.”
Her breath quickens as her lips part. “When--?”
She can still feel the Vancouver rain soaking her skin. Miranda leans her forehead against hers, almost whispering. “The day they put you in cuffs.” And now every centimeter of space between them is too much--not even in a sexual way. It’s just been so long--Miranda needs to feel her Artemis close against her so she doesn’t get pulled from her orbit.
“Jesus. You have a death wish.” Her eyes slip closed as Miranda brushes her nose against hers.
“Mm. Death isn’t what I want right now.” Artemis’s skin warms against Miranda’s fingertips.
“Miranda,” she sputters, “Out here? Really? Aren’t we a little exposed?”
“The Citadel’s actually one of the safest places. For now.”
“I’m still not sure meeting out here where everyone can see is a good idea.” Her lips are still dark from when Miranda ravaged them, even as she looks away.
Miranda draws her attention back with her finger hooked under her chin. “Is it me you’re worried about?” She lets her voice drop low. “Or are you worried about getting caught with your pants down?”
Artemis flushes a helpless smile. “Maybe a bit of both. Do you have a place in mind?”
“Follow me.”
“Always.”
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 They wind up in an office closed for remodeling, donning utility uniform costumes from some forgotten holiday. Once they’re inside a room away from the dust, Miranda pushes Artemis down into a rolling chair, kicking it back until it bumps against the desk. “God, that uniform looks awful on you.”
“Mm. That sounds like a problem.” Artemis looks up at her with the dim lights dancing in her eyes. “What are you going to do about it?”
“I can think of a few things.” Miranda straddles her lap, guiding Artemis’s fingers to each button on her jumper. She undoes them meticulously, one by one, letting her knuckles drag down the curves of Miranda’s chest, her lips parted ever so slightly. When Artemis’s breath quickens, Miranda feels it against her skin, and her lover grins as she notices the goosebumps dotting her breasts.
As she reaches the button sitting above Miranda’s crotch, Artemis digs her knuckles extra hard until her breath catches. She licks her own lips, slipping her hands around to the back of Miranda’s head, pulling her into a kiss. “I’ve missed you so much, Miranda,” she whispers into her lips after they’ve broken for air.
“I’ve missed you, too.” It surprises her to say it, but it’s true. Miranda undoes her carefully pinned bun, weaving her hands into her silken chocolate tresses.
“You could’ve had anyone. Anyone.” Artemis looks up at her with wonder as she unhooks her bra. “Why wait for me?”
“You’re different.” Maybe she says it too quickly, swallowing as Artemis retraces the skin laid bare. Why? She knows Miranda’s body’s immune to the ravages of space and time. Nothing has changed.
Ah. There it is. Under Artemis’s fierce Amazon exterior lies her true feelings--eyes that dart and fingers that tremble. Her mouth moves, but no words spill out, but Miranda can see it written all over her face. “Am I?”
Miranda kisses her nose. “You are the bravest person I’ve ever known.” Her lips graze her left cheek. “You have the whole galaxy resting on your shoulders.” Her right ear. “And yet you put everything on hold to show me how much you missed me.” Her right neck, drinking in her moan. Ah yes. Artemis is sensitive there. “And you gave me a chance when you had every reason to hate me.”
Artemis’s eyes don’t open when she answers. “I never hated you.” Another moan slips out when Miranda’s teeth graze her skin. “I hated Cerberus.” Her voice comes out jagged.
“I worked for Cerberus.” Miranda debates where to go from here. She could scoot Artemis to the edge of the chair, and really take her time with her, but time is not a luxury they have. Not in a construction zone with fake uniforms.
“So did I.”
Miranda answers her with a kiss, slowly grinding her pelvis against hers. Maybe it’s a little cliché or maybe she’s watched too many porn vids while Artemis was in prison, but she can’t help her curiosity. It feels nicer than either of them would expect. “Mm.”
“Y-yeah.” Artemis replies, exploring her mouth with her tongue as they pick up speed. Miranda feels a moan slip out of her mouth as her girlfriend pulls her closer and tighter. She manages to drown her moans into her shoulder until they both still.
Stretching her arms, Miranda gulps when Artemis pulls her back. “I’m not done with you yet,” she murmurs into Miranda’s ears, brushing her lips there until she shivers and swallows. Artemis trails one set of fingers down between Miranda’s breasts, while the other cups her ass, squeezing when she starts to squirm. “You’re--” she almost says beautiful, Miranda can see it on her lips, but she knows better--knows that’s a loaded word with her, even during sex. Her eyes widen when she can’t find a better word, and her mouth twists and turns without a sound falling out.
“Shh.” Miranda captures her mouth with her own, letting their touch speak for them. Mirroring Artemis’s fingers with her own, she finds her so exquisitely wet it makes her mouth water.
“Miranda, I--” she can’t finish her sentence, not like this, not when Miranda’s fingers are dancing across her clit. “Fuck,” she says helplessly, her eyes squeezing shut and her mouth falling open. A moan punctuates her sentence as her hips lift them both above the seat of the chair.
Putting her feet on the floor for balance, Miranda holds Artemis in place with her hand on the back of the chair. “I love it when you’re like this.” Her finger slips inside her cunt like melted butter, and Artemis’s head tips back. Warmth rushes over Miranda as she feels Artemis pulsing around her fingers.
Her chair rolls back and forth to the rhythm of her hips. Her eyes open just enough. “I love you too.”
Miranda’s jaw drops. “Excuse me?”
Still breathlessly in bliss, it takes Artemis a moment to register the shock on her girlfriend’s face. She licks her lips. “Too soon?” Artemis tries to smile sheepishly, but her eyebrows furrow with worry.
It’s then Miranda remembers where her fingers are. “You love me?”
Artemis shudders as she pulls out. “Nn. Y-yeah.” She sobers quickly, sitting up. “Miranda, I….”
Bloody hell, Miranda. You’re ruining everything. “Sorry,” is the only thing she can think to say. It’s not what she wants to say.
“It’s okay. You don’t have to say anything,” Artemis says abruptly. She stares pointedly at the lone freckle on her right shoulder. Her father always hated that freckle. Said it was skin damage. Her skin wasn’t supposed to get damaged. Perhaps that’s why he replaced her with Ori.
“I’m not very good at this.” Miranda mumbles. She’s shaking. Why is she shaking?
Artemis coughs. “Liar. You are amazing at sex. Your pillow talk, though.” She smirks, though her eyes still search her face.
“Har, har.” Miranda does the only thing that makes sense in this moment--pinning Artemis back into the chair with a searing kiss. “It’s not you.”
“Miranda…”
“I mean it. And I want to mean it when I say it.” Another kiss aimed at her throat. “Not just return the words to make someone feel better.”
“I get it.” She doesn’t. But that doesn’t stop her from reciprocating Miranda’s touch. Artemis bites her neck to catch her attention, and Miranda can’t help her ragged gasp.
Her free hand just barely grazes the inside of Miranda’s thigh, never quite touching where she wants. “Arti--”
This time Artemis’s grin is real. “Mm?” She hums into her skin, rubbing deeper into her skin, but never touching her center.
“Goddamnit, Artemis.”
“Shh. Let me take care of you for once.” Artemis finally reaches Miranda’s clit, circling and rubbing with a featherlight touch. This time, Miranda has no reply, clinging to Artemis as her body shudders in ecstasy. The room around them vanishes--she can’t even feel the rub of her uniform anymore. It’s just her and Artemis--the salt of their sweat, and the sound of their heavy breathing mixed with the slick of her fingertips against her skin. For once, she can forget the war, and her worries, and maybe, just maybe, this is what love feels like.
Telling Artemis she loves her is a whole different story. “Thank you,” Miranda whispers breathlessly.
“Any time.” Artemis licks her fingers cheekily, stretching once Miranda pulls off her.
“I don’t want to leave.” Miranda buttons up her utility uniform, though she can’t take her eyes off her, so she keeps missing a hole, or three.
“Me either.” Artemis ignores her suit for now, focusing on putting up her hair. Her lips are still bruised from when Miranda kissed her last. “You sure we can’t stay a little longer?” The skin around her throat still flushes with heat.
“It’s not wise for me to stay in one place too long.”
Her skin cools as she sobers. “The Illusive Man. Is he after you?”
Miranda nods, telling her about her run-in with Kai Leng. Artemis’s brows furrow as she listens.
“Sounds final.” She traces her finger down Miranda’s cheek, looking for any signs of distress, scars, or bruises. Miranda’s stupidly perfect body hides it all. Just like it did when her father--
“It nearly was.” She can’t allow herself to think about him right now. She can’t break down now, especially not in front of Artemis. “He doesn’t take rejection well.”
Artemis snorts, gingerly poking her skin in what’s likely a bruise from Mars. “No, he doesn’t.” She glances back at Miranda, narrowing her eyes. “How are you sure it’s not him going after Oriana?”
“I won’t know anything until I track down some leads.”
“Here?”
“Hey. I’m owed a few favors.”
Artemis matches her grin, only to groan when her omni-tool chimes at her. She sighs as she pulls back. “I gotta get going. Be careful, okay?”
Miranda leans forward, pecking her cheek. “No promises.”
Taking a few steps towards the elevator, Shepard murmurs. “EDI says next time you want to tap into the Normandy’s systems, just ask nicely.”
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@spegetty asked “ hey could you use the prompt “There’s no future for me without you.” for marecal PLeASe “ and OFC I SAID YES so please enjoy and send me more Red Queen prompts!
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If I had it my way, I wouldn’t be here right now.
I hate these endless council sessions. They’ve become hunting grounds, each side out for the others blood. Its pointless. Dredging up past grievances does nothing to further anyone’s cause; it only adds fuel to the fire.
The weight of Silver gazes are nearly as oppressive as Silent Stone. They refuse to accept that Red blooded people sit at the same table they do, that our decisions have sway with the king. I sit straighter in my seat, meeting each House’s stare in turn. I refuse to let my unease show.
I watch the clock, its hands ticking merrily away. Two minutes until the battle begins.
“Why am I not surprised that his Majesty and House Samos are late yet again?”
I glance up at Farley, grateful for her arrival. The lack of Reds in the gathering hall had every one of my nerves on end. Farley and I are the only Red-blooded representatives that have a permanent seat at the negotiations table. The Scarlet Guard uniform she wears dares the king’s council to forget who sits among them.
“Probably because this happens every time.”
As soon as I’ve finished speaking, the arched wooden doors at the end of the room swing open, allowing Evangeline Samos to stride in. The sharp smile she cuts the Silver side of the table is more than enough to make them squirm. The armor she’s clothed herself in is as magnificent as it is deadly. Metallic scales flash across her torso as she stalks for me, giving a sly wave.
“Hello Mare,” she drawls, sliding into the empty seat beside me.
“You certainly enjoy making grand entrances, don’t you?” Although our alliance is uneasy, I’m glad it’s her next to me instead of a member of any other House. Evangeline I can tolerate for a little while at least.
A low, innocent laugh as she brushes her silver hair off her shoulder. “You know me so well.”
“Where’s the rest of your House?”
She smiles, letting everyone wait for her answer. Flicking her eyes around the table she says, “Father sends his regrets, but he won’t be able to attend. You’re stuck with little old me.” She shrugs, reclining with feline grace.
“I can’t say that upsets me.”
Attention snaps to the head of the table. Tiberias has managed to sneak in without anyone noticing. I curse myself for letting him catch me off guard.
Anabel Lerolan is a step behind her grandson, surveying those assembled with predatory intent. Tiberias’ black hair is shaggy and unkempt as if he couldn’t be bothered to comb it. The fitted suit he wears, black with red trim around the cuffs, does little to offset the shadows lingering under his eyes. I wonder if he’s been sleeping well.
Not that I care, I remind myself sharply.
The others fall over themselves, standing and offering a greeting to their king. Everyone except Farley and I, that is. We remain seated, a decision that Anabel notes with a glare.
“Now then, let’s get this underway, shall we?” Tiberias gives a tight smile before taking his seat. My eyes dip to where the top button of his shirt is undone, revealing a sliver of the toned chest I know lies beneath. Once, I was free to run my fingertips over his warm skin whenever I pleased. The memory of knobby white scars and hard muscle makes my hands tingle.
Farley elbows my side, giving me a hard look. I tear my eyes away from the king and pull my thoughts back to this room. I brace myself for another endless day filled with talks of taxes and basic human rights for Reds- something that should already be accepted.
My head fills with static as soon as Anabel begins reading through the day’s agenda. Usually I can focus enough to participate, but today I’m lost in the way Tiberias’ mouth curves when he speaks. I don’t tune back into the conversation until Farley slams her hand on the table.
“Our goal isn’t to overthrow the entire Silver monarchy.” I stifle a cough at the boldfaced lie. She cuts a glare at me before continuing, “We want Reds and Silvers to live peacefully as equals. We’ve already seen it work in Piedmont-“
The hall erupts as everyone speaks at once. My gaze flicks to where Cal- no, Tiberias- sits at the head of the long, narrow table. His eyes are locked on me, waiting for my reaction. Instinct demands I look anywhere but at him. I do the opposite, standing my ground until he eventually breaks the stare.
One voice rises above the others, commanding attention. “I think I’ve found a solution that suits all our interests,” the king says, rising from his seat. The noise Evangeline makes informs me that Tiberias is speaking directly at me, whether he realizes it or not.
“I always keep the needs of my people close to my heart.” This time, I don’t hold in my noise of disgust. Farley nods in agreement. Tiberias continues as if he hasn’t heard me. “Which is why I’ve decided that, effective immediately, my betrothal to Evangeline will end immediately.”
“Finally,” Evangeline mutters, grinning wickedly. No one spares her a glance; they all know how much she loathed the decision. Her heart lies elsewhere, anyway. For perhaps the first time, I truly envy the magnetron. With any luck, she may be able to follow her wishes and be with the one she loves.
Anabel’s bronze eyes flash with fury. Clearly, she was not included in his plotting. “And whom, pray tell, do you suggest you wed?”
Dread fills my stomach. I already know what he’ll say, but I pray he has the good sense not to. My pulse hammers as Tiberias looks around the room, the picture of confidence. He meets everyone’s eyes—except mine.
“Mare will be my queen.”
The world falls out from under my feet.
No one says a single word, not even his wicked grandmother. They must think it’s some sick joke. I think it is too.
A long time ago, I wouldn’t have hesitated to agree. Back when I was foolish and blind, nothing but a lovesick puppy. I would have followed Cal to the ends of the earth if he’d asked.
But that was then.  This is now.
I hone the sparks of my anger into a single bolt, internally directing it at him. Slowly, I turn to him, eyes blazing. He fidgets nervously with the thin metal bracelet at his wrist. I let the uneasy quiet seep into his bones before murmuring, “You want to repeat that, Calore?”
He clears his throat, squirming like an ant under my magnifying glass. “It would be a much better match politically-“
The dagger leaves my hand faster than anyone can process, slicing along his cheekbone. Tiberias’ startled cry echoes in the silent room, hand jerking to the shallow wound. Electricity crackles on my skin as the royal guard rushes me.
They are instantly stopped by the hand their king holds up. “Wait.”
My eyes track the thin line of silver trailing down his jaw. It drips onto the table, nearly in sync with my pulse. I absently remember a time years ago, when Kilorn fell and cut his chin open on a stone by the river. He’d bled buckets, and I had panicked. Don’t worry, he’d told me. Facial wounds bleed a lot.
“Mare?”
Tiberias’ confused whisper jerks me from the memory. My chair scrapes against the white marble as I push back from the table. “How’s that for politics?”
Anabel’s demands for my head follow me out of the room and into the hall beyond. My abrupt departure seems to have pierced her shock.
How dare he?
A political match. That’s what he called a potential marriage between us, in front of all those people. Though he cast me aside months ago, the pain of this most recent betrayal festers like an infected wound. How he has the audacity to act like I mean absolutely nothing to him, I have no idea.
And to completely blindside me with the announcement. He hadn’t even posed it as a question; he just assumed I’d agree. Assumed I was still young and naïve.
He was dead wrong.
I quicken my pace as footsteps echo behind me. “Mare, wait! Please, let me speak.”
I whirl around, nearly causing him to crash into me. “I have no interest in anything you have to say,” I spit out, lip curling. “You have no right to speak to me anymore, Tiberias.”
“I thought it’s what you would have wanted-“
“So you thought it would be perfectly okay to decide my entire life for me?” My voice rises, along with my emotions. “Who gave you the damned right? In what world did you ever think that I would agree to a betrothal to you without ever discussing it? After all I’ve suffered, everything I’ve endured, why would I want that choice ripped from my hands?”
His face sags. “There was a time you would’ve leapt for joy if I proposed.”
“We said never again, Tiberias. That night was to be the last of it.” My stomach flips as the memory of that stolen night comes flooding back. I do my best to reign in my temper, steadying my voice. “You’re just a spoiled child and I’m the shiny toy you just can’t live without.”
He flinches, my insult cutting deep. “That’s not true,” he whispers, but the pain etched in the lines of his face says otherwise. “I love you.”
My hands tremble as I curl them into fists so tight my knuckles turn white. “Liar. I gave you a choice. Me or the crown. I think you’ve made your decision quite clear. It’s as simple as that.”
“It’s not that simple, can’t you see?” The temperature rises a few degrees as he draws nearer, tears pricking his eyes. I almost believe they’re real. “There’s no future for me without you.”
The part of me that is still foolishly in love with him strains towards those words, lapping them up like honey. The wiser part of me knows that Calore men have an outstanding track record for hurting the ones they claim to love.
I should walk away. But I am desperate for answers, if only so I can finally let this chapter of my life turn to ash. My resolve weakens, tears blurring my vision. I drop my gaze to the floor, praying he won’t notice.
“Then how could you cast what we have aside so easily?”
Tiberias’ toes edge into my line of sight. “Why did you make me choose, Mare?” When he reaches up to brush his thumb over my jaw, I don’t stop him. I cherish the affection even though I know I should push him away. “Why can’t I have both?”
My eyes rise to the silver streak on his cheek. The blood that divides us. The blood of nobles.
“That’s why,” I whisper, smiling sadly. “No one would ever accept a Red queen and a Silver king. The Scarlet Guard fights for equality, but I think we both know that won’t ever happen- not completely. You could call me your queen, but all it would ever be is a title. I’d never be your true equal. And… I can’t keep living a lie. I won’t waste my entire life pretending to be happy when I’m not.”
Cal’s lip trembles, and I know he’s fighting to keep himself from falling apart. I draw a wavering breath and continue, “So you can’t have both. You have to choose- and whatever you decide will be final. I won’t put myself through this again.”
“And what if I can’t decide?”
Any hope I have is lost. I was a fool to think he still cared for me at all. “Then I’ll decide for you.” He grabs my wrist before I can turn away, a question in his eyes. My breath catches in my throat.
His lips meet mine in a feverous, needy kiss. I fist my hands in the black silk of his shirt, desperate for more. I melt against him, the curves of our bodies fitting together perfectly.
The sweep of his tongue over mine tells me he truly does still love me and he’ll never leave. His fingers digging into the flesh of my hips tell me he never wants to be apart again. The saltwater on my cheeks tells him I never want him to let me go. I thread my fingers in his hair, tugging him closer, closer, closer. For a moment, I lose myself in him. I can imagine that it’s just the two of us and that’s all there will ever be. No war, no blood feud, no one to come between us.
Then the brush of metal against my brow mocks me, jarring me back to reality. It reminds me why I cannot give myself to him. We can never exist in tandem, his crown and I. Our chests heave as I break the kiss, lips tingling. I step from his embrace, watching his hands curl around my ghost. His bronze eyes shimmer with hurt.
“Have you decided?”
The brittle silence fills the space with dread. Each second he doesn’t speak drives another nail into what’s left of my heart. His mouth gapes open, then closes again. I should have known this was coming.
“Give me until tomorrow to think.” His fingers brush my arm. “I need to sort out my thoughts-“
“Save it.” I shove him away, letting the sparks gathering in my palms burn against his chest. Furious with both him and myself, I quickly put as much distance between us as I can.
A thin blue line of flame stretches across the hall, halting me in my tracks. My lightning rises in response to the challenge. “Cal.”
“Always one for drama.” I want to kiss that damned smirk in his voice away. “Can you at least wait to storm off until I’ve finished talking?”
“Fine.” I cross my arms but refuse to look at him.
“What I was going to say,” he starts quietly, extinguishing the flame now that he’s confident I won’t flee, “was that I need time to decide how to tell my council that I want to step down.”
I glance back at him. “Step down?”
Tiberias gently grasps my hand, tugging until I face him fully. “It’s always been you, Mare. I was a fool to let you slip away. Now I know that I can’t live without you. Since you left, I can’t sleep, I barely eat. I wake up reaching for you every morning. When I think about the future, you’re always there.”
“And your crown?”
With light, careful fingers, he takes it from his head and admires the intricate handiwork. It is beautiful, not even I can deny that. Thin ropes of shimmering copper and strong iron twist over each other to form a thick woven band. Much more ornate than the raw iron one he wore when he was first crowned. His lips twitch in the faintest of smiles before he flicks his wrist, igniting a white-hot flame. The crown hisses and pops, turning a searing red.
“What are you doing?” I whisper, watching molten beads of metal drip to the floor, where they sizzle against the plush carpet like eggs in a frying pan.
“It’s just a useless hunk of metal.” He shrugs. “I’d rather have you.”
My mind is a whirlwind. I don’t know what to think. I’ve waited forever to hear him say those exact words, played the scenario out a million times in my head. I’d fold into his arms, sobbing because I was finally enough, he chose me, he chose me, he chose me. I’d kiss him again and again, determined to never let him slip away.
It hits me then. I’ve been using Cal’s betrayal as an excuse to cover up what I know is the truth. I cannot continue to pretend that it was solely his choice that keeps us apart. He alone cannot bear the blame.
“I can’t.”
“What do you mean you can’t?” Hurt and confusion war in Cal’s beautiful face. The face that haunted my dreams for months, just out of reach. My chest feels hollow.
“I can’t do this- us.” I allow myself the small comfort of touching three fingers to the back of his hand. For once, he is cold. “Who will rule if you step down, Cal? Another Silver noble will step up to take your place and we’ll be right back where we started. Or worse, we’ll lose what little progress we’ve made. We can’t be together, no matter how much we want to be.”
He shakes his head, desperately clasping my hand. “No. Please, no. We can figure it out. I don’t have to do it right away, we can dissolve the monarchy and put a real government in place-“
“That could take years. Time we don’t have. My people are suffering- I have to do something tangible to help.” Gently, I remove my hand from his vicelike grip.
“And we aren’t right for each other. We both may burn, but for different reasons. Fire and lighting are made to destroy. They cannot coexist in a peaceful world.” With every word, I shatter a bit more. As much as I want to engulf myself in the warmth of his arms, I know it’s the wrong choice.
I almost lose my nerve when his Majesty, King Tiberias Calore VII, rightful Flame of the North, falls to his knees, tangles his fingers in my pants and begs. “Mare, please. I love you. I’m willing to give up everything I was meant for, turn my life around for you.”
I shake my head, tears splashing to the carpet. I know that there is no coming back from this. Once I walk away, I turn the page on this chapter of my life. I turn my back on the truest love anyone has ever been privileged to receive. If I do this, I leave Cal behind forever.
“Get up, Tiberias. Kings don’t kneel.”
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