#I apologize if I get something wrong!

[inkskinned]

it mattered because when my brother asked me what if this is the happiest you'll ever be? the best you'll ever get? the thing i felt was fear, not peace. everybody thought you were so perfect for me. even i thought you were "helping me grow". i had to challenge every internal clock. make myself more thoughtful, more kind, more beautiful.

i told my therapist it was good because i like the changes i made and there's something so strong about saying i did that. the problem is that i can like the difference all i want, but i changed for you. something akin to getting your name tattooed, all my progress is stamped with fuck you.

it was the happiest i'd ever been and also the best i'd ever gotten. i would still get in the car and think what the fuck just happened.

#warm up #writeblr #i spent a lot of time picturing our future #how funny to think: in each version of our future #i was never myself #i was someone smarter kinder braver #better adept. #who could navigate the way you shouted and got angry at small things and never fucking believed the best of me #i would never be needy and you'd never get tired of me #people usually talk about how we picture people as being “fixable”. but i assumed i was the problem. my idyllic picture wasn't of you. #it was a version of me that wasn't ill. that needed no extra help. that could be your wife and happy #the fact i wasn't happy was because there is something so wrong inside me. it's always been that way. i convinced myself: #if i stay i can change. if i stay i can make it worth it. i can apologize and fix this. and make us both okay. #for the last year i've been thinking about how you blamed our whole breakup on me. how it was my fault for whatever thing. #and i agreed with you. because of course i did. you'd trained me to believe everything was my fault . that you wanted to love me and i made #it far too hard. that i was always finding ways to ''set you off'. #a few days ago while i was doing something else #i realized that while i was in crisis you told me to fuck off and find someone else to get help. and you never fucking apologized . #you said i made you do that because i wasn't being sensible. i had been crying too hard to speak clearly. #you said: you're doing this to manipulate me. #you forgave yourself for that. i had to forgive you without apology. you said you were right to react that way. and then you were SO #SO annoyed. any time i said: i feel like you aren't nice to me. it is hard to trust that you love me. #i don't think about you that much anymore. but these days when i do: all i can think is that im not sure u ever really understood kindness #you were the cruelest to the people closest to you. and most of the time. that meant it fell to me.

[thebroccolination]

THE EX-MORNING SERIES CONCEPT

By now I think many people have heard that KristSingto’s upcoming series is an original script that was written for them. What we also have confirmed is that it was written about them.

[source]

KRIST: This series was written by P'Backaof and directed by P'Lit where they created this script from the start deliberately for the two of us and they got information for the characters etc. from KristSingto directly. In the series, the name for P'Sing is Tamtawan, and my name is Phatapi. And Tamtawan Tamtawan and Phatapi are KristSingto themselves.

INTERVIEWER: Does that mean you play yourself?

KRIST: [laughing] Yes, we act as ourselves, so it's not difficult at all.

Today, Aof elaborated on his part on Twitter:

[source: @backaof]

[translation: @_beinglistener]

And Jojo added:

[source: @jojotichakorn]

[translation: @_beinglistener]

So, two gay men are the leading creative minds behind KristSingto’s comeback series. Time to study up on your KristSingto history, kids. \:D/

Long live sanctioned RPF. 🎉

#krist perawat #singto prachaya #kristsingto #the ex morning #i’ve already seen the same tired ‘guess rent was due’ about krist and #i see on twitter when people link my thread about krist to people still insisting he’s homophobic #man’s rich #he works constantly #he even said it’s something he regrets now that his grandmother who raised him passed away #he worked so much he didn’t have as much time for his family—who he helps support #he is quite literally considered bl royalty #he has more queer people in his circle than straight #waa (gay) is his mentor #aof (gay) wrote this series and jojo (gay) thought up the concept so even professionally he's supported by queer people #you don’t have to like him #and you don’t have to admit to sending death threats to a stranger who doesn’t speak your language based on rumors you didn’t verify #just y’know #admit quietly to yourself alone in your head that you were wrong and you caused harm to a person who didn’t deserve it #plenty of actors use bl as a stepping stone to bigger jobs #he’s not one of them #he wanted to do bl for years but gmmtv told him he could only work with singto #so literally the only reason kit didn’t do bl until BMF was scheduling issues because singto wanted to study abroad #and singto couldn’t get a fixed date for it and then the pandemic messed with his plans even more #i’m glad to see more and more people are understanding who krist is recently #and even in the series they made pathapi’s controversy an impulsive act of anger #krist has said he used to struggle with being hotheaded #and one of his apologies for the igs was even something like ‘i acted without thinking of how it would look out of context’ #he just wanted people to stop harassing him for his sexuality but the context isn’t in the igs #anyway my go-to when i’m too tired to talk about this is always this #if he had ever been homophobic thai people would be the ones leading the charge against him…but it’s interfans

[thehappiestgolucky]

It's hard being a messenger, every once in a while you gotta rest.

So, after a while I finally finished part 1 of the Spearmaster Collection: The Eepies!

Credits are under the cut! If I got a credit wrong please let me know. Also, don't see your Spears? Worry not, its logged for a different part of the Spearmaster Collection (otherwise I'd have about 80 odd spears to draw and my hands would cry and i wanted to let everyone's spear get more attention in the drawing :] )

In no particular order: @i-likegamesbut-cant-playthem, @psystirene, @azrielfiend, @kakajoju, @emmetofthestars, @whippiekippy, @ardienothesieno, @sillycryptid, @pookapufferfish, @mothlight-hours, @verdeltiathedead, @rainworld-rivulet (hiiii friend), @nandemonaiwow, @kakyogay, @faelingdraws, @chillysaint, @jpegthedogthing, @fauxbia, @kedakirahei, @shark-bytee, @booksofstars, @stargazer0001

Thank you all for submitting your spears! Ik some designs are a bit outdated, I hope this was still worth it anyway <3

#rain world #rain world downpour #rw spearmaster #doodles #trypophobia #i am. so sorry for how long this took #i think i got extremely overwhelmed with just how many spears i got and backgrounds are hard for me to do #so uh. hope you all like this! It has been very fun to doodle them when i finally got the ball rolling #apologies if i ended up getting something wrong- #its been a while since i first collected refs and some thing changed and i. forgot to label whats like new or not #uh if the art quality gets too crunched by tumblr i might put it in a drive or something so people can stare at it easier

[thidwickdoodles]

Speak no evil

Hear no evil

See no evil

And don’t try to translate Russian codes

#thidwickdoodles #stranger things #eddie munson #steve harrington #robin buckley #platonic stobin #platonic with a capital p #based on an old picture of an ice cream trio that felt fitting for these doofus’ #ALSO the speak no evil hear no evil and see no evil was even more fitting for them #Robin got involved because of her language skills and deciphering the code #Steve in a simple explanation was horrible with his words to multiple people and when he went to apologize he got involved #and Eddie besides a little wrong place wrong time witnessed something that drug him into the shitshow #but unrelated to that I just saw ice cream photo and needed Eddie in a scoops uniform lol #and I am not immune to scoops eddie #I love the dynamic we’ve all come up with with him getting involved season 3 #and lastly I gave Eddie my elbow tattoo because it’s my favorite and he will always need more

[danwhobrowses]

Well another week of Tal and Ashley putting Callowmoore through the emotional ringer. I'm kinda okay with where it's at right now (okay less kinda but I can still see an end goal for them), of course it wasn't the most ideal direction I thought up in my head but it rarely ever is. There's time, there's room, and maybe in 2 3 (again guys? mental torment for 3 again?) weeks time - because no show on Thanksgiving and then Candela Obscura - Tal and Ashley will pull the trigger and not leave me an anxious mess like they have the last month and a half every Friday Morning when I have to work XD

#don't get me wrong I expected Fearne to show stress and it is good that Ashton apologized as personally as they could #I just desired a sweeter shippier flavour of events...but I can wait #not forever mind you I still crave the positive emotional payoff #kinda bummed after all that the shard rejected Ash though seems a bit like sour grapes from Matt - but it's his decision #like if you can make callowmoore a thing as an early birthday present that'd be cool just throwing it out there #Ashton did make some good character steps though and it was cool they had a talk with Percy #critical role #bells hells #ashton greymoore #fearne calloway #callowmoore #ashton x fearne #fearne x ashton #taliesin jaffe #ashley johnson #glad we can get rid of this manipulation discourse though they were pretty clear that it was just stupidity rather than manipulation #feel like they have to have their talk before going to the key so I'm hoping for something even more precious and irreplaceable being share #cr3 spoilers #critical role spoilers #c3e78 #the whole feywild 'couples retreat' would be a good way for Fearne to realise her fear of losing Ashton is because she loves him #the whole 'love is enduring pain' theme being thrown in a lot this ep #While Ashton uses the feywild to connect to the earth and be better and realise that he loves Fearne and they're (k)enough as they are now #probably some Orym guidance/ass kicking needed for that too #idealism of course but I need to hope it goes good because if it goes bad it just ruins my week(s)/life #Chet was great this episode with the tough love and challenging Ashton to be better but of course Laudna needs to be kept an eye on #I accept the character directions but mentally and emotionally I am not okay

[mysicklove]

sigh, me and my big mouth got me in trouble again.

#🔪 - mello talks too much #cw discourse #i’m in the call out post BUT i commented as a joke not knowing anything about the situation #i thought it was another anti-aging up call out post that i have experienced. so i commented ”DRAMA?” as a silly joke thinking it #was something completely different....they were not talking about the anti-aging up call out posts.... #i just followed that account like less than a week ago #I DONT KNOW THESE PPL 😔😔😔😔😔😔 #i always like remain neutral on situations (hold opinions to myself) but bc i comment on everything i see i got involved on accident #i’m just going to block all of the accounts that are associated with the post bc i cant mentally deal with this rn LOL #or should i apologize? but i also feel like i didn’t do anything wrong #except for not being aware of my surroundings #between the minors contacting me and now me getting myself dragged into a callout post (OF PPL I DONT EVEN KNOW) tumblr is roasting me toda #everyone needs to gag me and tie my hands behind my back so i don’t accidentally enter things that i don’t mean to enter #if i need to do an apology post just let me know

[transvampireboyfriend]

modern/social media au where Steve is all about instagram and twitter and tiktok and whatever else is mainstream and Eddie is just. Not a Social Media Person ™.

Maybe they meet at a cafe or a party and Steve is immediately head over heels. They follow each other on Instagram and Eddie just likes, like, everything Steve shares some weeks and some others he just doesn't like anything, it drives Steve up the wall.

Eddie comments whatever he thinks on many of Steve's stories and Steve is excited until he realizes Eddie basically does that with everyone. He tries to get Robin's opinion and gets an unhelpful "i think he's just weird".

Eddie DMs him Tumblr posts that Steve does not understand. Eddie's also way too liberal with emojis, Steve does not understand what 🪸🥟🗿🫶🏽 is supposed to mean.

Meanwhile everytime Eddie comments and likes in The Wrong Way™ on Steve's page, you can hear Nancy screaming from her room like "DUDE! HE'LL NEVER DATE YOU LIKE THIS" to wherever Eddie is. Eddie just shrugs, Steve just said yes to lunch with him tomorrow so, whatever.

#steddie #steddie headcanon #steve harrington #eddie munson #steveddie #steve x eddie #stranger things #brought to you by the many times I've sent something HILARIOUS to my frens for them to be like ?? #xcept I don't send it through Instagram bc I don't have that but I feel Eddie would be More Normal ™ than me lol #if only bc Nancy bullies him into it #also i understand instagram is where you flirt right? like that wouldn't happen on twitter? apologies if have it wrong #i only ever get this stuff through osmosis when I go to eat with my frens #long post #pushing the ''eddie and nancy are best friends'' agenda #.

[malwarechips]

totally normal cedar drawing. there's nothing different about him wdym (i made him a wof dragon. sorry)

#he's very nightwing but theres some skywing in there too #i think the red gives that away #but also i think he'd get a lot of dragons doing double takes #thinking he was bleeding out if they saw him out of the corner of their eye #there is also something very fucked up in his Brain but i havent decided what yet. #i just know there HAS to be something severely wrong with this thing #also apologies about the lack of alt text recently #i keep completely forgetting about it #wof #lev.png

[blonde-and-cat-suc]

If Adora and Catra both did crap to hurt each other then why do I never see comics abt Adora feeling like crap and feeling bad for hurting Catra

#salt salt salt #old draft post that i had stewing in here #even fandom knows. they KNOW. that c//a is not an equal relatioship. #equal c//a would have these two ALWAYS arguing back and forth with each other about things from the past. possibly working them out togethe #equal c//a FANON would naturally reflect this following that same logic #so why is it when we see the premises of “Adora has to apologize to Catra now” its the same tired old... #“Im sorry i left you in the Horde” #and nothing else. #“im sorry that your feelings were hurt and im sorry that you had no influence over me at that time... Im sorry that you're STILL mad at me” #she's not apologizing over something that she is genuinely sorry about #she's apologizing in these fanon works as a means to placate catra (and fans' warped reality of what this relationship actually is) #it's a shitty vaguely disguised way to “equalize” c//a and make it so that they BOTH look like awful people #when obviously this is not the case because the narrative itself doesn't think Adora is wrong for leaving the Horde! #even if these two were “equally bad” to each other. why ship them then. really. seriously. i get the rhetoric of “ooh toxic spicy ship” but #if they're really SO “toxic and spicy” where is the part where they're BOTH toxic? BOTH bad for each other? #it's not a toxic relationship if ONE side is toxic. thats called an abusive relationship. anyway. im done now. good night. #whoops! tag rant

[hyperfixation-symposium]

I’ve been really curious about q!Fit for a while now, and I’m glad people are starting to take notice of the strange things around him because I’ve been thinking about them a lot recently. 

Obviously the ominous leaving messages are the primary thing people have noticed. They’ve happened for a bit but most of the characters are just like, “oh Fit is just a silly guy! Just a little goober!” without looking father into them. They caught my interest from the moment they started because, well, q!Fit really doesn’t seem to mess around in that sort of way. Don’t get me wrong, he is definetly a silly guy, but he seems to lean into it mostly with the people he trusts. 

But then I noticed some really odd conisidences. Fit coming on at weird times for only a couple minutes or so, simmilar to what the streamers tend to do before they start streaming. But Fit doesn’t start streaming, and I never see him on anyone’s stream in these periods. It’s like he was preparing for something. 

The thing that stuck out to me the most recently was after Pomme’s nightmare. At a completely random time, without warning or context, immedietly after a code attack, Fit joins the server. He isn’t streaming, and he comes to ask what happened quite quickly. There is no way that his character would have any idea that things were happening, nor would he have any reason to be around. 

What brought Fit to the server at that moment? Or any of the other breif times he’s on for such a short period of time? He acts absolutley normal around everyone, but then leaves the strangest leaving messages. But everyone plays it off, that’s just Fit! He’s just a having fun!

There’s something about it that just doesn’t sit right with me. There’s something wrong with q!Fit and I don’t think his character is contiously aware of it. Instead of taking the warning signs seriously people have ignored them - and I think that’s going to blow up in their faces.

#qsmp #q!Fit #I think he's somehow related to the attacks with the binary entity #I don't think Fit would ever hurt an egg don't get me wrong #He loves the eggs as much as all the other members #But there's something going on with him and no one has investigated it and it's making me seethe!! #Cellbit please!! Please look into this guy you have to have seen you've sent question marks but you haven't talked to him!! #NO ONE HAS BEEN TALKING ABOUT THIS BUT FROM THE VERY FIRST ONE I JUST. SOMETHING WAS WRONG #NOTHING IS A CONICIDENCE. N O T H I N G IN THIS SERVER IS A CONICIDENCE #AND I NEED SOMEONE TO GO CHECK IT OUT. IM #Maybe it's a good thing I don't speak porteguese #I would have gone insane with Cellbit during the ARG if I could have understood what he was saying #I'm begging this man to go investigate though. #I don't care if there is some kind of federation control CELLBIT GO BE YOURSELF AND SOLVE SOMETHING I AM BEGGING #BEGGING #head in hands. okay this post is over goodbye. I apologize for nothing

[skeletronza]

doodles

#apologies for no art the hyperfix died momentarily #<- what i get for relistening to fhfy & fhsy only for like a month straight. the working man blues got me #but we’re back. squeee so excited for fhjy #fabriz shippers in jesus name i rebuke you #well like what u like obvs but its not for me. besties forever #sorry 4 no gorgug i cannot draw orcs idk somethings WRONG #most of these r like 3 months old #anyway happy new year of course #im not tagging anything hashtag lazyyyyyyy #any perfume fans in the chat #doodle

[revenantghost]

Ough... might have food poisoning or a stomach bug, time to go be miserable for a day or two

#It is #The strangest one I've ever had #It's been creeping up all day #It started so subtle #But something is clearly wrong?!?! #Anyway apologies if I get particularly tired and loopy #Yadda yadda

[arkham-guard-dp-au]

(Apologies for constantly sending stiff in your ask box. I honestly have nothing better to do and I have too many ideas.)

That being said... Here's a new idea I'd like to share cause I have nothing better to do with it besides trying to draw it and I thought, hey, this can fit in this au possibly.

Danny being afraid of Professor Pyg not just because of the Dollotrons he makes but he gets flashbacks to his own vivisection whenever he's near the guy. Professor Pyg literally lobotomized his victims and sew doll masks to create his Dollotrons, his idea of perfection. The worst part about dollotrons is that they're alive.

I see Dollotrons as souls stuck in living tombs, here. The only way to free them is if one destroys the vessels to allow the souls to finally be at peace rather then suffer inside their former bodies, constantly wailing for help as they watch on, never to be in control again. What made those bodies them have been erased with the use of chemicals and surgery. Their mind and body is not theirs anymore. They're Professor Pyg's now.

For ghosts/halfas/liminal's to see such a thing will cause such a visceral reaction of wrongness emanating in their cores. Cause by all means, the Dollotrons should be dead with such a disconnect the body and mind has with the soul. But nope. These Dollotrons will be considered abominations. (I imagine Danny having a similar reaction to Garnet from SU when she saw the gem shard fusions in a way cause like, in some ways, the dollotrons are most like Halfas like him. But more twisted)

Danny makes sure to keep his interactions with Pyg to a minimum. Everyone notices and doesn't blame him. Even the Joker is put off by Pyg (in Arkham Knight). Joker!

[Just more possible interactions and world building (?) for this au I guess... I really need sleep TwT]

Add this Pyg a**hole to the list of villains for Danny to go feral on.

#danny phantom #batman #danny fenton #arkham guard au #arkham #arkham asylum #pyg #tf the more i learn about batman the more horrified i get #gonna read some wayne family adventures after this #wholesome content that should be canon wfa is #anyways i was getting like mad father vibes for a sec there #good game btw #also like a quick search didnt say so like is there any cure for the doll people? #i dont think so which is sad #also i dont think theyd ping as halfas bit definitely something that should not exsist and am overall feeling of wrongness. #which kinda is how half ghosts r in some fan takes so i guess i can see the resemblance there #idk #but also my dude l #yall do not apologize for asks #op rn is keeping this au alive and i am along for the ride #look at these crops. they have been watered too well. help. its turning into a jungle #and im not even upset. #arkham guard danny #more lore to feed yall peeps. courtesy of asker #food for thought #the feral list is deff spectra. joker #and pyg now #also vlad depending on the mood #ops i think i did too many tags

[tub3rculosis]

"i'm your man" belongs to edgeworth. "i'm your man" is a perfect representation of edgeworth's reflection on the turnabout goodbyes case. i'm your man is the perfect illustration of edgeworth's feelings both about himself and phoenix at the end of aa1. just please hear me out.

without further ado here is my somewhat unhinged analysis of edgeworth's mind in between turnabout goodbyes and rise from the ashes using lyrics from mitski's new song "i'm your man" as reference.

"you're an angel and i'm a dog"

edgeworth is obviously in a very bad place mentally after being arrested. he has to relive and reevaluate the source of his trauma on top of having everyone who looked up to him / liked him turn on him. but like a guardian angel, phoenix comes down to help him when no one else will. he, as edgeworth will repeatedly remind us in-game, "saved him." but why, he thinks, would an angel like phoenix care to save something so insignificant as a dog like him?

"or you are a dog and i'm your man"

now we flip the narrative... kind of. or rather recontextualize it. phoenix wright is completely devoted to miles edgeworth in the same way that one might compare a dog to its man. "man's best friend" is the embodiment of phoenix wright, it doesnt matter that they didn't talk for so many years and it doesn't matter that when they did reconnect in court there was some initial animosity. the fact of the matter is that phoenix's utter dedication to edgeworth's wellbeing transcends time, like a loyal dog ready to give pure unconditional love.

"you believe me like a god"

going back to turnabout goodbyes, pretty much everyone has given up on edgeworth, including edgeworth. and yet, even when edgeworth was literally confessing to the murder of his father, phoenix still truly believes in edgeworth's innocence. phoenix's worship, his complete devotion to this man he hasn't spoken with in over 15 years, would seem absurd to any onlooker. hell, these men are rivals. ("right nick? rivals!") and yet, as if belonging to a religious fanatic, phoenix's faith in edgeworth never falters. this, to repeat my previous wording, further recontextualizes the first statement. edgeworth is a dog. he sees himself in an extremely negative light, completely undeserving of the label "god." nothing makes sense about phoenix. what redeeming qualities could miles edgeworth, fallen prosecutor and murderer, possibly have that such a divine (angelic) man like phoenix would put faith into him?

"i destroy you like i am"

it would be easy to say that this is about their battles in court but lets be fr. edgeworth was definitely not doing any destroying during his cases against phoenix. rather i think we can delve deeper into edgeworth's self-loathing and feelings of inadequacy.

would it be oversimplifying things to say that phoenix became a lawyer solely for edgeworth? no sure. obviously there were some other factors. but like... bffr. the main reason was undeniably edgeworth. this isn't debatable lol. and i think edgeworth, oblivious as he may be to literally anything else, knows this. he knows this and thinks it makes him a burden. he is not worth the stress, the work, the dedication, and especially not the love of phoenix wright. in somewhat of a self-aggrandizing manner, he thinks he's destroying phoenix's life by forcing him to spend so much time and effort saving him.

"i'm sorry i'm the one you love"

pretty self explanatory. edgeworth cannot possibly comprehend the fact that he is deserving of love. he is not in a position to accept phoenix's love, hell, he was not in a position to accept phoenix's help at the start of the trial—how could he possibly accept the love of an angel who treats his dog self like a god? (pretend that was profound or smth idk) edgeworth hasn't even fully wrapped his head around the full implications of his developing unnecessary feelings towards phoenix. there's no way—even though i think of them both sensed their romantic tension—that they could have ended up in any romantic situation at that point in their relationship. could they have been involved sexually at this point? maybe? i guess so? but romantic?? no way, they're both wayyyy too emotionally constipated for that shit.

"no one will ever love me like you again"

he's right. im kind of a broken record at this point but phoenix's dedication is simply too much for edgeworth at this time. there's just no way edgeworth can feel good about himself after everything he's done / thinks he's done to phoenix.

"so when you leave me i should die / i deserve it don't i"

i recently saw a post where someone said the reason miles didn't tell phoenix abt dl-6 initially was because he couldn't risk losing phoenix's trust. i mostly agree, but i think part of it was to protect phoenix and not cause any more work for him. edgeworth knows how deep dl-6 goes, how weird and convoluted it was; and i think he especially knows that he would feel even worse about himself if he threw such a heavy case onto phoenix. but phoenix is stubborn and miles knows this. once phoenix is set on saving him there's nothing more for him to do other than tell the truth. (or rather, what he perceives to be the truth.)

phoenix saves edgeworth and edgeworth is extremely grateful, but... at the same time he feels like he is only complicating things further between phoenix and himself. not that he would ever express any of this of course. i mean come on, this is aa1 edgeworth, we're getting cryptic gay one liners and that's it.

+ in regards to the whole "choosing death" thing, i think the seed was planted almost immediately after turnabout goodbyes and the events of rise from the ashes were just the catalyst for him to actually act on them. both cases involve edgeworth having an identity crisis; while phoenix just fucking existing in his vicinity lowkey started said crisis turnabout samurai is when we really see the relationship between them develope. (i don't think i have to say why *cough* "saddled with unnecessary... feelings" *cough cough* ) this is the beginning of edgeworth's growing trust, admiration, and eventual love for wright.

"i can feel it getting near / like flashlights coming down the way"

"it" is the truth. as phoenix picks away at the bonkers bullshit insanity of dl-6, he gets closer to discovering what miles is already suspecting, that miles killed gregory edgeworth. but miles values truth above all else and he's willing to risk a guilty verdict in favor of honesty.

i think another reason why he transparent from the beginning was because there was part of him that was projecting his old ways onto phoenix—if he withholds this testimony then phoenix can get another win. this is what he had his own witnesses do in previous trials. but wow! character development! and now edgeworth is trying to do the (w)right thing regardless of the outcome of the trial—he knows telling phoenix about killing gregory will completely fuck up phoenix's case but he needs to anyway because it's the moral thing to do.

but for the billionth time, phoenix has such complete faith in edgeworth anyway that it doesn't fucking matter if he full on admits to killing his dad. because "nuh uh, you're not the kinda guy who'd do that even accidentally"—phoenix. honey. you've only known miles for like a few months in elementary school + spoken like... what, twice in court? you barely fucking know this guy phoenix, and yet you're somehow fucking right and it it turns out he didn't even shoot his father after all? what the fuck parrot. what the fuck phoenix. he's so hopelessly gay for edgeworth like they're so insanely homosexual omfg bruh... idiot gayass lawyers

"one day you'll figure me out"

another double meaning. phoenix already has figured out the truth of the case but not the truth of edgeworth's feelings. edgeworth, having seen phoenix's remarkable ability to discover the truth, falsely assumes he will be able to know things about miles that he has no way of knowing. i think this is why he worded his "suicide note" the way he did. he didn't anticipate that phoenix would refuse to think about it altogether. this is the phoenix who after initially losing edgeworth 15 years ago dedicated so much of his time trying to find out what happened to edgeworth. so it was somewhat reasonable to assume phoenix would try to track him down again. but little did he know that phoenix's grief and heartbreak would overpower any possibility of him finding the truth on his own.

"i'll meet judgment by the hounds"

phoenix, the hound, phoenix, whose dedication to edgeworth borders on stupidity at times, whose love for edgeworth despite all his flaws is a main drive for his career and eventually most of his life...

edgeworth is torn between wanting to live up to phoenix's perception of him and wanting to prove phoenix wrong in his admiration. regardless, phoenix's judgement is at the crux of it all.

furthermore, the actual meaning of the lyric was in reference to being sent to hell. if we go with this interpretation hell could be read as edgeworth's mind in the detention center before the first trial. phoenix's assessment of edgeworth's circumstances and insistance on defending him even when no one else would is another example of his dog-like loyalty.

"people always gave me love / others were never to blame after all"

von karma was basically a second father to young miles. he took this orphan in, showed "compassion," raised him and trained him to be the prosecutor he is today... just so he could pettily watch miles' downfall. i think miles blames himself for letting himself be manipulated by von karma. even though his behavior was a symptom of the 15 years of abuse and manipulation, edgeworth thinks of his younger self as a disgusting reflection of von karma and feels like an awful man for achieving the fame/notoriety he had through von karma's tactics. like imposter syndrome. because he idolized von karma so blindly he thinks he is still somehow responsible for the events of both dl-6 and turnabout goodbyes.

"you believe me like a god / i betray you like a man"

at the end of the day, edgeworth is not a dog or a god. he is literally just some guy. he's human, flawed, emotional; logical, illogical; he's contradictory and complicated and so much more because to be human is to be confusing. to be human is to make mistakes. to edgeworth, this is all completely unacceptable. he can't be "just some guy" if he needs to be a god. especially because it betrays his perception of how phoenix perceives him.

((ik this isn't really supposed to be about rfta but it feels relevant and this is my post so smd i can do what i want) in rfta, when edgeworth wrote his note, he obviously knew how dramatic his diction was and i think there was a tiny part of him that predicted phoenix's real reaction to the letter, but he rationalized that thought away using the justifications i mentioned earlier. he betrayed phoenix by not staying in japanifornia and avoiding facing everything that was happening head on.)

tl;dr: phoenix loves edgeworth but edgeworth hates himself (shocker!!)

#im so normal about them #like i think there may be something really wrong with me #if i hear such a beautiful song and go #hm. yeah this is SO my blorbos #like i almost feel like i owe mitski an apology for this #almost #anyway... #also ik how long and rambly this is and idc #the thoughts had to get out #even if they're unorganized and slightly unhinged #dw abt it #god i fucking love them #they're so in love #they're so sad and gay and pining and they just can't have each other FUCK #ace attorney #pwaa #phoenix wright ace attorney #phoenix wright #miles edgeworth #narumitsu #wrightworth #nrmt #turnabout goodbyes #rise from the ashes #aa rfta #rfta #gyakuten saiban #naruhodo ryuichi #mitsurugi reiji #gay lawyers

[bucksboobs]

I’m the anon from the post before and I understand what you mean! I guess I just took differently when I watched the show. I don’t think Charlie or Nick was upset about Ben being closeted I think they (especially Charlie) we’re just upset how Ben treated Charlie the entire. Also I’m not saying this to be rude or start anything this is just how I saw it:) I think Charlie was angry (as he should) about how Ben treated him through out the relationship they had and not about him being closeted. Because I do believe if Ben just communicated better and treated him better and didn’t treat Charlie the way he did it could’ve worked out. I’m just saying that I didn’t see them bashing Ben for being closeted only bashing him for treating Charlie the way he did without acknowledging how it felt for him.

Yeah I don't think Charlie or Nick is mad about Ben being closeted but weirdly I think the narrative is and that's what irks me. All his issues and bad behaviors are because he's closeted (you said yourself that it's because he's closeted that he treats Charlie the way he does) but the story doesn't seem interested in exploring that so much as punishing him for it by having both Imogen and Charlie yell at him and then throwing him out of the series before he can improve at all.

And when this show is so renowned for it's love and celebration of queer experiences and identity it will always feel out of place that Ben was left out in the dust seemingly because he and his experiences were too complex.

#ben hope #heartstopper #sorry if you really like the show but I am absolutely not the only one that found the handling of Ben uncomfortable #especially when the character is so so young literally the same age as Nick #to deny him the chance to grow feels wrong to me and a lot of other gay men who didn't have our shit together by 16 #like this kid hasn't even taken his GSCE's which I assume are similar to the SATs or the Baccalauréat! #he needs to be given the opportunity to grow and he essentially gets the door shut in his face when he's trying to apologize #and to add to it Charlie gets that 'ambush me into accepting your apology' line that once again frames his own growth as a manipulation #which is FUCKED UP! #and from a writing perspective portrays the hand of the author pointing and screaming Hate This Boy Hate Him Hate Him #and the hand of the author should not be that obvious #it makes it feel disingenuous and as if Ben is just a stand in for someone who treated the author poorly #again this is all from a narrative perspective not a character perspective I want to make that clear because I see gay mutuals being lit up #by people who think Charlie should have been forced to forgive Ben or something #but thats not at all the argument any of us are making here

[ghostcrows]

"Can transmascs even make good music" YES!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! THEY JUST ARENT POSTING IT. i know he's out there i know my boy is out there he's just literally never going to record a song he probably doesnt even use the fucking internet he lives in a secluded cabin in the woods. i know this and i'll find him and i'll come back and recite the songs for you bardstyle

#im getting a little frantic about this #also it drives me insaaaaaaaaaane that the only one ANYONE can think of is cavetown #it also drives me crazy that people hate cavetown as much as they do cause even if his music isnt your taste #hes just like expressing himself softboy style fuck is wrong with that in actuality #and yes i know he said something weirdly antisemitic in the past but he did apologize and idk what else he could really do #but everyones like well cavetown is ass so i guess that's all you got like he has to represent all of you now #WHY?! #HE'S JUST SOME FUCKING DUDE WHO MAKES INDIE MUSIC #he's ONE GUY. ONE GUY. ONE GUY THE ONLY GUY YOU CAN EVEN NAME. ONE GUY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! #alright im fine #i said i was going to bed i am now i prommyyyyyyyy...