#I can’t talk to you right now.

[napping-sapphic]

Good luck trying to casually cuddle with me if we date we’d lay down and get nice and cozy and then i would fall asleep in two seconds flat and trap you for four hours

#wlw #wlw mood #sapphic #sapphism #lesbian #@ our cat this is at you #she layed on me and sent me into a four hour nap right before bed time #so now it’s 4 am and i can’t sleep smh #i get warm or see another creature be sleepy and my brain is like NAP TIME #inconvenient🙄 #but also god i love naps it’s so nice #have i made this post before?? probably idk #i post about sleepinng so much #sorry #i just #LOVE sleeping so much #and i sleep a lot so like i don’t have much else to talk about tbh?? #im gay and i like sleeping

[oldschool-analog]

If bmc took place in 2024 do u think the Squip would tell Jeremy to start mewing

#‘you can’t talk to Michael right now Jeremy you can’t break your mewing streak’ - the Squip probably #I’ve been spending too much time on tiktok haven’t I #‘Jeremy you need to start looksmaxxing’ #be more chill #bmc #jeremy heere #the squip

[paimonial-rage]

lol yeah ok - how about 12 and 13 instead? - last anon

[Character Analysis Ask Meme]

What is Neuvillette’s love language?

As that he does not have a way with human relationships, Neuvillette shows his feelings best through acts of service and gift-giving. After all, words are difficult and easy to construe. Quality time often leaves him at a loss for the very words he has a difficult time with. And physical touch? That’s simply too intimate for him. So what better way to show how he feels through something concrete? Surely if he gives of his time and resources for the people he cares about, they will understand how high of a regard he holds them. At least, he hopes. 

What is Neuvillette like in a relationship?

As unfamiliar with human emotions as he is, you notice Neuvillette’s feelings for you long before he does. How can you not? You see it clearly—the softness in his eyes whenever they fall upon you, the fondness in his smile, the requests for you to stay if not just a moment longer. You are taken by surprise the day he notices. He approaches you with a troubled, albeit bashful expression. He says that it was brought to his attention that he has feelings for you. Adorable as he is, what else can you do but accept them?

Much to your expectation, there is a hesitance in his step after he begins to court you. He has never been in a relationship before. He doesn’t want to mess it up. So how close is he allowed to walk next to you? Is it proper to offer you his arm? Will you refuse him if he asks you to accompany him to a show? But your presence at his side leaves him light-headed. How many times this has lead to social gaffes and things of the sort? But when you laugh, how can he not chuckle to himself in turn?

With Neuvillette, you will find no bombastic displays of affection. There will not be poetic words of love and adoration. After all, Neuvillette is a simple man and will show his love through simple, yet earnest ways. He will want to spend time with you. He will want to do his best to communicate and be honest with you. He will want to make you happy in any way you see fit. He will do his best for you.

Zhongli's below the cut!

What is Zhongli’s love language?

Anyone close to the Geo Archon knows his penchant for gift-giving. Really, it often catches many by surprise the sheer thoughtfulness and rarity of the gifts he gives. Not only are they often pricey, but also chosen with the receiver specifically in mind. It’s not rare to see people moved to tears upon receiving them, touched by the amount of care he puts into each one. As with gifts, Zhongli is also liberal with the words of affirmation he gives others. He does not hesitate to state a person’s strengths, nor how high of a regard he holds them. With him, there is no room for doubt. 

What is Zhongli like in a relationship?

You don’t exactly know when you both became an item. As wordy as Zhongli is, he never bothered to tell you his feelings plainly. He even rejected you at first, stating he didn’t see you in that way. But then he said he’d try, didn’t he? And from that point, things began to change. How he’d invite you to Miss Yun’s performances, or offered his arm for you to take while he’d walk you home. How he’d tell you the most outrageous stories with a straight face, then laugh with an amused glint in his eye when you took him seriously. Somewhere along the way, the wall he kept began to fall.

Still, it is hard to tell his feelings as he never becomes the most physical with his affections. He does not hug you, nor does he hold your hand when you walk at his side. Sparing the moments when you’re the most endearing, he does not often kiss you of his own accord. Still, there is a level of familiarity and intimacy that he displays with no one else. You’re the only person he’ll let by his side on the days he wants most to be left alone. You’re the one whose opinions matter the most. You’re the only one he’ll tease as mercilessly as he does. You’re special.

With Zhongli, you realize that your relationship with him is not primarily one of romance, but of companionship. He does not simply view you as a friend. No, you’re much more than that. Out of all the things that come and go in his life, you are and will always be the only constant. You are everything to him. Even if you may part ways for a time, the place by his side will always remain yours. A relationship with you is a contract, one that he will always uphold. 

#genshin impact #genshin x reader #neuvillette #zhongli #neuvillette x reader #zhongli x reader #my writing #character analysis #sorry for the wait haha... but at least it's better than more than a month right? ;v; #i will apologize if you wanted something overtly romantic with the relationship question #zhongli's was especially hard #okay i can talk about it now #zhongli is the kind of guy you can talk with for hours and then leave not knowing a single thing about him #and that’s the weird thing like he does not hide his thoughts and feelings towards things #but at the same time you always doubt the extent to which he means them #like he may call the traveler a good friend and other warm things but…. #does he follow up his feelings with actions? #he’s so easygoing that you can’t picture him falling to raw emotion #and it primarily is because he sees everyone the same way a grandfather looks at his toddler grandchild #he feel warmth and affection for them but they will never be equals #that’s why if you confessed your feelings for him he’d turn you down at first. he’d need time to change his thinking #and even after accepting you zhongli is not one for passions. he’s not gonna change much. he’ll still be a retired old man #also just a personal headcanon but i don’t think he’d get with a human. he’d humor then but he wouldn’t accept them #yeah hes just… hard to figure out romantically speaking

[myfairkatiecat]

not my friends being 400x less supportive about me being Christian than I am about them being atheist

#losing my mind right now #we were literally all just talking about a trip the senior class goes on #I said I didn’t want to go #cause I kinda hate the camp #and this girl responds to my message about hating camp #and goes HAHA I HATE CHURCHES #haha get it cause that’s how I feel about churches #and I’m like??? you knew what you were doing when you randomly changed the topic to that directly off of one of my messages #this is a pretty minor example too #it’s just the one that’s sending me over the edge right now #I’m so fed up with it #I’m over here treading on eggshells and trying to not mention religion too much so I can show my respect for your beliefs #and all you want to do is constantly change the topic to how much you hate my religion #but if I say I can’t be friends with someone because of that #then IM the intolerant one! #there’s no way to win. #I wish people were just not like that

[delisocks]

i wonder if mike thought about kim ever. when jesse threw himself in front of walt in the desert, i wonder if he thought about kim. did he see her that night, the hoodie and the gun and the tearful determination, while they sat in the lab and waited for gus? did he see her in that junkyard, watching the laptop splinter into a million pieces, jumping and cheering?? two lost souls who gave Everything and got shattered in return??? one day you’ll wake up and realize you haven’t thought about it, but do you ever really? do you ever really forget? maybe you can’t, when you’re working for a time bomb. “what is it with you guys?” don’t know. i wonder if mike ever thought about kim.

#sorry about this 😔 could not sleep and decided to be incomprehensible on tumblr instead #i already said something along t these lines in the dms but i can’t get it out of my head #thought it would make more sense if i got it out into a post and Bravo!!! it Does Not. #but i rely on the assumption of everyone else here being just as deranged as i am #like. y’all know what i’m talking about right #i don’t think im going to remember posting this in the morning. goodnight now honk shoo #and also i stand by what is it with you guys as like #the golden rule of gilliganverse. could literally say the same thing about So Many guys it’s insane #“what is it with you guys” well. what Isn’t it with you guys really #brbabcs #mike ehrmantraut #kim wexler #jimmy mcgill #jesse pinkman #walter white

[steveyockey]

There’s this ridiculous thing that I think is a big part of a lot of pre-egg-crack trans journeys and certainly was for me: “Just because I hate being a man and wish I could be a woman, or a totally different person, doesn’t make me trans, because I’m not already transitioned.” Which is absurd, but you invent ways to protect yourself from what will be a trauma. You’ve learned through subliminal and not-so-subliminal codes that your family or your friends or your culture are telling you, “Don’t blow up your life like that.” Repression, in this really sad way, is a survival mechanism. I don’t know that I would be alive if I had my egg crack in 1998 in my childhood bedroom. That would have been too dangerous a thing to realize about myself then.

[Making] the film was a very raw and scary journey toward becoming comfortable with myself as an artist. I always thought of myself as a “professional fan”: someone who could get really excited about other people’s art, but, for whatever reason, the idea of making my own art always felt shameful. The process of working on the film and saying to myself, “Yes, I’m trans, and I need to transition to have the life I need to live,” are all one thing. It happened while I was writing the script, and that is the shame I’m unpacking in this movie. When Casey first talks to JLB, she says, “For a lot of people, I know the change that you go through when you take the World’s Fair Challenge is a really big change, like you turn into a clown or an evil vampire”—these simple genre metaphors that we see in body horror movies. But Casey says about herself, “It’s not like that for me. It’s making me different. It’s making me bad.” And the word “bad” is a really important key to the film, because it’s not as simple as Casey role-playing the person she wishes she could be. She is expressing a part of herself that has a level of catharsis and autonomy denied to her in her IRL life, but she’s not at a stage yet where she can explore that outside of fiction and detangle that from feelings of disgust at herself.

Jane Schoenbrun speaking to Sam Bodrojan for Filmmaker, “Portal to Portal: Jane Schoenbrun on We’re All Going to the World’s Fair,” April 14, 2022.

#I NEED to stop reading jane schoenbrun interviews and crying. but I don’t want to… #the ‘professional fan’ thing has been slingshotting around my mind for the past two days #we’re all going to the world’s fair #jane schoenbrun #sam is also trans and the number of trans interviewers jane has gotten to talk to for this film is really lovely and I think lets the #conversation move in ways it wouldn’t otherwise #anyway. i can’t recommend this movie because there’s a good chance you’ll find it boring BUT. It’s got a very limited release going right #now and well. if you have nothing better to do

[trash-can-sam]

What happens when your coworker kills your other coworker but both of you are in a relationship (kind of) with the same ethereal woman who had an admiration for said dead coworker.

+bonus Evandrey because it’s funny to me (I’m sorry Eva.)

#pathologic #pathologic 2 #andrey stamatin #yulia lyuricheva #eva yan #evandrey #yulieva #evaandrey #Eva yahn #Andrei Stamatin #see I think that Eva is very okay with Eva being how she is- promiscuous and spreading her love (Maybe a little jealous but more rooted in #self loathing and insecurities) #and she’s like look I’m okay with this whole open relationship (technically we aren’t in a relationship even though I really want to be) #thing BUT why HIM. I have to work with him and he’s by far the worst man I’ve ever worked with (besides maybe his brother because at least #Andrey actually talks but really they’re a package deal anyways) I need to have meetings with him often and it’s horrendous every time #like spread your love it’s noble really. #I wouldn’t expect anything else from you #but maybe give him less he’s annoying as hell #I also think that she’d figure out pretty quickly that Andrey and Peter killed Farkhad #just bcuz like. yk she’s there. she’s seen the already shaky relationship crumble beyond repair. she’s seen them argue in meetings. #she knows the stamatwins are not above murder. especially for art. and she’s clever. #And andrey knows that so he doesn’t try to hide it. she doesn’t have recourse anyways- #the kains (who I think helped cover up the murder) employ her too #and andrey respects her to a degree- he assumes she’ll see reason. #and honesty. Yulia might be upset that Andrey killed one of the only other architects but also she does not miss him that much. #she’s like I don’t agree with this whole murder thing but you are kind of right he had to go he was getting on my nerves #the meetings will be 10x more tolerable now that the twins can’t argue with him about things that aren’t even real #it’s awful but it did drive Eva further into my arms so necessary evils. #my art #sorry for the essay in the tags.

[hooned]

i can’t believe i took these photos oh my god i luckily had a great view of the entire concert and wow, again, had thee absolute time of my life. ❤️‍🩹 enhypen, you will always be loved by me.

#i talk too much & that's okay ♡ #spent the entire day crying btw — pcd is real i need two to three business days to process everything and start functioning again #right now all i could think of is DAMN TAKE ME BACK PLS I BEG 😭 #enhypen are such phenomenal performers with so much love to give oh god if i could say in words how amazing they all are I WOULD #their eyes shining while looking at the crowd OH GOD they’re everything really !! #and sunoo’s cover ???? I CRIED. sunghoon dancing gento ???? OH MY GOD I DIED AGAIN. #jake singing love yourself for us ??? hee singing give me your forever ??? RIKI LIKE THIS DANCE ??? OH MY GOD. #the fireworkd too UGH it was a perfect night like the pre concert experience wasn’t the best bc of the heat and some lapses #BUT THE CONCERT ITSELF ??? OUR BOYS ??? #OH MY GOD I WOULD GO THROUGH ALL THAT AGAIN AND AGAIN IF IT MEANS SEEING ENHYPEN PERFORM AND BE LOVED AGAIN LIKE THAT. #I LOVE THEM SOSOSO MUCH I CRIED BEFORE DURING AND AFTER THE CONCERT #MY FANCAMS ARE A MESS BUT OH MY GOD IT WAS NOTHING SHORT OF MAGICAL #text post #this is my best picture everything else is unfocused coz i wanted to look at them with my eyes #they are soo beautiful ugh #the entire time i was screaming and crying and singing and dancing IT WAS LITERALLY THEE BEST NIGHT OF MY LIFE #i can’t wait to see you again #i can’t wait to see you again my sevEN 🌟🫀🧡

[novelconcepts]

I’m just saying, the human brain is not equipped for worrying about bank accounts and unemployment and whether unions can hold out and potential show cancellations and climate change and genocide and upcoming elections and parental health and insurance claims and home repairs and ongoing covid surges and political corruption and existential terrors and and and and and

all at the same time at 3 in the morning, as if all of these things are remotely equal and remotely controllable, when you can do NOTHING about any of it because you are small and your room is dark and your dog is asleep and it is 3 in the goddamn morning

#personal #hey hi hello the world is really bad! actually! really bad right now! #this isn’t the place where I come to talk about current events and the like most of the time #but uh. it’s cuz I can’t stop thinking about it. we’re living through so much. so much Bad. #and I want to fix literally all of it #from the comparatively small art things to the incredibly enormous human rights things #and I am. barely able to keep my own house. #and it feels shameful to be so overwhelmed by a world that’s being comparatively kind to me even when it’s been awful #and I sometimes just need to. say it. I guess. #anyway. back to the regularly scheduled gay fiction in a second I just um. #vote please. and stand with Gaza. and…try to rest. when you can. cuz it’s. a lot out there.

[sepulchritude]

Wow people really are such monstrous cunts about BPD huh? Like I knew that but holy shit

#a forum thread including MULTIPLE THERAPISTS and everyone’s saying yeah just don’t ever date or talk to anyone with BPD #they’re all universally psychopaths and nothing will ever change that #like. Tell Me Your Name Right Fucking Now so i can report you to your licensure office!! #cuntery!!! shameless cuntery!!!! #DBT has one of the highest success rates of any treatment modality! #it can help people to the point that they no longer meet diagnostic criteria!! #you call yourself a fucking helping professional but you can’t spare an ounce of professional empathy #for people who are LIVING that emotional rollercoaster? who have one of the higher suicide rates across mental illnesses? #oh i’m sorry is this person too mentally ill for you mx CLINICAL MENTAL HEALTH COUNSELOR #how about spending some of those annual CE hours on learning some fucking skills you hack #and stop telling people they’re irredeemable monsters who aren’t worth anyone’s effort #god!!!!!!!!!! #sepulchritudinous

[rayalltheway]

“Not that any of YOU would care, but my father was kidnapped by that eight legged freak! So if you’ll excuse me, I’ll just steal this ship and be on my way!”

“My parents have succumbed to the Lady Bone Demon’s power, like countless others. You, and the Noodle Boy, would stop at nothing to free them. That’s how I know you won’t lose control. You can’t. Because you’re the only hope I — the only hope this world has left.”

I’m so proud of him guys

#I WANNA TALK ABOUT HIS CHARACTER DEVELOPMENT SO BAD #Imagine s2 red son showing this much respect and belief in lxj and qxt that’s right you can’t #they helped him once in the past and that has CHANGED him #yeah in part this is to save his parents but that is a perfectly heroic motivation to have ahbayabauahhs #and in my opinion he has the right to want the samadhi fire back since it used to be his but - he DOESN’T. at ALL #IT OVERCAME HIM ONCE NOW HE’S HELPING LXJ CONTROL IT AND MAKE IT HER OWN #this is my son #lego monkie kid #monkie kid #red son #long xiaojiao #qi xiaotian #rambles

[taonpest]

Listen. I had plans for them. I worked my ass off to deliver literally the best drawing I ever made in my life but I fucked up so you’re only getting a silly doodle now

#blasphemous #my art #sketch #doodle #based on that one picture of Carla Bruni and Arno Klarsfeld at the fashion week you know the one I’m talking about #I have an entire stock of pictures like that that I have to redraw with them #am I going to have YET ANOTHER mental breakdown over my failure tonight? #most probably #you known the lineart is very good at least and I should be able to post it on tumblr #know* #but I am prevented from doing so because I know the whole piece is unfinished #I’ve been thinking about trying to finish it again lately but. like #it’s impossible #I had grand ambitions for this piece #I remade it from start more than 5 times #and right now it definitely is closer to perfection than my first attempt but I disappointed myself IMMENSELY. it’s too late now #I’ve been thinking of keeping the general idea and make something else with it but I just can’t. Everything related to this idea gets #blocked by my brain

[anachronistic-falsehood]

Ok before I answer any more asks, I feel like I need to get my full thoughts out there. This might be a bit long, but I have a lot to say.

First off: I am very impressionable. I always have been and I always will be. I am well aware of this. When people tell me things, I often believe them at face value. I’m trying to get better at that, which is why I tried to stay neutral this time around when everything first came out. Then I removed myself from the situation for a couple days, came back to it today, forgot to beat my hyper empathy into submission for ten minutes, and found myself almost believing him one hundred percent. I almost forgot about his first response, where he lashed out and threatened to sue people over this. I also tend not to focus on situations like this often because it’s really bad for my POCD. I am bad at this. I need to preface this post by saying that.

I don’t support Forever anymore. I can’t, not after everything that’s happened over the past few days, especially after seeing his original reaction, which was to get mad and threaten to sue and to brush it all off as just twitter drama. And he still brushed it all off as twitter drama in this most recent stream. He didn’t even acknowledge how old the alleged victim was, which means a lot of people who only knew of this through his streams don’t know that he flirted with multiple girls as young as 13. He said it was just jokes, but he did privately message at least one of these girls and meet her in real life, even if it was within a group of people. Things can happen even within a crowd.

There had to have been more things that happened behind the scenes for all of his friends to suddenly drop him. Whether it was some kind of proof that he was aware this was wrong as he did it, or if he lashed out at the other ccs for initially unfollowing him when this all came out, I don’t know. But he handled this very immaturely in his first response without even looking into the issue, and I don’t feel right supporting him anymore.

Still, and hate me for this if you want, I can’t help but sympathize with him a little bit. I know, I know, but I was a shitty person when I was a teenager, and I’m constantly paranoid that things I’ve done or said will stick with me forever or come back around to bite me in the ass. Hell, I have done and said things when I was 17 that would get me dogpiled on twitter if I was a cc. I do understand why he was upset. Knowing that he has mental health issues because of repeated twitter hate mobs does make me feel sorry for him in that regard. Just because being exposed for past actions may have been deserved this time doesn’t mean that excessive hate was deserved every single time, nor is it deserved for every cc who has fucked up in the past.

However, he was very immature with his initial response, and him pushing this off as just a twitter cancellation is enough to tell me that he does not quite see that he was in the wrong. He keeps saying that he’s matured and that he’s better now, as if that alone is supposed to absolve him of any kind of responsibility. I think he handled this wrong, and I don’t want to support him anymore.

As for q!Forever, I know he has a lot of similarities to the cc. That will be too hard to look past for a lot of people, and if you don’t want to engage in content that includes him anymore, that’s well within your rights. I still love q!Forever despite that, and I personally will still consume content that includes him, and I don’t want to write him out of the story of the smp. We can do the same thing we did for c!Dream and basically adopt him as our own oc. q!Forever can be our character now if we want him to be, and we can still acknowledge that Forever put a lot of work and thought into his character and appreciate what he did for the smp while not supporting him as a creator anymore.

And finally, I also don’t like the way that this entire situation was handled in general by the fanbase. The person who did this (as far as I’m aware) was dedicated to going after ccs for generally trivial things. If they wanted justice for this, why not bring it up before now? Why not before he joined the smp? And the victim didn’t want any part in this as far as I know, and yet people went after her demanding comments on the situation. Twitter kept celebrating the ccs dropping Forever like it was some fun party, just like people have been doing for the whole Dream situation. Twitter hasn’t handled this with any sort of tact whatsoever, and many of us here on tumblr (myself included) have been more invested in arguing and over correcting our own actions and phrasing when some biased people bring up invalid points to actually step back and take a break.

We’ve all been on the defence from each other. People on here have criticized each other’s views, invalidated other people’s experiences, and thrown insults and names at each other like this is a playground fight instead of a serious situation. The situation is over. Let’s just breathe.

#forever situation #qsmp #you guys can come into my inbox if you want to talk about all this yourself!! #can’t guarantee I’ll have any more comments to make #my intrusive thoughts are killing me right now and i feel like shit but i would love to hear from the rest of you #we’re in this together u guys

[sweetest-honeybee]

Bro the Rainbow Factory Wally voice impressionists gotta stop ಠ_ಠ

#like buddy #what the fuck is WRONG with you #and I’m not talking about the weirdly specific angst Y/N stuff #no no why the hell are we mentioning hickies #I literally can’t right now that’s so fucking weird

[thatone-churro]

if i had a nickel for every crawlers music video i’ve seen that was shot in a church, i’d have two nickels, which isn’t a lot but kinda fun that it’s happened twice

(and look how far they’ve come since <3)

#holy shit i forgot holly’s hair looked like that #i thought it was still blue when they dropped the acoustic version because it’s still blue on the cover art i can’t keep track of this 😭 #EDIT: WAIT ITS BLUE AGAIN RIGHT NOW ISNT IT LMAO WE REALLY HAVE COME FULL CIRCLE #grace being stupid #grace stop talking about crawlers challenge #crawlers #crawlersband #crawlers band #come over (again) #come over (again) acoustic #would you come to my funeral #wyctmf

[camgoloud]

you ever just. become overwhelmed by a sudden out-of-nowhere wave of tenderness and affection and longing for reconnection directed towards someone to whom you no longer speak for Very Good Reasons

#‘out of nowhere’ she says like she hasn’t been doing a lot of reading/thinking recently about various tragic messy breakups #and the later regrets of the parties involved #anyway. tell me not to text her #it’s been over two years since the last time we talked… absolutely no reason to break that streak now. lord give me strength #she was really fucking mean to me! like objectively intentionally unwarrantedly cruel! it ruined an entire year of my life #and fundamentally changed me as a person on a deep level! there’s a lot of things i used to like about myself that i don’t think i’m ever #going to get back #and yet every once in a while we have to do the whole ‘maybe i could make things right’ song and dance 😔 #the thing is most of the time i’m not even really angry with her anymore like enough time has passed since all the shit went down that #really i just sort of look at her behavior and feel sad. both because of the impact on me but also because of the ‘that’s really how you #felt you needed to act towards someone who cared about you? you couldn’t have just expressed your feelings in an honest and productive way #instead of just lashing out in the cruelest possible way and ruining the entire relationship beyond hope of repair?’ #and i feel bad and sorry that it went that way and honestly i kind of pity her and hope she’s gotten some of her shit worked out #so i’m not like. actively pissed off at her anymore. but also i can’t think about her without thinking about the worst year of my life so 🙃 #i don’t actually feel that trying to reopen that door would be very healthy for me at least #we did try a Reconciliation of sorts a couple of months after the initial falling-out and while it was kind of helpful for me in that she #like. apologized lmao. and affirmed that i wasn’t crazy and she did in fact On Purpose say the most hurtful things she possibly could have #said to me given the information she had at her disposal. and that i really had not done anything to her that could warrant that. etc. #it also left a sour enough taste in my mouth that i just don’t see a future where the two of us spending time together is enjoyable for me #and yet… the regret will always live inside me i think. maybe if i were a stronger person… #caseyposting