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sillyyuserr · 1 month

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ever since chapter 108 tbhk has been getting progressively worse, after reading chapter 112 i had to take an hour long lap around my room before i could write this 😭

Chapter 112 analysis/thoughts

❗️obviously, chapter 112 spoilers❗️

aoi is seemingly less popular, and the burden of that has been lifted, her and nene also being much closer.

ALSO WHAT?? Like ok lesbians

Mei’s alive, which kind of confused me because she died due to illness?? But i guess not if shes here

This page really intrigued me, not because of kou or anything but because of what aoi says

She refers to teru as “teru-kun” differing to that of what she used to call him

Which i guess means she’s close to him too

after kou runs back to the stand it shows this

Kou and mitsuba??? HE’S ALIVE?? This is literally all we get of them so i don’t have much for this part

Nene singing at the play, having a thought just at the back of her mind, thinking she was wanting someone to watch her, but not sure who

Until they’re finally done, everything’s quiet, she looks up at the crowd to see

Hanako?? Im not quite sure if he was actually there or if she was hallucinating or something but she remembered him, enough to remember his name. ALSO HE KEPT HIS PROMISE AUGH 😭💔

i dont have much to say for this because i really dont know whats going on but im interested to see what happens next w/ them

This next part especially killed me

Teru is distressed, he’s fucking devastated, he feels betrayed and hurt by the only person he’s trusted as much as he has, teru reacts impulsively when it comes to something that weakens him. akane was right when he referred to him as a little kid, he is like a child, he does not know how to control his emotions since he wasn’t taught, and sure as hell not having a mom made it worse

also his face 😭 my mans is HURT

Him not knowing if he should treat akane like a human or like a supernatural hurts me. this reminds me of the picture perfect arc with hanako and nene, akane being in hanako’s place and teru being in nene’s. akane making the decision for the greater good that he doesn’t even fully believe in, just as hanako did when he made shijima make the painting

I have so much to say about this panel its insane

The tension goes CRAZYY but also wtf

The demotion from “aoi” to “clock keeper” back to “aoi” shows he really doesnt know. Also showing he really did trust him, but now that he’s done what he did, he doesnt know how to feel about him. The “you really let me down” again suggests he didn’t at one point, and he did like him. GOSH AidaIro sleep with one eye open tonight

Akane looking worried like that shows he really did care about teru too, and what he thinks of him, i mean like look at him he looks disappointed too, but in himself

His face he feels so bad 😭😭

Teru gripping his tie like he’s onna run away 😭 my mans ur ON TOP OF HIM i think you got him

Teru looking progressively more worried/concerned as akane continues explaining whats happened

Teru’s perspective shot on the top left is painful like the rest of this chapter, him looking down at akane with a face of disbelief, as akane removed his hand from his tie, and redoes it, explaining the rest.

again, reminding me of the picture perfect arc, with the whole “be here long enough and you’ll forget your past life” with again, akane in hanako’s place and teru in nene’s

Akane says this could be a better present for Nene, and we see her initial hope of being popular come true (also taking aoi’s problem away, as stated at the beginning)

but he also says this could be a better/more preferable present for teru aswell, which makes me want to see how teru’s life changed, and what akane considered something teru would want, and what he lost to gain it. (like how nene gained popularity but lost hanako and the connections she made bcs of meeting him)

Fuck i just realized something. Akane was under the impression teru has a crush on aoi so what if he made them closer as in like dating closer SHE CALLS HIM TERU-KUN is this what akane meant by “some people might prefer this ‘present’ over the former one. could be you president.” HUUH

i have a problem with saying “this will never happen, i know it wont, and i wont even consider it” and genuinely will be under the belief that it wont, but then it fucking happens and if thats what happened here i might as well archive my acc

Back to the current topic, as a wielder of time, an important part of making this present, is making sure there is no way his memories will be replaced too, or so im guessing. He says "some" and “their” instead of "we" or “people like us” when talking about the people that will forget the old present. Meaning if akane des remember, he will be so indefinitely alone and self aware (him knowing so much more than the rest of them) and have to play along with everything. Everyone else has the comfort of forgetting, which will make it much easier to adjust, meanwhile if things stay the same, akane will be the only one to remember and will be like this for as long as they stay like that.

Which i like this new one, as mitsuba and kou can be friends without one of them literally being dead, and how aoi can be more open and is closer to nene, but if this is how it ends (obviously not this chapter but if it ends with them staying in the new present) tbhk is so fucked.

its kind of a win-lose, lose-win type of thing, but either way akane’s cooked.

Todays a rough day for everyone 😭

#tbhk #real #aidairo #analysis #aidairo sleep with one eye open tonight #minamoto teru #akane aoi #aoi akane #yashiro nene

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isa-ghost · 3 months

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Would go crazy over any q!phil hc's, but may I request some about phil's harem I mean qsmp server polycule?

OHOHOHOHO YOU'RE INDULGING MY STUPID SILLY HAREM. YESSS.

Previous qPhil Headcanons

SO ANYWAY. QPHIL AND HIS INNATE TALENT FOR PULLING BAD BITCHES ON ACCIDENT.

Reiterating initial mentions of this for context:

--He's married to the Goddess of Death (Kristin) and Missa (a reaper). He's also fuckbuddies with Fit (no one can look at their interactions & tell me there's no homo there) and Etoiles. Strictly fuckbuddies; Fit has something blooming with Pac, and Etoiles is aromantic. --Everyone who Knows(tm) about the polycule has turned calling it a harem into an inside joke they only reference when Phil either isn't around or isn't paying attention enough to be like WHAT. --In fact, it's unfolded into a sort of joke folklore around Phil made up by the islanders closest to him that he has this inexplicable charm to him that makes any man-attracted person weak in the knees. (Baghera totally started it. Cellbit, Foolish, & Fit perpetuated it & it spread from there) --All this fruity silliness in mind, I have no fucking clue what queer label I'd slap on Phil, if one at all. Part of me wants to claim him as pansexual bc I'm Pansexual So Therefore So Is My Cubito + the way he'd explain how he experiences romantic & sexual attraction is exactly what I described *my* exp as in high school and my friend was like "yeah that's pansexual." But I also feel like Phil's the kind of guy to purposely not define his sexuality & remain an enigma both as a "mind your business" & a "It's Funny To Not Elaborate" thing. (As of rn I'm rolling with "he's pansexual but in a font you've never seen before")

S O

Obv Mrs. Goddess of Death Kristin came first, she's been with him since long before Quesadilla Island. Strangely enough, she can't recall too much prior to the island just like Phil, but there's no way the Feds know she exists let alone know how to fuck up the memory of a deity. But yeah, she was his first & is his ONLY romantic dynamic within his weird polycule

She's an avid fan of Phil being his best unintentional whore self with them nice ass shoulders on display all the time and that accidental man magnet charm. Loves watching him pull bitches nonstop without even realizing. And loves watching him be a total fruity dork with his besties. She knows if Phil was forced to choose ONE person out of the polycule to be monogamous with forever, he'd pick her. She's not worried at all about his yaoi island adventures

Next came Fit. Hough, what a man. They WERE, until recently, strictly fwb. They fucked nasty behind that gym and I'll die on that hill. The way they talk to each other sometimes? Big boy?? FitMC people are watching?? They fucked behind that gym. Their fwb was called off as soon as Fit got serious with Pac though. Phil was totally chill with it & actively encouraged it. He loves seeing Fit so invested in the romance he's got blooming. They're still more than friends, not lovers, but a secret third thing, the sexual aspect was just removed from the equation. Truly the most QPR of the polycule

Then came Missa. Oh Missa. Their dynamic IS platonic like Phil has stated & restated countless times, but Missa has a (not yet brought to Phil's attention) massive romantic crush on him. He hasn't spoken up yet to keep their relationship from getting rocky at all. But tbh that prob won't happen. They're platonic in the Kiss The Homies way. So what if they make out sometimes and are husbands? So what if they go on adventures that could be considered dates by some? They aren't a romantic relationship, even if Missa secretly kinda wants to be.

And finally, aromantic king Etoiles joined the fray. He and Phil started out as friends and that has Barely changed if at all, but sparring matches get a little too homoerotic sometimes and neither of them can resist the other when they're popping off extra hard. Things have. Escalated a few times. If yknow what I mean. Of all Phil's harem members polycule partners, he & Etoiles have absolutely ZERO emotional investment in the Spicy(tm) things they do together. It's simply a very intimate way of showing each other their respect & admiration for the other. What they have going on is a "*spanks you* good game, let's hit the showers team" kinda deal. They're the type of mfs to finish in bed then shake hands like "gg." Casual sex is >>>> to these two, but it happens waaay less between them than it did Phil & Fit, Fitza was habitual. Codebreakers is a once in a while thing

Btw once Fitpac gets more stable together and whatnot, Fitza could potentially reignite with Pac's consent. That's the key to healthy poly, all parties are informed & consenting. Pac would be like. An honorary harem member. He & Phil would have absolutely 0 intimate relations, they're strictly friends in the most basic sense of the word. They just also fuck the same guy (& would totally talk about it together if alone)

Phil sometimes tries to gauge if Missa only likes men or if he likes women too. If he does, he's going to ask if he'd like to hear about his lord & savior, Big Woman(tm).

Etoiles has 100% asked Phil who fucks the best out of the polycule bc like everything else, it's a competition & he Must win, he Must have the best dick game. This amuses Phil very much

*incoherent but clearly passionate noises about how Phil hasn't done anything spicy with any of the polycule in a hot second because of Ender King Situation stress*

GOD he wants to open up to them about it so bad. Like yeah he did w Fit that one time but he didn't go into detail and hasn't said anything since and bc Phil is an idiot that feels guilty easily, he doesn't want to tell Fit more atm bc he doesn't want to dampen Fit's high spirits or take away his time with Pac

OK BUT CONSIDER: POLYCULE GROUP EFFORT TO GET THROUGH TO ENDER KING POSSESSED PHIL AND HELP HIM FIGHT OFF EK'S INFLUENCE. OUGH.

Phil attracted all four partners with his raw skill and talent btw. If you even care. Literally was just going about his business being himself and it bagged him three dudes in addition to the literal goddess he already had

Although his feelings are platonic, Phil is attracted to Missa because Missa is a) the other father of his children and b) such a genuine and sweet person. And funny, even if a lot of the times the reason he's funny is bc he's like 2 seconds from having a stroke over whatever shit he missed hitting the fan this time

Phil is attracted to Fit bc. Well. That's FitMC of 2b2t, baby. Raw skill and talent sees raw skill and talent. Fellow anarchist. Also muscles. And that razor sharp stare. Fit's just dreamy as hell ok, let a man drool a little

Phil is attracted to Etoiles the same way he's attracted to Fit, HOWEVER, the reasoning is different. Etoiles has raw skill and talent, but it's the way he wields it and demonstrates it that makes Phil wanna act up. Also Etoiles is fucking hilarious. Who can resist a good sense of humor? Those dramatics make Phil swoon

#qsmp #qsmp philza #q!philza #cw suggestive #qphil headcanons

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viviennevermillion · 2 years

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Comforting him after his Overblot

notes: reposting bc I’m deleting my archived sideblogs

contains: vil schoenheit x gn!reader

warnings: none

“I’ll be fine, don’t worry”, Vil Schoenheit had told you. And you wanted to believe his words that night in the Ramshackle kitchen after the VDC team had found Ace Trappola and Deuce Spade paralyzed in the lounge and later witnessed a fight between Vil and Epel. The Pomefiore dorm leader seemed rather irritated lately and you couldn’t help but notice how silent he became every time Neige Leblanche was brought up. But being around Vil long enough you knew how responsible the blonde was. You trusted him to take care of himself and make sure he wouldn’t do anything stupid. Oh how wrong you were…

Your heart had been beating faster and you were on edge from the moment you saw his reaction to Neige’s performance. Something was up. Considering that Kalim and especially Rook noticed how the atmosphere had changed you were genuinely worried.

Still the anxious and uncertain feelings in your chest couldn’t compare to the dread of actually seeing him overblot. “Don’t look at me like this! I wanted to be the most beautiful in the world, so why am I so ugly?!”, you heard him yell, his voice cracking. You wanted to tell him it wasn’t true, just like Rook and Kalim did. You wanted to shout at him he was the most beautiful person you had ever laid eyes on but your voice was stuck in your throat.

It was like the world had stopped for a moment when you saw how his appearance had changed when he overblotted. Your mind was filled with a mix of terror, sadness and a nauseating panic. Kalim had to shout at you multiple times to snap you out of it; grabbing your arm and dragging you along as you ran outside to meet up with the others.

The fight to take him down was long and painful. Your vision was blurry from the tears you had cried and it was hard to raise your magical pen against the man you loved, but it was for his own good. You’d do whatever you could to bring him back to his senses, even if it’d take all energy you had left. You were sick of seeing this distorted version of him; sick of seeing him so sad and broken. You remembered his beautiful smile that you could never get enough of and you promised to yourself you would see it again. Yet as determined as you were to knock some sense into him, you were shaken to your core about the possibility of losing Vil. He was in mortal danger if he stayed in overblot any longer so you couldn’t remember ever feeling this relieved when it was finally over.

Which brought you to where you were now: Standing in front of the VDC stage in ruins; clinging to Kalim for support, who was also crying, while Rook kneeled next to a still unconscious Vil and performed a healing spell to stabilize the model as best as he could.

You had somewhat calmed down but Vil finally waking up made you break out into tears again. You let go of your friend and made your way over to Vil, kneeling down beside him as well and helping him to sit up with Rook. You were careful not to hurt him with any of your touches and your heart broke a little when he groaned and coughed weakly, trying to get a grip of his surroundings.

“I have shown you guys my ugliest appearance…”, he had said.

“Vil Schoenheit, you call yourself ugly ONE MORE TIME and I’m going to overblot”, you fussed over him, carefully removing several strands of his hair from his face. He gave you a weak but gentle smile that made your heart beat faster. Dammit y/n this really isn’t the time to gush over him and get all weak in the knees. But you were used to it. Vil never failed to leave you breathless solely by being himself and make you question whether he was even real. You couldn’t have imagined ever falling in love as much as you had fallen for Vil.

You had gotten rather close to him during your time at NRC; considering him one of your most treasured friends. But as easily as you had developed feelings for him; you doubted whether he would actually end up returning your feelings. For now you were just glad you could see him smile again.

Between the time when Epel lectured him with his own words about “tantrums being for 3 year olds”, the conversation about Deuce’s unique magic and Malleus Draconia unexpectedly fixing the VDC stage you didn’t have much time to talk to Vil about what happened

That changed when you guided him to his backstage room so he could fix his appearance and rest a bit so he would be ready to perform later.

“Oh no”, you heard him mumble once he actually looked into a mirror. His hair was all messed up and his eye make-up was smeared across his face. “Relax, you’re still beautiful”, you chuckled, gesturing him to sit down in a chair. “Those words bring me no comfort”, he sighed.

You reached for the make-up remover. “I can do that myself”, he insisted, trying to grab it from your hands when he flinched and clutched his side from the damage he had taken during the fight. “Yeah, I see how you can do that yourself”, you rolled your eyes, gently removing the smeared eyeshadow and mascara from his soft skin. Vil relaxed into your touch, closing his eyes and resting in silence for a while.

After his face was clean, you began to reapply his make-up. You knew his routine like the back of your hand by now, having seen it many times whenever he was preparing for an event or when the two of you went to the bathroom in between breaks so he could fix any inconsistencies in his make-up (let’s just assume it’s either the men’s bathroom if you’re male or they have gender neutral bathrooms over there). You would lean against the white walls, watching Vil put mascara onto his lashes while he ranted about the way Crewel would talk to his students.

“I suppose I became everything I never wanted to be”, Vil’s voice, slightly cracking, brought you back from your trip down memory lane. He was softly biting his lip, tears forming in the corners of his eyes. “Maybe that’s all people will ever see in me. A villain.”

“No….no, Vil”, you insisted, gently placing a hand onto his cheek, wiping a tear away with your thumb and resisting the urge to put a kiss onto his forehead.

“They were wrong about not giving you a protagonist’s role”, you started to ramble while you tended to his hair, “ever since I’ve started going to school here there are few people who have been as kind, helpful and inspiring as you….I’ve witnessed you do so much good in just this school year alone. You’ve carried the whole Halloween committee on your back, you’ve taught all the dorms how to do make-up for their costumes, you’ve given people so much great advice, you’re always doing your best to make people realize their potential and not to mention you trained this team to the point where they’re capable of doing a professional and excellent performance when some of them were amateurs when we started. Really I can’t think of any hero qualities you wouldn’t have. You’re a hero to me, this team and our school. People have faith in you. We’ve lost against Royal Sword Academy so many times, our students are proud that you’re leading this team. They feel like we’re finally going to win something. You’re a good person and lashing out one time because of emotions you’ve held in for years won’t change that, no matter what people have seen you as in the past and whether or not anyone would condemn you if they saw what happened today.”

Vil was speechless about what you had said. He got compliments from people all over the internet every day but few words of affirmation he received were as heartfelt and genuine as these. Being reassured that he was capable of being a hero and that people could see him that way made him happy. You could see a faint blush appear on his cheeks as he looked up to you and smiled.

Once his make-up and hair was as good as new, he inspected his reflection in a full length mirror. “For as long as I’ve known, Neige was always chosen instead of me”, he sighed, “people see what I’m capable of but I suppose I’m not as cute or loveable as Neige.” It wasn’t insecurity speaking, those were the words that producers had always rather associated with Neige than him. To some extent he could understand why, yet it still was unfair that he had the necessary skills to play a great variety of roles and wasn’t given the opportunity to show them.

“You are. Otherwise I wouldn’t love you, now, would I?”, you sighed, giving him a soft smile, “after all that happened today you might as well know.”

Vil stared at you in surprise. You…loved him? Even after what he almost did? Even after he had shown you the worst side of him? He was left speechless and his eyes had widened but he quickly regained his composure.

“Ara ara, I didn’t know you were that fond of me~”, he gave you a teasing grin.

His expression then softened and he pulled you into his chest, gently wrapping his arms around you and resting his head on top of yours.

You leaned your cheek against him and were caressing his back with your fingertips and closed your eyes, enjoying the embrace while it lasted.

Vil gently lifted your chin with his hand and moved his face closer to yours. “May I?”, he asked quietly. You nodded and not soon after that Vil’s lips met yours.

It was everything you had ever dreamed it would be. It felt a bit like a weight was taken off you when you finally kissed the person you adored and loved so much.

Vil’s kiss was slow and passionate, his tongue gently caressing yours while his hand was placed on your cheek. You could feel he poured so much emotion and care into the kiss. He hadn’t told you yet whether he returned your feelings but you knew him well and you trusted him. He wouldn’t kiss you if he didn’t at least feel something for you. He was probably just overwhelmed from all that had happened and didn’t have the capacity to evaluate your relationship now with the VDC still ahead of him.

But for a moment he could forget all of that. He could forget his problems and that he just overblotted and that he might lose again to Neige. For now he could just lose himself in your kiss while you were holding him close to you.

You made sure to enjoy every second of it, being glad to feel that he was here with you, well and alive, after being so worried about him earlier. It reminded you just how much he meant to you and how you would make sure to never lose him again. A single tear rolled down your cheek as you deepened the kiss and gently ran your fingers through the violet ends of his hair.

“I thought I’d lose you”, you whispered after you seperated your lips from his. Vil placed a few small kisses onto your lips before he answered. “I apologize for that”, he said with his usual tone of professionalism in his voice, “perhaps I could make it up to you some time by taking you out for dinner.” You smiled as he leaned his forehead against yours. “I would love that.”

“I suppose we’ll have to reapply my lipstick”, he grinned and reached for his small make-up bag but not before giving you a few more pecks on your lips and cheeks. Unbeknownst to you, Vil’s heart was fluttering from the kiss and he was looking forward to holding you in his arms again after VDC would be over.

You went on to fix some of his nails which had gotten damaged in the fight, with Vil occasionally complaining and reminding you not to accidentally paint his skin as well. “I’ll smear it across your face if you keep going like this”, you jokingly said.

Once you were done with his nails you pressed a kiss to his knuckles.

“I could get used to this”, he gave you his teasing smile.

“Thank you again for putting up with my tantrum and for supporting me like this”, he said and gave you an acknowledging nod, looking a lot more calm and balanced than he had before. Vitality had returned to his features and he looked ready to steal the show at the VDC.

“No problem”, you replied, holding his hand in your own, “after all I still want to see the fairest one of all perform.”

Vil gave you a loving smile, feeling happy after knowing you considered him to be the most beautiful.

He gave you one last hug before you set off to meet the others at the stage, giving Vil some time alone to make some last preparations for his performance.

“Y/n?”, you heard him ask. “Hmm?”, you turned around in the doorframe, looking at him curiously. Vil looked back at you with a sweet and thankful expression. “I love you too.”

#twisted wonderland #vil schoenheit x you #vil schoenheit headcanons #vil schoenheit x reader #vil schoenheit #twst x reader

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justapurrcat · 2 years

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Chocolate and Cuddles | n.d.

Pairing: Nathan Drake x fem!reader

Synopsis: Just a soft cuddle session with your treasure-hunting boyfriend.

Word Count: 1.335k

Warnings: English not being my first language, mainly fluff, mentions of sex, a pinch of harmless angst bc it’s me.

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A/n: I have nothing to say for myself, this is shamelessly self-indulgent like everything I write. Inspired by this post.

“Fuck this”, Nate grumbled, setting the little book down onto your coffee table. Not as harshly as his frustration would’ve wanted him to, but only because of how priceless that damn object was. The absolute Odyssey he had gone through to retrieve it was another extremely good reason.

When he’d first told you about it, you almost couldn’t believe him, and this was coming from the person he would always return to in between his crazy adventures. However, a quick glance at his naked torso had been more than enough to change your mind: suddenly, that absurd and fantastic story didn’t sound so absurd and fantastic anymore.

Of course, you had immediately freaked out, the position of your med kit being all you could think of. But Nate had effectively silenced your worries – at least for that moment –, instead focusing entirely on you. And with a stamina you couldn’t explain to yourself nonetheless.

Had someone witnessed the steamy, filthy scene unfolding in your tiny bedroom, they would’ve thought you were the one who’d just made a quick stop in Hell.

Crying in shock and relief, realising you had been just one step away from losing him, you had clung to his shoulders for dear life, eyes rolling in the back of your head and legs wrapped around his hips, drawing him as close as you could, as if you were trying to become one with him, all your coherent sentences getting reduced to mindless, yet adoring chants of his name.

“I’m okay. I’m here. I’m yours…”

With deep thrusts that by no doubt had your neighbours hating you for how loud they had made you moan, and soft lips kissing away all your tears, Nate had taken your mind off of everything else that wasn’t his love for you and his body entangled with yours, twisted in bed sheets that were now stained with his blood…

“Everything okay?”, you asked, approaching him with a mug of hot milk-chocolate in your hands.

Nate sent you a weak smile, running a hand through his hair, still wet from the shower. “I’m going nowhere with this”, he sighed, rubbing his eyes, then rested his elbows on his knees. “Might need your help with it.”

You hummed, placing the mug onto the table, careful not to put it too close to the book, and kneeling on the couch right next to him. “I’ll consider it.”

Your eyes naturally flickered to his battered arms and bare back. You had treated him to the best of your abilities, but his skin was still covered in bruises that would take a while to fade.

Nate reached out and grabbed the mug, proceeding to take a long sip. “Thanks, darling”, he murmured, gratefully.

You smirked, poking at his side. “That was for me.”

He turned towards you, jaw dropped and eyes round. “Shit, I’m sorry–”, he began to apologise.

“Just kidding”, you reassured him, raising a hand to remove a little smudge of chocolate from the corner of his mouth. The action transitioned into you affectionately cupping the side of his face. “Just kidding, my love”, you repeated, as your thumb ran over the little cut on his cheekbone.

He chuckled at that, grabbing your wrist and pulling you in, lips claiming their legit place against yours.

The two of you spent a good hour and a half cuddling and working on deciphering the secret message contained in the book, and you had actually gotten to a pretty good point when you noticed that all of the action was finally starting to take a toll on Nate.

You shifted on the couch, moving so that you could have access to his back, then spread your palms over his broad shoulders, leaning in to kiss a blue-ish mark right between his shoulder blades.

Your boyfriend’s initial surprise got quickly forgotten, as he instantly surrendered to you, melting into your featherlight touch and forgetting the coded clue, too.

“Looks like the tireless treasure hunter could use some rest”, you breathed against the nape of his neck. You took your sweet time paying attention to every single wound that soiled his flesh, then, once you were done, you swiftly unbuttoned your shirt – that you might’ve happened to have stolen from him – and scooted closer to him, your front glued to his back, your hands still massaging his shoulders and roaming over his chest.

Nate threw his head back, silently asking himself what he had done to deserve such a sweet little thing as you to bless his life. And kicking his past idiot self for almost losing you. “Fuck, love…”

“Wanna go to bed?”, you offered after a few minutes, lips brushing over the shell of his ear, the gesture eliciting a shiver out of him. “We’ll finish tomorrow.”

He complied and followed you like an obedient puppy, his trademark cocky smirk fading into a love-sick gaze that never failed to make your heart skip a beat, his big, calloused hands not daring to leave yours for a single second.

You had barely touched the mattress when his head dipped to your breasts, taking advantage of the fact that you hadn’t done anything about your – his – shirt, planting soft pecks onto the delicate skin.

“Nate…”, you warned him with a soft gasp. You were still sore, since he hadn’t exactly gone easy on you, doing all in his power to make you come six times in a row, mentioning something about making up for the six months you had spent apart. You couldn’t quite remember, given how he had literally fucked your brains out.

“I know”, he mumbled innocently, and you understood there was no actual malicious intent behind his actions. “Just wanna kiss you, that’s all.”

So you just let him lay you on your back, arching up into him as your eyes fluttered shut, the wonderful sensation of your lover’s lips spreading warmth under your skin, making you feel like you were floating on pasted tinted clouds.

“Nate…”, you purred, filling him with pride, despite how tired he was. He knew all too well that he was the only one allowed to see this side of you, the only one who could make you whisper dreamingly while you were wide awake.

During an argument, you had yelled that he just loved fucking you. It was still in the early stages of your relationship – could you even call it a relationship back then? – when neither of you could quite tell where this thing was going. Well, at least he couldn’t. You certainly could tell way more than he did.

After that, you had stormed out of his apartment, going radio silence for an entire week, and that was what it took him to understand that you weren’t an outlet anymore. He ached for you, he needed you next to him.

God, he fucking loved you.

Once he was satisfied, Nate snuggled into your chest like you were his personal pillow, pressing his cheek against your sternum, so that he could regulate his breathing along yours and let the soothing rhythm of your heartbeat lull him to sleep.

Your fingers idly raked through his locks, nails lightly scraping his scalp. His hair was getting longer. You liked it, but you were ready to bet that tomorrow he was gonna ask you to help him do something about it.

“Can you hold me?”, Nate pleaded quietly, caressing your sides like you were made of glass. “I need to feel you.”

You nodded, and without a word, wrapped your limbs around him when he turned to his side, once again pressing your skin flush against his.

Your boyfriend sighed happily, loving how vulnerable he could allow himself to be in your presence, while still feeling perfectly safe. He took your hand in his and brought it up to his lips, covering every inch of it with kisses, then placed your palm right above his heart and kept it there.

Right where he kept you while he was away.

A/n: Thanks for reading and I hope you liked this! 💜

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djsadbean · 9 months

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do you have any advice for making stickers? your designs are all so pretty!!

ahh thank u sm!! yessir here's some tips i keep in mind when i design/make stickers (mostly from the perspective of someone selling stickers but these can be for personal sticker making too):

design:

try to use the same brush size/type if youd like all of your stickers to look similar. i personally have two i like to alternate between whether I'd like a smooth vs sketch look

also try to use the same size canvas if youre gonna make a lot of 3 inch stickers or 4x6 in sticker sheets (for example) to keep everything looking consistent

find artists you're inspired by and that'll be very helpful to avoid art block. for me, i adore artists who have similar taste and it helps me feel so happy and inspired to make my own art.

people like stickers that are all kinda the same vibe! i like to design stickers that are cute and vibrant and either feature characters i like or aesthetics i like. you gotta like what you make! (they dont all have to have the exact same vibe of course. but ive found that people will like getting all my cute fandom stickers bc they look like they all go together for example)

printing:

if youre cutting these out yourself, rotate the paper, not the scissors for better control. take breaks too! you don't wanna strain your hand! also its worth it to have big girl scissors (i am a big girl with big girl scissors btw ahahaha)

if youre using a cricut or silhouette machine to cut, please consider making all of your stickers easy peel (basically making the sticker its own mini sticker sheet so you remove the outer border so it's easier to peel) because this helps make sure that people from many backgrounds and lives can enjoy your work! It would break my heart to find that someone who has joint pain, for example, can't use the stickers they bought from me because they're too difficult to peel. (If you're hand cutting your stickers, I have no idea how you'd do this so don't worry! Maybe in the future if you decide to invest in a machine, this is something to think about)

if you're using a cutting machine, yes it will take up a lot of time and supplies running tests to see what works with your stickers! and yes you will have to readjust how you do things with the life cycle of the machine's blades. augh........ such a hassle sdjfhksd

when printing for the first time, you may need to spend time running tests and adjusting the colors. some printers need help with the vibrancy and stuff!

when printing your stickers, please only have a few pages loaded in your printer if you're still testing (or in general! i have my paper loaded in one at a time JUST in case I forgot a setting)

if you're printing at a print shop, make sure your file is PDF and that they're printing "actual size" bc otherwise it may change. this would be bad especially if you're planning on using your machine to cut later.

i personally would not recommend ordering your first several stickers outsourced bc you may end up with stock that never sells.

i hope these helped! some may not apply bc theyre for like,,, a sticker biz but maybe someone out there wants this info too :3 ill leave my current supply list in the tags so i can change it if i find that something changes and i dont wanna recommend it anymore

basically read op tags for recommendations :3

#sticker paper (not waterproof) : online labels ‎OL177WX #vinyl sticker paper: koala matte sticker paper #lamination (glossy) : Avery 73601 Self-Adhesive Laminating Sheets #lamination (sparkly): idk theyre like... star style sparkly lamination sheets?? i got em on amazon!#cutting machine: cricut maker (i get so frustrated with this machine tbh once you wrangle your beast its fine tho)#printer: canon pixma g7020 (i LOVE THIS THING...... i understand you lady redundant woman.......)#drawing software: procreate on my ipad 7th gen & 1st gen apple pencil (you could use anything tbh i just like having a stabilizer)#editing software: photoshop (for color editing and placement editing and adding text mostly... this comes in handy with my sticker sheets!)#and if you wanna buy any of this stuff and help support me lemme give you an amazon affiliate link!!! it doesnt cost anything extra and-#amazon has to give me some sweet sweet cash for it #i promise ill be responsible with that money like going to whataburger everyday for a week >:3c #jk jk it would go toward po box costs! its so expensive waaahhhh #djsadbean answers #stickers resource #artist resource #faq

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6kuros · 1 year

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As a fellow creator who is also disturbed and upset by the revelation of pizza tower being a product of 4chan type people, I'm wondering how you handle it? I still want to draw fan art but Im struggling to not get uncomfortable. Basically, I have both love and hate for the game now, and you seem like a cool person so Im wondering how you deal with that. Love your pizza tower fan art sm btw!

im really glad that you enjoy my art, and also am flattered you think im cool!!!

first of all, id like to mention that the art i posted just now was art that i had finished last night, before everything about mcpig came to light and i just wanted to post it since i already had it done…still unsure if im going to draw consistent pizza tower in the future honestly, id like to because its a lot of fun and i really do love a lot about the game. ideally, the current situation would change somehow so i can do that without any discomfort for myself or others, but the only way i foresee that happening is if the devs actually remove the racist shit from the game

what makes me feel (kind of) okay about producing fanart for the game despite what emerged is mostly the fact that as long as i am not reproducing the harmful contents of the game, nor directly supporting the people behind it, im not putting any harm into the world or perpetuating the 4chan stuff i guess? the only thing im really worried about is possibly getting people to want to buy the game by putting my fanart out there, but considering the games popularity from streaming and youtube videos i dont see my own art as contributing to that much. that makes it easier for me not to feel unsettled when i draw fanart for it, but i think that depends on how you view the relationship between fanart and source material, especially in an interactive space like the internet. if you think your art risks sending the message that you approve of negative aspects of a piece of media then its probably better not to share that art

theres also the fact that from the messages that were revealed i get the impression that at some point mcpig had a sort of disdain for "cringe leftists" being fans of the game i guess, and i would consider myself someone who he would/would have found cringe at one point lol. so by being into the game its kind of a fuck you idc that you hate me, this thing you made is being enjoyed by cringe leftists. considering the tone of some of the messages was "if people get mad at me im just going to be edgy in response" i dont even think disengaging with the game would even bother him at all. but all of that is really just speculation and i dont want to insinuate that engaging with bigoted media is proactive just because you are a marginalized person or have progressive politics. its important to actually weigh the harm of your actions and what effect you have with your consumption of said media i dont really know if thats a good answer though, and if it holds up to any sort of moral judgement. i do think its possible to enjoy problematic media, but considering how new the game is its not the kind of thing i can look at and be like "this piece of media is from x years ago and doesnt do real harm now". my worst fear is that there are pizza tower fans who are going to see the awful shit in the game and replicate it, bc the game somehow makes them thinks theres nothing wrong with it or that they can do so without consequence. just from a scope of the fandom there seem to be a lot of young teenagers so Yeah. im concerned in that regard and id like to beam a message into kids' brains thats just like Hey this character design/behavior fucking sucks Dont do this

so, by posting my art anyway i hope i can contribute to a portion of the fanbase that is outwardly against the bigoted content in the game, as an alternative to mcpig dick riders/defenders. and if there are any fans out there involved in the community who dont know better, hopefully they can learn, and avoid perpetuating bigotry

all that being said, your feelings on the matter may be very different, and you dont have to abide to any of this thinking. if a piece of media is upsetting you, its okay to step away from it as long as you need. maybe see how you feel when you come back to it and if the hateful feelings are still there, there is no obligation to engage further

(and as a bottom line if anybody reading this is considering playing pizza tower i suggest you pirate it instead of paying for it)

#ask #anon #also just want to say im open to having a discussion about this and towards critiques of my argument but if it gets to the point #where people are being unreasonable and aggressive ill be turning off anon/closing my askbox

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OVERVIEW UPDATE.

a few updates / changes i'll attempt to be as thorough as possible going over in this post in light of a mutual decision that was discussed last night. if there's any questions, etc. re: anything noted here, my ims, my inbox & my disc ( meatriarch ) are all open for that ♡

firstly to note just a few kind of small roster changes but,

there's a few new faces added ( and another muse, carla / di2 likely upcoming ) who i will be writing into texas alongside verses for their respective canons.

im changing ana to a request-only muse -- mostly because i enjoy getting to write against her rather than as her! and its not because i dont love her character but, she was primarily added here bc at the time there werent really active ana's floating around and now there are, and personally i'd rather both write against AND see others' interpretations shine (: ♡

likewise, i am removing nancy's request-only status and placing her among my active muses. i'll talk more about nancy in particular further down.

request-onlys from now on : ana, simmi, vincent

hoyt remaining as an npc who only crops up from time to time gg

everyone else is considered active

second & main point of this post & what everything else from here out will center around,

certain muses here ( maria, luda & thomas ) are now mutually exclusive with lamb's portrayal of johnny sawyer ( @johnnysslaughter ). ♡ lamb has also made note that his johnny is exclusive to my portrayal of nancy.

obviously this decision impacts several things ( ie. interactions, verses, etc ) here so i will do my best to lay out what things will look like & work from here on out in light of it ♡ and again, if theres any questions / need for further clarification im all ears ♡

INTERACTIONS.

for luda & thomas.

them i'm not too worried over to be fair, but. because of how much lamb & i have been working with integrating the hewitts into the sawyer family as extended relatives, that entire aspect of them ( of them being related, all my hcs regarding the hewitt-sawyers, the reach that the family as a whole has across texas & with authorities, the hewitt-sawyer family tree, etc. ) is closed from here on out between my portrayals of the hewitts & lamb's johnny, and i will not write either of them against other portrayals of johnny. i am, however, open for portrayals of any other of the sawyers / slaughters to be part of that aspect! c: it would just need talks / plotting between lamb, myself, and whoever else! i will, otherwise, default them to their respective remake canons where necessary.

for maria.

the biggest change i think in all of this, but. my portrayal of maria is now exclusive to lamb's portrayal of johnny and vice versa. so much of my maria is heavily entwined with lamb's johnny, we have built and talked about so much with them, so many au's, so many potential trajectories & dynamics between them over these last sevenish months of us writing together. there's alot of comfort and trust that i have in lamb & in their johnny to tackle alot of the more darker themes that can crop up, especially in our shared dire au's. and there's just so much that we've put into our versions of maria & johnny and their bond, their relationships, etc. that we've both realized and talked over how we just can't really picture ourselves writing them against other versions of marias or johnnys. i can't picture my girl, my maria without thinking about lamb's portrayal and vice versa. and it helps, tremendously, with how close and how good of a friend lamb has become over these months and it makes writing them and talking about them together so effortless. our versions of maria & johnny are my roman empire - they are constantly buzzing around in my head & i adore what we've been piecing together for them ♡ it's not often that one comes across a writing partner you really click with but lamb has been that for me this last half a year. so, i will not be writing my maria against other portrayals of johnny from this point on. i know i've sent in a couple prompts from maria and i gently leave what gets answered / deleted from anyones' drafts & inbox up to those i sent them to! i'm also completely okay with anyone reaching out for any further clarity about this change! i have other muses on my roster that, should there be any interest, i'm more than happy to scoot anyones way in light of this - maria, luda & thomas are the muses i am fully exclusive with lamb for, with certain aspects of my portrayal of nancy as well ♡

for nancy.

speaking of momther - lamb has noted exclusivity for his portrayal of johnny to mine of nancy. i, for my nancy, am considering lamb's johnny as my main and because i'm the only person taking on momther - as far as i know at least - my end is not exclusive to lamb's johnny, but my baseline lore for her, her behavior, etc that i will almost always refer to in a general sense is tied back to lamb's johnny. with other portrayals of johnny? i will adapt nancy to fit better into others' thoughts, personal lores, etc! she will retain her abilities as i've detailed them out on her bio! but i will adjust her more on a case-by-case basis ( and i will differentiate which version of her i'm referring to most likely with portrayal-specific tags whenever i happen to yap about her on the dash, once any plotting with her & other johnnys gets going ). i will note, however, that gun's lore point about her and johnny and the dv mention between them? i am not too comfortable with and that itself will definitely take time for me to touch - i have my own history of physical dv in my childhood and so i will be tip-toeing that plot-point extremely carefully with others ( i may have muses who have dealt with that in their backgrounds however, i know what my limits and comfort is with it - others dont ).

FOR VERSES / AUs.

my main verses across the board on this blog - that all my muses fall under as i interconnect their stories together - are as follows : sunlight, shine, wilted, prequel, retribution / ch.2, modern au, college au, & gilded eternity. these verses, for my portrayals across the board, are all tied back to my muses' dynamics with lamb's johnny. this means i will not write in these verses across the board with other johnny's. instead, for any of my muses ( outside of maria / luda / thomas' exclusivity to lamb ) who i may happen to write against other johnnys, i will make alternate, specific au's for those interactions to fall into. my affiliated au's / my dire au's - which are : oath binded & then cold case, no one saved you / we saved us, choke chained, sunflowers & poppies, etc - are all also both tied to lamb's johnny, and will be the only johnny i will explore long-term captive-type plots with for the muses currently involved directly in those listed dire au's. at this point i'm not opening that up for my other muses with other johnny's until there's been both enough plotting and comfort and trust on my end to tackle the kinds of themes that can come up in those dire au's. but, for of course maria as well as my danny at this time, dire routes are exclusive to lamb's portrayal. from this point out, with the rest of my roster, should i write against other johnnys everything will be noted within its own, separate verses / au's from these main / affiliated / dire au's noted above. otherwise, when i talk about johnny in a "general" sense on my blog? i am specifically referring to lamb's portrayal.

i think? these are the main points i wanted to get across? again if theres any confusion / need for clarification my ims, my inbox, my disc are all open for anyone to shoot them my way and i'll do my best to answer them!

#[ 𝘳𝘦𝘯𝘦𝘦. ] ── * psa.#i think i hit on the main points but #if i missed anything ill make note of it as well another time.#i hope this makes sense though - im fighting a headache atm #ill queue this up for both the morning and then evening tomorrow <3 #abuse mention /

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aqours · 6 months

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man

on one hand i don't really like having the fact i'm proship in my pinned post not bc like i'm like ~ashamed~ (lmao) or want to hide it but bc like whiel the last few weeks have been a bit wild with coffin of andy and leyley posts getting traction and multiple people coming to my posts i don't like

like to consider that a major part of my online presence, like i have my irl and my online life and the fact is when i'm online i like to just have fun and enjoy myself and not worry so much about discourse anymore i think part of this site's culture has changed and checking pages isn't as common as it used to be

and i wanna go on the record this isn't an attack on anyone that has done this or me telling you to unfollow but multiple people have followed me despite having like proship dni in their post and i assume if you follow first you don't mind me following back and for the first time somebody sbed me and i'm p sure vagued me when i saw a post on their blog when it's like... it's always ben in my /about and /byf

so i feel a bit blegh about it but i might as well keep it there in my pinned so people now what they're getting ig??? but idk i might remove it too bc it's not my responsibility that other people check pages before they follow if they have a dni but i think newer users might not even know about that aspect of the site culture considering tumblr probably wants to phase out the whole custom theme thing entirely

it's just very asdf;ladsjf

#starposts #again nothing against other ppl who followed me that haven't unfollowed or blocked when they saw i'm proship #esp during my coffin of andy and leyley phase y'all are troopers #jsut something that's been bugging me for a bit and i wanna vent #delete later maybe

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nineliabilityrisk · 4 months

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“ i don't know who i am anywhere else. ”

[[ this specific prompt triggered Something in my brain pardon me while i go wacky over it for a sec /pos (also formatting change bc the hellsite has decided to remove the option to edit ask replies, at least on mobile) ]]

-- [ asked by @mute-call ] --

To say Michael knew the feeling would be an understatement. What he didn't know – or, he supposes, hadn't realized – was that other people felt it, too. Fazbear Entertainment ... it had always been the Aftons' and the Emilys' burden to carry. Their creation, their story, their tragedy. Sure, others had been dragged into the mess in the past – Jeremy, those poor kids, their families – but he hadn't even stopped to consider how some of the other employees had been affected by the company.

Mr. Bell — Steven ( he keeps forgetting, they're more or less on equal ground now, and even if they weren't, they've been casual acquaintances long enough that he doesn't need to keep using honorifics for the guy ) especially. He'd been with the company nearly as long as Michael could remember, and, granted, that wasn't all that long, minus a few key events he would rather forget, but the point still stood. God knows the kind of shit he'd seen in his time here.

Michael was struck with the sudden urge to wrap the guy up in a hug. The kind with a few firm, comforting thumps on the back. Or at least clap a hand on his shoulder. Or something.

It'd been a long time since a real human person had earned an emotion other than mild annoyance from him, but Bell had done it.

Even still, he did exactly none of those things. Because those weren't things he did, and it would be weird if he did them at all, let alone to Mr. Bell of all people, the guy he's kind-of-sort-of-known for years now and only in a professional capacity. He'd probably explode from embarrassment. Or get asked if he needs to be drug tested. Or both. Maybe not in that order.

So, narrowly avoiding that absolute fucking nightmare, ( god, that would've been horrible, this is only their third or fourth time interacting outside of work and it's only because someone fucked up their schedules, Bell seemed like he was having a bad day, and Mike 'had nothing better to do' — he felt bad and wanted to help out but don't tell Steven that ) he just inclined his head and gave him an affirmative hum. If a small smile came with it, then, well... Can't blame him.

"Yeah, I... Yeah. This place... Hasn't really been the best, for me. But it's not like I can leave, y'know? Fazbear's is my home... Whether I like it or not," he said, ending it off with a soft chuckle as he remembered that Steven may not be as... Disillusioned with the company as he was.

Michael's reason for staying may be entirely different from Steven's, but... Steven doesn't need to know that. Better to keep him from knowing all the shit Michael's tangled himself up in with this company. Better to keep him from worrying. Safer for him, too, probably.

"Just, uh... I know how you feel. I'm here for ya, buddy." God. This is why he doesn't have friends. Not because it's hard, but because he sucks absolute ass at it.

#m | ic: threads ; michael #others | ic: threads ; steven #interactions ; michael & steven #mute-call #[[ replies tag ]]#timeline is a little fuzzy on this one just. yknow. fuck it no timeline just 2 bros hanging out #failbesties. i love them already.

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hikari-ni-naritai · 9 months

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Tw: Emily sexuality talk

Talking about instances of my own sexuality is such a fucking wild tightrope to walk. For one, lifelong bottom dysphoria and religious upbringing made me feel like any expressions of my sexuality were deeply deeply shameful, so over the last like 11 years of being on this website I've built up a persona that's wholly uninterested in sex or sexuality outside of ironic joking about it. But problem 2 is that this isn't like. Incorrect. 95+% of the time, thinking about sex creates the same physical reaction as thinking about embarrassing things I did in middle school (full-body shudder and cringe). Sex is gross and most of the time I want no part in it.

But like, with respect to problem 1, I don't have bottom dysphoria anymore. I got that shit cut off and I have a body I'm comfortable in. And this comes with a confusing change wherein getting off is emotionally value neutral instead of deeply shameful and repulsive. It's still not something I do frequently, like in the 14 months since my surgery there's been all of like, 7 times I could be bothered to do it. But considering I talk about literally everything that crosses my mind on this blog, it's weird to now have something I occasionally think about that I feel like I can't talk about.

And, as an aside, the thing about my anxiety is that it's always extremely insulated from social pressure. Like, if someone said to me 'Emily nobody will judge you for x thing, you can do it safely here', that is going to do fuck all for me because I don't worry about what other people think about me. I worry about how I present myself. I am judging myself. That has nothing to do with whether or not someone else judges me. So I'm not gonna fuckin do it, bc I don't want to.

And that's why I couldn't talk about instances of my sexuality prior to surgery. That sort of anxiety. I was personally deeply ashamed of it completely removed from how anyone else would feel about it. Talking about my scar fetish or whatever is different, bc I don't like Get Horny looking at scars, it's a very aesthetic and tactile appreciation. So there's no shame for me.

But now I have no reason to be ashamed of it anymore? Beyond social pressure that I've put on myself through my persona. Which is a weird and uncomfortable feeling for me!! I don't like it! And like it's tempting to say fuck it and just post whatever I want about my sexuality. But also, I don't wanna fuckin deal with people questioning me on my being deep into the ace spectrum. Bc like I am very often sex repulsed, but there are certain circumstances where I would happily have sex with someone, they're just rare and I don't actively seek them out bc sex isn't important to me. And I don't want people to get the idea that I'm a more sexual creature than I really am. I've gotten distracted writing this. The point is that while I'm not personally into it and wouldn't be interested in doing it myself, the petplay scene was infinitely hotter than the scissoring scene.

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moriihana · 1 year

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we can't fix each other but we sure as hell can enable each other instead || nine: no need for apologies

pairing: dabi x disabled!gn!reader

overview: you meet dabi pre-canon because your cat, nugget, literally won’t leave the guy alone. friendship, fluff and (eventual) angst ensue.

chapter summary: you apologise to compress, discuss your willingness to stab people and the reality of society, then have a conversation with dabi about being disabled.

content: angst and fluff

warnings: uhhh some depression regarding being disabled bc i was projecting,

word count: 1272

a/n: no gif this time but this matches his unamused expression so we're using it. also shamelessly promoting the art i did of my self-insert since they're who it was originally written for. please consider checking it out bc i'm super proud of the art and their design in general

*previously known as “we can’t fix each other (but we can heal our wounds together)”; i changed the title bc these assholes aint healin shit they’re just being overall menaces

taglist: @iincandescenttt

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“I’m… sorry about your arm, Compress.” You rubbed the back of your neck awkwardly, glancing at the metal prosthetic he now had.

“Don’t worry your pretty little head about it, dear,” Compress dismissed your concern with a wave of his hand. “Dabi explained how your Quirk works after you left the room. I would’ve much rather had lost my arm and gotten the prosthetic than having you heal the wound and lose your arm. Also, Dabi probably would’ve killed me. Shigaraki too.”

“More like forcibly removed from the room,” you grumbled, “but… yeah, understandable. And yeah, probably.”

“Oh, I definitely would have.” Dabi walked into the room, stretching his arms over his head. “Any of you fuckers put them in that much distress again, it’s over.”

“Dabi, don’t threaten him, you asshole. It’s not his fault he lost his goddamn arm,” you snapped, scowling. “Don’t be a dick.” “Yeah Dabi, don’t be a dick!” Twice called from his spot on the floor.

“Oi, don’t call him a dick.” You turned your glare to Twice. “Only I can call him a dick.”

“That doesn’t seem very fair. That’s fair!”

“Life ain’t fair.” Dabi shrugged. “‘sides, Y/N wouldn’t hesitate to stab anyone who insults me, even jokingly. I doubt the League’s excluded.”

“Unless it’s Toga. I could never stab Toga. Probably not Shig either, he’d just decay my knife and Dabi got that for me.” You grinned, a little feral. “The rest of you are fair game, though.”

“Why wouldn’t you stab me? What if I wanted you to stab me?” Toga whined, pouting. “Don’t you stab the people you love?”

“You little psychopath, stabbing isn’t a love lang—” Before Dabi could finish his sentence, he noticed the glare you had directed at him and decided to shut up. (If looks could kill, he’d be dead on the spot.)

“Please don’t stab anybody,” Kurogiri said carefully, polite as ever. “I would rather not have to clean unnecessary blood up.”

“Ain’t you a healer, anyways? You’re s’posed to be against violence or whatever.” Shigaraki walked into the room, hands in his hoodie pocket. “Anyways, I thought you didn’t like seeing the people you cared about hurt.”

“Stereotyping now, are we, boss?” You asked jokingly. “Nah, though—I know the whole “your Quirk affects your personality” thing exists, but that never applied to me. I’m fine with violence. Enjoy it, even.” You shrugged. “And a little stabbin’ never hurt anybody. I wouldn’t do too much damage, don’t worry! Nothing I couldn’t heal.”

“I can definitely confirm this. I’ve seen them fuck some people up for no reason whatsoever.” Dabi perched himself on the arm of the sofa, next to you.

“Okay, it was not for no reason whatsoever. Some guys were being assholes and insulting me and my cane and it was pissing me off. So I beat the shit out of them,” you huffed and crossed your arms. “And then Dabi set them on fire.”

“And I’d do it again.” Dabi smirked.

“I think it’s safe to say any of the League would do the same to someone insulting you, Y/N. We may be Villains, but I think we’re better than a lot of people. At least we aren’t discriminatory assholes.” Compress sounded annoyed.

“I appreciate the willingness to murder on my behalf,” you snorted, shaking your head. “And honestly? Yeah. At least we don’t judge people based on their gender, or what they look like, or whether they’re disabled or not. Can’t say that for most of society. Heroes included.”

“And we don’t judge people by their Quirks,” Spinner piped up. “You guys didn’t turn me away or look at me differently because of my heteromorphic Quirk. Most people wouldn’t even glance my way.”

“And they call us the bad guys,” Shigaraki hissed. “We’ll tear down this trash society and build a better one, where we live freely.”

You had retreated to your room shortly after that conversation, deciding to hang out in there for the rest of the evening. You were sitting on the bed with your eyes shut and your back against the pillows. Boo was curled up in a ball next to you and Nugget in your lap. You opened your eyes at the sound of Dabi’s footsteps approaching. “Hey, pretty boy.”

“I was wondering where you’d gone off to, doll. You left damn pretty quick.” He stopped by the foot of the bed.

“Checkin’ on me, pretty boy?” You asked teasingly. When you saw his unamused expression, you sighed, “I hate that you know me so well. It’s annoying.”

“Only annoying when you’re moping around, mouse,” Dabi countered, sitting down on the bed. “We both know I’m not very good at the whole feelings shit—”

“—more like the absolute worst—”

He ignored your interruption. “—but I’m pretty sure sitting in your room by yourself is doing fuck all to help.”

“Yeah yeah, Mister I-Know-Everything.” You frowned. “I just… I dunno, sometimes I get a little more frustrated about my disability than usual. I’m really not of much use to the League other than my healing ability. Sure I can fight, but I’m slower than the rest of you, more likely to get hurt or caught. It’s annoying, y’know? I don’t usually think about how I’m kinda… usel—”

“If you say useless, I will smack you.” Dabi sighed when you chuckled sheepishly. “You aren’t useless, doll. Y’think Dusty would’ve recruited you if he thought you were useless?”

“...probably not,” you groaned. “It’s really annoying when you make a point. You know that, right?”

“You hate when I’m right, you mean,” he drawled, leaning back next to you.

“Same thing, asshole.”

“Maybe you should stop being wrong all the time.” Dabi smirked.

“Maybe you should be quiet, pretty boy. I wanna be right more often,” you bit back without any real heat.

“Get good, I dunno what to tell you, mouse.”

“You are such an ass. Come into my room, disrespect me while sitting on my bed, I cannot believe this.” You stuck your tongue out at him. “What next, you getting along with Shigaraki?”

“Oh fuck that. No way in hell I’m getting along with him. Sometimes he’s more childish than Toga, no fuckin’ way,” Dabi grunted, shaking his head.

“You’re too hard on them sometimes, pretty boy. Remember, we’re all outcasts here—we might as well embrace it. Anyways, I see how you treat Toga when you think no one’s lookin’. I can see the big brother in you.” Your expression softened. “Despite her… tendencies… she’s a sweet kid. Makes sure to steal extra painkillers for me and stuff for Nug and Boo, spends time with the two of them when we’re busy…”

“Alright, alright. I get it.” Dabi flicked your forehead. “Not a word of that to anyone else, though, ya hear? Don’t need anybody thinkin’ I’ve gone soft, not to mention… y’know.”

You sighed and nodded. “Yeah. Not ‘til it’s time, I know. I still think it’s sweet, though. When you treat Toga like a little sister. It’s nice to see you let your guard down a little bit around someone other than me. You deserve to relax more than you do. I know joining the League was to work faster towards our dreams, but that doesn’t mean we can’t enjoy ourselves when given the chance, yeah?”

He snorted, “Enjoy ourselves, huh, doll?”

“Why the hell not? We’re as free as we can be at the moment, no reason not to take advantage of that. Besides, a little bit of chaos every now and then is fun.”

“I guess I’ll let you be right every so often, mouse.”

#dabi x reader #dabi x you #todoroki touya x reader #todoroki touya x you #touya todoroki x reader #touya todoroki x you #todoroki toya x reader #todoroki toya x you #toya todoroki x reader #toya todoroki x you #my writing #bnha fanfiction #navi: we cant fix each other #writing.txt

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grimdarksora · 9 months

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Personal gender vent under the cut. System-wide stuff, but my blog is most relevant (and private). Lots of negative body image and dysphoria issues.

(and when I use 'I' it's meant to be used for the entire system)

I wish I could admit out loud to regretting starting T. If I had one wish in this entire world, it would be to undo the changes from testosterone. Not money, not fame, I would wish to have never started T. I hate not being able to cry so much it's driving me mad, I hate my facial hair, I hate my voice. I feel like I can't properly be any of the genders I am because I'm a mix of all presentations at once in a really dysphoric way.

I genuinely feel so uncomfortable in my body I'm considering laser hair removal. I think if I have to go through life with this beard I just... I can't. I would rather die. I want to peel my skin off each time my stubble comes in, yes even the men in our system. Even they hate it, it's painful at worst and uncomfortable/itchy at best. Lack of facial hair was never a thing I felt dysphoric about, if anything I feel so dysphoric with it. I feel repulsive to myself. I like facial hair on others, but mine makes me want to cry. I can't even take compliments on it, I tune them out and auto-reply with a thanks.

Even now I worry about how that comes off, as if thinking myself disgusting will make other trans people who look like me think I'm thinking of them that way and I'm not. It's just... Not who I am in such a deep, visceral way that I don't even look at myself anymore. I avoid my face in the mirror or reflective things, only looking at my eyes. I just don't want to know what I look like because it's so far from what I picture and want.

Trust me, I love people with weird and complicated genders. That's just not how I feel comfortable presenting. I wish my gender presentation was one where I could wear a dress with a beard and hairy legs because I think that's such a badass look, but that's just not me.

Rarely there are days where I own it and feel comfortable in it, but they're so rare. I'd honestly be more comfortable being dysphoric about my... Gendered traits from birth than from my T results. I hold on tight to the thought that maybe top surgery will help? Maybe if I'm more aligned to one binary gender then it'll feel less uncomfortable even if the gender itself isn't always the right one?

If I could do it all over I would never start it. But I can't and I'm here. I feel like I'm betraying the trans community for my thoughts too, like I'm a bad person because I can't just own being gender weird and out about it. But my gender presentation is very specifically binary, not both or something in between.

The only thing that makes me feel okay is that some people think I'm attractive. Maybe if I'm more involved in queer communities IRL it'll help? To see more people like me? But I feel like it won't help that the way I look is not me. It's not any of us, it's like a stranger.

Sometimes I tell myself "maybe it's bc I'm a bottom and bottoms are generally clean shaven and smooth" but like. I know that's not true! Bottoms can have hair! I don't feel like any less of a bottom! I instead feel soul-deep, identity-based dysphoria about it. It's barely even about gender most of the time and is more about how "that's not how I want my face to look!" Yet I can do nothing to change it at this point.

And did I mention it's PAINFUL? I shaved less than 12 hours ago and I'm in sensory hell feeling the stubble starting to come in under the surface. The texture of my skin will never be the way I want it to. Where my facial hair is has grown less sensitive, less soft. Touching it, the sensation it receives is unpleasant and it's so tender after shaving.

I think I really should have taken into account that I didn't want any secondary sex characteristics. No beard, no tits, nothing. That's my Ideal to feel more comfortable. I would do anything to undo this. I was so focused on following the traditional transition route I didn't think about my individual needs.

Sort of related, but lately I'm even less hateful of my dead name, some of us love it in fact! I had system members considering using it, almost going so far as to request people close to me use it for someone, but trans allies try to hate your dead name for you so I just couldn't. I lost that to testosterone too I guess.

I'm not a woman, but I wish I'd done more soul searching to realize I'm not a man either and that rejecting femininity so hard would backfire and force me towards masculinity. Which isn't better or less dysphoric actually!

I'm just so unhappy about my transition and it feels transphobic to express that even if it's MY BODY and MY GENDER. I feel so trapped in this body I hate more and more with each time I have to shave.

#i keep reading this over and over #it feels so fucking cathartic to write it all out #personal post /////

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viviennevermillion · 2 years

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Taking care of Vil during Halloween Week

notes: reposting bc I’m deleting my archived sideblogs. this man needs a break.

contains: vil schoenheit x gn!reader

warnings: none

Vil is literally so tired and stressed. They all are but I mean just look at him during the committee meeting before the thing with the statues happened, everyone else has an obviously upset expression on their face and Vil looks absolutely exhausted too but he’s leading this whole thing and he’s used to dealing with overwhelming fans or “magicam monsters” so he’s trying to hold it together for the rest of the group. And then the statue of his role model gets thrown to the ground. You can see how upset and disappointed he is. So it’s pretty much inevitable that the more Halloween week progresses, the more tired Vil is by the end of the day

It honestly starts off pretty normal. You two appreciate each other’s costumes and you love seeing how Vil handles the kids and the visitors. He’s so gentle to them which makes you weak in the knees and makes your heart melt. He likes all the Halloween costumes of the dorms so even if you’re not in the same dorm he’ll find you pretty.

If you’re in Pomefiore you help him setting up his venue and dealing with the visitors and his fans. You occasionally bring him a glass of water or smile at him from across the room. He’s pretty busy so you two don’t get to interact much during the day.

If you’re in another dorm one of you two will find time to visit the other at least once on each day of Halloween week. Most likely it’s you visiting the Mirror Chamber because Vil hardly gets away from the fans. His eyes light up when he sees you, it’s like receiving a well-deserved break in the middle of a stressful work day.

Usually, as we know from his personal story, he doesn’t take photos for free but since he’s taking pics with the children, you definitely deserve some too! He takes some selfies with you and group pictures with you two, Rook and Epel. You find him smiling on those the most, more so than on the pictures with his fans.

Will squeeze your hand when no one’s looking.

At the end of the day you always excitedly tell each other about your experiences with the guests and show the photos you’ve taken during the day. He tells you how much he missed you and presses a kiss to your forehead when you say good night to him.

It’s when the magicam monsters start becoming a problem that Vil really needs you to make it through all the stress. Because Vil cares deeply about Night Raven College and he obviously takes pride in being a student there so even though he might not show it, he actually gets pretty worried that his fans might cause trouble in the school or for his fellow Pomefiore students and lowkey blames himself and his presence whenever this happens.

After the guests left he meets up with you in his room and you instantly notice he needs some help relaxing after all of this.

You help him remove his makeup and apply his skincare routine. There are a lot of steps and things to consider but it’s like learning to drive, it might seem overwhelming and like too much information at first but with time you get the gist of Vils evening routine. Vil has probably a major headache by then and enjoys not having to do this himself for once. It’s refreshing for him. Will criticize you though if you forget something or a spot on his face that still has makeup on it. That’s just how he is. You press a kiss to his forehead once you’re done removing his makeup.

He’ll give you a weak smile and once he changed from his costume to more comfortable clothes, he’ll collapse into bed, place his head into your lap and most likely falls asleep instantly for a short time while you run your fingers through his hair. Vil is touch-starved™, so watch him lean into your touch and smile with his eyes closed as he drifts off to sleep.

Sleep, in that case, is more like a short nap. He wakes up after about 30 minutes, still feeling absolutely drained but energized enough to go on an angry rant about the magicam monsters. Obviously he’s very stressed and you listen to him attentively, resuming to run your fingers through the strands of blond hair or over his back, but let’s be honest, Vil going on an angry rant is also kind of funny. Remember that time he scolded Malleus for talking about the differences between dragons and dragon fae for an hour? It’s like that but he talks like this for a solid 10-15 minutes.

“How can those people not have the necessary respect to at least follow the rules we give them after all the work we put into organizing this Halloween week for them???!?!” “Careful Vil, if you continue like this you’re going to get wrinkles on your face”, you tease him and chuckle. Bad idea. Now you have to convince him that he definitely doesn’t have any wrinkles on his face. Will compulsively get off the bed and inspect his skin in the mirror.

Once he’s satisfied with not finding any wrinkles he sits back down on the bed. You start massaging his shoulders and back to help him relax. His muscles are strained and stiff after those days so he welcomes the massage. Closes his eyes and just sits there enjoying your touch.

Honestly Vil is one of those people who just adore to be pampered. If you know how to do that, especially when he’s tired and stressed, Vil Schoenheit is yours in a heartbeat. After you’re done with the massage he leans his back against you and you wrap your arms around his waist from behind, leaning your cheek against his shoulder.

“I love you, Vil”, you whisper, placing several soft kisses to the back of his neck. “What would I do without you, potato?”, he says with a gentle voice and turns around, smiling at you.

You two share multiple sweet kisses and he leans his forehead against yours, apologizing for not being able to do the same things for you that you’re doing for him these days. You understand him though, after all your role in Halloween week is rather being supportive of Vil and the fellow students of your dorm from the background while Vil is constantly surrounded by visitors, hardly catching a free minute during the day. Besides, you love taking care of him after all.

You’ll eventually lay down to cuddle and Vil falls asleep in your arms. Vil is also 1000% the little spoon and I will take no criticism on that.

You two laugh after the night when all the students collectively scared the magicam monsters off the campus, sharing the things that happened and the stories about how the other dorms managed to scare them off. Vil is in a rather good mood after that night.

Will formally ask you to accompany him to the party on the 31st. He’s extra dramatic about it, adressing you as “dearest y/n” and bringing you flowers that reminded him of you. Of course he’ll do your hair and makeup for that party because what else do you expect of him. “Thank you for being there for me all this time”, he holds your hand all the way from the Pomefiore dorm to the place where the Halloween party is.

#vil schoenheit x you #vil schoenheit headcanons #vil schoenheit x reader #vil schoenheit #twst x reader #twisted wonderland

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inkwell-intermission · 1 year

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//caps, silliness

I saved the reblog in the drafts for now bc I got insecure about my tags and decided to leave them for later anyway I think I'll now send an ask too

I love your ref and your headcanons so much

YOUR SCOFF HAS A BAD KNEE AND USES A CANE. MY SCOUT HAS BAD KNEES AND USES A CANE (bc I've got bad knees and use a cane and SS is my blorbo).

Your Scoff. My Scout. CANE FIGHT. Deadeye and Innovator are facepalming x4 combo in the background. Demo is asking Brawler if there's a fourth cane user around because he wants to canefight too. Scout probably loses, not because Scoff has shadow magic but because Scoff's got one bad knee and Scout's got both.

3. Am I taking it correctly that in your mobswitch TS are "still" Prospitians and MC are still Dersites? Yay!!!!!!!!!! (If I'm being mistaken please don't think I'm fuck I can't pick a good word let's say judging for now you for it)

Thank you!!!!!

That would be great and accurate, Delinquent might simply try to remove a cane-shaped object from the ground and use that instead, making the fight much higher stakes if one is bludgeoned with half a lamppost lmaoo. Scoff walks with and without his cane often but usually carries it as an accessory when he isn't, it would be better for his overall health if he used it all the time, but he obviously can't walk on it when he's currently hitting people with it, and sometimes goes without for appearances sake or convenience- he's very worried about appearances and sometimes worries he'll be seen as weaker for walking with the cane, but the concern is kinda misplaced considering he can just like. beat someone to death with it if they don't take him seriously. But hes so anxious about it that even that logic doesn't help

Yes!!!! I think some people make them switch planets, which seems.... weird to me. Lik it feels kind of unnecessary and arbitrary to me, and I think it's a lot more interesting to figure out how slight changes of events would have drastically changed their personal trajectories than to just. Make a change like that. I also personally think its a bit flattening, like Prospitan good guys and Dersite bad guys. That's just not the case, definitely if you consider WV, AR, and PM, who are all of similar alignment and come from different planets. I also just like exploring how Prospit isn't all that great after all- for example, I don't think they take prisoners of war- it's usually interrogations followed by executions. Which makes sense to me from a gameplay standpoint- If your comrade as a player is captured by the enemy, it would feel unfair if they just killed them immediately- you should get a chance to rescue them. But the bad guys don't need to be afforded such a luxury- you get the information out of the spies you catch, and then get rid of them. It may seem to players that this means prison, but behind the scenes I think Prospitans can be fairly ruthless as a war force, because they're so serious about helping the players and ensuring the frog's creation, while i think Derse kind of knows the field of play is unequal, and has a slightly looser strictness in terms of allowing silly bullshit all the way up the chain. They play the villains, and definitely know it, so they have a bit of fun with it. Prospitans play to *win*, which is one reason why they'd take horrorterrors so seriously as a risk that cannot be allowed to propagate on their planet, y'know? I really like exploring Derse and Prospit in general, mobswitch is a fun way to do that, my Innovator and Scoff especially have some stuff from there that haunts them. tldr i think the Prospit/Derse switch is arbitrary and misplaced, maybe theres a way to do it well but its just not my style to make decisions like that for no substantial reason this response is a little long and im sorry for that but i really appreciate the chance to talk more about these guys! I made another post with more fun facts about Scoff here also in case you wanted to peep the horror, i super appreciate your ask and hope this isnt too long to read

#it got long but #i really like answering asks like these #<:D #hs intermission #problem sleuth #peccant scofflaw #headcanons #twilight scoundrels #tags for sorting and searching purposes usually if thats not clear i like to be organized #long post #wont put a keep reading on this one though

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