#I didn't even get free food ~~~~~

[anonprotagging]

I have. one week. to finish. a massive amount of drawing.

and 3 weeks to finish the massive test that will determine if I have a future in the job I've been working towards for 8 years or not. and instead of working on either of those I had the audacity to SLEEP. ALL NIGHT and ALL DAY TODAY because of working a 10-hour major work event yesterday on 2 hours of sleep.

and I have to do ohhhh about 6 or so hours of work TODAY to make up for the work I didn't get to do yesterday. which means I actually have 6 days to finish the entire PLA comic arc in time for gene's birthday.

I'm in hell I'm in hell I'm in hell I'm in hell I'm in hell I'm in hell I'm in hell I'm in hell I'm in hell I'm in hell I'm in hell I'm in hell I'm in hell I'm in hell I'm in hell I'm in hell I'm in hell I'm in hell I'm in hell I'm in hell I'm in hell I'm in hell I'm in hell I'm in hell

#also as usual of course that event wasn't paid ~ #I didn't even get free food ~~~~~ #the american system exploits college students~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ #I'm literally weeping. #if it were like a normal year I wouldn't be so stressed about this but I'm trying to finish grad school and pass my job test and gene's #turning TEN YEARS OLD. Ihave had him for 10 years and I can't even fuckin g . get him HOME . in time for the anniversary of me making him. #ahhh let's be real in a normal year I'd still be pretty stressed about this but not quite this much. I'm trying to get HIRED for JOBS #in my FIELD while WORKING a job in my field. I love my job I just want to get a good job and then I'll have enough money to get fancy comms #from my friends more often and help my mom with rent and pay off my stupid student loands and figusdgfdssgdsds #I'm so overwhelmed AAAAAAUHHHH....... #personal #negative

[coquelicoq]

girl help the beautiful man at the food truck flirted with me and shook my hand with his big gorgeous hand and held on a little longer than he needed to (but in a good way) and then he gave me a free mango lassi and THEN left his food truck unattended to go get me a bottle of water after i asked if there was any water available and after all that all he wants in exchange (other than payment for the food i ordered) is for me to rate him on google maps. but girl i don't even know how to do that

#how hard can that be you may ask. well for your information he told me my smile is beautiful and he was very sweet AND #he has a gorgeous beard and voice. so. kind of distracted at the moment. #this is nice. lately the attention i've been getting from strange men is like. a guy on the bus offering me his half-eaten ice cream tube #(didn't even know ice cream came in tubes) and a guy propositioning me for $5 while i was waiting to cross the street #so for a man to give me free things & hold my hand & ask how i am doing WHILE being handsome at me was a little much all at once #i was so overwhelmed i made such a fool of myself. i almost gave him MY ADDRESS???? #get yourself together @me #anyway i guess i have to figure out how to rate places on google maps now. i didn't even know that was a thing people did #my posts #even though i know how flirting with customers works when you work in food service it does not make it any less overwhelming #to be on the receiving end of. i used to flirt with customers all the time. but i am not drop dead gorgeous so. #watch where you point that smile sir i am going to expire

[goatsandgangsters]

jfc salt in the fucking wound

SO I FINALLY, AFTER FOUR YEARS, TESTED POSITIVE FOR COVID

would you like to know. the ONLY place I have gone in the entire last week. the only place?

hauling up to boston to go to my job :))) that I am leaving :)))) because of how often they make me commute to boston :))))))) the job that I just gave my two weeks notice at on monday :))))))))

#I am. so fucking pissed. #fOUR YEARS! FOUR YEARS!!! #we had a stupid ~staff retreat~ and I thought it'd be nice to go and say goodbye to people #so of course I was in a room with tons of people and i WAS MASKED but literally no one else was #also symptoms wise: I just have a killer sore throat and like. the miiiildest fatigue #I was gonna go get a strep test today and took the at-home covid test just to like. assuage my anxiety #I really didn't expect it to be positive #I also uhhh? don't know what to do? bc I want to prioritize Resting even with mild symptoms #but I just gave my fucking two weeks so it's not like I can take sick time? #and I have to wrap up almost five years at a job #OH I'M SO MAD #FOUR FUCKING YEARS #AND THEY GET ME ON THE STUPID *STAFF RETREAT* OF THE JOB I'M LEAVING *BECAUSE THEY MAKE ME COMMUTE UP FOR STUPID SHIT* #the free food wasn't even good

[salsflore]

everyday i wake up and have to start a new boss challenge called dealing with my mother

#not a single speck of consideration for whether or not i'm busy or tired or sleeping #she doesn't even TRY. the text is too small? ok i'll make it bigger. but wait now she's lazy to read. doesn't even want to try to understan #we had this whole thing yesterday where she was raising her voice at me bc she didn't get that #basically free shipping if products r over $500. our Total (incl. delivery) was $488 and she wanted to add on but i told her no... delivery #is $70. and she wasnt getting me so she was raising her voice like holy shittt not everything has to result in you yelling!!!! #you wake me up when i'm sleeping just to help you. you disturb me when i'm studying omggg girl please.... #i remember her [ why does it say– what transaction? i didn't make any transaction ] the text was literally- #[ no current transaction history ] smth like that like MOTHER???????????? and i think she's been telling my sister i'm complaining abt it #should i die. 1 like i'll do it #power outage started so i'm going to stay in my room and nap until lunch fml #but i have to go out and help my mom with an app thing first bc ofc #she admits shes just not bothered to READ. when it comes to emails or ordering food or anything like ohvm mymgodog #and shes so short tempered fuckkk ?!? #AH. EDIT BC I REMEMBERED. when she got an email today.. her application was rejected #for smth smth. anyways it told her she could login to the website using her birth info. (e.g 1870....) and she was like #u typed something wrong bc why does it say 1870... LIKE MOTHER ITS AN EXAMPELREFKWKSABHAHHHHH #THE EXAMPLE DIDNT EVEN HAVE HER NAME?!?£ #💭 #cw rant #negative

[r-truth]

patting your head and giving you a nice loaf of garlic bread

who would've thought sam...... i posted that gifset for you. your wrestle boys. now they're your wrestle elves idk anymore

#i didn't even join the sparkly side !!!!!!!!! do you get that !!!!!!!!!!!!! #also i ate garlic bread not too long ago! restaurants give you some for free before you ask for your food like an appetizer #most restaurants here anyway #braywashed #answered

[indigodawns]

.

#guess who got covid again!!! #my friend who lives on the floor below me + his partners got it and they kept their door open which made me Nervous #but i was like ugh don't be mean etc im sure it's fine and id wrap my scarf over my nose and mouth at least and wash my hands #but thursday evening i was like oh no. oh feels Bad and friday was fucking awful i think i had a migraine on top of it #but saturday was okayish! so i ordered food and i added a note saying please feel free to leave it near the door #but they didn't see/didn't speak dutch so i had to get it from them anyway and i kept my distance in between but blegh blegh #idk i just hate this i hate thinking who i mightve infected i hate that this means im stuck here for another week i hate our fk government #and i hate my own spinelessness #and something about. what else is going on beside covid? oh yeah fucking genocides. jfc.

[vulpixelates]

oijeaofi i am so tired of being sick 😩👎

#sorry i need to complain about how sick i feel and didn't want to bother anyone 😭 feel free to ignore this #turns out that blueberries are my NEMESIS and i only found this out after eating them for three breakfasts straight aofeijaoi #so my entire body is inflamed and my intestines are trying to kill me every time i eat even if it's the most low fodmap food ever #i hope things sort themselves out soon aeoifaj i've been trying to ween myself off of taking so much ibuprofen but like #i'm just in so much pain all of the time 😭😭 #unless i eat like. the blandest food in the world and also lay flat on my back all day and stare at the ceiling which makes me want to die #i had been in kind of a good place where i wasn't getting tummy sick as much but lately it's been so bad #i've quit all caffeine now too hoping it will help so i'm exhausted from that aeofiaoijf it's just a disaster #and i've been having cold-like/allergy symptoms for like a month lmao awoiefajoi it's just never ending!!! #even my period gives me flu-like symptoms #i need to go to a doctor about it but there's not much they can do for half of the things that are wrong w me aoijefaoi #i feel like the most they'll do is give me muscle relaxers for the tmj and i don't want to be on heavy duty meds like that aiewojf #uuuggggghhhhhhhhhhh #*dykeposting

[irawhiti]

man there is really no way out of poverty huh. like for real.

#no matter how much money i save up over years and years it literally won't ever be enough #i'm just never gonna get anything i want done like top surgery and i have to accept that. at the bare minimum it's gonna take over a decade #i have over 10 thousand dollars worth of dental work that needs to be done now #which would have been completely free if my parents just took me as a teen. free. but they didn't because they're abusive fuckwads #so now i gotta foot the bill. i'll never forgive them for a lot of things and that's one of the biggest things lol. #it's gonna cost several thousand dollars just to get me out of here back into a city too not even including finding a place and paying bond #everything i've saved up for literal years now is literally nothing compared to the bare minimum to potentially stop being fucking homeless #i've lost all the weight i gained from being able to feed myself bc i'm back with my parents with even less access to food than last time #so i'm just like... chronically malnourished and fainting all the time again. it really feels like the past few years were for nothing #i wish i had a bed. i haven't had a bed for well over a year now. #it's so fucking expensive to be homeless and for what. i was able to take a shower for the first time in two weeks today #taking a shower costs $30 for me. i'm so tired man. #delete later

[robotpussy]

hours have passed and I still don't know if what I experienced was racism/misogyny or if I am so repulsive people want to ignore me and act like I'm invisible

#at lunch i went to a food truck with my editor and 2 other ppl in my class #and i was ignored the entire time i didnt even get to order and i kept trying to get the man's attention #i raised my voice and everything and he just ignored me but when another man came after me he immediately gave #him all his attention like he didnt even say anything he was immediately served #and the guy at the truck gave out some free crepes and he went 'do you 3 want to try our crepes?' mind you there are 4 of us there #i would like to think that guy just didn't want to interact with me and there actually isnt anything wrong with me

[guinevereslancelot]

the problem with completing tasks for money is not the task. it's dealing with the person who needs you to do the task in the first place

#never make a webbed site for an old person #i did it for free for my moms friend bc i made on for myself and it was easy #but that was when i was the customer #i just spent way too long on the phone trying to get an old person to provide basic information abt her email #she doesn't know her email address or password #i ended up making her a new one to use for the website #she hasn't tried to log in yet but i can only hope she can manage that and take over the website from here #but i doubt it #if she cant get a grip on this im going to be running this woman's entire business for her i hate it here #she spent the whole time complaining and acting like i was being unreasonable #she didn't even want a website she thinks her customers are dumb for wanting one #ma'am it is 2023 people want to do things online #nobody is ordering your food via telegram #when my mom volunteered me i was like ok i will do it for free bc its this particular friend of yours #but if u offer my services to anyone else they better be paying me #and then when i was done i was like ok even for money i would not do that again #she was sooo difficult i lowkey don't like her now lol #like ma'am i am doing this for u and your struggling business for free you could at least be nice lol #anyway #the stress of trying to help an old person with an email. for free 😞🔫 #the task is easy but the customer is difficult #do not be lured in by the promise of an easy task #ask yourself: why can't this person complete the easy task by themselves #anyway google is evil but google sites is very easy to use #but at what cost #this has been a shitpost #she's not even that old #my mom could have done this sp i assumed she could #i wrongly thought if she can handle running a business she can run the website if i make it for her she's smart 🤡 #now i see why none of her five kids volunteered to do this

[bookwyrminspiration]

Bit of an out there ask, but I think you’ll enjoy the thought experiment. What if Sophie or another main character got turned into a vampire/vampire like creature? Think less twilight more Vampire the Masquerade/Interview with the Vampire/What we do in the shadows.

You're right, I would! Unfortunately the only of those references I've seen is wwdits (the movie), so I don't have as solid an idea of what you're going for as I would like.

Well first and foremost I think it would be very limiting and difficult to adjust to, but that's a given. They live in a world that revolves around light, and now they can't see the sun without bursting into flames. Judgment and scorn are sure to follow from their world, more intense than what they're facing currently. That is if the news goes public.

Also incredible alienation from their friends, as no one would know what to do with them--not for lack of trying, though! Their friends would absolutely do their best to support and get them through this, but it's also a very new and unexpected situation. Even at their most supportive, there will be aspects of their new situation (vampire) that their friends just can't relate to or connect with them on the same.

Interestingly, I think a lot of what makes the wwdits vampires the way they are wouldn't affect the kotlcrew. Because part of what makes the wwdits vampires (and vampires in general) Like That is that they're out of place temporally. They still live life very influenced by a past that doesn't exist anymore, everyone from those times dead and gone, leaving them alone and ill-adjusted. But the kotlcrew are elves, they'll live for thousands of years yet at least. Whoever is turned into a vampire wouldn't be as odd because everyone they know will still be alive, the world isn't moving on without them. Unless they sequester themselves away for centuries and talk to no one, but I don't think their friends would let them do that.

So a huge aspect of vampirism--living while everyone you love dies, stuck in time while the world leaves you behind--wouldn't be nearly as impactful here, much less of a curse.

I think the diet change would be most notable--vegetarian species -> blood drinker is quite the shock. Coming to terms with that would be a process (perhaps easier if it was Sophie, given her exposure to vampirism prior and her willingness to eat animals), and it would make everyone uncomfortable. Except maybe Ro. She'd think it was cool as fuck. There might be some self-starvation involved as they try to resist, but depending on how tempting blood is, they might not be able to resist. Which would make everyone see them very differently--though I do think they'd get through it in the end, perhaps with some hiccups in the road.

I'm rambling at this point, but basically: depends on who and depends on the specific mechanics of their vampirism. The blood thing would be a huge deal, but the outliving your friends and growing out of sync with time wouldn't really happen, lessening the burden. Of course we could get into more specifics, but i hope that helps answer your question!

#kotlc #quil's queries #nonsie #long post #i literally have interview wtv on my shelf at home rn I just haven't gotten to it yet #alas #so it's entirely possible there are details or vibes that you're thinking of that are going over my head #in which case: feel free to correct me! #i didn't even get into trying to source food...oof #depends on if it /has/ to be human blood #or elven perhaps in this case #point is what blood matters #thinking thoughts over here...

[synchlora]

can't find any good posts on it so I'll make it myself!

its okay to be upset you can't eat foods you want. its okay to be pissed as hell that every time it seems okay, you get a flare up. its okay to be fucking angry that something you love to eat causes you pain

be angry abt it! be mad that some stupid starch hurts you! be upset at all of those doctors who brush you off! be pissed about people in your life not taking it seriously!

food is an incredibly important part of everyone's lives and its frustrating and infuriating to have any sort of struggles with it. cry over it, talk about it, be loud. it is hellish to have any gastrointestinal disability and, diagnosis or not, you deserve to be able to find comfort in food

so to all of my fellow stomach sufferers, I hope you have a nice evening / morning / night and I wish you good meals and snacks in the days to come. I hope your body goes easy on you and your flare ups lessen, I hope the foods you are able to eat bring you comfort and enjoyment. and I hope when things do get bad, you can find solace with others who understand what you're going through <3

#I cannot count how many times I've cried over food #especially when its social #I think my earliest memory of crying about food was when I was ~12 and had just discovered i was lactose intolerant #and my mom got me an ice cream cake for my birthday #it felt like a cruel joke. and she didn't even understand why j was so upset until I explained it to her #I had to take lunches to school and prepare meals because nothing at school was safe to eat #and on days I didn't have the spoons for it I simply Wouldnt eat #it was so frustrating because one issue became two became four became more than I can count #and food has lost a lot of the comfort and enjoyment it once had because of all the pain #but know that even with setbacks it can get better #narrowing down one bad food after the other is so so fucking worth it just to make food not a chore anymore #there will always be bad days and there will always be new things that crop up as unsafe #but know that even if an old favorite food becomes dangerous that new favorites are out there #I used to love ham on everything but now I can't eat it without awful pain and allergic reaction #but even without that old comfort food I've found new ones like turkey sausage and pasta #just. dude feel free to cry about food #its not dumb jts not overreacting #food is important and its completely fucking worth sobbing over #to everyone with gut issues I wish you good luck o7 know that there is food out there that you'll love and won't hurt you #food tw

[hafwen]

It's so frustrating as a person on disability that I have to use my limited amount of energy every year to renew my food stamps

#People on disability should be given free healthcare free food free housing and a decent living stipend #But no we don't even get enough to afford rent in a Studio apartment #And disabled people do you have a much higher monthly expenses thanks to our terrible healthcare system #Like one of my meds if I didn't get a coupon for would be $300 with insurance #How am I supposed to survive on that #This is just casual eugenics #Oh I hate it so much #You can't kill me I refuse to die #personal #disabled #food stamps #my body is a wonderland that’s been condemned for 20 yrs

[hua-fei-hua]

alright whenever you have time (and also the energy) I would love to hear your thoughts on the lantern rite epilogue! Have a good day <3

we're going to pretend that people following me will care abt genshin 3.4 lantern rite spoilers so we're gonna put my entire deranged mess under a cut hahaha

*gently holds* MY XVS......

truly this lantern rite had EVERYTHING although truth be told, like, the way venti was kind of shoehorned in was a little disappointing. i felt a little bit baited by the way the 3.4 TRAILER HAD THAT ONE CUT RIGHT where it goes from VENTI PLAYING THE LYRE in the harbor to XIAO LOOKING UP AT THE FIREWORKS outside of wangshu inn, and then we see the xiao bit in the actual cutscene on day 2, but absolutely none of venti until the epilogue. and also we never see venti playing the lyre during the event story so it's like. whoever edited that pv absolutely had xv on the brain. like. what the hell was that it was magical i feel higher than a boat right now

BUT ANYWAY like i don't even care how obviously shoehorned in venti felt bc the interactions were all SO PERFECT i love love loved them. i loved the way hu tao just RAN INTO WANGSHU INN and started shouting for xiao, and then talked death to him until he was like "yeah sure i'll go to your dinner". they are so besties i love them their friendship is everything to me.

THE WAY. XV INTERACTED. IN FRONT OF US. xiao just like "well. um. there's this. um. um." TOTAL PANIC MODE n venti had to SAVE HIM with like "huuuh? did you forget already? i'm a bard!" like HELLO why do they need a COVER STORY why are they making up COVER STORIES TOGETHER WHAT WERE THEY DOING TOGETHER IN THE MARSH EARLIER like what kind of GAY SHIT--

also i'm pretty sure when xiao started explaining his relationship to venti, venti fluttered his lashes at him. like, i recorded the whole quest (bc i didn't last year with the final part n i REALLY WISH I HAD bc i STILL remember the dRAMATIC GASP i had when we had that one beiguang moment in the cutscene), and when i rewatched it earlier i was like. "HANG ON. DID HE JUST FLUTTER HIS LASHES" n rewatched it like three times. maybe my game was just stuttering BUT IT DEFINITELY LOOKED LIKE IT and maybe i'll gif it when i get home from work tonight

BUT ANYWAY (2) point is that the expression work this time was ON POINT like whoever's doing all that over at mhy hq needs to get a raise pronto. venti going (¬‿¬) at all the other immortals was so immaculate. you aren't subtle little man!!!

it's probably just shipper goggles on to an extent, but i feel like the xv implications were really strong this time around, with the parallels to that fontch guy's ancestor, and the guiping n everything... i'm kind of disappointed that we don't get to actually hear any of venti's unobstructed thoughts on xiao; like the ribbing n implications at the dinner are a lot of fun (like, they were totally making out in the marsh before dinner. we all know this. it's very clear imo), but it kind of makes me wonder why we can hear xiao like... do his Very Heavy Implying abt venti's importance to him (though again, he doesn't outright say anything-- we know the full extent n depth of xiao's feelings abt venti (romantic or not) bc we can read his character stories, so technically really he hasn't told us jack squat in the current canon timeline), but the best we get from venti are smug expressions. those expressions are very telling, ofc, but a very unhinged part of me wishes that mhy didn't feel the need to wrap up the xv in layers of allegory and metaphor and just outright heard one of them say, "this person is very dear to me." i know it's just the rabid shipper in me, and i need to be sedated, but i was really kind of hoping that we'd see the allegory w/the fontch guy's ancestor n madame ping lifted away at the end n, like, see or hear it be bound to xv outright. just for purely self-indulgent purposes o(--(

but anyway (3) i also love love loved all the playful ribbing, witty banter, and prev event callbacks btwn the characters!! hu tao n venti canonically making a pact to be poetry friends was SO GOOD you just KNOW hu tao is gonna commission venti to compose a JINGLE for wangsheng advertising purposes later, while zhongli n xiao are like, "this meeting never should have happened. we are all doomed." somehow i legitimately forgot that xq n venti know each other from irodori n was like, "...huh?" when xq mentioning knowing venti for like, a FULL two seconds. the way venti was like "damn you know i was right outside this entire time. can you believe the way some people ignore the wind?" n zhongli was like "hahaha (✿◡‿◡) the harbor is very busy this time of year (✿◠‿◠) it is very hard see or hear an individual person's whereabouts (^人^)"

AND ALSO. PAIMON BEING ELECTED AS THE "MOST DISTINGUISHED GUEST." PAIMON YOU GOT IN THE WAY OF MY DERANGED SELF-DELUSIONMENT MANY TIMES THIS LANTERN RITE BUT THAT WAS PRETTY FUNNY. i thought it was interesting how no one nominated venti. like i was kind of expecting xiao to do it (but ofc he nominates traveler) which is fair honestly, n then i was like "IS LUMINE GONNA NOMINATE VENTI????" but then she nominated paimon n paimon was like "wait... me?????" n it was just EXACTLY like a bunch of adults telling the little kid they are the most specialest ever n they should have the honor of doing The Thing. as that little kid growing up, i know the feeling very well lol

there are other bits i'm just,,, rotating around in my mind, like venti and kazuha hanging out on the alcor, the way xiao goes "i can't taste the difference in xiangling's special almond tofu" when you go visit him afterwards, ALL THE GANQING THAT HAPPENED IN THE MAIN STORY I'M SO HAPPY FOR THEM I'M SO HAPPY FOR ME I WON VERY HARD THIS LANTERN RITE, n like,,, yeah!!!!

#asks #anonymous #(at my non genshin followers/mutuals) I'M SORRY FOR BEING DERANGED. EVEN THOUGH I'VE BEEN DERANGED FOR OVER A YEAR N A HALF #it's funny bc i never apologized for abruptly changing fandoms before gnshn. the shame of gacha gaming never dies lmao #ANYWAY i'm pretty sure venti just ate off of xiao's plate the entire dinner. 'let me get you another set of cutlery' says hu tao #'okay sure!' venti replies; already stealing xiao's chopsticks n eating all his food bc it's not like xiao's eating all that much #plus. i was thinking of that spices in the west event. n how to my surprise venti liked the almond tofu n grilled tiger fish... #been getting a lot of kudos on my xv fics these last few days hahaha; i mentioned to star yesterday that the saucy xv thing i wrote #waaaay back in late july is like 290 hits away from entering my top five ao3 fics by hits #and if that happened it would do what j/jk had never been able to do (which is break the b//nha chokehold over my hits stats) #(j/jk broke my records on bookmarks tho n i'm very proud of that i love you diner fic) #n star said we should throw a party if the saucy xv fic made it to top five n i was like. #a 'thank you to all the thirsty people for dethroning the shadow of b/nha that lives over me at all times' party???? #n she was like 'yes. i think that is a wonderfully apt title' LOL #in the shower yesterday i was thinking abt the xvx week happening on twt n i Do have smth saved for the free day #this oneshot i started last july n then didn't finish until like two or three weeks ago but in the shower i was like #'muse... muse... you know it would be kind of fun if...' n i started thinking abt that livejournal au i came up w/as a joke months ago #so maybe i'll write smth real fast for that hahaha

[zincbot]

misfits and magic has me smiling like you wouldn't believe. i'm enjoying myself so so so much

#dimension 20 #helps that i'm currently DEEP back in my latent dnd mode #and i know they're playing kids on bikes the system doesn't matter i just am completely and totally obsessed with ttrpgs #and dnd 5e is the only system i fully know #but no i'm like. kicking my legs and squealing. i'm so happy. i love this so so much #okay like. there's special interests. which take up every like. free moment of my brain. and then there's whatever happens to me #whenever i'm obsessed with dnd #where my like? emotions? become suddenly and powerfully tied to like. what's literally a game #and like the thought of being unable to play it or other people not caring about it as much as me irrationally makes me way too upset #and i'm not even lying like. okay every activity i've ever done in my life that's fun? i can only do for some amount of time before i need #a break. cause i get bored. i like activity cycling basically. #i could play dnd forever. if i didn't have physical needs like bodily pain from using a phone or like. need for food and drink. #i would play dnd forever. non-stop. it's my number 1 favourite thing in the whole world forever. #i've never met anyone who likes it as much as me. #i enjoy dimension 20 but i'm also. burning with jealousy. probably the strongest jealousy i've ever felt in my life #people who get to play dnd for a job. make me want to tear something up with my teeth #i would trade every organ in my body for that #sorry for being deranged in the tags #and i like dming fine #(as the person who is the most passionate in any group abt the game dming is something i've done a half-decent amnt) #but being a player is my ideal #dnd

[queridaz]

tryna plan my birthday dinner and just realized i can't afford it 😔😔

#ik i'm inviting everyone over but what if i made them pay for their food absjsks #i could make empanadas instead and that'd be way cheaper and i'd have enough for everyone #but that also means i'd have to spend my birthday making empanadas and the whole point of ordering food was not having to do work #also i really wanted thai food :/ #maybe i can afford it if i get the job i interviewed for this week #but def not at the moment #also mini rant since i'm on the topic of finances but man is it depressing to be here working two jobs to pay for groceries #meanwhile my roommate is on a full scholarship w/ free meal plan and rich parents and she eats the food i make or uses my ingredients #like she v def is not in the wrong bc i told her she could but it is depressing to know that i'm struggling to pay for college and survival #while she gets to be blissfully unaware of how much she has in her savings and bills are paid for her #she literally said that the other day she was like #''i don't know how much i have in my college savings. i just ask my mom to withdraw from it whenever a bill comes'' #(she has a full ride but she's out of state so there's like a fee or smth she has to pay but it's still essentially a full ride) #and i just sat there flabbergasted bc i know exactly how much i have in my college savings. $417.37. #and every penny will be gone by next sem to pay for those classes. and my 529 is v low bc of the stock market being bad rn #so i'm trying to avoid going into it until the stock market's up again but i had to dip into it anyway bc of my required arts class #aaaaaanyway the thought of her not even knowing what she has bc she doesn't have to worry abt it cause she's rich is so..... yeah 😔😔 #and then i turn around and like three of my friends get a monthly allowance from their parents meanwhile i treat them to boba #i can't ask my parents for financial help cause they're in a really bad spot right now #my brother called me the other day and said he was having waffles for dinner cause they didn't have any food #so like....... i think my friends should pay for my laundry #tea talks #tea vents