#I have been going on a LOT of rambles recently...

[notafragilething]

Late Night Buck & Tommy Ramble: Shit is getting interesting

I honestly thought today was going to be fucking chill with no promo and maybe only a whisper or two about tomorrow's episode. We currently have 21 hours left until the new episode airs and we have so much to unpack because everyone is just out there wilding right now

Get yourself a drink and a snack and prepare yourself. There is a lot to discuss. Minor spoilers for tomorrow's episode in regards to stills and vague-ish comments by people who have seen the episode.

Buck & Tommy Related Chaos:

I'm going to start with the chaos: OLIVER AND LOU ARE DOING A JOINT INTERVIEW that was filmed today for Access Hollywood / Access Daily that will air tomorrow before the episode.

I am in total shock by this because I've been vocal that I didn't even think we'd get more interviews from these two before the season ended. I would have never dreamed that they'd have them doing a joint interview together.

This is a pretty huge (and good) sign, in my opinion. You wouldn't suddenly have two actors going out doing press together unless (from a marketing point of view) you're trying to promote that couple to the audience. This to me really does suggest they're planning on keeping Lou around and pushing BuckTommy.

I've heard crazy speculation about what the interview will be about but it airs before the episode so likely we won't get major spoilers. We'll likely see the two talking about their characters, what it's like working together and hinting at what is going to happen moving forward.

With that said, I'm really curious at how they're going to sell this on the show. We've already seen Ryan hitting the talking point that Eddie is straight in recent weeks, which seems to be an attempt to distancing themselves from Buddie. This interview tomorrow may possibly give us an idea where their heads are at moving forward.

Regardless, I think this is a strong indicator that Tommy isn't going anywhere anytime soon. I know some people are trying to downplay this as happening because Bi Buck was such a huge storyline but they could have easily just had Oliver on the show. Them having both of them makes this about their relationship, not just Buck coming out as Bi and that's a pretty big shift from the marketing we saw around episodes 4-5.

Lou also posted about it on his Instagram and Ryan liked it.

Also I cannot remember a time that they had Oliver doing interviews with his love interest on the show. Can anyone else?

The kiss on Instagram reels continues to do well. It's almost at 1.2 million, sitting currently at 1183k.

General Cast Information:

Let's start simple with the tweets coming out from press who saw tomorrow's episodes. The overwhelming theme with all of them seems to be a warning for us to prepare for some hurt. I'm preparing myself to watch Hen, Bobby and Eddie all go through hell tomorrow based on what we've seen on social media over the last 24 hours. So let's get into that.

Hen: Early today the official Instagram posted stills from the earlier episode where the councilwomen's son refuses treatment after he accident and dies (which leads to Hen being investigated). They then captioned this "A moment from the past can become so pivotal for your future" because clearly they want to hurt us. It also seems like that congress women is in the episode and we see her in one of the stills at the medal ceremony.

Bobby: It seems like he's going to have a nice father/son moment with Buck at some point this episode based on the stills and what Oliver has hinted at. But I think he'll also definitely be dealing with guilt.

Eddie: Dude I don't even know. Between Marisol being at the medal ceremony with him and Christopher and him taking a row boat out with Kim? This is going to get ugly.

All of the stills were really happy and we know that isn't what is happening in this episode so I'm pretty sure they're from the first 15 or 20 minutes. This show has been fucking with our heads with these promos.

We're very, very likely to get a sneak peak sometime tomorrow along with the Oliver&Lou interview.

I might attempt to make a ramble post talking about the interview prior to the episode depending on what time it airs.

So how are we all feeling? Cause I'm having all the fucking emotions.

#911 abc #evan buckley #bucktommy #tommy kinard #tevan #firepilot

[fazedlight]

I want to talk about this moment in Supergirl.

(It's hard to talk about Andrea without talking about how Crisis gutted her character, but I'm going to avoid rambling about that again.)

I think this moment is critical for Andrea. It's the moment Andrea chooses hope.

Lena isn't passing judgment here. There is no betrayal. Lena's own character arc is pretty beautiful (though somewhat cheapened by how the writers retroactively justified Kara and gutted Andrea, because the interplay between all three of them is important). Lena isn't trying to stop Andrea on the grounds of don't betray me.

Instead, Lena says: "I have done terrible things to protect myself and the people I love. But it has never kept me safe from pain. It's just brought me a new kind of misery. And I moved further and further away from the person I was, until one day I woke up and I was utterly alone."

Andrea is not choosing between murdering her father and betraying her best friend. She is not choosing between family and freedom. Lena is right there with her, she's there saying you jump, I jump, accepting whatever Andrea may choose.

Andrea - with all her guilt from betraying her best friend years ago, with all her resignation at what her path now entailed as the coerced assassin for a shadow group - is hearing I know this isn't easy, but I believe in you. She's even hearing I'll accept you, I'll jump with you. She's hearing that Lena would rather die than become further from who she wants to be (a choice we see Lena echo again with Lex in S6).

So when it comes down to Andrea choosing between fear and freedom, she finally chooses the person she wants to be.

This is something the show comes for over and over again - usually through Kara, and not always elegantly - that hope is a choice. And it's pretty neat to see Andrea make it.

#I have been going on a LOT of rambles recently... #headcanon #rojascorp #andrea rojas #supergirl #mel stuff

[bambiraptorx]

just had a random thought: what if splinter starting going by that name when he met april. like, picture the context, he has four kids who have been calling him variations of dad since they could talk and he's rarely if ever interacted with other people since leaving the hidden city. he's gone by two names previously (and is no longer truly comfortable with either) but hasn't used either name in years. Again, his kids just call him dad and they're most likely the only people he talks to. so when he finally meets april, she asks what his name is, and he completely blanks and tells her the first word that comes to mind. maybe he's looking at his hands and notices a silver of wood from a box he was moving earlier. maybe he glances at an old crate and the word just comes out. maybe he's so disconnected from who he was before that even though he has two names he could give, he makes one up on the spot.

#bambi's rambling #rottmnt #rottmnt headcanons #rottmnt splinter #rottmnt hamato yoshi #rottmnt lou jitsu #rise of the tmnt #rise of the teenage mutant ninja turtles #i've been thinking about splinter a lot recently #and rise splinter doesn't really seem to have any reason to be going by splinter? #i mean a lot of them dont really seem to have a specified reason for using that name #but rise splinter literally had two names already so why pick a new one i guess

[queerofthedagger]

i mean this in the like... nicest way possible, but there is no way to post your writing and/or art on the internet without running the very high risk of it getting scraped, whether you post it on tumblr, pillowfort, or ao3. sites being 'anti ai' does not mean your art cannot be scraped. it is simply almost impossible to prevent, much less guarantee that. I'm not saying this to be a pessimist or to stop people from being rightfully pissed about this. it sucks. massively so! but if the idea does in fact bother you that much, you should know that moving sites won't fix the issue. ao3, as far as we know, has been scraped/is getting scraped. you can set your fics so that only logged in users can access them, but it only makes scraping one step more difficult, and by no means impossible and the otw has stated this clearly.

which, again, this sucks! i don't have a great solution either!! but tumblr is relatively honest, at least, when it tells you that it cannot prevent, only discourage it. ao3 said the same thing. any site promising you otherwise is, to the best of my knowledge, lying to you.

#*mine #mona rambles #personally my stance is and always has been a somewhat resigned 'if i post it on the Internet it might get stolen' #which ofc is.not optimal #but i see a lot of misinformation and supposed alternatives get thrown around and uhhh. yeah i don't think they are it imma be real #like you can find me on other sites i should make a post again #but the same way i never locked down my fics I'm not leaving tumblr over this #I'm not going to stop posting over the most recent art theft scheme and I'm wary of uninformed shouts for stricter copyright #considering we're yk #in fandom and that's a slippery slope #but i do think at the end of the day regulations will have to be the way to go #as of now there's just very little you can do. and again!! that sucks!! i get being upset i am too!! #but yeah realistically the next great social media site isn't going to 'finally be good trust me bro'

[mossy-paws]

2am Doodle(????) (PHIGHTING!)

Calling this a doodle since it only took like 1 hour and I speed ran it while sleep deprived at 2am absolutely blasting ano’s cover of god-ish

Anyways I don’t really draw this kinda stuff too often out of sheer personal preference but when I do it’s honestly kind of fire (+ it’s just fun to draw angsty stuff like that)

enjoy your food for the time being I’m going back into my hole

#art #artists on tumblr #phighting! #phighting fanart #digital art #roblox phighting #phighting roblox #phighting art #roblox #phighting #phighting medkit #medkit phighting #medkit fanart #medkit #phighting! roblox #phighting! art #cw: gore #tw blood #cw blood #blood tw #Yeah this was honestly really fun LMAO #I’ve been really playing around with new brushes in ibis and I recently discovered the genius pen and #It’s honestly the perfect brush for me #It’s sketchy/fun/and paired with a lot of other brushes it looks really cool #This piece was a way to REALLY test out the capabilities of it and safe to say I’m pretty pleased :3 #The fact that it’s a default pen (same with the dip pen- which I used for coloring) makes it even better #Anyways sorry for the ramble let’s just ignore the fact that I’m hyperfixating on brushes #Hopefully I should be posting a lot more art trade/commission pieces soon since I have some queued up that I REALLY gotta work on LMAO #Hopefully they shouldn’t take too long though so YIPPEEEE #anyways back to my hole in the Everglades I go

[northern-passage]

i've been thinking a lot about the word "representation" and what it means and how it's changed over the last few years, particularly when it comes to the writing/publishing landscape but also in movies and tv shows… and i really don't like it anymore. to be clear, of course i think it's important to have diversity in your work, i'm not saying i hate the concept of representation. but i do really dislike the way it's used now, and i really just hate the word itself

in a broader sense it's just become a marketing tool. i'm not impressed by any publisher or author who just describes their book by listing all of the minorities/identities the characters represent as if that should be enough. it feels very gross, very exploitative and disingenuous. it also really bothers me because it's always marginalized identities- which i understand Why, but it feels very othering to me (and again. Very exploitative as an advertisement). you would never list out "cishet able-bodied white man" as a character description to pat yourself on the back over. so why do it to everyone else? why insinuate that one is the "default" and the other one is "special"? (and when i say this i'm mainly talking about advertisements/marketing. i understand why people would specify about characters in descriptions with the plot, but i don't like to see an ad that's just "this book has gay people!" with nothing else)

which then leads me to my other point, which is that a lot of people treat "representation" as if it's "too hard." like "oh i don't know enough to write about that, i don't have that experience, etc" which is a fair way to feel! however… it's weird that people only say this about writing trans characters or characters of color. i'm writing a story right now with a character who is really into motorcycles. i personally do not know that much about motorcycles, so i researched what parts are what & what different kinds of models there are & what basic bike care looks like. i guarantee Most people will have to google something at some point in their writing process. so what's the problem? it also, again, feels very othering when authors treat certain groups of people as "impossible" to write, "too hard" to understand. they are just.. people. you write them as a person. and then you figure out the rest later.

and i think part of the refusal or fear to write something outside of your experience is because of the way representation is treated as So Special. these characters are So Special that they aren't allowed to be anything other than "representation." they're Not allowed to be characters with complex emotions and interesting motivations, they have to just be Trans or Gay or Disabled or whatever. they're not allowed to be people. which means, at the end of the day, we loop right back around to where we were at the start….

there is bad representation. there are depictions of certain marginalized people that are harmful and that are damaging, i'm not trying to minimize that or argue against it at all, in fact we should all be mindful of that while writing and reading. but i also think it's possible to swing too far in the opposite direction as well and put certain groups of people on a pedestal and not allow them to do anything at all but be Perfect Representation, if that makes sense.

#anyways. is this anything #sorry i dont have anything insightful to say at the end here i just wanted to ramble #especially abt the way ppl market books now it like. genuinely disgusts me #cannot imagine marketing tnp in that way. my characters are many things AND they are trans. and their transness #is not just a flashy feature for attracting attention #also i do understand the fear of 'getting it wrong' but that's why you have beta readers or even actual sensitivity readers #that's why you ask for feedback. especially in this space like... people will give it #that's what makes sharing your process and early draft in this community so rewarding #and there's also just the reality that no matter what you do some people will Not like it 🤷 #and ime a lot of ppl look at representation very individualistically #as in it's only good representation if it represents Me #which sucks. and you're never going to please those people #ANYWAYS also to be clear this is not a vague or meant to be targeted at any one person please don't be fucking weird #this is just some thots i've had recently esp since ive seen the representation conversation pop up quite a few times #and since i've been doing research for characters in my other project #personal

[monn-i]

i guess what im trying to say is

i love you .

@201-klz-dead

#happy birthday <3 #if ive been not very active online recently it’s probably because ive been spending a shit ton of time working on this sorry #anywayz im gonna go take a nap now i slept super late and woke up super early to finish this #i WILL be writing a whole ass essay in ur askbox later btw #i loveb yuu <33 #hope it wasnt too sappy and gross.. i tried very hard to make it not sappy but um i eventually gave up on that haha #anywyas.. i lowv u i loev u i love u… <- i have a lot more to say on this and you will be forced to hear my insane rambles on it as soon as #i wake up from my nap :3 #happy birthday i am so so so happy that i got to knwo yu… #my art #furry art #gay furry #digital drawing #digital art

[becauseplot]

thinking about archivists again. below the cut: obscene amounts of brainrot in the form of a long-winded relationship study and oddly specific references to canon that may or may not be accurate

im trying to come up with some sort of au for them (writer's block and creative burnout is a BITCH it's okay though we stay silly) and there's just something about how qphil and qcellbit don't (or didn't) really wind up in each other's circles often. sure they were friendly with each other in passing, and they definitely had some nice little interactions earlier on: cellbit briefly interviewing phil on one of his first days on the island over a cup of coffee and solidifying phil's view of cellbit as the Dedicated Investigator; phil asking cellbit to babysit chayanne and tallulah while he's away on a trip and cellbit being more than happy to; phil briefly checking in with cellbit --- who was in the process of tumbling into his regret arc, cutting off ties with loved ones and making himself a martyr --- and asking if he was okay when phil spotted him hanging alone in the back of the group; chatting about the upcoming wedding and phil advising cellbit that he and roier should probably introduce some sort of dress code (lmao); cellbit watching phil and missa meet up for the first time in months on the way to the federation's people-freezers and all of the pieces rapidly falling into place (the name of phil's waystone, phil's skull backpack, phil's elusive "husband," ohhhhhhh...). they've always been in each other's peripheral, but never directly involved in each other's personal lives.

until the happy pills.

see the thing about archivists is that they're not drawn together by a pre-existing friendship; they're more friendly acquaintances at this point, perhaps almost-friends, though they're certainly not close. but then forever's life is under threat, and god, they both love forever immensely. with direct help from bad and indirect help from others (qpac you LEGEND), they're eventually able to formulate a plan that successfully drag forever out from under the haze of drugs, pull him to the surface. they sit next to each other as they sit at the bedside of their mutual friend, watch him breathing, and try to breathe themselves.

and from that moment on it's solidified: they know they can depend on each other, when shit hits the fan. they have their respective strengths, and they balance out each other nicely. i wish i had gotten more of a chance to watch their dynamic during purgatory 1 (unfortunately i have a life sadge) but from what i saw, they turned out to be some pretty good co-leaders, and an interesting dynamic at that: phil acting more as a support role (moral support, resource support, combat support, ALL the support) and stepping up into a leader-like role when needed, but ultimately letting cellbit take the helm a lot of the time since he's a strategist with more practice managing large groups of people (i wont get into it here, and i want to watch more vods so i can more properly analyze them but HOUGHH i have THOUGHTS!! SO MANY!!!)

what im trying to get at is that they were initially in the peripheral in each others lives but were eventually drawn together out of necessity, due to circumstances. the mutual respect followed, which was then followed by trust, and then collaboration, and then friendship. i've also made this post talking about their dynamic, how they both understand each other's need to focus on the here and now and understand that they don't need to know every little thing about each other to still trust each other. and this is so integral to their relationship. it's what makes archivists archivists.

so now all that's left for me to do is try to come up with some sort of au i can chuck them in, incorporating this idea of "friendship of necessity" as a core feature of the plot. i have scattered ideas but none are particularly appealing or solid enough. i will try though!! if u have any suggestions/thoughts/ideas feel free to leave a comment or say in tags (pspsppsps come brainrot with meeee)

#qsmp philza #qsmp cellbit #archivists #dont mind me im just rambling #im specifically trying to come up with an au because i feel like a lot of my creative burnout recently has to do with the fact that ive- #-been stressing about my fics being canon-compliant and up-to-date with and accurate to the Lore as well as my characters being in-characte #-with a deep understanding of each character's lore when that is!! really hard to do!! considering how many characters there are and how- #-many hours of vods there are and the fact i still need to do Life things sometimes. #so writing an au allows me to be more flexible with the characterization (while still incorporating the integral aspects of the characters) #-AND i dont have to worry about being 100% up to date with the lore if the fic literally takes place another world!! #currently the main problem is COMING UP with the au lol #anyway that's enough out of me i love these guys im going CRAZY #also i should mention this post is NOT proofread lol

[ravinoforre]

I was trying to search if I'd posted this on here yet but I can't find it on my blog. Maybe I have and I didn't tag it properly. Oh well. This was done last year, I was testing out some watercolour brushes I'd found. I'm happy with how it turned out!

I just think they're neat together :)

#i think about these two a lot #like they've actually kept me somewhat sane and grounded over the past like... 15 years? #shit going down at school/home/work? especially home? think about my silly little stories with them #the very definition of comfort characters #and even though i've shipped em for years #i don't really have a name for it #other than the Ryuleaf I've recently been calling it but in an official sense? #certainly never found one online or seen anyone else even do this #i'm getting sentimental and rambling it's like 2am and i have a cold i shuold really be in bed now #ravinoforre #ravinranting123 #trainer leaf #trainer michael

[quinttyz]

> not enough content for julien from dragon’s dogma

I am burdened with profound sadness

#quinttyz rambles #HMM.. i have been replaying a lot of games recently..like jumping from one game to the next #i hope to finish this dragon’s dogma run fr…i made a new arisen hahaha #also. i had a lot of fun creating my pawn LOL I HAD SO MUCH FACE INSPOS FOR HIM #he even looked like leon FUCKING kennedy at one point gotdamn #anyways pls…..to the julien stans out there..our numbers are going extinct #dragons dogma #dragons dogma julien #julien dragons dogma #dragons dogma dark arisen

[todayisafridaynight]

I’m fairly new to the fandom, but I do have a question if you can answer it! Why do people ship Daigo with Aoki / Masato? I tried looking to see if they’ve interacted before, but couldn’t find anything! Sorry for asking I’m just </3 dumb AND I LOVE YOUR ART OF THEM!!! Nerd looking ahhhhhh

hi ! welcome to the community i hope you're having a lovely time so far and ty for enjoyin my stuff :) no need for apologies it's a very fair question to have :]

i cant speak for everyone (all. ten people into masadai anyway) but Personally To Me i just think the idea of them together is very funny. thats quite literally it im afraid..

#snap chats #//twenty page google doc in the background// ignore that. it's mostly for comedic purposes #might also be my fault idk sorry about that. allegedly. idk ive had like three people tell me they started to ship them cause of me 🧍‍♂️ #@mementoasts is another person who's drawn masadai and whose stuff i love and am inspod by .. i love their disneyland fic sm ... #there was another artist on twitter who posted a neat drawing of them but i cant remember who they were and i didnt bookmark it //screams// #recently there's been ANOTHER masadai artist ive started following on twitter - @wifekiryu. his account's n/s/f/w fyi before you go looking #he has a tumblr too @foxdies. i say cause i realized as much recently vjeaKLGJALKGJ #oh but I GUESS ill get deeper into why. /i/ personally ship masadai or whatever #first off they're opposing factions yet their character alignments Do Not Match their roles. stereotypically anyway #aoki who leads the 'surface' of society and is meant to be an admirable figure and someone 'just' when really. he sucks LMAO #though that's not atypical of politicians but just from a stereotypical This Is A Respectable Individual perspective of his role #daigo on the other hand leads the 'underbelly' of society- yk comprised of dangerous criminals and outcasts and whatnot #yet as we know him daigo's compassionate and considerate of his men- he doesnt treat them like tools like aoki does #if put in a room with the two daigo would be most people's choice of person to hang out with. probably open a trapdoor on aoki tbh #and i think thats really cool and epic i always love that kinda Subverting Expectations thing #theres also the fact they both started off like. edgy/angsty in the franchise and then brush up down the line #masato does a stronger 180. publicly. obviously but its still really funny they both have to get their act together #if you wanna talk about in-text reasons. there really is none LMAO I TELLS YOU masadai is pure crack #but if i wanted to pull a muscle reaching then there's daigo being on aoki's side while everyone else is on arakawa's during the funeral #im lying of course. mitsu was behind him. rgg tryna make me forget mitsu exist .... put him back in y8 .... #and ofc ichi joins that side to even out the seating but moving on another Goofy Reason is arakawa being like #'the chairman and my son are like p much the same age Surely he knows how he thinks :)' #and then i just think daigo being all smarmy about outsmarting aoki is really goofy and im choosing to interpret that as personal #they both also have issues with their dad. s. dad/s/. anyway. #tbh the google doc tag was a joke but i really could sit here and list every dumb reason why i think theyre funny together #like i started going over the tag limit so uhhhh yeah needless to say i have a lot of. dumb reasons 💀💀💀💀 #one day ill use the main text for long rambles like this but todays not that day Point Is my imagination is rampant im afraid #so the short and sweet of it is I Think It's Funny. And They'd Be Terrible Together. Which Is Why It's Funny. #and the unfortunate part is anything i find funny i obsess over for a year so. //gestures to the mountain of bullshit thats my masadai tag/

[theclosetedskeleton]

omg me when i forget people see these posts and can develop opinions about me from thag im sorry

#ive been venting a lot here recently i dont know why.i feel its a sign im not doing too well????? #not helping my school assignments have been piling up on me #liana flores was so real for “my to-do list fills a page” because thats literally me #(i have a google doc of everything i need to do and its. 2 pages long. and im doing the bare minimum everyday) #venting venting your venting again ezra fuck #brb gonna bash my head in a wall maybe that will shut me up. probably not though i may just go here & complain abt that #/nsrs about the bashing my head in the wall thing but #closet rambles again on tumblr

[thunderc1an]

tldr: for christmas my mom got me blanket with stolen warriors fanart

#mod rambles #i mentioned it a few months ago #but i started going to therapy #to make amends with my childhood #it made me realize #shit theres a lot of things wrong with me #things I need to work on #its hard #but im happier than I was a couple of years ago #I have a great support system now #and my outlook of myself in the mirror #makes me comfortable #shes the cause of a lot of my internal insecurities #but I know that shes been trying recently #in her interactions with me and my brothers #i think shes realized some things #it might be silly #since this is obviously stolen art #which is horrible #but it means a lot to me #because my mom put the effort in finding it #and getting it for me #shes never paid attention to my interests before #not me crying over this blanket haha #it just came in the mail today

[infizero]

showing my growth by rejecting the “every ship gets happily married and becomes wonderful parents to lovely children” mindset and admitting that many pairings should just not be parents

#long gone are my days of woobifying shadow and sanitizing sonadow down to aw cute hedgehogs and one of them is traumatized #they are RIVALS and shadow will never be that lovey dovey with sonic even if they have been dating for 30 years thats just not who he is #they can find happiness/contentment in each other like i imagined but that sprinkle of toxicity would never rlly go away #and again even if theyre perfectly happy existing like that. not a good environment for a kid! #i dont even imagine them getting married anymore like i still like my idea of the ''cat orphanage w a chao garden'' house that they live in #but they wouldnt be married. they'd be partners and sonic would live there. but he'd ''live there'' in the same way he lives with tails #in that. its a place to come back home to when needed but a lot of the time hes just elsewhere exploring and having adventures and stuff #and shadow would probably tag along on a lot of these adventures. but not all of them #also feeds into part of my idea for the future which has always been present which is just. sonic being romantically involved w a couple #other ppl (knuckles for example) #those relationships dont have a label theyre just friends and then sometimes theyll kiss or go on dates or something #he and shadow are partners. thats concrete. everything else is just fluid/undefined (also should clarify that this is in like a poly way lol #shadow is aware of these relationships and has no problem with them and sonic knows that) #anyways i didnt mean to ramble but i have been thinking about this recently #how i'd modify my older idea of sonadow in the future #thats the end. ps once again promoting the poly sonic agenda. if you look at him and you dont think hes poly. youre just wrong im sorry #(excluding aroace sonic enjoyers for obvious reasons lol) #serena.txt

[raeofgayshine]

I wish I could go back and tell younger me that I would in fact find that place one day full of people that I adore deeply and who I know love me in return. Who make me feel wanted and cared for and appreciated in a way I never thought would be possible. And none of it required hiding, or forcing myself to be a person I’m not. And I still have that space even though I’m aroace.

For the first time ever, I see a future where I’m not alone. And I wish I could go back and tell my younger self it would happen. It’s possible to not be constantly lonely.

#ravenpuff rambles #I’ve been lucky enough in my life to make amazing friends several times #several of whom are still in my life now #but it’s only been recently that I’ve felt like I truly found my place #I don’t know how to explain it #I guess up until now I have always gone into friendships expecting them to end and holding back just a little bit #and this is the first time I don’t feel like I have to run because I don’t feel like these people are going to leave me #maybe it’s just because one of them is also aroace and we’ve talked a lot about those similar feelings of being left behind #never had someone quite get that before #and maybe it’s just I feel more willing to open my heart #admittedly this group of ours went through some shit together and that’s how the friendships really started forming #and so maybe that helps #but it’s like #Have you ever met someone who is so much like you in so many ways that its like the joke of ‘ #‘can I copy your homework?’ ‘yeah just be sure to change it so no one knows’ #It’s a weird thing of feeling so completely and totally seen by somebody sometimes without having to say a word #anyways #I’m really happy with this little place I found and I wish I could tell younger me #and also tell xem that no it doesn’t look like a fanfic dream #no im not their person but yeah they’re kind of mine but that’s okay #its nothing and everything like I always thought of #and for the first time in my life I don’t feel a crush sense of loneliness #yes I wish I could see them in person #but I can be okay with everything I do get

[mishapen-dear]

people can use this site however they want but there's something almost- idk, sad? about how few people are actually using their blogs. you can turn themes on and have skeletons dancing in the background. you can make everything hot pink. your blog is your scrapbook and you can put whatever you want in there. tags are okay at organizing things so you can have just a whole archive of cool shit to look at later. i know people complain a lot about people liking stuff about reblogging for engagement, and on one hand i get that- it is WILD to see a drawing i spent hours on get only 12 reblogs and 60 likes. Absolute culture shock compared to my previous fandoms. but i don't think you should reblog anything to make artists happy. i think you should reblog things so you can find them again. i think you should queue things to appear on the dash at specific times on certain days. i think you should reblog things so when you're talking to your friends about xyz post you saw you can look in your blog's archive and find it again. i think you should reblog things so that your dash is filled with one really sleepy cat. with the loss of reblogs there's the loss of engagement, which Does hurt the community-focus that makes tumblr so appealing, but idk i just wish people were more excited about the incredible amount of customization that tumblr allows and took advantage of that more

#if you're ever nervous about reblogging stuff just remember that people can always turn off reblogs #and also pls theme your tumblrs after silly fish or weird cube people or dnd #just anything that's fun to you have fun!!! #this is the silly cringe website please join us and be silly and cringy #i need to go to bed i think #but i also keep thinking about how i enjoy myself the most on this website when people reblog things from me and add commentary #comments/replies are great sure but they really bring the conversation to a halt and doesn't allow anyone else to chime in #idk some of my fave followers are the people who only like stuff #but when there are *only* people liking things it really feels like you're just yelling into a complete void #and then it's harder to find more content for things you like too #because the people you follow aren't reblogging things youd like to see #i have to delve into the main tag for my fandom content a lot because the people i follow are usually just making og posts #maybe i just need to find people who reblog things more but idk #i love it when fandoms become little communities but it feels like that's been stifled recently #which is what my actual gripe is i think #maybe ill delete this in the morning maybe not im just full on rambling at this point #getting a lot of likes feels like twitter validation #and reblogs feels like 'im putting this cool thing up on my very big fridge' #i don't want a popularity contest i just want to share cool shit >:c