#I have so many thoughts!!!

[miscellaneoussmp]

Thinking about Mine's possession of Mike and the Tazercraft mindlink. I have a lot of thoughts but I am unsure how to word them!!! Guys!!!

Do you guys think it's immediately obvious to Pac? Like even without being physically around Mike? It's like a 'Oh, Mine's here too' type deal? Does Pac get to share in the sudden spark of creativity?

#qsmp #qsmp tazercraft #qsmp mine #i have so many thoughts!!!

[papayanna]

I just wrote an essay in someone else's tags about this but honestly it deserves its own post. I'm such a fan of how the writers have reframed Lestat and Louis' romance.

In the IWTV film and the original book, their entire romance is framed through the lens of Louis' bitterness and resentment towards Lestat. Though it is undeniable in both that there is underlying affection and dependency between the two, Louis seems so blinded by his own retrospective remorse about the way things ended with Lestat - plus Claudia's death of course. Plus, I got the distinct impression in both the film and book that Louis is embarrassed about his love for Lestat - I think largely because in hindsight he understands wholly what an asshole Lestat really was, and is ashamed that his younger self fell in love with him so easily. As a consequence, many of the good things about their relationship - especially Louis actually falling in love with Lestat - sort of get glossed over.

I kind of love this framing device and the use of the Obviously Biased Narrator, and I sort of hope we'll see some of that bitterness seep through in Louis' retelling in later episodes, but I think the changes to the story they made in episode one work so wonderfully!

In the TV show, we get to see Louis fall for Lestat in slow motion, every tiny event which pushes him over the edge. The writers go to careful lengths to demonstrate that the love between them was real, liberating, and incredibly significant to Louis. What's more, because Lestat is there right from the beginning, Louis falls in love with Lestat before being turned, rather than after, giving them the chance to actually know each other (and for Louis to have at least a modicum more of informed consent about being turned). In the end, Louis seeks out vampirism to escape being a societal outcast and find acceptance and empathy from someone who promises he is just like him. He seeks understanding, he chooses life and love beyond the constraints of the racist homophobic society he lives in. What a contrast to the suicidal and apathetic Louis of the books! I'm going to be honest, I love this change. It clearly puts WAY more emphasis on the love story between Louis and Lestat rather than just focusing on the themes of grief so present in the original. It also changes the idea of vampirism as something horrible foisted on Louis without his consent, to something he chooses out of love, out of desperation, yes, but also out of hope for a better future. (Though of course we've yet to see just how much Lestat was influencing events!)

In my opinion, IWTV the series and IWTV the book tell two very different stories, and Louis is two very different men in each of them. Aside from the more obvious changes to characters' backstories and appearances, the themes are different as is Louis' driving motivation. (Though I would argue that some of the more obvious changes - like Louis being a Black man - very clearly contribute to thematic changes and the difference in the way his love with Lestat is portrayed. Him constantly fighting for respect from white society and having to prove himself to people he is more than equal to definitely contributes to the thought that he can escape to a 'better' reality through vampirism.)

Anyway, I just love how the writers have changed this story! I think that although it's very different to the source material it definitely offers an equally compelling and beautiful - if thematically different - plot. I'm so excited to see where the series goes from here - for example, will Louis still struggle with Catholic guilt after rejecting Christianity so openly at the end of EP1? Since Louis actively chose vampirism/to be with Lestat, how will that impact their relationship? How will it impact the turning of Claudia? Especially in the context of Lestat's whiteness, has Louis really found the understanding kindred spirit he thinks he has? So many questions. Hopefully the remaining episodes will be just as brilliant as the first!

#amc iwtv #iwtv #interview with the vampire #iwtv spoilers #pap speaks #god. sorry for the giant post that will inevitably get like 2.5 notes but i reeeaaally wanted to write about this #i have so many Thoughts!!!

[lucifers-left-tit]

hmmm susan peter and eustace really get a lot of trauma out of their respective second visits to Narnia.

don't get me wrong, all four of the pevensies would mourn for their lost home, for all the time passed in just a blink of an eye. but at least lucy and edmund got a second chance, the joy of this time only a short amount of time having passed. a longer time to come to terms with the fact that this would be their last visit

peter and susan didn't.

peter and susan, who arguably had to carry their kingdom on their backs for a couple more years than their siblings. who feel near thirty and then fourteen. who, on their second visit, were hit by centuries having passed, by a place where they couldn't afford to get too attached to anyone, lest another millennium passes - oh, never mind, we're never coming back

"don't worry, eustace," his cousins say. "you can still return. enjoy your friendships, for maybe you'll return and only a while will have passed," they say

eustace doesn't quite understand how come they're so happy to have seen caspian again, like they had expected their previous goodbye to be their last

he does understand, eventually. returning to narnia to find his dear friend on his deathbed - it was almost mocking, just barely out of time

neither him nor jill feel that deeply about so long having passed when they returned that last time. jill never bore as many feelings about it; eustace, his had long been numbed

did he warn her, the very opposite of what his cousins said? maybe he simply never mentioned it. he was told to hope, and it had been rough. she shouldn't be through that

yet, if he told her not to hope, and time passed for only a few years... of course, he would be glad for her, yet would it not feel as though he had been betrayed?

the ceaselessness of time is already a heavy burden. war only made it worse.

but for the magnificent, the gentle, and the transformed, time is a cruel prankster.

#the chronicles of narnia #peter pevensie #susan pevensie #eustace clarence scrubb #narnia #I HAVE SO MANY THOUGHTS!!!

[grimwalker]

I love domestic/mundane headcanons of Hunter. I love the idea that Hunter likes to do chores, not because he thinks he has to earn his stay, but because they’re so much fun. Hunter sits outside with a stick that he sticks in the ground and twists in order to pull the grass out. Hunter lies down on the kitchen floor and does nothing for so long that he doesn’t realize he’s been down for hours until someone trips over him. Hunter can’t watch tv/videos/anything without captions otherwise he’ll be replaying the same two seconds over and over again just to end up giving up on trying to figure out what was said. He’s also the kid that keeps a dozen half empty water bottles in his room because he keeps forgetting whether or not the bottle he brought up an hour ago still had water or not.

#i have so many thoughts!!! #toh hunter #hunter wittebane #toh #the owl house #txt

[beesbeesdragons]

hi!! i know you love history so i wanted to ask if you want to share any special cultural headcanons about amestris that are inspired by the historical setting? i know that’s a super broad question but hopefully it makes sense :)

YESSSSS!!!!

ok first! Amestris is a military dictatorship, so it makes sense that it would have restrictions on certain activities or things such as education and the entertainment industry (film, radio, music, etc etc). it probably also has censorship, both in news but also in actual letter writing. i'm exploring the topic of censorship in From The Desk of Dorothy Mustang a bit, both in the media (specifically radio) and in letters.

second!!! fashion!!! Amestris is definitely the kind of country where you don't waste materials, not if you can avoid it. hence, most of their fashion styles are rooted in practicality. in my fics, i'm writing them as having 1940s fashion, so utility suits, patching clothes, revamping old out-of-fashion clothes, carpetbags, etc. Ngl will probably end up posting a work specifically about my research and with visual inspiration for the clothing i mention.

third, food. Amestris doesn't...have the best trade relation with most of its neighbours. hence, there's probably a fairly limited amount of 'exotic' foods, and it's probably SUPER expensive or limited to the military. You might notice later in my fics that the only sweets they really mention are all hard candies, such as rock or candy drops. They don't have chocolate, and probably not 'tropical' fruits like pineapple, banana and mango. This would affect the kinds of food people eat; most people would eat offal because it's cheap and you can get creative with it. for farmers or the folks in towns like Resembool, they probably all have small veggie patches and maybe chickens. Almost everyone in towns like Resembool would also know how to pluck a chicken, how to make sausages, etc. Just practical skills, you know?

Fourth, they definitely have some sort of 'youth group', similar to scouts. Gotta get the kids involved, right? it'd provide practical skills, for girls probably homemaking skills such as sewing, darning clothes, cooking, etc. It has the added bonus of, should Amestris be invaded or at war, they have an easy way of sending messages! (that is based off how the British army used girl guides as messengers during WW1 because boy scouts were considered too unruly). This also loops back to the control the military has on education; they control the curriculum, the examinations, the entire education system.

that's all for now but I have more!!!!!

#fma headcanon #fullmetal alchemist #fmab #fma brotherhood #fma #I have more!!! please ask!!!! #thank you for the question #I have so many thoughts!!!

[mercless]

pyjamas

#‡ ooc #NEW KAT CHAPTERS #i have SO Many Thoughts!!! #katarina comic spoilers / #technically??

[spyglassrealms]

had a fucking hilarious dream that tumblr replaced the "block" function with the far funnier "glock" function, which did the exact same thing except whenever anyone blocked you a random bullet hole, like a png of a bullet hole, would appear on your blog. discourse blogs were unreadable bc you'd go to the page and the sheer amount of bullet hole pngs stacked over the blogs obscured everything. I woke myself up laughing

#normally I don't chronicle my dreams here but fucking hell that one was funny #I think this would genuinely make tumblr better tbh #@ staff do this cowards #spy has thoughts #my life is a sitcom and i am my own laugh track #functional website #spy's smash hits #Glock function #edit for everyone in the notes saying 'everyone clapped' #I know I can't prove to you that it happened for real you're just gonna have to trust me on this #but I swear on my goddamn life I'm not making this up #I make so many conscious puns that sometimes my subconscious cooks up a real good one

[supposedlyahuman]

tw: Examples of reblog bait/people trying to guilt others into reblogging stuff. I am not actually saying the things below, they're just examples that I have seen.

I fucking hate when people say stuff like this. Especially when it's on a generally good post with valuable information. On the one hand I want to share that information because it could genuinely help someone; on the other, I don't want to spread this type of guilt-tripping and shaming and potentially trigger someone else like me. It's a lose-lose situation. No matter what I do, I am going to feel guilty. No matter what I do, I will feel like a terrible person. It sucks and I just wish people would stop doing this. I know it's shocking, but it is actually possible to make an important and useful post without guilting everyone that sees it into sharing.

#in general i just don't reblog anything that tries to guilt me into reblogging it #there have been so many times where i consider reblogging something and then see people saying the stuff above #and i automatically move along because i can't handle interacting with that sort of thing #moral ocd #serious #my thoughts

[voltaical-art]

HE WAS SEVENTEEN. AGHHH ULDER WHEN I GET MY HANDS ON YOU

#bg3 #wyll ravengard #baldur's gate 3 #ulder ravengard #i am having so many Thoughts and Feelings about wyll and his fucking father #his dialogue abt him is so heartbreaking 'Did he ever miss me?' RAGHHH #man the game this would be if they actually explored this with wyll>>>> #whatever ill just do it myself

[dykefaggotry]

the problem w modern sci fi is there's no camp. would you ever see a man dressed like this in 2024 star trek? no

a woman dressed like this?

what about these guys?

what about this crime?

meanwhile modern trek just looks like this

WHERE is the cunt! the camp! the garish colors!

#I have so many thoughts abt this and not just w costuming like #modern shows take themselves sooooo seriously and don't let themselves have enough fun #which is very sad

[jeanivere]

arthur morgan tiddies and tummy thats all im gonna say

#my art #arthur morgan #rdr2 arthur #arthur morgan rdr2 #rdr2 #red dead redemption 2 #man i have so many feelings about him #thinking a lot of thoughts #like that happy trail im currently staring at #no im not i gotta go guys bye

[clarisse-doodles]

inspired by this post, in which Damian does not know what Vine is

#sorry this was funnier in my head #but after i read that post I COULD NOT STOP THINKING ABOUT IT #gen z batkids is the most Cursed thing i've read today and i love it #at first i had so many Thoughts about how my brain CANNOT reconcile tim as anything but a 90s kid but then i read that line about damian and #i feel like they'd mess with him sometimes by randomly quoting memes in unison #almost started to overthink how in This Particular Timeline jason might have missed out on this meme because he was Not Alive #but for the purposes of this silly joke i choose to believe dates are irrelevant #that is all thank you #clarisse doodles #batfam #damian wayne #dick grayson #jason todd

[ssalballoon]

Mystra showed him the secrets beneath the veils. The gossamer veils first, draped across the Weave. The delicate veils next, draped across her body. 'Chosen One' she whispered, as she slipped them off completely.

poor gale :'(

- the dialogue is from ea gale's explanation about his folly

- i kinda like that she ended up looking like a mother-of-pearl inlay lacquerware!

- oh this was a subconscious choice, but Gale is sitting in seiza which is a posture for showing respect especially to elders. it's also known to be a painful position to sit in for extended periods of time, which is why it was sometimes used as a method of (morally dubious) punishment. however, experienced people can maintain this posture for much longer. food for thought :-)

- (edit: deleted this point bcs it didn't really make sense + detracted from the art a little;;)

#also had other companion drawings w gale and mystra planned for this but none of them are complete... perhaps another day #mystra #baldur's gate 3 #bg3 #bg3 fanart #gale of waterdeep #gale dekarios #my art #hm i dont have many opportunities to share my mystra thoughts so! #mystra is incredibly difficult to redesign and draw! I want to give her a fantastical element to her while retaining her austere aloofness #(her unassuming design is actually surprisingly effective in making her seem so effortlessly powerful) #I love spiderweb imagery and braids(weave) for her but braids make her seem so... kind? very soft? i'll try again another day... #is this seriously my last post of 2023. goddamn

[tawaifeddiediaz]

you know what boils my blood.

over the last 2 weeks, i've seen countless patients walk into my urgent care center, symptomatic for so many things, refusing to get tested for covid and flu, citing that they don't want to knowingly bring it to their holiday tables. i had a patient tell me, verbatim, "i don't want to test for covid, because i don't want to be the asshole who brings it on a plane."

i understand that - i understand that holidays are times where people look forward to meeting loved ones that they might only see once a year, or where they get a break from the hectic back and forth of their lives.

but here's the thing - whether they get tested or not, they will bring whatever they have to their holiday tables. it's pure recklessness to know that you're sick, and walk into someone else's house spreading the disease.

today, january 2, i saw 91 patients, many of them who have tested positive for covid and flu. many of these patients are the same ones who didn't want testing 3 days ago, until their events were over, and now, they will have to reach out to everyone they know to let them know that they were positive because they were showing symptoms well before their event.

the next week or two? we're going to see many, many more, all people with symptoms that started around christmas. these are the only two viruses we test for rapidly in our office, but they are potent and can be fatal in many people.

so here's why i wrote this post, and maybe it's a little late, but - if you care about your loved ones, please get tested if you know you're sick. it doesn't have to be at a clinic if you don't want it to, because the over-the-counter tests work just fine too (if you test within 5-7 days of symptom onset). just...please don't try to run from the knowledge that you might have covid, because immunocompromised people, elderly people, people with co-morbidities like asthma, pregnancy, diabetes, etc...many of them may not recover. and they may not be sitting at your holiday table in the future because of it.

#zee rambles #this isn't to guilt trip anyone #but im so so tired of people coming in and just refusing testing because they want to see grandma or whatever #and on top of that people are avoiding vaccinations and all that too?? #we all lived through the pandemic - everyone saw how many people unfortunately passed away from it #now because of vaccinations and some amount of herd immunity we're finding milder cases in healthy people #but that doesn't mean its gone #that doesn't mean it doesn't have long-term repercussions even in healthy people and that doesn't mean people aren't still dying from it #honestly i just needed a lil rant #and if this helps at least one person??? im all for it #also i can't sleep so here we are spilling thoughts into the voidddd

[blueboyluca]

“When I first heard it, from a dog trainer who knew her behavioral science, it was a stunning moment. I remember where I was standing, what block of Brooklyn’s streets. It was like holding a piece of polished obsidian in the hand, feeling its weight and irreducibility. And its fathomless blackness. Punishment is reinforcing to the punisher. Of course. It fit the science, and it also fit the hidden memories stored in a deeply buried, rusty lockbox inside me. The people who walked down the street arbitrarily compressing their dogs’ tracheas, to which the poor beasts could only submit in uncomprehending misery; the parents who slapped their crying toddlers for the crime of being tired or hungry: These were not aberrantly malevolent villains. They were not doing what they did because they thought it was right, or even because it worked very well. They were simply caught in the same feedback loop in which all behavior is made. Their spasms of delivering small torments relieved their frustration and gave the impression of momentum toward a solution. Most potently, it immediately stopped the behavior. No matter that the effect probably won’t last: the reinforcer—the silence or the cessation of the annoyance—was exquisitely timed. Now. Boy does that feel good.”

— Melissa Holbrook Pierson, The Secret History of Kindness (2015)

#dog books #this chapter was very sad reading #when you become aware of punishment #and its use and its prevalence #it's hard not to despair #again this is why positive reinforcement feels like absolution #maybe now my eyes are open I can make up for what I did #what I did because it's what everyone does #because it's more acceptable to punish than to do anything else #I've been having so many thoughts about punishment and society and justice #this book was very validating #another great validating moment in my jumbled thoughts #was listening to the You're Wrong About episode on justice #with Amanda Knox #it helped to ease the despair a little

[cissa-calls]

Watching the Ballad of Songbirds and Snakes is realizing that despite the obvious implication that Lucy Gray is the songbird and Snow is the Snake…it’s likely the opposite.

Lucy gray controlled the snakes and used them as her weapon of choice, the snake biting him was Lucy’s kiss goodbye. She is the snake.

Snow sold Sejanus out through the jabberjay’s, they were his tool to fly back home and back into power. He is the songbird.

But at the same time…as in her Ballad, Lucy Gray flys away with the mockingjays after she sings the Hanging Tree one final time while fleeing Snow. She is physically a songbird. And Snow chose to work with Dr. Gaul, who created and controlled those snakes. He was the snake who betrayed his friend.

Who is the songbird and who is the snake? It’s unclear, but isn’t that the mystery?

#I JUST WATCHED IT AND I HAVE THOUGHTS OKAY #CHILLS CHILLS SO MANY CHILLS #the ballad of songbirds and snakes #ballad of songbirds and snakes #the hunger games #hunger games #tbosas