#I keep thinking of the what ifs

[a-crystalclearsquid]

i finished the dragon republic with tears in my eyes and starting the burning god with still said tears, not giving myself time to grieve because just like rin, i am self-destructive

anyways, fuck yin vaisra. i hope he dies the most gruesome death in the burning god

#i keep thinking of the what ifs #what if they had escaped that day #what if rin hadnt been betrayed thrice over #and i keep grieving over the little details #the fact that they didnt even get to say goodbye #that juat hourse before they were hoping to set sail for their chance at freedom #no matter how fleeting that may be #but instead vaisra took that away from them #just so he'd come out on top #alex rants #alex reads #the dragon republic #the poppy war series #fang runin #yin vaisra

[a-bundle-of-radishes]

Watching all the hunger games movies again because the prequel came out, and now I'm bawling my eyes out because of everything in the story. Fucking help 😭

#I'm watching it with mom and i almost made her cry too sjdjskdjsk #when she started singing the hanging tree song and district 5 went to blow up the dam i just broke hhhhkkhhkkk #like why do i even remotely like this #it's all just pain #and regrets #at least when it comes to Lucy Grey and Coriolanus and Sejanus aaaaaamKzkj(mmm?! #I'm buying the prequel book too #i need to read about the insanity that is Coriolanus Snow #I fucking love his character and everything #like how Suzanne wrote him is just amazing #I keep thinking of the what ifs #like what if he didn't follow in the foot steps of his father and didn't go fucking insane and agajsosnsks #also Tom Blyth is super good as Coriolanus #i don't care what others think of his or the movie or whatever #i fucking loved it #it was amazing to see the... rawness of it #before hunger games became the performance #also great to see Coriolanus be a bit less insane and cold to everyone and everything around him #the hunger games #the ballad of songbirds and snakes #thg #tbosas #i have a headache from the crying and the shit storm that is the fucking story #i actually watched the Mockingjay part 4 for my birthday when it came out #fitting that i watched tbosas for my birthday too #actually the only movies I've watched for my birthday

[qsmprambling]

Imagine Egg A1 still has one life left, and it somehow manages to escape the facility... It is being followed by mobs, by Federation employees, being hurt by the poison ivy and other environmental threats, but it keeps running, because what other choice is there? That parkour course was a trick after all, the last block was a fake, it was never meant to pass that test in the first place.

So it keeps running, but the Federation workers are getting closer. It won't be able to avoid them forever...

But then it bursts through some bushes and comes face to face with someone new - and it's Bad, out building or exploring or just wandering alone. A1 is immediately afraid, of course. It is a stranger, a very visually striking stranger, the complete opposite of the pure white and featureless employees of the Federation. But there are people close behind, and it knows what will happen to it if it is caught, so... It has no choice but to try. It has no way to communicate, no signs or books, so it simply rushes to hide behind him and hopes he understands, and that he is willing to help...

And Bad, for his part, well.. he's an extremely cautious and paranoid person, and this is just an incredibly confusing and unexpected situation to be in. An unknown egg appeared out of nowhere and is hiding behind him, he can see Federation employees in the distance that are clearly looking for something... He knows that the code has been disguising itself as eggs, and that the strange egg in front of him with no marks, no distinguishing features, an egg that he has never seen before, could easily be the code monster preparing to attack at any moment...

But there is absolutely no way Bad could ever look at an egg in distress and not try to help it, even knowing it could be a trap.

So he quickly digs a shallow hole and pushes the mysterious egg into it, covering it up just in time, and when the employees throw him a book asking if he had seen anything, he lies effortlessly, he complains about nonsense, he asks them where the Ekea is and is as annoying as he can be, until they leave.

And now they're alone... just Bad an this mystery egg in the middle of the woods, A1 too afraid to leave the hole even when Bad tries to coax it out. He gives it food and tries his best to comfort it, to tell it everything is okay and that the pursuers are gone. He gives it some signs and a book, trying to see if it will write anything to him or answer any of his questions, but he gets no reply. A1 is just too afraid to even attempt to answer, and Bad doesn't even know if it understands him. He tries what few words he does know of the other languages, and still no response.

What should he do? As much as the image of a tiny, terrified egg makes him want to do all he can for it he also needs to be safe. He can't bring it home, because if it is a code there is no way he is bringing it anywhere near Dapper. Should he call someone else for help, or would that draw too much attention? Would it even be safe for him or the egg to let anyone know right now? And was this egg dangerous, or harmless and in need of protection? He wouldn't abandon it regardless but...

What now?

#Egg A1 #badboyhalo #I am a Bad watcher it will always be qBad in my what ifs even if anyone could do it #Plus he is perfect for the job #I can't write fic but yes this is basically an A1 fic oops #ElQuackity you thought killing a featureless egg was a safe option but you're wrong we are all attached #I want A1 to be alive and to escape to be adored and protected #Also I bet if Bad got caught with a mystery egg I think he'd just go 'Huh? No this is my other child you just never saw them before :)' #Also for some reason my brain was calling A1 'Alice' but then I saw people using 'Ai' and that's adorable too~ #Though it also makes me think 'artificial intelligence' but hey maybe that is fitting for the fabricated eggs theory XD #'What now' I ask as if I am not already imagining Bad trying to protect A1 and also be safe in case it is a threat #not wanting to think it is but unable to know otherwise #but also being so BBH about it and just being in complete dad mode when they interact #he keeps it in it's own safe little secure home and does what he can to help it with minimal communication for several days #until A1 starts to open up little by little - incredibly slowly #Bad very gradually telling very select people about it #until eventually when the Federation finds out - everyone who knows is immediately hmm what no this is our child what do you mean? #and go ultra protective #because A1 deserves the world #fic within the tags yes #Bad ruined my sleep schedule and I can't sleep mindless rambles time

[sherbetyy]

ah what a good day today.

my mind: what if dhmis season 2 is bad

oh

#I DONT THINK IT WILL BE #but my brain keeps being like. #hey. what if they flanderize the characters. what if it’s not funny. what if they overdo fluffybird #what if #SHUT UP SHUT UP SHUST PU SHITUP SHSUTSKPDIDUD #the mere thought makes my tummy hurt #I TRUST BB&J THOUGH. THEY ARE GREAT WRITERS #i go through too many what ifs. hush brain #dhmis #don’t hug me i’m scared

[khytal]

hey, I'm really sorry you had to experience that! I hope you'll feel better soon and that the memory won't bother you for long. take care! <3

thank you 🥹

#anonymous #everyone keeps telling me it wasn't my fault but I can't help thinking about the what-ifs 😔 #and I don't feel safe at home rn either

[pyrriax]

hi tumblr im pyrr pyrriax and im in my trimonthly artist arc, lord help me and all the projects that are currently sitting in my drafts while i am lured in by the siren song of drawing

#haunted ecosystem #this is not helping with how much my hands hurt on a daily basis this is why i type and dont handwrite/draw very much. #im lured in regardless and i really need to find an artform that doesnt Hurt but for now. digital art <3 #like theres a difference between my dumb doodles (quick easy not much different from regular computer usage) and actual art #but im an artist at heart i spent sooooo long being an artist and thinking i was shit at writing. that is wrong! im actually kinda good #im rambling in tags today because i have been not social (my partner is in genshin hell and my beloved is. somewhere.) #okay but on another note i reread the first. couple chapters of wtds this morning? the pacing is a little weird and the tense is fucked #but its actually a lot better than i thought it was? you can tell i was fleshing everybody out in my head and i totally forgot about how #i described the watcher [who i am STILL redacting the name of until we get there] and just. ough. pandora being very logical #and then jumping to the latest chapter and fucking sobbing because i forgot about how it went and just. pandora and his. #whatever the fuck is wrong with him. #i have gotta start recommending people read that again. its surprisingly friendly without context because of how i approached it #that fic has taught me so many things its actually a little comical. it also made me relearn how to make and write ocs so thats fun #once i finish that main fic (and i WILL i am actually planning to sign up for a thing. im finishing it i swear.) i finally get to show off #more of the world and characters ive crafted. showing backstories and what-ifs and all these oneshots ive been keeping close to my chest #for like absolutely ages because i dont want any spoilers on my tumblr #and. im finishing that fic in pseudo-memoriam of somebody who deleted their accounts everywhere. still miss you dane! #ok this has completely gone off topic ily tumblr im going back to drawing and i might make a new pfp #it'll still be lavius but it'll be fray lavius since i think about him a lot and i like his color palette.

[omegabenaeart]

I've seen so many Modern AU things that I decided to take a crack at it 🤷

Also, bonus baby under cut

#meg's art #traditional art #rdr2 #red dead redemption 2 #charles smith #arthur morgan #modern au #cuz why the fuck not #i like modern aus #i think it's fun to think of what ifs #hell the dad au has at LEAST 4 other iterations that i don't show #well now it's 5 cuz this one's new #why do i keep getting better at drawing Charles but getting worse at drawing Arthur???? #shit's wild #rdr2 oc #honey bea smith #dad charles #this au has me in a chokehold #i can't just not give him a baby at this point

[byanyan]

when it's almost 5am and u get woken up by ur dog climbing into bed with u looking anxious so your dumb, unmedicated ass gets anxious too :/

#there were a couple of like. banging noises outside that followed (nothing all that loud even tbh) #which is what I think must've freaked him out #bc he looks the same way he does when he comes to hide from fireworks with me #and I haven't heard anything again for like ten mins now #but gdi my anxiety brain is nervous to go back to sleep it's so dumb IT'S SO DUMB #I can barely keep my eyes open but omg the what ifs dude I hate it here #━━ ˟ ⊰ ✰ ooc ⋮ don’t @ me. #tbd.

[weenhands]

i think lately ive been kinda craving being in a relationship again and i hate it

#the things i keep thinking about and wanting r really speaking to me in a way where #i dont want certain ppl i fantasize about or have what ifs #as much as i normally do #i mostly just want to be in love again with someone #to just exchange love #and i think this is due to how numb i feel inside lately😳😳😳😳 #bc i cant. feel anything anymore #but yeah. i just wanna be held and kissed and to hold hands and to dress up for dates and to call someone my boyfriend again #im ready for it and ive always been. i just want to also sort out Other stuff deep within

[gncrezan]

hey sorry if this is a dumb question but i wanted to start playing infamous, because i trust your opinion/taste so much because you're a rezan diehard, but with dashingdon is there a way to save your file onto your computer like you can with atoc? or do I just have to keep the tab open forever? like, once im all caught up to where the story is rn and the next installment comes out, do you just have to remember and replay all the same choices to get back to where you were? (i hope this makes sense)

HI !!! there is no way to download those save files :( for reference, i think there's a workaround for games published on steam (so wayhaven for example) but that doesn't . apply here. i am so sorry for not being to help w that

BUT those saves do remain even if you close the tab, close the browser, restart your device, etc, as long as you don't clear your cache! i usually play IF on my laptop so i can't say how easy it is to play on mobile, but i virtually don't ever lose saves on desktop! i haven't lost any so far and i've run through it a lot from the saves i have (i tend to save like.. at the beginning of chaps. sc below if it helps LOL) to get to things like drawing refs!! also a warning not to save on the stats page, since that corrupts the save, and to always do it on the game text itself!

it is a bitch to move from one device to the next though, and i know from experience because i got a new laptop and then realised i'd have to replay a bunch of games. which is technically a labour of love but still annoying, if for example you've got lots of playthroughs :( and it does mean you're limited to the amount of save slots available on each game, but that number differs from game-to-game 🤔

hope this helps!! if i didn't answer what you were looking for just send me another ask and i can see if i can help!!! i hope this also gets you to play infamous!!!!!!!!!🤩🤩🤩

#thanks by the way for your opening lines because that is going directly into the about #rezan diehard. thank you. its true. it made me laugh for 5 minutes straight #i wanted to hold off answering so i could keep this in my inbox #and. so sorry also. because it feels like im just pointing obvious things out :( idk if this actually answers anything #if anyone does know a way to get more saves it would also help me LOL. i think the most saves ive seen is like. 10-12?? #but that was coded in by the author themselves . tried to dig around on the forums too but i cant find anything #also found out saves is not a normal thing on cog and that some games dont typically like. have the option at all #thats crazy. id die #answered #anon #ALSO. JUST THOUGHT OF THIS. sometimes IFs will require u to play the whole tihng anyway bc of like #big coding changes. like added factors earlier in the game that you hv to choose again or it breaks #but i dont think thats what u were asking for. IM SO SORRY

[nomaishuttle]

u guys will never understand the weird attachment i have with the letter k shes like a part of me

#not even an aestheticslly pleasing letter shes actually Sooo hard to write in a pretty way idk if ife ever managed it..lie no i did on #saturday. awesome. very good i was practicing capital uppercase k and i think it came out great. so there #lowercase k? dont talk to me anymore. i dont want to hear about her. #however despite this k is my best friend my sister part of me and etc. #ive been half tempted to start spelling connor with a k (konnor) but thankfully i havent stooped that low. itd be likefun bc famously #i was kamille with a k and Eeeeveryone spelled it with a c so i always said Kamille with a k! thats who i am ksmille with a k #and now im what #connor with 2 o's. stupid. not nearly as brand friendly..... so i could ve konnor with a k but konnor is potentially the ugliest thing #ever. it looks like if kourtney kardashian became transgender but needed to keep up the brand. id rather die.... #guys wait thatd be so scary im glad they arent making new kardashians bc what if one of them was kamille. thatd be so scary #and then every other little girl i met would be named kamille and id have to kms.

[missjessefantastico]

i no longer want irl friends, i wanna be bitchy instead

#you see perry the platypus i grew up being gaslit and manipulated so now everytime i see a red flag i assume it's me who is being a bitch #like... i think that objectively this is a red flag... but on the other hand... what if my standards are just way too high? #what if i'm just too judgy? what if this is normal behavior and i'm the one in the wrong? #what if i'm truly a prissy brat who can't take a joke? #what if what if what if what if #and i'm tired of the what ifs #but what if it's my fault i can't never keep friends? #note to future self: this is how she makes you feel please stop letting her back in #these have been a really triggering couple of weeks #i have been having constant auras due to the stress #so... learn something and stop allowing her into your life #now i need an exit strategy tho #txtjessefantastico

[michiganmerchant]

#i'm losing a war against the mceichel worms in my brains and its like #their dynamic to ME is that one mary oliver quote thats like ''let the soft animal of your body love what it loves'' #except what connor loves is an angry little raccoon he picked up by accident from the trash can (jack) #i think. what is so compelling to me about them in ways that other connor ships do not move me in #well first anytime we're doing lovers to enemies i'm on board but mostly its the whole. not being friends #look one romantic aspect we do not talk enough about is the idea that you wouldnt be friends with your partner if you werent in a #relationship which like. doesnt make sense right? arent all good relationships built on a foundation of platonic affection? #but you would be surprised! at how many people fall into this kind of dynamic! because at the end of the day being partners is a CHOICE #oh my god it was always a choice #anyways i love projecting real life relationship dynamics on fictional men #and i just think. ifs the acknowledgement that they wouldnt particularly work well outside of a romantic aspect that Gets Me So Badly #we're either lovers or strangers #<- THEE mceichel thesis to me #and its just stupid cute and stupid human to find urself falling in love with someone you wouldnt expect #i want that for the both of them. they both need je nay say kwas to keep their incredibly regimented lives normal and fun. #ANYWys. #thinking. perhaps even thoughting. thunking.

[jbarneswilson]

i am fREAKING OUT. i have an interview in 37 minutes for a higher position at my company and i feel like i am turning inside out

#jbw behind the scenes #professional development #i want to be a supervisor #i think i’d be good at it #is what i keep telling myself #because this stress #is kicking my ass #i know i can do it #but all the what ifs #are getting to me

[i-miss-lotor]

I'm still hurt by how much Max listened to Running Up That Hill because she probably imagined so many times what would happen if she died instead of Billy and even wished for it

#at least in my mind she did #bc sure billy and max weren’t exactly friends #but i bet she keeps thinking about what ifs and what would have beens #like what if they were friends #what if billy was a little kinder #what if his dad didn’t fuck him up #what if max could have helped #what if she actually did try and help #see what i mean? #and the guilt man the guilt sure is killing her #canonically oof #what if they understood each other a bit more #and i think about billy's last word being #im so sad man #also like #they did like each other i think #just a little bit #idk maybe things in california were better or maybe it's the time billy was possessed and took back control a bit #maybe its just them being them #but i like to think that max is devastated bc of this too and not just the guilt of it #i mean ofc she wishes for better times but #anyway #stranger things #max mayfield #billy hargrove #max and billy #i also like to think about steve and max bonding but thats for another time #maybe #and also i know or at least i heard that the song is about understanding each other and ofc max listened to it bc of that too

[theolddivorcedzukka]

it's so important for me, as a zukkagirl, to lie

#i was writing a post rn and was like 'well that's not true...but u know these characters better than bryke so go on baby' #thats what i love about shipping them. we are all delusional and lying #and that is ok cause its really not about how canon it can be it's about looking at their dynamic and thinking 'ohohooho I'll bite' #and then u think about the what ifs and that one period of ambiguity in their lives where we don't know who they married or what happened #in their lives and boom. u are stuck #i for one am having a blast thinking about how the fn affects their dynamic and their divorce #and also the enchanted au very important #vee keep talking