"Stop saying Crowley won't help Aziraphale in S3 he'd go back to him in a HEARTBEAT and nothing would stop him" I get it no one likes the idea of Crowley being bitter after what happened for a long period of time but like can we at least acknowledge that he's currently going through probably the most emotional pain in his life since falling? Can we agree that he's opened his heart entirely - something you couldn't pay him to do unless the world is literally ending and he's desperate - to Aziraphale, and got shot down? Can we understand that he did it AGAIN only to lose Aziraphale again? Not that what Aziraphale did isn't without Crowley's own shortcomings (hiding the truth of Heaven's cruelty from him) but like,,,,
The appeal here isn't Scorned Crowley Doesn't Love Aziraphale Anymore, or Never Wants To Help Him Again, the appeal here is Crowley learning enough self respect to not just walk back right to Aziraphale like nothing happened after Aziraphale has had a pattern of consistently refusing him. Going years ping-ponging between "We're not friends I don't even know him" to "That's what friends are for right?" and "We're friends, why would you even say anything?" and "Friends? We're not friends. We are an angel and a demon!"
Like I get it, Crowley is a heartbreakingly forgiving person. Of course he's gonna forgive Aziraphale, I'll be surprised if he didn't forgive him by the time he walked out the bookshop door, but gdi he could at least grant himself the luxury of being at least a little irritated for longer than however long it takes to make a globe and some books float and angrily cry out to God in his flat. But due to the change of pace and dynamic that is establishing part of the conflict for Season 3, I just really like the idea of him for ONCE prioritizing himself and being like "Okay, fine. We'll get back at it when you're ready, then," instead of just taking Aziraphale back like his words and actions meant nothing to him, when clearly they have an effect on him.
What is Aziraphale going to learn if Crowley just accepts what he did so quickly, like he always has the entire time they've been friends? Idk maybe I'm just projecting too much darkness on their dynamic but I mean, if the pattern of Aziraphale pushing Crowley away/disrespecting him one day and then being fine with his friendship the next + Crowley never stopping to be like "Hey, that's not cool, at least give me a little credit" or smth was fine all along and will continue to be fine in the future, then why, after 6,000 years of being friends and loving this demon, can Aziraphale still not accept that Crowley is just fine the way he is, and instead got excited to promote him to an angel in a heartbeat once the opportunity presented itself? You can't blame all of it on Heaven when Aziraphale has demonstrated his free will/defiance to Heaven so many times. Or, I don't know, I guess maybe we can? Maybe I'm just craving too much angst to the point where I'm letting it cloud my analysis of canon. Idk.
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I was thinking about a sick Makoto, and realized you'd probably like to hear my thoughts instead of just letting em fade away
Despite Makoto being a perfect homunclus, I like to think he gets sick often and it's hard to fight off. Side affect from his habit of working without breaks. I feel like congestion issues are probably what gets him most... wine isn't the best for hydration, after all. Once he gets sick it's really hard for him to get back to feeling healthy again, even if he stops working and focuses on trying to get better. He could do everything he's supposed to do to feel healthy, and he'll still be sick for weeks on end. He usually doesn't focus on getting better, so he can be sick for much longer than that secretly. I like to imagine it comes in waves- he gets bedridden and can't do anything, then slowly starts healing and jumps on the opportunity to get back to work. Which re-kickstarts his illness all over again.
Ohhhh yeah, now you're starting to understand my visions when it comes to this silly little workaholic.
Absolutely. He is fairly frail despite being immortal and when he gets sick, it doesn't go away for a while. It can start with just a small cold, that will graduate to congestion, coughing, a high fever, chills, fatigue and literally anything. And yeah wine is not a good drink for that sort of thing at all... ^^; Because he constantly works with little to no breaks, he can easily destroy his health. He is just one person after all. Doing all this work and shouldering the burden of an entire city on his hands. ALONE? Nah. That cannot be healthy...
I love this idea so much and its canon to me now. The fact that it can come in waves and he can have good days and bad ones, and the good ones just end up bad ones literally the day after repeatedly because of all the time he spends working and NOT resting. It’s an endless cycle of pure misery and he only has himself to blame.
And I LOVE it...
Makoto... REST YOU FOOL... 💦
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I have my entire little pink family on my tablet now, life is good 💖💖
Meanwhile, the other side of the tablet is still ruled by Raguna and Felicity, as it should be 👏
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hmm... i'm still feeling art blocked and not very inspired to work on my current bagginshield wip. however, i thought it might be fun if people could send me drawing 'requests' to see if they'd spark some inspiration!
just be aware that while i might do some of them i might also not do any of them if the art block sticks around, so it wouldn't be anything personal ♡
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Here to tell you, you should drop out of college and try and publish some books.. lol okay okay, maybe don’t do anything super drastic just yet, BUT, I would definitely look into publishing books. Because I think it would work out for you. I could say something dumb like “just don’t be scared and do it”. Lol but that would be annoying. So how bout…. Don’t take it off the table. Don’t write it off as a pipe dream. You’re talented, you’re smart. And I think you can definitely pull it off. Might take a sometime but it’s worth a shot.
i appreciate this so much. i’m definitely trying to not do anything drastic but it’s just been a lot of questioning “what do i want to do in life that DOESNT make me want to stop existing” and the realization that everything that does make me feel happy and passionate just… doesn’t align with my major. like, i have spent years sitting in classrooms telling myself ‘this is good for you it’ll be a stable career, it’ll make others proud’.
i shouldn’t have to talk myself down from a ledge every day i wake up or head into class. and i certainly shouldn’t only go into a career because of how it makes other people feel.
so yeah. lots of feels. thank you, nonnie. 🖤
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Today it's been a very productive day of procrastinating on finishing my writing wip by attempting to finish my cosplay wip, which I have been procrastinating on for 3 years. I feel like this says something about me and motivation lmao
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hanging out in this server i'm in is wild to me bc it's a generally very. wholesome place. and there Are dedicated channels for nsfw and there's a Single "dark nsfw" channel that pretty much only hosts stuff like "what if it was TECHNICALLY dubcon but nobody involved was actually forced into doing anything they felt genuinely uncomfortable with" and i'm over here like. what if a character restrained and lobotomized their captive, who was horrified the whole time. what if i invent an abortifacient herb so one character can induce a miscarriage on another in secret, and then accuse them of "not caring about their baby enough" to not lose it. what if there was adoptive incest On Top Of the blood-relative incest. what if i invented ways to violate autonomy using magic or technology that you literally can't do in real life. would that be cool or what
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