#I’m in your walls people

[vanhelsingapologist]

Publishing has always been a fucking nightmare, but now it’s a layer of hell. It’s not enough that writers be good at what they do. Writers have to maintain an active social media presence and cultivate a following. Be available.

They have to be conventionally attractive enough to look good enough to see on a screen, aesthetically pleasing, kind, funny, up-to-date on trends, socially aware but not so controversial that they turn off a brand from California from slapping their discount code on a video promoting a book.

They have to do all of this with no media training, with little help from the companies that are supposed to be doing this for them.

Of course, a lot of this isn't possible for say, the 40-something mother of two who teaches English at a school and writes on the side. She’s boxed out of an already complex industry that already has enough walls.

On some level, I think authors have always marketed themselves a little, but we’ve reached such a crazy point where we’re demanding the author become the influencer. Accessibility in publishing has narrowed from an inch to a sliver. And that inch was hard enough to get in as is.

#This is about traditional publishing but there’s pretty privilege and ageism in self publishing too #I can’t think of the last time I saw an up and coming author recording videos who was over thirty #And frankly that’s a shame #It could be that I’m not looking hard enough #but it’s more likely that algorithms are trained the way they are #truly I don’t think they should have to do any of that at all #And forgive me but (and I know it’s rich because I’m an artist on a platform) but art shouldn’t be at the mercy of an algorithm #Now there’s also something to be said about self publishing becoming easier and easier to achieve success in #And doors opening because of influencer status is real and makes publishing wider in a way #But that doesn’t mean it’s accessible #I’m not gonna plaster my health issues over the wall but that life is certainly not accessible to me! #are you healthy enough to write and make sure people on social media still want to like your stuff #are you mentally well enough to be your own pr #I’m sure people who have studied this have more to say and have said it better but this is what I’ve observed #writing #publishing #publishing industry

[crazyw3irdo]

okay, i think any time anyone asks what superpower we’d like to have most everyone on this website would say shapeshifting but what kind of shapeshifting would you like

type 1- wild shape, you can turn into any animal, real or fictional

type 2- mystique, you can turn into any real person

type 3- cosplay, you can turn into any humanoid fictional character

type 4- jake the dog, you’re super stretchy

type 5- character creator, you can alter your own appearance- like changing voice hair length texture color, changing height and weight, transing gender, etc, but you can’t add anything non-human (ie horns, wings, claws, etc)

type 6- additional features, you can add things like snake eyes, horns, cat ears, tail, claws, wings, mermaid tail, but you remain humanoid overall and can’t change things like height or gender presentation or hair color. you can still change your voice tho

type 7- were-wolf, we all know what a werewolf is, lads. can be any kind of animal. can be straight up wolf or more monstrous wolf form that’s up to you.

type 8- furry, you just become your fursona. or any kind of fursona really you can change between them

type 9- antman, can become small or big

type 10- other, say what kind ya want

#polls #crazwaz posted #i’m curious #just saying ‘shapeshifting’ is too broad yknow #there’s so many types of shapeshifting i can think of way more but there’s only 10 options lol #cause the lil loophole lover i am i’m just like. well i could shapeshift my dna n such to give me other superpowers couldnt i #i could make an argument that every character is a shapeshifter i think #shapeshift to give myself electric powers or flight or invisibility or strength or speed or spiderman stick to wall stuff #hell even without that like. could shapeshift your blood to be immune to diseases and such #underutilized form of that yknow #like wolverine and deadpool and etc etc have like that but they’re not shapeshifters yknow #if you can shapeshift more mass then you could shapeshift more blood. change your blood type. become a whole new type of universal donor #shapeshift to have a type of dna or whatever that is immune to like. cancer. and then donate that to people. like cmon man #if you’re not specific about your shapeshifting you become overpowered so fast that’s why i always say i wanna be a shapeshifter #that and i’m genderfluid and have adhd so like obviously

[laniidae-passerine]

my post about Danver’s racism hits so much harder knowing now that she had an Indigenous son and she lost him, implicitly to someone white and drunk like the woman she arrests in an early episode. She made a life with a man she loved and she had a baby with him - someone she likely felt growing inside her, that was born with her eyes, that looked nothing else like her but was her baby. Her special little boy. And then this town, out of nowhere, stole him from her in the most horrific way. So love nothing. Protect no one. Let nobody in. Until Navarro with all her problems and her heart and her belief and that connection which allows her to see Holden, to tell Liz what he said, comes crashing in. And everything changes.

#LIZ DANVERS I’M CRYING FOR YOU #oh her precious baby. so rare in so many ways. fuck. she lost her husband and her son #why protect Prior’s relationship. he’s going to lose his wife and son anyway this town takes and takes and takes from Indigenous people #and if you love them you lose them #genuinely want to wail. interracial narratives of how your heart can twist into something ugly because you loved so hard and lost it kill me #keep your walls up high and let nobody in. let no pain in. let no love in either. #night country #true detective night country #true detective #true detective: night country #liz danvers

[ghostdrinkssoup]

don’t mind me I’m just thinking about how quickly will and hannibal get attached to each other in s1 considering they’re both eternal loners and have never let anyone in. like by episode 8 they’re already being like “I feel like I’ve dragged you into my world” / “I got here one my own, but I appreciate the company” and being soft and then suddenly they’re acting married and calling themselves abigail’s dads and chatting shit about other characters (jack) like they’re a couple driving home from the christmas dinner party and hanging out in the office only for hannibal to frame will for murder like how did it escalate so quickly 😭

#episode 9 and hannibal is like you’re my friend I don’t care about the lives of the people you save I care about your life let’s be dads #like what happened to being his psychiatrist? 😭 one minute you’re entertaining the idea of friendship and the next you’ve got a kid #makes s2 sadder tbh #banging my head on the wall #they’re both so deranged I’m obsessed with them #hannibal #nbc hannibal #will graham #hannigram #ghost speaks

[chappelroans]

the next person to talk shit about chappell’s production value is getting hit with a large rock

#yall are comparing it to like. taylor and billie. stop doing that #reminder that she’s independent on purpose!!! #i saw someone that said her songs are so good too bad her production is so bad #bro i’m in your walls. i’m scratching up and down the drywall #people are dogging on her coachella performance as if she isn’t entirely self made #miles speaks #tbd

[whoblewboobear]

Foaming at the mouth and going feral waiting for Fig to open up more to her parents and friends 🤧 I rmr all through middle school and high school holding everything in and being unsure about myself and putting on a tough mask with walls so high because I wanted to hide and not exist and just.. 🤧 having friends that were patient and loving and understanding even if they didn’t know my whole deal was life changing. I just wanna wrap Fig up in a big hug and tell her that she doesn’t need to have it all figured out, but that she’s still wanted and appreciated for all the qualities and facets that she exudes regardless of if she can lay all those things out and understand them. Despite it all, who she is and who she will become: She is loved. She is wanted. She should exist.

#I’m getting emo about herrrrr #I spent sooo long with my walls up bc I thought the way I was wasn’t good enough #you don’t have to know who you are and a lot of people still don’t know well into their 20s/30s/40s #the people around you and that love you know #they know your heart and character what your interests are the foods you like etc #all of that stuff makes you who you are #you don’t have to have a string of buzzwords or your personality all layed out in a numbered list #and if you do that’s lovely too and being comfortable with that changing as you grow is beautiful as well #tw for mental health/personal stuff #growing up and sometimes falling into being s*ic*d*l really makes you feel like you have no reason existing puts you through #identity crises more often than not and getting older and still breathing and taking each day at a time helps you figure out parts of you #even if the big picture is fuzzy or incomplete you still have every right to be alive #to keep existing and learning about yourself #even when it’s hard #dimension 20 #fhjy

[shsl-roomba]

the dr fandom cant handle wlw ships in any other context than background fluff with no depth

i like sakuraoi and tsumioda ect but they always get woobified and mellowed out like did they SEE 1-4??? aoi did not pull all that to get sidelined as a supportive background lesbian in your ishimondo fanfic

and don’t get me wrong. my girls need a break sometimes fluff is great i don’t have a problem with it. but it’s the constant sidelining of wlw ships in favour of het/mlm ships in pretty much any fandom that gets to me.

and how wlw ships are only acceptable in the community when they don’t have any dysfunction or toxicity, and if the ship does have even the slightest hint of the above qualities it is either mellowed out to the point of being unrecognisable or dumped on with thinly veiled misogyny and homophobia and when i say slightest hint i mean the literally slightest hint. like the girls will argue once and the fandom will label the ship toxic while shipping. fucking kuzupeko or something.

wlw ships are seen almost entirely as a way to get female characters out of the way of mlm ships. in het ships the female character is a tool to develop the male character. they show significantly less depth and probably dies to forward the male character’s development (sound familiar?)

in any situation female characters are characterised by their relations to male characters. a female character’s (usually romantic, or at least interpreted as such) relationship with a male character is their defining characteristic. if said female character is in a wlw relationship they are reduced to their most basic traits while male characters are explored and given depth, and exist in the story only to offer support to the male characters.

i haven’t even mentioned how female characters must be in a relationship to be even remotely relevant in a story, but that’s a rant for another time.

grrah the way that female characters mirrors how wlw ships are treated by the community, and that characters/ships that aren’t completely perfect and deemed acceptable by the community are dumped on by the larger dr community while worse ships or characters are welcomed because they happen to contain a male character is gonna be my 13th reason istg.

anyways this rant is getting long but in summary danganronpa fans hate women and they hate wlw relationships that they can’t jerk off to.

#apple chat #danganronpa #sdr2 #thh #ndrv3 #this post is incoherent i know i know #also as an add on #leaving this in the tags because my post is about female characters and wlw relationships exclusively #and what im going to say affects mlm relationships as well #but the despite the amount of queer fans a lot of the dr community esp the ones on reddit view heterosexuality as the “default” #and dump on queer ships simply because they happen to be queer #the dr community’s constant complaining about its queer fans drives me up a wall #yes a lot of them are annoying and i also hate the annoying komahina saiouma shippers who hate anything that isn’t pale twink yaoi BUT #we can dump on annoying dr fans and ships we don’t like without bringing up sexuality i believe in you guys❤️ #oh no the poor straights the shippers made their favourite characters gay💔 damn those homos ruining everything #is what you guys genuinely sound like sometimes #the tone deafness in this community #one day i will round up every dr redditor and set them on fire #I’m so sorry you had to see gay people on your dash as repayment you get one f slur pass use it wisely #i will shit on dr community again another day for now goodbye🫡 #psst btw i have no beef with kmhn and (most) of its fans but a bunch are Like That so yeah #on the other hand fuck saiouma all my homies hate saiouma (well *I* don’t like it but good for you besties) #ok this is getting long enough BYEEE #homophobia tw #misogyny tw

[artemx746]

Richard Fucking Riordan: And this is the Hunters of Artemis; it’s a group that doesn’t have any romance at all! It’s only for girls though!

Me as an 11yo who was very unsure about their gender Identity but definitely knew that I really did not want to date:

#rr crit #rick riordan critical #Rick Riordan crit #hunters of artemis #pjo #percy jackon and the olympians #Also for the people who make all the hunters lesbians; This isn’t about you and your excessive need for romance #This is about ME being a little nonbinary aroace child realising that even in Fucking fiction I couldn’t have a safe space #Also just fuck you! #You’re allowed to have your own interpretations of myths #But changing an entire group that (at least in this adaptation) just does not do romance into an all lesbian group that does do romance #Is just asshole amatonormative behaviour #I’m not even sorry #Also Rick Riordan excluding any young aro boys who might’ve wanted a safe space is wrong on so many levels #Stop putting amatonormative standards onto young boys challenge #Wouldn’t be a post written at 1am without a wall of tags

[itspileofgoodthings]

one of my fave things about teaching is that I’m NOT a counselor and I don’t have to get into the weeds with a student but also I’m part of their life every day and i see when they’re struggling and I can ask how them how they’re doing and make sure that they know I see them on a steady, daily basis and it will be healing for both of us

#I teach a student who hit a wall a few weeks ago and just refused to go to school and was just all around struggling with his mental health #and this is not a kid who wants to talk to me about it or would even know how and I also know he has people where he can #But I’ve just tried to make sure that There’s a little extra contact and a few more questions and just a little bit more #and obviously I am not the cause of his doing better but overall I know that it helps #while still being such a subtle and ordinary human exchange that doesn’t force either of us to go to extreme lengths #like man I really LOVE that space and living in it #and just being a (hopefully) stable place for the kids to be seen in a small but consistent way #teaching tag #something about holding them in the safety of manners while also modeling what that looks like for them #it’s so gratifying to me and it helps me too! #like yes we should greet each other! We should ask how we’re doing! we should exchange pleasantries #and it’s important to me that that happens without getting personal sometimes or overly involved #pleasantries don’t have to be cold things and you can be seen and validated by a momentary kind glance as much as by someone digging #into your soul #it can be light and life-giving at the same time #it can be fun! #I’m sorry I’m rambling and over-saying this but it’s Saturday #!!!!!!

[godblooded]

see, the problem with me is i’m extremely anxious but also somehow very social. or in need of being social most of the time.

#ooc. o kaptain. #[the biggest problem is sometimes my frontal lobe goes feral and I desperately require interaction. and then sometimes I can’t have anywhere #near me. and other times I need specific people only near me. but like. I love people? I love talking? I run out of the energy hard when I #hit the wall but I just. I love people you feel??? I think that’s the complication with my anxiety. I need something more hybridized but #that’s why I’m going for a higher certification. I just want yall to know I love you and I’m on permanent slowatus but bet your ass I’m here #and playing bg and plotting in it on my selina blog probably.]

[rinrinlovee]

I hate you modern aesthetic I hate you monochrome I hate you rose gold I hate you painting kids’ toys to be joyless I hate you soulless white kitchens I hate you stainless steel I hate you exposed framing I hate you pristine white sofas I hate you parents who force their children to live in environments with no colour I hate you organised houses I hate you echoey houses I hate you perfectly cut emerald grass I hate you biscuit cutter houses I hate you conformity I hate you modern aesthetic I hate you modern aesthetic I hate you modern aesthetic I hate you modern aesthetic !!

#MAKE IT STOP #I WANT COLOUR #I want lived in houses !! #I want to trip over dolls and have blankets all over and have a painted kitchens I love you homely homes #I want to hear laughter and see footprints and little height markers on door frames I want to see that splatter on the ceiling #from when grandma dropped that pot of spaghetti I NEED to see signs of life and happiness and love #If I don’t see a thriving household with toys on the floor and chew marks on the furniture and dents in the walls and dishes in the sink #I AM GOING TO COMBUST #This aesthetic is the definition of soulless! A terrible threat to humanity! It needs to be eradicated immediately!! I directly attribute #how rude people are nowadays to the stark and complete lack of colour and soul in stores and jokes alike! #Whoever thought of this so called aesthetic is the devil’s best pawn!! #If I see one more house with children especially drowned in white and black I’m calling every child protective service imaginable #Few things boil my blood more than a parent forcing their child to live in such a horrid non stimulating cold freakishly clean environment #If I can hear my quiet breathing in your house #It needs to be cleansed if it’s modern aesthetic sin and injected with the borderline holy rays of WARM #Yes I did just watch a HORRIBLE VILE TERRIBLE video of some trendy yummy mummy painting her child’s lovely lavender play kitchen #BLOODY BLACK AND WHITE #to make it match her aesthetic! #what the fuck!! I call child abuse !

[dreamyprinx]

I bring to you, actual art but it’s me trying to replicate my friend @spaceshmuck’s art style

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#whimsy whispers #crystalart.png #others ocs #strand von zarovich #curse of strand #space tag #GOD this was so difficult and I don’t even feel like I did that good a job but it was also fun #also hi I’m not gonna shut up about my art program crashing and this corrupting right as I was almost finished with it I need people to know #that the universe tried to stop this from existing >:| I did not spend hours going ‘is this how it would draw hands’ and cursing myself for #the damn art to not see the light of day #anyways please look at my friends art it’s SO good like god I’m jealous of its art style and character designs >:’) #like literally such lovely art y’all will check it out because I said so and my word is like law or whatever #I’m like writing these at 4:25zm on a Monday and like this won’t even be posted for another week or so but like #sorry if I’m especially stupid rn I didn’t wanna go to sleep yet so I’m saving drafts and listening to off the wall magical! on loop #y’all should also check out junie & thehutfriends because I find their music fun #just listen to me when I tell you to look at ppls art because I have good taste okay? you can trust me I’m holding your hand and we’re going #to have fun I prommy #also please do not talk about the background it was one of the things I was gonna work on when the art program crashed #the only thing I fixed after that was minor mistakes like not colouring in buttons #anyways ily pretty vampire man and ily my dear friend who’s art style vexes me 💖

[shit-sorry-fuck-mybad]

I’m just saying… that if either Brett or Phil win the Emmy…. and they kiss…. I would not be surprised…

#Brett Goldstein and Phil Dunster I am inside your walls #like it was a joke #IT WAS A JOKE #and now I’m not sure #I don’t know what reality is #I truly don’t know #and it’s not like shipping real people #I’m genuinely confused about it #ted lasso #they’re insane #Brett Goldstein #phil dunster #like I feel that calling someone your fit boyfriend is a step further than oh haha we are in love haha joking

[rubysparx]

Ok fine fine fine I’ll share my takes with the class.

FIRST OF ALL THO. Jrwi art dump coming soon MAYBE.

Okay anyway I see everyone saying butch Arthur Bennet which is fucking awesome, I love that, but I have to inform the masses that while listening on my own time I decided he’s transhet and I am attached to this concept now sory </3 I’ve also seen everyone talking abt Emizel and Soda and idk what’s going on behind the scenes with that so I will just believe you, yeah he’s gay. I thought about saying he’s bi but as it happens I was once again projecting.. also I think he’s nonbinary but not yet. Like he’s having what happened to Jonathan Archives. The horrors occur and you die but don’t really die but there are more horrors so you never really have time to process the feeling of being not a man as in not human and also just literally not a man. Ok last one forgive me for my insanity I think Prince Shilo is cis and sucks abt it. I think gender roles are baked into him but he also thinks they don’t apply to him or apply differently bc he is royalty . Heteronormativity isn’t real with vampires tho in fact I’d even bet on homonormativity. Yeah he’s gay, he’s flirty with his guards, yeah.

#on record I don’t rlly. have any ships yet? #and I don’t think this campaign is gonna be free so I probably never will #also Scrubby if you see this so sorry if you didn’t know those things abt Jon </3 #good luck on the tma listening. it will change you permanently. smiles #OH ALSO I’ve seen some ppl shipping Shilo with his guard #I do not #like obv u guys do whatever u want I’m just #saying like . to me Shilo actually cares soooo little about the well being of the ppl around him #he’s got that high elf ‘humans are pets ^_^’ swagger to me #his guards are so incredibly replaceable he fails to be mature enough to understand the complexities of their lives #he’s immature!! is the thing! he’s manipulative and evil in the head brother I prommy #I love him for this also #compulsive liar swag #he cares about animals. and the important people. and any outsiders #but inside the walls of his prison #the guards are. just guards. just drones to command. and it’s soooo fun to mess with them #yeah yeah yeah whatever Prince Shilo is your favorite Ruby shut up… #jrwi #jrwi the suckening #<- I can’t believe they stuck with that btw #wish me luck guys I’ve been catching up on riptide……

[exhaustedwerewolf]

hr guy was screaming crying throwing up when I told him I wouldn’t be at the evening part of the xmas social because the date changed and I have a life outside of work and now he sends round the details for the unavoidable lunch part and despite me giving him my dietary requirements well in advance on his request there is simply nothing I can eat. like even ditching the vegetarianism I am allergic to everything on this menu.

#wwolf.txt #also like man I don’t drink and I hate people and I have a fatigue disorder. spending a Tuesday night watching my horrifically drunk #colleagues scream-singing to bandoke makes me want to die and that’s only barely hyperbole. #like. this guy really grinds my gears because he’s so AGGRESSIVELY nice it circles right back around into being super counterproductive and #irritating. #like when I started I saw pronouns were optional on our HR profiles- so I didn’t include mine because I didn’t know if other people would #and I didn’t want to put myself at work by being the only one to do it. I didn’t know the vibe. DAY ONE he’s like ‘it’s optional but 🔫 PUT #IN YOUR PRONOUNS WE ARE TRANS INCLUSIVE 🔫’ like you actually have a trans employee and you are speaking to him and you are also directly #stressing him out by doing this :) #and then recently he was coming to my office and was like ‘let me bring you something!’ and I’m sitting here like. one I am uncomfy with you #spending money on me and two. I have Severe allergic reactions and I don’t know or trust you. and three I brought lunch today because I’m #broke. so I’m really fine. and me being like ‘thank you for the offer but I’m okay!’ just led to back and forth and back and forth and #‘[insert coworker name here] never refuses my offers’ like… #ugh. he just drives me up to wall. #oh and don’t call him HR because Humans aren’t a ‘resource’ he’s in ‘people’ #🙄🙄🙄

[ickypuppi3]

it’s actually so insane like imagine being billy hargrove and just being fucking uprooted from your life and taken away from everything and everyone you know and ending up in some tiny town where you don’t ever get a break from your abusive dad who makes every aspect of your life a living hell and never getting any help for the situation you’re in and everyone blames you for absolutely everything and the closest thing to love or affection you get is being objectified and sexualised by literally everyone including women old enough to be your mom

#tw abuse #billy hargrove #stranger things #not to mention everything that came before this #he was so unhappy #i’m so fucking sad #and all that for what #just to end up dying for a bunch of people who don’t even appreciate you after you’ve gone #and your grave being in this town that destroyed your already fucked up life #wow #feeling bitter #alexa play bad things by cults #his story makes me want to actually punch a wall #it’s not even funny #it’s because i relate and that’s why it’s just so fucked to me the way it was handled