#I’m not even in school anymore

[one-time-i-dreamt]

My teacher told us to comment on two posts but didn’t specify so half the class commented on Instagram or Tumblr posts. Then the teacher failed everyone and the smart kid sued him, won, and became our teacher.

#dream #I’m not even in school anymore #I graduated two years ago #teacher #class #instagram #school #lawsuit

[my-autism-adhd-blog]

Autistic trauma: School Edition

Hiding in the bathroom

Feel like social outcast

Constant self monitoring

Know you are not liked but not sure why

Bullied

Hyper vigilant

Lonely

Crying at home

Last pick for games

No real friends

Not invited to parties

Littlepuddins.ie

#autism #actually autistic #autism awareness month #autism acceptence month #tw trauma #I was bullied a lot and had few friends #whom I don’t even talk to anymore #honestly I liked to be alone #it allowed me to focus one school #I’m sure some of you can relate #neurodivergence #neurodiversity #actually neurodivergent #feel free to share/reblog #littlepuddins.ie (facebook)

[brainrotdotorg]

Cringe is a byproduct of authenticity. They are inexorably intertwined, not in the way that something like yin and yang would be, but like how branches are part of a tree. There is no tree without the branches, and branches cannot grow if there is no tree. There is no true sincerity without cringe, and true cringe cannot be born from anything but sincerity.

I admire the authenticity in the things I love. The characters and people that are true to themselves, that express with no hesitance their most raw and most primal forms of themselves; they are who I adore. They are intentionally and wholeheartedly bombastic in their passions, so dramatically full-throttle with no inclination to step on the breaks. It feels wild to experience who they are– I feel like I am in their passenger seat with my head out the window, experiencing what it could be like if I, too, put my foot on the gas.

What is stopping me from loving my passionate self the way I love them?

#I’ve been writing an essay about brainrot cringe and authenticity for months now #i stopped writing it because of school #and the main example I used to exemplify brainrot isn’t even my blorbo anymore #but I read this passage and thought #damn. i needed to read that #fellas. if you are feeling cringe tonight #say it with your chest. you are cringe and you are free #love is love and love is real and love for fictional characters fucking rules #like things. you’re allowed to like things #I’m going thru a character arc and also it’s 1 in the morning so I hope that explains why I’ve been. like this. tonight

[thunderheadfred]

I’m gonna brag on myself for a minute because my self-confidence has been shit lately (thanks winter, for your annual crushing blow to my ego!) but I am, in fact, really good at language acquisition. Like, heretofore it was kind of a stupid superpower that I had never once thought to use for Good

which is why, when I had some kind of visitation from The Lort Almightee last summer and They were like "heyy how about you do something to tangibly improve the place where you live. and also start supporting tribal sovereignty. immediately"

I was like (falling out of my chair, trembling) "uhhhhhh I can learn languages weirdly fast??" and lo, God threw the newly-created UMN Dakota Language major directly in my face and Commanded, "GET TO WORK BITCH"

#true story #when people ask why I’m learning Dakota and want to help teach it as a non-native #I have to be like #quick vibe check #can I tell this person that I’m an atheist but God Told Me To Do It Anyway #or nah #the worst was the white nurse who gave me my covid vaccine at the university clinic #she was making small talk and asked about my major only to be like *how do they even know what Dakota sounds like anymore* #and I was like *DAKOTA PEOPLE ARE VERY MUCH AROUND AND HAVE BEEN SPEAKING DAKODIA THE WHOLE TIME THAT’S THE WHOLE POINT* #first speakers didn’t carry their language and culture through the horrors of the boarding school era(s) for you to disrepect them like thi

[simgerale]

me after attempting to get back into sims and realizing i had a lot more to do than play the game

#hi everyone #I’m going around hugging you all #okay now that we are gathered here today #i will simply acknowledge that i have been gone for a very long time and then also acknowledge that maybe it was for the best #i relied on sims to be my only creative activity even if i tried to write a book at the same time #and also. i prioritized sims over real life responsibilities. that’s just a deadly combination lol #but I recently noticed I just replaced sims with Netflix. with YouTube. with anything that gave me quick dopamine #literally became addicted in a sense. still am but I’ve been cut cold turkey from most everything #I get off work and go. okay I’ve done the dishes and the laundry……..I could read or write or bake…. #I try to write and sometimes i get a good hour #then I read for a few hours and then get tired of it #and I made cookies Tuesday so I’m waiting for those to be gone before baking again #I’m just so pitiful that I feel BORED and don’t know what to do #so I said….. okay what if I do sims for an hour. #I downloaded some new cc Tuesday and tried to play yesterday #y’all ……………….. I can’t find the energy anymore to set up elaborate scenes and pose my sims and plan posts #I said wow… this is boring without my intervention and fake story #I said wow…….. all this for what? for tumblr? yes I created cool things and provided joy. but is that inherintly important compared to my #own joy? my own everyday activities I should be doing? #y’all I do not leave the house unless we got out to eat or shop or travel to our parents #.. I have little desire to. I’m trying to find that desire #but my husband is busy with grad school and work and I don’t want to do anything by myself #I’ve found myself in one heck of a slump #I didn’t want to be human for awhile. just had no desires no interests no ambitions #I was slacking off SO HARD at work. I just had no drive to do well #I’m still working on it. I’m still trying to get caught up. I’m still trying to force myself to move every day. #but I am struggling y’all. and I can tell you that sims… sims isn’t helping rn but I want it to so bad. I want to get back into it #I didn’t mean to disappear on everyone. I got married and then life got busy and then I fell into this hole of nothing #I didn’t even WANT to crawl my way out. but my husband has helped a lot. I feel like such a child!!!! #I reached max tags. 🙃 bye love you all. till next time

[monkee-mobile]

looking through old papers from high school and the only things worth keeping are the stuff with fun little drawings on them. I don’t need like seventeen math packets from three years ago unless there’s art on them.

but i thought people on here would like the lil nez thing I found!

as you can tell, I paid very good attention in pre calc and didn’t just think about the monkees.

#the monkees #mike nesmith #i think the ‘guess who’ face is supposed to be micky? #drawing #doodling #my art #high school art #math #idk what i’m even tagging this anymore #poor teacher probably had to correct around a lot of random drawings

[girlweepinginstairwell]

last october was so vibrant and beautiful for me & i am hoping hoping hoping that this one will be too, in its own way

#even if i’m not in school anymore...

[kg-clark-inthedark]

yeah there is definitely no possibility of me ever leaving this site. my dumbass thought it’d be a good idea to post on insta for the first time in years and it’s been a harrowing 0/10 experience. do not recommend. I will stay here with my beloved mutuals from now on like god intended.

#clark barks #my ex girlfriend’s mom lectured me in the comments about not being social enough #the lady who waxed my unibrow in middle school commented that she misses me (why does she follow me??) #someone I forgot to block commented being fake nice #this is why I don’t post for the irls anymore #also the straight woman who single handedly made me realize I was bi liked it #girl you’re far too powerful #get outta here LMAOOO #gonna post a thank you everyone comment and delete the fuckin app #at least I looked hot in the photos #well my version of hot #which is being completely covered from the neck down and not even showing wrist or ankle #it’s all about the silhouette yknow #btw when i say god i’m referring to the outsider

[idrinkwetcementasproteinshakes]

I fucking hate my parents so much

I hate how dismissive they are of my mental health issues

I hate how they act like I’m not depressed even though they were there when I was diagnosed

I hate how when they find out I cut myself they yell at me and talk about how much it’s hurting them instead of thinking about me

I hate how they never think about how I feel about something when they make a big decision that affects MY life

I them so fucking much

#I hate how they yell at me when I’m not all sunshine’s and rainbows after being around people all day without a break even though they know #Im an introvert who’s needs breaks #I hate how they yell at me for stimming #And make threats #like taking away my phone #And taking away literally everything in my room and saying I’ll sleep on the floor #and now it doesn’t even feel like home is much of a safe space anymore #like it was supposed to be a break from school #from everything shitting outside and now all I do here is cry and get yelled at #this could’ve been on the notes app instead of my tumblr account sorry about that

[sashimiyas]

one of my first ever moots deactivated and i’m yearning for a time that’s already passed

#reinas.inretrograde #i know it’s know it’s 2020 tumblr era anymore #and even i am hardly here #but miss you jenny and i hope life and school will continue to treat you well #and to all of my moots now that are here. i’m still thankful that you #guys were ever a part of my life to begin with #fleeting as it could have been. you guys will always be a part of my story

[hsslilly-blog]

i know nothing about coding but if i did i'd rip the damn game apart and pull out all the dialogue for quests and put them in a. idk spreadsheet or google doc or something. i HATE how this high school story and hollywood u are so badly perserved and documented, partially through the fault of its creators. i get that these are niche games that a grand total of five people even remember them but if i think about how an ENTIRE HALF OF THE STORY IS GONE BECAUSE THERE'S A REQUIRED SERVER CHECK it makes my blood boil.

i am too passionate about this

hi! this is not a bad idea at all, especially since hwu is… very lost. i’ll get to work on something like this as soon as possible! i’ll also make my hss screenshots available.

i’ll use this ask to rant. i simpatize with you… way too much. i try not to speak about this very often because it just makes me angry and because, well, it’s a super niche game and we had around four years to organize and archive it but… it is a niche game. by 2022, who even was active in the fandom besides like… me and five other people? not to mention it was very out of the blue, with such a small window between the announcement and the shut down it was impossible to archive everything. i spent full days trying to screenshot as much of high school story as i could. and now i regret i didn’t spend this time archiving hollywood u instead. but what is done is done.

i think… i mean, as much as it sucks, high school story is still fully playable if you have the .apk (or if you have it in your ios). what really, really bothers me is how hollywood u is essentially… lost media? the game itself, yes, but over 20-30 quests are missing from the files because they were released after pixelberry (apparently) decided to store some of the assets on the online server and not locally anymore. even if i were to drop the quests in a word .doc, it still wouldn’t be fully available. and that makes me angry. hwu was last updated in 2018 with a “fix”. why couldn’t they have used the opportunity to make these files available locally? it was pretty obvious at that point the games were sunsetting one day. might have given the chance for the fans to preserve it in some way since hwu would be locked behind a server check forever.

i don’t know. i’m not a dev. but i’m pretty sure they had the tools and the means, they just didn’t see it as worthy of their time. and i get it a little. they were very busy with choices at that time. these games were very dead. pb was past them. but come on. hss and hwu were part of pixelberry’s history and i like to believe these games deserved more than what they got. ~30 days between the announcement and the shut down? please. a little bit more of respect for the art they themselves created!! i think it all just boils down to me feeling… angry, sad and… heartbroken that one of theses games is completely unplayable in 2024 and forever. just like that. to expunge and deprive people from the art you once delighted in creating and sharing is sad!

sorry for hijacking the ask. i just wanted to get this out. i’ll work on making the quests dialogues available.

#high school story #hss game #hss prime #hwu game #pixelberry #hollywood u #longpost #we do have some screenshots and gameplays #but it’s not the same thing is it? #it sucks i can’t like. #HAVE these games. in my phone. i can’t open them. i can’t play them #this feels… wrong!!!!!! #esp w/ hollywood u #what do you MEAN i cant even read a quarter of the quests?! #what do you MEAN there’s no way of OPENING the game anymore? #its so stupid sorry #i don’t talk much about this because i get heated #and i don’t want to be a debby downer i mean the fandom is pretty small i’m not going to fill it with rant posts #but. yeah #ask

[ducktracy]

i am literally so mad that i have waited years to write this review of Daffy’s Southern Exposure and when i finally do i get the worst cold i have had at least within the past 5 years and am too sick to write a substantial amount. like come on. COME ON! i would almost rather it be COVID because that’s at least a valid excuse!!!!! sorry this post nasal drip made me nauseous and then i got mad that i was nauseous because i also had a bad stomach bug two weeks ago that also prevented me from writing. needless to say i hope you all enjoy the review when it’s out because my goodness it is giving me a hard time. thank you for your patience again 😤🙏

#i’m so maddddd i was writing a good amount today too and then bam nausea because of my stupid sinuses draining!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! #i have lemon ginger tea but i can’t even taste it because i’m so congested #this has been worse than the two times i had COVID because my COVID symptoms manifest as fever and aches and fatigue and i can at least just #sleep that off!! not with this stupid cold!!!!!!! #i used to get colds literally every month when i was still in school and my drama director once said i had the immune system of a gnat which #is true. so i’m lucky that i haven’t had a cold this bad/maybe at all at least since i graduated high school since that was pre covid times #but since i’m not not used to being substantially sick anymore it means i’m gonna complain about it when i am sick so there 😤 #okay. sorry. just needed to bitch. back i go to playing Animal Crossig and Pokémon i guess since my body can’t handle any more than that!!!!

[queenqunari]

I hate “van life” and driving in general until my partner shows me a listing for some old van (or even school bus) being sold for like 5k and jokes about buying it for us and then I’m like, daydreaming about learning carpentry to build a platform bed inside a vehicle.

#so yeah college is fine why are you asking #I don’t know if I even like my field anymore but hey #what if I just lived in an old school bus with this guy I met larping #I hate being in cars enough as is #like for any drive over 20 minutes #but I’m sure living in one would be fine

[khaothanawat]

genuinely concerned my school president is going to KILL me before we even get to the last episode

#LIKE I DONT EVEN THINK I’M A PERSON ANYMORE I’M JUST A SHELL FILLED WITH SOFT SOFT FEELINGS #my school president

[salsflore]

i miss my irls and my cat and my house this is so SICKKK what did i ever do to you, december

#vent -> #i am so homesick i havent seen my friends in forever. i had an incredibly good sunday i was looking forward to the next 2 weeks #and then you make me get FUCKING ARRESTED???? #and i’m just so irked and i’m so sad why is nothing going right. don’t i deserve good things!!!!! #of course you do this to me when i’m not dreading school anymore and i’m actually enjoying the company of my new friends #so annoying. i’m just so sad i want to go home #i’d be fine with all of that but then you had to take away even my online buddies like what the hellll #if another person tells me to [ tolerate it for a little longer ] i might just explode in front of them #i just feel awfully bitter and alone and sad #💭

[theflavorofmyautismisspicy]

My Swedish teacher complained how not that many people here studies German anymore. How do I tell her I want to study the language so badly because of a children’s cartoon from 2012

#I did study German for 3 years #during 2015-2018 #but then I went to school where German wasn’t an option anymore #I absolutely suck in Swedish lmao but it’s mandatory for us finns #might actually take German classes for the funsies #but then again I don’t really have any extra time #since I’m trying to get my high school diploma at the same time as I’m doing vocational school #and since I suck at Swedish so much I’m going to be trapped here forever #even though I’m going to get my literal profession in just a few months #this turned less of a dwk post and more of a rant about my life #my apolocheese