#I’m so tired of having adhd

[tolkpopfan]

Various people in my support network have let me know that if I need help with anything while my parents are away, to let them know. But how do you ask for help when the things you need help with are all technically things you can do on your own and you just don’t have the motivation to keep up with every single one of them? As a ‘capable’ adult, I am not supposed to ask for assistance with things like laundry since I know how to do it on my own

#adhd #I’m so tired of having adhd

[nuppu-nuppu]

Do you guys have any tips on how to take care of yourself and your environment when you’re kind of at a low point where you have no energy to do anything...pls help

#this is embarrassing #but i have been sleeping on a bed with no sheets for the past month #because I’m just too tired to get clean ones #and it’s super hard to take care of myself #my house is a complete mess #is this neurodivergent culture #neurodivergent #actually neurodiverse #actually autistic #actually neurodivergent #adhd #pls help #I’m so ashamed of myself but i need help so that’s why i am asking #also for moral support

[clambuoyance]

I’ve never been so obsessed with a character so bad that I literally can’t do anything else I’m like the squidward meme watching SpongeBob frolic outside the window stretching a hand out to all the pretty paintings and animations and comics I see in my head but being unable to feel any motivation for it . If only i could use the energy spent to create 20 kon doodles to sit down and concentrate on a single finished full piece I used to be able to make like 5 page comics what happened to me

#sighs yes before anyone says anything IK it’s probably adhd related 😭 #BUT ITS GOTTEN SO BAD I CAN FEEL THE DIFFERENCE IN MY BRAIN HOW DID IT GET WORSE #it’s probably a mix of burnout too but I don’t get tired of drawing ? #it feels like when u get dizzy or change glasses or so #and it’s either everything is wayyy too in focus and you can see literally everything clearly that it hurts ur brain #which doesn’t help given how saturated w information the world is always #and simultaneously somehow everything is blurry or out of focus and I physically have to strain myself to hone in on one thing #I JUST WANNA READ COMICS AND FINISH A DRAWING AND HANDLE WORK AND SCHOOL AND TALK TO MY FRIENDS #ALL IN OME DAY #BUT MY BRAIN IS LIKE. TODAY IS ONLY FOR COMICS. YOU CANT DO ANYTHING ESLE #😫🫶 I’m deleting this later I’m just ranting LMAO #I’m highschool it’s crazy bc I did okay and then honestly i just think my ability to concentrate has deteriorated as the years have gone by #free me!!! #either way I want to lessen my social media and just pick One bc girl I have an Instagram a tumblr and a twitter this is horrible for me . #honestly I’ll probably pick instagram and just post on tumblr when I have art #I already do that #I mean when I have Good art. #IM RAMBLING IDK

[podcast-hemocytoblast]

Corruption Leitner that turns you into a politician

#the magnus archives #tma #the corruption #haha. get it. because. politicians are corrupt. #haha. ha. y’all ever have those days where you feel like screaming but also can’t fathom the idea of making a sound ever again? #on the one hand i am going to fill my bones with soup. but on the other hand if i ever hear a noise again i will spontaneously combust #noises feel so intrusive sometimes fr. like get away from meeee why are you in my personal space. bitch ass sound waves. #i think it’s the adhd. like why are there sounds. shut up. i can’t hear my thoughts when you’re talking so loud you stupid sounds #i’m so fucking tired

[fruitisthenewvegitable]

Sometimes I think I’m not of the Buried.

But then I remember the feeling of being under my blanket. Of wrapping a belt or skirt around my waist. The feeling of my friends leaning on my chest at a sleepover. Of wearing oversized and warm clothes. Of closing my bedroom door and pulling the curtains shut so that all I know is this space I’ve decorated for myself and no other. The feeling of being held.

Sometimes I think that the buried is simply not for me. But then I remember all the times that weight on my chest and belly and legs and back has comforted me in a way not many other things can. In a way that makes me feel secure. In a way that grounds me until I am ready to face the world again.

I used to think the Buried wasn’t for me. But then I remembered that without weight on my chest I would simply float away into the outer depths of space, somewhere I would love to see but hate to exist in. And that if I were to pick between never setting foot on the confining grounds of the earth, letting all my worries and fears go, and flying off to the horizon, the border of our atmosphere, the moon, the sun, and the stars, never stopping until I simply couldn’t anymore, or choose the earth. Then I would still choose the earth, for even if it keeps all my discomforts, it still holds the weight that gives me the ability to calm and ground myself until I am ready to face the world anew, so that I may experience the joy of the presence of others and not just the burning core of the stars, for being able to face the things outside my door is what makes me who I am.

And I fucking love who I am.

So I will take the weight and pressure and comfort that allow me to think straight, and once I am calm again I will have my strength back.

#the magnus archives #tma #the buried #the buried tma #the choke tma #yes most of this is in reference to how I calm myself down #i feel like I’m like this because of my adhd #(I’m not diagnosed but I’m pretty sure I have it) #(i don’t know how to word things rn I’m very tired) #fruit rambles #I didn’t double check for spelling errors #or any weird grammar #so if it’s weird to read that’s probably why #i’m very tired #I’m also exited though because I have dnd tomorrow!

[munstysmind]

Learning very important stuff about your disabilities online that you should have been taught by your parents as is kid is wild.

I wasn’t taught shit, just told “Munsty, you have ADD, Asperger’s and OCD, you can’t insert long list of things I ‘can’t’ aka ���parents won’t even let me try so we don’t actually know if I can or not’ do”

Anytime anyone, your parents included, say you can’t judge them for their parenting decisions tell them to zip it.

You have every right in the world to judge and be critical of the decisions made that affected and still affect you.

#munstysmind #I’m so tired #adhd #actually adhd #autism #autistic #actually autistic #ocd #actually ocd #disabled #healing hurts #judge your parents #they’re not perfect #they make mistakes #you’re allowed to verbalise that #I wonder why the relationship with my mum isn’t as good as it was before I started therapy #the therapy she demanded I get because I have issues

[sappholotl]

Sometimes I feel I shouldn’t be tagging my naked mole rat art with mole interest because they aren’t technically moles - in terms of scientific classification they only share the same class (mammalia)

Moles are in the Eulipotyphla order, which means (according to me skim reading the wiki page) they are fat and blind, typhla coming from the Greek word typhlon which means blind (at least as far as I can tell by using the first thing google shows me) and I can’t immediately find what the eulipo part means

Naked mole rats are in Rodentia order, meaning they have really big ass teeth that kinda just keep growing because they’re built different

Rats at least share an order with naked mole rats though that’s where the connection ends - rats as it turns out has far too vague a use. The genus Rattus is typically all rats but you can still get rats outside of the genus which bothers me

Naked mole rats are apparently most closely related to Guinea pigs, porcupines and chinchillas which is strange, though admittedly I know nothing about any of them so I’m not sure why this is the case

Anyways the mole interest tab seems to be used for random things anyways so it’s not that important I just like thinking about this stuff :D that and I need to spread the naked mole rat agenda and this was all a clever ruse to make you read about my favourite guys

#mole interest #would be strange to write all this and not tag it like that #naked mole rat #naked mole rats #moles #just normal moles #they have clothes on so they aren’t naked #rats #rodents #adhd #it’s four in the morning as I write this #so if there’s any mistakes it’s because I’m tired and it’s four am #I went into such a deep dive #i’m having a great time #i am always thinking about naked mole rats #like they’re so fucked up #silly little guys #this was such a good excuse to do more research #my friends have heard me talk about these so much I need to give them more facts #instead of just repeating the same thing over and over #i spent way too long on this

[transmechanicus]

“I’ll be fine i just need to uhhhhhhh idk kill” but like…what if i did haha

#my stuff #dear diary and the several thousand mfs who can see it. Despite arguably good academic performance today feels like a bad day #bc i skipped lab to take a nap #and i feel lonely and incapable of connecting more than superficially with my classmates #like i can talk to them and i do and we get along well but i never…hang out w em #or at least not as much as they seem to without me #it’s not a malicious thing i think a huge part of it is groups of ppl living or working in the same space #and i’m in a different lab building than a lot of ppl #idk…struggling to find anything that sparks joy. unable to see the future with optimism #it’s just day after day of Job where i’ll beat myself up on weekends if i don’t do Even More Work #bc that’s the nature of grad school. always homework or literature review to do like i give a shit abt the latter #i don’t care what other people are doing i don’t wanna obsessively comb through journals to make sure i’m doing Brand New Shit #i want it to stop #i don’t want to read anymore. i don’t wanna have to worry about my job outside of work. #i want to cry and scream and #like i don’t wanna quit after i worked so hard to get here #i don’t wanna wuss out #but i’m always tired. i’m never rested or relaxed or truly enjoying myself #why is this only hard for me…how tf is everyone else able to read and remember and understand this much?? #like yeah maybe i should be on adhd meds but those are fuckin spensive and a pain in the ass to get #i’m tired of being tough #i want to curl into a ball and be told it’s going to be okay and that i can rest and have it not be a lie or a half measure

[wellmaybetheresworms]

Me: *describes some problems that I have, then reads out a list of ADHD symptoms* (they’re the same)

My mom: You tied your shoelace when you were four when I asked your sister to, so you don’t have ADHD.

Me:

#This is fucking annoying. #IF YOU DON’T THINK I HAVE ADHD THEN JUST GET ME THE FUCKING TEST AND IF I DON’T THEN YOU CAN SAY I TOLD YOU SO UNTIL ONE OF US DIES #I’M TIRED OF HAVING SHRÖEDINGER’S ADHD

[xmcu-fietro]

a fun game to play when you have adhd is “is my hyperfixation fading or do I just need a long nap” “is my hyperfixation fading or am I just burnt out” “is my hyperfixation fading or did I just forget to eat again” “is my hyperfixation fading or is this actually depression” etc etc.

#it’s not fading I just don’t have any brain space to think about quicksilver at the moment :/ #I had my first rheumatology appointment recently and when she was testing my joints she moved my hip around and it’s been hurting since #so idk if she did something to it or if I’m just doing too much or what #but this week was really busy so now I’ve got no executive functioning left and I’m tired/achy #and I know it’s not the end of the world and I just need a decent break but right now Life™️ is feeling extra stressful #fietro’s personal posts #actually adhd #hyperfixation

[tealightful]

I need to work but consider this… I don’t want to

#personal #listen this weekend was shit and I’m tapering off the omeprazole I’ve been taking for like 2 1/2 years #and I made a tiny mistake in assuming I could go another day without it and I was wrong #and I am tired #but I have so many customs to do this week #and I really want to do the last lesson and quiz of this calculus class #adhd studyblr

[imsosry-sir]

are there rlly people that can like.. make a plan to do their work and then… actually do their work??

bc i would literally give anything (firstborn, kidney, soul, etc etc) to experience that just once ;-;

#like shit if i could actually just do work when i wanted to i’d be so powerful #got the drive just not the execution #i wanna do stuff (ie write a paper or do a project) SO BAD #like it’s not even that i don’t want to or am consciously putting it off #i just literally can’t start until i get a random spark of extra motivation here and there #yes yes i have adhd #i take meds but it’s prob a bit below what i need #it’s just that anything higher starts to make me jittery and worsens other problems #so then here i am at 3 in the morning trying to keep myself up for if i happen to gather up enough motivation #i’m so sleep deprived idek what i’m saying anymore #whole ass rant in the tags #adhd #procrastination #i’m tired #relateable #? maybe #less and less coherent by the second #i also didn’t sleep last night either #neurodivergent

[always-a-slut-4-ghouls]

Being an artist with adhd is like, arguing with yourself:

“okay. So. We have nothing going on today and tomorrow. We should work on that polymer clay project” uncontrolled part of my brain “but i don’t want to use clay today” “but we have time, we need to work on it and we are tired of puzzles!” “What about that tiny painting we had planned?” “What about it?”

Three hours later:

“I… made a tiny painting. I WASN’T TRYING TO MAKE A TINY PAINTING TODAY!!! I was going to remake the stuff I burned!” “What stuff?” “NOW I FORGOT THE STUFF?!” “It’s okay, we have pictures” “I’m using two sketchbooks at a time from now on. One for here and one for on the go” “okay, but what if we used a third sketchbook for not sketchy projects? The 3d stuff?” “I mean… wait, WE WERE ALREADY TRYING THAT!”

#emma posts #how I argue with myself #this is how I live every day #I’m so tired and now have a tiny painting but no clay project to bake #I am fighting for my life against my adhd and this is while I’m MEDICATED #this weekend I didn’t take my medicine and just spent the whole day reading fanfiction or doing puzzles online #I’m sorry to my gamers in arms but I have not been keeping up these last few months #I love Pokémon go but I made too many friends for gift exchanges and now my inventory is always overflowing #at this point I can make a galaxy painting with acrylic paints in only a few hours #i just really like the look and have slapped it on everything #maybe not quite everything but still #I’ve done it with chalk pastels and digital art but I’m not gonna try with oil pastels

[lavender-femme]

crying screaming throwing up because i REALLY don’t wanna go to work 😭😭😭

#born to be a femme housewife #forced to be in charge of clean play + the store for 10 hours 😭 #i’m talking #at least I’m able to start really saving now #got big plans #well #ideas of plans #also have a million and one things to do #such as: the really important stuff I was meant to finish and mail like… two months ago 🙃 #the adhd and general executive dysfunction combined with working so much are winning #hahahahaha anyway… #hi y’all idk if I’ve even posted something personal here in months but hi I miss y’all but social media is rotting my brain and I’m so tired

[transcendentalyouth]

I am 99.9% sure that I have hEDS and the more I look into it the more I become sure that it is what’s causing my problems

#symtoms: chronic fatigue? check. chronic pain? check. hypermobile joints? yes. weak joints that are prone to collapse and dislocation? yes #irritable bowel issues? yes. overly stretchy skin that causes atrophic scarring and constant bruising? YES #and it feels good to know that I’m not fucking crazy. I’ve spent my whole life feeling like my body hates me and I’m always tired and inpain #but it’s not me. it’s my fucking body #also hEDS is commonly comorbid with ADHD and autism. WHICH I ALSO HAVE #wren.txt #anyway if anyone has tips for managing chronic pain and fatigue with hEDS lemme know bc I’m always so fucking tired and aches

[ollies-moving-castle]

Ok just a question but is it normal to stim when you’re not neurodivergent cuz I realized today how much I stim I just got very very overwhelmed and I was like flapping my hands and scrunching my whole upper body at points which does happen when I get like that a lot and I read that that’s a stim? I don’t know if it is but I just wanna know if it’s like normal or if it just figity or something cuz a lot of people have told me both things that it’s stimming and that it’s just me being figity so I don’t know at this point

#stimming #i just want to know if I’m just figity #Cuz I can’t sit for long amounts of time unless I’m focused like now writing this #So I just wanna get a second opinion #Googles not helping either it’s just showing me tests for autism #I don’t have autism #Or adhd #Please don’t mind the typos it’s like 9 and I’m tired