#I'm genuinely kind of impressed.

[kirby-the-gorb]

#kirby #cursed image #daily kirby #my art #digital #hal laboratory #nintendo #less than 50 days now until my immunology appointment #and miraculously my health is still managing to get even worse! #I'm genuinely kind of impressed. #and like. there is absolutely zero guarantee that the immunologist will even like. do their job. so. #feeling very *see above* #so like uh. I'm not religious but if you're the praying type it probably wouldn't hurt to throw me in occasionally if you've got room. #it's gonna be brutal if this one can't/won't treat me either. #favorites

[egophiliac]

happy new year Ego!!! Just wanted to let you know that I absolutely adore your twst fanart and the tags are just an absolute pleasure to read! You are my greatest inspiration for my personal twst art and I just wanted to thank you for your wonderful masterpieces <333 if possible, may I ask what are some of your headcanons for the diasomnia family? If not for diasomnia then any other characters are fine as well!

thank you, and happy new year! 💚💜💚 that is amazing to hear; it's always a little bewildering but super flattering that other people like my silly little doodles so much!

I don't think I really have any really solid headcanons and also canon keeps validating me left and right (FLUFFY DOMESTIC DIAFAM IS REAL). mostly just kind of...impressions and general thoughts, if that makes sense! lately though I've been kind of obsessed with thinking about Lilia's hair, and specifically when/why he ended up cutting it. (l-look, we're bouncing around the timeline and I gotta make decisions about these things when I draw, it's relevant) (I mean I would probably be weirdly fixated on this anyway, but.)

I think I've settled on the idea that he kept it long until he went to NRC, partly because 1) I like drawing The Ponytail, and 2) I think he thought of NRC as a chance to reinvent himself a bit! he gets to go and be a wacky carefree teenager for a few years and have fun! (officially he's there to keep an eye on Son #1, but how much trouble could he get into, really.) so he gave himself a Cool Teen Haircut to go with his fresh new Cool Teen Persona!

also maybe he had some reflection on his hair's troubled past with three kids...

...and had to weigh his vanity versus the fact that he was going off to be around hundreds of kids on a daily basis, and. the choice suddenly seemed obvious.

#art #twisted wonderland #twisted wonderland spoilers #twisted wonderland episode 7 spoilers #twisted wonderland episode 7 part 6 spoilers #twisted wonderland book 7 spoilers #twisted wonderland book 7 part 6 spoilers #this is my blog and i'm going to write a million words about lilia and you can't stop me #but anyway i do genuinely get the impression that he's using Pretending to Be a Teenager as a chance to be even sillier than usual #he's a very silly man he's just being EXTRA silly #supported by his recent birthday card where he says he was specifically trying to cast himself as an adorable little brother-type #because he wanted the other students to give him free shit and save him seats and things like that #it worked for about a week before he turned out to be way too good at stuff and everyone just kind of ended up in awe of him instead #and he was like DANGIT. I'VE RUINED IT FOR MYSELF. #(then he and epel went on to talk about their hypothetical vtubersonas because the birthday cards are INSANE but anyway) #i'm bad at headcanons :( sorry! #unless it's dumb things like...what pokemon they would have or whatever #(malleus would have some kind of special fancy-colored dragapult) (but i digress) #i have a hard time putting things into words. just know that i love the grampa bat and his weird kids very much. #my brain is also still kind of fried from the last couple of weeks #i am however starting 2024 off the way i intend to continue it: in deep contemplation of anime hair #(sorry if these look weirdly aliased) (i realized about 3/4 of the way through i was using the wrong brush and i didn't want to restart :U)

[blood-orange-juice]

Penacony story so far

#look #these kinds of rooms usually happen in my head #not on the screen #I'm genuinely impressed #hsr

[thedreadvampy]

The thing is I am definitely not happy or chill in the Immediate Sense lately but I am, big picture, so fucking happy with the person I am.

It's like. My brain was made by and for consistent trauma and since that trauma stopped about 5-7 years ago, it is incredible what the amount of resilience and cleverness and flexibility and thoughtfulness I developed to survive can do when it's not being all spent on surviving. like I had a hundred ton weight on me so I had to get REALLY STRONG to stay in the same place and not get 100% crushed, and when that weight came off I found I can use the strength it used to take to stand up and I can leap tall buildings in a single bound.

I was talking to my mum the other day and she said, "you've got the 'fuck it' energy at 30 that most women don't find until their fifties at least" and I'm like yeah man. Imagine how unstoppable I'll be in 20 years.

#red said #i don't know that i can express this clearly but it's the most encouraging thing in my life #my mum's always been proud of me but just lately she seems to actually really admire me #like she's genuinely impressed. she thinks I've surpassed her. i don't necessarily agree but it's a really nice quiet joy. #anyway like this sounds super up myself and it kind of is. #but also it's part of realising just how heavy the weight I've been carrying around with me for 25 years was #like not to be ridiculous but i have realised again this week. that it isn't that everyone's been raped that much and doesn't talk about it #i just have been raped an Unusually Consistent Amount. i have spoken to a lot of people who have had much more horrifying things happen. #I'm not sure I've talked to more than a couple of people who've had a similar level of total consistency of abuse from all angles #and the one is not heavier or harder to bear that the other. but. i think i spent most of my life listening to people's awful experiences #and going ok well nothing i went through looked that bad so it's microtrauma #obviously microtraumas build up but still. #then the older i get and the more i have these conversations the more I notice that stuff which to me is a microtrauma #is a lot of people's defining trauma. and they're reacting appropriately which means i am SO SEVERELY UNDERREACTING #told my friend the other day about a time someone who i still like and respect was having sex with me when i paralocated my hip #and then just kept getting really annoyed with me for not being ready to have sex again while i was literally crying with pain #until i caved and just tried to find the last painful position #and my friend was like pal what the fuck that's horrific #and i was like i mean no that's normal I've had sex with like maybe 3 or 4 people in my life who i haven't had similar stuff with #like i am genuinely thrown when i am allowed to say no to sex and have it be the end of the conversation. and not end up having sex #out of guilt or out of physical coercion or through physical rape. and i have had sex with probably like 40 people at this stage? #and I'm not sure it's as many as 4 i haven't had that experience with tbh #so like. I'm slowly coming to terms with the idea #that i may have actually been doing a hell of a lot of heavy lifting. #like i developed a sense of self that can survive being constantly crushed and at this stage is fucking diamond.

[vulturevanity]

I feel like SV girlies haven't seriously considered "codependent mutually obsessive JuliNemo" yet and that's a shame, really. I've seen a lot of wholesome ChampionRank (really cute but a rehash of every wholesome yuri I've ever seen, not much original content here and that's okay) and one-sided obsessive yandere!Nemona ChampionRank (REALLY do not like the villainization of Nemona's neurodivergence but eh, you can do whatever you want forever) but not as much "these two get on like a house on fire. and boy, it's dry season" ChampionRank.

Where is "battle-hungry socially starved trainwrecks who have no one but each other" JuliNemo. Where is "oh god these two exacerbate each others issues into the stratosphere and this can only end in disaster but I can't look away" JuliNemo. Where is "bringing out the worst in each other and scaring the hoes" JuliNemo. Where is "you two are perfect for each other. Never change, just never involve anyone else in any of this" JuliNemo. There's so much potential here. Toxic codependent yuri save me

#pokémon #pokemon sv #championrankshipping #julinemo #babbles #my juliana is such a mess #she does not make friends easily and can't keep relationships for long at all #whenever someone enters her life she aants to make the best impression so she lovebombs them incessantly #and that either comes across as too much too fast or causes people to get too attached. #but she's young. she is very young. and the people who bothered to match her energy had ulterior motives #so now she's too afraid of getting too close to someone #she'll act the part but never show her true self #and at the slightest hint of genuine connection she'll RUN. #this of course clashes horribly with Nemona's own overbearing personality and loneliness #you know how she wants you to be her ideal rival. and you end up becoming exactly that. #yeah to my Juliana this was kind of a nightmare because. as much as this toed her boundaries #she isn't so inept as to not recognize a bit of herself in Nemona. so she decided to ride this out and appease her #and UH OH! she got attached. fear and need for control and validation from feeling wanted mixed in her head #and she started matching Nemona's energy and the two jumped into dating too fast and oops. they're codependent now #they literally can't handle being away from each other for more than two days or they start going feral #i wish i had the energy to write this one because i'm fascinated by this horrible dynamic. i want to study them in a rat maze #edit: i feel like i should clarify that this interpretation relies on Florian existing and being the one to help Penny and Arven #Florian isn't without his issues. he's a huge people pleaser too. but he's more of a doormat who can't say no

[kyouka-supremacy]

Today was a good day :)

#Today three strangers were kind to me in three different occasions. It was such a nice coincidence :) #I've been working on Akutagawa's birthday the entire week and today Akutagawa posts were all over my dash. I'm so happy! #I managed to do all the edits I had set up to and I'm glad :) #I dressed rigorously black and white and wore the black striped pants I bought because they reminded me of Beast Akutagawa's outfit #I did my nails black and red!! #My mother called me to congratulate on Akutagawa's birthday #I even baked a cake with a friend and they were so sweet ///// #I'm so grateful they managed to make time for it even though they've been so busy and tired because of their job #More than everything I'm grateful they weren't weird about it #They found it a little silly but they never made fun of me. They helped me pick the cake. #And today they even told me that they looked up a video of the character to understand me better #Which TERRIFIES me because no way anyone could get a good impression of Akutagawa from a single video #But if we ignore that it was an unbelievably nice gesture :') #It's just such a foreign feeling because outside of my blog I NEVER talk about my hyperfixations irl. #Because when I used to when I was younger I was only met with scorn or mockery so ever since I started university I simply learnt not to? #And it's just so genuinely weird to talk with someone irl who wouldn't judge me for it– #and not really in the good way because part of me is still convinced that they *are* judging me for it. #Doesn't matter everything suggests the contrary. And I keep overthinking if I overshared about Akutagawa or if I said something dumb #But I'm trying it not to get to me. Today they've been nothing but nice through and through #Whatnot. The last months were very tough for some reason I'm just happy good things can still happen :) #I want to start the queue again now that I'm generally more free and done with Aktgw's birthday and everything. #I also have new exams the first days of April and the program is pretty heavy and wide. On top of following courses. I'll see what I can d #I'd like to start regularly posting again because I'm afraid if I don't I'll just sulk further in misery. We'll see. #Ah I need to catch up with the dash since I've basically not been on Tumblr for three days... #That's it just rambling. I hope everyone's days are nice too!!! #random rambles

[lloydfrontera]

lloyd is so determined to not think of himself as a good person that the king of hell himself can tell him he almost certainly would go to heaven if left to his own devices because he's fundamentally a kind person and lloyd will still say he's self-centered and selfish and doing everything for his own gain five minutes later

like. you gotta admire the commitment at least

#i talk a lot <3 #tged #the greatest estate developer #lloyd frontera #i have no doubts lloyd fully believes this #he really does think he's selfish and self-centered and doing everything for himself #but like. there's only so many times people around you can tell you you're a good person who cares about others. before you gotta consider #that maybe you are indeed a good person who cares about others. #i'm of the opinion that when it comes to doing good things actions are more important that thoughts and intentions #like if you're doing good things because you genuinely want to help and care about other people? that's great keep it up! #but if you're doing good things for your own sake and don't really feel strongly about others? that's also ok and you're still doing good! #and that's sort of what i believe lloyd thinks of himself except. it doesn't hold up to what he actually does and thinks lmao #like when push comes to shove it's been shown that lloyd *will* choose to be kind he *will* choose to help he *will* choose to be good #even when there's nothing for him to gain and no one to impress and sometimes even when it's something that could go badly for him #there's lying to yourself and then there's whatever lloyd's got going on #<- this is all about a webnovel with a giant hamster and a snake who poops steel btw

[throttlegainwell]

The number of comments that I've gotten along the lines of "I already loathed Lonnie, but you managed to make me hate him even more" sort of intrigues me.

Thinking about that because Blood, Wine, & Roses, a fic ostensibly about Jonathan's relationship with masculinity, is probably a good 50-75% child abuse and Lonnie's general shittiness, give or take, with a smattering of Lonnie being slightly less shitty in a way that, in context, is actually kind of worse.

#writing tag #blood wine & roses wip #child abuse mention tw #i had a very rough night tbh so i'm taking a break from my self-imposed writing hiatus a few days early to poke at some wips #anyway this fic is very sad and experimental but what can i say jonathan's childhood sucked #lonnie's a bully who uses masculinity as a cudgel and whether it's genuine in purpose or just an excuse #that kind of thing leaves an impression

[thethingything]

🍬 bought some perfume that has corpse flower as one of the notes and the other notes in it include white florals, and overall they're mixed together in a way that makes a kind of warm sweet floral scent.

you can pick out the corpse flower smell but it's not overwhelmingly corpse-y, except after a few hours the other floral notes seem to have faded a bit but the corpse flower note hasn't so now we're getting stronger whiffs of it and that's been an interesting experience

#personal #thoughts #Lucy post #perfume #I'm genuinely really impressed with how nice it smells and our mum mentioned it smelling really nice when we went downstairs earlier #the thing about smells like this though is that a lot of the compounds in that kind of sickly sweet rotting smell #are also compounds that work well in perfumes when used in the right concentration #like a bunch of them are compounds that smell like fruit or whatever in the right amount #but are really offputting to most people when combined with each other in larger amounts because it starts to smell like death #so it makes sense that you could make a perfume that has that death-y smell but isn't unpleasant #<- this is the kind of thing 🍬 normally likes infodumping about agfkhjkjk

[welcometoteyvat]

the last part of arlecchino's character short is giving bsd atsushi's orphanage director but i dont know how to feel about that

#basically this orphanage director was needlessly cruel to him supposedly to make at.sushi hate him so much that he'd be motivated #to live on because of spite and anger (iirc at least). all it really did was give him crippling self worth issues but like #when he finds out about the death of the director and the truth of what happened all those years he becomes kinda mired in conflicting feel #feelings etc. which makes the whole thing interesting but i dont know whether that kind of story would be good for arle #idk how much genuine caring i want her to display. bc that orphanage director really thought he was doing the best course of action lol #also on the other hand. this director's story is there because u're supposed to care about at.sushi，whom it affected，and not the director h #himself. so idk whether a similar gimmick would be good for arle. well anyways we'll see #on another note nobody has made this joke under the youtube video and i'm very surprised and impressed #but on bilibili: you can add like rolling comments on top of the video itself and when the blonde kid in rags shows up at the end #the ENTIRE SCREEN blows up with 'kakavasha is that you????' comments. help lmao #people have one braincell and it's hsr crossover #personally if aventurine came into genshin i would drop kick him into the next universe i just dont care for him as a character but whateve #ramblings! #arlecchino #genshin impact #NO MORE THOUGHTS. finals jail. bye

[lustrethings]

I am absolutely fascinated with my obsession with TBOSAS and young Coriolanus because truth be told I would want to absolutely deck that guy on a good day and I don't mean in the "oh he turns evil down the line" way or even "his personality is kinda foul" way NO I mean it in the "to me he's so politically stupid and/or selfish I want to physically knock sense into him" way

#mf would go ''Ah the greatness of the Capitol'' ONCE #and I would have to physically restrain myself from saying ' #''yeah I mean it's got you out there poor as shit and starving- #so if you're that fucking stupid to not see or not want to see that the system is a problem that's on you actually '' #I wish I was joking but it's a visceral reaction I just think it's so funny it's stronger than me #I'm kind of genuinely impressed he climber his way back to the top tbh in a fucked up way #(it's a statement the fact it was impossible for him to do that in any ethical way but I'm not about to open that can of worms) #Coriolanus Snow #the ballad of songbirds and snakes

[phduh]

literally already want to give up looking for jobs

#the person i asked to write my teaching recommendation said no because i had only taught over zoom #*with him. i taught in person less recently with a different coordinator but the course was much less involved #and i was kind of hoping i'd made more of an impression than just like. existing over zoom #bc it was a nontrivial amount of work? #and it was a nontrivial amount of talking during meetings about our nontrivial amount of work? #idk i definitely understand i'm just disappointed #there are other people i could ask i just genuinely thought he'd be able to write me a good letter and idk about the others?

[bigsnaff]

My commander doesn't really have that parent-child bond with Aurene that's sort of set up through canon. I'd describe it more as a sibling relationship, at most? Cyna doesn't really have... much maternal instinct or manner to her. She's very blunt, forward, and prone to irritation and impatience.

In fact I'd almost describe her having a consistent disconnect with Aurene, to the point where it was likely a minor character arc wherein she felt conflicted in regards to fulfilling her duties as Aurene's "Champion". It was prophecy, it was destiny, she couldn't necessarily say no. But nonetheless, this "bond" that everyone kept saying she had with Aurene... she just didn't feel.

I don't think she disclosed this to anyone, though Aurene undoubtedly felt it. And if Aurene did view Cyna as a parent, it would make sense that she would go to such lengths to, in a way, prove herself to Cyna.

And maybe it was when Aurene was fatally impaled by Kralkatorrik's crystals after leaping to Cyna's defense that Cyna finally understood.

#guild wars 2 #gw2 #cyna crystalclaw #my characters #I think a huge part of it is that Cyna kind of... viewed Aurene akin to... a pet? #And I don't mean that in a degrading way. But it's kind of undeniable in the fact that's literally how the commander treated baby Aurene #when we first ''bonded'' with her after her hatching. #chastising her in a lighthearted way like a disobedient puppy. calling her to us in the same way. playing games and catch with her and #talking to her like a pet. #like lmao please hear me out. I'm genuinely not trying to call Aurene a pet. I'm just saying that we were treating her in that kind of #manner immediately after she hatched. she wasn't an infant to Cyna. she was a cute puppy dog. albeit a very powerful one. but nonetheless. #she understands fundamentally that this is not the case but she cannot get past this impression. at least until this puppy jumps to her #defense and dies for it. #her bond with Aurene will never be that of a parent-child. she doesn't feel that way nor does she want to. #but she cares for Aurene in a way that you only can when you would die for someone. which Aurene did. which Cyna did.

[solradguy]

I found out I can batch import files into Photoshop, resize them all at once, and then batch export them as individual files and then put like 20 of them at a time into a GoogleDoc (automatically, in the correct order) and it's so efficient. Would you believe I spent like 8 hours doing all that one file at a time for the GGX art book PDF.

Anyway, the Dengeki PS mag will be on Archive in a couple hours.

#textpost #I'm doing this with PS CS5.1 so it's uh.... slow....... #But it's the version I'm most familiar with rofl (yes yes I know I could get a better version somewhere) #grandpa hours......... #Really genuinely impressed it can handle processing 25 rather large files at a time instead of giving up and crashing #Photoshop's kind of a little bitch if I'm being entirely honest

[unproduciblesmackdown]

another shoutout for this video i hugely enjoy that’s somehow niche enough it’s only passed the thousand view threshold sometime this past year, which i can be confident about because previously i’ve kept going “i can’t believe this gem doesn’t have a thousand views already”

#i love it. people talking about How They Are Consciously Performing Comedically with each other #the kind of material where i laugh through this despite having seen it yknow a dozen times or whatever #given a seasonal aspect too in will talking about the it's a wonderful life impressions. as also discussed in that recent podcast interview #never gets old his immediately launching into said jimmy stewart then lionel barrymore impressions. the nasal They're Flawless. ''clearly'' #and all the Asides people throw in here that are just Supporting w/e that person's talking about and then they play along in their response #this is ideal; to me; lmfao like Being Funny myself & just like please god someone interact with it properly lmao #this conversation >>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>> whatever NT ideal small talk to show you don't threaten each other or w/e #the way things understood as performative supports Genuine Substance / Communication so much better than ppl just ''being normal(tm)'' #you gotta learn how to be funny man. how to be doing a little theatrical performance in a conversation. understand someone else's. etc #also have to shoutout the fun detail of will saying he can effectively recite the whole movie line by line & then ''i'm open to that'' #the two camera setup here....delightful. grabbing this guy #also doing [Same] gestures thanks to the fact a lot of these [broadway related will roland interview] videos are naturally from 5 yrs ago #being the year following deh's broadway opening. which makes me the same age now as he was then. Handshake #and connecting as well [tbt that delightful interview of will's parents from bmc bway times that's just so Parental] wherein his mom has #that lore of like yeah his first words were lyrics from that sesame street abc song (not Thee abc song. the phonetics joke one. abcdefghi) #Life Imitating Art (this infant to elementary schooler doing imitations of televised performances) #will roland

[sexybabystevie]

no really. someone tell me why i'm at college

#im gonna be honest #idk if its just me and the horrible way my brain functions or what #but i really was under the impression that this was going to be different #in a good way. the way that it would change my life and i would feel like i belonged #tell me why i feel the same as i did in high school #this is kind of why i feel like i'll never fit in anywhere #and i wanna be happy here. i was excited and happy at first #but now i just miss my home #and im so tired. everything feels like a chore #and honestly ive been afraid to say it but i have the lingering doubt that this is all a mistake #but then that poses the question of what i'll do if i leave #like i'd have to work or something and i also don't think i can do that #truthfully i think i'm so mentally ill that i don't think i can really be genuinely and truly happy anymore #like there are the little moments and whatever. but in general i'm so hollow and empty #or just missing something and sad #i'm tired of working because i'm always working and what is it getting me? #nothing #not really anyway. i have no sense of accomplishment #i'm tired and i'm lonely and i'm sad and i'm numb and everything is the same as it has been for years for me #i'm just in an unfamiliar environment #sometimes i don't think i was meant for this world #:/ #tw vent #i'm so sorry this got out of hand #it's late and i'm horrible at filtering myself at night #em speaks #delete later