#I'm really bad at takInG comMents

[dying-marshmallo]

🪼 idk how many more times I can ignore it

#rise of the teenage mutant ninja turtles #rise of the tmnt #🖍 my art #rise leo #rottmnt #disaster twins #unpause rise of the tmnt #rise season 3 #rottmnt donnie #rottmnt leo #vent #introject #osdd stuff #🍡 system tag #i'm really tired of reading posts where its someones interpretation of me. the worst version they can imagine #being abelist or abusive towards my brothers and seeing people back them up in the comments. this is so canon. he would say this! #i would never. #and i hate that i take it so personally #but it makes me wonder if maybe I am just a bad brother #and I hadn't realized it until now

[admiral-arelami]

AITA If My Favorite Character is a Fascist?

Uh oh. The Fascsplainers are at it again. Yes, we know what fascism is, thx.

#help my favorite characters are fascists #empire bad #chiss ascendancy bad #I'm too damn old for lectures about the nature of good and evil #or about what is *more* canon #like seriously? #Star Wars needs to get over its obsession with canon anyway #though I tend to go with what the author who created the character thinks #even if I like the TV show #(no comment on the LA show lol) #the age-old arguments about canonicity never helped music art or literature either #so let's just sit back and enjoy what we enjoy #and get over this whole purity culture thing #in any case it's fiction and necessarily *up to interpretation* #good evil morally gray? I don't really care #because it's FICTION #people like what they like #look I hate reylo too but let people have their fun #so they can take a break from the hopeless dumpster fire that is the real world #lol honestly I didn't even know there *was* an anti-thrawn tag until today #thrawn #as soon as the word “fascism” came up we knew this was going to be about Thrawn #canonically bad thrawn #tell me you've never read the thrawn books without telling me you've never read them #he's a bad man #AND a fascist #just here to remind you #PSA

[captaindamianos]

Day 20 - parasol

Masterpost with all drawings

#captive prince #lamen #august prompt challenge #day 20 #my art #i'm on vacation currently so i garantuee nothing #started this yesterday but only had time to finish it today #i will fill all prompts (i think) but it might be with delays #thanks for the lovely comments and everything #it's been really motivating #sorry for the bad quality #i can only take pictures with my phone

[lamaiemiei]

well this morning as I woke up from a 4 or so hour night of sleep i had the brilliant idea of trying to fight Gabriel in 3-2 on Violent while listening to a youtube video, with no in-game music, relatively low in-game master sound and without having actually beaten him (on Violent) after having spent over three hours and a half exclusively trying to kick his ass a few days ago.

so. uhm. yeah. drew how it felt (while also remaining as vague as i could as to not upset anyone lol)

this was both surprisingly hard but also relatively quick? in a weird sort of way? idk girl

screenshots below if you care lol

the 3h30 hour attempt proof (i quit at fucking 3 am my wrists were sore as fuck)

the one successful attempt (was surprisingly quicker than expected)

so uh. yea. laughed really loudly when i did beat him and when he called me an insignificant fuck again. 11/10 will do again.

#my favorite thing to do in ultrakill (aside from bullying V2 into oblivion) is dying to my own projectile boosts <33 #really though i'm sorry this is yet another stupid post and not actual art i just thought this was kinda funny; art is being made i promise #shredding through his health in his first phase is actually really easy i think; it just gets real hard once he goes angy #like just send four coins in the air and hit them with the railcanon (except i was too dumb to do a proper railcoin because ah eto bleh) #but his swords dance attack when he enters his second phase as well as his increased speed are really hard to figure out #also his timings are so different from standard!!! somehow i could parry some of his slashes but almost none of his light hatchets!! #what the fuck!!!! aaaaaa #really though beating Gabriel again was actually fun as hell fr #oh yeah the video i was listening to was a woman commenting on a “healthy christian sex course” while also giving advice and stuff #chose it cause it was almost four hours long and i didn't know how much it might take me to beat Gabe (also cause irony) #(my sense of humour is busted as fuck and really bad and im sorry) #ultrakill #gabriel ultrakill #hb talks #dumb shit #shitpost #←i think. maybe #again if you read through all of this shit i love you <3

[delborovic]

Can you draw Rellik and Del in an embrace?

(just wondering😇)

#I'm certain this is what you wanted anon <3 #monkey paw finger curls #I really need to stop feeding into these types of asks #but this made me laugh thinking about so I drew it #I don't ship myself with Rel obviously LOL #but hey whatever ships make ya'll happy please enjoy #Rellik has 0 comment on anything so #too bad for him #I am paranoid about posting things online #so please take this in the good fun spirit it was given #I'm honored anyone thinks at all about my silly characters hahaha #myself included #del replies #Rel is everyone's side guy that's so canon tho

[navree]

Let's be honest, and I say this with full offense, Lucerys Velaryon is the Archduke Franz Ferdinand of the Dance of the Dragons. He is meant to be a sacrificial lamb to kick off the entire war proper. If we had gotten a full season of development with him like we did with the younger cast in Game of Thrones, I guarantee more people would've felt something. The only reason I personally feel bad is from a baseline level of empathy, because he was a child who was placed in an unwinnable situation due to his mom being completely irresponsible with him and his brothers.

However…

The comparison between Lucerys and Aemond is no contest. Love him or hate him, Aemond has an actual personality and goals when we first meet him. There's enough dimension in Aemond as a child to showcase the potential for sympathy between him and Jace at the funeral, a scene they didn't need to put in, but they did, which emphasizes his own innocence. Even before he breaks bad fully in S1E10, he's still far more compelling to watch due to the number of scenes allocated to him and his dynamic with other people.

This is where you and I are going to disagree just a bit, because Lucerys does do something in S1E07 and S1E08. He gouges out the eye of a family member and petulantly whines that he “didn’t do anything!” when confronted with the possibility of getting in trouble for it, then years later has the nerve and complete lack of sense to giggle at the person he permanently maimed only hours after his legitimacy was publicly called into question (again) and resulted in a murder. The narrative (perhaps unintentionally) glosses over these moments in favor of portraying him as good, whereas if you read between the lines, you can see that as being an oversimplification. The problem is that because S1 was truncated, secondary characters like Lucerys don’t receive screentime dedicated to portraying anything other than a single personality trait. Unfortunately, because of his role in the text and the way it was adapted for television, there was never a chance that Lucerys would be interesting.

I don't even have anything to add, this is just objectively correct.

#personal #answered #anonymous #and yeah lucerys refusing to take any responsibility or even show a hint of remorse for what he did is so galling to me #i could never care about him after that #like first of all you were in the wrong in the fight period #aemond did nothing wrong he claimed a free dragon who let him bond with her #i get why rhaena and baela were acting irrationally upset their mother died and they're young #grief makes you act weird #jace and luke had absolutely no reason to act the way they did #like it's not your fight and also again aemond literally did nothing wrong #but because he made a nasty comment after already being yelled at for doing nothing wrong y'all decide to gang up on him #with your cousins #and then this little idiot decides to take a whole knife to someone's face and refuses to ever feel bad #luke could have KILLED aemond #aemond could have DIED #not just from the immediate wound but also any issues that arose during a really long and arduous healing process #it's why fics with luke where he feels bad or contrite don't work for me #because he literally doesn't??? #he doesn't care at all #he doesn't care he almost killed a person for no reason and left them with lifelong issues as a result of his fuck up #out here kicking his feet and giggling over maiming another human being #again vhagar eating him was too easy #he should have gotten his eye poked out first anyway #literally only feel kinda bad for rhaenyra cuz i'm neutral leaning positive towards rhaenyra and losing a child hurts #luke himself can rot i feel nothing

[animalcrossingshowdown]

every so often when a poll is close and I'm passionate about the results I reblog to main (you guys all do it only fair I get to hype up my faves too) and. I have been SO CLOSE to blocking people rebloging from my main with tags rooting against what I rebloged it for lmao

#I see all of you with bad taste in my notes all day and I will silently take it #but to reblog from my main where I have expressed an opinion and I KNOW you saw said opinion. makes me unreasonably mad lmao #just spit in my face instead #at least go back and reblog from this blog so I don't know you saw it #(this is not a big deal and I only care because I see ALL of the comments so it's like straw breaking the camel's back) #also I see when the same thing happens to you guys. I feel you #I feel like I need to edit this to really emphasize that the point of this post is that I'm overreacting to something inconsequential #that This Is Not Serious

[icedille]

there's this one dude i keep seeing whenever i use youtube without being logged in whose main thing is playing the guitar while adding something that will most likely completely ruin the instrument and it just. makes me so angry. so far i've seen him put fireworks inside one drill holes into another and drown two (three?) different guitars. it's obviously an incredibly wasteful gimmick but worst of all it's useless it doesn't even sound good or special it's so blatant that he just adds a ton of reverb afterwards and emphasizes the additional noises (water splashing around the fireworks burning etc) a little bit but that's it there really isn't anything gained musically from him just. wasting a perfectly fine guitar for one (1) video. and i'm aware that dramatically destroying instruments for some sort of statement has been A Thing for a long time but there really isn't any statement here it's just clickbait content and it WORKS everyone eats this shit up i hate it so much

#not to sacralize a regular object too much i'm not saying this is bad bc instruments are too holy for this or whatever #but a guitar is still. something that takes a lot of time and resources to make. even a low-end one (idk what kind he's purchasing for thes #you can't really tell anything about the acoustic quality under the shitton of production effects) #and i just think treating them like they're single-use is. bad. #ESPECIALLY SINCE AGAIN IT DOESN'T ADD ANYTHING #HE COULD GET THE EXACT SAME RESULTS BY JUST SLAPPING SOME REVERB AND RELEVANT SOUND EFFECTS ON THE PIECE #but if he does that he can't film himself dramatically playing an instrument that's rapidly being ruined #and get a thousand comments saying 'its dying song sounds so beautiful 🥺' like he didn't just buy it for that sole purpose #anyway. i hate it. i hate it so much #.parakeet

[strunmah-mah]

Was poking around in the Wonder Woman tag to see what the general consensuses is on the new run. And I keep seeing screen shots of the narration boxes captioned with stuff like "look at Tom King's trash opinions on the amazons" And like . . .

Y'all know those are the Sovereign's opinions right? Not Tom King's? You understand the difference between a character and a writer? And that since the Sovereign's weapon of choice is The Lasso of Lies that he probably shouldn't be considered a reliable narrator? It's literally his job to make the Amazons look bad.

#dc #wonder woman #wonder woman 2023 #tom king #the sovereign #also hot take but i'm enjoying this so far #king's dialog is stiff and on the nose #but i don't think the overall comic is bad #anyway #just really hate this recent tend in the idea that the authors opinions and the characters are the same #an author's opinions can inform certain story choices #but for that to be your default method of analysis is lazy #and seeing it in reference to the new run so many times frustrates me #made a similar comment on poison ivy's knight terrors tie in #did not expect that to be a divisive as it was

[betweenlands]

i don’t know what the fuck is going on. why don’t you all go watch ivorycello or legundo’s 100 days multiverse or vikingpilot’s dominion smp series (including the monologue after s1e6) or yourpalross’s redstoner or kakujo’s horizons / magic world or inro’s secret rivals and then maybe you’ll calm down

#for legal reasons this is a joke do NOT come after us #genuinely really sorry your guys's finale sucked though! i'm sorry about that! #the only thing worse than no conclusion is an actively bad one and i'm sorry that happened! #that said: i have a responsibility to shill if everyone else on the dash is also doing it #also helpful series notes for those actually taking recs: #the 100dmv playlist is in reverse order for some reason #redstoner DOES have some old shitheads in there but they don't make any money off the series as it's fan archived #both redstoner and kakujo's series were made in OLD mcyt era so they may have some outdated humor #and finally -- read the comments in horizons starting at ep17 so you can see ed's diary #(and also the comments on the first and last episodes of magic world for the same reason) #OKAY that's my shilling done now i have to tag this (i am NOT maintagging this) #(except one bc my tag for that is just the series tag. oops fuck) #yt #txt #orig #misc #ictv #dominioners #redstoner #kj #secret rivals

[demonsfate]

i forget that i'm too autistic for reddit until i post on it again.

#✏️ - ᴛʜᴇ ʜᴏsᴛ ᴡɪᴛʜ ᴛʜᴇ ᴍᴏsᴛ // (ooc) #// I SSDFGDJFGNDF I JUST CANNOT GET ALONG WITH THE TEK FANDOM THERE NO MATTER HOW I TRY - #// like i pointed out about jin's tek7 outfit in tek8 and how low poly it was #// and how YES - regardless if you see it as a bad or good thing - it IS lazy #// and of course ppl pointed out my infodumping and took it as me 'raging' #// even tho i just thought pointing out the texture details was a genuinely interesting thing #// and it's like bros... it's ok to say you're a lil disappointed in something even if it's a small detail #// like that doesn't equate to you saying the game it ruined or condemning the devs or saying you can't play it bc of a small flaw #// i hate that 'infodumping' is always equated to 'caring about something too much' or 'not having a life' or 'being angry' #// it's like... sorry that i notice things and wanna point them out #// and LIKE... these posts only take MINUTES of my 14+ hour day that i'm awake #// how is that... not having a life or being sad LMAO #// tho really i do put some fault on me for continuing to argue with some ppl in the comments - should've let it be LOL #// oh well at least i didn't call 'em fucked in the head like i got called JDSFDFJFG

[miabrown007]

a minute of silence to my skills to estimate how long a project is ever going to take

#my google calendar and Carl bot (and my friends) have been kind enough to inform me today was the estimated posting date of heist au #suffice to say that is not happening #it would have been rad to make a habit out of the co-occurrence of starting a new job and starting to post a finished WIP but alas #that will not be happening for a while longer #I have no idea when will I find the time for writing between two jobs and the big bang but. we'll work something out. #but hey it's good to give your projects breathing space so your brain can do the work in the background and solve the problems for you #I'll probably need to go back and revamp the whole last chapter I've been working on #but I'm still too sick and jet lagged and sick to be thinking about that so I'll consume some more media in the meantime #and complain about how bad the fic I'm listening to is. like god it's supposed to be so romantic and cute and he's literally #depriving her bodily autonomy and her friends support him I want to leave a strongly worded comment so bad #I will not be doing that but god it's so awful I should have stopped listening to this fic long ago. so that's a lesson learned. #put the fucking fic down there's plenty of stuff that's going to be better #hot take I sure no one saw coming sometimes things that are popular are actually bad #anyway have some stream of fucking consciousness /ref to another fic I'm fighting hard to keep discontinued #I know I won't like it why is this so hard #heist au should have been posted today based on maths btw. maths I did wrong for the first time which means it should have been posted #a year ago really #not like I have the proper structure to do a heist au daily #but it would have been fun to post the first chapter on the exact day it takes place. idk just for flavour #does all this make any sense? hardly. this is a diary entry and my two braincells are firing random thoughts at each other #that's fine though. it's all fine. here have some popcorn to go with all this nonsense 🍿🍿🍿 <3 #(and also all the drama in the new shadow and bone season. ugh it's so good I love Wesper SO. MUCH. or just Waylan. and Nikolai. #he's my blorbo assigned at first relevant information. relavant information: he's my friend's blorbo #but gods he's so my type it's scary. of course I'll have him as my blorbo. of course of course! #*puts him on a shelf next to Adrien Draco and Hunter* #*steps back to think before putting Waylan there too and sitting Zuko on the far end* #war crimes look so good on them :3 #miaing #heist au

[ronanlynchbf]

hell day today and i'm only two hours into my EIGHT HOUR SHIFT

#9 to 5 by dolly parton starts playing in the background.. #literally had to open up shop alone 2day and also was entirely alone for the first 45 min. of my shift so that was already a negative start #to the day + i heard that i can't have my break later than two thirty which is very bad for me bc 1) there'll be a lot of ppl all around me #when i'm eating which i already dislike and 2) like 85% of ppl taking their break around that time are VERY noisy eaters so even worse and #then 3) it'll be really loud in the room as well bc everyone's talking loudly and eating and the cutlery's clanging against plates and such #and also some ppl have actual full-blown arguments with each other in the break room bc half the ppl here hate each other's guts so more #negatives to the day and then on top of that we've had sooooo many annoying customers already today who r just. intent on making u stressed #out and upset and literally will tell u to your face to 'do your job better' like bro...i can easily tell you haven't worked in retail.... #also someone hung their clothes on the rack outside the fitting rooms which is where u hang ur clothes when you're DONE fitting them & don' #want them bc they don't fit or don't sit right or u just don't rlly like them after all so if clothes are hanging there we the ppl working #there WILL take them and hang them back in their original places what did u expect to happen?? anyway someone hung the clothes they had #tried on already and did want there and i reached out to take them bc like. that's what we do here..we hang the clothes on the 'discard #rack' back in the store bc else the rack gets stuffed and the woman literally grabbed my arm and said 'those are mine what do u think you'r #doing' LIKE?????? GIRL THE RACK'S THERE FOR A REASONNNN ofc i'm going to assume u don't want them anymore if they're hanging there that's #why it's called the DISCARD rack....also how am i to know those specific clothes are yours HONESTLYYYYYY STFU AND GET OFF ME #ALSO some dude was like (to his child but like. looking at me while he said it.) 'this guy needs a haircut doesn't he' bc my hair is kinda #long and apparently i passed today. LIKE 1st of all kind of a rude thing to say to a stranger innit 2nd of all setting a great example to #your child there just casually commenting on other ppl's looks like that👍 3rd of all jokes on you you wouldn't consider me a guy if #you Knew most likely. thanks for that little zing of glee much obliged <3 but also man just piss off will you. 4th of all my hair isn't eve #that long....like the ends of it are just shy of my shoulders wdym LONG if u knew the long-haired guys i know you'd faint. #anyway. great start of the day. i still have six more hours to go 🥴 #ALSO no surprise this always happens but my legs already hurt SOOOOOOOO BADDDDDD :((((((((((( #r.txt

[wolves-etc]

thoughts on The Last Of Us episode seven, largely in the order I had them:

[thoughts on: 1.1 | 1.2 | 1.3 | 1.4 | 1.5 | 1.6 | X | 1.8 | 1.9]

— it took me a while to realise that the shapes at the end of the credits are ellie and joel. it's grim - two figures, alone, growing out of this infested world.

— she can't be actually about to leave joel?? splitting them up at this point isn't allowed, what the shit

(unless she can get there and back quickly enough to bring him medical attention in which yes please)

— first glimpse of the military school!! it's a little odd to realise she had more access to music than joel did. I can't quite remember ellie's first mention of her friend, either - it might've been the first episode?

— did not expect a dressing down in a military school to begin with "what's going on?", gently spoken

— captain kwong I actually really like you. he's an inherently manipulative bastard and I don't trust him but this is another adult talking to ellie honestly and giving her options rather than just making decisions for her, and it's nice to see, in a messed up way.

— and ellie's also not scared of him - or she doesn't look scared. she did tell sam that thing about being scared all the time and I don't think that was a joke. not cowed by him, then. and okay, maybe it's on purpose, maybe he's deliberately avoiding crushing her spirit because they don't just need grunts, they need officers too - but he's still not crushing her spirit entirely, and it's a relief.

— …he really believes they're what's holding civilisation together, too. he's genuinely scared and doing what he can to try to keep things going.

(and still, he has to know that there are abuses of power under a military dictatorship. he has to know, and he's justifying them, because he believes the work they do is that important. I really don't agree with him but I sort of don't know where exactly to fault him on his reasoning, and that's chilling.)

((and I'm doing a LOT of speculating about a character we only see briefly, when he's manipulating a teenager for the cause. but still.))

— gosh, I know ellie got culture shock looking through the teenager's bedroom in jackson, but this is such a normal teenage bedroom too. I mean, almost. one with the vibe of a cell or a ward. but we get a glimpse of everything up on the walls, the drawing of the dinosaur, the mortal kombat poster.

— okay an awful thought is occurring to me. I had to look up transcripts to double-check what ellie said about her friend first: when ellie calls marlene a terrorist, marlene says "was riley a terrorist?" and the past tense there and ellie's expression both felt... significant.

so we can guess her friend died tragically. we know ellie killed someone and doesn't want to talk about it. and it's awful, it's so awful, but if she had to kill a friend who got infected, that could answer it. and it'd add extra angst to her trying and failing to save sam, too - because hey, she didn't even know to try before, maybe she can manage it this time! and then she can't.

— OH GOOD, RILEY'S A SHITHEAD TOO

— she has a good grin.

— "turn around." "you're so weird about that." <3

— uh oh this doesn't bode well

— okay maybe it bodes fine. is it even a girls' night out if they don't see a corpse and have a laugh about it

— ellie and riley are bad influences on each other and also very cute

— riley I've known you for five minutes and I know you should be smart enough not to go into a mall that's only allegedly full of infected. "if it's sealed off then why isn't it sealed off" THE CEILING CAVING IN DOESN'T MEAN THEY WERE LYING about this specific thing at least

— the moment riley said they were on a mission I just. sigh. nonzero chance this is an actual firefly mission.

…fuck, is this gonna be where they both get bitten

— you know, ellie cutting and killing that infected in the cellar where joel stopped to pick up a cache of supplies? that makes much more sense if it was revenge for riley's death. because she hasn't been quite that brutal since. but like, the chance to safely look into the face of the thing that should have killed her, that killed her friend, and get to know it a bit, then quietly regain some of the control she lost? that makes sense.

— …riley directing her into place so she can watch as the mall flickers to life, oh gosh. oh that's beautiful.

— THE FOUR FIVE WONDERS OF THE MALL. STARTING WITH ELECTRIC STAIRS. OH GOSH.

they're so gonna end up at the arcade.

— shoutout to whoever took the time to put lipstick on a glasses advert when the world locked down

— and dawn of the wolf part 2 is definitely a twilight movie equivalent

— environmental storytelling </3

— you know when you feel deep fondness but also your heart breaking a little but it's not sad, it might not even be bittersweet but that's the closest match? yeah. ellie checking her reflection in the victoria's secret window.

— hi this scene is just so soft and so pretty and so sweetly ow

— ARCADE TIME, I KNEW IT

— "you asshole." "yeah, I'm the same asshole that spent an hour yesterday breaking this fucker open." okay riley put so much effort into that night oh heck

— I'M SORRY THE MILEENA VORE IS AN ACTUAL THING. SHE ACTUALLY BARFS BONES. why am I even surprised

— can the camera not zoom out ominously please. this is sweet this is fun let's not do this right now

— ellie's attempt at a goodbye that was also an "I don't like you enough to leave the school and join the fireflies with you," but they both know that, it's not a surprise, fuckin' ouch

— "how does a computer get drunk? it takes screenshots." "what are screenshots?" "I don't actually know."

— (listen I used to write in what was technically a postapoc setting, though the worldbuilding was crap so we mostly ignored that, so I keep wanting to go back and incorporate ideas, it's terrible.)

— riley crashing at that mall with at least one ticking timebomb just chilling in one of the shops, turning the lights on and playing loud games multiple times, I really really don't like this

— oh this hurts. it was set in stone from the start but it still hurts.

— OH SHIT MAYBE NOT. fake screams wtf that's mean, show.

— "maybe the fireflies aren't what I think they are but they chose me. I matter to them." "you mattered to me first." heY OW

— seriously these are baller lines. these lines alone I could see people going feral over. this is the good angst that people write fics about.

— do they have to have this incredibly cute dance party in a shop with lots of faces and figures in the background while we know there's an infected in the mall, please I am suffering

— oh they're so cute and also so doomed

— we still don't know who ellie killed.

— "we can just be all poetic and shit and lose our minds together." yeah, I mean, ideally you could, that's a really sweet and tragic sentiment-

— present-day ellie? is a fucking badass. and I say that not to negate the fact that she's a scared kid trying to keep her caregiver alive, but rather because she's a scared kid and she doesn't know what to do and she's trying even though it's so, so hard.

— the face of someone who's not gonna lose him too.

#longer one this time! #the last of us hbo #the last of us spoilers #tlou spoilers #angst tag #orig #I find ellie and riley a little complicated and I think because it's a kinda grown-up story? #a very real messy thing that a relationship can be asymmetrical (to whatever degree and in whatever ways) and still have love there #and so much love really. #I'm kind of bad at recognising/understanding romance so I don't wanna comment more than that #but gosh they were sweet and gosh that hurt #also yes I am in fact a little smug looking back at some of my guesses now I have more information #perks of taking several hours to watch each episode (and the show being well-written tbqh)

[beelzzzebub]

would you ever stop using Tumblr?

yeah if it started stressing me out. i almost did after i first got it bc it was kind of overwhelming and i kind of felt guilty about being on here lol (lots of fun unresolved things to cover in therapy 😀👍)

#boink #i could see myself deleting it on a whim lol #if i was doing really bad #if i ever had a post get negative attention #which is unlikely lol #but in that case probably almost definitely haha #i can't handle all that #i posted one poor interpretation of good omens in a comment once over the summer and it almost had me off of here then #had me feeling awful for days #the izzy discourse was enough to get me to stop being heavily invested in ofmd #so i couldn't take it if something like that started to cloud up good omens for me #since that's basically the base of what i'm here for lolll

[buysomecheese]

FUCKED UP THAT SOMEONE CAN SEE THEIR FRIEND IN A VULNERABLE POSITION AND THEN USE THAT TO THEIR ADVANTAGE!!! FUCKED UP THAT HE WOULDN'T TAKE KINDLY TO HIS OTHER FRIENDS HELPING HIM GET OUT OF THAT SITUATION SO WE CAN'T HELP AS MUCH AS WE'D LIKE TO. FUCKED UP THAT SO MANY GOOD THINGS WILL BE TAINTED FOR HIM NOW. FUCKED UP THAT HE'LL LIKELY BE SO CLOSED OFF TO EVERYTHING NOW BECAUSE OF THEM!!!!!

#went to bed angry and woke up angry #yesterday was so good because I love my friends but so bad because. this situation makes me so sad. #it's so sad when my friends fucking hate themselves. #and it's a different hate than it was when my friends hated themselves in middle school #like I know how to deal with that sort of self-hatred but this is Different. #and I need to help differently but I don't know How #it's quiet and constant and just little comments that could almost be missed but. #those of us who Did hate ourselves in middle school (loudly and sporadically and yelling about it in the hallways) #we see this quiet hate and I don't know what to do. nobody has ever known when I've hated myself quietly and I don't know what would've- #-helped me so I don't know how to help them. #how much can I hold them until it's uncomfy. how much can I tell them I love them until they stop believing me. #it doesn't help that they're Men. I get how men feel this sadness but I don't know how they can be helped with it #(because again I was never helped with it. I'm so good at helping my Women friends but my Men friends I don't Know what to do) #it's not fair that they're so beautiful and kind and funny and attractive and they can't see that. #and I can't like date them to make them see it because I'm not good for a relationship and one of them is straight and the other just got- #-out of what is a horrible situationship THAT DEFINITELY DIDN'T HELP. with someone I was really close with in middle school and like I- #-didn't Raise them but I was more present and helpful than her parents in middle school and I feel like I raised him. #and I raised him better than this better than hurting your Close Friend by taking advantage of him. using him for the attention your real- #-parents wouldn't give you. leave him the fuck alone. #and like the situation is over but the effects are still present. and will be for a long fucking time. #I DON'T UNDERSTAND HOW YOU CAN BE INTIMATE WITH SOMEONE AND NOT LEAVE THEM FEELING BETTER ABOUT THEIR BODY. #I DON'T KNOW HOW YOU CAN SEE SOMEONE BE SO LOW AND LEAVE THEM THERE. OR BRING THEM DOWN FURTHER. #NOBODY EVER LEFT YOU WHERE YOU WERE UNTIL YOU GAVE US NO OTHER CHOICE. AND EVEN THEN WE KEPT TRYING TO BRING YOU UP. #BECAUSE YOU WERE OUR FRIEND AND WE LOVED YOU. AND WE EXPECTED YOU WOULD DO THE SAME. #HE HAS ALWAYS BEEN THERE FOR YOU AND YOU HAVE ALWAYS BEEN ONE OF HIS CLOSEST FRIENDS. NO HE HAS NOT ALWAYS BEEN PERFECT BUT HE WAS IN- #-MIDDLE SCHOOL. HE WAS A BABY WE WERE ALL BABIES AND WE ALL GOT BETTER. AND YOU DID NOT AND YOU MADE THAT HIS PROBLEM. #maybe you just didn't fucking listen to anything he's ever said maybe you were too busy thinking about how you could use him. #but he cares so much for you and he shares himself with you and you don't notice how much he hates? #AND THE TRUST ISSUES YOU AND ANOTHER PERSON WE USED TO HAVE INSTILLED IN OUR OTHER FRIEND. #HE WILL NOT BE ABLE TO DATE AGAIN WITHOUT BEING SCARED OF WHAT SHE MIGHT SAY ABOUT HIM.