#I've been getting more nervous about posting

[jamieedlund]

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He was just ignoring him cause he has a distaste for dragons 🤭

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I think both of them are very dumb smart people so they just intimidate each other into getting more sense 😂

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A compilation of some of my January to February brainrots.

#my art #the dragon prince #tdp #callum #aaravos #short comic #doodles #sketches #tdp callum #tdp aaravos #i can't believe there's a day when i use other tags but it's here #soren #rayla #these are the things I think about while workin on my thesis #drawing is hard and my brain is made of soggy noodles... #i'm slaving away as always #sorry i haven't posted for like a month #I've been getting more nervous about posting #mostly because I can't finish anything fast enough #and the last time I posted it didn't perform very well #i'm thankful for every one who still stay and enjoy my work tho #i hope everyone is doing well #i have an obsession #with aaravos and umbrellas #you don't understand #tall ass man and his shorty short cake #so i think aaravos actually bend down when callum grab his shirts #it's hilarious cause the headbutt probably doesn't even hurt #it's just a light bump #two idiots fr

[stuckinapril]

i think i officially set my sights on a therapist and i'll be contacting her very soon?? therapy was legitimately not on my 2024 bingo card (or in the cards for me at all) but here we are????

#this blog always had a focus on social science and detangling feelings and experiences. like it's basically been serving as my diary #bc this blog has always been my main outlet for it. i hate talking feelings to anyone irl. it's a bad habit but i hate it #so it was a game changer and helped me grow up sooo much. esp supplemented w other people's experiences. #being raised by a stoic engineer mother who's very much warm but also not very good at feelings at times has caused me to suppress SO much #compounded w being the eldest daughter. like that is a damning sentence in and of itself #tumblr just gave me an outlet for stuff like this. and every social media is essentially a highlight reel of ppl's best moments. #tumblr is the opposite. i've always loved that too whether it was in the form of humor or more earnest posts #could i work through my own issues by myself? yes probably #and my blog will always have that facet even if i get a therapist #but a therapist's input. just a professional's input. will expedite a lot of improvement for me i think #this has been a critical time period for me anyway bc i'm budgeting my whole schedule for once vs being handheld by uni deadlines #and it's just gonna keep getting more and more intense from here bc i'm truly pushing my comfort zone more than ever before #it just feels like the right call even tho i'm lowkey nervous ab it bc i HATE talking feelings in person. #this therapist will not fall for my trying to deflect by asking her about her life. which. usually works on my friends <3 #we will see. a therapy arc is coming very soon basically #p

[juicedbeetle]

I just love when he does creacher shit like this so much

#beetlejuice musical #beetlejuice #is this an allowed screenshot to post? i understand that some arent but i haven't been able to understand which ones #if i could get a rundown on which boots are a nono when it comes to posting screenshots that would actually be really useful #i know which ones they are more often than not. this is a 2019 so i thiiiink it's safe. i think it is. but i mean uhm let me know #to be completely honest i just guessed which one this is anyway bc it wasn't labeled but I've been researching. so im pretty sure but #it came without the notes is what im sayingggggg they all do. they all do. i do not wanna make anyone mad pls never assume that i dont care #if i ever post something and it's actually off limits JUST LET ME KNOW I WILL DELETE IT SO FAST I PROMMY #anyway. *clears throat* that said. uhm. creacher beej can we talk about it. we don't do it enough #well maybe we do I've only been here 3 weeks #woobification tag #sorry for rambling in the tags i dont do it on purpose i ramble when im nervous #*beetle voice* this guy knows what im talking about #is there...... beetlejuice discords out there i wonder #ALSO HE WAS LOOKING AT THE MAITLANDS HERE I LOVE THIS WHOOOOLE SCENE SO MUCH LMAO WHEN HE #WHEN HE GETS OFFENDED BECAUSE THEY CALLED HIM WICKED SHSHUDHDHDHD #i love him so much im literally gonna put him in an empty chips bag and shake him so he gets evenly coated in salt and spices

[theflyingfeeling]

so idk if anyone remembers anymore but some time ago I described a fic idea in the tags of a post (and then elaborated the idea in a later ask) regarding Olli/Aleksi falling for each other while still being in relationships respectively... yeah, I kinda ended up writing something based off that thought and I just uploaded the first chapter on AO3, I hope y'all will be cool about it 👉👈

#blind channel fanfiction #blind channel rpf #ollixallu #i probably should've added some more tags but i really just don't want to spoil anything too much 😭 #please please please be nice i am so goddamn nervous about this fic #MASSIVE thanks to my pre-readers who i love so 💗 #ugh i'm so terrible at promoting my own fics lol pls just take this out of my hands and do whatever you will with it #i know the premise of the fic may sound off-putting and/or sad but i hope you'll give it a chance anyway 🥺 #ignore me constantly editing the tags of this post lol ANYWAY i forgot to mention that i've already written all 4 chapters #idk what the ideal posting schedule would be but sunday has often been posting day for me so... #this 1st chapter is quite short but the others are definitely longer and i want to give y'all enough time to read 💗 #and idk maybe it's just me being a slow reader but i always get a little anxious if i can't keep up with an author's posting schedule 😭 #kudos comments reblogs likes asks dms i'll take anything <3

[montanabohemian]

man i've really gotten to this point of unemployment where i don't want to do what i've been doing for years because i never wanted to do what i was doing. but now i have absolutely no idea what i want to do. at all. and honestly zero motivation to figure it out. which is scary but also i think my depression has just really settled in at this point. yay. i don't know it just really fucking sucks. and i want to use this as an opportunity to move in a completely different direction but like ... how. and with what resources because i'm totally broke.

#i actually found out i can get some education paid for through the job service #but not like going back to university #like job education type stuff #and it's overwhelming #but i'm so appreciative of that because i never knew about that #but like ... do i go for grant writing? TEFL? .... i mean what???? #i have honestly no marketable skills #and i think that's what's so overwhelming and feeding into a lot of my anxiety #ANYWAY #THIS IS JUST A PERSONAL POST BECAUSE I'M SO OVERWHELMED AND EXHAUSTED APPLYING FOR JOBS #thus far i've been very particular about the jobs i've been applying for; in an effort to pivot towards something more what i want #but now i'm really getting nervous because i'm not getting anything back and it's just #FUCK #you know???? #like how do people do the thing where they are able to change careers and move into something more towards what they want #at this stage in life #HOW

[new-lorien-artist]

When you were too passionate in the tags (and hit tag limit) that Tumblr starts breaking around you

#ernest talks #continuing where i was #i have so little time recreationally and everyone around me is busier and I've gotten more anxious and nervous over the years #and that goes for everyone else i talk to or want to talk to #and i try creating these community events like hangouts or celebrations or anything to get people coming in #or try to host stuff and we're mostly busy #I'm super super grateful when we have those hangouts work!!! I'm always so happy when people can join or make time for them #i kinda just... mourn that this too will go away and people will dissipate and the fandom goes inactive again #so i really cherish the time we make to ask each other about our day when it comes to mind #<- pointing to me saying this because I've gotten more edged in recent years and stop talking to others so i can reflect #feel like I've been too salty on fandom lately (lately like the last two years) #i also have tons of posts about like the LL fandom not being dead and I'd like that to be true #but ahhhh busy busy busyyyyyyy #I'm also generally favorable to communicating on discord instead of tumblr #which not everyone uses casually #so that's also a huge factor #asks are fun but tbh i don't get a lot of conversations continued that way #it ends up a one and done thing #either there's significant pressure in the reply to make it good that isn't usual in other text form convos #or some other reason i don't know of #conversations end quicker on tumblr so i end up relying on discord convos more

[plulp]

SCREAMING AND CRYING

#I LOOOOOOOVE YOU MR DR HARPER #also PREGNANCY #PLEEEEEAAAASE IM SO EXCITED #FOXES ??!?!?!?!! #I NEED TO READ THROUGH THE PATCH NOTES #THIS IS SO EXCIITING #sorry i've been DEAD it's because my computer broke and i've been busy and i've gotten so much attention on my other posts #i feel nervous about making more 🥺 #but i'll try my best to post more once my comp is fixed because i really really really love this game #and there are a few other games i wanna draw for too #germaphone #i also wanna make more text posts but i get nervous about talking on things i like fsr :( #but if you all don't mind i can try #also thank you SO so so so so so much for all the support #and all the nice comments and tags #they make me so happy seeing them #i really wish i could repay you all #i hope i can get back to drawing soon #DOCTOR HARRRPPPPEEEERRRR #ILL BE A VIRGIN OVER AND OVER AGAIN IF ITS FOR YOU. I LOVE UOU. I LOVE YOU #sitting here scrounging for scraps so bad #harper makes me crazy i love them crazystyle #i'm so late because i don't keep up actively with the community #but i do like to check in every now and then

[bragganhyl]

I can't tell if my writing mojo is getting the hiccups again or I'm just paralyzed by nervousness over trying to write bee gee three stuff

#hablaty #Yeah I wrote like 1 bee gee three thing that i don't know how to feel about my feelings on it are like a yoyo #I definitely was more generous to gale in it than the actual game narrative whether that's good or not idk #Whether the whole thing is good or not I also don't know #But I thought that the second time around I'd feel more confident especially since i've been getting ideas but no #and idk what gets me nervous about it but it does #ehh whatever i'll probs just post like the other one so like without touching the main tags or idk #so Edit: I guess I do know what's getting the best of me just needed to rant at myself in the tags k thx bye

[theultracharmingladynoire]

This has been a rant building up for a while now and I just need to put it in here but it's that. I remember the joy and excitement I felt when I watched y/o/i ep 1 - 10 because I literally. Knew nothing about the show except for the fact it was gay?? dvsjgshd but it just was so GOOD but then I. Came across a couple of interpretations of ep 11-12 (which I hadn't watched by then so I had no idea what went down) which was just people being disappointed, people thinking the ending was changed for a season 2, people thinking it was out of nowhere (especially V/ictor's comeback?? I guess??) And that really. messed up my perception of the show?? Like upto then I was forming my own interpretations of the characters and after this I. Was lowkey scared to watch the last two episodes because I was afraid of it being bad™ (if that even makes sense) and then one day even when I did watch them I didn't watch them properly?? Like I even missed a lot of scene and dialogue because I was too nervous about what I had read about it before.

And like. I don't even think those interpretations are entirely wrong for record. I understand that especially when there was a whole week between episodes and when the fandom was so huge and active people might have a very different viewing experience which directly plays into how they interpreted the character arcs! And those interpretation are extremely valid even though I disagree with them. The show definitely leaves a lot upto intrepretation of the viewers so there isn't any interpretation that is necessarily wrong™ (Idk how to phrase this sorry)

But it's just that I wasn't able to form MY own interpretation properly because I was influenced by others' ?? (In lack of a better way to word it) and I just. I've been mulling over this for a whole MONTH and going back and forth and back about the ending. And it just feels very draining when I go out to look for meta and people who had opinions similar to mine and find...like what ten people?? it kind of makes me feel like I am looking at things wrong, and that probably the finale WAS just bad or whatever (which seems to be a more common idea in what I've seen)

I do think there were pacing issues, and I do think the character arcs CAN be interpreted differently than what they are in the finale but I also am a bit sad that not many people tried to recontextualise the show in light of the finale (again, it isn't a MUST But I really wish people tried to if I am making sense?)

And it's sad because I know this can be fun if I just created my own bubble without all the meta and opinions I disagree with but it's hard when that is somehow always what I come across? And I KNOW I should stop reading a post when I see that it may suggest something towards the opinions that I disagree with (because that'll just waste my energy), but then what if I AM wrong? What if those posts are right and I am willingly closing my eye towards what the characters originally are or something?? Is what perplexes me out and really makes me sort of nervous and uneasy(?)

And now it is getting worse and I feel like I am slowly losing all the love I had for this show and it absolutely SUCKS because I just want to enjoy this silly little show and now this is all....just a mess

#N rambles #I feel like I am just repeating things at this point #I've been trying to hold back a lot from venting about this on the main because it just plainly seems like a very trivial thing to be this #upset about #But after weeks of ranting in tags I just feel I really HAVE to say this because it is actually really making me sad #Like. I thought maybe after exams I wouldn't be upset? And I was so excited to do a lot more things for the show #I was so excited and looking forward to this #Especially since I have TOO much of free time now so I also am prone to overthinking in such a situation #And I did and this just sucks and I am fed up with just overthinking and keeping all of this to myself and getting too upset #so. yeah. I still feel very bad but I also think it's probably due to a lot. Of other factors #and this one is not helping #And for one thing: I am actually really nervous about posting this because this seems to be such a dividing topic #And by no means am I saying people shouldn't have been upset - but...yeah #I just. Don't know. I really do wish I could find more people who are active and who liked the finale?? I really want to talk about #The character arcs and themes and ramble about them but there's no one to. talk about it to positively??? #I also want to rewatch the show. It would actually just solve this problem but #I am low-key scared??? I don't think this would be a right time to do it because I am just really confused about this whole issue and it #Will definitely reflect in forming my own opinions and I don't want that #like at this point I just want to discuss about the finale with people who also didn't feel it was too off or ooc or something #And just tried to intrepret it in good faith #Again I don't really care about people disliking it obviously #It's just that*I* wish I could find more people who liked it #(sorry for the weird phrasing in this whole post I am trying to express what I feel but idk how to do it exactly) #Also I used the slashes because I don't want this to turn up on search sorry

[monty-glasses-roxy]

And before anyone ever starts to worry I'll see them in my notes and get annoyed or anything, that's literally impossible. I love seeing people's tags on my posts and spam likers going through everything. Especially on older posts like the Monopoly and Uno ones I just reblogged! It reminds me of what I've done and sometimes I'll look at the post again and reread it. It's real nice doing that sometimes and other times it springboards me into a new train of thought based on that and how I can fit those little scenarios into new ones.

So yeah, don't ever worry about being in my notes. I genuinely love to see people in there!

#and if you do it enough I'll start to recognise your icon and be like 'hey!! they liked this one too!! nice!!' #fandom is a community and this is what being in a community is about to me #just ya know #existing with each other! #I sometimes even think of something cool and DECIDE to make a post on it because I think someone I've been seeing around will like it too #even if they don't ever see it the intention is there on my end as I'm sure it is for other people that do it #love to see people in those notes and it's sad I keep seeing people talk about how they get nervous over this stuff #like no!!! #join the community!!! #there's no real algorithm here so you can like things freely without changing anything!!! #reblogging is the algorithm here too and saying things in the comments is like the cherry on top!!! #let us share our blorbo thoughts together!!! this is the 'go insane over your favourite things' website!!! #I see all the regular note givers and I'm happy to see all of you every time #we're all in this blorbo boat together!! might as well spread the notes to let each other know about it right?? #anyway yeah my meds have been increased and I'm a bit more prone to rambling so I'll stop now. #just wanted to make a little post for the newcommers I've been seeing and for those that might worry about these things #you're all always welcome in my notes at all times for whatever reason and no one can keep me out of their notes unless they block me lmao #I give as I like to see ya know? #when I can focus on going through all the reblog stuff that will be TRIPLE true!!! #anyway yes. stopping now. I'll find something else to go off about now #c'ya!

[buckttommy]

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#So when I was a middle schooler #there was this guy at my church that I imprinted on. #He was 17 and I thought he was so cool. Too cool to be my friend. #And I was so awkward and shy around teenagers. They made me nervous because I always felt like they didn't like me #but he was so sweet and he treated me like a human being and he looked at me so attentively when we spoke #and I was so attached to him. #Was absolutely gutted when he went to college and absolutely thrilled whenever he came back #and the feeling was mutual. We were proper friends (or at least as close as you can get with two completely different social circles and a #four year age gap) #But he liked me enough that my mom knew was aware of it. #Anyways fast forward to tonight. I'm scrolling through Facebook looking up all these people that I used to know #(profoundly bad idea. Do not recommend) #and decided to look him up. #And guess who (I'm 99% sure) turned out to be queer af? lol. Yeah. #I guess this post is less about him and more about the fact that lately I've been thinking about my upbringing and how many people #I spent time around - got close to - who ended up being queer. And it's like. I really have been surrounded by queerness my entire life. #It's not anything I was looking for but. Geeze. We really do find each other huh. Even when we don't know we're finding each other. #It's crazy to me #Anyways. I'm going to word vomit the rest of this into my journal but I just needed to get this out.

[mrmustachious]

Ooh 8? Rambling time 😄💕

This one seems to be popular because I've got it a few times 😅 but I shall answer them individually!

Firstly I'm gonna talk about my experience in the fandom.

I have been on the tumblr side of this fandom since 2015, and I've seen everyone come and go and all the dramas and things that have happened, but I have never felt as supported or included as I do now.

Partially because I'm shy and at times have been too scared to get involved, but I've always felt like I've been on the sidelines. Even when I tried I found it hard to make friends, and the friends I did make have moved on. It felt like no one knew I was here despite being here as long as others.

But now I have some really close friends and finally feel like I'm apart of the fandom. I feel like when I say something people actually listen, and I'm getting closer to people everyday. This really is a great fandom, and I really hope that soon we get another thuderbirds reboot so it can get bigger and better 💕

#actually so nervous to hit post I don't really talk about myself much #but i've been thinking about this lately #and this year i hope to be more confident and make even more friends #<3<3<3 #sorry for getting so sappy bri lmao #thunderbirds are go #thunderbirds #thunderfam

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[darlingkisses01]

shoutout to when i initially started this blog over a year ago and posted random shit similar to how i post on my twitter priv. and then after a while i just sorta gave up and stopped doing that

#darling says #idk i just get kinda nervous about leaving anything resembling a personal post out in the air #i get paranoid that someday i might get targeted by some rando for no real reason #i've already gotten harassed once and anons being super weird in my askbox a few times #sigh. maybe i wouldn't be so nervous if i obscured my identity a little more #i've been meaning to redo my pinned post. i've been so busy though

[nevert-the-guy]

It's been three days since the wifi went out over here and it finally came back earlier today, I was so happy I just HAD to draw and post one of my OCs for onc-

...twice. For twice.

How many people are even gonna see this? Hello everyone who sees this!

#my art #oc #original character #do i tag her name yet? #i mean i did it last time with pablo #(for the record she and pablo are from two separate things) #but pablo isn't as common a name as jolyne #i already said it so... #jolyne #just to be able to get my first public drawing of her #i've drawn her a couple times digitally already #and plenty more physically #robot girl #<- should i have mentioned that before #i feel like the image description was a bit bloated already #i don't think it needed something you weren't guaranteed to get from the picture #if anyone who finds this post wants to ask me about her #feel free to do so #she and so many others have been boiling in my mind for so long #i'm almost nervous that i'll be able to give details #how spoilery should i get when it comes to like story details? #cause i do wanna put her in a webcomic #and boy she has a lot of important spoilery stuff #in fact it sucks because i wanna share about her specifically so much #but she has to come in at like the middle of the story at the very least #unless i HEAVILY restructure how I wanna tell the beginning of it #too many tangents again #TL;DR ask about my OCs if you want #i may even indulge you with another drawing #but don't expect a quick response

[focafurineuvi]

fighting so hard to be normal since getting the job rejection (can you believe i was pmsing when that happened. how am i alive) while in a depressive episode and it's hard but something's happening today i think. i did dishes and swept and might draw

#post: saffron #art's been one of the hardest things during all this #i've been drawing active alters which i think is easier to get into. feels more personal and fun #idk if i want to post system art here or not... there's a part of me that wants to share and a part of me that's nervous about. idk #i would have reblogs off anyways....idk #d.txt

[phantom-does-a-thing]

maybe its just imposter syndrome or whatever but I'm looking at my ao3 and im just. not feelin good about my writing rn.

#vent in the tags #it feels like I put myself on too high of a pedestal #and Ive been struggling with my writing lately. and #It feels like I can't live up to that pedestal #and I dont know what happened but now its so hard to write. its so difficult #and it just. idk. I don't know how I have this much writing #and ive built myself so high up with such high standards #I want to be able to get more fics out. to write more often. to post more often again #its so difficult and nothing is living up to my standards #I look at the last time I posted a fic and it just seems so long ago #god I dont even know what im feeling #it hurts. I dont want to look at my ao3. I don't want to touch any of this #I dont deserve any of the hype I don't really deserve the fact that im a slightly well known name #ive been working on a fic and it just feels so slow. like I cant get the words out #and it scares me and I get nervous and I think what if I've lost the ability #and im just so tired. and im so upset. and it hurts a lot to think about and I just #I dont understand any of this. #I wanted to type it out to maybe help myself understand whats going on #but I dont even know how to describe it I just feel awful #sorry idk ignore me im just being dramatic again or whatever #rambling #phever dreams with phantom