#I dont understand any of this.

[phantom-does-a-thing]

maybe its just imposter syndrome or whatever but I'm looking at my ao3 and im just. not feelin good about my writing rn.

#vent in the tags #it feels like I put myself on too high of a pedestal #and Ive been struggling with my writing lately. and #It feels like I can't live up to that pedestal #and I dont know what happened but now its so hard to write. its so difficult #and it just. idk. I don't know how I have this much writing #and ive built myself so high up with such high standards #I want to be able to get more fics out. to write more often. to post more often again #its so difficult and nothing is living up to my standards #I look at the last time I posted a fic and it just seems so long ago #god I dont even know what im feeling #it hurts. I dont want to look at my ao3. I don't want to touch any of this #I dont deserve any of the hype I don't really deserve the fact that im a slightly well known name #ive been working on a fic and it just feels so slow. like I cant get the words out #and it scares me and I get nervous and I think what if I've lost the ability #and im just so tired. and im so upset. and it hurts a lot to think about and I just #I dont understand any of this. #I wanted to type it out to maybe help myself understand whats going on #but I dont even know how to describe it I just feel awful #sorry idk ignore me im just being dramatic again or whatever #rambling #phever dreams with phantom

[biruesque]

again and again and again and again

#signalis #elster #ariane yeong #arielster #lilith itou #alina seo #lstr 512 #biruesque art #you guys cannot posibly understand what i Went thru drawing this #i dont even have any way to explain it #i just hope this picture conveys an intense enough emotion that u Get it

[ruporas]

green haired guy that has haunted my character types for 10+ years

#roronoa zoro #one piece #opfanart #ive spent a good 2/3 of my artist life trying to draw him in a way i like.... i'm inching to it slowly bit by bit as i improve #which is truly One of my greatest joys as an artist - learning to draw better so i can draw my faves better #zoro is genuinely my favorite fictional character everrrrrrr... i think.... i love him so much but i have long since ran out of words to #Describe why. and i dont think any other character has come close tbh -- EXCEPT FOR WOLFWOOD!!!!! god. WW!!!!!!!! #which is crazy. but ww is very special. very dear. zoro and ww are very different... someone more similar to ww would be sanji and robin #but there's also smth about them that are so Similar. i sound like an insane person in these tags and clearly im bias BUT I SWEAR!!! #it might just be the loyalty aspect - incredibly strong traits in both of them.... also nightow drew wolfwood in a haramaki once...... #connecting the most minor dots over nothing - but any ww + zoro lovers out there - maybe u understand what i mean.

[lee-quiche]

Sleep at Boatem! 💤🌕

#hermitcraft #hermitcraft fanart #mumbo jumbo fanart #grian fanart #goodtimeswithscar fanart #pearlescentmoon fanart #impulsesv fanart #mcyt fanart #theyre too silly i miss them so much you dont understand #yes this is a reference to that bedtime outfit meme #honestly any eepy outfit could fit them #so uh mumbo is wearing sahara #g with poultry man #scar with jellie:3 #pearl with moon! #impulse with i zzzzzzzzzzzzz goodnight

[vacant2007]

#it feels like im trying to love you with half a brain #i dont understand any of this i wasnt made for any of this #im shit and ill never deserve it #tw traumacore #traumacore #ventcore #vent tw #vent edit #tc #traumacore edit #ventart #vent art #actuallytraumatized #my stuff #cw traumacore #cw vent

[ahaura]

im sure its been said already but as the election draws near more and more liberals will come out of the woodwork to shame people with a conscience to give away their vote to the democrats for free. i'm already seeing posts saying "why aren't people more concerned about a trump presidency?" you want to know why? it's because people already know he's bad. everyone already knows what he is and what he's done and what he'll do. there's nothing to discuss. he's a racist despotic worm of a man. there's nothing else to say.

biden is currently president. the genocide is happening under his watch. he's the one funding isra*l and arming them; he's sidestepped congress more than once to give them weapons. by oct. 27, the biden administration already knew that "Israel was regularly bombing buildings without solid intelligence that they were legitimate military targets." the state department/biden have engaged in atrocity propaganda, cast doubt on the legitimacy of the death toll recorded by the gaza health ministry, and so on. the united states is currently in the process of trying to pin the "war in gaza" on netanyahu (see sen. schumer's speech) after months of backing blatant genocide as a means to act as if they're "doing something" about the genocide (Instead of, say, threatening to cut off all aid to israel with the condition that all hostilities in gaza, the west bank, and occupied jerusalem are halted immediately and permanently, allowing palestinians freedom to travel, allowing aid into gaza, etc etc etc.)

the long and short of it is that liberals view their own lives as being worth more than palestinians'. that's it. they'll vote for another 4 years of the guy ushering in genocide and supporting apartheid + settler colonialism because he isn't outright attacking them (despite various laws and rulings happening both at the supreme court level and at the local level all over the country that will endanger people). they'll settle for the illusion of safety and security and shame anyone with a conscience and accuse them of "supporting the republicans" when in an actual democracy you would be able to use your vote as leverage to extract concessions from those who want to be elected. that's how it's supposed to fucking work.

democrats are not owed people's vote. if biden loses, it will be biden's fault; it will be his campaign's fault; it will be the democrats' fault. trump is bad; the republicans are bad. we already know this. this is not an endorsement of either. but if democrats are too cowardly and feckless and servile to the motivations of the american empire and never do anything for their constituents then why the fuck should anyone vote for them. you want to get mad at someone, why don't you do something useful and stop worrying about team-sports with a purely selfish basis and start hounding the people in power who are supposed to serve you, the voter.

#i think i already said this and frankly idc #uspol #📁.zip #to me personally it's abhorrent and vile to tell palestinians 'biden is facilitating the murder of your people culture and history but you #still have to vote for him!!1' like how is that not unbelievably callous and ghoulish #frankly speaking. a lot of this 'you should be concerned about trump' is going to turn into #blaming palestinians and arabs and muslims and anyone remotely with a conscience for biden's loss #instead of doing something productive like pushing for people in power to do something they'll nitpick and belittle #and tell palestinians + arabs and muslims + everyone who understands that genocide is bad that they SHOULD #settle for a decrepit genocidal monstrous freak who is CURRENTLY facilitating genocide because #it makes THEM feel better and they aren't personally threatened (yet) by the guy currently in power #any and all 'you're not taking trump seriously' comments should be met with extreme skepticism #because i promise i PROMISE that the vast majority of people unhappy with biden are not going to turn around and vote for trump #and if they do? well guess what THAT'S BIDEN'S FAULT! nevermind the vote uncommitted campaign that was very successful and #will be replicated in the near future. but liberals only care about asthetics and superficial and not #about real material change which is why they'll dress up their callousness and racism in a 'you hate gay people if you dont vote for biden' #like this country is already going to shit we are rapidly descending into fascism and i dont see biden doing anything to even remotely #challenge it do you???? once agian. NOT an endorsement of the republican party but my GOD when the 'lesser evil' #is DOING the evil or normalizing the evil then you cannot settle for 'the lesser'! end of story.

[cadaverkeys]

Idk why people think it's funny to buy shit from shien or temu or whatever slavery-corp is popular at the time just to video themselves laughing at the quality of the products. It's badly made because it's unrelentingly shoved through a production line for a few pennies each garment- this isn't fucking "content" and honestly these rich influencers should feel ashamed to openly admit that they're buying from companies that force their workers into slavery conditions.

#i understand some people dont know any better / some people feel that they have no other option for clothing themselves #and theres no ethical consumption under capitalism etc etc etc #but theres no point where you should think its cute or quirky to buy products from slavery production lines #and i dont think that should be controversial #i understand that most fast fashion brands use the same outsourcing of labor as shien #honestly theyre shit too #but theres hardly as many zara hauls as shien ones #rambles #i just saw this girl on tiktok laughing about these stupid novelty rings shes bought from shien #and it's like. why would you even admit to this. -_- #and the comments r just laughing along as if theyre not casually admitting to buying from slavery companies

[hayaku14]

PRESENTING MY BIGGEST DELULU CLOWN THEORY OF ALL TIME: THIS IS SHINICHI IN DISGUISE 🤡

#kaishin #guys you dont understand #okay maybe hakuba stans might #LOL #but i havent seen my actual boy real not clickbait not disguise kudou shinichi #IM DESPERATE FOR ANY CRUMB I WILL TAKE ANY POSSIBILITY AND TWIST IT INTO MY CLOWNERY #shinichi bby i miss u come home ;-; #(conan looking at me at the side like: bitch im literally right here) #dc prattles #also not me deluluing this just cause i want kaishin im sorry 😔 #that's just my default you cant fix it sadly

[daily-uquiz]

*crying*

#uquiz #the iliad #the odyssey #this is super good pls do it #i just dont have any better tags #also watch troy: fall of a city #its the best of the inevitably bad adaptations #i could go on about the importance of the Iliad to modern understanding of history anthropology and historiography for ages #but i wont do that to yall so in the meantime ship patrochilles #and remember that achilles is a bottom #but most importantly helen didnt deserve this shit

[fanaticalthings]

I think the reason why I like Battinson so much is because I feel like this version of Bruce is the most likely to cry when it comes to like, anything, but especially his kids.

I always make jokes about how all it takes is for one mean comment from his kids for Bruce to start absolutely bawling, but I actually could see this happening with Battinson, but instead of crying when his kids bully him, he just cries when they do, well, anything.

Like this man looks like he's about to cry 24/7, so imagine him with 6 hyperactive, intelligent, sassy and adorable children?? He would not survive, they'd tear him apart, but especially with overwhelming love lmao

Everytime he signs adoption papers, he cries. Doesn't matter if he's done it a million times.

His kids want him to read them a bedtime story? He's holding back tears.

Kids want a hug? Totally not crying haha.

Seeing any of his kids with various accomplishments? Tears of pride, no matter how many achievements they reach.

Kid gently implies they'd like to be left alone? Bruce is immediately all "oh no they hate me I did something wrong what did i do do i apologize should i tell them i love them am i a bad parent-" He def has separation anxiety with all of his kids.

Basically anytime any of them call him "dad"? He's hiding in his study to cry out all the overflowing affection within him.

Like I genuinely feel like this Bruce would be the most emotionally vulnerable with his kids. Like he'd be SO soft with them. I bet he's always happy to do little things for/with them, like brushing their hair, eating breakfast with them, watching TV, playing with Legos, etc.

I could see him being the most attentive father, always being cautious and trying to make sure he's doing everything right as a parent. I need to see him cuddle his kids.

DC needs to let Battinson have a Robin because I know that man would drop anything for his children.

and dont get me started on how absolutely devastated this Bruce would be if one of his kids got hurt (and imagine how anguished he becomes after Jason's death)

#i can see this bruce being a very clueless but loving father. let him be softly paternal with any kid he interacts with #i think dc needs to give us a Batman who cries fr #emotionally vulnerable bruce wayne when hes with his family is my shit #the first time he tries to carry one of his kids and realizes theyre too big he starts crying on the spot #ik its been a while since the batman came out ok but i love battinson so much you dont understand #hes a disaster of a man but he tries his best to give his children the childhood he never got #batman #bruce wayne #batfamily #batfam #batdad #the batman #battinson #dc comics #incorrect quotes #dick grayson #jason todd #tim drake #damian wayne #batkids #fanatical posting

[mxfrodo]

y'all for fucking real. don't fucking write slave fics or x reader fics of aventurine's slavery??? are you guys out of your goddamn minds???

#i swear half of you don't fucking think. #what makes you think it's okay or “angsty” to write fics about suffering like that #especially without nuance?? or any understanding of the ramifications #its one thing to write about it being integrated into his past #but it's another thing to write it as an *in the moment* thing #especially if you're writing it to portray him being bought again -- who gives a shit if the reader “saves” him or “treats him nicely” #that's still a perpetuation of the cycle of abuses #like it's still already brain dead of hoyoverse to write about the suffering of POC by using a fair skinned blonde man #but come on #i thought we were better than this?? #like yeahh #dont get me wrong - i love aventurine and his development. the writing is amazing despite how bad form using very white features #to portray a real race of color and it's suffering (the romani) #but you guys. come the fuck on #hsr aventurine #aventurine honkai star rail #aventurine x reader #honkai star rail #hsr #hsr x reader #i know it's “NOT THAT SEROUS” because it's a fictional game but im still putting tags for racism and slavery bro. wtf y'all #tw racism #tw slavery #random talk

[rudeboimonster]

~help your local rat get stable housing~

edit post nov 2023: I GOT THE HELP I NEEDED THANK YOU SOSOOSO MUCH

dramatically sprawled out on the floor

so i gotta move for the third time in that many years. unfortunately between health problems and the General State of The Economy, I have been unable to find work to be able to save any money. i have no choice but to leave the entire state. i thankfully have somewhere to go, however I need help getting there. i've been trying to do the math to get what I need to its lowest amount possible, but even that is still at least $2.5k.

after this move, i should be able to get things more stable and I might even have a couple job prospects lined up in that area, but right now I'm really scraping the bottom of the barrel funds wise and desperately need help.

if you're able to spare anything, i've set up a goal through kofi so i can track it publicly. i have trouble asking for help but i really need what help i can get. thank you, so so so much.

#mutual aid #fundraiser #help #god i dont know what to tag this im just kinda ripping off the bandage bc ive been anxious about posting about this since i got asked to #leave. head in hands. please help by spreading the word if you cant spare any cash i completely understand. #i dont know what i can offer. my ability to do art has been really really low and with my sleeping/living arrangements my wrists shoulders #back have been in fucking wretches states so its hard for me to do much #if youre wonder about the other fundraiser i did a few years ago #the person i replaced in a renting situation ended up fucking me over and got basically evicted into the 2nd week of college and i had 3 da #to leave that situation or more people wouldve gotten fucked over. and ive been basically couch surfing since trying to find work #anyways i havent slept in a bed for more than a weekend since october 2021 my back is turbo fucked please help

[piningprecussionist]

Weed smoking girlfriends! But they can just be hanging out if you prefer ¯\_(ツ)_/¯ Happy 4/20!

#if i work on this any more you will never see it before the day's out #and if i dont post this today I'll be PISSED. cause i did NOT finish that fic and idk that I Can before the day is out 😔 #anyway enough your transfem scott treat everyone im going to go smoke weed and make ravioli now #sp comic #spvtw #spto #fanart #kim pine #ramona flowers #scott pilgrim #ship stuff #sckimona #scott pilgrim fanart #spto fanart #scott pilgrim kim #scott pilgrim ramona #scott pilgrim scott #transfem scott pilgrim #kimona #sckim #scottmona #this almost had... such a caption. idk. nonsense. #this image does have alternate versions. and i am in fact going to make another version after posting this w my personal tweaks for pilgrim #(dyed red ends. i meant to add them before posting but i Forgot and if i make my roommate wait any longer for food he's probably going to + #+ start whining 🙄) (idc really im just being dramatic or silly. ect. you understand i hope) #scott pilgrim comic #almost forgot that. probably forgetting other things! but as you might guess. i am high! so idc

[thedevilandhisbride]

very violent in your face reminder that you should NOT grab someones wheelchair and start wheeling them out of the way or to another area without their permission i went on a fieldtrip yesterday to a university and while my friend who was wheeling me around the entire time stepped off to the side to do something, my teacher unexpectedly came up behind me and started to wheel me over to another area when i was in the middle of doing something. she did not warn me or even bother to tell me that she was going to start moving me. this is only because i am in a wheelchair. it scared me and it was not okay at all. its the same thing as taking someone forcefully by the shoulders and moving them somewhere else when their friend who was walking with them stepped off to the side for a moment and they were waiting for them. you dont do that because its rude, weird, and disrespectful towards them- so why would you do that to me, or any other wheelchair user?

#ableism #disability #disabled #actuallydisabled #wheelchair user #mobility aid #can abled people be any less respectful? like seriously #dont grab my wheelchair if i dont know you #dont grab my wheelchair if i dont give you permission #dont stick things on my wheelchair without permission #dont move me in my wheelchair without permission!!! #its not that hard to understand! why is this so hard for abled people to understand?? #its not that hard to ask for permission #yet abled people dont ask for permission to move me yet i have to constantly ask them to move so i dont either run over them or their #things and they dont move at all when they KNOW i need to get through #you move me when im in your way instead of asking yet you dont move for me when i need to get through and cant squeeze by?? #make it make sense please

[medilies]

For yet another round of Is It Canon or a Fandom Wide Headcanon, I present to you Will Byers hating/not being very good at math

I often see this in fics, does anyone know if this is mentioned in the show?... or is it just ppl's hatred for math showing?

#byler #but its always will specifically #maybe cause hes an art kid and some arty ppl dont like maths? #i understand dustin is like. THE science guy so he's kinda gotta like maths #and mike has his 'see? physics' line in s3 when they use levers to right the car #lucas?? i dont think he has any particular association with math/science #will byers

[animentality]

I know everyone wants stories with happy endings, and they all hate when the main characters die, and insist well what's the point of the story then, it didn't matter at all! they died!

but.

I don't know. do the stories of those who die at the end not matter at all?

because if that's the case, I have news about the stories told by everyone who has ever lived in this world.

we all die at the end. we are all doomed by the narrative.

but our stories still matter.

#writing #writers on tumblr #writerscommunity #listen it can be done well it can be done poorly #but i dont get this hatred of characters dying at the end and everyone not getting their happy ending #its not about realism #its about what the author is trying to say #some characters die because they need to die #because it fulfills their character arc it enhances it #it makes a difference #and there is catharsis in understanding that sometimes people die for a good cause for a glorious purpose #we all die #isnt there relief in seeing a story where our special friends die but it mattered in the end and death was something meaningful #if it was embraced with dignity #am i making any sense #i just know my own death wont matter #i like following stories where the mc dies but #it meant something the way mine will not #and the vast majority of people do not die for a good cause or with purpose #and those who do are heroes in our reality #but why are they so reviled in fiction #let your characters deaths mean something