#I've got random energy

[the-starry-raven]

@bringinsexybackk69

Ma

Ma

Ma

I'm good boi :D

I could've sent this in an ask but I didn't wanna-

@forestshadow-wolf said I'm Alex, do you agree? 🎤

#I've got random energy #the question still stands #am i a good boi and get headpats?

[hxlcyon]

𝘾 𝙊 𝙈 𝙀 𝙊 𝙉

#vivinos #alien stage #round 2 spoilers #Till #im sOO EXCITED FOR HIMB HE WAS MY FAVORITE OFF THE BAT #i simply think that he will not win but will go out with a bang and that's alright by me #rip to the random ass brown haired guy who didn't even get a chance #fr all he did was go OOOOUGGHH and then died #i've got an awful soft spot for rock singers pining #so i *do* also kind of hope that till wins but #to me it seems like pink hair is gonna win instead sort of main protagonist energy #although.. the alien stage cover does have the black haired cat guy as its cover #wonder if that's supposed to have any relation to anything or prediction

[yuseirra]

if there's one thing I personally focus on when I draw something, it would be the emotions. I try to convey the exact emotions of a character when I make art, and portray how they'd be feeling at that exact situation, as they say something, and so on...

I try to feel the same feelings they would when I draw an expression, as close as I can get at least, it's what I do over and over. You don't really have to do that ofc, but for me, it's a huge part of the point and it's really fun to do! It's what I believe could give my drawings more life and make them more genuine, even if it's a sketch (in fact, sometimes sketches can be more powerful on that aspect so I used to stick to drawing exclusively those for a very long time). That's how I pour my heart in, and I'm sure a lot of artists would do the same in their own ways when they create their works.

For that same reason, I really like drawing smiles (and characters that can make genuine ones) because that makes me happy. Other feelings are cool, too, but drawing happy art is so soothing, so I draw a lot of smiles!! It's also why I feel the need to understand a character, because you can't exactly feel what they'd be feeling unless you aren't so aware of what they're going through. I wouldn't be entirely right, I'm sure, but I really want to try. It's maybe why I usually stick to drawing a select few characters from a series all the time, because there are some characters I "get" better than others, and feel I can bring out better(and most of the time, luckily, those kinds of characters end up to be my favs, so I can draw then alot ;v;) Then again, I'm seeing them through my own lens of thinking, I'm just putting out what I see in those characters in the end. But it's usually the good things I love! Or something I feel is really intriguing and want to think about, or want to explore on, emphasize? Anyhow, it's the feelings and emotions part I've always been interested about! So I hope I can do that well!

My drawings aren't perfect, but they aren't too bad either, and I've been trying all the way. If they could imbue some sort of feeling for you, that's definitely what I wanted to accomplish! It makes me so excited when I get feedbacks about it being able to make someone "feel" something.. it means what I wanted got across so I'm like "yes"!!

it'd be nice if they will feel genuine one way or another!! I was and is and will be happy to continue to share my works with you all

#random blabbering #hehe #I recently got really nice tags and I #I kind of want to go and thank ppl individually for that but I was out of energy... I missed the timing.. #drawing makes me think about feelings #characters too #so I really like seeing characters that can make big genuine smiles from the heart #ofc I love other types of characters too #but sometimes you just need to think about that kind of feeling and it exists #and I love characters that are literal saints right.. those kind of characters have always been my favs #they are very inspiring and thinking-not just thinking but trying to feel how they would be feeling..is really good for the soul I think #I wish I could be strong like them and genuinely feel like that #(you could a little as you draw #being immersed is very nice #and I hope what I draw could be that way for someone #here I am writing at midnight..I don't know if what I'm writing's making good sense but wish you all the best #thank you for seeing my drawings together with me!! #I CAN draw some self-indulgent stuff that'd not exactly cater to be educational or inspiring yeah but #I probably won't mean bad. I want to have fun~which I've been!! for so long

[sysig]

Ohh I would love to request a redraw of one of your strangels sketches ♥♥♥ if it's not too much trouble hehe, thanks!

Day 19 - The privilege ✨

#Requestober #Vargas #Edgar #Scriabin #Depending on your time zone it still might not be tomorrow yet! It's tomorrow for me tho #I just had no energy today lol I could not get my brain to focus on drawing at all #All that fun data - here's more! #Anyway lol #This happens to be the first redraw-request! Nice #Also for the record Brusk did specify this drawing behind the scenes lol I didn't just pick a random one #Lots of Scriabin resting his head in Edgar's lap around these parts #This was actually a way more challenging redraw than the ones I've done in the past :0 #Since it's only been a few months - considerably less than half a year even! - my style hasn't developed much in the meantime #You'd think that would make it relatively easy to translate from paper to digital but no actually lol #Not me thriving on novelty and recent art is too familiar lol #It's good to know though ♪ #And I'm still rather proud of the original so I was half like ''What can I improve here'' - I did improve some stuff! So that's neat #Plus I got to do weird stuff like with Edgar's halo and Scriabin's horn and tail! Neat #And kind of finally drew his wings digitally! Ah! #Still definitely want to return to that when I have time to dedicate to them properly haha

[running-in-the-dark]

it's been a month since we moved into the new apartment -

I'm so stressed. everything is stressful. we're still not done building the kitchen but it's getting there (slowly). mostly we just need to wait until we get a couple parts that weren't in stock when we ordered the rest. I'm hoping it'll be done by next weekend.

some of it is very frustrating with my brain specifically. I'm so bothered by all the tiny little things that no one else would even notice - like, some of the handles on the drawers are very slightly crooked (as in, less than a millimeter higher on one side) - but for me it's so obvious that it's impossible to ignore. my husband didn't even know what I meant when I pointed it out to him. there's also been a few slightly bigger issues, but we've solved them now (I think).

my eye has been twitching for like three to four weeks. not all the time obviously, but every few minutes. it's very, very annoying.

we still have no new info about when we'll have internet finally. it could take a while still.

on Monday a guy has to replace something in the electric roller shutters in one room - but we don't know which one yet. so either I'll have to let him into my room (awful, uncomfortable, will have to tidy up tomorrow so he could even get to the window), or I'll have to get both our cats into their carrier if it's the one in my husband's room (awful, difficult, one of them doesn't like that so he'll be scared and I'll feel bad).

also on Monday the electrician will install our stove (if he has time). then we're getting two ikea deliveries. and I've got an appointment with my (new) GP because I need a prescription, and I'm very (verrry) nervous about it.

I miss watching TV. I miss tumblr and YouTube and messaging my friends whenever I want and sending them photos all the time. I miss order and structure and (some level of) routine. I miss using real cutlery (we still haven't found ours lol).

when I was finally starting to get used to the noises in this place, the family above us moved in with their baby that cries all the time very very loudly and most of the time right above my room. so now everything is different again and I'm not adjusting well and once again I can't sleep.

but, I've listened to 14 audiobooks since we moved! that's been nice. it was the same way when we moved the last time (just over a year ago..). my favourite by far was The Thursday Murder Club. I've got the other ones in the series but I'm trying not to listen to them too quickly, so I'm gonna listen to three other books first (one is done already, so I should get there on Monday or Tuesday hopefully).

#long rambly post sorry #I miss talking about the random uninteresting shit that happens in my life on here all the time #I've got data on my phone again now at least so that's good. but the phone signal is still awful indoors so it's not that useful #but anyway.... logically I know I'm doing an okay job with unpacking and everything but it doesn't feel like it #also I'm probably gonna have to try to find at least a part time job pretty soon and I'm really really really scared. terrified. #not just of trying to find something and interviews and all that #but that I won't be able to handle it. physically and mentally. again. #I've only had one full time job (an apprenticeship actually) and I lasted 3 months. #and at my part time job I only lasted a month #like. I can barely get anything done in a day as it is. I have so little energy. everything is so fucking hard and exhausting #I truly don't understand how everyone does it. I don't understand how it's possible. #but if I don't find something we won't have money for food next month sooooo it is sort of kind of important #it sucks so fucking much. I can't stand or walk for long periods of time. can't do too much with my hands. I'm not good at dealing with #people/customers. I panic and can't think when I get nervous (which is most of the time). I can't remember shit. #so like. what job am I supposed to do??? everything hurts all the time already and I'm always tired and I'm barely keeping it together #fuuuuck this #😭 #personal

[risingsunresistance]

"yeah i just havent been drawing as much, art block burn out etc haha" well i have been drawing, all my drawings look like this tho

#he was just a doodle BUT HE LOOKS SO SILLY IN THE PREVIEW I HAD TO SHARE JFHGJHG #based on a dog i saw sniffing the camera. reminded me of him <3 #awa #i've made a handful of better sketches #but two of them are for an old ''mermaid au'' if you could call it that. i got a random burst of energy for it in august for some reason #and one is scarf but i wanted to draw the professor in it too and i havent bothered yet #so that one just isnt finished :P

[thethingything]

looking at the clock like "ah it's 11:05pm. time to spend the next 2 hours carefully trying to make sure our brain doesn't flip its shit" because for some ungodly reason 11pm to 1am is still the time of night where we inexplicably feel like shit

#personal #thoughts #🍬 post #vent post #it's been... a weird day to say the least #I've had multiple panic attacks and ended up sobbing in the kitchen because our brain will not stop bringing up the dental stuff #and then there was the 2 hour long call with our nanan which we told our mum about when she got home #and she was like ''oh my god I'm so sorry that happened what the fuck. you should not have had to deal with that holy shit'' #admittedly while telling our mum about what happened during the conversation we ended up laughing so hard we couldn't stop coughing #but it was that thing where you've just gotten out of something that was stressful but also so bizarre you can't help but laugh #we're also still pretty dissociated and out of it and we feel so incredibly weird and keep getting upset randomly #so it's just been a very weird day #I think we're gonna spend the rest of the night just doodling stuff and listening to whatever podcasts 🦋 decides to put on #maybe we'll play video games but that depends on both our energy levels and how close our brain is to flipping its shit over random stuff

[goodbyeapathy8]

Was talking to a friend about how a fictional golden retriever character is an absolute delight while both actual golden retrievers (the dog) and golden retriever people (the personality) are nightmares.

Probably because I'm a black cat.

That is all.

#random thoughts #i've got one braincell #And my friends share it with me sometimes #phoenix personal post #Golden retriever #Golden retriever energy #I do not need a golden retriever to my black cat self #No thank you

[keii]

Goro x Jowa x Goro x Jowa

#i have so much art i didn't upload especially of my oc pair i have w sushi LOL #look at this annoying mfs... i love them... #u can see that i've been experimenting w my chibi/cartoon style #tbh besides uploading random art #i do miss just going on about ocs and shit #or actually just dumb comics LOOL maybe when i got the energy #but i do want to upload more consistently on here but i say that but watch it be several months HAHA #joro #jowa #goro #killamonart #killaocs #goro belongs to sushi

[actuallylorelaigilmore]

i feel like life right now is me trying to juggle approximately 127 different things, and none of them are life-or-death but they’re all equally important to me, so those 127 things are like simultaneous balls in the air that i am holding up while the adderall shortage makes it harder to remember what they are let alone keep from dropping them, and at this point even my to-do lists have lists which got so out of control that i stopped even keeping lists but also i’m so tired every day that i’m lucky if i get a single thing done and if i don’t set alarms then i depression-sleep for fourteen hours because oh yeah my adderall was also the only thing that helped my bipolar meds work all the way so i’m crying and thinking about everything that makes me sad 24/7 while i try to keep juggling

#...so if i owe you a reply that would be why #also i need to review the enola holmes sequel and write a huge disenchanted rant (watched that one last night) #but i don't know when i'll have the energy #today at least i did get some things done--returned stuff to a store and got my flu shot and covid booster #...i was actually out to return things and get my adderall but at least those vaccinations were also on my general to-do list #it's just a lot less stuff than i NEED to be doing #and so much of it comes down to the fact that i sleep a lot i wake up i feel so tired it's like i didn't sleep #and then i just spend the whole day waiting to go back to bed #and under those conditions it's really hard to accomplish anything else #but i genuinely can't tell how much of my exhaustion is depression-based #and how much is physical because i've felt under the weather and had weird symptoms in one way or another since the summer #and at this point it's like...my doctor brushed me off when i tried to get help in the summer so i waited like she advised #for things to improve on their own #and they haven't but i'm so tired physically and emotionally and psychologically that i can't say i have any more self-advocacy fight in me #like it's obviously bad that the alternative is me continuing to feel like i'm maybe slowly wasting away and just letting it happen #but depression makes it pretty hard to care #randomness #mental health #depression #bipolar disorder #adhd #life stuff #health #/tag abuse

[theold-ultraviolence]

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#it's like for every nice and fancy article of clothing I get myself #I feel like I have to buy horror and band t-shirts next to compensate #that's just my brain #somedays I want to look like a fancy artist working in a museum #the others I want to look like I'm gonna go to to a metal concert with Eddie Munson #let us not forget my third option #looking like a goth witch #you know who encompasses these three? JAMIE CAMPBELL BOWER #I wanna dive into his warddrobe #I'm gonna steal his looks #and his energy #he is absolute style goals #anyway #al of these random thoughts just because I'm about to spend money on band tees because I'm bored #and last night I was looking to buy this really beautiful blazer I've been eyeing for a while now #still got another nice blouse but I wanted the blazer and I'm like NO I can't keep spending money like this #and yet here I am

[ollovae3]

It's 2am and I've got the ambition of a creature who thinks Summer lasts a year bUT-

Would anyone be interested if I made a lil original/kinda fic writing blog? I've got some tidbits from school I still love, and I'm wanting to get back into creative writing again before school consumes all my art time (so hyped to go but also panicked cause I gotta get housing and I Have Never Left Home 💀)

Mainly thinking about bits about OCs (LOTR or Dragon Age probably, because of the new show/game out soon) but also I'm a lil obsessed w Fae and the Ljósalfar, and also a v sad lil romantic starved of decent content and wanna try my hand at making some stuff, even if they're short or just world-build-y?

While ik it likely isn't a super popular concept, since writing blogs don't get much attention and I'm usually an artist, but it'd be nice to show off whatever I manage to make to anyone interested!!

#im so mad @ myself that i didnt do X/Y/Z when i had energy- #Choose Your Own #story ideas #idea #personal tag #random tag #writing idea #blog idea #maybe??? #i dont have much time before some p intensive college work starts #so i wanna solve some stuff NOW rather than being all #also ngl i miss a lot of these genres a LOT #i miss having more control over my creativity (I've been too over reliant on/over concerned about polls on IG and letting that choose #instead of just.... drawing #and also i literally got into an art hs in this shit i was OBSESSED for YEARS. #super fucking tempted to find Twine again and make some stories #loved that thing back in Vid. Game Writing class... #im rambling sorry!! #have a great summer and be safe!! #💕💖💕💖

[achromic-red-dreams-doze-angrily]

Followed for the "putting my degree to good use" posts - friend is writing a(n amazing) novel that features energy scarcity as a main plot point and I'm very involved in the process and WE'RE MAKING IT SCIENTIFICALLY ACCURATE BOYS! Ur doing the lords work tysm

YES I LOVE IT WHEN YOU GUYS LIKE MY ENERGY STUFF!!!!! I'm glad you find my info useful, hit me up if you have any questions!

#red qanda #putting my degree to good use. on tumblr #for those who don't know i've got a master's in international energy policy with a focus on environment and sustainability #and i work at a public institution as an energy policy analyst #hence me talking about random energy policies sometimes #uhhhhhhhhh fun fact of the day: nebraska is the only US state to have all of its electric utilities be 100% public! #no private companies controlling electricity here! #makes it a bitch to track though

[wigglesforsquiggles]

my body is so tired i don't think i could move if i tried

#random fatigue has hit me #i'm mentally full of energy i want to do things but moving anything by my hands is too much energy #wiggles overshares #why must this happen #i've eaten breakfast and got a good amount of sleep #😔

[ii-zi]

sister tested positive last Friday & my father+me are symptomatic lol had a kitten fall ill for several days and literally just yesterday got better made 2 notebooks out of scraps + started painting mini painting in those tongue pushing wooden stick thingies as PT bc my hands are getting worse ever day but I've been lucky overall bc of a slight decrease of other like. Symptoms. Oh also my mother is Literally gaslighting me like she's outright stated multiple times already that I'm making up having been sick for months bc it's impossible and I'm crazy like. ????????????

#quick update lol it's not like i /have/ to be active here but it feels weird being offline and not even saying a word.. #for some reason???? I've been doing so much gift wrapping?? i have no money to get gifts lol but like. other ppls gifts #ik not everyone has hand issues like i do but i like making the gifts easy to unwrap for ppl w motor skills issues jfjdjf my favorite is #the string to rip it open without struggling. something i struggle picking up the string tho but i don't have #ribbons :/ so gotta make do w what i do have jdkejg #been thinking abt putting like a little piece of wood or something easier to grab 🤔 like those accesible zippers i really like the design #been Obsessed w mini personal projects lately??? like for a week straight working on random mini projects til 5-6am lol #and out of the blue yesterday (or two days ago??? idk i just found out that it's already friday n almost had a panic attack LMAO) i #started like. looking back at personal long term projects that are still v much in the brainstorming phase and #actually got to do a bit of work for one???? i love typing lol i hadn't in quite a while bc using computers hurts my hands a lot but #i really missed it JSJSJS #my house is a pigsty im sleeping like so many hours a day and only have enough time for a single meal so only have #energy to sit and do nothing 😭 but the cats are alright 🙏 #I'll have to do a fuckton of cleaning in the next two weeks tho bc im going back to classes fml #and my sister never arranged my therapy session that her therapist asked her to bc she's procrastinating on it 🥳 I'll die ill and insane #OH I've had coffee three times this last week and didn't destroy my stomach!!!!!!!!

[bleeding-hart]

all this stuff about black cat/orange cat, black cat/golden retriever. What about orange cat/golden retriever.

#As a golden retriever person with an orange cat best friend I love this #I also respect orange cat/orange cat #But like. My friend and I are wonderful together #I've got the sun energy and symbolism #He's the moon or the stars #He isn't sure #But like we're fuckin awesome #We're both introverts #But I'm much more social than he is and although we're both neurodivergent my adhd is. Very hyperactive #Also inattentive but yk. His is more just innatentive. #He supports and joins in on my shenanigans and bullshit #But he's also quieter and shyer than I am #I am very much the 'He asked for no pickles' person #(Hiding the multiple photos of me chugging a jar of pickle juice) #I'm the summer to his spring #(Not for our color seasons #Like he's a bit less ridiculous than I am and he has pulled me off of fences that I try to vault before (and out of windows that I'm in) #But he's also very much willing to join me when I say we should set up shrines to the squirrels in a local park #We also share the religion of Crabstianity where we believe crabs are god and squirrels are alien angels #Ur welcome to join #We don't really do anything I just get excited about crabs cause they're fuckin adorable #I always catch them at beaches and hand them to him #Similar to flowers #I just give him random shit. #'Hey milo close ur eyes and put out ur hands' #Crab #Flowers #Chocolate I bought him #Piece of wood #Kisses