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mobbu-min · 3 years

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(Hxh yandere adult trio)

What if y/n successfully managed to kill herself and they get home from a mission they see her lifeless body.

But was if they found out a way to ya’know bring her back to life but it would cost something really great. Would they pay that price to bring back their darling ??

A/N: was originally going to post this later but im feeling chaotic hehehe

Characters: Hisoka(hxh), Illumi(hxh) and Chrollo(hxh)

!Warning! Yandere behavior and mindset, mentions of suicide, murder, death

Yan!Adult Trio finding a way to bring back their deceased darling hcs

▫ Say sorry to whatever family or friends you had left, or hello, because they’ll be joining you in the afterlife soon enough.

▫ Hisoka will go on with his usual life after your death. A little dishearten but that doesn’t stop Hisoka from being his usual self. Although, he’s much quicker to anger and annoy.

▫ I feel like he’ll take the time to reflect on his relationship with you. Hisoka is a weird yandere to have, because he’s so painfully lucid but he disregards it all because he can.

▫ So he definitely takes time to reflect and think about how he could have done better. He doesn’t really change in the eyes of others, but he’s sure that you would’ve appreciated it.

▫ Once he hears about a way to bring you back, he’s hesitant to do so. It’s not the price that sets him off, but rather that Hisoka takes a moment to consider your own feelings about the whole situation.

▫ Hisoka knows you left for a reason, that reason being him. So he doubts that you'd appreciate him bringing you back.

▫ So, Hisoka lets you stay dead. To him, your relationship with him was a game, one that you won. You're the winner and he’s the loser, what more can he do about it.

▫ Illumi becomes even more closed off and emotionless then he was before. No one dares to be near him for the months to come. The bloodlust, mixed with unimaginable grief, suffocates all that comes near.

▫ His ebony eyes become a mass of sadness and near madness as days turn into months without your warmth.

▫ Illumi doesn’t allow himself to grieve, unlike Chrollo or Hisoka. Instead he’ll push it all down, just like he was taught, and continued to work. Assassination after assiassianton, Illumi doesn’t stop.

▫ He’s eventually forced to by Silva and Zeno, not because they care, but because Illumi had gotten sloppy and careless with his jobs. Almost as if he was planning for his job to take him out in the process.

▫ Illumi hears about a way to bring back loved ones during this time. His mind instantly pictures your corpse hanging from the ceiling. Illumi feels like it's too good to be true, so he’ll research more about it. Once he’s convinced, Illumi is determined to bring back his darling.

▫ Illumi will do almost anything to bring back his darling.

▫ The only thing off the table would have to be his family, not only does he not want to kill or harm them, Illumi is well aware of the power difference between him and his elders(besides Kiyoko)

▫ But other than that, Illumi will do anything to bring them back.

▫ On a side note, Illumi might even ask(more like demand) Alluka/Nanika to bring you back. Killua absolutely disagrees with it. Illumi will only do this if the other method fails.

▫ Killua and Alluka might be more on board if they’ve met you before your death, but even then Killua is very hesitant to let Nanika, both because of the repercussions and that he doesn’t want to use Nanika like that.

▫ Once Chrollo saw his darling’s body lying lifeless on the floor, he completely lost it. He’s immediately starting a mascare. Chrollo doesn't care who it is, he just needs to take his grief and anger out.

▫ Each and every Troupe member is allowed to join. Not only does that cause more chaos and death, but the Troupe is also devastated at your death. They were all incredibly grateful to Chrollo’s darling for bringing him happiness and peace.

▫ After, Chrollo disappears off the face of the Earth. No one, not even the Troupe members, are able to track him down. It’s like he never existed in the first place. Some feared that he took the same path as you in hopes to reunite with his darling in the afterlife.

▫ He’s traveling the world, going from place to place with no goal or future in sight. He’s floating in the sea of life that his darling no longer has.

▫ It's on his travels that he finds a way to bring his precious darling back, but it comes with a price. It doesn’t deter him in the slightest.

▫ Chrollo will pay any price to bring back his darling. It’s scary how far he’s willing to go to bring his darling back. Human lives mean nothing to him, but his precious darling means the world to him.

▫ He’ll steal and kill whoever or whatever is needed to bring them back. If he needs to give up his own limbs and heart, he’d do it without a second thought.

▫ The only reason he’d hesitate, is if it involved taking the lives of his Troupe. He’d asked them first, he’s somewhat considerate of their views on it. But most likely they’ll do whatever it takes to bring you back, not only for the other members, but most importantly for their precious boss. Even if it costs them their lives, they’ll do it.

▫ Once Chrollo has you back in his arms, warm and alive, he’s never letting go again. No matter what path his darling takes, he’s alway following closely behind. Waiting and planning to bring them back to him again.

▫ It's a cycle Chrollo is never going to end.

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wowtobio · 4 years

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hi!! i’m not really good at requests bc i’m an anxiety filled person but i really want to see nishinoya, tsukishima, hinata, and kageyama’s reactions to a s/o with rbf (resting b* face)?? i have it and people always think i’m mad 😅 i hope i’m not pressuring you!

Nishinoya, Tsukishima, Hinata and Kageyama’s reactions to an s/o w/ rbf

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a/n yooo i have rbf too and i get the same reactions hahaaa. and don’t be scared im open to anything 🥺 thank you for being so sweet! :) i hope u like it

Nishinoya

Alright alright so his first impressions of you he would probably come to a conclusion that you’re super cool, stoic, aloof, yanno that whole thing.

You probably remind him of Kiyoko, so effortlessly pretty yet so cold to the touch so he’ll be very attracted to you.

Noya probably doesn’t have a clue of what rbf is so he’ll be very confused when he tried to approach you at first and your face completely morphs into a more expressive one.

At one point you probably had to explain what rbf was to him because of the amount of confused expressions he shoots your way when he catches your attention.

And Noya’s just like ohhhh whaaaaa- but he totally gets it don’t worry.

It lowkey might mess with his perception of people. He’ll walk by someone who looks absolutely miserable and he’ll just be like “probs just that cbf thingy (y/n)-chan told me about”

Poor Tsukishima, Nishinoya would just tackle him on the daily because he disregards his scowl and thinks everything will be a-okay.

OK back to you

Noya would definitely pop out of nowhere in the halls and make it his mission to make you grin. And it never fails ofc

“(Y/n)-chan! You should walk around with a smile more hehe”

Tsukishima

Tsukishima generally walks around with rbf as well so he gets the same reactions and comments as you do.

Only difference is he never really changes his facial expressions like you do upon interacting with people.

He probably doesn’t even think much of it tbh.

But once y’all get closer and it has been confirmed you have rbf he would occasionally tease you about it.

“If you continue resting your face like that you’ll get wrinkles much faster”

He doesn’t mean it ofc he’s Tsukishima, he just loves seeing your cute reactions from it yanno

Pinches your cheeks upwards when your resting your face around him in private while snickering.

I can imagine that if anyone were to pick on you because of your resting face he would bluntly tell the other person to piss off.

Haha he’s like only I can pick on (y/n) like that awwh

All in all, I think deep down he loves seeing your facial expression light up. Tsuki thinks it’s absolutely adorable, but he would never admit aloud to you of course.

Hinata

He would lowkey be sooo scared of you awwh

Probably thought “ah kageyama 2.0″

But then when he realizes you have another side to you he can’t help but feel confused??? Yet so?? Attracted to you???

Opens up to you immediately and you both just click it’s almost adorable.

The more he’s around you, the more he’s used to it. Like spending time with Kageyama.

For a bit though, he couldn’t help but be like “oh shoot is she mad at me again??” upon approaching you.

If you explain rbf to him he would nooot get the concept at all haha. Like he doesn’t understand his mindset would be like just why not just walk around with a smile???

I feel like you can’t help but smile whenever Hinata comes up to you whether he tries to or not.

His energy is just 🥰🥰🥰

And Hina just enjoys seeing your expression morph into a happier one, he will be 10x more happy if that’s even possible ;;;

Kageyama

Okay it is canon that Kageyama walks around with a scary/rbf soo he’s in the same boat as you.

It would be cute, you two cross paths wearing the same scowl and it’s just like this connection

“oh my gosh i think they get it”

Mister i was born with this face wouldn’t really care at the fact that you have rbf. He would still approach you whether you had a smile on your face or nah with no thought about it

Could totally see y’all in private, cuddling and just rambling about certain stories of people pointing out your guys’ rbfs hehe

You and Kageyama would be known as the grumpy couple lmao, people would feel intimidated with just you two walking hand in hand in the halls.

it’s mostly kageyama’s intense aura dw

But it’s all good in the end, less people would dare cross paths with you and your boyfriend so it’s safe to say it is a very peaceful relationship

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masterlist

#nishinoya yuu x reader #kageyama tobio x reader #tsukishima kei x reader #hinata shoyo x reader #haikyuu #haikyuu!!#haikyu #haikyū!!#haikyuu headcanons #nishinoya yu #kageyama tobio #tsukishima kei #hinata shoyo #nishinoya #kageyama #Tsukishima #hinata

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kuroopaisen · 4 years

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Hi! I hope you’re still accepting matchups? If you are, i was hoping i could get one? A lil bit bout myself: im an infp! I really enjoy creating art and hope to become an art teacher in the future since i really want to give back to my community! Im a very passionate person! I love getting inspired by everything and everyone around me and love to put my all into everything i do!! Im also very emotional, and ngl can be a crybaby- from seeing something so inspiring, to a Disney movie—

—nothing can stop these tears lolol im the eldest of four siblings, so im very motherly towards them, and i love giving them big bear hugs whenever i can! When it comes to others tho, im very shy and get nervous when they hug me,, im tall(5”9) :””) and im a disaster bi anyways, sorry if i rambled way too much!! Im hella excited to see what you’ll be writing next! Please remember to take breaks and drink some water/eat a snack! Dont over extend yourself, kay? 💕💗💖 peace~

aaaaaa you’re so so nice!! thank you so much for your kind words (and don’t worry, i ramble too)

okay so rambling over and done with, i match you with…

kuroo tetsuro!!

✧ i love him so much that i hate him dskljfd okay but first of all – intimidatingly tall couple that everyone thinks is really cool, but in reality you’re both just. the Biggest Softies

✧ he really admires your passion!! kuroo’s the sort of person who puts his all into it if he cares about something, and he’d really love seeing that in his partner. whenever your super focused on your art, or your face has lit up while you’re talking about your passions, kuroo can’t help but watch while smile fondly.

✧ he also admires how you look at the world. it’s really beautiful that you’re able to see inspiration in the world around you and the people in it, and i think it’s something kuroo would be impressed by. there’s something in the sheer earnestness of it that he finds endearing.

✧ he’s also endeared by the fact that you want to give back to your community through teaching. it reflects a generous and humbled spirit, and it’s something kuroo wishes more people had. i think nekoma’s focus on teamwork reflects a community-minded spirit, too, and kuroo really spear-heads that. i can definitely see the two of you getting into charity or volunteering when you were older

✧ what i’m getting at is that he really admires you dkljdlj but he’s a clever guy, and he cares a lot about people (even if it’s not so obvious with his temperament). your mindset would just be really appealing to it, and i think he’d find it refreshing (and tbh, your uniqueness is part of what draws him to you in the first place)

✧ you’re so nice, and i think that’s something kuroo would be drawn to. sure, he doesn’t tend to come off as notably nice compared to some other of the other guys, but i definitely feel like it’s baked into his values there. i think it’d really make his heart go to see you interacting so kindly with the team, especially kenma.

✧ he definitely teases you for crying so easily – look, he loves you, but nobody is safe from his dry sense of humour. but, in reality, he thinks it’s really cute; he loves that you’re so emotionally open to things, whether it be the beauty of the world or an animated movie. and honestly he loves being able to take care of you whenever the tears start kldjflkj

✧ oh, also, he loves giving you hugs. he loves seeing you get all shy and nervous – like i said, he’s still going to tease you. but, he’s pretty good at reading people, so he’d never do anything that would make you uncomfortable. but if he’s got an opportunity to make you blush?? oh boy

✧ listen, this boy loves your art, and seeing how it reflects what you see in the world and what inspires you. he loves how personal it becomes because of that, and being able to gain even just a small insight into your worldview. oh, and if he ever pops up as something that inspires you?? that’ll touch him more deeply than he can put into words

✧ goodness i love this concept of a sly, cheeky turoo protecting his cinnamon roll of a partner,,, i am getting Emotional thank you for coming to my ted talk–

other possible matches

✧ yachi hitoka: listen, disaster bi?? yachi’s definitely a disaster wlw (that scene where she meets kiyoko?? A DISASTER– anyway, i think you and yachi would be so cute!! she would love your take on the world around you, and would be so fascinated by your artistic process. also, yachi is definitely a crybaby too,,, there are constant waterworks in this couple but in a good way?? she’s very supportive, too, and she loves seeing your art!! she’s always so impressed by what you produce, and she usually has it set as her phone background to remind her of how she’s lucky to have you as a part of her life, and that you’re looking out for her. please look after my daughter i love her so much–

✧ kageyama tobio: okay, it was really hard to choose a third person for you (i was torn between kageyama, bokuto, suga, tadashi– yeah i had a crisis on my hands) but i think the idea of kageyama trying to contend with your personality is just *chef’s kiss*. you’re so different from one another, but i think that’d be really good for kageyama!! the rest of the team is kind of surprised that you two ended up together, but your perspective and your kindness are what really endears you to kageyama. he just finds that he enjoys your company, and a part of him enjoys the challenge that your personality presents (i know that sounds weird, but like,,, you’re a challenge to his worldview, and a call for him to maybe look at things differently. and, as he likes a challenge, there’s something,,, fun about it). i’m going to stop rambling before i change my mind and rewrite this entire matchup BUT,,, you and kageyama?? top tier concept

#i really hope you like this!! thank you for your lovely message <3 #i wrote this /so/ quickly #i was -- as the kids say -- inspired #rowan plays matchmaker

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sundrenched-smilez · 7 years

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odd numbers for the lesbian asks! (if it's too many just do every 4th one maybe?)

1. Femme or butch?

for type, im vry easily wooed by butches tbh

as for myself, im genderfluid + heavily lean towards butch-ish for one gender + have been gettin more comf w that term for myself. the 3 genders i switch between, ive described as sharp, dainty and tired, for reason of not really being comf w gender labels aside from nonbinary. sharp/tired r kinda butchish, moreso sharp. like leather jackets, ripped jeans, dress pants/shirts, defs flannels (which r a given for any mood im in tbh) while tired is like mb softer, more focused on flannels + loose tank tops/shirts, shorts + certain skirts, comfy clothes, and the like

ive found that i’m leaning more towards butch lately too, like i’ve been a lot more comfortable with pants and a nice top than i have w dresses or most skirts + im wondering if i was just hanging on to femininity for sake of society, so those r things 2 think abt. i still feel comf in them sometimes, but it’s getting much less often. gender’s weird, i still cant cling to one bc of how pressuring that is so genderfluidity is still smth for me + it shifting to different percentages is okay (im thinking out loud @ this point, but its helping so i hope its interesting to read)

3. Plaid button-ups or leather jackets?

both, but primarily flannels/plaid buttion-ups

5. Describe your aesthetic

aaahh theres a lot of diff aesthetics i could go into, but i have a tag if ur interested in a visual representation? basically, cosy homes, forests, wooden steps and bridges, cats, girls/nbs, water, plants, and old video game stuff, and clouds/skies. i’m sure there’s more in there, but for a good rule of thumb !! as for like dressing aesthetic, i like to look rly gay + attractive and a lil showy? like my shorts r Short and i love crop tops + a lot of my shirts show my bra thru them, + i like showing it when i can, like sports bra + a tank top is a fav look of mine bc i can make it look like my bra is a trim on the shirt + it’s cute. i’ve been wearing dresses less often, but occasionally, i like to rock one. id love a pair of combat boots but i have like size 11/12 feet + most stores dont carry that size + im hesitant to buy some online.

7. Favorite pair of shoes?

its rly hard to find any, i have like walmart converse knockoffs atm + theyre a beige/grey color im not that huge on, it kinda reminds me of sandalwood but depressed

9. Any haircut goals for the future?

there was the undercut!! and i have that down now c: next step is to dye it blue and mb some purple. i wanna bleach it if i’m gonna dye it, but im hesitant to do that bc of how damaging it is, but since my hair’s been cut a cpl time almost all the color is out now, so i think itll b ok if i take good care of it.

11. Describe the worst date you’ve been on

i went to a cafe w someone (i think they were nb but i cant remember, it was like 2 yrs ago about ) and they were impossible to talk to bc they just kept saying “im awkward sorry” @ everything and like any conversations i tried to maintain were all one-shot responses, and like that was a lil frustrating. like i dont hold it against them or anything, more in a sense of i was rly tryin 2 carry it and just couldnt

13. If taken, talk about your girlfriend/wife!

whooh i wish i was taken, i need affection + to b cute w someone

15. Describe your dream wedding

hmmmm i havent thought much about it !! i know when i was younger i wanted to wear a black wedding dress but now im thinkin mb a suit that switches to dress @ the bottom?? that could b cool. I’d be happy w anything tbh, if im getting married, i’d just b happy to be w my wife/spouse. mb somewhere in a forest or on a boat would b cool, defs lots of good food and colorful flowers. I’d like a lot of color, most weddings ive been to are just b/w and bland for my taste (they’ve also all been straight tho so theres that.) it’s kind of wild to think that i might b married someday, but it’d b rly nice. i just haven’t thought much abt the planning of one. it’d b rly gay tho, probs give out tiny gay flags at each seat, and the cake could b lesbian flag colors. im rly drawing a blank on this, but i know id want all my friends around the country + world to be there.

17. If you could live anywhere in the world, where would you live?

i definitely want to live in a port town at some point !! idk where i’d like to settle down, ideally somewhere that doesnt get much hotter than 90 degrees + has lots of parks + is big enough for some events, like pride stuff, little festivals, a farmer’s market, and places to do things, such as a movie theater, bowling alley, mb an aquarium, if not one in a nearby town. hiking trails r also good.

19. Favorite lesbian novel/story?

on a sunbeam!!! its a huge inspiration for me, and i love it so much. it always puts me in such a good mindset when i read it, and the artist is my age, so it makes me feel like I can also accomplish great things if i rly put my heart into it!! which is such a good feeling, and it has great representation + characters that i love, and its rly gay, and in space and theres ships shaped like fish + its gorgeous : D i could go on for hrs abt it + how important it is to me. theres an nb character too, and like the aspect of found families is one that rly hits home and it helped me get thru a rough time of my life + better accept myself as queer/gay.

21. Favorite lesbian musician?

adult mom (tho i think they’re bi but still gay), or hayley kiyoko

23. Ever been assumed to be nothing more than a gal pal?

i think so, but i can’t place when, it’s been a bit.

25. Be positive! What do you like most about being a lesbian?

talking abt being gay w other girls/nbs is lovely and cathartic, i never got to growing up bc i lived in a homophobic town + i was like dealing heavily with internalized homophobia and body/gender dysphoria so i was ace for a bit. talking more abt like sexual attraction + aesthetic attraction is new to me, and that’s been a process to get to, but it’s nice that I can now do so w/o being belittled or barraged by insult. i also just love the thought of being w someone, and daydreaming abt when that happens is really nice. also,, girls + nbs r a blessing and brighten my day and im so glad im attracted 2 them

27. Turn ons?

absolutely communication, that’s a need. i had a bad experience w someone bc she wasn’t communicative at all, and failed to tell me that we weren’t dating despite us going on several dates + kissing??? like i wont go too into it, but hatchi matchi it was a mess. so yeah, communication, affection, and like reassurance that they actually want to be with me, and that my presence is wanted and enjoyed. I got a lot of “i dont care”s for answers last sort-of relationship, and that was rly discouraging. another turn on is for them to initiate talking and things, like holding hands or planning to hang out + such. consent is another big one.

29. Do you usually ask other women out or do you wait for them to ask you?

i usually tend to ask them out, but im still dealing w internalized junk, so its difficult. i also havent any situations in which they liked me back, which is frustrating. like i got lead on earlier summer for abt a month until i asked what we were doing + didnt rly get an answer, and it was this whole mess. i generally try to make the first move tho, bc i know firsthand how difficult it is, but that being said, it’s still hard for me to know for sure if theyre interested + i dont wanna make things uncomf w them, so i’ll wait until i think there might b attraction. that being said, once that’s all out of the way, i like to consider myself a good flirt when im trying.

31. Talk about your interests or hobbies!

i have lots of interests!! im obsessed w steven universe, its my fav show (and if u ever have time, we should totally watch it together sometime, i rly think you’d love it, it’s super gay + heartwarming.) i really love playing music and learning new songs, which im rly great at memorizing. talking to friends + gettin 2 know them better is always nice and fun. i like to draw new things + see the different ways ppl draw, so seeing art on here is always fun for me. i’m also rly into polygon videos (it’s a youtube channel, not like videos abt polygon haha) and this podcast called the adventure zone. season one just ended, so i might start listening to another one called friends at the table. i rly wanna start a podcast w someone, but can never find anyone to start it with. idk what I’d talk abt but if i could find a partner for it, i think it’d be a lot of fun. mb smth abt games or books/queer representation in media. doing a dnd podcast would also b rly fun, but a lot of work + editing so mb later down the road !! im blanking on other interests atm, but animations and cartoons r lovely and i aim to make something in that field one day, if not just a comic.

my hobbies r mostlyyyy drawing, dnd things now every thursday, hanging w my friends, playing video games, sometimes writing (i rly wanna start a comic, and im tryin to get my butt into gear on it), goin to parks, listening to music, and goin 2 events w roe + cesar, two of my friends. sometimes ill play music!! i need to get more than the keyboard i’m lending, but i love performing. ill also watch leg birds on youtube, theyre a lesbian couple that plays gams + theyre rly sweet.

33. Do you love easily or does it take time for you to warm up to someone?

its easy for me to love friends, doesnt usu take me more than a few months of knowing them if were talking a lot. as for falling in love, that takes me a lot longer. ive never rly been in love w someone. i thought i was once, but rly it was just my first gay experience w someone and i wanted it to be perfect so i projected a lot of things + made it better than it seemed to myself for the duration of it, which wasn’t healthy, so i wanna avoid doing that again, + take things slower next time. or at least for what they are.

35. Ever fallen for a straight girl?

a few times, they were just crushes tho, so it wasnt too too bad

37. Favorite comfort food?

hot cocoa or tea. as for food food, i dont think i have one. mb french toast or cinnamon rolls.

39. Vegetarian? Vegan? None of the above?

i used to be a vegetarian!! for like a yr, but it was difficult for me to eat and feel full, and i was pretty underweight, so i stopped.

41. Early-riser or night-owl?

both, i tend to stay up, but getting up early can be nice if i dont have to do anything. like just gently waking + making some tea and a nice breakfast + sittin around for a bit.

43. What is your Myers-Briggs type?

enfp-a

45. At what age did you know you were a lesbian?

i think like 16-17? it took me a bit to get words for identity, like lesbian/nonbinary and the like, but i always knew, like id call myself an individual as opposed to gendered terms that i was referred to, and always felt rly yucky w deadname + the wrong pronouns

47. Are you crushing on anyone at the moment (celebrity or otherwise)?

ive got one crush atm !! and another person who seems nice, but i wanna hang out w before like thinking abt a crush (im poly, which perhaps goes w/o saying, but i always like to state it when talking abt these things, jic )

49. Talk about your dreams/aspirations for the future

i’d like a partner or two, to get some bongos- i got to play some a couple weeks ago, and it was the most fun i’ve had playing anything!! having smth with an instant response that i could make up rhythms with was really rewarding and so much fun. i know i want a cat at some point, to go on cute dates + cuddle and kiss a lot w someone, to visit my friends in other places, dye my hair, get a better job, to travel a bit, make a comic, go to college for animation and storyboarding, mb go to camp at some point, and I’d like to make some more friends here, i’m already making some, which i’m super happy about, but it’s always nice meeting new ppl

thank u for asking!! this was relaxing + fun, and a lot of the topics were cathartic to talk about, and i needed it. so thanks for listening too kinda

also im queen of commas, i’ve discovered while typing this

#msg in a bottle #cass charts #idk what i want my ask tag to be

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s-nnyd · 6 years

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all of the ask me meme :) please stop talking about naruto

i think that was this one?

rose: what makes you feel beautiful?

man, hmm, when my hair falls just right and it looks like the hairstyle that could be used in like a romcom drama oh or when the sun starts to set because everythign just starts to feel like the right color and it makes it just about everything right

lace: how would you describe your best friend(s)?

complete idiots i love hanging out with

wish: what are your favourite memories?

oh fuck dude my favorite memories? okay so back in middle school when there was the open house and i signed up for one of the shifts i just stayed in ms. dean’s room and like it was raining and pouring and i was just kinda fooling around with some friends before our shifts started and like we ordered pizza and my goodness it was cold and wet as fuck but it was such a genuinely nice memory of just the feeling during that time also when were painting murals for art ds like shit man that was like the time of my life and i genuinely get all these heartfelt feelings each time i think about it (oh oh oh oh and like mrs q said that like shes trying to make things work with walker about doing a mural inside the class and im like holy fuck please like im legit gonna cry if that happens) and although its super embarrassing just like all the times ive ever really had talks and hung out with mrs q like they were genuinely nice memories and esp friday too like she told me stories about the previous schools she went to and the types of students she had and i love hearing stuff like that and yesterday was truly enjoyable

heaven: describe your ideal date

hhhhhhhh okay okay okay okay so its raining out but we still were supposed to meet up and im standing outside with a cup of hot choco with extra whip cream just the way she likes it cause i wanted to get it for her and when she comes to meet me she also has a cup of hot choco with extra cocoa for me and its just the kinda heart and chest swelling kinda moment cause we both were thinking about each other and then we head over to watch the movies first something stupid yet enjoyable and after going to have some lunch at like a really good tofu house and then after going to an art museum and then ill say somethign cheesy like man im surprised you dont live here ‘why?’ cause youre a work of art or you know whats the most beautiful piece of art out of this whole exhibit ‘ooo was it the ______ or the _____ one or maybe its the ______?” nah its you and thats the main commentary im making through out the whole exhibition and like after that we head over to my place and the rains still coming down my head on her lap and her fingers through my hair as watch a movie both of us has seen far too many times already that it this point its just for the sake of background noise and like we swap spots where shes on my lap now adn eventually she falls asleep i carry her to the bed and let her nap for a bit and she wakes up after a while and comes into the kitchen and im cooking fried rice at like 3 in the morning and its just lazy hugs and bad singing but all in all its just relaxing soothing loving and everything i really want

angel: what is your dream aesthetic?

oh man like okay have you seen that godzilla jacket that was floating around on tumblr for a while like like that specific aesthetic where its super cool stitching and japanese words that i can actually read for once OH OH OH or like just absolute artist like just paint splatters and charcoal and pastel that wont wash out and jean jackets with patches and just yeeeeeee

wings: list five things you love about yourself

hmmm i think my determination to always be improving, my loyalty, my ability to think from multiple angles of a situation, my creativity and the multitude of ideas that come as a result of it , and mmm prolly the fact that when i love someone or got a crush like more than anything id love to give them the absolute most like id give them the world if i could if it would make them happy and like they dont gotta accept my feelings or anything but jsut please dont reject my gifts like i just want you to be happy and i wanna see you smile and laugh and like even if this aint gonna turn anything im glad i got to love you and have this experience

marble: what do you look for in a partner?

oh man okay so like ive noticed that every single person ive ever had a crush on like i dont necessarily got a type in the sense of like looks or anything like that cause they all look super different and there is no one “type” but like its a lot closer to a “type” as in a type of person like someone whos generally super open minded and caring and gentle someone who even though they dont believe so theyre changing and helping so so so so many people around them someone who has the best laugh that id do anything to hear and the prettiest eyes and the most amazing smile that id truly do anythign to see someone whos usually loved by many but even in close relations theyre extremely close heart to heart and very attentive someone whos got a great head on their shoulders and the mindset to keep moving forward and improve someone who rlly pushes the idea communication, trust, and honesty and like man theyre people with the most beautiful minds and hearts and like it ends up being a case where theyve got the most beautiful face too

velvet: describe your dream home

oh fuck dude i couldnt even talk about this for my project for japanese i cant do it here

pearl: what is your favourite: scent, flavour, sound, texture?

shit dude ive really gotta say that my favorite scent is prolly the art and the ceramics room like really its super calming my fave flavor would maybe be honey? (i just had a honey stick rn so) my favorite sound is the sound of my crush’s voice and laugh, fave texture has def gotta be my paint like fuck i love sticking my hand in that shit

sunlight: list five things you find to be beautiful

link, zelda, my crush, the specific color of cerulean blue, okay and oddly enough that scar thats on my leg from when i fell off my skateboard

cherry: what words of advice would you give to a stranger?

if you think someone’s got a cool shirt, pretty eyes, a nice laugh, the cutest button nose, a soothing voice, or is just in general attractive to you, just tell them like the smile on their face is worth a whole lot and i promise you that it could make their day

blush: describe your ideal future

oh fuck okay so its one where i got a like four big dogs (cause these are my faves), a samoyed a husky a german shepard and a pit bull, and im living in a nice decent place with my loved one i have a job either at one of the major animation studios or im working with a huge game company (preferably Nintendo so i can work on some loz games) and ive also got a seperate place thats a block or two away from my home and its my own personal studio a place that is just a whole floor dedicated to working on my art whether it be two dimensional traditional or digital and i also got a throwing wheel and a place to put my ceramics and ive made some movies and games that ive dedicated to mrs q and mrs y because theyve brought me so far in my art career and also played such a big role in my life in general and id love to make them proud and like honestly that soudns like the absolute shit to me

sea: what music, art and/or literature brings you peace?

hhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh man just seein loz fanart is the best but also like fuck dude like mmmmm when i see an art style i really love that has literally the best fuckign composition and color usage like fuck thats my shit like theres some specific ones that i dont know how to describe

wine: talk about something you are looking forward to

working on that mural if mrs q can make it through cause that is legit what i really wanna do like i fucking love working on murals oh oh oh also when we can finally order the new j shirts cause i finished the design and i really wanna see everyone wearing them im really proud of this year’s design aalsososoooooooo like im really excited to work on the next project for ceramics like were makign slab boxes and we can basically tell a story and do whatever the fuck we want with it and man im just so excited for that (wow i legit realized that like everything ive listed that is part of my dream or makes me excited or happy is like art related like wow)

honey: what do you do to relax?

i watch shitposts oh that or i talk to my cousin lynnette cause really shes super understanding and its really easy to talk to her

silk: describe your most recent dream

man i forgot the bulk of it but i think like it was one where i didnt finish my charcoal portrait or my coil pot in time and then i woke up in a cold sweat

matte: what is something you are proud of?

hmmmm at current im proud of the presents i gave to mrs y and mrs q cause it made the both of them really happy and like i really wanted to show them how thankful i am to them and like they genuinely liked the posters and the flowers

gloss: list ten songs you love right now

lmao shit uh

feelings - hayley kiyoko

maple - hayley kiyoko

redbone - childish gambino

forrest gump - frank ocean

shes so mean - matchbox twenty

perfect - ed sheeran

and legit just like all of the soundtracks for all the loz games

satin: what never fails to make you happy?

oh oh oh oh oh when i give a present to my crush or i do something nice for them and they just give me the biggest smile or the best laugh ive ever heard and theres just the crinkle at the corners of their eyes from smilign so hard and because theyre trying so hard to keep eye contact with me while but theyre laughing really hard and they can only keep one eye open and like just the genuineness of joy and all

opal: talk about your interests and passions

hhhhhhhh dude dude like mannnnnn like hhhhhh okay imma talk about loz for a sec and like i know i brought it up before but i love like so much okay like oot was my first time playing time playing any loz game and my lord it was the shit like the storyline the characters the graphics the sound track the quests and side characters liek everything really made it feel like so much mroe and like i feel so much for it like heres link growing up and hes like what around ten or so and hes got some friends and he finally gets his fairy and then his tree dad goes and dies right after telling him lmao sorry but you kinda gotta save the kingdom k bye and like this kid this kid literally knows jack shit about anything but he goes on and does it anyways he goes and helps zelda he goes and helps the people who are in trouble along the way and plays some rad ass tunes on his tiny lil ocarina of time while doing it and like even when he gets put into the future like he sitll has the mindset of a ten year old hes still as innocent and earnest and pure hearted as when he first started and like holy fuck dont get me started on sheik like shit sheik is so damn cool and like knowing that it was zelda all that time like fuck yeah zelda can kick ass fuck yeah zelda got muscles for days fuck yeah she can punt you across the kingdom and like at the end when she thanks him and sends him back and time so he can enjoy the lost time like shit dude i know zelda meant well and all but like hes experienced so much with and for her hes done so much give the kid a break and then even then navi in the end like leaves and then eveything continues in majoras mask and again hes in his ten year old body but now wiht the experiences and knowledge and basically memories from being seventeen like hes got so much mroe than what his body and mind should handle at this point and he wanders into the forest again all in search for an old friend to look for navi and like when he gets sent to termina after trying to chase after skull kid and like havign those nightmares witht he scrubs like hes gone through so much and i only want more for him and like he doesnt have to save termina he doesnt he doesnt need to do anything he can let termina get smooshed to smitherins by the moon for all the work hes already done for hyrule but he does it anyway and he rewinds time again and again and again and again so he can fix all of these problems for all of these people he does all of this to bring some sort of proper ending for these people who have the last three days of their lives the last three days before their deaths repeat over and over and over and over and over again and he saves them each and every time he rewinds time and he goes through all this shit i mean this ten year old mother fucker is doing olympic bakc flips and twirls and shit after oot like shit boi and then like oh myy gooddddd like damn botw like fuck dude that game means a whole lot to me like its lacking a lil bit in the presence of an evil and i mena i know its ganon and all but like shit i could ignore that motherfucker for all eternity if he wasnt being such a total asshat to zelda and like i mainly beat that motherfucker up just for zelda like for once in a game ive never wanted more to save her like they went so much into detail abotu her and like dude those memories thos cutscenes? like that shit made everythign and i truly love her she works so hard and shes held up to this image of being extremely spiritiually adept because of all her ancestors ebcause of all the other zeldas but she jsut cant she jsut cant do the same thing and so she tries in other ways she tries to udnerstand and get a grasp on sheikah and ancient tech so she can at least be prepared to stand against the calamity when it does come and like the champions all worry about her like the girl nearly got herself killed in the process of trying to awaken her so called spiritual powers and like dude finding out that in the beginning zelda legit hated links ass like they put so much mroe into her like she she hated seeing that he was a prodigy that he didnt have a single trouble in the world and then finally link speaks up and he tells her he talks to her about why he keeps quiet and like the two finally bond and like the two dorks love each other so much that it really does go beyond friendship and romance like they legit would die for each other that one time that zelda was this fucking close to getting her ass handed to her on a silver platter and link was beat the fuck up like he went to save her and then the time when link was basically on his death bed and a guardian was about to pulverize him zelda stood between him and the guardian this bitch wasnt even thinking about having her spiritual powers she was legit ready to die for him if it meant he could run away and get to safety and i mean luckily she her spiritual powers did come out but she legit realized it when she was so genuinely scared but chose to stand up cause she cared for him so much and like these two kids fight so much and have gone through a lot both on their own times and also together but like i love them so much no matter what timeline theyre in

kiss: what do you want from life right now?

my lord i want life to point me in the right direction tbqh or at least give me a mentor for some help like please ive been guiding and doing everything myself this whole time give me a break like after reading all the stories for lang and lit like it makes me feel so lost in what im doing like after catcher in the rye and playing the role of holden caulfield and denying that i fit any part of the role and then realizing how similar i was to him and then reading death of a salesman and relating to biff and reading raisin in the sun and relating to beneatha like shit i really felt lost like ive been talking about it with my therapist lately and like yeah i think i really need some direction or reassurance or a mentor or at least something in my life thats consistent cause right now im a complete mess

#thanks jae #like i really enjoyed this #sickinthesoul

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