#Ike’s got so much to live for

[maramahan]

The highs and lows of Project Zomboid multiplayer

We made a successful supply run to the neighboring town. My crops are prospering in the fields. Our engineer has the generator is up and running and we *nearly* have indoor plumbing figured out

…then the game glitched. Clipped me through the floor and murdered my long-running character right there in front of all his friends.

Literally fell through solid floor and landed dead at the feet of the doctor who saved my dude’s life way back when things began.

—Thankfully my buddy who’s running the server is gonna give me back what I lost, since the death was 100% the game just screwing me over — but I swear.

I swear.

In the period of time after I died but before it was agreed I could come back…? my heart.

They dug a grave and buried my character proper. My gear laid beside the wooden marker, untouched. I had some good stuff they could have salvaged, but… they left it all. (Well, they left it all except for the lawn flamingos I was carrying at the time of my death, which they arranged around the site in a nice little display.)

(They didn’t know I could hear them when they said “It’s what Ike would have wanted” —but they were right. They were Right.)

It hurt to hear them talking about who would take up Ike’s duties in the community now that he’s gone — who would tend to Ike’s crops, who would bring in fish during lean times, who would fetch the water when the rains didn’t come… but that was none of my new character’s business. My new character neither knew nor cared.

Then… when this new character walked past one night… I saw the doc sitting at the gravesite. I asked what he was doing. the reply?

“Oh. I’m just having a couple beers with my good buddy, Ike. Want to join me?”

I was fine until that moment.

I was ready to accept the hand fate dealt, tragic and pointless though it was. It was an unfair death, but death is often like that. Sometimes things just happen. That’s life.

Then the other characters had to get SWEET about it

and

when I tell you I cried.

#just me rambling #I have a lot of feelings ok #I SHOULDN’T be this in a project zomboid character #since the game opens with ‘this is how you died’ #but like #I AM #i cant help it #Ike’s got so much to live for #he’s GOTTA pull through. For the Doc. #anyway we’re getting things fixed up tomorrow #and I am Incredibly Grateful

[mothmore]

on my knees sobbing crying throwing up thinking about the love and kindness and friendship between the dracula main characters

#dracula #re: dracula #more of moth #i think what really got me was in like sept 28 #when john is like ‘for the first time ik all my years living in this old house #it finally felt like a home’ when hee with mina drinking tea #i had to grab onto the handle on my car door to not double over crying #THEY JUST ALL LOVE EACH OTHER SO MUCH #john seward #jack seward #mina murray #mina harker #jonathan harker #van helsing #quincey morris #arthur holmwood

[mintaikcorpse]

MK crying about not having a family like he don't got 4 dad's and a bestie who comes by his house sm that she might as well live there

#my brother in christ you got 4 dads #he calls pigsy dadsy and has lived with him since he was like 2 #tang straight up says he sees himself as MK's father figure #Monkey King might actually be has biological father #Macaque is his dad by technicality #and Mei would sacrarice so much for him #yeah yeah ik where his thought came from #just let me make my jokes #mk #tang #sun wukong #macaque #mei #lmk mk #mk lmk #lego monkie kid mk #mk lego monkie kid #lmk #lego monkie kid

[thekidsarentalright]

most healing thing in the world btw was getting to sing “you saved my life” during ginasfs At fob like. they literally did save my life i cannot overstate how bad that made me scream cry etc

#cant believe i got ginasfs live… like ik it feels less insane now that theyre playing it but experiencing it is a whole different thing #can u tell im starting to really process it all now like ohhhhh my god. fall out boy. fob forever. i love them so much #literally means the world to me that i got to be there for everything that happened last night ;___; #txt

[nervocat]

Guys I'm in a mood rn where I just wanna like. Go out into this stereotypical ethereal comforting forest and just walk around and collect rocks and stuff.. bring some binoculars for birdwatching perhaps as well!!

#💭 — ⌗nervo rambles . ★ #Ik this is also probably a post that should be on my personal blog #as it rlly has nothing to do with here #but like #It's actually my dream to live in a forested area far enough away from ppl and towns so that the light pollution is low #I wanna stargaze :(( #like get a telescope and put it on a balcony JUST to do that #anyways um #rambles are probably over for the night guys #kinda tired ngl #was a pretty good day guys #(is still happy abt earlier) #also I feel like I get too excited when I'm referred to with masculine prns and stuff like #It's probably bc I almost never get called that bc like #my family and stuff #but like guys pls #I WILL be thinking abt it all day and beyond if you just say like uhhh he/him directed towards me #If that even makes sense #but yeah #I got rlly off topic there #but! #that's beside the point #um #gonna do my dailies and stuff in my games before bed #It's almost 9:30 pm but I'll be fiiinneee #It's a Friday anyways so :pp #I yap too much pls 😭😭

[cpunkhobie]

white middle class to wealthy people are so crazy to me like. How are you so alienated from the system you live under

#jonah with a megaphone #Ik why it’s because of the racial and class hierarchy and how the system is built to support certain people and harms others etc etc etc. #ik why #But like. On a personal level howd u lack just that much critical thinking. Why dont you get that we hate the system but still live under #It. This is mostly about that post that got mad at people for hiring cleaners and then tried to say like. The people who did were lazy #Etc. but then the conversation devolved into how it was actually racist to hire undocumented people as cleaners or anything and like. #You understand conceptually that undocumented people deserve the same rights and privileges and protections as documented citizens but you #Don’t. Get structurally. and realistically. That we are still living under a system where those rights aren’t available to them #So you’re saying that they just. Shouldn’t be fucking hired??? That people shouldn’t fucking pay them for their goods and services??? #im not talking about like. Walmart which is a megacorp where the morals and standards we view them are completely different #im talking about immigrants running their own businesses and people saying people using those services are exploitative like. Do you hear #yourself. You’re saying they shouldn’t be fucking paid. You’re saying they shouldn’t be getting their own work. Do you hear yourself #your ideas of race and class is so alienated from actual reality it’s baffling. How do you live like that #mixed kid rage

[wayfinderships]

The F.ire E.mblem Tellius games need to stop having so many pretty men-agjsbfkd My heart can't handle it!

#pan rambles #I.ke and R.anulf and R.eyson....GJDBGKDN It's too much for my heart! #I'm not immune to making poly ships but the thought of being smooched by three guys makes me so flustered! #Oh also I don't think I ever shared my thoughts about my s/i! #They're a Branded (their age in Beorc years is about 21)! Half Beorc and half Raven Laguz #They were born in Crimea and probably lived alone for quite a while- #then one day they meet V.olke and he sorta adopts them. kinda #He taught them everything they know about thievery and assassination! #Their class is Thief <3 #Also I haven't decided on the location of their brand yet but it's probably on their neck #Their Relationship with Ike is probably very respectful. They both respect each other's skills and probably got close by training together #With R.anulf it sorta happened via association with I.ke. He probably makes them laugh often #And with R.eyson it's a case of a Thief falling in love with a prince #poor Panchi was smitten at first sight-afjsnjfd For a moment they thought they died and went to heaven bc R.eyson looks so angelic #I have a few more thoughts about this s/i bit yeah #that's the gist of it!

[rolilith]

ok sorry for getting emotional about lilith again but dialogue from the fight for sanctuary dlc

quest: the dawn of new pandora

an echo you can find in the backburner

quest: paradise found

like lilith having to fill roland's shoes after his death whether she wants to or not because everybody's looking at her to make the executive decisions and expecting her to be just as capable....then comparing that to dialogue at the end of the dlc where she's starting to prove herself to the others but she's still being held up to a standard.......im putting my head in my hands

#like yeah ok im sappy and attached to the bl1 vault hunters but the difference in how mordy and brick talk to her at the beginning and end #ik its mostly for plot purposes cause mordy got like infected but the way the entire b-team stayed to help even tho tinas been wanting to #go off-world and asking brick and mordecai about it.......and then u bring in ellie and tannis and...........teary eyes fr #and then the dialogue from the backburner echo tying into brick and lilith from the tps intro is a whole other thing -> #smthing smthing plot holes in the continuity but lilith being driven by her grief and anger of friends dying but brick recognising that #is out of character for her and trying to stop her ironically after he was the leader of a whole clan in bl2 BUT also this being the start #of brick becoming more empathetic and well rounded yadda yadda.... #ok sorry for rambling so much im just . overwhelmed with thoughts and i wish i could put these in a more organized way LOL #fil talks #but also one last closing thing 'what makes you think you can live up to him' AWAAWAWAWAA WHAT IF I STARTED CRYING !!!!!

[no-brand-gays]

if i became a school idol and the other members made my image color gray i would try to take down the group from the inside

#i’ve never said it but i’ve always thought it and i think a lot of people have given all the attempts to pretend kotori’s color is green #i do actually think it works for yoshiko but just for me it would feel so much like the short end of the stick #like everyone else is wearing sakura pink and sky blue and warm orange and i’m over here in a gray costume like yes this was my first choice #the reason I’m thinking about idols actually is that it took me 2 months of living in japan to realize i can go see idols #more specifically it took 2 months and the member of an idol group to hand me a flyer on the street and like very persistently and cutely #ask me to come until i was like okay yes ofc #i had literally just gotten off the bullet train i was wandering around and there she appeared #i love idols dude I really love idols so much #kpop is so much more accessible between fandom loudness and content more regularly being available for free but jpop!!!!!!!!! #jpop is my first love!!!! #i saw that live Friday and they said they were performing again Monday and o just happened to be staying in akiba again #so guess what i did last night #i am not immune to idols also you get to take pictures with your oshi as a thank you for your first and second time coming #so after both shows i got to talk a little w the member who found me #ik it’s their job but she remembered me the second time around and also the performances themselves were so fun and cute #it just really reignited the jpop flame in me i love idols so so so much #personal #hope you are all having a nice start to your week!!!

[hella1975]

im being so serious besties i am not cut out for academia

#like yes i know ive had a very uniquely shit experience in doing a degree i actively not only hate but also am BAD AT #but also i just. cannot hack it #'but hella you go mental and pessimistic every single exam period' i know that but. im right also #like the other day i said to my mum how much ive just been enjoying my job recently #and how huge a deal that is bc i HATE my hometown and ive never ever considered my time here as possibly being good #and my 20s will hopefully be a lot of travelling but in between that to save easier im gonna live at home #so i dont have to worry about rent so alas that means when im saving up for my next trip I WILL BE IN MY HOMETOWN #and as excited as i am for my twenties that is one huge downside to me but i was really cheerfully saying to my mum #that literally for the first time ever ive considered it might not be too bad bc lately i have just enjoyed my job #like i enjoy the people and the work and the lifestyle of it and while it's never gonna be ideal as a means to an end it's actually good #and instead of focussing on that she went OFF on one about how she wants me to stay in education and keep getting qualifications #and she was like 'you could do an english degree you've always wanted to do english or how about open university-' #and i was just sat there blinking at her like girl.... no #like i could FEEL myself shutting down like the terror of having to return to this environment when ive got my sight so set #on that 'one more year and im done one more year and im done' mindset like that has been the only thing getting my through #is that im halfway through the course now so im closer to the other end than i am the beginning and if i can just push through #ill be free from it for the rest of my life. so the thought of immediately returning to academia even for a subject i adore? i felt ILL #and my mum apologised the next day without me even having to say anything bc she realised she kinda bulldozed me there #but i just know whether it's the adhd or ive actually been traumatised by this econ degree #(<- and im being serious there like ik 'traumatised' is a big loaded word but idk what else to use #and this degree has done so so much damage to me like it has convinced me that i am fundamentally a stupid person #to the point i refuse to add up bills when with friends or do answer any sort of intellectual question even if i KNOW i know the answer #bc ive just gone so so long of being bad at the only subject im studying like just SURROUNDED by it and being bad at it relentlessly #and i dont think people realise how damaging it is to very simply just... feel stupid all the time. but oh my god i used to be so confident #and bright and now i wont even do basic addition in front of people) #i really truly dont think i can do this again in any capacity. like the constant exams and studying and assignments #i just cant do it. maybe i just need a year or two away from it after this degree but my goddddd rn i cant see it #yes it's exam time for me can u tell. it always makes me existential and on the verge of vomiting at any given moment #i hate it here i hate it here i hate it here i dont care about iterated deletion of strictly dominated strategies shut the fuck up #hella goes to uni

[euphor1a]

Best 4 hours of my life, with the loml ♡

#googie 🐰 #i know i always say this but i can never really explain the way i feel about him </3 it’s so hard to put into words #i feel so complete now god i love him so much 🥺!! even that is an understatement 😔 #i think it was like? 10:30 pm when i saw the weverse notif... and now it’s past 3 am jdghbcbn #i felt so many emotions throughout everything (the wv live; the ig live; and then wv live again) but god. #i’m just way too happy that i got to see him again 🥺; i missed him a lot! #crazy how just yesterday afternoon i teared up watching a reel on ig about missing him </3 and then 6 hours later!!! he shows up 💖 #lol and i had so many mini breakdowns bc of him 😭 he’s a flirt FLIRT huh 😔✋🏼! WHAT ABOUT MY WEAK LITTLE HEART SIR??? #i really have no defence when it comes to jk </33... sigh. but he sang sooooo many songs 🥰🥰 #including txt! svt! nwjns! i’m one happy bitch 🤩☝🏼 #what a great day to be alive honestly! just hope that he gets some rest bc goddamn it’s nearly 7 am at sk now 💀 #oh and!!!! WE GOT TO SEE BAM MY BABY AFTER SO LONG IM SQUEALING THEY ARE SO CUTE OMG #HOW DID I ALMOST FORGET TO MENTION THAT LIKE WHAT #it was such a bonus to see tae too 🤭 #!!! i’m just really happy #i’ll add more tags later... i just want to fall asleep now bc my eyes literally can’t anymore lol #anyway... ik i’m being very delulu here but like. sorry if it bothers you; i’m like this. 🤡 #will always be jeon jungkook’s bitch <3 #bye bye ~ my eyes hurt 🙁 #see you guys tomorrow and i love jungkook 😆... and y’all too <3

[pinktinselmonstrosity]

my period started a day early and the cramps are horrific and my usual cure for that involves a hot water bottle and a cup of tea but my kettle doesn't arrive until tomorrow 🥺🥺🥺 suffering

#ik i could boil it on the stove but i don't have a funnel/a pan with a spout #and i really don't trust myself not to pour boiling water all over my hand #also. what kind of student accommodation comes without a kettle #OR a toaster??? for a demographic that famously lives off instant ramen coffee and toast???? #and i've been so busy this week i haven't had time to buy one until now #but it hasn't been a massive problem bc i've been out early every morning so i just got coffee there #and i haven't had a cup of tea in almost a week which is. untenable #so basically i'm suffering #i was looking forward to just chilling today after such a busy week but it's not so much fun when ur in pain :( #🧃

[devilbrakers]

OC DUALITY

was tagged by @morvaris​ to take this uquiz for my ocs >:) thank you nico this was super fun!!

tagging: @numbaoneflaya @time-is-a-lake @aartyom @nuclearstorms @girlbosselrond @druidgroves @malefiicarum @swordcoasts  @aldcaldos @sufferthorn @steelport @calenhads @lavinet​ and anyone else who’d like to join in !!

you and the hat man

oh boy you're fighting demons aren't you? it's like you're in a constant staring competition with something that's always in the peripheral. what the fuck. (at least, that's how people who don't know you would react). at this point you've probably gotten pretty familiar with the hat man. he's a reliable kind of guy. keeps to himself, sure, but you can trust him to be there. maybe a haunting isn't too bad if it's never left your side. you can only imagine what it will be like when he's not there any more.

god-hungry scientist and their abominable child

you stitched something together inside of yourself and gave it life with light from the sky and now it won't die and you can't kill it because part of you loves it and you're not quite right in the head or the person you used to be but at the end of the day it's simply a beast of sadness. you crave the mercy you didn't get from your creators and so i'm telling you please forgive yourself. please hold the monster by the hand.

moon curse of the werewolf

you have found yourself hungered or sickened or ambitious to the point of emotional carnage. you are fine, until you're not, and then you could rip someone in your way apart with your bared teeth by complete accident, and later claw at yourself in fits of pain trying to apologize. do you look at the moon that blessed you in her name, at her marred beauty and baneful eyes, and wish she could just crush that loving-hateful heart of yours before it crushes itself? every bite you take out of flesh is a response to the threads of silver bullets in you that haven't healed. the duality is that the human inside is howling too, gnashing, and without the wolf pelt, everyone can ignore it and turn away. at some point, you got tired of the moon being your only witness. now the wolf is there to make sure others know that you are hurt, and deserving of humanity, of attention to wounds. because that wolf loves you; all of you; and knows when you are hurt better than yourself.

#feel free to ignore this if you want !! idk how many people have already been tagged fjsdkl #anyway. going to be annoying abt this in the tags now <3 #the main thing that gets me abt gray's is the 'maybe a haunting isn't too bad if it's never left your side' #like????? ik the hat man thing is probs supposed to be funny and it kinda is but it fits them so well #almost everyone close to them has died or left them atp but maybe it isn't so bad. just to have one constant #dmitri :| yeah. yeah #everything he felt he had to become to save his sister who was dead the whole time anyway but ended up being a better survival tactic anyway #so he just stuck with it until he died but then he comes back as a demon and now he has to live with what he did forever #i don't think he really could ever forgive himself. mainly for failing nina but it's started to eat him alive less and less over the years #mainly bc he does everything he can not to think about it too much but he also doesn't really want to totally get rid of that part of #himself. the part that was capable of torturing and killing all those people bc it really was powered by love and desperation to some extent #and that proves that maybe he has some shred of humanity left even if she's been gone for decades now #not that he does shit like that anymore. but he's capable and willing to for those he loves even if they'd probably hate him for it #and miko's :( #yeah #lashing out at people when it gets to be too much which is often given the life that she lives and then beating herself up for it nonstop #but it's also a way to protect herself and even tho she died young it got her pretty far #and it helped her protect other people (mainly gray and blake) when it came down to it because she couldn't stand seeing them hurt either #idk if i articulated myself v well but yeah jfdsklfdjs my dmc gang are all my blorbos #my ocs #tag #gray #dmitri #miko

[vogelmeister]

i saw a widm hint and it seems super far fetched and also ive seen many wordplay hints to different kandidaten (molik = mol ik and meloen = een mol) but i saw one saying analoog was a hint to anna bc it could be read as anna ligt

#i mean it has been done before in s12 where art altered how he said jongens to say jungens- refrencing mol anne marie jung #i forgot her name for a moment but luckily she lives above my stove lmao #so i totally can see rik altering how he said analoog to say anna ligt #unfortunately it is very fat fetched bc there was an analogue test last season #i actually didn’t think much of it until i saw MULTIPLE ppl bring it up #i will say i have got a gut feeling about anna idk #also how is kees and rian still in the game #i stg rian is pissing me off and kees would be a boring mol tbh #hes too obvious sadly ik hes a dutch icon #widm #wie is de mol #wie is de mol 24 #widm 24

[keeps-ache]

it's actually very mean that i can't have emojis of my ocs just on my computer. i just think it would be much more convenient for when i have to say the Guys are in my brain but i also have no words..

#just me hi #i'm thinkin #and i mean like standard emoji. mostly bc artstreet dms don't let you put up actual images so i have to resort to detailing actual thoughts #Hfbshfv #//anywho so whenever i'm outside by myself i always get the Strongest urge to just start walking and not stop forever hfvhs #i will just Go #no objective no location. but i will be Moving #i Would do that but in order to get a satisfying amount of distance between me and People i have to walk down the road and mm i am nervous #abt doin that fvhsbh #like country roads... i may not come home.... south virginiaaaa hfbvsfhbsv #plus everyone drives crazy out here. when we moved out here we almost got sideswiped by a funkin fedex truck over a little hill #and of Course it was a fedex truck man. we've Never had a near-accident with Any usps trucks hfbvshvs #oh and also the local mailman drives like a maniac too <3 almost had a head-on collision once which was. neat lmao #like maybe 20 feet from slamming into each other which Is Not Much when you're in a car bfh #/Also people just let their dogs run out wild n crazy and :( i don't think they're properly trained to be letting them do that Aha #rode my bike out once with my brother + two of the neighbor's dogs tried ta jump us it sucked #now we don't go past their driveway so we don't ride out very far #//also hey our driveway is Ridiculous ??? ik we've been living here for like 2 years i'm still not over it lmaoohvf #it's like a 40-45 degree angle this is just silly #and listen i'm barely figuring out how my legs even work again. do you think i'm having a good time up that hill because i'm nOT #though you know what it's fine ! not many people come up our drive bc geez why Would you lmao #except for that one lady that asked for directions and then miiight have gotten lost again immediately after leaving HH #//okay. yea anyway the p1nk space is really in my brain rn hbfhvs #really i don't think i've ever been so interested in a project before this is so cool lol :D #marveling at the fact that anything was able to keep my interest for longer than 5 months Hbsh #//anywhoodle do i'm gonna skedaddle #prolly gonna rerun a couple things in a seccy but ye :33

[faeriecap]

i love how i have barely posted if at all about all the newer marvel movies since shang-chi bc i haven’t SEEN any of them (🤡) and ofc i also haven’t seen across the spiderverse yet but i’m still reblogging art like a feral little gremlin like the spiderverse posting rlly got me huh

#i speak #atsv #LISTEN !!!!!!! #the art is so good and i am so excited to see it #idk when bc i literally have 0 friends who live less than 8 hours away from me who want to see it #extremely upset bc i was supposed to go on a movie date with friend i am in love w and it ended up not working out 😭💔 #so i have no one to take me bc hehe can’t drive #and to go to a theater alone and see it just feels weird to me idk i literally never have #also no hate to any of the other marvel films i just stopped being able to go to movies after shang chi came out it’s not personal #ik i could watch them on disney plus by myself but at this point the sheer amount of content i’m behind on feels so overwhelming 💔 #and my body double and i both got super behind and now don’t talk as much as we did during lockdown and IDK I JUST HAVENT IM SO SORRY #it’s the adhd even when i rlly wanna watch smth i just…cant lol #this is also why i barely barely watch tv #my attention span for visual media sucks esp if there’s not subtitles #i’m so sorry good mcu releases post 2021 one day i swear