#Maybe to be deleted later

[b1cr1ptic]

Cannot for the life of mine decide if I like or not how this Gideon came out so enjoy her while it last : ' ) (AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAU)

#THE VIBES ARENT VIBING TODAY IDK #But here she is #Maybe to be deleted later #TE QUIERO GIDEON #Gideon Nav #tlt #Gideon the ninth

[heavyskysystem]

cederic going on a loooong fucking tangent

like really fucking long, but hey, getting his feelings so unfiltered I wont say no to

cederic is saying "I could also say woe is me ill always life in her shadow. But ive learned that crying about it doesnt use me anything. Esp when I love you that much and care for you, and dont remotely share his opinions on you. I dont know why he had to see you in such a negative light. youre wonderful. youre full of promise. youre allowed to be a host with weaknesses, youll figure it out. Thats how I know you, youll always figure it out. I honestly dont think im as formed as you are either, and id take a long time to develop enough to take on a full life, but honestly I dont even want to. just being who I am is enough. I get to be around you. I get to speak to others if I want to. I dont know how horrible this felt for joshua, but as I split off from him I like to think.. that I dont know, why I think youre so wonderful when he thought youre so shit. Maybe he pretended to dislike you to keep up his little charade. But now im here and I wont let that asshole hurt you again. And I know im far from perfect. I know im not as horrible as I used to be, I got a little better. But id never stoop as low as him and use our own feelings as a stick to beat you with. I did not inherit his massive emotional pain, but id like to think hes half to blame for still being in it himself. Because my own fears got better when I let you help me, when I let you do your thing. I got better too when I allowed you to be happy again, I am dependent on you, I am like.. a .. pimple on your skin. Not able to have a full life without you. Adam maybe could have that, but most of us couldnt. Lilith maybe could have that, but most of us couldnt. I feel embarassed at anything ive done to you. Still do. I never want to be as bad as him, and I dont understand using our own pain to torture you. It shouldnt be that way. It was so nice when you cared for me, when you tried to ease the fears and pain I was in. Why wouldnt he choose being cared about by you and instead turn it into something he cant bounce back from, doing things he can never take back, just how I did things I can never take back. But I doubt youll give him a second chance unless youre forced to. He couldve had what I had, he couldve had your care, your love, and I also sabotaged this, I also denied it to myself with having to hurt you whilst you offered it so freely.. You know your friend is right, you really are that caring, that sweet to us? And we dont make it easy. But love will win. we will prosper. It hurts me to see you get so down on yourself. I want you to win. And itll be my win too when you do. I might not be always dependable when youre in pain and sometimes I just see a weakness in it to take advantage of because of how much I got from our abusers, but sometimes I just see someone to take care of too. And I know its confusing for you to never truly know. But you said im on a good way to become more dependable, and as uncomfortable as being seen as the good guy for the first time was, how much it scared me, I like to think its true. Youll make me a better person and ill still choose the way of least resistance and let you do most of the work, but ill do it

I wish I was kinder so I would like myself now. I think in the end youre right, right about people like us. We might enjoy the power, it might make us feel like gods, but fuck do we hate ourselves. Youve always been right. Cause I cant love myself when im so horrible to you.

I feel like crying because youre right, everything I was afraid of, the intimacy, the lying close to you and listening to each others emotions, it really is the best. You always had this impulse to try to force me to do this. Or maybe I only experienced it as force because im such an arrogant shithead, though you can be quite annoying about it, repeat your little requests endlessly no matter how often I tell you no. But you were right, this does feel so good now that im not as afraid of it. This does feel priceless. I know, I know from your perspective it was a cute little request and you didnt force me. But honestly I am not protesting that you forced it, like I said, it did me good.

Youre more often right than you arent and its better to listen to you.

Im not trying to write a book, in my opinion you could just not post it. I am glad I got it out of my system, but you could also post it if you want it in my tag. Go ahead. I wont yell at you over that. Ill smooch you.

#cederic #vent #maybe to be deleted later #maybe not

[i-am-a-fish]

GUESS WHO DIDN'T GET THE JOB

ME

BECUASE THE JOB SUCKED BALLS AND THEY WANTED TO PAY ME LESS THAN MINIMUM WAGE WORKING OUTSIDE SIX DAYS A WEEK!!!!!!

SO I GOT THE JOB AND SAID NO

I'm on that tgirl egirl grindset

Logically I shouldn't post this because it's incoherent and I'm hyped on caffeine but I have the ability to say words on the internet and I think it's funny to use this power to say that employers SUCK ASS

did you drink water today? If not it's coming

#posts i'll delete later maybe

[starkspi]

#so it turns out the mad durge route is PAINFUL #durge just killing themselves at the pier #and karlach just dies??? doesn't go to hell with wyll on her own? #astarion running away from the sun and never seeing durge again #no epilogue for mad dead durge #and UGH i so hate the editing of this but didnt want to make it again (maybe delete later??? not sure) #bg3 #astarion #astarion x durge #durge x astarion #astarion gifs #bg3 gifs #astarion ancunin #baldurs gate 3 #baldurs gate iii #baldur's gate 3 astarion #baldurs gate gifs #bg3 spoilers #baldurs gate spoilers #durge spoilers #astarion x dark urge #dark urge x astarion #dark urge spoilers #bg3 act 3 spoilers #bg3 act 3 #my edits

[pmpwbrrs]

There are so many AUs where Artificer's blue slugpup is taken by scavengers and raised by them . When will there be an AU where th GREEN slugpup s taken away by leeches and raised by them, huh?

#talk.pmp #ill delete yhis later maybe #upd: okay the post stays

[snuffysbox]

something tells me I have a preference for how to draw characters...

#do love a good lineup #maybe I need to start putting these characters into situations #but it's fun and easy and it does a lot of damage idk #idk idk #delete later maybe

[solarpunkani]

Hot 4am take but I feel like if we want to get people more interested in making their yards a more habitable space for wildlife like insects, we have to acknowledge that ‘Don’t want bugs in your house’ is still a 100% fair and valid point of view. ‘Loves nature’ and ‘doesn’t want roaches spiders and mosquitoes in the house’ aren’t opposites.

And with that in mind, when we propose to people that spraying pesticides around houses is Not A Good Idea, Actually, I feel like we need to give an alternative asides from ‘deal with it.’

#solarpunk #anti pesticides #ani rambles #this is coming from personal opinion at 4am keep that in mind but like #I’m scared of roaches. i’m fine with them outside though #my parents dont like roaches and for good reason. they spray Ortho Home Defense along the veeery edge of the concrete by the doors to #keep roaches and shit from coming in because yknow. Florida. #if I tell them ‘hey actually we shouldn’t spray pesticides inside (ie raid spray) or outside (ie home defense) #theyre gonna ask wtf to do instead to prevent roaches #and if I tell them ‘nothing suck it up buttercup’ they’re gonna laugh and then double down on the sprays #we gotta have an alternative ready and honestly maybe I’m not looking in the right places but I genuinely don’t know of any #like one online friend told me leaving brush piles around the yard decreased the amount of bugs trying to come in but like #thats one person. anecdotal. and I haven’t seen anything online confirming that as a thing (yet) #idk man I’m going to bed. #might delete later #house pest saga

[ask-zacharies-snackarie]

Put a lotta effort into a side most people don't even see

#this needs to be painted and sealed‚ and then the ''wires'' will be added after #also it presses on my nose so badiwnfkrnfk #and a spot on my forehead too #fnaf sb #fnaf #my art #delete later maybe #daycare attendant #fnaf cosplay #fnaf security breach #security breach #sun fnaf #fuck this guy and his heavy ass FACE #i still have to sculpt the front!! #i had to take some artistic liberties on the little doodads on his motherboard aswell #cause some spots were super sparse and boring..... #my cosplay

[the-modern-typewriter]

"Tell me something nice."

"What?"

"It's been a day," the protagonist said. "And I feel spectacularly mediocre. So tell me something nice."

The villain blinked at them. "You're wonderful."

"And now tone it down to something believable."

"I happen to really like you," the villain said, "and if you were extraordinary I'd have to kill you."

"...I'll take it."

The villain snorted.

#creative writing #writing #heroes and villains #villains #flash fiction #dialogue #enemies to lovers #to delete maybe #writing inspo #hero x villain #i'll write properly later

[linipik]

Tumblr 2024's BOOP, as predicted by my kitten her entire life

#boop #tumblr boop #nyx just does that #maybe delete later #i cherish and appreciate each of ur boop my dears #but ive been waking up at boop for 5 years #panels from my hourly comic days comics

[bixels]

This Twitter MLP human redesign drama is a mess, leave me the fuck out of it.

#saw people posting my designs to put down other artists' designs saying that i'm the “correct way” of doing things #don't do that #i don't give a SHIT if people are redesigning these HORSES to be fat or “”“ugly”“” people they're all valid #this whole thing is so dumb just say “i don't like the art style” and move on #“hey op i spent 4 hours of time and effort to redraw your shitty redesign and show you how it's really done” you're fucking weird #you know that right? dedicating that much time to cash in on a hate trend when you could be creating something unique and original with lov #your insistence that human redesigns need to be attractive and symmetrical and anything deviating that is woke psy-op brainwashing #is fucking weird. saw an entire tweet reposting my designs listing off how i “got it right.” bullet point: “looks like real people” #the black fat pinkie design with braces that went viral looks more like a real person than any of my designs you asshole #or maybe you spent too much time in high school bullying people who look like that to notice #personal #delete later #do not use my art to belittle artists who've done nothing wrong this legit made me really angry today

[kanrix]

We should all block more freely. that guy said something you didn't like? Whatever, Block. This person is mildly annoying? Opinion you don't like? they're weird/creepy? Maybe you don't like their art style? You can block.

"oh but I'd feel bad" you'll feel bad momentarily. "I don't want to make them feel bad" You will never meet this person. "I don't think they're that bad to deserve to be blocked" the block button isn't just for horrible people, they'll live, it won't be the end of the world. It doesn't matter!! It never matters!!!!!!

You may feel guilty now but you'll very likely forget about this person a day later

#it's never that deep 98% of the time #mumbles #this may be an obvious thing if you've been on the internet for a long time but god. is it annoying watching people act- #like blocking someone equals murder lol #delete later maybe

[oooocleo]

cant decide if i forgot how to draw after my holiday 😶‍🌫️

#my art #maybe delete later.. #i have to get back into the swing of things hmph #bug fae

[bonesblubs]

I’ll never get over that it took just one strangers small moment of kindness to change Xie Lians path. All of the suffering he went through, all of the despair, the disillusionment, all not forgotten or even forgiven, but reconciled. All because one person, not Hua Cheng, not family, not his ex friends, not his people, reached back to him when he’d been starting to lower his own hand in defeat. It’s possibly my favorite and most meaningful part of TGCF for me, because for me it stops being about these two guys who were meant for each other and were impossibly lucky enough to have found each other, and becomes a story about a person who had lost his way in his world so thoroughly that he lost himself, only to be found and put back on his feet by that same world that he mourned so terribly. His world stops being a concept of scale of numbers, black and white, good and bad, and becomes about the individual. What he can do to help individuals, the connections he can make with them. Their histories, their names, their faces. Inside each person is it’s own world. He’d been knocked off his pedestal, and the fall hurt to the point of breaking. But now that he’s risen to his feet, he’s able to look all these people in the eye, and they’re so much taller than he’d seen before.

#not art #bones rants #you can disagree this was just my feeling on itttt #bc I feel like we’ve all maybe been in that moment of despair where you’re at rock bottom #and someone somewhere that has no bearing on you offers a small bit of kindness for nothing more than to do it because it’s right #and that despair doesn’t retreat #but now it must make room for the hope that lives beside it #as you grow around both #okay maybe I’m projecting #to delete later

[unyazik]

just a silly AU where Eagle Flies survived and met Jack Marston after 1914 ^^

#eeeyyy jack isn't alone now #rdr 2 #red dead redemption 2 #eagle flies #jack marston #sorry for no posting artblock is shit #maybe I will delete it later lol

[solarpunkani]

You know what, while I'm doing hot takes. And this one may be obvious considering I'm actively contributing to hosting the Solarpunk Aesthetic Week event but like.

Dear everyone who's constantly deriding the aesthetic portions of the solarpunk movement/genre; do you just not understand that being able to visualize the future you want is immensely important to being able to work towards it? Being able to get other people on board with it?

When I first got interested in Solarpunk, it wasn't for the hot leftist takes about the top ways to dismantle the government for the people, or top tips on how to build your own solar panel apparatuses. What brought me in? Visions of a hopeful future. I learned and began to love the rest as I dove deeper into solarpunk circles, but there is no denying that my first intro to it--and likely many people's first intro to it--was via the art and aesthetic spheres. The term 'solarpunk' was literally coined to refer to the aesthetic movement, and we've been building up from there ever since.

'When are people going to realize the aesthetic parts don't matter and what really matters is praxis--' dude, the aesthetic parts do matter. Inspiring people does matter. Showing people visions of a hopeful future is immensely important, it's why so many people join this movement. We see glimpses of what a hopeful future could look like, through beautiful art or riveting stories, we're inspired by things like stained glass and organic designs and statues and fashion concepts--and then we think to ourselves 'how can we help make this future happen?' And we learn the praxis and we work towards the goals and we share it with others because that's just how we work.

Seeing isn't always believing, but sometimes in order to believe in something with your whole heart, it helps to be able to visualize what you want. For yourself and for others.

So yes. The aesthetic parts of solarpunk do matter. Thank you for coming to my TEDTalk.

#solarpunk #out of queue #ani rambles #honestly in my opinion if the younger me saw posts saying shit like 'the aesthetic part of solarpunk is stupid and unimportant' #that would have chased me away more than anything. #A movement like this? the last thing we want is to chase people away! We want people to get excited! #We want people to get on board eagerly and wholeheartedly! #Yes I'm sure some people got into solarpunk praxis-first aesthetic-later (or maybe even aesthetic-never) #But that's no reason to deride the people who got in here aesthetic-first praxis-later #solarpunk is beautiful BECAUSE there's so many ways to learn about it and visualize it #anyways everyone get hype about solarpunk aesthetic week a month from now!!! #honestly might delete later who knows