#idk man I’m going to bed.

[solarpunkani]

Hot 4am take but I feel like if we want to get people more interested in making their yards a more habitable space for wildlife like insects, we have to acknowledge that ‘Don’t want bugs in your house’ is still a 100% fair and valid point of view. ‘Loves nature’ and ‘doesn’t want roaches spiders and mosquitoes in the house’ aren’t opposites.

And with that in mind, when we propose to people that spraying pesticides around houses is Not A Good Idea, Actually, I feel like we need to give an alternative asides from ‘deal with it.’

#solarpunk #anti pesticides #ani rambles #this is coming from personal opinion at 4am keep that in mind but like #I’m scared of roaches. i’m fine with them outside though #my parents dont like roaches and for good reason. they spray Ortho Home Defense along the veeery edge of the concrete by the doors to #keep roaches and shit from coming in because yknow. Florida. #if I tell them ‘hey actually we shouldn’t spray pesticides inside (ie raid spray) or outside (ie home defense) #theyre gonna ask wtf to do instead to prevent roaches #and if I tell them ‘nothing suck it up buttercup’ they’re gonna laugh and then double down on the sprays #we gotta have an alternative ready and honestly maybe I’m not looking in the right places but I genuinely don’t know of any #like one online friend told me leaving brush piles around the yard decreased the amount of bugs trying to come in but like #thats one person. anecdotal. and I haven’t seen anything online confirming that as a thing (yet) #idk man I’m going to bed. #might delete later #house pest saga

[psychopomparia]

This reads like Alhaitham texting about Kaveh. Like he stares at him before he goes to bed

#Ari rambles #imagine a modern au where Cyno and Alhaitham were talking and Haitham ends it with #“I’m gonna stare at Kaveh as he falls asleep from overworking and go to bed #“preferably either I leave him there or I drag him with me. depends on my mood. #see ya #idk #I’m eepy #genshin impact #alhaitham #Kaveh #implied haikaveh #haikaveh #Haitham #you won’t get real context but I was indeed starting at a blonde fictional man before I head to bed #no it was not Kaveh

[broughtteethtoagunfight]

OBSESSED with the idea of Gillion masking (to the best of his ability) his whole life until meeting Chip and Jay and only after he really trusts them he unmasks and they’re supportive bc obviously the whole riptide pirate crew is neurodivergent af and teaching him that stuff like stimming and going nonverbal and having sensory and issues is ok and just yeah :]

#idk man #it’s late #i need to go to bed #I’m staying up #being autistic #about these guys #yeah #autism #jrwi gillion #gillion tidestrider #jrwi #jrwi riptide #jay ferin #chip jrwi #chip bastard #riptide pirates #albatrio #chattering teeth 🦷

[evansbby]

You guys I’m posting so many polls to get my engagement up but it’s not like how it used to be before 😂😭😂😂 ever since even before March when i took that month long break for Ramadan, my notifs were so dry n dead and it’s just not how it was before and i wish i could go back in time when everything was lit and fun but i just don’t know what happened it’s like everyone tuned out and then when i took that break, even more people tuned out and no one came back 🥲🥲🥲🥲🥲🥲🥲

#I hate it here 😭😭😭😭 #nobody wants to talk anymore #nobody wants to keep the fandom alive anymore #it’s so sad #I remember I’d get into bed all freshly showered ready for my pre sleep tumblr session lol #now i know there’s no point bc it’s just CRICKETS 🦗 #UGHHHJJJJH idk what to do yall im running out of poll ideas #and at first i did also post more of those mini Ari drabbles which got notes but like…. #the interaction level remains low #AHHHHHHH IDK MAN I NEVER HAD THIS PRIBLEM BEFORE #i however knew that when i started this blog that one day it would die out #and that day is coming soon i feel it #bro i even posted a snippet of the stepdad Ari thing and CRICKETS #😭😭😂😂😂🥲 #anyways #I’m gonna go play with my bratz dolls

[legendarceus]

soldarity

transcription under the cut

1st panel:

n/a

2nd panel:

liko: so, uh, why’re you still awake?

3rd panel:

amethio: why are you?

4th panel:

liko: …

5th panel:

amethio: …

6th panel:

amethio: just can’t sleep.

7th panel:

liko: … yeah, i get it.

8th panel:

amethio: hmm.

liko: …

#takes place in a setting where amethio quits/gets fired and joins the rtv btw #amethio #liko #pokemon horizons #liko pokemon #amethio pokemon #art #my art #comic #my comic #comic art #artists on tumblr #sorry if this is a little bit messy or makes no sense btw it’s late for me #i’m going to bed right after i post this #i jsut had a thought and went #just realized i fucked up the numbering it’s so over #also i hope that’s how you do transcriptions man idk #okay goodnight

[carbonateds-oda]

“what even is the plot of bsd” dude. what is the entire story- oh my god. what. what is that word…story? what story? story? As in like a book? Like the one they keep mentioning throughout the entire fucking story- oh shit there it is again what! story!? what is this show even about!? books!? the book?? There’s a book?? and stories relating to different books??? that’s insane!! what!!

#like. cmon man. #THINK for a sec #the entire series is abt dead AUTHORS who have abilities named after BOOKS and they’re trying to find a special BOOK #WHAT is not to get #im sorry. this shit just makes me laugh a bit. It’s just very ironic to me #bsd #bungou stray dogs #‘why is there vampires all of a sudden’ idk man maybe just MAYBE it could have sm to do w the fact that Bram Stoker #author of DRACULA. a story abt VAMPIRES. is in this series. #I’m losing it a little #I May b a bit sleep deprived #I’m going to bed

[kulliare]

yippeeee the dices

#this dice collection is so pretty but i’m giving most of it to my friends… #ive been playing dnd or pathfinder with this group for literal years and i’ve like spent so much time with them LOL #and i’m finally seeing some of them this summer #so this is the gift. i still have to get a set for the dm but like i think i’ve already spent ~200 on the dice here so im like oh my god #but im like fuck it lmao they have given me so much happiness lol 😭 #also since im already typing i was listening to one of the celebs from my hometown and sometimes it hits me how strange it is #tht i am vaguely interested in this man even though i literally like saw him for 5 seconds #he is like so incredibly famous #i know like 90% of people experience this but it does annoy me so much that i treat famous ppl diff in my brain differently even tho ik #they just want to be treated like normal people lmao 😭 #i think its bc my brain goes ‘oh theyre so loved i wish that were me!’ even tho theyre not really experiencing love #w the masses of ppl online #i have a headache from all the plum wine i drank but plum wine is soooo tasty guys #idk what they put in it #probably plum but wow it is so good. lol 😭 #i think i will let this headache go away for a little and then go to bed. gn everyone 🐈🐈

[wakingstarstuff]

I need people to understand that Musk destroying Twitter by going after its usability is a deliberate and insidious choice

He doesn’t care that he’s gonna lose $44billion because the tool he’s systematically tearing apart each day was the tool used by journalists, lawyers, academics, doctors, scientists, activists and so many more valuable experts to disseminate vital information and it was being used to organize people, speak truth to power, and to fight authoritarian despots wherever it was accessible. Ffs search and rescue operations esp after natural disasters for YEARS relied on Twitter to determine where their help was needed most and which areas were in need of what resources.

Elon is a moron and don’t get me wrong I love laughing at his expense too but it’s so clear to me that while he’s certainly no evil mastermind he’s definitely making very deliberate choices right now.

When Twitter dies, those experts will probably move on to different apps. They’ll be scattered and you won’t follow everyone to 17 different apps. That’s the point of this takeover and rebranding and Twitter blue and dm limits. He wants to drive out users, get rid of features which enable people to organize and campaign. He wants people to question each others credibility. He’s gonna make back that $44 billion. Didn’t his net worth quadruple during the fucking pandemic?? He’ll continue to be hero worshipped by his cult of blue-check zombies and one of the greatest (albeit riddled w it’s own brand of flaws and issues) tools of communication will die a slow, painful, and embarrassing death. Not w a bang but w a whimper.

#twitter #I’m half asleep rn so idk if this made sense #but yeah this is what worries me #the rebranding is another attempt to sabotage what little (negligible tbh) credibility or recognition for that matter Twitter has left #stupid man dumb motherfucker I hope he gets run over by a steam engine train #fuck Elon musk #dumb bitch #personal #like I wonder which authoritarian regime is backing him on this #the saudis? #the Chinese? #Russia???? #putin actually might now that I tbh n abt it #but sleepy me go bed bye bye

[goldensunset]

Saw a glimpse of your post and thought it said “lactose time! how nice”

i see you’re just as exhaustion-illiterate as i am

#the amount of times today i’ve misread stuff in the silliest way… #actually it is 1am. i should go to bed probably #it’s been a very long day #had class for an hour starting at 9 #a midterm exam that was mostly freehand writing for another hour right afterwards #a long walk somewhere and more work to be done there #taking me about 2 hours #then a hop over to the next room where i stayed for another 2 hours #then a zoom call that took me about another hour #plus the usual typical Eepiness i have bc i rarely get enough sleep i’m so busy #all that with no breaks. i was dead #this wasn’t supposed to have turned into me going off about myself lol #yeah i didn’t name the towns in this game idk man #asks #deityofhearts #goldie plays pokémon black

[bearjam]

Man like you ever have the urge to crawl into the cavity of someone’s chest and take a nap in there like a little creature? Just me?

#go to bed moth #idk man I’m insane #and I’m tired #and probably a tad touch starved

[milo-is-rambling]

I can’t even imagine living without anxiety. Like. How. What?

#I mean if I woke up tomorrow with a normal amount of anxiety it would be a shocking difference to my daily life. and I am medicated!!! like. #what? am I missing something here? #my mom tells me that meds can only do so much and that they’re really just meant to make it so you can get out of bed every day #but now I’m wondering like is that true or is that my mom is on the wrong dose herself and something could be done to help us both #gahhhhh idk I just feel helpless bc I’m scared of making big changes and the big changes have to make are scary and large and I need a #bulleted list made of things I can do (and break down into very small steps) to actually progress in a positive way in my life instead of #being SO afraid and SO stagnant. it’s been six months since (ptsd diagnosis causing thing) and I don’t feel like I’ve made any progress even #with a therapist. I’m working towards a more intensive program but I feel like it’s almost making me feel more alienated bc I’d have to like #go be surrounded by other mentally ill people and medical people which brings dad dying trauma and like I know I’m running from it bc I’m #afraid to face the changes I need to make and the feelings that are going to come up but fuck man can’t I get some fucking meds that make #this easier to deal with!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! grief and ptsd and long term isolation and anxiety and chronic pain like fuck it’s #so exhausting!!!! I feel like I’m fucking fighting thru life and then from the outside it’s like I’m doing nothing cause I stay in my room #and get stoned and play animal crossing and watch tv and cry and over eat and sometimes I drive around in circles so I can scream sing until #my throat burns and I get a headache and everything finally quiets down in my head for a second. I know I look like I’m doing nothing and #that’s because I am doing nothing but waiting for the next time a mental health professional will talk to me for an hour like it’s so sad #anyways. you ever take a big dab and then start crying and type all of this like it’s an epiphany even tho it’s things you already know. #honestly crying in front of the air conditioner is so slay slight breeze over my face cooling the tears the white noise calming me down

[paging-possum]

Who up listening to good luck babe by chappell roan and having it resonate not in the way intended but resonating nonetheless. About to go ham in the tags about the overlap of being a lesbian and being aromantic...if u even care....

#my art #gore #organs #its 2am so not a lot of this is going to be very coherent but this song makes me feel a lot of things about it all #like. its the Expectations #the expectation that im going to date men and the expectation that im going to date at all have always felt equally stifling #theres that feeling of not trying hard enough or not realizing it at first or trying to lean into what you're told you should feel #and having it not pay off time and time again and wishing you could just make it work #because everyone else around you has it just fine and you dont get why you're struggling with it so much #THERE ARE MORE SIMILARITIES BETWEEN THE TWO IS WHAT IM SAYING #like obviously figuring out aromanticism is especially weird because its a lack of something BUT THEYRE PRETTY SIMILAR #realizing I dont want to date anyone mirrors realizing I didn't like boys but like. idk man its worse sometimes? #I wouldn't trade it for the world it means a lot to me but its almost like people go out of their way not to understand it sometimes #at the end of the day I am the you in that song #it was a very very long road to being okay with never falling in love because that was something I wanted for a very very long time #at the end of the day I will never have to be someones wife and I think its better that way #but its also hard not to get jealous sometimes #like I know its irrational I know I get physically ill at just the thought of being asked out but like #sometimes ill see my friends with their girlfriends and ill feel like clawing my own chest out with want #but also if anyone asks me out I will have to dig myself into a pit and never come out. I think. #I want to be with women but I dont want to Be With Women if that makes sense #its another layer of difficulty that I dont think I'll ever be able to get past #I feel like at this point I should just be trying to conditioning myself out of any form of desire because its just not an option for me #which definitely isn't true and like chappell roan says. you'd have to stop the world just to stop the feeling. #but its also so tiring to have to sit here with the feeling and feel bad for having the feeling. #I dont know #I think if I felt a little more or a little less I’d be fine but I’m stuck in the middle #it feels very weird talking about this openly but also its very difficult to talk about with friends because most of them dont get it #anyways something something Josies monologue from bottoms #im going to bed

[lemonlinelights]

So like I randomly chose to listen to The Edge of Sleep and going into the tag hoping for some fanart (which there is a lot of beautiful fanart) and finding out that there’s supposed to be a tv show and that there’s a book is NOT what I was expecting

#the fact that tv shows are being based off of podcasts now is wild to me #like you’d think it’d be the other way around #but the fact that it’s not just shows how good these stories are #sad that the teos tv shows apparently in distribution #hell though #womp womp #I feel like making a list of podcast that got adapted into othet mediums #and comparing them for funsies #like #the edge of sleep #limetown #archive 81 #idk if I should count dnd like the taz graphic novels and the vox machina animated show #man I’m just rambling now #I should go to bed :P #podcasts

[danielnelsen]

always fun to remind myself of the side effects of my thyroid meds

#the first time i treated my thyroid my endo was like ‘i havent had a patient who had this happen for a while so im due for one’ THANKS MAN #personal #im just waiting for it to hurry up and work. my health has PLUMMETED in the last week or so #im so sick and i can’t DO ANYTHING. including SLEEP. even if i was getting enough good sleep i was be exhausted but i’m not so. #the energy’s doing Great #and i’m so hungry all the time but also nauseous so all food is unappealing #genuinely have no idea how i made it through years 7-10 undiagnosed. no wonder i ended up with such a severe phobia of going to bed???????? #i don’t have to worry about routine right now so it’s not as stressful (just horrible because i’m so tired) but i COULDNT SLEEP back then #im just relieved that this time it was found through a routine check rather than me getting a test because of symptoms #usually i test when my anxiety gets really bad in a specific way #but my anxiety isn’t bad this time. no panic attacks and also no migraines. those are all usually the worst to deal with #so comparatively this isn’t even a particularly bad episode?/relapse?/flare? #still more sick than i’ve been in……..years? #im not sure if covid was better or worse. but it was only really bad for a week #this’ll be worse overall because it’ll last a lot longer #hopefully only a month or two but that’s still a few months of my life that just vanish. cool!!!!!!!!!!! #and there wasn’t even a notable event to trigger it this time. first time was whooping cough and subsequent times have been things like— #starting uni and then the last 2 years of uni where i took 10 units in one year then overworked myself doing my thesis #im SLIGHTLY worried that maybe i’ve developed rheumatoid arthritis and that set it off because it’s also autoimmune #i should see my gp soon to get a general antibody test. my joint have been so bad it’s been hard to walk for quite a few months #idk man it all sucks. but for now at least i have my white blood cells (even if they’re literally the problem lmao)

[iknowwhereyousleepatnight]

so i had a couple ocs as a kid (made for a story that i never wrote a lot for) and i haven’t drawn any of them since i was like. 14. so it’s been a hot minute but anyway i realized the other day that out of the 5 main cast i have gotten 3 of their haircuts. i remember vaguely thinking that one character always seemed to have the haircut i wanted and i had that haircut for years but recently i got rid of that haircut and had another one’s haircut then i changed it a bit and dyed it and now i have another one’s. so i’m like man 12 year old me had great taste in haircuts. i should go down the list and do them all

#sometimes i think i should redraw the characters but then i’d want to redevelop their story bc it’s not to my taste atm and that’s a #lot of effort but i might do it anyway who knows #but i’d have to open my box that deals psychic damage (the sketchbooks in there are so soaked with alcohol that opening the box #makes me nauseous lmao) for refs. hmmmm. i dunno #the characters don’t really speak to me anymore their whole dynamics and designs aren’t to my taste i’d have to *really* re-do #everything but hm. maybe #though perhaps i should just start from scratch. i wouldn’t mind having ocs again. idk #also on unrelated news i have purchases 4lbs of baking soda to mix with my acrylic paints i want to see what kinda texture i can #get out of it because i! am! in! the! mood! to! paint! #but unforch i have to sleep? taking away my valuable painting time? ridiculous but i think i’m going to legit pass out at some point #i’ve been getting real tired of sleeping #well. i love sleeping but i feel like it’s wasting all my time because i always seem to sleep 10-16 hours a night which is ridiculous #that’s so much time i’m wasting i have shit to do man so i’ve been staying up 24-34ish hours once every week or so to make up for lost #time but still i feel like i am making this all worse because now i can’t even fall asleep + it’s been messing w my mood but i don’t #know how to fix it #anyway that was way off topic goodnight i think i’m going to bed now bye

[crowcryptid]

who knew the price of getting 4 days of alone time was a pet and family member passing away and 2 more family members being hospitalized (one is serious, the other will be fine)

All completely unrelated incidents. Just insane timing I guess.

Interesting series of phone calls these past 2 days.

#yeah that seems about right for my luck #not 1 good thing is allowed. ever. #Whatever man. Idk what to say. #Guess I’m back. Laying in bed doing nothing didn’t exactly help #If I seem detached well I didn’t really know the guy. Plus he was late 70s it wasn’t like completely unexpected #as for the hospital stuff. like I said 1 will be fine. the more uncertain case is in a different country #I don’t have all the details #and as for my cat. I don’t know. vet said it could have been a heart attack or stroke. no way of knowing #I’m so tired man. #taking tomorrow off as well. #boss is going to kill me when I get back #but holy shit #can’t say I don’t have an excuse #again don’t try to cheer me up or anything #that will only make me feel worse. socializing is not comforting for me. quite the opposite #hey man how was your weekend? oh. well. hah. just the usual