#So Bad at holding conversations

[macadam]

Was explaining to a friend how socially inept optimus is in tfp which devolved into a 20 minute long tedtalk where I just kept providing examples of megatron trying to engage in any semblance of banter while battling optimus and optimus’ only response is to frown bigger. He just keeps looking more and more intense until someone else comes in to relieve the social tension. Some may call it romantic/sexual tension between exes but in actuality optimus —“do you want to see something funny” “no”— prime is just incapable of holding any conversation and leaves megatron to flounder in this conversational void, turning every sentence said into an increasingly pathetic monologue. Megatron seems obsessed with optimus because he’ll say something insulting or set bait to goad optimus into a response but instead optimus just stares and frowns. And if there’s one thing megatron refuses to do it’s backtrack so he’ll just keep digging. The only time megatron is freed from this prison is when ratchet is there to insult him back but because megatron’s focus starts on optimus it just ends up turning into megatron and ratchet arguing over optimus’ honour while he’s off to the side pummelling whatever vehicon/corpse/seeker megatron has set on him, or is falling off a cliff because his legs are too long and in however many millennia it’s been he still can’t get used to the robot puberty the matrix put him through

#fun side note this brought both of us to tears from laughing #they’ve only seen the first season of tfp but honestly that’s enough #god optimus is #So Bad at holding conversations #Mac mumbles #I say all of this out of love #but man #this guy is so closed off and anti confrontational that he can’t even kill megatron to end the war #I am loosing my mind what is Wrong with him #transformers prime #tfp #optimus #tfp optimus #optimus prime #megatron #tfp megatron #maccadam

[poorly-drawn-mdzs]

Collection of edits from this comic with Disco Elysium dialogue.

#What do I even tag this #mdzs #mdzs disco elysium au #There are so many line that work very well for them. Alas I was constrained by the panels I had. #So many hbd and kim conversations fit the wangxian dynamic its unreal. #Once again I am politely holding out Disco Elysium as a recommendation: So long as you are aware of it's content and warnings. #It is truly one of the most hopeful games about trauma and despair. It is hilarious in a way that frames the tragedy perfectly. #Be warned that it is a dark and heavy read. But it is truly a life changing experience. #It helped my get out of a bad place in realizing how much I was hurting myself by trying to hold onto the past and regrets. #Go in as blind as you can. If you are ready for it - you will not regret playing this game. #In other news...yeah okay so I meant to spend the rest of my saturday drawing more pd-mdzs #Then I started watching Link Click.... oops where did the time go? #Permit me another day of stalling and I will have comics coming soon. Might sprinkle some LC doodles in the mix too.

[canon-gabriel-quotes]

I randomly get inspired to write weird stuff with Gabriel that I'm usually not even into and a lot of the time I get comments that amount to I'm not into this. Am I? or being surprised they were into it. Gabriel is just randomly inflicting this sort of thing on everyone I suppose

Gabriel Ultrakill has been reclassified as a gateway drug. Please keep an eye out for any suspicious activity.

#i can be your angle or yuor devil #metaphorical piece of ham/cheese that you wrap around a pill before feeding it to a dog #many things can be made palatable if you’re down bad enough #speaking from the heart #I would Not do that. oh but if he wants to it’s okay 🥰 #I’m being so tame and normal please. you can’t do this. you can’t enable me #I have work tomorrow I need to. relax #trying and failing pathetically to keep this account somewhat tame #non voice post #ask #asks #ask spam continues.. the dashboard cries #looks around nervously #i am so very scared and terrible at speaking #but if you really want to send me insane things I do have a Different Account For That #you gotta message me for it #but. I mean if you do that just know. I can’t even form coherent sentences #what im trying to say is that I can’t hold a conversation for shit #but. you can always send.. gabe things.. #ALRIGHT ALRIGHT ENOUGH. pack it up boys. im going to get shot if i continue

[note-boom]

The best thing about BSD Lucy Montgomery is that she is trying so hard to live her fairy tale dream, like asking Atsushi to save her from the Guild and all that nonsense.

Instead, she just gets beaten by him once when they're enemies, gets out of the Guild on her own, and has to save that sorry boy's life over and over again.

Like, sorry, Lucy girl...you're not the damsel in distress in this fairy tale. You're the prince charming who had a bit of a villain arc and now is doing good out of sheer spite and stubborness. Better luck next arc?

#like the more i think about it the more i think lucy is just trying so hard to live an idealistic story #but life is just so mean to her that her romanticist idealism has turned into her holding onto those ideals out of sheer spite #even though she more often than not acts the most sensible out of all the bsd characters #like the girl was like 'oh yeah actually joining a criminal organisation is a bad way to cope' after one (1 or 2) conversation with atsushi #and then she went and proceeded to get herself a job #and then she talked to fukuzawa and gave him pretty solid advice without stopping him #not to mention the minute things went topsy turvy during doa she actually manged to storm the government and demand reason #my girl is desperately trying to be part of this fantasy world but she's too worldwise to truly fall for it #maybe im just reading too much into it but still...its amazing #bsd #bungo stray dogs #bungou stray dogs #bsd musings #humor #bsd lucy #character analysis #spitting nonsense

[blogishdaj]

Claw 1.6 spoilers

So is the title "Claw" like in reference to how Mia keeps picking up kids like they're plushies in a claw machine

#claw #clawblr #claw web serial #wildbow #as one redditor said #redefining 'found family' one kid at a time" #Tfw your anxiety is so bad you'd rather steal a child than hold a conversation with its parents

[figofswords]

has anyone tried loop earplugs for auditory processing issues, especially and specifically while working a retail job? I know originally they were for helping with overstimulation but the noise levels at my job aren’t enough to overstimulate me so I’m not really looking for anything that’s going to muffle things too much. the issue is if there is more than one conversation happening or if we’ve opened the door to the street I completely lose the ability to process what’s being said to me, like I’ll stand there absolutely fighting for my life trying to process the customer spelling their name for me and having to have them repeat each letter four or five times before my brain understands it, or fully checking out of one conversation and into another without noticing it and then having to fight my way back to figure out what the other person said, or even trying to figure out what *i’m* saying if I check out mid-sentence. my manager recommended I try loop so im wondering if anyone else with adhd and auditory processing issues has experience using loop in a retail setting and whether you think it’s worth it or not

#it’s literally so bad I feel like I’m wading through water against the current trying to stay on top of a conversation #I’ve always had some auditory processing issues but if I’m with friends or family I can just be like wait sorry I checked out repeat that? #but at work I’m standing there the customer is spelling their name two letters at a time #I cannot hold onto those letters for long enough to type them into the computer #I ask them to repeat they repeat at the same speed same volume and don’t break it into single letters OR syllable groups #each of which would be easier than two letters at a time #and the only thing that changes in their tone or face is a subtle expression of ‘oh this person is stupid’ #IM SORRY OK MY COWORKER JUST LAUGHED ON THE OTHER SIDE OF THE ROOM MY MANAGER JUST YELLED SOMETHING FROM THE BACK #A GROUP OF FRIENDS WALKED PAST OUTSIDE TALKING LOUDLY THE BUS JUST WENT PAST #IM TRYINGGGGGGG

[volivolition]

suggestion do you have... any wants? like obviously you do but like? suggestion my guy my ourple boy. both the easiest and hardest to write. you need a skill to say something to move conversation along but it doesn't fit any skill in particular? about 80% of the time you can have suggestion say it and it will make sense. but like actually characterizing him... how do i define you dude... what makes your character tick... urgh. i dont get you yet. im trying to understand but you are difficult.

#chemi chats #there are some skills that i just dont understand yet and that just means i have to work on their character study chapter #im reading his bio and i think suggestion is a good manipulator and it's instinctive and he tries not to feel bad about it? #he's clever!! charming!! friends with savvy and drama. planting seeds in the mind and coaxing them to grow towards him like he's the sun. #a crude oil reservoir lying beneath a carefully laid flower bed. taps into the roots. the plants don't know any better than to drink. #he's great at sensing what makes people tick and uses that to his advantage. he needs goals to look forward to so he knows how to best #pull the strings to get them there. otherwise he's a bit aimless. he likes being useful. and since influencing others is helpful #he just keeps doing it? because it's what he's good at. and he tries to convince himself its fun and cool and just cuz hes charming and #it's his role as a skill and manipulation isnt thaaaat bad because it's helpful to them after all... but he does feel bad sometimes. #oh im listening to his voice lines and i just got to ''brother you should have put me in front of a firing squad'' and im sad about him now #but what do you want for short term little guy?? probably for people to like him. he likes chatting with people. i bet he'd like genuine #conversations with no strings attached but there's always some part of him filing information and tidbits away that he can't turn off #subconsciously figuring out things he can hold over them or how he can nudge them into thinking someth-/wait.../ no. no he's just talking. #he's /supposed/ to just be talking stop analyzing them stop falling back into that just have a normal conversation!! but he can't help it.. #hm. this is all really helpful for his chapter. he and empathy are very alike but also different. very interesting... #task: swept up #okay good talk everyone i think i understand him a little better now lmao?? still gotta figure him out some more hes not fully there but ye #also i think he goes by whatever pronoun you think he'd use. just ''oh what do /you/ think i am hm?? what /would/ i use; do you think?? :)' #funny fella. i love you.

[leonardalphachurch]

okay last thing i say about this but. i do want to be clear that wash and carolina are not canonically siblings and if you call shipping them incest you are also incredibly fucking annoying and i don’t want you here either.

like honestly i love carwash siblings but i don’t actually see their canon relationship as familial i think they’re just. friends. i think that kind of goes into the whole issue of like… men and women can’t just be friends you need to explain it away in some way. they’re dating or they’re siblings etc etc. i think actually they are platonically best friends and that this is awesome actually.

#also to be clear i genuinely truly could not fucking care less what you ship #it matters so not even a little bit to me. i don’t care. leave me alone. #that doesn’t mean that i can’t and won’t analyze and criticize harmful elements of your ship/fiction #actually if you can’t understand that someone can hold criticisms about something while not caring if other people partake in it i also don #want you here #we have critical thinking here. we have dialectics. we talk and analyze things instead of just saying #‘well i like it so it’s fine’ or ‘well i dislike it so it’s bad’ #this is a different conversation than the post. oh well. #i just don’t want people to be annoying about like. ‘shipping wars’ or some bullshit #this isn’t about shipping it’s about. analysis of characters and relationships and stories #i don’t even ship carolina and wash with anyone else LMAO

[ickypuppi3]

it’s the way billy’s a scapegoat not only in show but for the duffers too like

people will spend all their time focusing on the actions of a fictional teenager rather than question the fact these two white men were all too eager to have a racial slur used against a literal child and have felt comfortable having racism in lucas’ story without it actually go anywhere all while putting no focus on him as a character

they use it as a thing, as a prop, rather than acknowledging it as the systemic issue it actually is - like they use it, have lucas canonically experience racism and then push his character to the back

it’s so blatant too, there’s nothing subtle about it but because everyone’s so busy focusing on big bad billy hargrove, racism doesn’t get discussed in the stranger things fandom the way it should because everyone’s too busy focusing on the actions of one single fictional character

#billy hargrove #stranger things #they get away with so much because billy’s just there #the way the word racist is thrown around too is so crazy #like i wish people would just do some research and know what they’re talking about before they post terrible harmful takes that get #thousands of notes from impressionable kids #like people have convinced themselves racism is a thing that’s like #a single person perpetuates #and that no one else would be racist in a town like hawkins in the 80’s #they believe only a villain and a bad guy could hold such beliefs #which just isn’t how it works #and has never been how it works #that’s a dangerous way of thinking about it too #and they’re SO quick to ‘i’m not racist i’ve never been racist because’ #and it’s like the first step is acknowledging how racism is ingrained into every day society rather than jump to the defence because you #believe that it would make you an ‘irredeemable villain’ akin to billy #like there’s such a big conversation to be had but it CAN’T be had because many fans refuse to talk and converse and l #listen and get other peoples perspectives so unfortunately this is where we’re at

[sophsicle]

it is not merely a question of whether or not we have learned to analyze in particular kinds of ways, or whether people are able to intellectualize about a variety of experiences. It is also about coming to believe in the possibility of a variety of experiences, a variety of ways of understanding the world, a variety of frameworks of operation, without imposing consciously or unconsciously a notion of norm - Elsa Barkley Brown

#school readings #but like it feels relevant to the conversations i feel like i have on here #about whether or not characters are good or bad #or whether or not they are redeemed #and about the right way to read texts #and the right way to write stories #and like multiple things can be true at once #every situation is made up of different people coming from different places who are effected differently #and most of the time there are not absolute villains and absolute heroes #depending on your experience of the world #depending on your framework #your hero might be someone else's villain #or vice versa #it is all so messy #and you need to be able to hold multitudes in your head #to see humanity as a kaleidoscope not a window #or a mirror #i might have lost this metaphor #tedtalk over #soph rambles #text post #quote #wow fully misattributed that quote by accident because i am a terrible academic #i have fixed it now #from a paper by joy parr but she is quoting brown #no one cares probably but i do #my bad ELSA

[pink-psychic]

The Doctor not actually being able to talk and confide in the real Donna literally had me sobbing and screaming

#all I wanted was for him and Donna to have a real talk #Doctor Who #doctor who spoilers #FUCK I JIST WANT HIM TO SHOUT AND SCREAM AND CRY AND BE UNDERSTOOD #he deserved to have that conversation with Donna #uuhhhggggg he was holding on so strongly and trying not to break down when the Not-Donna brought up the Flux and his confusion #about who he is now that he knows the truth and that his whole life was a lie #it hurt so bad that he didn’t get to confide in Donna for real #he was hoping that the Not-Donna’s explanation was real so he could confide in he real best friend without having to actually explain it all #to be fair I was hoping the same thing the Donna would remember what happened and Understand and know Just the Right Thing to Say #and make everything ok again

[skellydun]

if I go on one more bad date I am going to scream

#i cannot handle dating apps sweet christ #theyre not bad its just like can gay men not hold conversations #i don't mind talking bc i can talk about anything but like you gotta actually talk back #i need to be someones friend then date them thats so much easier smh

[in-tua-deep]

Had a dream where I was back in high school in a math class and my teacher was just. Incredibly disrespectful about my identity/pronouns. So I swapped to the other math class section with a different teacher

And new teacher didn’t use my pronouns either, but it still felt better. And then someone broke my desk. And someone asked me if I made the right choice swapping, because neither teacher used my pronouns, right? And I just had this moment of such clarity, of, “yeah, he doesn’t use my pronouns. He doesn’t always use the right name. But you know what? He’s angry someone broke my desk, and I know that if he finds out who it was, they would be in trouble. And it wouldn’t be like that with the other teacher.”

Just. Utter clarity of the definition between someone who doesn’t understand pronouns but still sees me as a person deserving of safety vs. someone who maliciously doesn’t use my pronouns as a way to communicate disrespect and thinks that means I don’t deserve to be safe

#my dreams #rip to my high school history teacher who got cast as the villain #but also neither of these teachers were math teachers #it was my highschool history teacher and my high school art teacher? #very out of character for my history teacher. but honestly pretty in character for the art one #do I think my old art teacher would have used my pronouns? no #do I think he would have bitten then head off of someone who was messing with me? yes absolutely #terrifying man. used art as a coping mechanism for his war experience. 10/10 #I think this dream is a reaction to my new job actually #sat down and had a very emotional but helpful conversation with my director about pronouns and use of them with clients #my supervisor is a queer elder who is confused but supportive #told me that if non-binary were as known as it is today back then supervisor might also identify with it #but supervisor is apparently too old to come out *again* #which what a mood #man being non-binary is fucking hard #nothing but respect for my fellow they/thems and neo-pronoun users this shit is EXHAUSTING #also shoutout to the dream bit where bad teacher was like ‘haha and is that an apple’ when I was holding a banana #and I just fully ignored him. didn’t even acknowledge the ‘joke’ #an iconic move if I don’t say so myself

[geooooooorge]

rant

my mom asked me if tiramisu is ok for my birthday cake and i was like hmm could i get cheesecake? and she was a bit moody about it (as if its not fucking easier to make then tiramisu anyway and like idc if other people dont like it, its my birthday) but ok she went and got ingredients and then i asked her if i show her the recipe again and she started raising her voice about how she wont be watching a video and making it cuz its inconvenient or some shit and i was like yeah ok tf imma write it dont just dont be a fucking bitch about it and then i wirte the whole thing down, ingredients and steps and everything, she looks at it for 2 fucking seconds and goes yeah i wont be doing it like that and throws it away, go fuck yourself

#im pissed off #and very sad cuz it ruined the whole day cuz she wont stop being a bitch till tomorrow #shes so pissy aboit everything and shes so irrational and can never hold a normal fucking conversation i hate it #and somehow i always end up being the bad guy for telling her to speak in a normal tone cuz it was never that deep #my one fear in life is becoming her

[jacqcrisis]

Why is everyone in this godforsaken camp sniffing my lizard?

#ronans trying to have a nice day intimidating people and holding astarions hand #and the wizard and the druid keep trying to catch a whiff i GUESS #anyone else? shadowheart? im assuming lae'zel because shes a certified freak #wylls too busy having daddy issues #anyways i turned down halsin for character reasons #also considering ronans been pretty encouraging about the not having sex thing with his vampire #it would make sense for him to feel weird or kind of not great about the idea of sleeping with someone else #he doesnt want to make his guy feel bad or put him on the spot about letting ronan go find sex somewhere else #that seems like a mean conversation to have to him so he told halsin nah #just not even gunna bother #he went without for like 11 years or whatever he can go for 11 more if he has to #if they live that long #i am curious about what that convo with astarion is like re: asking if you can go boink the bear #i shouldve did a save and reload oh well #bg3

[ride-a-dromedary]

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#i am still extremely frustrated about that impending ultimatum exchange #not only just how it does a massive character disservice to both individuals involved #but honestly because this *should not be* a character based ultimatum - it was fans who requested this be possible #and pushed and pushed and pushed until l*rian relented #but then it reframes it as a 'one of these individuals is being unreasonable out of the blue' so it makes them look like a bad guy #instead of an even keeled conversation where then the player's choice seems like *they* made the choice to keep one or the other #which it *should* be solely the player making that choice and any blame be put on them #idk if i'm getting at what i want to be getting at but i am legitimately wary every time a new patch is released now #anyway m has been in the game since day one idk how ya'll are getting so mad at h for 'taking away development time' #if they didn't spend time developing her when they had her since the beginning i think you should be mad at l*rian for fumbling the bag #jibber jabber blabber bluff #l*rian continuing to prove they cannot adequately put their foot down and then people complaining that the implementation #of a feature that *wasn't meant to be there in the first place* #is buggy and half assed my beloathed #also @ the people i continuously see like fuck man don't recruit him ya'll acting like he holds a gun to your head and demands to go with u