#THIS SUCKS BUT I CANNOT DEAL WITH IT

[do-rey-me]

if murderbot learned what autism was i truly believe itd go "wow humans are so ridiculous they cant even agree on their own stupid human social rules" and then never think about that or its possible relation to its own behaviors ever again

#mensah: secunit here are some accessibility drones so u can interact with the world more comfortably #mb: its super impressive how she can make up reasons to get around the 'no drones allowed rules' just so she can bribe me #ratthi has his head in his hands. like deities send me strength i cannot fucking deal with this #tmbd #mbd #murderbot diaries #i dunno the tags man. i also do not know if its even funny anymore #im so tired #lost track of my life and didnt realize i ran out of sleep meds haha. fuuck #tomorrows gonna fucking suck balls #my posts

[zouisalmightie]

TO ALL THE HATERS THAT SAID WE WERE MAKING BUDDIE UP IN OUR HEADS HOW DOES MY ASS TASTE???

#am i ignoring the fact that fox et al purposefully stifled the queer love story we all knew was happening? yes i cannot deal with that rn #SO SUCK MY DICK WE TOLD YALL IT WAS CLEAR AS DAY #AND NOW HERE IS OLIVER HIMSELF LIKE YEAH HEY THAT WAS KINDA FUCKIN GAY THERES A QUEER ELEMENT TO HOW IVE BEEN PLAYING BUCK RYAN IS A #BEAUTIFUL MAN HIS JEALUSY WAS HIM NOT UNDERSTANDING HOW HE FELT IM RRADY TO CHEW CARPET #buddie #i love being right always

[ihearnocomplaints]

I point you all to my ko-fi page once more -> link

my parents, enraged that I didn’t sort a massive mound of clothes yesterday (after doing the other chores they asked), essentially decided they are going to start charging me rent.

So this is just in preparation for that moment when they do start asking. I’m still trying to save up to move out. It’s not a huge deal yet (idk how much they’re going to charge) so there’s no pressure to donate.

I work a full time job so I can’t really give much in return. But I can take doodle requests upon proof of donation! I’ll doodle any DCA you want.

Thanks.

#Idk what to tag this #i’m just so tired. #i’m just tired of my parents putting so much pressure on me #like 1) I did the chores they asked of me #2) The only one i didn’t do was because it was literally an overwhelming amount of clothes. The entire fucking laundry room is filled to the #brim with clothes. Literally you cannot walk in there without strpping on some #that’s 6 people’s clothes. Not even most of mine because I actually do my own laundry. other than the ones that get mixed in with the others #and they wanted me sort them. by myself. #I’m autistic and a massiver germaphobe and they wanted me to sort their grimey fucking clothes. #And when I don’t do it? call me useless and lazy #and then i fel insane because maybe i am just lazy and i should do more because they let me live here for free #sometimes i feel in the wrong. maybe i am in the wrong. maybe i should just suck it up and deal with it instead of complaining #I don’t know. I’m scared. I’m so scared #I don’t have anything to fall back on. I don’t have my own car. I have nothing.

[wraenata]

Pillow attack courtesy of the @tapakah0 army

I missed the battle. I passed out under the pillow. Sorry :(

(Thank you for the pillow attack though!)

#wren askbox #i am still so sick #surprised i could make even a terrible doodle #i had an awful day at work today #i got verbally assaulted by a coworker for something that isnt even my deal #i cried #i spiraled #it sucked so bad #please handle with care i cannot handle the negative emotions #thankfully my other coworkers affirmed me that they were way out of line #but now i think said coworker hates me #this wasnt even my deal i was just the messenger! #thankfully some nice peeps and cas update and tapa and sara shenanigans and pillow war helped cheer me up #but with all this sickness weighing me down i passed out tonight #im just too weak for all this #sorry i rambled on your pillow attack i really appreciate it #i hope to have the energy to get to my other asks soon

[beatcroc]

You might think being in a tiny fandom with no content is as bad as it gets but there is a worse alternative and it's being in a tiny fandom with one really prolific and beloved artist whose content you can't fucking stand

#obviously i cannot name it but aughhhhhhh #this is also worse than when theres only little content and it all also sucks. i can deal with that thats normal #one specific guy being annoying is so much more aggravating especially if its drowing out anything else that might be there #bweeeaaahh #also to be clear im talking about like 'this property has maybe 12 active fans' type of small

[naamahdarling]

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#ashamed and alarmed to discover that much like teachers #people who work closely with folks who spend a lot of time on the streets #and in shelters #or in buildings that offer services to the disadvantaged #will catch every fucking thing that goes around #just like their clients do #which sucks more for them #by like a whole fucking lot #but also sucks for my boyfriend who needs to do his job which is to help them and would rather not have to do that while sick #but we don't have a choice and they don't have a choice and this work MUST be done #so he has to try to do it anyway and hope he can hold up #desr god he is tough #for a soft guy #it also sucks for me because i catch almost all of it too #we have each been sick three times this year #and i know people do deal with and are dealing with way worse so i feel bad being mad about it #not mad at the people or my boyfriend but mad at the whole situation #this is infuriating and between us this year we could have fulfilled the snot needs of the entire nation if there were a shortage #i hope i don't catch whatever this is #and i hope our immune systems are not so ravaged by the covid we had a year ago that we cannot build a more robust immunity to rhinoviruses #ughhh stupid flesh hovels

[disengaged]

ooooo god the ED thoughts are so bad again

#happens every damn winter and for what 😐 #embarrassing illness to have as a grown ass adult tbh #i feel so stupid like how is this just something i have to deal with for the rest of my life. how . makes no fucking sense #and i’m flying home for christmas so i CANNOT lose a noticeable amount of weight or my mum will cry and it’ll be awful #pegasus speaks #ed tw - #ask 2 tag #anorexia can suck my fucking ass

[mummer]

they could never EVER neverrrrrr ever ever do this even ryan condal would never cede such an “iconic” setpiece & “memorable” dialogue and even if he wanted to HBO simply would not allow it but in my minds eye ideal hotd adaptation of the battle of the gods eye completely discards EVERYTHING supposedly recounted/editorialized in fire and blood no anime dialogue no ultra choreographed fight scene no cinematic beautiful shots of the dragons dancing no leaping from dragon to dragon its actually like incredibly fast and loud and incomprehensible to the audience just beasts colliding and ripping each other apart dirt and blood and horrific and disgusting and ultimately super SUPER pathetic ❤️ daemon and aemond dont get to make any epic last stands theres no glorious blaze out, no chilling last words, no grand narrative, in the end it really is just two men thudding to the bottom of a lake and getting eaten by fish. make the craziest climax in the world an anticlimax. ultimate antimoment

#of course. this can only be in my dreams #hotd #my greatest idea is daemon doesnt even get his sword in the eye grand leap moment #cause like. Well physically that would be completely insane #they both get thrown together when their dragons collide and theyre both already dead from blunt force trauma #and the sword just kind of accidentally impales aemond lol #i just hate to see a character like daemon get somehow validated by the narrative as super cool and awesome and sexy etc #like for what? hes just a maaannn it’s just what you do. hes a human man at the end of it #cant ascend to godhood good buddy. better luck in ur next life. u sucked at this one #L + you have erectile dysfunction you cannot be legolas jumping on floating dragon scales. lame! #even if he did sink that sword in… its so pointless JDGDKSH. U ARE BOTH GOING TO DIE ANYWAY…. #i love crazy awesome action setpieces i love good cool action directing i dont think it necessarily would even be bad #but i think it does cede some of its own point. i guess thats the whole ‘you cant make an anti war film’ thing again #daemons whole fucking deal is just so boring to me unless it’s undermined and subverted. i love when hes a whiny pathetic mess. #and NOT a slay dom daddy. aemond i cant even discuss he does not do anything for me.

[ibrokeeverything]

The sibling dynamics for Kai and Nya and the full RGB trio are absolutely immaculate! Peak vibes! Probably the best in the entire series!

#kai literally called lloyd a booger 😂 #if that isnt peak sibling vibes i don't know what is #they were just so cute! #they had the perfect balance of giving each other a hard time and being so sweet and caring #i literally cannot deal with how great it was!!! #im so freaking impressed with dragons rising #they handled the character focus change so well #i may miss my ninja desperately #cole and jay my beloved 😭 #but the show doesn't suffer for it #it was absolutely fantastic!!! #i have so many more thoughts but ya know #i suck at putting things into words 😅 #ninjago #lego ninjago #ninjago spoilers #ninjago dragons rising spoilers #ninjago dragons rising

[melodicwriter]

How do you seriously stop comparing your writing to every piece of writing you read

#writeblr #writing #writer #fic writer #fic writing #for the love of god I cannot deal #I would love to read something without thinking wow I wish I could write like this I suck

[autisticlee]

that feeling when you get advice from someone who you know is well-meaning and has good intentions....but it's just the most allistic, neurotypical, and/or abled advice you have ever heard and completely invalidates the point you're trying to make about why you struggle to do the thing in the first place.

they're telling you to "do it in this specific way that is completely opposite of how you physically/mentally work" for example, make eye contact/read people's facial expressions and intentions! but you're autistic. initiate verbal conversation and don't be shy! but you're nonverbal or semispeaking. get out of the house more and participate in these physical activities! but you're physically disabled. Just Be Yourself! but you have DID/OSDD/other personality disorder. etc.

i'm sorry. I know you're just trying to help. I appreciate it, really. but it's all things i've heard before and none of it helps me specifically. I have tried (maybe even still try out of habit) and learned I can't just do those things. they don't work for me or cause more issues. practice isn't the issue. not everyone can simply willpower through everything. but thanks for trying 😔✊️

#autistic #autism things #autism #actually autistic #adhd #audhd #neurodivergent #disablity #disabled #too tired to tag other thinhs sorry thats all you get #lee rambles #that feeling when you also just have to pretend to accept their advice and move on because people get so upset when you dont take it #i lesrned if i tell people their advice doesnt suit me and my unique circumstances then they feel bad that they didnt help #they want you to do it anyway. even if you cant. pretend you do or say thanks and move on. but it gets annoying hearinf the same stuff #over and over. more expectations on you. more pressure to do things in ways everyone else can but you cannot... #when will the advice be lee shaped? when will it be just for lee and consider all my circumstances? #why is telling the person giving advice their advice wont work fkr me bad? why cant they change their advice to fit the issues i face? #when im asked for advice and someone hits a deadend while working it out i try to help solve that so they can find a way around #but everyone else expects me to grow a bulldozer out of my head and ram the wall down instead of helping me work around it #i crush their fragile ego by saying their advice doesnt work and they get upset instead of adjusting it to help solve the specific problem #its exhausting because they become one of the many problems i have to deal with then 😒 #no im not “making excuses/dismissing you/not trying” im trying. your advice sucks try again. and my problems are valid!!!!!! accept it!!!! #anyway. genuinely appreciate people wanting/trying to help but sometimes its such inappropriate advice i dont know how to respond

[traitorsinsalem]

this is a funny as fuck dialogue option for when you're playing a dead-birth-parents-rogue who just so happens to be mixed. get gathened idiot.

#succ speaks #i just think it's funny that wotc constantly has NO idea how to handle half-elves from a mixed lens. #as much as i WOULD be happy that larian devs were there to say 'hey man people can be proud of their mixed heritage' #it's just funny as fuck to me that the first time i'm seeing this line is with mo fucking gathen. #the only funnier option is 3. this bitch is withering away there's nothing sexy about him unless u ask his actual party's paladin(s) #baldur's gate 3 kind of sucks especially early on but it's worth it to me to be funny while playing with friends who know this character #'hmm. i can't seem to recall what happened to elturel.' [finished the descent into avernus adventure path. was one of the adventurers.] #'the zhentarim? i think i've heard of them somewhere' [is a zhent ardragon with specialties in legal dealings and investigations] #the running joke is that he got mind flayer brain damage after a stat scramble and cannot find the right people for the life of him #this is so funny though. imagine i just became a small local hero and some nice girl i helped one time says she'll sing a song about me #and she's like 'what should i sing about' and i'm like. 'how about my mixed heritage.' LMFAOOOOO that's so out of pocket #like my friend is so curious and wants me to choose it because he wants to know what alfira's even going to DO with that like ????

[adharastarlight]

That dangerous game of "I'll wake up and do it in the morning"

never once have i won this game.

we're trying again anyway <3

#i make such bad choices #do as i say not as i do #pls let me sleep #please let me wake up at 5 #i Cannot miss this assignment #ill have to miss school #and my attendance is so crap #i blame the anxiety #i hate anxiety #i also hate school #school sucks #anyways wish me luck #i pray i wake up #i will keep yall updated #(no one cares but you have to deal with this anyway ) #school assignment #school is hell

[seknots-izumimir]

HEY VANIII hows it going bff :)

HIIIII KAI :3 its goin. i am sufferin a lil but who isn't in this economy. but i am also playing p3re so like. we take those small wins

howre u????

#the hospital absolutely dropped the ball on getting me some of my meds so now i gotta deal with The Bloodening until my new #birth control pills actually GET to me :/ bc i've been off those stupid things for like a week now. its awful. i take them to get RID of #The Bloodening bc its so painful for me 😭 also my chronic pain has gotten worse bc my shoes suck ass so walking hurts 👍 #i can whine abt it but i cannot do anything abt it so ! i must simply stay silly >:3

[yohankang]

last week i had a big crisis (calling my mom and crying that i hate this job) because i'm so behind with my work and i'm failing so many tasks etc.

and guess what!! i just got sick :))))) i don't even want to think about all this work that will wait for me when i come back

#lmao i'm fucked #like. at this point i would rather be at work #but i was in a bad shape this morning #usually when i get sick my temperature lowers and it sucks but i'm used to it #i get fever like once 2-3 years??? when i'm sick sick #so when my temperature started rising this morning i was like :) i need to see a doctor SOON #i thought i wouldn't make it home lol #i absolutely cannot deal with even slight fever #so now i have the next 3 days off which. amazing. but at the same time... the horrors of next monday #k.txt

[saintlesbian]

as for the rest of the ep…

Chalynn truthers we won. we fucking won 🍾🍾🍾

Lois trying to talk Ned into making peace w/ Michael and Drew sounds REAL funny knowing that drew and Michael r still planning on pushing him out of ELQ again. fuck those two forever actually, y’all can make peace in hell

speaking of drewfus, I wish I could be glad he’s leaving but it’s not for very long and crew is gonna be annoying abt it I’m sure. this version of drew is such a shell of himself that anytime hes brought up I just feel disgusted 😖

I’m getting tired of Sonny bringing up Carly when talking to nina it just feels WEIRD… I really don’t wanna see a Carson reunion but it’s starting to feel like the pikeman/cyrus bs might end up being the catalyst for one… sonaritas should we be worried. 😟

also Tolly agreeing to use krissy as the surrogate… wasn’t there literally a whole argument against doing this months back that resulted in tolly icing krissy out for several weeks…? once again I must assert this whole surrogate storyline is a load of barnacles

#pentababbles #general hospital #I’m happy abt the proposal :) but I also feel like they kinda did this so they could be married b4 Gregory croaks #still! taking my wins where I can! their scenes today were sweet and I liked it 👍 #i know ned has beef w/ nina over the SEC thing but. once he finds out Michael knew and STILL tried to push him out of ELQ #nina should be the least of his worries. since let’s face it drew earned that prison sentence 😅 and it’s not a crime to report a crime! #the bensons r just mad they had to face even the mildest of consequences for their actions tbh #drew goin to Australia tho like. take joss and Carly w/ u I don’t wanna see them again either #have joss spend time w/ her Aussie father or something I just can’t take her anymore #also the fact that he’s leaving for Christmas so Michael doesn’t have to… bro I hate him so much #bro you just got out of PRISON how about you spend time with your DAUGHTER that you PROMISED to be there for you ASSHOLE #and with drew going away… PLEASE I don’t want a Carson retread please please please #like I find crew annoying and meaningless but at least they’re over in their own corner. but I was actually starting to like Sonny #a Carson retread is just gonna make him suck again 😞 #cannot stand the surrogate storyline and tolly is nothing to me anymore but w/e I can deal with it. #however if they really are setting up the surrogate arc to be an angst backdrop for kraze… burned-lariat go get them royalty checks I stg 🤣 #but yea that’s my thoughts! story feels discombobulated as ever but we soldier on iguess