#Telling me im so annoying everytime we see each other

[sirensea14]

Me with who

I trusted, Let you in

Let you see through my broken skin

Let you tell me, People would love me

Not get sick of me, Get rid of me

I know you rarely open your Tumblr from your browser but if ever you do so, well, sana matamaan ka.

#siren screams #personal rant #relatable memes #in sound mind #Song #rant post #Friend #Im slowly distancing myself from an irl friend #I couldnt help but develop some trust issues but maybe im just overreacting #I dunno #I will just.... rant #I feel like she really hates me even if she would say it as a joke sometimes #Telling me im so annoying everytime we see each other #And we're even classmates for this school year! #But im slowly distancing myself #I cant bring myself up to a happy mood whenever I need to face her #Like not looking onto her face #Of course i know everyone in the class noticed it eveb if they wont say anything about us #Cuz they know that me and this irl friend are inseparable and always buy in the canteen during recess #But now im alone #all all alone #I have two moots here thatre my classmates irl rn #If any of you two read this. Dont tell anyone #I just... ranted #Thats all #Damn fuck i want some sleep but i cant since i need to prepare for exams next week #Its 1 pm here btw #I rlly want some sleep to replenish my whole being #Ah no lemme rephrase that--i want eternal sleep #A sleep where no one can ever wake me from.

[goatlottin]

favourite girls

In which you bring your 4 year old daughter to her first football match

genre: fluff

pairing: kylian mbappé x reader

a/n: HIM WITH KIDS ITS JUST. Im in awe everytime hes in a 10ft radius of one. Also i kinda hate this but 💔 i’ve had no ideas lately

The game had just concluded. 3-1 win to PSG with a Kylian brace and he got man of the match. You were so happy for him and couldn’t wait to celebrate alongside him. if you would be able to reach him, that is.

You had made the mistake of bringing your daughter, Ella, with you. Though you knew you had regretted it the second you both left the house.

She was talking throughout the entire match. Asking questions she probably knew the answer to, just so that she can blabber on.

She was undoubtly a daddy’s girl. Despite you finding it adorable, you sometimes found it terribly annoying how much she would hog him. Today, as an example.

He had barely come off the pitch, but she was dragging your hand towards him, just short of yanking off your whole arm. She was so radiant, her father's name and number glistening on her back so proudly. Her tiny pigtails flowing with the wind, the security allowed you both onto the field as soon as he recognized you.

As soon as she was somewhat in his distance, she had let go of your hand completely in order to catch up with him.

It was so beautiful, you had to admit. As he heard her small calls of “dada, dada!” while she tried her very best to catch up with him. He turned his head and his eyes literally lit up. He smiled in awe as she continued her run, crouching down when she was just in reach, and scooping her up. They shared a smile with each other before he threw her up in the air a couple times. her laughs, small, yet filling the stadium.

He then kissed her forehead, before aiming his attention to you only a few steps behind her. She wrapped her hand around his neck securely. He walked towards you in long strides before smiling down at you, then interlocking his lips with yours. A small kiss that put you all in this small little world that made you forget there was even another part of it.

Until Ella interrupted by forcing your forehead back. “My daddy.” She whined as she wrapped her arms tighter around his neck. She grumpily forced her face away from you. He only laughed and looked at her as he touched her nose. You, on the other hand, weren’t really laughing. Were you jealous of a 4 year old? Well.. it was more complex than that. This was about him defending you, at least that’s what you tried to tell yourself.

“You’re just gonna laugh?” You tilted your head with your arms crossed, eyebrows furrowed. He paused his tickling session, that must’ve began as you went into thought, to look at you.

“What was that, baby?”

You rolled your eyes as you scoffed lightly. “You’ve barely given me any attention since we got here!” You complained passionately.

He tilted his head, wondering whether you were being serious or playing a game with him. He turned to your daughter, still in his arms, one leg on either side of his hips. “Is Mommy joking? She can’t possibly be jealous of you, huh?” He rubbed noses with her as she exclaimed small giggles, twisting her face in laughter.

You got annoyed by his mocking tone, him knowing you were dead serious. “Kylian!”

“Hon, you have to be kidding. She’s four!” He pointed out.

Though he was right, you couldn’t help but feel insecure. Throughout your pregnancy, you often felt inferior when he would come home and skip the questions about you. Rather, ask things such as “how’s the baby?” “the little one still kicking?” It drove you crazy sometimes, weirdly enough.

Kylian could see you train of thought ponder off. You snapped back into where you were, at the stadium, to watch as he carefully set you daughter down, leaving her with a final kiss to her cheek.

He crouched down to her level, before pulling some of her hair behind her ear. “Go find uncle Dembele, sweets.”

She ran off in a hurry to find her father’s friend. His height reappeared as he gained his stance from his position on the ground.

He looked down into your eyes, grabbing both sides of your face. You decided to play stubbornly. Opting for turning your face to the side. He smirked slightly, giving the slightest force to bring you back to the two of you.

“Since I have to make it know, you’re my number one girl, hmm? Do I need to spell it out each word for you?” As with Ella, he put a few strands of loose hair behind your ear. The winds dismay.

You pouted, loving the attention that was currently on you.

“You know that right?” He asked for the final piece of assurance.

You nodded into him, putting your hands into your pocket before going on your tippy toes to reach his face. “I know that.”

He smiled before leaning into the kiss.

“Don’t tell Ella about what I said though. Don’t need another one of my girls’ mad at me.”

#kylian mbappe fluff #football fluff #psg #kylian x reader #kylianmbappe #kylian x you #football #mbappe fluff #mbappe one shot #mbappe fanfic #kylian mbappe dilf

[iloveblogging2]

Blue lock boys reacting to you telling them your pregnant

warnings: angst, teenage pregnancies, mentions of getting an abortion (a lot), heartbreak etc

Isagi:

He loves you.

Everything about you, the way you act, your beautiful smile your encouraging personality, your rosy lips that just turn him on and makes him think of stuffs he shouldn't be thinking of

he really does but not like he loves soccer.

in the few seconds you told him about your pregnancy he has already analyzed how his life will take a turn if he accepts and takes care of the baby.

he won't have time to play soccer.

he can't become the best striker.

if he is here for you he wont be here for soccer.

all because he had sex too young.

no

like ego said you make your own destiny

"please get an abortion" he said piercing you with his deep blue eyes

"what" you asked you couldn't believe your ears

sure he had soccer and blue lock but at least he should accept the baby.

he isn't gonna leave you alone is he?

doesn't he love you

"abort the baby" he repeated "or i'll break up with you''

you couldnt believe your ears

"HOW DARE YOU HOW COULD YOU YOU WANT TO LEVAE ME BECAUSE I WANT TO KEEP THE BABY ISAGI'' you cried "I THOUGHT YOU LOVED ME"

this broke his heart but he had to continue he couldnt ruin his futeure because of a child

"i do' he replied ''thats why i'm asking you to abort it'' he said puttimg a hand on your shoulder

''so'' he began ''i'm leaving for the bluelock camp again so please abort the child or ill deny ever dating you'' he threatened

Nagi

''man what a hassle'' he accidentally said out loud

he didn't mean to sure that's how he felt but

He adores you

I mean

Sure you sometimes- most of the time you annoyed him sure but he did care for you.

especially the time when you just obeyed him

that wasn't normally your bubbly energetic and stubborn personality would do but for nagi you were willing

Nagi and you deserved each other.

you were still young

but you thought this was love

he made you smile when you think about him

which was everytime

everytime you think about you him

aaah you just wanna get married already and have his kids

that was probably why you agreed easily to have sexual intercourse

that means he feels the same way you thought

so why was he saying this

surely he didnt mean it right?

‘’sorry’’ he hesitated before he continued  

“i dont think i can be a father, i have blue lo-” 

Slap 

“WHAT ABOUT ME !??, I HAVE TO QUIT SCHOOL MY PARENTS MIGHT NO THEY WILL KICK ME OUT AND YOU- YOU JUST WANT TO LEAVE!!!!’’ 

‘’LEAVE ME ALONE!!” he responded “IT’S NOT MY FAULT YOU ARE PREGNANT, ABORT THE BABY THEN IT’S A HASSLE TO KEEP IT”  

Charles 

Note: he is still a new character and i know nothing of him

‘'Are you sure it’s mine?’’ 

You and Charles have been dating for a while. 

And while you barely see him because of his soccer career and neo-egoist league- you still loved him. 

So when you found out you were pregnant you were elated 

Since a baby is involved he would spend more time with you  

After all its his child involved 

You smiled when you thought of charles playing soccer with his little son 

What would we name him you merrily thought 

So it hurt hurt you a lot when he asked you 

‘’Are you sure it’s mine?’’ 

“w-what” you replied in disbelief 

“i mean” he yawned “i don’t know maybe you cheated on me” 

“h-how c-could y-you s-uggest th-a-at" you asked tears welling in your eyes 

This wasn’t how it was supposed to go 

“woah don’t cry i-i just mean that maybe it’s a- mi-stake yeah, look im not ready ready to be a father and to be honest i dont think i like y-” 

You burst into tears 

You're so annoying Charles thought  

He liked you but you just annoyed him in ways soccer could never 

Soccer never asked for attention and tried to baby trap him 

You made his heat skip a beat but no the way fighting a strong opponent in soccer did 

When he thought about you- the rare time he did he smiled but when he thought about soccer it didnt just make him smile – it brought out a whole new monster  

He can neglect and insult you but not soccer never soccer  

To a normal person this sounded ridiculous 

Soccer was a thing, a sport, a way of life to egoist like him. 

YN was a human being- not that special 

She didnt bring out a whole new ego- she was boring. 

Also he knew if he accepted his role as the father of the unborn child he’ll have to spend more time with yn and not soccer 

So he had to break it off right now and maybe convince her to get an abortion 

“listen YN......” 

Notes: Charles is a new character and i know nothing of him

if you have any requests you can ask me

 

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#cringe #drabble #blue lock headcanons #angst #shitpost #charles chevalier #nagi seishiro #isagi yoichi #blue lock #blue lock x y/n #bllk #yandere #cringeworthy #idk what to tag this as #bllk manga #blue lock fanart #michael kaiser #kunigami rensuke #fanfiction #amreading #books

[whoreforall]

DECISIONS PT. ONE

*9 years earlier*

"im gonna find you bill!" i ran around the kaulitz home on a mission of hide and seek. i rush up the stairs listening closely for any sign of bill. we see each other at school all the time but i begged and begged my mom to let me go over for weeks before she finally gave in. i creep down the hallway quietly and peer into one of the bedrooms. i walk toward the bed and lean down to check for bill.

not there. i sigh and stand up straight again. i look at the closet and smirk. i open the door quickly seeing if i could scare him. still no noise. i frown and push the clothes around to see if he's behind them. no sign of bill. i close the closet door and notice a tall mirror leaned against the wall in the corner of the room. it's huge. my eyes widen more amazed by the mirror. it looks so fancy. i step in front of it and admire the design on the edges.

my thoughts are interrupted by bill crawling out from the side and as soon as our eyes meet he freezes. "UGH!" he says dramatically and i smile. "i thought you left! i was gonna switch spots." he whines while standing up, he crosses his arms over his chest and rolls his eyes. i giggle at him. "see. told you i'm better at hide and seek." i said proudly. "NOW COUNT TO 30 AND TYRN AROUND!" i shout while running out of the room.

as i slow my running down i look back and hear bill. "1!... 2!... 3!... 4!..." shoot i'm wasting time. i think as i creep down the stairs. i walk into the living room and approach the tv stand. i notice the 2 cabinet doors quickly and smile to myself as i open one. this stand is a decent size i should be able to fit. i get down and crawl inside. i adjust to get more comfortable and close the door. i sit in silence for what feels like forever before i hear someone enter the living room.

i stay quiet and eventually hear them walk out. i hear the person head upstairs and i let out my deep breaths. (u guys ever hide so good that the air quality is horrible but u risk it to win. i did that shit all the time and won everytime. 😈) suddenly the cabinet door opens and i was about to say something, but i stopped and grew confused to see another boy who looks like bill. he smiled and laughed at me.

this made me more confused. "shhhh. you'll get me caught!" i whispered. "relax. bill is dumb. he won't know. who are you anyway?" he raised his brows. "y/n. bills friend." i said simply. "who are you?" i questioned. since i'm a grade below bill and, the only reason me and bill met is because he came into my class to present for a club he was in, i'm unfamiliar with everyone else in his grade. and i haven't seen him at school.

safe to assume he's bills brother since they look a lot alike. but was he older? or was this the twin he was talking about? "im tom." he replied. "bills twin...?" i questioned. he nodded and we stared at each other for a moment before he yelled. "BILL SHES DOWN HERE!" he looked back at me and chuckled. my eyes widened and bills running was heard in the distance, until he peaked his head down to look at me. "tom! why did you tell!" i shouted.

bill and tom laughed. "i invited tom to help me!" bill smiled as tom moved away and stood up. i crawled out and stood up aswell, brushing myself off. i crossed my arms and looked at the two annoyed. "dumbies." i mumbled and walked away. the boys continued to laugh before bill came up to me, tagging me on the shoulder. "TAG YOUR IT!" he yelled as the boys ran away. my frown turned into a smile as i shook my head and ran after them.

***

and that was the first

time i met tom. we would all play everytime i came over after that but tom would always say mean things to me. it made me sad but i got over it quickly. i never showed him how it made me feel, but when he would say things like that he would always laugh. he would constantly mock me and there was times bill heard and kicked him or gave him a slap on the back of his head. it usually made tom stop laughing and instead get annoyed with his brother.

*4 years later*

it's my 14th birthday and of course i spent it with bill. at this point he was my only friend. i didn't care that i had one friend, but he was busy alot more. and he doesn't go to my school. he stopped going after they formed a band with georg and gustav. they were more busy and there parents decided homeschooling would be best. i was sad when i got the news but happy that bill was doing something he enjoyed.

since they had tours to go on i went with them and stayed hidden from the public. i have anxiety especially when it comes to people. so bill made sure he could spend time with me, and keep me away from the media. he's my bestfriend. and i appreciate him for everything. so once they finished their show and came back to the hotel all the guys came into bills room.

where i was waiting for them to finish. i smiled at bill as he rushed to me. "HAPPY BIRTHDAY Y/N!" he said excitedly. he climbed onto the bed and pulled me into a hug. he squeezed me tightly before pulling away. "thank you billy bob." i laughed. "hey." he made a fake serious face and pointed at me. "we talked about this." i chuckled as he spoke before gustav interrupted. "happy birthday." he smiled and sat on the other bed.

i returned the smile and thanked him before georg sat next to gustav. "happy birthday!" he also smiled. i thanked him aswell and felt the bed dip down. i looked over at tom who was now sat on the corner of the bed looking down at his phone. "tom. don't be rude say happy birthday." bill said and flicked toms hat. tom looked at bill with furrowed brows then looked back down at his phone. "happy birthday." he said dryly. i laughed a little and looked at bill who was also laughing.

"thank you so much tom! that's the sweetest thing you've ever said!!" i joked making him look over at me. "you are so welcome!" his voice full of sarcasm as he faked a smile. his attention went back to his phone and the rest of the boys laughed aswell as me. bill sat down again and started telling me the plans for the rest of the night.

#tom kaulitz x reader #smut #tom kaulitz smut #tom kaulitz #tokio hotel #tokyo hotel

[latenightshoww]

zero intamacy

wanted to break a couple of hearts cause valentines day is today

For as long as she could remember, Y/N had always fallen for the wrong guy. Whether that be a handsy jerk or an inattentive listener, Y/N had always picked someone who didn’t really care about her the way she wanted them to.

But that all changed when she met Chris Sturniolo. No one had ever made her feel the way Chris made her feel. Everytime their hands brushed or he gave her that glowing smile, she felt her stomach fill with butterflies. She was completely and irreversibly smitten.

So, when Chris asked her if she wanted to go to a party with him and his brothers she immediately said yes. It would be perfect! It was Valentine’s Day and the mood of the party would give her the confidence she needed to confess her feelings to him.

Y/N heard the blare of a horn outside and she quickly rushed to put on some lip gloss, she ran outside where she saw the familiar van parked by the curb. She hopped into the car where she was immediately greeted by Nick and Matt.

“Hey,” Chris turned in his seat and smiled at her.

“Hi,” she replied, quickly shooting a smile back at him.

“Can we go now,” Nick whined, earning an eye roll from Matt, who despite being annoyed, quickly raced off into the night.

Y/N felt herself move along with the music. The house was completely red, bathing everyone in a reddish glow, several balloons were floating among the ceiling heart shaped and small in size. Plenty of people were dressed up in red and pink and some were even dressed as cupids to go along with the theme.

Y/N locked eyes with Chris across the room, he was smiling and having a good time as he danced and sung to one of his many favorite songs, Y/N felt herself smile as well.

Then a slow song came on and several couples started to dance with each other, Y/N decided this was her chance to get to talk to Chris.

She tapped him on the shoulder, “You want to dance?”

His smile slipped a little, surprised by the question but seeing the want in her eyes he shrugged and said, “Ok.”

As Chris placed his hands on her waist, she felt herself shudder. She wrapped her arms around his neck, and they began to sway to the beat. Being this close to him, she could see the faded freckles littering his face, she could smell his cologne and she smiled to herself thinking how safe she felt in his arms.

He looked at her and raised a brow, a little confused but amused, “I feel like I’m in middle school again, you know? It’s kind of corny.”

She felt her confidence slip a little but she pressed on, “Chris, can I tell you something?”

“Yeah sure what’s up,” giving her his undivided attention.

“I—I have feelings for you.”

“Oh.”

Y/N now could fully feel her confidence waver but for some reason her mouth kept moving, “You’re just like no one I’ve ever met before. You make me feel so….,” but as she said this he let go of her.

He shoved his hands into his pockets and he signed, “Y/N you know how much I care about you but I don’t feel the same way. You’re awesome and all but I only see you as a friend and I’ll only ever see you that way. Im sorry if I gave you the wrong idea.”

Y/N felt as if her skin was on fire, she could feel the thousands of eyes on her, on them. She struggled to find the words, oh god the way Chris was looking at her with pity in his eyes. She wanted to throw up, to be swallowed into the floor.

“Um ok,” was all she could bring herself to say. Had she tried to say anymore she would have burst into tears.

“Y/N—“ but she didn’t hear the rest, because she was running outside. As she felt the cool air wrap around her, Y/N felt tears slip down her face. She called an Uber and threw herself in the car the minute it arrived. She felt herself relax against the leather seats, beginning to calm down.

She felt her phone buzz and a sick and twisted part of her hoped that it was Chris, saying it was just a joke that he really did care about her and he wanted to be with her. But as she opened the notification, she was horrified at the result. It was one of those instagram accounts dedicated to exposing all the details about influencers and celebrities lives, a picture of Chris flashed crossed across the screen.

The worst part?

It was a picture of Chris in the party they had just been in, passionately kissing another girl. The post reading, “chris sturniolo allegedly kissing his girlfriend at a party?! can you say happy valentines day?!”

#chris sturniolo x reader #christopher sturniolo #chris sturniolo x y/n #chris sturniolo x you #chris sturniolo #sturniolo x reader #nick sturniolo #matt sturniolo #sturniolo triplets #nicolas sturniolo #matthew sturniolo #matt sturniolo x reader #Spotify

[k4g3hika]

WELCOME HOME ━ imagine!

eddie munson x fem! reader

summary: eddie’s life is stressful, and then there’s you to fix it all.

genre: fluff

wc: 752

note: i’ve been writing sm fluff and im pretty sure it’s because i’m in my feels.

Eddie closes the van door and groans while rubbing his neck. Everything was piling up for him. All he wanted to do was finally graduate this year, but it seems that everything was trying to block him from doing so. Hawkins High seems to love him so much that it would never want him to leave. 

Lucky enough for you however, you already graduated the previous year. And by already scoring a job in the local grocery store, you’re just waiting for Eddie to be done with school so that the both of you can finally move to your cousin’s rental in California. That sounds easy enough. 

If it wasn’t for Eddie’s horrible, terrible, and drastic grades. 

Sighing out of frustration, Eddie started up his van, beginning his journey home. Fortunately, he had more things to think about other than school, because his campaign went great. Though you weren’t there to see it, Eddie completely smashed the club with his campaign that he was planning all week for, so he was at least feeling good about that. 

To top off this night, all he wanted to do was eat some junk in his cupboards, and watch a garbage movie, with you. After convincing his uncle, you moved in with him a couple months ago. It’s not like Eddie expected you to be a housewife or anything, but ever since then, the trailer was cleaner and the aroma was better since in your free time, you either baked or cooked. It was also great for Eddie since he can now branch out to different ways to sell and eat his weed. 

He finally pulled into the trailer park and turned off his van. Jumping out excitedly, Eddie fumbles with his keys before gently, pushing open the door. The smell of different sauces and spices infiltrated his head, and his happiness only began to increase. 

“Eddie! Welcome home!” You smile at him, going up to kiss him. 

“Hey sweetheart,” He wraps his arms around your waist, “how was your day?”

“Oh my god, it was great! Let me tell you all about it. Today, we got a new shipment at the store…” you pull away from him, rambling on and on about your day. All Eddie could do was smile. It wasn’t like he was annoyed at you, it’s just you talking and him listening was something he looked forward to everytime he came home. “And yeah! Then Luke came and my shift was over. Anyway, I cooked some spaghetti. Let me prepare your plate and you can talk about your campaign. Did it go well?”

“Y’know it did.” Closing the pot, you take the two plates into your hands and put them onto the little table to eat. After sitting down and him talking about his great campaign, the night was filled with your laughs and gasps. Nights like these were his absolute favourite. 

But throughout the whole time, Eddie couldn’t stop looking at your eyes and the smile that broke out on your face. Dungeons and Dragons wasn’t all that appealing to most, as everybody in Hawkins called it the ‘devil’s game’, but to the club, him, and especially you, it was the most fascinating thing to ever exist. Even though you didn’t play the game, you were just as interested as anybody else. 

“Y/N?” You look up from your plate and smile.

“Yeah?”

“I love you.” You stop chewing, making eye-contact with him and tilting your head. 

“I love you too…but where is this coming from Eds?” He reaches over, wiping sauce from the corner of our lips, leaving his hand there to hold it. Staring lovingly into your eyes, you can only continue smiling, but stay confused at his words. 

“Thank you, for being my home. You’re the one thing I look forward to when I sleep and when I wake up.”

“Eddie! That’s so cheesy.”

“I know. And I know this doesn’t sound like me at all, but you’re the best thing that has ever happened to me.” Silence ensues between you both. Until, you start to cry and reach over to him to sit on his lap. You hug each other tightly and he buries his nose into your neck. 

“I love you Eddie. Thank you for everything. I can’t imagine my life without you.”

“I love you too sweetheart.”

#stranger things #eddie munson fluff #eddie munson #eddie munson x reader #joseph quinn #stranger things 4 #netflix #k4g3hika's posts #joseph quinn fanfiction

[not-goldy]

I'm observing too. Either its baiting fans on purpose or its their quirky love language or Jk wants Jm's attention even when he leaves and Jm takes the bait everytime. And its a point made to do it publicly. Esp when we know they have each other's numbers and group chat. Inchresting. I'm pretty sure Jk has a secret IG too and this is how he times posting with Jm the last few times he posted on TikTok right after Jm posted on IG. He wants that connection to Jm. In music. His style. His dance, even when posting. He does it on weverse. Did it on IG, now on TikTok. Its an established pattern. There is no doubt whatsoever Jk sees everything happening with Jm. He told on himself by watching all Jm's content and saying he saw it all, even what he didn't watch with us. His posting after Jm tells on him. His algorithm told on him and played Jm videos automatically and his playlist told on him & played Jm songs automatically. It's interesting to see them keep this pattern up for years though. Number connection, posting back to back. Now Jimin leaving and Jk going live or posting ramen.

What gets me is Jm will make this public post and ask Jk to cook for him, but then turn around and say he hasn't seen him or he hasn't cooked for him when asked. He shoots himself in the foot doing that. Esp when JK told the world publicly already, YOU KNOW I WILL, OF COURSE I WILL DO IT FOR. So we know he is not the reason why its not happening. Same way we know he is not the reason why we aren't getting that Jikook live yet. He is ready to do all that. He was willing to cook it & go live. So if you are being truthful & he didn't cook yet or you didn't go over to get it, why even mention it publicly in the first place, just to turn around and say it didn't happen? Kinda sets them both up. (we know Jm got it though, but that's our little secret). Then we end up with "Jimin has to beg for food, but Jk won't cook for him, but cooks for others willingly blah, blah, blah bullshit from antis). Where was the 'willingly' in ITS2 where Tae basically had to drag Jk's ass out of the chair and annoyed him til he did cook? Straight up pulled the hyung card for food. Willingly flew out the window. He had no choice LOL. IDK, Unless Ramen as in food is not the Ramen Jimin wants or talking about. SMIRKS. IDK maybe I'm delulu and just overthinking everything.

I would like to talk about this in all seriousness but-

It's 2023, baiting fans is old and tired.

They shouldn't do that. Don't do that jikook.

Don't do that.

I'm over this whole fan service thingy and it's starting to get on my nerves each time I see it.

Playing tricks on us like who raised you!

We are grown adults AND YOU LOT ARE NOT CHILDREN ANY MORE TALKING BOUT FAN SERVICE-

IF I GRAB YOUR THROAT JIKOOK.

We don't need two grown male adults to play pretend anything to be happy. Stop with the fan service just stop.

We want real organic and authentic interactions.

And Park Jimin didn't you say you hate fake interactions and friendships? Why you masterminding this deception 😭😭😭😭😭😭😭

I personally like to believe and hope they do these cute public interactions because they ACTUALLY enjoy talking to eachother in this way. Which is fine, no one is judging.

they've always given off that exhibitionist streak though over time they've learned to tone it down- which is cool- I just dont know how I feel about that- but it's cool. I SAID IT'S COOL.

COOOOOOOOOOLLLLLLLAH.

ALL GOOD.

IM OKAY

You hear me JJK? IT'S COOL.

Keep your relationship to yourself don't share

Since yall got your BB1 and you got everything now.

And you're professionals and disciplined keep your relationship to yourself then. Don't share.

No. No but why????

Why so stingy Jikook wwwwwyyyy😭😭😭😭

And I know the answer but whhhhyyyy🤧

I am not one to judge or shame couples who like to put their relationship on display- God knows we've all fooled around and screwed in places we shouldn't have. I have sucked titties, eaten my gf out in the back seat of our uber ride and gotten myself figured in a room full of campers at church camp. I am not one to Judge.

And you'd think I did all this several years ago- think just last week. A WHOLE ADULT. Sometimes you just can't help it. Things happen. When you are caught, you feel shame for a while a promise not to do it again because you are a home bred, disciplined and self respecting individual- then you go and do it again 😊

I know it does something for Jikook when they do these things but if they don't like it then they need to stop.

No one is forcing them to be "friends" so no need to put up a performance of friendliness for us. We are not hybe. You don't owe us anything.

Matter fact, yall could decide not to speak to each other again and there's nothing we can do about it.

Yall could decide not to post anything on each other's birthday.

What are we gonna do? Cry? Weep? Wail?

The tantrums we throw over your non interaction does not warrant the wool you throw over our eyes😩

Set yourselves free and set us free

THE DAY I FIND OUT ALL THESE TWO NINJAS BEEN DOING OUT HERE SINCE POST SOLO ANNOUNCEMENT IS FAKE ELABORATE THEATRICS TO SELL TSHIRTS I WILL PERSONALLY HAUNT THEM IN THEIR SLEEP WITH THE FULL FORCE OF MY ANCESTORS

[askkaimeilu]

"What cryptonloids say about each other" chart (my hc :3)

Im sorry if it is so bad!!

Rin Kagamine 🍊

Len - My brother is a boring gremlin, like.. When and where i can sale away him and get my cashback?

Miku - She may be a weirdo. But i like her much more than Len.

Meiko - U CAN'T TELL ME WHAT TO DO! YOU - NOT MY MOM >:c

Luka - Dunno where did she got a patience for my pranks..>:/ But i will do my best to annoy her to see her true self! >:D

Kaito - really love playing video games with him is fun. At least he's not acting like an crybaby when i winning him. >;3

Len Kagamine 🍌

Rin - my sister is a gremlin, like, remember those weirdos from that movie, y'know? I hope that it isn't her true form yet.

Miku - she is a diva, okay? The, as you say, creator of minecraft and that wizard with lightning scar. From self i can say that i'm addicted to her, i think? ¬///¬

Meiko - i love hanging out with Mei-san, i guess. Like, she can give you some good advice, if you want to of course, because if its opposite, Meis unneeded advices are so-o freaking annoying...

Luka - Uhh.. what can i say about her? Shes sweet and very nice woman.. Luka-nee is that one whom i can rely.

Kaito - "best friend forever". i think i can rely on him when i`d be need this.. Plus, i bet that he'll beat Rin in the videogames.

Miku Hatsune 🌱

Rin - my bestie! I love hanging out with her! And she is actually really kissable, just, look at her cheeks! >w< Isn't she cutie?!

Len - another bestie!! I think he has that thing that elders call "emo phase"..? By the way, i really really really like him! As a friend of course! ^w^

Meiko - my sensei! She taught me everything i know! Except using wrist-world bands, i taught it by myself :). Mei-chan doesn't tell me but i think that she overgood friends with Luka-nee.

Luka - nee-chan! The one, who always here for me! :3 I dunno why some peeps think that Lu-nee is cold - she is really warm and sweet 'loid! If she wasn' t shy in front of others - many people would've seen her good nature!

Kaito - onii-chan! He is my big emotional support! X3 I'm so glad to be his friend! Actually, cause of Kai-nii loyality, he reminds me of labrador! XD

Meiko Sakine-Shion🍷

Rin - who raised this child? She needs some milk.. And oranges. Pretty sure that she overwatched some spy-movies and now thinks thst she is the one.

Len - thinks that he has a mid-life crisis, even though he is a 15 years old. Pretty sure that Len-kun is in love with Miku, but she doesn`t know about it.

Miku - I taught her some skills i know by myself. A little thing that i find weird is that MiMi is into some weird technologies.

Luka - cotton candy baby! We've know each for a long time, and i think i can't stop finding her as a cute one. I really LOVE making LuLu red-faced. UwU

Kaito - my childhood friend, first love and husband! (pretty much titled, isn't it?) I never found and never will find someone who is so nice and sweet as KaiKai. I can even proudly say that he is the love of my life.

Luka Megurine 🐟

Rin - little sister figure. She may looks very naughty, but i believe that she`s a good girl inside.

Len - little brother figure. He is such a baby boo. Really hope that it's just a phase..

Miku - she is really sweet girl. Miku-chan looks like a air head at first sight, but she is an extraordinary one. Who knows, maybe one day she will be the first one to be on planet Venus?

Meiko - Mei-chan is.. *dreamy sigh*.. She and Kai-san are my world, i can`t imagine my life without them. Mei is very beautiful, attractive, kind, reliable and everytime when looking at her eyes, it feels like something out of this world.. U////U

Kaito - when we were teens, i've never considered Kai-kun as my lover. I always knew him as kind, sweet, honest and loyal one. But slowly, i realised that we can be more, than just friends.. Now, Kaito is one of the few people whom i trust more than myself. ^^

Kaito Shion

Rin - oh! She is funny yet naughty little one. When i have weekends, Rin-chan invites me to play video games.

Len - Len-kun is a little brother i've never had. Sometimes, he wants to do a revolution, but it is just a teen phase!

Miku - she is a good girl! Since she is a teen, i feel like a big brother figure for her, sometimes Miku says that i am just a dog is really..! ..something?

Meiko - my wifeyy! ;w; Love her so much! She is my first my last and my everything! I will do everything to her to make her the happiest woman in the world! So happy that i'm her husband!! TwT

Luka - my another love! She is the sweetest girl i've ever met in my life! Lu-chan is so fragile, it makes me want to protect her at all costs! >< I know that you can't marry to third parther, but i consider her as my wife!

#vocaloid headcanons #kaito #meiko #megurine luka #luka megurine #vocaloid #lukamei #kaimei #meiluka #kaimeiluka #mikulen #lenku

[yuukei-yikes]

Tell us about Shinaya’s breakup :D

HEHDJEIDNEKFJEKDKEK ive had this ask since i posted i was thinking abt it MAN i cannot express to u i just. I WANNA WRITE A FIC SO BAD but AUGH im so bad at it it makes me cringe i cant do that but its basically like all my damn posts together u know. i keep thinking of shintaro's disastrous relationships post str going from ayano to kano to takane etcetc sorry im playing with him like a stress toy making him go thru hell but its so fun

srry i dont wanna have to rewrite a lot of stuff so erm im liking this answer 🫡🫡🫡 and i could link a bunch more just so u SEE MY VISION... but i think linking that is enough. ON AND OFF SHINAYA MY BELOVED

shintaro and ayano sort of having this ridiculous relationship because both are hurting and jumped in a relationship too quick but fighting/being sad about stupid shit is so much easier than dealing with their actual issues that they've got with themselves. like focusing on each other and what they don't like about each other and their relationship is so much easier than crying about how suicidal they are. lollllll SO LIKE this insanity sort of saves them at the same time??

i mean the most ideal would be that instead of getting together they got therapy and the normal kind not the relationship kind. you know. but also theyre traumatized and ugh. its so much easier to resent each other than themselves. its so much easier to be petty. its such a relief to cry over relationship problems than over timeline resets or dead parents and etc. YOU GET ME?????

they keep breaking up and getting back together ridiculously like it is 1000% so dramatic each and everytime. ayano crying her eyes out like its the end of the world and shintaro making 100 sad playlists. and it happens at least monthly. the first time everyone's like WHOA THEY BROKE UP!?!? SHIT!! the second time its like heyyy maybe they'll work it out like last time!! third time its like are you joking. fourth time they're already begging them to stop. by they i mean the dan but especially takane by the way. who do you think is picking up the pieces.

and by the way the one breaking up all the time and being dramatic as hell is shintaro. he gets angry and annoyed and weaponizes the LETS BREAK UP thing because he DOESNT MEAN IT. like he knows he and ayano will work it out later. he gets comfortable again. not to get on the ayano surviving thing, but i think ayano (and hiyori but especially ayano) making it out alive undoes a big part of the message abt moving on. like i love her so im not complaining thats i love having her alive :3 but i like to translate this into shintaro like. he's intensely trying to repress/process all the memories of the other timelines to cope and have a normal life and ends up being this way because he's sort of self sabotaging himself. like ayano's alive and she likes me??? lol. ok?? ill wake up any moment now!! and he feels guilty and undeserving and is sort of a dickhead to her in an unconscious attempt of keeping her away because that's what he deserves according to him. also why he's accepting of takane's intense obsession with him lol bc she's familiar and she is comfortable, unlike ayano who is so rare and one in its kind in all the timelines. he is sort of terrified of her in a way.

the lets break up isnt rly a breakup. its just a leave me alone see u later. LOL i think we talk too much abt kanoshin bringing the worst in each other but what about shinaya. they do that too. yeah we CAN have fluffy shinaya. but like i said it is so easy to focus all this bitterness and sadness into each other and it's so relieving to be sad and angry about this rather than everything else. because this is sort of in their control while everything else isn't, wasn't. and its so unfair. of course its unfair!! but they cant do anything abt it. so they just go crazy on each other. ayano is DESPERATE to be needed. i could link more replies but i will hold myself back. basically her siblings are used to being alone/know she has her own problems and ayano is dealing with this emptiness and feeling of failure bc no one needs her, from her perspective her sacrifice still failed to save everyone, her parents are gone so she needs to step up. like she puts herself under all this pressure and feels Not Good Enough for ANYTHING. and she is dating shintaro.

it's EASY to bother him and try to get him to open up and etc so she ridiculously focuses on that. but it gets on shintaro's nerves to say the least LOL plus all his other issues i mentioned 🫡plus she keeps being like we have to be normal. lets kiss and hold hands and cuddle. but she's too embarrassed to say it/do it and shintaro is even more pathetic about it. so theyre both frustrated about everything and can barely even sit next to each other without acting insane.

AND SORRY BUT I WILL TALK ABT TAKANE🫡💞💗💖💝💕💘ofc. codependent shintaka. of course. it drives ayano CRAZY because on top of all their problems takane is able to talk sense into shintaro each and every single time. and she is soooo jealous like she knows its stupid but she cant help ittt i ALSO TALKED ABT THIS SORRY I KEEP REPEATING MYSELF IM JUST SO CRzy abt it. hehe......the whole mess bringing drama to harutaka too bc shintaro and ayano are so messy theyre contagious is so fun to me. when it comes to shintaro and takane's horrible relationship both their romantic relationships suffer for it but deal with it completely differently. while both haruka and ayano deal with jealousy somewhat, ayano is so hurt and already at the verge of a mental breakdown so she's focusing so many negative emotions on it and AGAIN it just serves as another point of argument between shintaro and ayano while haruka is like. his mental state isnt as convoluted as ayanos, he's rather freaking out and terrified of being left alone. THIS IS ABT SHINAYA so i wont get into harutaka side but lol. heh. Looks at it. zooms in it. like what i mean is that haruka and takane talk and work through it and are like sighs yeah...this is messed up while shintaro and ayano are using it against each other instead of working on it LMAO

ANYWAYS. ayano breaks up with shintaro. vine boom. total breakdown moment like everyone out of the room i wanna talk to you alone. and this time its for REAL. like ayano isnt confrontational at all, all their arguments are always her being pushy abt idk mental health and shintaro's like godddd STOPPPPP and ayano crying and shintaro being like I CANNOT DEAL WITH THAT. IM SORRY I GUESS. CAN U GET OUT OF THE ROOM. WE'LL TALK LATER. but he also sucks so bad at letting the other person know they can count on him so he kind of assumes ayano will do it when she's ready because he KNOWS she's in pain. like. ofc it could go well. ofc shintaro and ayano could work through everything with kindness and comprehension for each other but they're both so sad and suddenly find themselves annoyed at each other one time and it felt so freeing to do that that they just keep doing it. especially shintaro. having ayano be mad at him is sort of relieving because he feels undeserving of her and its like yeah. Yeah!! i know its ooc but shinaya screaming match.god. sorry but all their bottled up emotions abt everything and they take it out on each other for no reason other than theyre giving each other the space and it plays out that way. theyre acting crazy about something so stupid like shintaro not wanting ayano to wear his clothes or whatever. like they scream about that but its not about that. it just feels so good to scream. it feels so good to scream and let it out even if they haven't given themselves the time to process that theyre not... actually screaming abt that at all. theyre screaming about everything else. not even about each other. its about themselves. its always been.its never been about each other. when it is, its stupid. thats why they do it. its just easier. God. they were just not ready for a relationship, especially not one with each other out of all people.

ayano breaks first, therefore dumps shintaro lol. he goes thru his own fucked up arc afterwards while ayano gets help. my man spirals DOWN. whether they get back together or not depends on my mood 🤨 but if they do, its by the time theyre in their mid twenties or something so a few years later LOL i picture them dating like for over a year maybe?? when theyre 18/19. hehe.

like. do you get it.

#ask tag #headcanons #HEH... #ayashin divorce

[m1ckeyb3rry]

i just finished the chapter AND OH MY GOD. it was so cute and sweet but absolutely heartbreaking at the same time. toge and panda broke me☹️☹️☹️ i love hana sm and i love the way you portray her bc she seems like such a sweet person and i really love how y/n tries to befriend her and not make her feel unwelcome

yuta just continues to raise my standards, that man is the greenest flag to exist and the way he loves y/n so much makes me bang my head against a wall. they’re everything to me and they’re literally the definition of what love is

maki is my baby, her and y/ns relationship is so pure and you can see how much they care for each other. i feel like their love for one another doesnt have an explanation, its more than just platonic love, they’re literally soulmates

TULLIA UGHHHHHHH everytime shes mentioned my heart drops to the ground and i miss her so so so so much. it shatters my heart the way she never got to confess to toge herself, they deserved so much better ☹️☹️

and gojo omg. y/n and gojos relationship may be my favourite in the entire series. i love how much they care for each other and the way they’re literally siblings. the photo album ABSOLUTELY killed me, it was so thoughtful and so sweet and fr the best gift you can ever give someone. it makes me really sad that its probably the last thing she’ll ever get from gojo (if the story goes there (PLS DONT IM GONNA SOB AND SCREAM))

all in all, i absolutely loved this chapter but it felt like the calm (if you can call it that really) before the storm and im so not ready for the next chapter. it kills me that pi is ending so soon, i’ll miss it so much and i’ll miss all the characters and inside jokes of the book, but im still really excited to know what happens and see everything get revealed (im gonna be screaming crying shaking and dying on the floor)

toge and panda the forgotten favs 😫 i’m like 99% sure that’s the last time we’re going to see those two and they’ve been there since the BEGINNING so it was so bittersweet writing that chapter 😔 but HANAAA i love her sm she deserved sm better from the fandom and from gege as a whole i will always defend her. the whole trend of female characters obsessed with the male main characters that dgaf abt them is so annoying and disappointing to me tbh especially because hana had so much potential to be such an interesting character given her powers and dynamic with angel. so i tried to expand on her just a little bit!! maybe in another fic i’ll focus on her more because she really is so cool.

YUTA IS SO SWEET he is THE boyfriend of all time like the biggest gentleman ever i love him sm 😢 he’s just so kind and loving and ugh i can’t

maki and y/n really do escape definition tbh. like i couldn’t tell you WHAT they are but whatever it is it’s a very very pure form of love and they are so dear and important to me. their relationship (along w y/n and yuta’s ofc) definitely exemplifies the core of pi and idt the story would be the same without it at ALL

the tullia mentions are so sad for me too because i’ve actually never killed her off before so it’s weird to write something without her there in some way shape or form. her and toge deserved sm more than they got fr.

GOJO AND Y/N. that’s it that’s the sentence…as much as the romance in pi is central to it i think the bond between gojo and y/n is just as important. they kill me every time because they didn’t get as much time as they deserved together (#l/nclanslander) but they still love each other more than anything. the photo album had me sobbing especially describing all of the pictures from the first half of the story 😭 it felt so end credit scene if that makes sense?? and just reminded me that this entire ridiculous journey is almost over ☹️ no spoilers for what will happen to everyone hehehe you will have to wait and see

THIS CHAPTER TRULY IS IT. the calm before the storm the last time we see everyone…it truly will be the end of an era once pi is over (which is so so soon) i’m going to feel so empty for a bit and it’s going to be so odd to not be able to write more adventures of the pi crew (but at least that means asftd and h/h can get back to being updated regularly again!!)

#answered asks #pomegranate ink

[forlorn-crows]

The way you write transmasc bodies really lets the appreciation you have for them shine, and it makes for for such a hotter reading experience. It always comes across as appreciative, but never fetishized.

ksljfkasdjfjfslk sainntttt that means so much. truly.

ive never said much about this topic but everytime i write trans characters or even reblog something about trans bodies/people in general, it only ever comes from a place of love. im not trans myself, but ive been tightly attached to that community for a long time. like i said previously, the first person i ever dated was a trans man. i was with them before they were even fully out, was with them through hormones and family issues and even top surgery. and they still stand to be my longest friendship. we werent right for each other as partners, but he taught me so many valuable lessons that i will never take for granted. i dont know if id be the same person i am today if i hadnt met him. i have a degree in gender studies for fucks sake.

and im not saying all this to be that annoying ally that has to quantify every interaction they have with a trans person. i really hope it doesnt come across that way, and i dont even know why i feel the need to talk about this. but i hope that it offers some deeper understanding/meaning to why i write trans characters the way i do. and it means so much to see other people say they can tell through my writing, or that the way i write helps them with their own body image--that especially makes my heart so full, especially when i struggle so much with my own body as a cis person (though i too question how cis i am every other day lskdf)

anyway. i love trans ghouls and trans people. and if i can make a safe place for that in my writing, and a safe place with me as a person, i fucking will. bc trans people fucking deserve it. they deserve so much and society is so cruel to them for no fucking reason.

thank u, saint <3

#i dont know why im writing all this #i just have a lot of feelings and i hope anyone trans in this community knows how much i love them #ask #(and that means NB genderfluid nonconforming whatever. always the umbrella term) #saint

[freckledbastard]

i guess if i had to sum up my feelings on ffvii rebirth, it would be like this: for the most part the game was incredible, but the way side quests were tied to affection points actively discourages players from completing any said side quests until after the gold saucer date scene had played out.

BIG SPOILERS FOR REBIRTH ENDING (warning: this gets rambly the way my posts always do - oh god its so long)

a bigger thing is of course, what everyone is talking about: the ending. they were so desperate to do a will they-wont they with aerith's death and in the end the answer to 'is aerith going to die' was... kinda.

i couldnt quite tell you what actually happened, but this is my current understanding. cloud simultaneously saves/fails to save aerith, which two timelines crashing into each other at the same time? or at the very least, the timeline cloud could see (where he manages to save aerith) is NOT the same as everyone else (who are experiencing the timeline where aerith dies) which is annoying, because it means we don't get to see the classic scene of cloud slowly lowering aerith's body into the lifestream EVEN THOUGH THATS SUCH A CLASSIC FFVII MOMENT.

but it also kind of funny, because everyone else is crying and cloud is just... so chill. and he warns everyone not to look up at the sky (where it's cracking due to timeline shenanigans) and then when they look up and see nothing clouds like EXACTLY. its an illusion and dont trust it. and spirit!aerith is going around and saying her goodbyes to everyone, not that they can see her, and cloud is still chilling because i guess to him, she's just staying back to focus on her praying? while everyone else is actively mourning her.

sephiroth's manipulations of cloud in this game sure was something as well. my man was going out of his WAY to gaslight/mentally traumatise cloud good lord. sephiroth reminded me a bit of godzilla from minus one because everytime cloud experienced any sort of happiness sephiroth was there to either actively fuck things up or to stand there menacingly and tell cloud to enjoy being happy while he can

also poor tifa good lord my girl is going through it. when cloud is like i remember zack omg shes like oh?? and clouds like yeah i let him be washed away in the river in nibelheim :'( and you can SEE her thinking 'no!!!!!! no!!!!! cloud that's not right at all!!!!!!!'

the thing with her in the lifestream though.... that was odd. and kinda felt unnecessary and like it was there to add some sort of plot related to the overall story - since otherwise the plot is very hmmm what should we do next.... just like og 1997 version.

idk, the whole timeline thing is weird. ALSO the fact that in the zack timeline, nanaki gives his life to try and save aerith and zack just goes thank you and runs off with aerith when i tell you i was screaming at the tv like ZACK NANAKI ISNT DEAD YET like i get after all the trauma he'd gone through he didn't want anything to happen to aerith and was even willing to dump clouds comatose body into kyries arms (who he didn't know) to run after aerith - which btw already made me sad like i get it!!! i get it!!!!!!! i too would singlehandedly devote everything to saving aerith but as a cloud and nanaki lover i was v sad!!!! anyway then when they kept shifting from the actual story to the zack cutscenes i was like im sorry zack but i dont actually care that much about this side plot i want to get back to cloud.

going back to the ending, i laughed a little when in the fight against sephiroth hes trying to manipulate cloud again but clouds like nuh uh thats not gonna work on me anymore!!!!! and then the ending cutscene shows cloud discovering he has the black materia on him, him saying 'reunion...' and then combining the black materia into his blade and knowing exactly where sephiroth is and its definitely due to SOLDIER intuition and nothing more i swear guys. cloud im so sorry you're definitely still being puppeted. also also i saw the japanese version of the scene where sephiroth first calls cloud a puppet and the build up is sepiroth saying that cloud doesnt actually experience emotions and he's deluding himself if he thinks they're real and in english he says 'for you're nothing more than a puppet. MY puppet' which is already fantastic, but in the japanese version instead hes like 'how cute, my empty puppet' which is even BETTER. please call cloud kawaii again sephiroth we love toxic yaoi in this household.

genesis wasnt in the game which im genuinely disappointed about. since crisis core reunion was remastered and theres a scene in the gacha game where sephiroth is trying to call genesis i thought there was high chance of him in the game. CLOUD THINKS HES DEGRADING (hes definitely not) AND THERE WAS NO GENESIS. no way hes not in the next game theres not a chance he's not. please i need cloud and genesis to look at each other and say lines please squeenix im begging you let my rare pair be vindicated in some way

speaking of rare pairs, vincent and cloud. they looked at each other and talked which basically means they're canon. vincents waist is SO tiny i was shooketh and then i saw how broad his shoulders were and I WAS SHOOKETH AGAIN actual dorito man.... hes so edgy in this game i was laughing at him so hard, shadow the hedgehog ass. when he gets on the plane and is like im joining you and clouds like 'if you betray us you're dead' i was thinking cloud sweetie im so sorry but if anyone is doing the betraying (unintentional or otherwise) its you

uhhhhhh what else. i went with nanaki for my gold saucer date which was v cute. cloud and nanaki had a handshake and cloud was like oh.. they ARE soft.... in relation to his paws which so soooo cuteeee. my team was cloud yuffie and nanaki. it'll be tough when part 3 comes out, because cloud and vincent are 100% permanent, but idk who will be the third person....

also is sephiroth trying to become the ruler of all the differ- wait sorry pivot, i just remembered zack and cloud fighting together against sephiroth, which is pretty funny because cloud still doesn't actually remember who zack is, not really. to him they're friends yeah, but friends because they were both in SOLDIER and cloud was unable to save him from being swept away from the river. meanwhile to zack, cloud is his dear friend but a friend he managed to save at the end of crisis core and is confused as to how biggs knows him. sephiroth is the ONLY one who actually knows what the hell is going on but hes sure as hell not saying anything because anything that makes cloud more susceptible to being sephiroth's is a win in his book ANYWAY sephiroth trying to take over all the different timelines? i guess?

ALSO ROCHE. theres NO WAY roche would have volunteered to be hojo's test subject like that theres literally no way. my personal theory is that sephiroth saw that cloud was experiencing positive emotions when he was with roche and his possessiveness flared up and he used the jenova cells in roche's body to basically make him volunteer to be hojos lab rat. anyway rip roche's mind, hes gone from us another one lost to the reunion i was so sad i loved roche i thought he was a lotta fun and a great new character, but of course that wasnt meant to be

im sure there are other things i wanted to say but im drawing a blank.

i did actually really really enjoy the game! i thought it was amazing, the combat was super fun i enjoyed the exploring (although as much as i like chadley i wish hed stop asking about the protorelics), the voice acting was incredible for the most part the story was really really good. i would HIGHLY recommend this game, even if you're not a big ffvii fan its so incredibly made and clearly made with a lot of love

my only real caveats are again, side quests being tied to the affection meter and them trying super hard to will they wont they with aeriths death to the point that they technically didnt commit either way

#final fantasy #ffvii rebirth #ffvii rebirth spoilers #ffvii spoilers #long post

[renewingagain]

monday 2 october 2023 // 10:38pm

sooooo the inevitable happened and rhys messaged me saying he doesnt he feels how he was feeling before and that he doesnt feel the romantic connection progressing.

i am annoyed that it took him a while to say that - however i acknowledge he is a busy individual i just wish i knew sooner so i wasnt fretting about. however im comparing a bit to when i felt the same towards max - i knew i wanted to tell him and be honest, but i wanted to do it when i actually had the time to think about what i wanted to say

i cant complain really - this is the dating game and this is how it works! you go on dates with people and see the vibe. people are allowed to change their mind, i have done it myself. i am just not used to being on the receiving end - in fact im pretty sure this is the first time this has ever happened to me so the feelings i am feeling right now feel weird and new

the message he sent me was actually nice. he mentioned he did genuinely have a lovely time with me and that i am a nice person, and said thank you for the mems. it is true - had a lovely time everytime i saw him, especially over pride. pride was wonderful and really good vibes. i got a bit carried away in my head about us because he made me realise that he has a lot of qualities i want in a person - especially things like someone who isnt shy, loves meeting people, and has a big heart to help people and someone who demonstrates selflessness

i figured it was when he first came over that i was a bit boring or something - but we then agreed to see each other again and he would tell me he misses me etc. then i went to his for a night in manchester - tbh i didnt have the best time just because the club was a bit boring. but dinner was nice and i enjoyed hanging with him and his friends. part of me is like uhhhhhh so when did it change. and also i acknowledge that we are in different cities - but in order to see if there is a romantic connection you have to put in some effort? which i dont really feel like i was getting after that manchester day. idk, my head is a bit spun over it. however he could have been feeling this whenever. there is 0 point in me trying to pinpoint when things changed and evaluate - im sure if i did something wrong he would have said. but he said he genuinely had a good time so its done now innit. i did really like him but i know i will get over it

if i was chatting to someone else in my position i would be like listen yeah, take the L, at least u know where u stand, and that there are over 8 billion people in this world - someone somewhere will literally love you for exactly who you are and you will find your person

SHOULD i even be looking for a relationship right now? see im conflicted on this - i totally do want a relationship, however, i am so so soooo busy with stuff and also i dont want to develop a relationship while im unsure as to where my life is going in terms of my career. i think this will become much more clearer once this job interview passes - i really hope i get it! gotta put in the work though!!!!!!!

once again, i want to be more loving to everyone, & in everything i do. 1 Corinthians 14:1 states to let love be your highest goal. how do i keep this attitude in everything i do? i don't want my mood to influence my actions and the way that i love and choose to love in certain moments. i really want to love wholeheartedly and selflessly in everything i do. i want to be kind. i know i am generally a kind person but i could be kinder and nicer. i love to make people feel good, loved, happy, encouraged. if they are feeling shit i want to make them better. people deserve happiness

on the flip-side i may be seeing lewie to chat through stuff as that kinda deaded off a bit but not in the way i intended. i do care about him, and he is owed my honesty

anyway im tired, but lets make love, fitness, and job interview the priorities these next couple weeks. i went on another run today and even did a couple pull-ups - boy do i feel so much better for it! it really helps my mental health

peace and love G

[lettersfrombeyondthegrave]

no okay i need to tell yall ab that guy. and more importantly how fucking much of a coward and a blind mfer i am.

yes im obsessing over a guy ill never see again thats beside the POINT. and theres a small chance id see him in a future convention in the next years, so. like, i see hot people all the time, yk thart dumb stereotype of ace ppl being cold and shit? ya no i am not interest in fucking but i am a bi mess at heart. falling in love every 3 fucking seconds. and i remember those cool ppl for a while but he, yk the butterfly thing? ya, that, im getting that, so i gotta get this off my chest.

so like, you know how fairs are, you got the tables with people seeling stuff and what not, he was in this one together with another person that was selling genshin related stuff and like i think they were paired cus they both got an anime art style and also just the vibes?

idk anyway they were also selling pride flag stickers. we're talking alt style person so he was dresed mostly all black and he had this sick ass eye makeup on, think new batman movie but more edgy mixed with like the people that like to cosplay vikings so they put a fuckton of black eyeshadow around their eyes but the borders were spikey like when people do corpse paint. i dont have time for a ms paint rendition so use your goddamn imagination

so we go to the table/booth? is that considered a booth? idfk, i get a genshin pin from the other person, the classmate i was with got a pride flag sticker from him and you gotta take in consideration, im not a backpack girlie. i stopped years ago putting them bitches on both of my shoulders, no i dont know how i havent developed scoliosis yet so its been a year i just bought a shoulder bag big enough to be annoying but not enough to put everything in.

listen totebags are cool but i need pockets and more space, im sorry. i think we need to address the fact that the straps dig into my shoulders and there's seriously not enough space. so he says something like "cool/nice bag" and i dont hear him at the start cus fair=music and voices going on and like bro was majestic so i needed few secs anyway to process what he could possibly say to my dumbass and im like ah thanks and mentally go into gay panic as we walk away to go look at other stuff. and the contact cards thingies with websites, social accounts etc.? ya i started collecting them so everytime i got to these events i take one from each and every person but i dont read them mostly in the moment and OMG I SHOULD HAVE.

because with this mfer? i never talked again for the rest of the event. yk when your eyes go back to someone in particular in a crowd? ya that. i do that alot. i did that a lot. but not talking, not approaching people, just like "you look so cool and interesting to me rn but i am not socially skilled so ill just admire you from here in a way i hope you wont notice cus this is not a romcom and id dig myself a grave. why do i say i should have read the little contact thing? yall, his account nicknames contained the word killjoy. i could have fucking went "oh killjoy? is it some reference to mychem?" AND I COULD HAVE DONE TWO MORE SECONDS OF CONVO. second reason why i should have: to check his socials and see whats the vibe NOT in a stalker way like those ppl that fucking spend weeks reconstricting the entire life of some guy. and if i checked his social, i would have found out he's a ftm person.

now, i talked about blindness at the start. because i fucking looked at this guy, dressed like that, literally selling pride stickers, most common white transmasc haircut ever and i was like "ya thats just a metal straight man i guess" I AM A FUCKING IDIOT "oh but what would have changed if you knew he had the trans swag" nothing but it's fucking HARD even when you're in art school finding people more similar to you in THAT sense, its like yo, i know a bit of whats like going through that. and also i wasnt expecting it cus he just fucking passed so good? like his confidence and attitude felt so much like just something a cis guy has, walking around the world, it's the type of shit that you dont feel like you could ever obtain? idk if im making sense rn, but ifykyk. its also just fuckky i was so fucking blind like no bestie!! mfer is in the community you're just an idiot.

so ya, morale of the story i need to learn how to socialize in the most basic way, im not even talking about flirting, just fucking normal comunication goddamn it.

also that bag gets me always compliments and i don't use all the potential its "attractive people magnet" power has, as demonstrated by this anecdote.

[cmiyglp]

Domesticated Situation

So yes, I took dude back and now shit is hitting the fan. Bro literally thought he was going to put his hands on me. Lets just rewind first. I usually work from home with any job that I have gotten since I have been out of the hospital. It’s been easier for me and I felt like that was something that I could continue doing but I ended up losing my job because my phone was broke and by the time payday came to get another it was too late. So at the time I was staying the night at my boyfriends house. This is literally not even a full 5 months since my cousin has passed away. I dont use my cousins death for sympathy but this is my first real death in the family and I have never dealt with anything like this so it is still fresh not only for me but my family as well. Since the passing, I have been house hopping and just recently I have been at my boyfriends house. This one particular night he had went to sleep, the entire day was fine we had fun and we even had sex a lot of the time that day... I mean we have sex a lot anyways but we are talking about this day. As he was sleep I had woke him up because I just wanted to know what I was to do that next day while he left. My boyfriend stays with both of his brothers and his niece but he has a weird ass brother that doesnt like people and he just sits in the room on game all day when he is not at work. I honestly knew what to do but this particular morning I just wanted to be annoying. It ended up turning from me asking him that to me getting an attitude on the response to us just getting into a full blown conversation. Within the conversation, we bring up eachothers past and how we both cheated on each other. Mind you, ngl I did tell him that I fooled around on him because I was intoxicated but this night I ended up being honest. He has been saying that I fooled around on purpose and this night I simply agreed. I literally only said “and I did”, mind yall I told this man about 4 months ago that I cheated on him. This man asks me to say it again twice and the second time after he cut on the light he literally slaps me straight in the face. It happened all so fast. By the time I could register what he did and what was going on, I felt something hard on my tongue that wasnt that prior. When I looked at my finger all I could see was a piece of my tooth on my hand. The whole time Im registering everything he is telling me that I need to leave and he is trying to pack my things. Yall I went to town. I got up and started pouncing on this man and little did I know he was pouncing on me too yall. This man punched me in my stomach, in my ribs.. This man even tried to choke me out man and it was all because I kept going back for more. We would fight and then he would throw me and let up off but I still went back for more because it just wasnt registering still. As we was coming to an end he punched me in my head so bad that my head was literally vibrating. I could barely breathe and I honestly didnt know what to do but the only thing I knew was that I didnt want to go home.. Crazy right? A man is literally beating you so bad and you still dont want to go home. So what? Instead of getting physically abused you are getting mentally and verbally? No. He wanted me to leave so bad that because I could barely breathe, he still tried to put on my pants. Everytime I would try to take my legs out of my pants he would punch my legs or my thighs to the point where i couldnt feel anything fr. He ended up giving up and leaving to go to the store and during that time I honestly just cried myself to sleep and when u thought it would stop there it didnt. He went to go and get wraps and when he came back he was still degrading. During all of this he was degrading me. He told me this is what bxtches get when they do what I did. How he didnt feel sorry for me because I shouldnve done what I did.. Just everything and more u can say to a person. I could barely walk by the time he came back from the store. I could barely get up, I could barely recognize who I was. After saying what he said, he ended up dragging me by my hair to the bathroom to shower so that I could pack my things and leave. I took and shower and just knew my cousin was behind me shaking his head. My cousin wouldve literally snapped that boy head off. He would have done way worse than that but for the sake of Tumblr we will just say that. I get out the shower and I am getting my things together and I go in the front and just ask him like are you proud? He is literally sitting in the front room listening to music and not having any care in the world about what he just did. How I was literally the only and the last person in his corner and he would do that to me? How I have been having my own problems and my own issues and how I have been putting him before all of that. How I spend more time with him than I do my own family because I had been feeling like his peace. How I wasnt sure that I knew of that person that came out of him. I went back in the room and got my things and were about to walk out and this man starts crying and asking me to stay. He blocked me in from the door to the point where I couldnt leave and begged me not to leave him It felt like a movie.. but maybe it only felt like a movie because I wasnt used to any of that. It felt like a movie because he was the last person I would have expected to ever hurt me like that. I always judged my cousin because she stayed with the man who abused her and here she is with almost 3 of his children and for the most part they are getting better. I always said that could never be me and here I was, her. Again, call me stupid if you want.. but I honestly wouldve taken me getting my ass beat all that morning than to go home. We were literally fighting til the sun had came up.. I dont know who I am. I dont know what this life I have ahead of me is promising me... But I just hope that I am able to make it to that point in my life because literally the worst of the worst has happened to me and the only thing that hasnt happened so far to me is that I AM NOT DEAD.

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