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akins-art · 10 months
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Me, stealing all the Caravaggios so Umbrella can't get their grabby little hands on them only for the art to get destroyed in some infested mansion in the middle of nowhere.
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princekirijo · 10 months
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Istg I actually need to sit down and write a proper bio for Riku because even I get confused af as to what his personality is sometimes.
#oc tag#“but prince he's your oc how tf did this happen” he has a mind of his own trust me#i mean this is literally one of the parts of his character he is literally so good at adapting his personality#because he felt he needed to as a kid both in school and in the business world#that barely anyone knows what he's actually like#like one minute he's a suave overconfident guy who can take on anything#but hes also the quiet dude in class who never participates is probably asleep but somehow gets everything right and is top of the grade#he loves to flirt but will absolutely blue screen if anyone flirts back because despite the fact he flaunts himself-#he doesn't think hes attractive LMAO#his biggest motivation is spite and he doesn't know when to quit#this boy has so many fucking issues istg#def one of those characters who has so many masks that he hardly knows himself#i have a fear that he's nearly too complex to the point where he's a confusing character and i personally dont think thats a good thing#so i really hope that's not the case for you guys 😬#over my break ive really spent time trying to iron out his character and just make him into soemthing im even more proud of you know#the good thing is that at least his story now has a clear arc and theme which im really proud of#so im gonna use that to build off and iron him out even more#the way i put more work into this funky dude i came up with than like my entire uni work#i love him so much sorry to be mentally ill about a guy i made because i liked a ship too much (and crossover i was having fun with too)#one day i will have a proper post for him with references and everything for him his outfits his personas the lot#one of these days
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yonpote · 3 months
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ok heres how i split up the dnp eras (loosely based on dan's timeline in his interview w anthony)
2009-2011: the Sillies era :3 dan refered to it as being a dumb teen just posting cuz he was bored, which is like, thats what all of youtube culture was at this time. they met and like fell in love or whatever you know the lore dont you. phil moved from his parents home to his first apartment in manchester, and dan technically moved to uni but really he moved into phil's apartment to take advantage of his washing machine and ps1 and. yknow. other stuff. they officially moved in together in 2011 yippee hooray, the phanchester apartment holds a special place in my heart
2012-2013: THE SHIFT. they started getting Serious about youtube as a career, doing more stuff w the radio, superamazingproject started in 2011 but THE SHIFT is very easy to observe when you compare the first season of sap to the last season. ALSO. they were NOT A DOUBLE ACT AND NOT GAY 🙄. it could also be called the No Homo era lmao idk this is when a lot of shitty things were happening wrt leaked information, harassment of their families, and just generally becoming more in the spotlight especially while still in the closet being a horrible experience. but also, they moved to london and got cool opportunities with radio stuff and were starting to actually make a living on this shit.
2014-2016: Peak Dan And Phil™ Era. at the height of their popularity. they realized oh shit, we ARE a double act and not only does everyone enjoy us best as a double act, WE enjoy working together. tabinof, tatinof, dapgo, still doing the radio every month up until they start touring, 7 second challenge app, gamingmas, what the hell DIDNT they do during this time period (what they didnt do was uhh take care of themselves and not overwork and not blur their work and personal lives so much to the point where they felt like the whole apartment was a film set.)
2017-2018: Gay Softlaunch Era (aka post-baking aka glass closet) the baby steps toward authenticity, moved to the double apartment to separate work and life, ii's whole theme, dan talking abt depression, phil getting the quiff, both of them being gay as hell in every way other than saying it explicitly. important things of note: TRUTH BOMBS dropped, Interactive Introverts happened, still uploading gaming vids and honestly by the end you could feel their fatigue. and then they hiatused dapg.
2019-2022: ok these four years each feel like whole eras in themselves, but also theres an overarching theme. THE GAY ERA.
2019: im gonna futher split this year in half. first half- dad left to buy milk so other dad is taking care of us. rough six months for dannies im sure. important phil thing of note- he changed his film set from his "bedroom" to a fairly basic but cute shelf backdrop. honestly prob didnt wanna keep pretending that was his bedroom considering.... second half- DAN AND PHIL GAY. dan uploads his magnum opus. phil comes out via tweet. they go to japan and its really gay and it's The Trip to japan for them like yes they first went in 2015 and again in 2023, but Japhan 2.0 Was The One. what does this mean? proposal? anniversary? idk exactly but it was gay as hell dude and theyve talked about that trip with such love in their hearts.
2020: Phandemic (sorry that was bad) but also where tf is dan again? even with the big C-word happening, it was business as usual for phil, regular vids but make em gayer, caught a pigeon nbd, and end of the year introduces the Stereo app show Phil and Phriends where he's had chats with pj, louise, his brother, seth everman?????, and finally. dan reappears. they reveal that they bought and FULLY PLANNED a house together and are ready to move!
2021: they don't move house for another like six months! basically their house was (and is??) still being worked on AND they were in lockdown AND turns out at the end of last year, they were kicked from their Life apartment and were now living in the Work apartment so you can imagine what all of this can do to their psyche and lowkey they were getting sick of each other like it wasnt just bordering on phivorce it was nearly Phurder. Phidow. but to fill the time so that DOESNT happen, my favorite fucking thing ever happens: Lockdown Lads (and all the other names). the first taste of what a dnp podcast would sound like, with the added bonus of chaotic listener interaction. oh yeah also dan wrote a mental health guide book whatever (IM KIDDING I REALLY LIKE YWGTTN I WROTE LIKE TWO REVIEWS ON IT NOW) and they finally become Homosexual Homeowners. theres quite a bit more dnp content this year, dan being on phils channel a bit more, the phodcasts, dan's gay and not proud special.... oh yeah and hometown showdown i guess AND TEXT VIDEO 2!!! my favorite and my namesake!!!!!!!
2022: Prophecy Year..... but they didnt get married. dan returns with another longass video to say: hey i hate being a youtuber and also youtube majorly fucked me over. but also fuck that im gonna do a weird talk show and ALSO GO ON TOUR WITH THIS APOCALYPSE THEME! phil actually... slows down this year. more dan uploads than phil somehow??? but also Dan Is Leaving me is posted and i go completely insane and become the deranged individual you see today. WHICH FINALLY LEADS US TOOOOOO
2023-present: The Unhinged Era. dan's tour was a huge Emotional success for him but uh not without its hiccups due to management and all that and i think he and phil finally realize. Fuck It Who Cares. dan flies back to england FROM AUSTRALIA to make sure he can be with his future ex-husband on his birthday. CAKE HEART EMOJI. YELLOW PLAID SHACKET. they go on a gamer date and post a picture of playing footsies in a cab. THE PHUDE HAPPENS. they go to japan again and while this one will never be The One it was still a well earned holiday this time with bryony! and they took a bunch of very cute film camera pictures.... THIS IS ALL JUST THE FIRST HALF OF 2023 BTW. in phil news, he talks about going to therapy and figuring out how to manage his anxiety!!!! he changes his hair again!! he hires an editor, phan is his otp, he teases about the gaming channel a couple of times but so many of us already dropped any hope of that returning- OH WAIT WHAT THE FUCK?!!!? HUH!??!? they returned, and more chaotic than ever before. the gayness upped to the max, the Weirdness on full speed, the Horniness at Very Scary Levels Oh God Stop Talking About Dogging, phil can swear uncensored now???? and this energy has continued into today...
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luvistqrzzz · 11 months
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L♡VE THEORY- a jake sim smau
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i think i'm fallin' in you
deeply and slowly
PAIRING- jake x f.reader
SUMMARY- For you love was a game, like a theory better left un practiced. But what happens when you cross paths with Hybe Uni's star soccer player, Jake Sim and sparks (or paint in your case) fly? Can he explain a way out of your love theory?
Or a series of events where you find the so called "heartbreaker" and the hopelessly in love boy who destroyed your painting to be your muse.
GENRE- smau with written parts, fluff, angst, college!au, very slight one sided e2l, slowburn-ish, physics major!jake, art major!reader, crush!reader
TAGLIST- open! Send an ask or comment to be added- @hysgf @kishmish-ihate @noascats @tnyhees @beomgyusonlywife @txtbrainrot @chaechae-23 @ghostiiess @str0l0gy @woon2u @iloveloveloveenha @haechansbbg @bluxjun @kjrcrz @beomsbeanie ( bold = cannot tag )
WARNINGS- tba acc to the chapters
FEATURING- soobin and taehyun from txt, isa from stayc, keeho from p1h, i.n from skz, kazuha from lsf, yujin from ive, haewon from nmixx and other idols mentioned.
STATUS- ongoing!
STARTED- 01/07/2023
ENDED- ???
NOTE- this is purely a work of fiction and it in no means represents the idol irl. also the pictures of yn are for reference purpose only. I have no intention of copying anyone, i really apologize beforehand if the idea or plot coincides with some other smau.
A/N- 2nd smau lessgaur🤞🏽🤞🏽!! Set in the same universe as The Accidental Polaroid so you might see an old character or two but for the whole, this smau can be read as a standalone :))!! Tbh idk why i set it in the same universe but ig thats okay, it wont affect this smau that much! This was supposed to be a oneshot so im sorry to whoever was looking forward to that😞 and lmk if anyone from the oneshot taglist want to be removed from it as it a smau now with changes to the original plot :/!
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just for clearence, these events take place during and after the events of accidental polaroid.
MOODBOARD // PLAYLIST
PROFILES- y/n protection squad // frontstreet boyz 👍🏽 // young dumb stupid
CHAPTERS-
( unreleased chapters are subject to change )
01- first fail
02-
03-
04-
( more tba )
why are we so complicated?
maybe love is overrated
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work belongs to @/luvistqrzzz do not copy repost or translate my work
reblogs are highly appreciated
permanent taglist (open)- @rikizm - this is just for boosting, you wont be tagged in all chapters if you arent in the smau taglist
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No Surprise
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[Spoiler and Long Explanation Ahead]
a bit of spoiler cause i'm still in year 5 of the game and i have a lot i wanted to draw before this event
I listen to this song in repeat while making this maybe you should too? (also the reference of the title)
In Year 6, after the death of their best friend, Ben and Jeniferl decided that it is best to break up for the meantime.
Ben believed that despite being together, he had failed to protect her and the people she cares about. The death of Rowan shows that he is still incapable to protect the others, despite his attempts to change. He felt worthless and believed that only a strong, courageous person could be with Jeniferl that can keep her safe... unlike him. He will keep changing, even if it makes him the worst version of himself, until he has proved to himself that he is capable of becoming that person.
Jeniferl on the other hand, didn't want more people to die because of her. She once again blamed herself from all misfortune and believed that the more she is attached to someone, the closer death will come to them. After the death of her best friend, she fears Ben will be next therefore she wants to maintain her distance and, to the best of her ability, suppress her emotions in order to concentrate on breaking the family curse and the curse vault. If she kept bringing ill fortune, she believed she didn't deserve to be loved.
The breakup left a bitter taste in their relationship. They told one another that  they could do anything they wanted regardless of what the other think, but their relationship is over.
On the day of the Masquerade ball
It was surprising how Jeniferl was on the ball despite all the tragedy that happened to her; it was Barnaby’s idea for her to go. Jeniferl and Barnaby are like siblings to one another, for they share the same interest in magical creatures and dueling. Feeling bad about what happened to her, he invited Jeniferl to a dance at the ball in an attempt to cheer her up, which she appreciated and agreed with. But what’s more surprising is what they saw in the Ball, 
Ben and Ismelda were dancing together. 
Everyone was startled that the two were together, but Jeniferl repress her emotions and smiled at them as they danced elegantly in the night. As promised, Barnaby and Jeniferl performed their dance as friends, but someone is watching them closely. It was Ben. Even though he presents a cold and disinterested demeanor around her, he is nonetheless troubled. In actuality, he only attended the event because of her presence. He wasn't supposed to go because he didn't see the point in going and would rather train to get stronger instead. But Ismelda came and informed him how Barnaby would be going with Jeniferl. He requested Ismelda's company in order to verify whether it was real. Upon realizing it to be true, he was reminded of their breakup and understood that there was nothing he could do.
The night may be beautiful, but no surprise, two hearts are left in sorrow once again.
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First I wanna say sorry for my poor writing and grammar skills I just want to finish this so that i can focus on my uni,,
and second, YES, the two broke up after 3 years of flirting and a year of dating ,,how unlucky but thats just the life of Jeniferl. I already planned this ahead before the spoiler TLSQ happen but, I hate to admit it, this tlsq benefit the story and I'm sorryy I added more pain in my story(I'm gonna add more tho).
No hate to Ben and Ismelda shippers, I love Ismelda's character and i just thought her being with ben is an out of character but i become more curious . Also I chose Barnaby because he is the one i chose to be partnered with my mc in the game but in my story, Barnaby doesn't have romantic feelings towards Jeni
But the TLSQ haven't released yet so there might be changes added in the story but who knows, I hate it but I'm excited for this tlsq~ also i kinda didn't follow the color dress code sryy
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kerubimcrepin · 4 months
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Liveblog 7: episode 4
Sorry for the long wait. First I had finals in uni, then I spent a week drinking and replaying disco elysium after celebrating new years eve, sooo yeah. But, for now, until the exams, I am back.
Let's begin! :)
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Joris is so quick to find him and look at what he's doing. I love how dedicated he is to it. Kerubim is just... immediately tired.
Glad to know my fic's characterization of him being tired of Joris's questions the second they're asked is still holding true.
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Very well said for the guy whose house even, after cleaning, is a major death hazard. But ok.
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I LOVE YOU JORIS. I won't read too much into this, because there really isn't much here, but really, Joris knows how to manipulate Keke.
Manipulating adults is kinda THE thing kids have to learn. He's very good at this.
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To come back to the past post's Lou Divorce Theorising, it's important to note that both of them were equally unhinged and prone to breaking up with one another. A very deep and meaningful relationship.
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We will see later what he means by "It's not my fault I have fans," in the depictions of his relationship with her that aren't censored by him being the storyteller.
AKA the fact that mostly, it means him cheating on her. Lol. I'll talk about it during one of the most important episodes of this entire show.
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Anyway,
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The thing is that, despite how awful they are together, he really does love her.
He can't really stop playing the role of the macho playboy who gets all the chicks, even for love, because that's his entire self-esteem, but it doesn't mean the love isn't there.
(Something-something, I will elaborate on the role of masculinity in Kerubim's story, and how it worsens his already bad, uh... mental everything. But that's a talk for not-the-literal-fourth-episode-of-the-show.)
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When he thinks about her, he thinks about her silliness first and foremost, instead of her looks. Even after they part ways, he blames himself for decades. And that's love.
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To be fair to him, Lou can't stop manipulating & stringing him along herself. Neither of them is a very good person.
As I've said, thats a very, uh, deep and meaningful relationship they have here.
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God, I really, really love the art style of this show.
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"My very own puppy-girl was catomized" that's a whole ass new sentence that's never been said before.
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ANOTHER character analysis moment: What really bothers Kerubim the most isn't saving his lover, but being The Hero, especially to her. And I really think it says a lot about him, even if he does love her.
He just immediately starts congratulating himself on being a good boy, and asking her if she also thinks he's a good boy. His self-esteem is so, so bad.
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Another theme of the show that is introduced early on is luck, and Kerubim's relationship with it.
I think Ecaflip just got tired of watching Keke suffer, honestly.
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She only likes him on her own terms. When she gets to make him feel indebted, or lucky, but not as if she were a damsel and he were her savior.
It makes their relationship sort of one-sided, but it's far from the thing that is most toxic about it.
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Let me be pretentious about this for a second, since this shot composition WAS chosen by someone, and put into the show on purpose.
The whole shot, including the two of them, is blue: the color of being non-confrontational, stagnant, and predictable. It can mean honesty and deceit, being unforgiving or free, and most of all, it is a color that often represents sadness and loss.
They are walking on water here, which is the first thing that one might notice. I will not reference the bible, in a cartoon analysis, but it does conjure up connotations of being at one's prime, and having the strength to do anything.
In comparison to the clouds which surround them, they seem like giants, walking through the sea, which conveys well how his youth must have felt — the whole world is on a platter, and his strength was larger than life.
But the storm clouds surrounding them above and below, in turn, just seem even more giant and looming.
It also brings to mind the connotations of the saying "to have one's head in the clouds." Absentminded, unknowing of the facts of the whole situation.
Overall, this shot puts their relationship well: They were young, beautiful and capable together, travelling the whole world, — but in the end, their bond is marked by sadness, because they were never willing to address their faults in time, and it drove them apart.
And most importantly, the colors disappear when she slaps him, so in a way, it is a very romanticized view on things.
Pretentious tangent over.
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This is our first clue in the show that Kerubim might lie and change the stories he tells, but it is also our clue to take what we are shown seriously regardless.
True, everything shown might be in-universe fiction, but despite Kerubim's narration, we get to see exactly what happened here. So it's best to just take things as they are presented, but with a small grain of salt.
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There's something to be said about the way they are both walking towards more of these storm clouds, or the way she is walking to the left (in cultures with languages that go from left to right, characters walking to the left often symbolizes moving towards the past and stagnating), with him running after her, but eh. I think I may just be reading a lot into it.
It is still fun though, no?
This whole show, in a way, he is chasing the past, telling stories of their lost love. And in a way, he'll always be chasing after her, no matter how doomed their relationship was.
Though it's a very bleak depiction, compared to one that will follow later in the show.
...Perhaps, judging from some concept art, he'll keep chasing her that way, even centuries after she stops living. But that remains to be seen, if Waven takes us there.
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If that's the case, it just adds a layer of tragedy to their relationship.
Even if she never left him, they wouldn't be able to live together forever. She was mortal. He is not.
And that's all there is to say on the matter, I suppose.
(This is a small edit from future me: Kerubim can't stop talking about Indie and Lou in Dofus MMO, even though it happens 200 years after the show. Which is depressing. But I'm still waiting for him to talk about them in Waven, to decide just how depressing this all is.)
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asafeplaceforus112 · 5 months
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awwweeee nooooooooooo
I'm gonna be so sad when I found out about James sucking, like I just, "I'm sorry if I ruin your favourite youtuber" you don't understand, I'm so worried.
This is my reaction, because I need somewhere to vent it,
overall, go check out Hbombergay, its so good, regardless of if you don't want to get to the James Somerton part.
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I typed this bit after but I wanted to put it here rather than at the end where noone could see it:
Ummmm overall I don't know, I'm just really sad, I really respected Somerton, I thought he was someone like Contrapoints or Shanspeare or Philosphy tube and he wasn't
I'm sad about it, I also just hope he's okay? Thats weird but regardless of the shitty thing hes done he's human, and I'd like it if he could be okay overall, obviously now would be a tough time, but I just don't want to see him gone because of this
People are bad but I also know the power of people who sometimes go too far and end up cruel so you know? I just hope everything ends up okay
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Oh lord,
oH my god, I was a patreon supporter, thats how much I liked James, I just looked, holy shit he's deleted the patreon holy shit
ooooo Tinker bell and evil queens look like an interesting book, i will be reading that later
oh nooooooo
)): I'm so sad
"Wow you're ditching ship quick" (wrong phasing but you know)
ughhh because gut feeling and I can see the evidence.
I lost a close friend who was a gay man like James Somerton, I specifically lost this friend because he was a gay man that would do whatever it took to get a leg up, it didn't matter if it was against his ethics, as long as he got closer to his career goal he didn't care. For example, wokring under a politician that believed in conversion therapy specifically the use of medical castration. So yeah, lost that friend, went "omg a gay man thats not a boot licker" aaaannndddd
attached to a gay men that uses other people's work to get up in his career
-deep sigh- Goddamn
AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHH he did it twice??? UUUGUUGGHGHGHHGHGHH
I have so much more of a respect for plagerism stuff in university, like I know but I also have come to a realisation that some of my uni work can be considered as plagerism, if I'm running late with stuff, I find stuff I like, I reword, find another thing, reword, and then make a frankenstein (I do always reference and intext reference and say who said what but after learning this stuff, yeah thats not good enough
NOOOOO not society and queer horror )))): It was one of my favourite vi
god its word for word ))):
Holy shit it never connected in my brain how misogynistic he was
xDDD
"it wAS THEM'LL"
holy shit thats funny
.... How can batman be too woke???
no fucking way
not are they gay )):
A. that pheonix Wright sprite looks amazing
B. HOLY SHIT DD: HE LITERALLY HAD IT ON THE PHOTO HOW
OH SHIT MY ICON SHANSPEAR WAS MENTIONED HELL YEAH
"tHATS RIGHT SHE'S REAL YOU DONT KNOW ME" thats so fun xDDD
urinating tree???
"Too dark for a plagirism" BOI PLAGERISM IS DARK
"MIST" PANTHEON MIST??? -Brain rot activated-
Good video, sad vibes ):
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flowercrowncrip · 1 year
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whats the worst encounter of ableism you've had, online or irl?
whats the funniest encounter of ableism you've had, online or irl?
whats something you see thats overhyped in regards to disability or cripplepunk?
do you have an ideal mobility aid or ideal disability aid in general?
feel free to skip any/all :)
cw: suicide, ableism,
1-The worst encounter of ableism I've experienced was from a psychiatric nurse my GP referred me to during a mental health crisis. I told the nurse that I was having thoughts about ending my life and he told me that he felt sorry for me because my physical disability meant my life would never be worth living. Obviously "you're doomed to feel this way forever" isn't a safe thing to say to someone trying to get help during a mental health crisis. If he could have done more to help me end my life I think he would have, and this is one of the reasons I'm so afraid of the risks around assisted suicide for disabled people.
I feel the need to add that several years on from that appointment I'm so happy that I'm alive. I've had 15 months of therapy and I'm on meds that work for me, I have the right support and equipment to manage my conditions, an extremely fulfilling job, and an amazing support network. My disability is worse than it was back then but I feel so much more content with my life.
2- The funniest example of ableism is more a story of ableism in the sense that no one had thought properly about disabled access. Only the result was that me and some other students accidentally broke into a nightclub.
I was at uni making a video with a group of disabled students for disability history month. We were filming in the student media centre which was on the first floor of a shared building. On the ground floor and basement there was a nightclub. All of the organisations shared a lift.
So we go up the lift while the nightclub is selling tickets during the day, but in the time it took for us to finish filming, the nightclub had closed and locked up. We didn't know this, so just took the lift back down when we wanted to leave. Immediately as we stepped out the lift, the burglar alarm went off.
It was the loudest thing I have ever heard in my life. It was so loud that it was totally impossible to think. All we could do was try to get away as quickly as we could so we went to the doors, which were obviously locked.
So we went back up in the lift away from the noise to figure out what to do next. We called the campus security and tried to explain what was happening but they didn't seem to get it. Eventually they told us that they were heading over our way anyway (because of the alarm) and would check in on us when they came.
When they arrived they were knocking on the lift door convinced that we were stuck in there. When we said we were stuck in the building, not the lift they didn't get it.
They looked at us, a group of disabled people including someone with a cane, someone using crutches and me, very obviously a wheelchair user, and told us if we couldn't take the lift we could "just take the stairs".
I had to awkwardly point out that wheelchairs don't go do down stairs at which point they became very embarrassed (which I won't lie was quite funny)
In the end we had to wait an hour or so for the owner of the nightclub to drive up to campus with the keys and alarm codes and it was all fine.
3- I think that the value of independence is overhyped everywhere, including in disabled spaces. I've seen a lot of disabled people state that they're somehow better than other disabled people who they view as less independent than them. Relying on mobility aids, medications, carers, family members benefits and other supports don't make you less strong, less deserving or less anything.
I really struggled with my own feelings around this when I was a teenager. I found it so hard to ask for help because I thought it made me a "bad disabled person", and seeing that insecurity reflected back at me from other disabled people online only reenforced it.
4- My ideal mobility aid would be a fully waterproof electric wheelchair. I'd love the sensation of rain or hail in my face without being stressed about my chair. Or be able to go to the beach along one of those mat things and into the sea.
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keysmashhhhhhhh · 24 days
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15 Q 15 FRIENDS
OMG I've missed tag games!! thank you so much @fernandoalonzoo for that tag!!! :))))
Are you named after anyone? my first name no but my middle name is the name of my my mum's sister who died before i was born :)
When was the last you cried? today, yikes its been...a day for sure, from my boss being a dick, to my work friend accidently spoiling the race results for me and another friend calling me up only to talk about herself, yeah its been a time but im feeling better now i'm on tumblr :)
Do you have kids? omg no, i barely take care of myself however i did buy a colindar and a cheese grater for uni yesterday and that felt very adult and responsible.
What sports do you play/have you played? i used to do swimming, netball and cricket as a kid but nothing serious
Do you use sarcasm? its in my dna
What is the first thing you notice about people? HAIR OMG ALWAYS HAIR i dont know how to explain it i can just read people by their hair
What is your eye color? blueeeeee
Scary movies or happy endings? happy endings always :)
Any talents? speedy reading and writing skills, also just an uncanny knack for hunting things down (sort of rainbolt style if anyone gets that reference) like give me an obscure piece of information or a blurry photo and i see it as a challenge to find it. comes in very handy during research projects
Where were you born? nearly on tower bridge (see photo) in london
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basically, my mum went into labour and the hospital was on the other side of the bridge to where we lived and then whilst in labour the bridge went up and my mum was stuck waiting for the boat to pass so she could drive but yeah she did make it to the hospital on time yay - i was born in the same room as Paul McCartney's daughter and also Gwyneth Paltrow and Chris Martin from Coldplay, their kid was also born in the same place. its like less than a minute away from Abby Road - so all in all a cool place to be born :)
What are your hobbies? reading books, watching tv, going on lots of long walks, plotting routes across the world that ill never travel - f1 of course and generally tumblring it up with my mutuals :)
Do you have any pets? no :( my dad is allergic to just about everything
How tall are you? i actually dont know haha, kind of medium height i guess
Favorite subject at school? history for sure best subject
Dream job? something where i get to talk about things im passionate about, journalist perhaps??? im not sure
this was so much fun!! sorry for recounting such a long explanation of where i was born its just such a fun story :)
tagging: @fandomchaosposts @love4lando @formulapisces @sof1shticated @multiseb21 @481boxboxbaby
i have many more people id love to tag but i've got to run for a train so thats it but if you see this consider yourself tagged!! also if you're tagged but have already been tagged/dont feel up to it, dont worry!!!!! anyways hope everyone is having a lovely day :)))
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ask-la-squadra · 9 days
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sorry for the mini hiatus to put it simply i have been mega depressed and literally havent left my room for days, i have a shit ton of uni work to do and this helps me procrastinate which is not good however i dont care. anyways if someone could like beat my ass into doing these assignments i would be very grateful.
also over the summer i think i may write a fanfic about la squadra, focusing on their relationships with eachother and dynamic as a gang in a more day to day way, i feel like there is a lot of it for the bucci gang but not so much for these hoes so, dont hold me to this but at this point in time thats the plan, itll be sfw apart from probably drug references and the occasional like sex or violence but there will be like no explicit scenes because i dont like writing that, and it wont be a romance thing either. may be a reader insert but the reader would join as part of the gang and would mostly be a device to observe everyone else, could also be an oc insert idk yet but either way the focus is on my personal opinions and brainrot of these silly dudes
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fayoftheforest · 5 months
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are you gonna update the fic soon? sorry if I sound impatient but I really like it and I'm desperate for more </3
(fic in reference is deny me and be doomed, probably)
gosh I would love to update the fic soon but realistically i don't think im gonna be able to until january :( ive got like 4 uni assignments due after winter break so thats kinda a full-time job at the moment ;-; plus im still agonising over my fic for the upcoming K2 zine, it really should not be taking this long and yet somehow it is hahaha!!!
im really looking forward to finishing all that and finally getting back to writing dmabd, though! if you're in desperate need of similar fics to get your fix in the meantime, feel free to shoot me another ask/dm and let me know what vibes you're after, and I'll offer up my best recs to get you through these cold winter months <3
thank you for the message anon! it means a lot to know that people haven't lost interest in it yet :)
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about me
tagged by @mathomhouse-e @wordsinhaled @immacaria. thank you <3
nickname: alex. if youve ever felt shy about using my name or referring to me by my name, dont be. i much prefer it, tho wizard is fine too <3
sign: aquarius sun and uhhhh *looks at notes* virgo moon and capricorn rising. @ghostboyjules told me that was a good thing bc they "keep my aqua sun grounded"
height: 5'1" when the nurse is feeling generous
last thing i googled: "everything everywhere all at once" just bc i needed to be sure that was the title and not "everywhere everything all at once" LMFAO
song stuck in my head: the promise by when in rome. ive put it in my 1989 dreamling playlist a while back and it hasn't left my head since
amount of sleep: last night was 7 hrs only, but usually its 8+ if i can
dream job: writing for a video game like dragon age
wearing: oversized uni shirt. to be clear i did not go to this particular uni, just got it as a gift somehow ? i forgor 💀
movies/books that summarize me: none bc i contain multitudes wtf 🤨 and because of that i should probably say everything everywhere all at once LOL
favorite song: it changes by the day. buuuut right now i'd say it's bizarre love triangle by new world order (another entry in the 1989 playlist)
aesthetic: give me that whimsigoth shit BUT in pastel pink. oh yeah thats my jam
favorite authors: hmmm. off the top of my head, pseudonymous bosch from my childhood, then rainbow rowell, and most recently neil gaiman! do poets count? e.e. cummings.
random fun fact: i fucking love video games and have been pretty much in the trenches with "gamers" (please do not use this term to describe me i will perish on the spot) the past few years i've been off tumblr so if you catch me saying smth like "pog" know that i'm saying it unironically. sorry. i have like. 1400+ hrs on overwatch. so thats not counting all the other games ive played. i always (sadly) joke with my friends that if i actually spent all that time learning a new language i would be fluent by now. but its ok i mostly spent it with friends so ive made my peace with it!
with all that said... tagging: @ghostboyjules @rooftopwreck @caitlyn-kirammans @milkydonut @teejaystumbles @xx-vergil-xx @thefuzzhead @rainy-days-and-nights @msmongoose @honeyteacakes @transedwizard and whoever else wants to do it!
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drawlfoy · 2 years
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fireflies - a wonders of ohio drabble
masterlist series masterlist request guidelines
pairing: draco x muggle!reader
request: no not really! but i’m dedicating this one to @sycathorn-slush ! ty ally i need to get your tarot request out but i promise it will be out momentarily lol
summary: draco goes for a joyride and brings y/n along the way. takes place after graduation and before part 15 of wonders of ohio. this can be read alone, but some of the references that i make are wonders of ohio specific.
warnings: language? i think? mild nsfw content
a/n: you’re speaking to a post finals dee haha. i’m at home for a little before returning to uni for more research. unfortunately, that means i provs won’t be able to write as much this summer as i’d like (im going to have a roomie and will not be exposing my fanfic habit to her and i will need to head to the library to write) but i’ll be able to write more than i can during the school year. which, thank god that’s over. whew. no more political science for me! 
also, big sorry to any of my ohioan readers. if i got something really wrong about the location of the lake that draco and y/n go to, that’s my b. thats on me please feel free to yell at me in the comments
wc: 2.6k
tags:  @writeandtranslate @sycathorn-slush @gruffle1 @missmultifandommess @cleopatera @hahaboop @accio-rogers @geeksareunique @eltanin-malfoy @war-sword @cams-lynn @itsivyberry @ayo-cowbelly @nerd-domland @yesnerdsblog @shizarianathania @evanstanfanatic @strawberriesonsummer @hariosborn @night-ving @straightzoinked @imintoodeeptostop @naiomimoonshard @jejegu @ophelia-enthusiast @alwaysbeanunknownfan @nearly-memories @litty-dumb @callieclearwater @malfoy-wife15 @charlenasaxen @belladaises @fiantomartell @yiamalfoy @crystalox @dracoismybabey @dreamcxtcherr @decaffeinated-turtle @marrymetheonott @felicityofbakerstreet @daedreamss @sycathorn-slush @writeandtranslate @erisdogwood @loveissupernatural @sycathorn-slush @big-galaxy-chaos @lilyrachelcassidy
“Mrs. Grimaldi sent you what?”
Draco’s eyebrows furrowed briefly before realization washed over his face. “Oh. I’ve never told you about Quidditch, have I? Or flying?”
Y/N’s silence was more than enough of an answer. Her eyes were trained on the broomstick that hung from his fingers, the bristles just barely brushing the earth. It didn’t look like a common house broomstick that she’d use to clean—it had some sort of metal footrest protruding from the middle, glinting in the late afternoon summer sun.
“You sit on this and fly,” he explained, as if that made perfect sense to a physics student. “There’s a game called Quidditch that I used to play at Hogwarts. It’s a bit like, er, whatever your high school plays, but in the air.”
“Like football?”
Draco blushed. “Yeah. That.”
“Somehow I feel like it’s not that similar.”
“I was the Seeker for my house,” he said, puffing up his chest and looking incredibly proud of himself. He deflated slightly at the sight of Y/N’s blank stare. “I had to catch this thing called the Golden Snitch,” he added. “It’s very fast. I had to be very agile and strategic. Catching it won the entire game for my house—well, it ends the game and awards the winning team 150 points, which sometimes isn’t enough…”
“Consider me very impressed,” Y/N crooned, only mildly sarcastic. “I’m sure you were very good.”
He caught her gaze and rolled his eyes. “No need to lay it on so thick.”
She giggled. “I mean it! I think it’s cool. I think I’d probably be more enamored if I knew anything about what you were talking about. So, you can fly? Is the Ministry okay with it?”
“The Grimauldi’s got it cleared,” he said, tossing the rounding handle back and forth between his palms. “They say that as long as I don’t catch the attention of any Muggles, then no laws will be broken.”
“Too late.”
He rolled his eyes again, but the grin stretched across his face had already reached them. “You’re ridiculous.”
She stepped closer, narrowing the gap between the two of them. His eyes sparkled down at her as she rose up on her toes, pressing her lips to the tip of his nose. He grinned wider as he caught her on her way down, his hand gripping her waist as he kissed her properly.
“Y/N! Draco! Are you up there?”
The two sprung apart. Y/N frantically rushed to straighten her clothes as her mother ascended the steps, giving the two of them a sideways glance.
“Am I interrupting anything?”
“No,” the two said in unison, far too forceful to be believable. 
Her mother raised an eyebrow and sighed. “Sure. Listen, your father and I need to stop by the office for a last minute meeting.”
“Is everything okay?”
“Everything’s fine,” said her mother, though Y/N could tell she just wanted to enjoy her evening cup of coffee and read a novel instead of coming along with her father. “He just needs me to talk to his partner’s wife. Apparently she has an idea that I can help with.”
“Stella?”
Her mother nodded, and Y/N felt a sudden rush of sympathy. Stella liked her mother quite a bit, but the feeling was not mutual. Her father must’ve thought Stella’s proposal was something that her mother would love if he was dragging her along. “Don’t burn the house down or anything, yeah?”
Y/N raised her hand in a mock salute as her mother disappeared down the steps. Then she turned to Draco, who still looked rather pale. “Do you know what this means?”
“That she knows about us,” he said, gulping. 
Y/N snorted, “Well, duh. She’s known since before everything.”
Draco blanched.
“That’s not what I was saying,” she continued. “If my parents are gone, then that means we can drive out to somewhere a little more private so you can fly.”
He visibly brightened. “Really? Tonight?”
“Of course,” said Y/N, reaching out to intertwine their fingers. “I think I know just the place, too.”
~
One 30 minute drive later, Y/N put the car in park in a clearing, lit up gold in the slowly setting sun. 
“Where are we?” asked Draco, tentatively stepping out onto the dirt road that they’d been driving on for almost 10 minutes. 
“It’s a little area off by Caesar Creek Lake,” she explained. “It’s a nice lake that I went to a lot as a child, but it’s normally crowded. This is a fishing spot that’s popular during the daytime, but it’s almost always empty at night. My friends and I come here whenever we want to go swimming or anything like that. We call it Firefly Cove.”
“Why?”
Y/N smiled. “You’ll see. Go fly! Stop stalling.”
He kissed her before straddling the broom and kicking off the ground. She stared as he began to levitate, a smile slowly forming.
“How does it feel?” she asked, breathless.
“Incredible,” he managed. A light breeze ruffled his hair once he had gained more altitude. “I’m going to fly around now, alright? Yell if you want me to come down.”
With that, he disappeared above the tree line. Y/N jogged to the riverbank, staring up at the sky in hopes of catching a few glimpses of him in the air. He was languidly circling around the treetops, his hand coming down to brush past the leaves. A bird flying by startled at the sight of him, squawking and veering far away. She laughed. 
Draco flew in figure-eights, circles, dipped low before ascending rapidly, and performed some tricks like rolling the broomstick around mid-flight. She found herself breathless as she watched him from above. 
When the sun was finally kissing the horizon, he came back down to the clearing, smiling wildly. 
“That looked really cool,” she confessed. “Did you see that poor bird? You probably gave him heart palpitations.” 
Draco laughed, a pleasant sound that rang out through the air. “I didn’t realize how long I’d been up there. I didn’t mean to leave you down here for that long.”
“That’s okay,” she said. “I had fun watching.”
“Well, enough watching for you,” he said, and before she could process his words, she was being hauled over to the broom. “Do you want to try it?”
“Um…”
“It’s really not that hard,” he said, “Or that scary. I promise. I’ll help.”
“Can I even fly?”
“Of course you can.” He responded with so much certainty that she felt silly for asking. “Even if you didn’t summon Merlin’s box, you still have a magical signature on you. I checked before, you see.”
“Oh,” she said, her voice little. “I don’t know…”
“You don’t have to,” he added. “Maybe just try picking up the broom? That might make you more confident.”
“How do I do that?”
Draco set the broom on the ground next to her, stepping away so he was standing facing her. “Hold your hand out above the handle. Then summon it.”
“Summon it?”
“If you can summon Merlin’s box, I know you can summon this.”
Y/N felt a blush form on her cheeks as she extended her hand over the handle. She appreciated how kind Draco was being by including her, but if she wasn’t able to perform a task this simple, it would only serve to remind him how different she was.
Something smacked her palm. Her fingers wrapped around the wood that had risen to meet her hand instinctually, and a soft thrum of energy burst through her. 
“Yes!” said Draco, looking unceremoniously enthusiastic. “That was quite fast. I’m surprised.”
Y/N stared down at the broom in her hand. “Oh. I did that?”
Draco laughed. “Yes. And impressively quick, too.”
“And now I have to fly it? By myself?”
“Don’t be ridiculous,” he reprimanded. “I’ll be with you. Get on the broom, now. It’ll be dark soon.”
She did as she was told, settling on the wood as Draco arranged himself behind her. She felt very stupid standing astride a glorified tree branch, but she supposed this was more bizarre for her than it was Draco. 
“To take off, you just need to kick off,” he said from behind her. His hands had come around to grip the wood right behind where her own hands were situated. “Your grip is already good. Do you want me to kick off?”
“Honestly, yeah.” 
That was all it took for the broom to be catapulted into the air. Y/N was full of a sense of weightlessness that made her yelp, clutching the wood tighter. 
“Are you alright?” he asked. They were only levitating a few feet above the ground, about eye level with the roof of her car. 
“Yes,” she said, turning to face him. “Sorry. I don’t know what I was expecting it to feel like, but it wasn’t that.”
He beamed. “Turn around. I want to show you how to steer.”
His hands dwarfed hers around the broomstick as he gently coaxed them into the necessary positions to steer left, right, as well as to rise and lower the broom.
“Does that seem like something you can do?” he asked, as they continued to circle around the clearing, Y/N studiously running through the motions without his guidance.
“Is what I’m doing right?” 
“Yes. Excellent, even.”
“Oh, stop it.” Y/N tilted her head back to look at the swatch of sky above that was clear of tree branches.
“Do you want to fly a little higher?” he asked, his chin coming to rest on her shoulder and his hands once again covering hers.
“Can we?”
“If you want to come down, just let me know.” With that, he sharply tilted the broom handle up, hurling them into the sky. 
Y/N squeaked, but the solidness of Draco behind her kept her from panicking as they were suddenly hundreds of feet in the air, hovering over the tips of the trees. 
“How are you doing?” he asked.
“Well…” She was trying her best not to look down but was failing miserably. Her knees were going weak.
“Are you scared of heights?”
“Um..”
“And you didn’t tell me before?” 
“I’m really not that scared of them,” she defended, reaching out to touch the tip of a tree with her toe. “I’m just not that used to floating this high while only being supported  by a little stick, thanks.”
Draco snorted. “If you fall, I’ll try my best to catch you.”
“I feel so much better.” 
“You try,” he said, removing his hands, though they remained poised over hers. “It might make you feel better to have some control.”
Seriously doubting what he had to say, Y/N began slowly picking up speed on the broom, making slow circles to the right, then to the left.
“You’re right,” she said quietly. “I do feel better.”
“Sorry? What was that?”
“You’re right.”
“Maybe one more time for good measure.”
“You’re right,” she hissed, turning to give him a sour look. “And you’re still so insufferable sometimes.”
He looked full of glee as he pecked her hairline. “Try changing the altitude a little. Fly down to the water.”
As Y/N maneuvered the broom to pitch down, she saw the slightest glimmer of light. 
“Fireflies!” she gasped, reaching one hand to point to the flickering lights in front of them. Draco’s sharp intake of breath accompanied his lightning-fast reflex to grab hold of the side of the broom left unmanned. “Oh. Sorry.”
“It’s okay,” said Draco, though he sounded a bit strained. 
“Are you scared?” 
He was quiet.
“No way!”
“You try teaching someone how to fly above a forest where there’s no soft landing spots,” retorted Draco. 
“Thanks for the vote of confidence.” Y/N had since lowered the broom to the surface of the lake, extending one hand to skim the water, spraying just the slightest bit up at them. “I don’t even need the two hands, right? As long as I use my weight, too?”
“Let’s not experiment with that when there’s two people,” Draco suggested. “Two hands, please.”
Reluctantly, Y/N pressed her hands back into position. 
“You would’ve been a good Seeker,” admitted Draco. 
“Life’s many tragedies,” said Y/N, though a part of her wished that she had had the chance to be one. Flying was fun. It was really fun, like she had the entire world at her fingertips and could move with just an adjustment of her wrists or a lean of her body. “Anyway. Look at the fireflies!”
Appeased by her safer flying grip, he spared a glance at the bugs that were now everywhere across the lake, concentrated around the bushes on the shoreline. “What are those?”
“Like I said, fireflies. They light up.”
“I gathered. How?”
“I don’t know,” said Y/N, shrugging. “Let’s go catch one so you can see for yourself. You steer.”
The broom rocketed forward with a speed Y/N had never been able to achieve in her few moments of flying above the tree line, and she gasped. 
“That’s so fast!”
“We’re catching fireflies,” he deadpanned. “Would you like me to amble along at the snail’s pace we’ve been stuck at all evening?”
“I wasn’t complaining!”
Their surroundings became a blur once again as Draco catapulted them forward. As they approached the shore, Y/N reached into her pocket, grabbing an old pill bottle with holes poked in the lid that she’d brought just in case she’d been bored while waiting for Draco. 
They were moving so quickly that the fireflies didn’t even startle as Y/N darted her hand out with the pill bottle, the vortex of air surrounding them sucking a bug into the pill bottle before she snapped the lid back on. 
“Got one!” she cheered, though the wind surrounding them whisked her words away until Draco could only hear a few syllables. Draco slowed to a stop and hovered them over the lake once again.
“Here,” she said, pressing the pill bottle into Draco’s hands. “Your very first firefly. What are we naming it?”
He regarded the bug in the bottle, watching as it lit up and darkened repeatedly, casting a soft golden hue on his porcelain skin. “When I was on the Quidditch team, there was a tradition of naming the first Snitches caught by new Seekers.”
“What did you name yours?”
“Malfoy,” he said, without hesitation.
“So creative.”
“It wasn’t really up to me,” he defended. “It’s also tradition to use your family name if you’re from the Sacred Twenty-Eight.”
“So what would you name this one? Considering the person who caught it isn’t even a wizard?”
“Honestly, still Malfoy,” he said. “Who steered the broom?”
She slapped his shoulder. “I’ll let it slide.”
Once the pill bottle was tucked away in her pocket, Y/N let herself rest against the front of Draco, drinking in the last few minutes of the sunset. 
And as he slowly piloted the broom across the glassy surface of the lake, his chin once again rested on her shoulder, she vowed to never forget how it felt in that moment. 
final a/n: short little drabble thing but i got inspiration bc i flew a plane briefly over the break and felt like i was going to die. so that gave me the inspo
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just-my-type-x · 1 year
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All the boys seem heavily revolved around partying and drinking and clubbing etc. especially with their friends. Thats kinda why I asked - like would any of them be with someone not like that and how that would impact friendships and stuff if you weren't.
I don't vibe with that lifestyle and have opinions on those that do (excessively) and is partly why I have doubts around the boys being genuinely good people. Sorry this was a rant and I'm just babbling here - no hate intended to anyone.
Not gonna lie, i was really confused about which boys u're talking about because everything u said is so similar to the sam and colby case haha. It took me a second to remember the ask
I didn't know u were referring to that, so thank u for clearing that up. I don't think that partying and hanging out at a drink with the friend group is something that should define u as being wild or not nice. At the same time, it also doesn't mean that u're entirely nice. But i feel like they do nothing wrong. I know English people are usually party people, Irish too, i know this from my cousin who goes to uni with these nationalities so to say. Maybe partying is in their blood 😂😂
But also, i don't think they party that much. Maybe after the concerts it's bound to happen if they're in a really good mood and when they have days off too. I don't see them going out too often tbh. And even if there are pictures from one night at a club, the next ones are in like a month or something. It's definitely possible that they go out more than what the pictures amd timelines show, but i think it's still a normal and healthy amount of going out and partying.
I share the same feeling as u, like not necessarily liking the people who excessively do this. I would say tho that i hope they don't overdo it with drinking. At weddings (just like James' wedding case where they were really drunk) is something else, but drinking too much is too much haha. Still, i don't think they do that. They really seem responsible, they're grown men at last
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vioarry · 1 year
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Hi, I would really want to learn more about rendering because it's what I struggle with the most. Would give some tips or explain how you do it? If you had some time of course. I love your works and you are genuinely such a good artist. Have a good day!!
Thank you! First of all, if i have to be honest, i don't know exactly how to give a good advice on rendering. For me It becomes almost an unconscious process (or subconscious at least).
When i first try to actually do rendering, it was because i accidentally turned off the lineart layer. And i discovered "oh! It brings such a great effect without the distracting of the lineart, but also add up to have an equivocal result" thats when i thought i was missing out something on what i called "render" at that moment.
So rendering is the final steps to improve ur drawing. Simply, the advice on it is trying to find your weakness (something that you can fix in the finals steps)
My personal advice is to focus on the shapes more than the line art. There are shapes in coloring, shapes in shadowing. Further, what i actually mean is, ignoring ur lineart LOL.
For me when i draw i merge everything in 1 subject into 1 layer, treating it as a canvas, it can be hard at first, but trust me, once you get used to it, its actually the easiest way to draw.
For example i can say if i was working with lineart separate to color, i saw something wrong during the progress: like the hands look off or smth, to fix it i need to fix the lineart and fix the color on different layers, its two separate job(even more). Meanwhile with 1 layer only, it becomes so much easier to resize and replace something.
Obviously i don't recommend "let's merge everything!" Because you shouldn't. There should always be some object that would be easier to draw when its laying on another layer. And it's depending on what you draw. The purpose of working on 1 layer is to make thing easier, if its not, simply don't do it.
My second advice is. Welp, trying to copy. You can try to copy a real life reference, start with small object first can help. When you do that you will realize a lot of thing that could be helpful for your works. (Ex: like reflection of a texture, the logical of a lighting, the deep of a layer. Etc etc)
Last advice. Plsssss useeee reference, fuck anyone who say: "using reference is tracing and cheating!" Fuck them. I studied in an art uni, one of the best in my country and all of my teacher would say the same stuffs:"use reference" don't listen to those who doesnt even know art. (Sorry maybe its rude)
You can't understand everything, you don't know everything. Drawing is the same with writing, when you write, do you often have to do research on certain thing ? Thats reference, so why its cheating when you do the same on art.
Brain can trick you, don't believe it. Sometimes it would say: "blood is red" and in fact, nope, blood is almost a black shade, with a deep red at the edge of it depends on the amount of blood when where it lied down. (Yk like how we see our veins look purple and green under the tone of skin, its bc color changes, layer, color theories) When you realize something is unrealistic, take a reference, comparing, its how to win rendering.
Oh ok final last advice, Brain can really trick you, and it also need rest. I prefer draw straight but its just bc i'm lack of motivation to continue the job the next day.
In fact, if you stare at your renderinf for too long you probably can't recognize the mistake in it. When you draw too much, lets your brain and eyes rest, do something else. Come back the next day and you might see it in a different view and everything will be so much easier. (Its also to avoid burn out too)
Ok i have a lot more to say but i realize i might be rambling a bit too much so it gonna end here sjkwksms. Thank you again for the ask and things ❤✨🙏 hope you will be able to find your way soon! And improve ur drawingggg.
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notabled-noodle · 2 years
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warning for internalized transphobia and a rambly vent
not sure how to phrase this but is it,,, normal to feel like youre playing a part when youre newly out as trans ? like i just moved to a new country for uni and im finally in a place that isnt actively hostile to trans ppl so i thought id be out from the beginning bc hey ! fresh new start !!! saves me coming out later too ! but maybe im not ready ? since im still figuring out my gender ? but i dont want ppl using the wrong pronouns either but maybe IM wrong abt my pronouns and i should just shush
on one hand ill never figure out if i like he/him pronouns if noone ever uses them, on the other hand i feel like a ridiculous faker and a mockery of all trans ppl and that noone should know abt this and maybe thats proof enough that i Am just confused
im sorry ik this is very rambly and i have some internalized transphobia to work through but idk i dont really have anyone to talk to abt this stuff bc i feel like im,,, decieving ppl ??? decieving my best friend even this is ridiculous
yeah, I think this is fairly normal. I think for me, it’s partly influenced by being autistic — everything feels like a little bit of a performance for me.
but I think most trans people feel like this at first. going from presenting as your AGAB to presenting as your actual gender is a big change, and even positive changes can take a while to get used to. you’ve spent your whole life pretending to be the kind of person who doesn’t mind being referred to with she/her, and now you’re doing the terrifying work of trying to move towards expressing yourself for who you really are
these things take time. it’s completely okay to only be out to a small group of people, and it’s okay to not be ready to come out at all yet. you’re allowed to take it slow. you’re allowed to try out your new name and pronouns and clothes by yourself at first (e.g. talking to yourself in the mirror using he/him)
it’s okay to be confused! I wish you all the best in the process of figuring yourself out (and good luck at uni!)
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