#These authors are very big for me

[tapakah0]

Guys, I saw something and need to clarify somethig since someone might think the same, I don't beg for attention, I don't need attention (that's how I always lived, seriously, I am absolutely okay without any and I don't see anything wrong in not having any if it's not a work that demands it), a lot of posts constantly that just bury your dash might be annoying and that's why I've been telling to block me, not follow me, in fact a lot of attention exhausts me very quickly, all I do here I do for myself, I love what I do, I specifically don't put a lot of tags on some posts because I've been making them mostly for myself and someone specific (for them just to see it and know that I care and love what they do, not react on it. That's why I'm sometimes sad when people pressurely tell me that I didn't react on something they created for me or didn't interact with them, I'm deeply sorry, I can't answer on them all if I don't feel like it and hope you understand it) *polite bow*

I mean, guys, we all will walk on separated roads sooner or later, but for now I wanna have as much fun as I can 🧡

There are a lot of beautiful people over here who already told that they are okay with my chaos, but there might be some knew who will be confused XDDD

#I'm not an attention kind of person and it's a bit sad when people think so #I love chaos and quiet at the same time and enjoy equivalently them both #But I have people who I care deeply about #Don't get me wrong #They can stop noticing me absolutely #Forget about me #But I still will be doing what I always was until it will be moment to walk alone #But one thing this anon told for sure that I agree with #These authors are very big for me #They are so cool that they can crash the planet *giggle* #Also I don't believe in “always” and pretty sure that I will move to somewhere different when time will come #Anyway #Good morning and have a nice and productive day everyone! *giggle* 🧡🍀💛

[finalgirlsamwinchester]

guy who so desperately tries to find god. who wants to have faith in a higher authority to guide him out of the hole he's in. from the weight of guilt from simply existing, as the person he is. but every time he thinks he's answered his higher calling it turns out he's made the Morally Incorrect choice and his path to goodness and holiness was the road to the devil all along

#now trusting god will give you a way out? there's your real crime!!! #guy betrayed by the protestant promise of a direct connection with god. but is also somehow. joan of arc. #see he never achieves actual martyrdom tho bc he's not allowed to stay dead lmaooo #sam somehow the most unintentionally catholic AND protestant character of all time #dean the atheist who sees religious predestination as the curse it is from the get go. framed as the narrative's Real Moral Authority #but also in the process reifying patriarchal familial power n authority. very very important Value of the Church #i don't think it's that deep. the show's attempt at critiquing christianity. but the way it reinforces christian cultural values??? #'religious predestination and absolute faith in a higher authority...bad' #nice nice ok tell me more? #“so you should put your faith in family. in your patriarch (big brother)” #????????? #the thematic incoherence of it all. it's like the world's stupidest puzzle box to me. i can't leave it alone. #sam = maybe i can find god thru following my destined path. wait oh shit. #cas = maybe i can find god thru rebellion and seeking my own destiny. wait oh shit. #dean = god is fucking dead and me i also feel not so good #the “guy who so desperately wants to find god parallel” <- me coming out as a secret sastiel fan #both of them...finding god in de-[sniper on the roof kills me in one shot] #spn bible studies #j.txt

[aroaessidhe]

2023 reads // twitter thread

To Shape A Dragon’s Breath

YA fantasy

a young Indigenous girl finds & bonds with a dragon hatchling - the first time in many generations for her people - and is required to go to the coloniser’s dragon academy in their mainland city, to learn how to raise her dragon and the science of its magic

historical inspired setting on the cusp of industrial revolution with steampunk vibes

bi polyamorous MC, Black lesbian SC, nonverbal autistic SC

#To Shape A Dragon’s Breath #aroaessidhe 2023 reads #this is really really good i loved it! #the chapter titles are all like snippets of a story. or like sentence fragments that match up. which is cool #it is definitely more about being indigenous in a coloniser institution than Dragon School - not Super dragon heavy if you want that #I suspect the subsequent books will get into that when she gets big enough to ride and stuff #t’s also def YA! i’ve seen a few ppl assume it’s adult and be like its very young :( but like. I mean its perfectly reasonable for a 15yo m #definitely a Lot of racism and colonialism which is not fun to read! though it's still through a YA lens. there was def a part of me that #was imagining consequences of the narrative as if it were an adult novel #on that line of thought - at the end a lot of it is kind of solved by them going to the king and he's is like. oh no racism is happening? #that's bad i'll deal with those people! which felt like. a little simplistic. but maybe the easiest way to end the narrative for book 1 - #I don't think the author ACTUALLY is going to portray the king as a Good Guy throughout the series - it just felt conveniently like - #a simple YA solution to some very big and complex elements? if that makes sense? (but again - it is YA so it's allowed I suppose!) #some of the worldbuilding (like all the science learning) is probably setup for next books - we don’t really see any practical application #the romances are also subtle and not Overbearing In Book One which i like - leave some space for the series! #also her getting fanmail from a 10yo mixed race girl who looks up to her 🥺 #anyway. i really loved it! #oh also it reminded me a little of leviathan. i guess just the steampunk/time period/european culture.... #To Shape A Dragon's Breath

[ilikerosesalot]

Fanart for the fanfic "Kaleidoscope" by @nonchalantatall!! I had this vision of them standing like this as soon as I read it so I finally decided put it to paper

#highly suggest yall to read it if your a fan of polysquad AND fantasy/royalty aus #i love author's works alot big fan #honored to dedicate my first fanfic fanart to them hehe #anyways tags #rosiedraws #fanart #shipart #project sekai #pjsk #prsk #prsk fa #vbs #vivid bad squad #polysquad #poly vbs #kohane azusawa #an shiraishi #akito shinonome #toya aoyagi #this watercolor style was a new teritory for me very fun shud try again

[jamiesfootball]

Always lowkey simmering a Leverage AU in the back of my head hear me out:

Ted is an ex-insurance investigator who was able to get his son life-saving medical treatment because his first, original Crime Pal Beard was like ‘Ted if your company doesn’t come through with the coverage, we’re doing things my way.’

The company did not come through. The company did let him go due to suspicion of Ted’s involvement in the incident, but Ted will happily remind folks that no charges were formally pressed. Henry is alive and healthy and living with Michelle, who divorced Ted shortly thereafter (not just because of pre-existing marital problems, but because Ted wouldn’t tell her anything about why the doctors “””suddenly decided to do the procedure for free”””). Shortly thereafter, Ted fled the country.

What Ted learned from the whole experience is that there’s a lot of people out there, good people just trying to live by the rules, but sometimes things happen that are just out of their control. And well- if we’ve got the means to help the good people out when no one else will, then shouldn’t we try?

“We’ve got means,” Beard agrees. “And motives.”

They do things Beard’s way now.

#also Rebecca is a grifter who gave it up when she married into money and her name(s) echo mysteriously through the back alleys of London #“did you hear about this Secret Princess Lydia who went missing in the 90s?’ ‘yes Ted that was me’ #the woman is constantly dodging every half-told lie she made on a lark twenty years ago but she is amazing at keeping them straight #and Roy- Roy long ago took an injury that ended his career as a footballer before it started #and he fell into a bad spot as a hitter #and then he fell into a worse spot #and then he dug himself out for his neice that no one knows about (see: everyone knows about think mafia kid no one is allowed to touch her) #the problem now is he’s getting old #the hits hit harder and his speed isn’t what it used to be #(Roy Kent’s slow is still leagues beyond what these young wannabe punks can do these days) #keeley! she is a sneak thief. very charming. tiny. great with repelling down sides of buildings #loves money and shiny rocks and thinks Rebecca is the bee’s knees #and then there’s Jamie who is a 24 year old hacker with gaudy taste no knack for accents and a problem with authority #in this au him and ted have basically split Nate’s backstory #Ted’s dad took him to bars and taught him little tricks and mind games- nothing fancy just stuff an HR person might know #meanwhile Jamie’s dad took him to shady deals in bars because his dad was a fixer who’d put bad guys in touch with each other #jamie keeps a tracker running on his laptop with his dad’s whereabouts at all times #unfortunately he didn’t think that anyone else would bother looking for him- he’s not exactly a big time crook #but Ted and his crew have pissed off Rupert Mannion who is big time and who wants to hit back at Rebecca for making a fool of him #and Mannion’s people have identified that the way in to breaking their little crew is through Jamie #who’s name sounds so ridiculous people have assumed it was fake this whole time #anyways #thanks for reading #I will likely never write this but boy I have ideas 💡 #leverage au #ted lasso #jamie tartt #roy kent #keeley jones #rebecca welton

[bonesandthebees]

i dont really read your fics anymore, nor do i really pay attention to your blog but i dont think i could ever unsubscribe from your ao3 or unfollow you on here. you were a vital part of my life in middle school and id be damned to not thank you by adding to your follow count.

awww thank you this is sweet! you certainly don't have to keep following me if you're no longer interested in what I post, but I also totally get just sticking around bc you've been following a blog/author for a long time, I've definitely done that myself. even if you don't look at my blog at all I'm still very happy to have you here :)

#ask #anon #also you mentioning middle school reminded me of the fandoms I participated in during high school #and the big authors I followed in those fandoms #and it's just wild realizing wow I'm that for a lot of you guys #when some people think back on their teen years and the time they spent in the mcyt fandom they'll be like o yeah i remember bonesandthebee #or probably more like oh yeah i remember that fic clinic #in the same tone of voice i use when i'm like oh yeah i remember watercast #never finished reading that fic actually but i remember it very distinctly

[bleaksqueak]

Woah dang, waking up to 99+ notifs on tumblr almost always means that an old Homestuck piece is going around again... imagine my delighted surprise to see it was all notifs about Soli! That was a great thing to wake up to. Felt an actual flutter in my chest. Thank you so much, everyone! And apologies for how Elias' hair keeps subtly changing. You always kind of figure out exactly how a character looks and how to draw them as you go along with sequential art. It, funny enough, largely comes from figuring out their acting (so lots and lots of different angles and features that need to shift/change slightly to carry the weight of looking like they should feel, for lack of a better way to describe it ) At any rate, glad to see people are excited for chapter 3! next update will be next week, and will be a two page spread.

#solivaga #yackin #it isn't the first time by a long shot that I've woken up to see my inbox full of soli notifs #but that usually only happens when I'm actively updating the comic or have posted a new big fancy illustration #that dies down considerably ofc when we're at a between chapter pause because old fandom work has the power to stay searchably relevant #and it's probably common for comic authors to worry that if they don't get back to updating ASAP they'll come back to no audience #so coming back with the main storyline of chapter 3 and a couple of preview snippets filling my notifs for this project that I love so much #definitely made me happy #there's just a joy in sharing something important to you and introducing characters and their stories to others #ofc I say all of this and have been going through my askbox like an absolute slug lol #if I could choose the world's most niche and specific superpower I would ask to split my creative attention when i'm really deep in it #but my brain demands to Live in the Scene when writing it or drawing very acting-heavy or important scenes #and I become Slug #Rat slug #new animal for the veil

[hella1975]

you ever have a fic get you in such a chokehold you start pacing your room and talking to yourself

#THIS FIC WAS WRITTEN FOR ME SPECIFICALLY #BURN IT ALL DOWN BY DOROTHYCANFLY ON AO3 THIS IS GENUINELY ONE OF MY TOP 5 FICS OF ALL TIME EVER #IT'S GOT THE BEST DABI CHARACTERISATION IVE EVER COME ACROSS IT'S GOT REALLY WELL WRITTEN DABIHAWKS #THAT FITS BOTH OF THEM LIKE THEY'RE MEAN AS HELL ABOUT IT AT FIRST #IT'S GOT STUPIDLY DEVOTED TOUYA-SHOUTO IT'S GOT PROTECTIVE BIG BROTHER TOUYA #IT'S GOT MENTAL ANGST WRITTEN LIKE A DREAM THE WRITING IN GENERAL IS INSANE #IT'S ACTION PACKED BUT DONE WELL SO THAT IT'S NOT TEDIOUS IT'S FUNNY IT'S GOT TWISTS #IT'S KEEPING ME ON MY TOES I NEVER KNOW WHAT'S COMING OR HOW FAR THE AUTHOR IS WILLING TO GO #IVE LITERALLY READ 300K WORDS IN TWO DAYS AT THIS POINT LIKE I AM ABSOLUTELY FINISHING THIS TONIGHT #WHAT THE FUCK EVEN AM I GONNA DO WITH MYSELF AFTER THIS #EVERY NEW THING THAT HAPPENS LITERALLY HAS ME GETTING UP TO PACE ABOUT #I CLOCKED OUT OF MY MUM TELLING ME OFF EARLIER BC I WAS THINKING ABOUT THIS FIC #DO U KNOW HOW DANGEROUS THAT IS BASO JUST SIGNED MY DEATH WARRANT BUT I DIDNT CARE #losing my goddamn mind respectfully <3 if anyone has read this pls yell with me about it #and if anyone knows mha and wants a fic rec PLEASE let it be this one it's my fav mha fic ever and ive read A LOT #it gets quite smutty in the middle but if that's not ur thing the author tws very well and u can kinda just scroll #so that u still get the important character developments without it being just pure smut lol #god this FIC. holding it in my fucking fist and squeezing the everloving life out of it im going INSANE #i cant remember the last time a fic got me this way im literally giggling about it all #HE FOUND A REASON TO LIVE AGAIN THEY TOOK THIS MANGLED BLOODY BOY AND SAID WE LOVE YOU #YOU ARE GOOD YOU CAN STAY YOU CAN REST NOW WE'LL TAKE CARE OF YOU AND HE CHOSE THEM! HE CHOSE THEM! #OVER HIS REVENGE AND HIS RAGE HE CHOSE THEM! IM GOING TO BE VIOLENTLY SICK #like the author LETS DABI BE A CUNT. the first chunk of the fic he's actively not a good person #and his coping mechanisms are shot to shit and we WATCH HIM GROW FROM THAT i have cried several times over the most mundane shit #goddddddddDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDAKSJFJKAGSFIUAHGJKAKG #mha #fic rec

[danganronpa96]

Do you ever expect Danganronpa 69 and Danganronpa 96 to explode hugely in popularity and gaining a huge fanbase? I am wondering cause considering that you now have a blog dedicated to your stories, so how does it feel to now have an unexpectedly large fanbase? Are you honestly uncomfortable with have a large fanbase or you’re just surprised by it and happy to have that many people who love your work?

Apologies for many questions, but I feel it’s rare to have a fanfic author to suddenly have a large fanbase, so I am curious.

For DR69, I wasn't really expecting the level of popularity and traction it got. I first posted it believing it'll get a small following at most, as with all the fandoms and characters it was sure to reach more people than a single fandom. In fact, it wasn't as hugely popular as it was now when I was working on chapter 4! I think it only had like 3k hits at the time lol

However, I did expect DR96 to have more of a following from the start, as by proxxy of DR69's traction, it already had some people eager to read (because we had announced it in the discord server and made a lot of teasers for it). It's brought in a lot of new readers however, such as those who found it through a specific fandom and have not read DR69 before.

Honestly, I am just surprised if anything. I know I was putting the effort into my works (such as with the art) but I always feel like posting anything on the internet is such a hit or miss depending on whether you get popular from it or not. It is really nice to be able to share my writing and passions with so many people, despite a lot of the drawbacks. I can't really control what happens or what people do, but I do hope they can respect my wishes.

#another big thing I've sort of influenced is that a lot of people take inspiration from my fics to create their own #which is still unbelievable to me tbh haha #and yeah fanfic authors are like z-list celebrities in terms of internet popularity #of course I am very happy with how much people like my works!

[libraryleopard]

Young adult dystopian/horror novel

A trans boy on the run from an eco-fascist Christian cult that decimated the population by releasing a deadly virus is rescued by group of teens from a local LGBTQ+ center and agrees to help them take down the cult–but he's hiding the secret that he's slowly being transformed into a monster via the bioweapon the cult infect him with

Compelling, intense, and gorey

Explores religious trauma & trans/queer rage

Gay, trans main character; gay, autistic love interest; various queer side characters

#BIBLICALLY ACCURATE ANGEL DISEASE IS SUCH A BANGER OF A CONCEPT #this book is very gross and intense and full of body horror and is also so good #absolutely sucked me in from the start #also the teenagers FEEL like actual teenagers even in the apocalypse which i really liked? #also the nuance that trans identity and neurodivergence was written with just showed a lot of care and authenticity #super excited for the author's victorian spiritualists novel hell yeah #okay wait there were two things i didn't quite get #the first is the benji has control over the graces and that makes him special but also they CAN follow other's orders? #and the second is *spoiler* i just didn't think it was realistic that he didn't realize nick was a former angel #like it's not THAT big of a group and he was in the same squadron as theo? #otherwise a fantastic read those were just two slightly confusing/weaker things #hell followed with us #andrew joseph white #lulu reads hell followed with us #books #lulu speaks #lulu reads #2023 reads

[lovelaceisntdead]

should I get a ticket to a book signing on thursday.

#or is that a bad idea. #i feel like i need to get out and do something before i. yes. #but idk if I'm well enough :/ #maybeeeee if i can get my dad to drive me so i don't have to get the train but that is a big maybe #it's like a whole evening thing but the vibes sound fairly lowkey so i don't think it would be too much #idk I've been struggling a lot with not being able to do things lately so. idk! #and I'd be going on my own which i don't mind but it is always that bit harder not having someone there in case i need help #i liked the author's first book well enough and there will probably be many gay people there so it might be nice to try and meet some peopl #idk!! i know i need to do things and have things to look forward to because otherwise. the demons. but it's so hard to balance when my body #is not on the same page #I've decided i will go and see lisa frankenstein when it's out and maybe also drive away dolls #so if nothing else i have my few times a year cinema trip to look forward to so maybe that will make me not want to kill myself for a bit. #sorry for vent essay i have been very much struggling to feel human recently. microdosing interacting with people. #being online is still making my brain feel strange so. idk what's up with that.

[marcusagrippa]

so i finally finished the october horse

#that was one of the books ever. it did make me more unwell about those guys which is. something. #(the way they're written DOES feel very much in love and vaguely homophobic at the same time i understand now) #colleen absolutely insisting octavian was a big sad earnest grey eyes long blonde hair twink but also an evil evil little snake in disguise #was pretty funny but i did disagree with some of the stuff relating to him #not that i am an authority on that in any way as i have not even been interested in rome for six months yet #overall it was ?? a book ?? i enjoyed it quite a lot tbh - dont know enough about the conspirators yet to commen #t on their characterisation but it did feel a little Off sometimes #and the caesar worship was. irritating. idk ithink it would have been better if she'd given him diarrhoea like dio did #but. fan overall i like d it quite alot it was fun. roman revolution time now boy (got it from the library today so excited) #guys tag #read ing #mor

[daydadahlias]

you can't reclaim a word that's never been used against you

#if you've never been called fat before please dont use that word #as someone who has been called fat a lot in my life in very painful ways... y'all dont get it #and i dont want people within a hundred feet of a word they dont understand the connotation/power of #im really just sad and tired of seeing non-fat people call ashton fat. because it just Keeps happening a *lot* and i just like #cannot stomach it at this point. i mean i literally see it FREQUENTLY and now ive just seen some stuff about it on my dash tonight and like #it brings me to tears literally every single time i see it. and i *never* see fat people call ashton fat ever. it is *only* non-fat people #and it's because they just simply do not understand how that word feels. and i shouldn't necessarily fault people for it BC they dont get i #but people writing feeder fics about him?? and going out of their way to describe his body in a way they never would a thin person's... #and more than that. like. he's not *fat*???? that's just not the right word. sure he HAS fat. everyone does #but calling him fat pointblank is just like... i do not see the benefit in it. he's Big. he's Muscular. but he's not *fat* #and it makes me think that you dont know any fat people. when that word has only ever been used in a derogatory manner by the majority #i mean that is NOT a neutral word. at this point in history. and if you have never experienced the harm that it can bring i just #i mean i dont know why you *want* to be using it #so yeah uh saying my bit on that bc y'all know me #im a little blabber box chatter mouth #and it's just something that i see a lot of especially on ao3 and one of the primary reasons actually that #i dont really read new fics by authors i dont know #because the way people treat ashton's body is very different than how they treat others' #and it's usually not fat people creating that content SO! #please uh consider maybe the words you're using... and how they could affect others! #ok i have a lot of homework to do tonight so im gonna. hunker down and do that #and feel Not Good about my body because if you think *ashton irwin* is *fat* then #i dont really want to know what you think about an actual fat person

[sysig]

Reading moodboard #84430940 (Patreon)

#Doodles #I wonder what this is in reference to lol - could be anything really! #Bit funny actually - I was reading something else in overlap at the time - a fic from another fandom though it ended up not being for me #Different authors just speak to different people! It was fun to come back to something familiar and realize Just how much I appreciate it ah #Novel and familiar! My very favourite <3 And of course it was a wonderful experience on top of that hehe ♪♫ #Numbers lol - I really have done way too much age headcanon math pfft #I just love timelines! And even if the hints aren't exact they /are/ hints and I'm going to use them!! #The numbers that are established are such fun markers - and using characterization as hints towards how many years have passed! Ah! ♪ #Like how it's definitely possible that Max took a two year but considering his family he was probably pushed to do a four year #There's no confirmation either way but it's just so fun to consider what they'd do based on how they're written! #These are the kind of written math problems I enjoy hehe #I was being a bit self-deprecating for that doodle actually tho lol - art mimics life and all that pfft #Also confirmation of him being a Lit Major ❤️💕💖💞💗 Small details give me big love you must understand this lol #As evidenced lol ♪ Adding to my playlist definitely didn't help it very strongly upgraded to Big Love for like a week straight lol #Terrible ♪ Couldn't stand it <3 Genuinely painful ♫ #Lol - ''finding'' more - it's what had my blood on fire! I'm so grateful for mirrors #Anyone who's been following me for a while knows I have this whole thing about Legacy and what you leave behind and the internet in general #That the internet is forever except when it's not - that plenty of things get deleted or lost etc. etc. and it makes me very sad :( #So seeing that there was an in-built preservation - it only saved Some things but anything saved is precious!! It made me very happy <3 #And then finishing off 💔💕 Beautifully heartbreaking ah #Even skim-reading later made me cry again! It's deeply affecting hhh #Another experience I'm so happy to be able to have ♥ Another tally on the wall haha <3

[bluegarners]

What’s your favorite fic you’ve read? Or What’s your favorite comic panel?

ough that's like asking me to only pick up one seashell on a beach, anon!

hmmm for fic... that's so so so hard, i've read so many works by so many talented authors, and they're all so different from each other that it's so hard to choose! i think my favorite au i've ever read has gotta be There Is by @/dustorange. i think it's one of the few fics that really did leave me emotionally stunned for days, and, fair warning, it does not have your typical happy ending. it could if you looked at it through a specific lens, but i think most people would say it ends quite sadly. i've been so invested in stories that center around what bruce and dick's relationship was like in the very beginning, and There Is just holds a very special place in my heart bc that is them but also not them bc it's an au, but they are sooooo recognizable and it really does put the whole "soulmates/i'd recognize you in another life" thing into words

and, again, i have soooo many fav fics that i go back to and reread over and over again, but i think the one that stands out to me (bc it really pulled me into the world of dc fanfic) is bad signal by @/prismatic-et-al. it was actually the first ever dc fanfic i ever bookmarked and to this day, it's like a comfort read to me bc the plot is so good and it's overall so well-written, and it really endears you to all of the characters and UGH. yeah. it's a fantastic fic to introduce you to all the characters if you're just starting out with comics or the dc fandom in general, and i am always coming back to it

#so many of the mutuals i have now were the very fic authors that got me into the wider world of dc #i feel so lucky to know them like i do now since i was just a big fan at first (still a huge fangirl but i keep it lowkey skfjhsjkf) #ask #anon #ask game

[felidaefatigue]

im convinced many people who think they read dont actually read

like i was joking with my bf about how i dont understand when ppl say it took them months to get thru a novel cause ive always only ever been able to marathon hyperfixate read. like 3 sittings maximum no matter the length of the book. i will do nothing not even eat if need be. and he was like "itd be impossible to even comprehend all that- you dont even take notes!"

and yet anytime im in a fandom. ppl will be like "oh i missed all these things i didnt realize xyz was important" and im just like ???????????

like sure i get details confused and miss things sometimes but like. ???? not often? i struggle more with being bored waiting for the hints and implied narrative leads to wrap up. are you not consumed by the novel? how? clearly im understanding more than most people despite my unhealthy need to binge consume god damn

#forgive my huge ego when it comes to fiction but like #very rarely am i blindsided by a plot twist or even vaguely lead astray most forms of narrative hints are NOT SUBTLE #it doesnt take many clues for the logical path to become obvious???? #and then its just waiting for anything the author HASNT already put in a big box of MYSTERY FOR LATER that is necessary to the details #like harrow wasnt? confusing or gaslightey to me at all? it was just? an unreliable narrator? which clues to reality sprinkled in pretty #nicely. #like have yall never been gaslit its not nearly that easy to peel out the truth when its ur brain jumbled to soup lmao