#They should escape the tag too

[alexis-royce]

You know what? Lee and Diegesis should actually never have to wait for a single thing, not ever again. The tiny draft of NonPlatonic Forms is up for patrons right now, download or go play in the browser, have fun!

#Visual Novels #Game dev #This is the last time I plan to post this in the #The Stanley Parable #tag ever again because these two escaped the parable #They should escape the tag too #Thank you to the one person who marched straight over to patreon #If I wake up tomorrow and see any more new patrons I'll set up a patreon goal for this right away

[wouteke]

☀️☀️☀️

#i was going to make a joke about transposing him to 2008 electro indie sleaze and then i rmrd he was actually real then #and like 13. so #a little too young for the teen romp im imagining but anyway he and wout should kiss at a school dance or something idk #mathieu van der poel #these tags escaped me

[crismakesstuff]

thinking of a role swap au between debbie and nolan inspired by this amazing fic by @marzipanilla on ao3

viltrumite debbie and human nolan,, oughhhhh

#everyone go read marzi’s stuff they are single-handedly carrying the invincible ao3 tag #i just reread it and I’m all over the place RAAAAGH #i think debbie should be allowed to be buff and kill people #and have nolan be a househusband #mark will never escape the trauma #now he gets mommy issues instead of daddy issues #god imagine the fucking aftermath of everything and how the trauma would present differently in mark #him full snapping at his dad and nolan having a rare moment where he yells back #and just freaks mark out but it’s too late #drawing debbie and nolan in this AU rn #YIPPEEEEE! #invincible #nolan grayson #debbie grayson #invincible au #invincible role swap au #human! nolan grayson #viltrumite! debbie grayson

[thermodynamic-comedian]

escape the night follows the rule of "third season is always the best season" in the most frustrating way possible by putting three likeable, reasonable people, who get along great with each other and have an amazing dynamic together, and then put them into a fucking Situation (derogatory)

#real ones wont have to look at the tags to know which characters i mean #me personally i just do not Vibe with nikita and joey and manny. colleen is okay #but #matpat #rosanna pansino #and #safiya nygaard #just. made the whole show for me #give them their own show #oh right i should probably put their character titles too #the detective #the jetsetter #the investigative reporter #escape the night #etn s3 #etn season 3 #escape the night season 3

[kabukeo]

tonight's little doodles

#doodle #lcb #meursault lcb #meurgreg #im trying to be less self conscious about making meurgreg or any ship art really #twt has exposed me to everyone having an opinion on every ship ever #which has made me back away from making too much art of any one ship #i know meurgreg is one of the most popular ships but because of that i also feel an odd sense of guilt #i cant explain it like i should use my art to contribute to a rare pair or smth idk #its all a bit weird and irrational #but ive realized i have not been able to make art for myself for months #every idea i have and everything i go forward to draw im always thinking about how others will feel about it #and how i can make it better fit or adequate for an audience so i dont let them down or bore them #and that mindset has made art so much of a chore that ive significantly slowed down so much on art at all #so idk #trying to stop overthinking and just draw what i feel to the extent that i feel #escape the perfectionism and wanting to please everyone as much as possible #to elaborate on the weird meurgreg feeling i guess its like #i feel guilty for filling tags even more with an already popular ship & making mutuals who dont like meurgreg see it more #but its just not that deep #people can mute meurgreg and thats just not my problem anyway #sry ab these tags!

[drowsyscatterbrain]

ah yes, i remembered.

there was a shorter dream i had. quite interesting one indeed.

i was with a few strangers, all of us helping sans escaping a three story white building while running from groups of crazy fans.

'crazy' as 'absolutely feral & will rip anyone from limb to limb in blind rage just bc they stood near him' kinda deal.

so we were fighting off the ferals to keep them away from him, each of us helpers have a blunt weapon, mine was a crowbar. kinda heavy to swing but it gets the job done.

elevators were out of the question, something was keeping him from using his magic. so the only option was keep running.

at second floor, one of the doors bursted open when he ran past it, one of the ferals grabbed him by his hood and was about to drag him in.

i reached him first, then forced the hand to let go from smashing it with my crowbar, as hard as i could.

i think i broke that arm, cuz i heard a crack and an unholy shriek as we ran away.

when we reached the 1st floor, all of us were out of breath, scratches and cuts all over our body. except sans, we did a decent job keeping him safe.

two of us rushed forward to keep the front door open, with me running a few steps ahead of him, at this point we just wanted to gtfo.

but then i heard him yelp, turned around to see him has tripped over himself, falling and skidded a few inches across the clean white floor, with the horde catching up in twisted excitement.

next thing i know i was running, yeeting the crowbar onto the hand inches from his struggling ass, snatched him up, and sprinted towards the door as fast i could. leaving the ear-splitting screams of rage behind.

i felt my hands around him tighten as i'm reaching the exit, with his arm went behind my neck to stablize himself.

legs burning from all the running throughout the dream, ears pulsing from my own heartbeat, mixing with his shallow breaths and my ally's urgent yells. it was getting overwhelming, but i kept running.

then it reached its peak as we all leaped into the exit's blinding white light. time seemed to slow down as i felt his form curling into me, before everything i felt seemly exploded.

my sore muscle felt like they bursted into flames, my ears popped, i felt everything and nothing at the same time.

with my arms full, i could only squeeze my eyes shut.

my bedroom ceiling greeted me when i opened my eyes, arms reaching up holding nothing, fading adrenaline still pulsing in my ears.

#i was torn between how should i draw my dreams when this memory surfaced #very random but ok i guess- #idk why am i not one of the ferals but i am glad at the same time #playing sardine can with a horde of ppl that slowly melts together? #no thanks. #this one is getting drawn too #if i have a coin every time i snatched up a blorbo to escape mindless horrors in a dream i'd have two coins #which isn't a lot but s'weird it happened twice. #and very cliche #drowzy's dreams #simping o' clock #sans undertale #rambling in the tags

[lobotomizedlady]

literally wanna dieeeee I realized belatedly that not only was down bad written for me due to being an alien abduction metaphor song but it perfectly describes my situation w/my ex who dumped me 3 days into our second vacation in his country

#but yknow thats what i get for dating a fucking man last year when i absolutely knew better. i was in a low place & the idea of being #whisked away from europe was an escape for me . we got along really well but the second i showed any emotional weakness he couldnt handle i #oh but he sent a bunch of messages begging me to come back when i was on the plane fleeing to my sisters london flat! lol!!! #i didnt tell you guys about any of this on my old blog when it was happening bc i just knew itd invite a flood of #''why were you even dating a man'' messages. yeah im aware. it was stupid & yet another result of my inability to purge myself of the #desire to be in a relationship my homophobic father wouldnt hate me for. and i didnt think any woman would want me . im over it now #fuck my abusive father fuck men in general im so over the internalized homophobia. ive always preferred women why should i have to #supress that to make my fuckface hypocrite father happy. i only rly care bc i love my half brother & want to be in his life which means #i have to appease dad. but at what goddamn cost #why did i say from europe in that earlier tag. i meant TO europe...im from the us #anyways. what a shit show situation that was. i have never felt so betrayed by anyone except for my dad himself #oh i didnt even mention the worst part yet. when i texted from london asking if our friendship was over too (god. so cringe) he then went #into this spiel about how actually what he said earlier when he was asking me to come back #(that it had been a stupid impulse & biggest mistake of his life) was a lie & it had been a long time coming #IF IT WAS A LONG TIME COMING WHY THE FUCK DID YOU LET ME FLY ACROSS THR ATLANTIC FUCKING OCEAN 3 DAYS AGO FOR YOU #and said hed tell me the reasons but ''didnt want to hurt me'' #i have so much hatred in my heart for this man to this day when i really think about the mind games he was playing. unreal. #and he KNEW i already had massive trust issues

[hypervoxel]

I've seen a couple different people now complaining about the plethora of fics where Vox leaves an abusive Valentino and finds refuge and a healthy relationship in Alastor... Which just makes me want to write a story where Vox leaves an abusive relationship and Alastor takes in Vox but instead of rescuing him, he is instead just as abusive and manipulative albeit in different ways. Trading in sexual abuse for a different kind of toxic relationship.

#mostly because I enjoy discussions and depictions of bouncing between abusive relationships #escaping one abuser and then falling victim to another #the pattern of behavior is familiar‚ feels more authentic than anything else #the internalized victim blaming... the externalized victim blaming bc why do you keep doing this? #it's everything to me <- phrase i say about every toxic unhealthy thing i obsesse over #anyway. i do actually love the 'Vox escaping an abusive relationship and finding refuge and comfort in Alastor' theme in fics too #I'll read every one. or at least I'll give each one i find a shot and click on it to read #i. have far too many tabs open actually #oh shoot i should add a drama discourse tag to this #fandom wank #personal

[granolabird]

Ok everyone, it's the spooky season and the song Heads will Roll is having a resurgence in popular media, so it's time to end things once and for all

#I'm bored and I cannot escape this song #Everywhere I go I hear it #So I figure I should plague everyone else with it too #Poll #Heads will roll #stargirl #cindy burman #the boys #gen v #victoria neuman #goosebumps #goosebumps 2023 #james goosebumps #Chucky #Idk what to tag the fucking porcupine man #Isn't it played by Scarlett Johansson?? #Not a porcupine expert #yeah yeah yeahs #Halloween

[blizzardstarx]

old (2022) oc art dump

halfmask, blizzardstar, and gingerstar v

eclipse and gingerstar my lesbian cats <3 v

aura and i forgot her name the silver bengal

and paw anatomy

#blizz's art #warrior cats oc #ocs #Blizzardstar!!! #Gingerstar!!! #Halfmask!!! #not gonna make a tag for eclipse cause i only came up with her two years ago and then proceeded to abandon all my ocs 😭 #they all got some trauma lmao #except that silver bengal i forgot why i created her #halfmask is a war hero and spy with ptsd #blizzardstar…. poor poor baby #explained in another post but he witnessed his parents and one of his siblings being killed in front of his eyes in a coup detat #basically had to be on the run for most of his childhood too #gingerstar got run over by a twoleg monster (car) #when she was a warrior #i love her sm i was gonna write a book for her but stopped to do blizzardstars #i created a whole new warrior cats role for her too as ambassador #i should redraw halfmask and gingerstar sometime #also toe beans <333 #the reason why the first beans look blurry is cause the stupid website i used glitched and i had to restore the drawing and redo the lines #fuck you sketchpad #and eclipses parents were homophobic 😭 so she escaped and found gingerstars clan #aura!!! #aura haha..... #very complicated story

[yeonban]

It's lovely when I read a book and some random paragraph in it hits me in the face like a train at mach speed

#◜✧ . ❪ muse. tobias. ❫ #ask to tag #Before this I was catching up with the Doctors are Out webtoon too and atm it's an arc where an abuser #got back to his victim bc he and the authorities dgaf about upholding his restraining order like bro I GET it. I get it. I KNOW #Tobias showing up like that one surprise 'heyyy' girl meme gif bc he's the solution (<- getting rid of them Permanently): >:) #No matter where I look this guy manages to weasel his way in. I cannot escape #Now I'm thinking about how Wammy's orphans have such different perspectives on what they should do and what justice means... #to some of them (ex Near) it means catching sb legally by mostly lawful means and yeeting them into prison #to others (ex Mello) it means catching sb by any means necessary but still trying his best to avoid murder #and then to others (ex Tobias) murdering these people who he knows will escape sooner or later anyway is justice in itself #You try to put Wammy orphans down at a table to come to a collective agreement on how they should operate and they simply Cannot #Watari mildly fucked up when he made them ALL headstrong and under the belief that they're always the right one in the room #I bet any of them comes up w a cohesive plan and there's sb in the room IMMEDIATELY pointing out why that plan isn't it 😭 #Obviously they'd still synch with each other if need be (ex Mello & Near) but forbid they work TOGETHER together as more than ~2 people #Tobias and Near would be such a funny duo esp. bc Near sees people resorting to murder as wrong and disgusting no matter if it's valid #meanwhile Tobias sees lawful justice as nothing but a farce because 99% of the time it does nothing besides giving a momentary #ego boost to the person who caught the criminal. and then beyond that it's no longer their business if the criminal escapes or not #but it IS very much everyone else's business; and why many live in terror daily wondering if their nightmare will return tomorrow #to be fair Tobias couldn't care less about their feelings 99% of the time either but Watari DID teach him to enact justice. and to him #getting rid of the root of the problem rather than locking it up IS justice. He perceives the problems from much closer than #other Wammy orphans ever have. He's RIGHT THERE in the middle of it whereas they're in some safe place far away from the victims #plus their backgrounds are far too different from his own to reach a consensus too... you can't make him believe prison = justice #just as you can't make them believe murder = justice. But I do think people would prefer Tobias' approach far more than idk Near's #again it's not like Tobias cares about how he's perceived by the people he saves! (or if he's even perceived at all) but I can imagine #going to sleep knowing the person/people/group/etc having it out for you no longer exists is a much more heartening sentiment than #hearing they've been sent to prison; from where they can send sb else after you or from where they can escape in due time

[fratricideknight]

a/b/o is a hot, slash-enabling romance trope TO YOU. to me, it's dystopian body horror.

#truly the worst thing to ever exist. i'm trying so hard to be chill about it but even after all this time it still gets to me. sigh. #i'm not saying it should be banned or ppl who like it are evil or anything! i've tried to enjoy it as romance AND as horror but #it's just too disturbing. it's just pure nightmare fuel. #like it could be bearable to me (not that it matters lol) if it stayed firmly within the fanfic sphere. but it's leaking out so badly #and it's like i can't escape it lol. it's escaping the recesses of fanfic websites and (even more than it always has been) becoming #material for cis people lacking awareness of and sensitivity towards trans ppl and issues to spice up a m/m story #and that's actually maddening lol #i remember considering ranting about it to my therapist for a hot minute back in the day #but ultimately the last thing i want is to spread it further or to be made to talk about it haha #even posting about it now is making my skin crawl. but i figure that anyone on this website is already acquainted with it :} #this will probably be severely regretted and deleted eventually though #about me #mine #cw omegaverse #cw tag essay

[lilowoof]

I'm so fucking excited to get all this outstanding work done, and for tax season to fuck off. I cannot wait to have more time to play games with pals, go out with friends whom I haven't seen in a few months....go to some random meetups to meet new ppl and create new connections (and perhaps snag me a new person wink wonk LMAO).

And just...have more time to live. To stop feeling as lonely as I am feeling rn. CAUSE HOO BOY, it's been hitting me hard. And I can't do too much about it CAUSE of the deadlines I need to meet!

#I have learned my lesson: no more zines. or rather. no more modding zines #as much as I love you grizz zine. the amount of work you have placed on my shoulders is too much. heck. the other mods have it worse #I dont enjoy doing overtime and coming home to work on the art for the zine that I really should have had help with :') #27 spots...thats way too much for me at least. my hands are struggling and I am getting flare ups again. and I am not including the notes #I legit havent drawn anything for me in months because of this and I just wanna draw abby n pilos cuddling!!!!!! LMAO #and I so badly want to reach out to ppl to play games with and I cant cause Im either WORKING or WORKING #I really want to stream games again too.....I REALLY want to play 999 with someone :'))))))))))) would be a fun game to share...... #and the cube escape game too #AUGH I HATE BEING SO BUSY AND ALONE SOMETIMES LMAO. IDM being single but this is an instance where a partner would be nice to have to blab #but ye I am so excited for may. most things will be done and work will still be rough but more manageable! #so ye. IM so sorry if you read all this I just like talking. and I dont really have anyone to talk to rn except myself XD #(ye ye I could reach out to ppl but hm. well I am tbh LOL. but ya know. busy. haha) #also typing has been really painful lately. the only reason why these tags are ending is cause my hands are numb from typing. :'))))))))))) #ok goodnight

[aezyrraeshh]

; OC AS A LOVE LANGUAGE

tagged by @indorilnerevarine to take this quiz for some of my ocs; thank you so much for the tag! <33 tagging @arklay @aartyom @risingsh0t @steelport @devilbrakers @liurnia @florbelles @shadowglens @calenhads @aelyosos @jillvalcntines @shepardgf @swordcoasts @cultistbase @brujah @girlbosselrond @camelliagwerm @reaperkiller @faarkas @veisshaupt @celticwoman & whoever else wants to do this!

; a knife called grief

You have left your house, you have left those people behind, but what are you going to do about the memories which have taken root in you? You can run but not without them. You want someone to sit with you on this cool marble floor while the sun burns everything. You want them to cut your rotten heart and theirs too. You want to sit with it in front of you, let them see you with all your flaws, which haven’t been your fault but you have been made to believe so, and you want them to love you anyways. Because you know you’d do that for them.

; an undoing influence

Can someone tell you what to do? You have been carrying so much love within you for so long it is starting to turn into anger (why does it matter, all you see is red anyways) and you have been dragging this body through each day and every night you are split open on your bed and it is so so so lonely. If someone were to walk in while you were on your bed that way and they stitched you back in a new way, lining the seams with their love and kisses, you’d probably find this dreary world a little more bearable. You want someone to turn you over and over until you look in the mirror and see yourself looking back at yourself with a gentleness which has been lacking in you since forever.

; violent devotion

Everyone seems to think you are faithless, but the thing is you haven’t yet found someone who will bring you to your knees and make you raise your head in reverence. This world has stopped bringing you joy, you want more of the divine. You want to dedicate your entire existence to someone; you want to make them realise they are not something terrible, make them see just how much beauty they are bringing to this world. You want to be the only one for them, the only one they have chosen to love. There’s a god shaped pit inside of you and only they can fit in it. And what if they choose to walk away? Didn’t I say this was violent devotion?

#ty again for the tag !! #THESE OH MY GOD THESES HIT SO HARD I AM #''you have left your house you have left those people behind but what are you going to do about the memories which have taken root in you'' #FOR LUNA I AM SCREAMING BC HER FAMILY? AND JOSIE? SHE RUNS AWAY FROM HER EMOTIONS BUT SHE STILL REMEMBERS THE GOOD TIMES EVEN IF SHE WISHES #SHE DIDNT #she will always remember the good and the bad but she wishes so badly that she could forget and be stronger than this #she is in a grip of longing and she cant escape AAAAAAAAAA #she likes to think she longs only for power but there is a thirst for connection too screaming and crying #and josie............................. i am dead #her result hits esp hard considering luna left her after josie had confessed and it's like.... her feelings drove away the person she loves #and even if she is angry at luna she is also angry at herself bc she should have known better than this #iwish someone was there for her to comfort her that it was not her fault oh my god #the anger.... screaming and crying x2 #ALSO I HAVE THE WEIRDEST WAY OF INTRODUCING OCS BUT MEET ELIAN #not going to say a lot abt him bc mystery lmao but *violent* devotion fits them all too well #too too well #anyways i am going to think abt these for the rrest of the day now #♡: tag games

[shikai-the-storyteller]

Gosh, I still remember when Terminal Velocity posted their Megaman X video and everyone in the community (all 10 of us) lost our frickin MINDS. It was so good and so funny and so well-animated, and frickin LUCAS GILBERTSON reprised his role as Zero just for this video (and then there was that little ZeroX bit at the end that left us all in shambles for weeks).

I frickin miss the MMX days man. Yeah, we were always starved for content, but we had such a fun little community and it was so much fun writing fanfic and tormenting friends with sad AUs and gushing about robots with Juliana Wint and Saling and everyone. I miss thattttttt.

#i talk #no escape from gay robot hell #<-- I MISS MY OLD TAG TOO #Transformers has been whispering in my ear lately too so y'all gotta be careful #because when the robot obsession rears its head again every few years or so it comes back with a VENGEANCE #I also miss those days because I was way happier back then #and I could also do massive essay analysis posts #it was nice #Just pulled up Ao3 and happy to report that my fics are still dominating the tag #but holy crap 7 of them are on the first page when ranked by kudos???? dang #that feels good I gotta say #I'm still proud of a lot of them. I had fun writing them #I should reread them sometime #The food ones were especially fun #the others I'm sure I'd tweak here or there if I were to write them now but I don't edit super old fics

[fragmentedblade]

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#Honestly don't get people who follow me here and even less so that interact semi steadily with my posts #I literally don't follow myself on this sideblog lol #Thanks though. It feels a bit validating haha #I feel my overall opinions are so unpopular in the general fandom that I never end up writing them down for safekeeping #because I would want to find them in my own blog but with tumblr's tagging system that would mean them potentially reaching other people #and thus potentially getting blocked by blogs‚ and as a consequence not getting to see many posts I would love #So yeah it feels like a cordial *pat pat* at times #I am never really insecure at all about my reading capabilities because that's my whole thing but it does feel lonely somewhat #and makes one wonder about some things like whether something is escaping me or if really that's the state of things out there #And lonely even in the mere appreciation of dynamics‚concepts‚ characters‚ motifs‚...that are often dismissed almost entirely by the fandom #This post and this rambling has no telos really #Just how baffling I find to have people follow this blog and even like my posts #And how baffling too the realisation that it can be kind of sweet #Like that line of Benedick '(...) is not that strange?' and Beatrice's reply 'As strange as' #I reread that play yesterday night and truly that line is amazing. One of the love confessions of all time. I love their dynamic #And still is the active/passive roles linked to gender‚ bastardy and the assertion of one's existence and life #in the characters of Hero and don John which always obsess me the most about it #Ahfksjkd but I'm rambling again. If anywhere at all I should write those thoughts on my main blog. Definitely not here #I talk too much #As usual #I should probably delete this later #How do I always end up rambling and about things barely or straight up absolutely unrelated to the initial topic? Ugh #I can't even begin to tell how annoying I am in my first language