#WHICH I NEED TO GET ON TOP OF AGAIN

[lemon-wedges]

Another batch of process gifs

#the art of a lemon wedge #i feel like these are so much shorter than my last #but i think thats just coming from me kinda just painting faster #and no bgs lol #WHICH I NEED TO GET ON TOP OF AGAIN

[catmanbowser]

To divert my sadness i drew jason..again.. [drops mic in anguish]

#jason todd #dc #catman's art #..im so not over how horrible everything is rn and on top of that oh my fuckign god…pudding………… #get well soon to my mind #anyways jason again :] #i have some time off before hell so i think i can finally do other things i need to do which im grateful for

[mattodore]

found out while putting together matthias's oc page that his name has the exact same etymology and meaning as theo's name...

i’m sure this is information matthias is very normal about…

#theo is in fact a gift from god so jot that down ! #river dipping #i've been throwing myself into oc stuff bc i'm not doing hot mentally which is... tbh when i do my best writing 😭 #none of this is new tho i wrote the bios and 'at a glance' intros months and months ago when i first made an oc page #which is why i do plan on rewriting them but for now i'm leaving them like this... so i guess the echthroi page is done? #obviously echthroi has more characters than this but i haven't taken new screenshots of everyone yet... #i put the gray cas bg back in my game a few days ago only to completely forget i wanted to take new headshots for the oc page 😭 #like these are just placeholders... i want the backgrounds to match the oc page. oh... or maybe i could just do transparent pics? #i think i remember vyx made a post abt how to do that... will look into that when i open the game again. rn i'm at my keyboard 🧑‍💻 #like i am writing new things! started a google doc for theo yesterday and have been writing on it here and there since then #i've already cried in there... lmaooo. i like oc pages for sure but i think a huge google doc is what i really need to keep track of things #i drop so much lore in tags on here and it's like! river write that down somewhere else or you'll lose it 😭 #like i fr have never actually written down any of the info i've shared on here. i've just had all this oc knowledge stored in my brain. #so i went through and copied over a tonnn of tags and posts i've made into google docs but i just know i'm missing things i've probably #said in the tags of their core tagged posts... 🧍 if my blog didn't have so many posts i'd have an easier time going through it but 🤷 #and on top of that i've been making a bunch of posts about theo and matthias on my main acc. which is like 🧍 well great now there's more #i'm gonna lose track of...... i fr have gottt to get into the habit of actually putting things down in theo's google doc!!! #i'm just trying to figure out the best way to format it all but i've downloaded a few templates that i've been messing with. #...anyway. if it isn't obvious i'm trying to get back to posting on here. i'm opening my inbox now with the intent to just. #sit here in my inbox until i can get myself to reply. lads... avpd is actually so torturous i'm not kidding. #i feel like i'm dying trying to get myself to interact with people sometimes even despite how badly i want!!!! to interact!!! #theo and me and our avoidant trauma responses holding hands and skipping around together

[bobbinalong]

i wish i was a batman fan, he gets so many comics that every once in a while, something HAS to be good. alas lmao.

#like clark is among my top 5 so it's not like i'm totally starved for good current comics #i still need to catch up on world's finest actually (which. batman lol) #but bart and steph haven't caught a break in like twenty years lol #and jon is still in tom taylor's clutches #and babs is walking around #and also in tom taylor's clutches (tho not for long anymore) #at least cass is eating well rn i like the current bop run except for the babslessness of it all #which is rectified for this arc #tho she is still walking around #anyway i'm currently really losing my mind over dc's treatment of steph so like #ignore me lol #i'm so mad about her not being in the new damian book when she SHOULD be the robin he's closest to after dick. she's literally his batgirl #i'm also mad again about the way fitzmartin broke her and tim up and probably always will be but maybe i should start getting over that #it has been two years #anyway it's not even that i hate bruce he just doesn't scratch that itch

[dragonfollies]

I haven’t posted my drawings to tumblr in a while, so here’s a couple of sketchbook doodles of Nintendo characters from the past week

#I’ve found that bowser has become my go-to thing to draw #he’s very fun and shapely #also I love bowser. especially rpg bowser which is what the top right drawing is based upon #drew King Koopa last night too since I was watching the super mario bros super show with my 4 y/o cousin #i need to get better at drawing people again so I can accurately draw Link #my goal for this year is to improve at art and overall draw more #having a sketchbook that I doodle in with a ballpoint pen really helps a lot #there’s a lot less pressure to get things right. and after all. a bad drawing is still a drawing #I should be less conservative at showing quote on quote ugly or just unfinished stuff places #honestly people could care less lol #ramble over #my art #follysart #Mario and Luigi rpg #bowser fanart #link loz #link fanart #sketchbook

[danandfuckingjonlmao]

3 hours, medium psychological damage, and 1 klonopin later and i can proudly say i made it through that 32 minute video. there is nothing that you can’t achieve in this life 😤💪

#tw medication mention #dnp #dan and phil #i can’t believe i had to take my literal panic attack meds for this shit lol #(i take klonopin as a prn which i try not to use more than once a week tops and i only took half) #(this user does not condone recreational benzodiazepine use or abuse #(please don’t use benzos without talking to a psychiatrist first and getting them prescribed) #phan #yeet my deet #yeet my dnp #gamingmas 2023 #i conquered that bitch #to quote james acaster: “never ever don’t believe in yourself ever again” #i did the impossible #i can probably climb a mountain now no big deal #but first i need to sleep because that was full emotional labour #pinof #phil is not on fire #danandphilgames #dan howell #phil lester #yeet my deenp

[crossbackpoke-check]

Why I Am Not Coming In To Work Today [abridged], Jess Zimmerman

part one | part two

#toronto maple leafs #HELLO EVERYBODY THIS HAS BEEN MONTHS!!! MONTHS IN THE MAKING BECAUSE i AM UNHINGED AND NEEDED THE PRECISE PICTURES THAT I KNEW I WOULD GET #like. seventy five percent of this has been done since the first time i posted this and while it has gotten better with time because #my narratives simply got more complex and there's so much of this that is For Me but don't worry i will explain but aLSO goddamn mitch coul #you have gotten married any later in the year. also willy you truly disappointed me by not getting an absurd haircut this year (now that #i've said this he's going to debut it on instagram like. tomorrow. but anyway that meant y'all got to enjoy my neuroses of #Loving Tyler Bertuzzi who is a goddamn leaf. the joys of having to wait to post this (was not a leaf at the time i started it) and anyway i #have at length i think had the breakdown about tyler in pigtails girl dad & how i got a bob & then tyler copied me which was rude. that's m #gender. ANYWAY starting from the top we got sheldon keefe documentation which was really just the personal decision that i wanted all the #coaching staff to be the markers in the poem/the bold & also at the TIME keefe hadn't re-signed &we thought it might be everybody out w/kyl #anyway the title of the scrap of an old lover's flannel is literally 'u think this is about sheldon & kyle NO it's about timothy liljegren' #bc. liljegren was on the marlies winning cup team & has had a contentious relationship w/keefe ever since & was healthy scratched in playof #& the narrative is sooooo. also at one point for the ryan o'reilly i was going to edit the stlb out of his grandma's shirt or cover it w/th #childhood dreams line but THEN i found the gio snapped stick one which was too perfect for 'crumbling copy' the ryan o'reilly To Me is so. #ur insane in ways u did not think for that one. like. how soft her hands were. his grandma you guys. he grew up a leafs fan. if he ever get #to lift the cup with her again i will lose my shit. the cup run a movie i remember nothing--OKAY the spezz one i knew i needed him stresse #but also i believe in the spezz/kyle narrative so. it comes up later don't worry ALSO SPEZZ FOLLOWING HIM TO PITT CAME AFTER I MADE THIS bu #the muzz tea one makes me a little sensy bc muzz was out with an injury for most of this season & it was a really scary spinal one & so yea #& then the simmer one just straight up makes me cry bc i love him so much & the work that he does for anti-racism in hockey means so much & #if you have that video open & watch it i promise you will cry i do every time it's so beautiful he had to be on comforted by beauty & sammy #boy is on the a man who doesn't know me because EYE remember the caps goalie tandems. baby lilya. the mo one is a little funny bc it is #solely due to wade's thread about mo rielly the coal miner homestead husband. that's why he moves to omaha also i think it suits him (quiet #OK NOW OLD MEN IN LOVE NARRATIVE this one's in contention for my fave bc it's spezz coping w/retirement fundamental meaningless of existenc #u heard abt tyler already that's for me the minchy picture was just too good i had found it earlier & i spent SO LONG looking for an empty #leafs rink picture for bathtub i have some cool construction photos but i wanted the melting ice ones (thought about tahoe lol) & the sprin #one i manip'd a lot bc i needed a spring picture bc playoffs clinch in spring & that one fit so coincidentally perfect bc it's 7 straight #seasons 7 guys so. :) & i KNEW i swore to god they did more milk advertising i knew i was gonna do this one from the minute i saw the poem #the milk patch & it took a hot minute BUT I FOUND THIS ONE this one's for funsies. AND THE PIC I WAITED SO FUCKING LONG FOR this is actuall #from kerf's wedding but i was like i know on god mitch is getting married this summer & that's about to be the drunkest shenanigans wedding #i'm waiting for the pics. & then i was BLESSED with this one which is beautiful & perfect & LOOK AT THEM. anyway the last one is bc

[front-facing-pokemon]

#*again* another closer one under the cut. just gotta get in there for that fuckin nose tbqh #bagon #this is the guy that eventually evolves into salamence. and there's. well. salamence is. salamence. but this guy is just bagon #they're like. *kinda* cute? i dunno. pure dragon-type which is always strange-but-fun to see in small little guys like this #although they do still evolve into a very powerful dragon/flying-type so maybe it doesn't count. we need more middling dragon-types #dragon-types that're only dragon-types to be cute and they aren't actually super powerful. there probably are some out there #i just can't remember them off the top of my head #i guess you could say tatsugiri but i think it ends up being good anyway esp in doubles. closest example is *probably* the applin lines? #appletun especially i like way more than flapple. it is indeed cute and it is indeed a dragon-type for some reason #that's not bagon though this is bagon. i dunno they have rocks on their head but no semblance of a rock-typing even when they're shelgon #what's there to say until i get to their evolutions

[thenwethrowitonthefire]

Shout-out to everyone who survived a "fun" easter with the family

#fucking hell #it started with finding out my dad smoked in my car when I picked up my sister #who was equally dreading the day #my mum turns into the world's tensest and judgemental presence. worsened by my aunt #then hell for autistic people (of which there are multiple present) #multiple deaf people means one uninspired conversation that isn't interesting in any way. #combinations of passive aggressiveness and people not saying a thing because they can't participate. voice volumes too damn high #weirdass food situations. Very full table. so many smells. #this goes on for over an hour. wishing for literally anything but being there. soul crushing. #then you still have to sit in that room for 2.5 hours. it just goes on and on. #my autistic deaf dad physically looks like how I feel. my mum and aunt keep piling on top of him to demand his mental presence #i leave the room once (to get my phone to show pictures to my uncle) and am immediately followed upstairs by my mum #who demands I don't leave the room (What's next. following me when I need the toilet?) #me and my sister are so bored we start throwing paper planes and fake fighting. #Which amuses the bored and the deaf #but of course my mum and aunt have opinions and this is not allowed. only soul crushing boredom allowed #they complain to each other over it while aggressively doing dishes #finally it ends because my mum and aunt start insisting my dad should go to bed if he's 'that tired'. *sprinkle on some additional ableism* #still sitting through a conversation about allergies one of my sister's friends has. my mum preaching that people should take that seriously #(meanwhile i had to cook for myself for 9 years because when my allergies were really bad no one bothered to check if i could eat something) #me and my sister go sit upstairs to discover our mum has made things we care about vanish in her room #and made things appear that should not be there #I've washed the interior of my car and hope the smell will go #you think it's over after that. but woke up with the realisation that even more things have disappeared from my sister's room. #i can't remember a time when things left outside of my room didn't disappear #I don't know why we do these family gatherings at all. no one has fun on days like that. #the housing crisis isn't making these things easy. my sister is losing her place to live again as well #she'll go hiking for a month and then work on a campsite over the summer #maybe I'll go house sitting again. idk. #can't make commitments a few months in advance like that because I'll cancel everything the second Sparks announces anything important

[compacflt]

not to be that one its always sunny conspiracy board meme, but is the most recent excerpt you posted with macy's and sears and the goodbye kiss a part of the same ten-step guide how to kiss tom kazansky? there's one where maverick turns ice by telling him about the woman he hooked up with the night before and one where they drink wine from their hands at the beach - is the goodbye kiss another one that doesn't quite count? also please feel free to ignore if i should wait to see when this is posted in full

yes correct there are three sets of those, they are all months old at this point 😭

in the spirit of wip wednesday here’s one from the third set that i haven’t posted any excerpts of yet

we do a little prose poetry 🤪

#1st set is 1994-1996 2nd set (of which the home reno section was) is 2005-2007 3rd is 2018- #🤷🏽‍♀️ #baby was going thru it in may. Needed to take some stress out on some good thick juicy second person italicized dialogue #why is heartrate red underlined i am gonna kms it should be one word #btw prose poetry is a joak for anyone who didn’t get that #i am joaking #this is just me sucking my own dick relentlessly (most of these extras are) #pete maverick mitchell #tom iceman kazansky #icemav #top gun #top gun maverick #top gun fanfiction #may 2023 was basically me just losing my mind over and over again & sometimes led to ideas como esto #‘huh! that’s weird!’ yeah that’s cause i was stressed out of my fucking gourd lol #same with the drinking wine out of each others hands LMAONFJSNDJD what the f #Are you guys getting sick of my size-11 single spaced cambria yet

[ashfdhfgdsfk]

might remake to a new account entirely and change the name i go by

#depresso rant incoming skipp all this if you dont wanna hear it #txt #el/ena might have to become a deadname for lack of a better word sjdhfg #putting the slash because im beyond paranoid now #nothing on this earth is sacred i feel like ive lost the only safe space i had left #would you guys call me some silly name if i asked :-( fuck #shit im so hurt this is the worst #trying to be positive so im not just a huge drag but im so isolated in my real life and as stupid as it sounds #tumblr was becoming a little home id carved out for myself #and i feel like im never going to feel safe here again #but in order to tell you guys about a new blog url ill have to post about it which means they might see it too and uagshfg #and god it doesnt even matter bc my arts out there anyway and a few random 10k+ note posts so theres a chance theyll find me no matter what #and shit i loved so many of my old urls but i cant ever reuse them and i feel like im seriously losing my fucking mind trying to hide #like tumblr and having you guys was the only thing keeping me going through all this shit and it feels like ive lost all of that comfort #this is gonna be the worst fucking birthday ever dude just for that extra cherry on top like i seriously have nothing going for me rn SJDHG #denver and a few lovely mutuals to keep me kicking but oughgf #i feel sick #feel like i need to shower and scrub my soul raw to get this vile ass feeling out #god im sorry to be negative i rlly am i try to keep things cheery round here but im styeadily reaching my limit #and i want to reblog stuff to comfort myself but i dont want to reblog anything in case theyre watching and fuck im so dfjsfgjksfjkgsfkdgh #i could really go for a hug right about now s'all

[sanchoyo]

haven’t been on much bc my dog has been sick :( between seizures and an infected tooth we’ve been having a Time trying to get everything fixed (this started around the holidays so our vet has been very booked up…we have been like 3-4 times in the past 4-5 weeks OTL does not help it’s like an hour drive there, so that’s been exhausting) now his new seizure meds are making him sick (was hoping it was like, just an adjustment period thing but he’s been sick for a week and having concerning symptoms…) if I’m not on a ton or slow to replying to messages it’s bc I’m working as much overtime as my job will give me bc Vet Expensive and mentally drained obvi 😞

#it makes me a lil mad his meds were kinda pricy and they literally are making things worse. like sure he isn’t have seizures but he can #barely walk and keeps running into things and keeps having diarrhea so like. 🙃 and the meds are making him sooo hungry and thirsty #I’m seeing the vet AGAIN FRIDAY I know she’s so sick of me but man my little guy. if she can’t figure out a combo that doesn’t have such #bad side effects I’m literally going to scream and cry #he’s the most sensitive boy in the world and my mental health hangs on his and my cats well being. please. 😭 #sanchoyorambles #I’ve also called them like twice to find out if I should stop or what they want me to do and keep getting ‘oh they’ll call u back’ WHEN #GIRL MY PUBBY #if I don’t hear back before his next dose I’m just gonna make an executive decision myself to stop them for now #he’s literally on the smallest possible dose too bc he’s so little. so. they can’t go down in dosage they’ll need to put him on smth else 😑 #which means paying for ANOTHER PRESCRIPTION A WEEK AFTER ALREASY GETTING ONE THAT WAS $30 ON TOP OF HIS STUPID VET BILL #screaming. #and like if I have the money it’s fine. and it’s not like the vet could’ve known he’d have bad side effects #im just frustrated it’s no one’s fault #I could go to a closer vet. the thing is I LIKE the one further away #they have the only groomer I’ve found that can trim him without sedating him! they send me reminders abt his shots! I like the vibes!!! #they seem caring!! but they are always SOOO BUSY it takes forever to make appointments or to hear back from them 😭 #remember how I said one of my goals was to buy a vechicle this year lmao the vet bills are draining any savings I’ve managed to build up 🤧 #my pets are priority 1 tho like even before all the medical stuff /I/ need like lol… that’s my baby #it’s just really bad timing. not that there’s good timing for medical issues but. u know

[flaskoflethe]

It"s not like statistically important but I realized the ~300 words of writing I did today finally pushed me over the 100,000 word point on the story I've been working on since late summer. Yeah most of it's world building, and drafts, and duplicates because rather than delete old file I'm keeping them for exactly this reason.

The last year was fucking rough. Some incredible highs, long grinding lows. I went hard no contact with family members, work...

I've never put this much work into something for myself before. Never taken an idea this far, actually pushed through over and over until it's just coming into being. It's not special, but it's a milestone.

#My therapist says I need to be better about recognizing positives #Which fair #Anyway this is also on top of reading a (currently) 750k+ words series + getting into souls likes again + Pokemon romhacks + ... #Normally all of that - hell any of the shit happening during this period! - would break my ability to focus on something creative #It doesn't get better. But you can make it better

[socksandbuttons]

Notbme staring at my inktover knd 2019 drawings and going Damn

I need to practice inking agaib

#THE POSES WERE MOSTLY GOOD TOO AND THE STUFF WITH SILHOITTES #some thi gs look wonky but like yeah thats expected but most of it holds up really well #love teen rqchel and georgette the gorls #also the 23 qnd 78 one??? amazing i still love that one #i can no longer do month long challenges but sigh i want to try again #maymay didnt get too far this year but genuiney thats alrigth i still drew her and even have an attempted ask blog update #ITS COLORED IT JUST NEEDS BACKGROUNDS WHICH.... *LOOKS AT THE ONES ON THE BLOG* #ill figure it out #some of it was using mosaic on the screenshots i had and some were painted #like some fool i was #but once i get into it it shpuld be fine #ITS JUST STARTING #i continue to ramble in my tags but thats for future me #im just trying to look for a sticker here #i know i put it in one of my sketchbooks #my fusionfall art continues to be loved by me #damn i could try drawing them again see where my coloring stands now #cant top my past self it seems #but i have more gel pens

[welcometogrouchland]

for the drawing requests luz dressing up as eda for halloween if u feel like it xoxox

I ABSOLUTELY FEEL LIKE IT this was such a delightful request omg. Featuring some bonus clawthorne/Noceda family doodles because they come as a set. Do Not Separate Them

[ID: three images of digital fanart for the owl house. first image shows Luz dressed up as Eda's season 1 design, with her hair slicked back. she's posed mid-twirl, holding her dress in one hand, saying "surprise! I'm you. What do you think?". Next to her is a cartoony doodle of an emotional looking Eda.

The next image is a doodle of Luz and Eda dressed up as each other, looking at each other happily from a side view, labeled "they're matching".

Third image is a sketch page of Luz, Eda, Hunter and Lilith. It features a grinning Luz leaning on hunter saying "hey there sibling! How's my best brother doing?". She's labeled as "being a shit". Hunter looks unimpressed but has a thought bubble that says "sibling..." with a heart. Eda and Lilith are smiling, dressed as Luz and Hunter respectively. Eda says "remind you of anyone?" End ID]

#the owl house #toh #luz noceda #eda clawthorne #hunter toh #lilith clawthorne #i forgot to add in mentions/ideas of halloween but it's fine. you get the gist #that image of luz dressed up as eda at the top was. genuinely so difficult for me to draw i redraw it more times than i care to admit #like scrap it and start over #but like. it was good for me it was character building and i think it turned out cute anyway #hhh i always feel the need to cut down my toh image descriptions because i got used to doing very detailed ones for podcast fanart #cause it was more normalized there and ppl generally had more patience for a lot of words in an image id #and i get so nervous that my lengthy descriptions put ppl off rbing my stuff #(NOT that it matters i am much less insecure in my need for online validation than i used to be- #-i simply wish ppl would take a chance on posts with length-ier ids. it's an accessibility measure and all that) #(but hey I'm not your dad and don't control what u do or don't do) #anyway NO I didn't forget abt me asking for reqs i just need to finish up the second one and that was enough to get my brain working again #there's juice flowing in there now! i have drawing ideas!! huzzah!! #which is all i actually wanted from this specific bout of drawing reqs was just a creative jumpstart #sorry if this is a bit sketchy- that's all i was really up for when i made this lol. i think it's cute and that's goof enough #anyway yeah I'm gonna go read before sleeping now byyyeeee <3

[visdiefje]

It's so wild and refreshing to me to want to be HERE. In my country. In my general area. Where I am

#for years I've yearned for people from the screens in other countries and always wanted to be elsewhere and it gets hard #especially being left untethered after relationships break or friendships fade #I still have friendships but this is my place right now and whatever I need to find next I have to find it where I am #trying to bond with people locally feels like I'm in school again. super worried it won't work yet so happy when it does #there's an uncertainty to it and it's. different #but also last few times I was with people I didn't feel the need to be on my phone at all save from showing the person something #which is. foreign to me #idk. something is changing and shifting towards what I've been searching for. just a bit #the steps have been small. and are still small. it's like climbing up a spiral staircase #been going on forever. long way come and nowhere near the top #but it's like I just passed a window and noticed the view is really nice out #this was brought to you by: upstairs neighbour woke me up at 4 again #bien rambles