#actually back from the dead yet?

[iron-sides]

you are literally the one that shot harm. slash billy.

#my thots #LIKE WHY IS IT SO HARD TO BELIEVE GRETAS A GHOST NOW?? #anyway guess who started planning yj 3 month santa roadtrip fanfic <- i did #no promises itll ever see the light of day but i could not stop thinking about it #like what did they tell their schools?? #im picturing them trading off driving the supercycle and doing homework in the back because like #?? ik tim hadnt dropped out yet and i cant imagine he was willing to be held back #so he could Not have just MISSED THREE MONTHS #especially not without a damn good excuse #and like. im reasonably sure bart is in school atm too and obv cassie and cissie so like #idk abt kons schooling and i assume gretas not in school ut like #im p sure everyone else is? so WHERE DO THEIR TEACHERS THINK THEY ARE #anyway. also i dont Think tims parents are dead yet so like #whats his plan? for if they come home? or does he know theyre not going to #unless they are dead? but i thought that happened closer to red robin and to my knowledge jasons not #actually back from the dead yet? #i need a timeline so bad #purely to figure out if tim has a contingency for his parents #also to figure out everyone else life but im less familiar with likely pitfalls there #anyway. wait actually barts a speedster #is he. attending school #IS BART ATTENDING SCHOOL VIA SUPERSPEED im going to assume not purely because he would not want to #anyway. as you can see. many questions. i want to write fic to answer them so bad #anyway #bee liveblogs! #yj 98 #yeah i bet you forgot this is a lb post. i know i did #ALSO !!! AND ANOTHER THING ok. ok. #but like. did the people bitching about how late they were know they werent santa? like did they know they were #complaining to a collection of teens who watched santa die and chose to pick up his job orr????

[swampthingking]

andrew’s definitely gotten in trouble with his pr manager for tweeting things along the lines of:

“no mania inducing medication will compare to the euphoria i will feel the day donald trump drops dead”

#pr manager is like: andrew… this is the last time i’m gonna tell you #andrew: whats the point of democracy if i can’t exercise freedom of speech #pr manager: andrew it’s no longer about your image #at this point we are concerned the fbi is going to show up #andrew: neil has connections. i’m fine #they thought marketing andrew on social media would be good #they were sooooo wrong #because now andrew has a place to share every insane thing he’s ever thought #for instance—a tweet that just says ‘an alien googling: human clothes’ #he’s on there advocating for lgbtq+ youth you KNOW HE IS #he’s cursing and mildly threatening members of congress for imposing these disgusting bills #one day he tweeted ‘does mitch mcconnell know he’s dead yet’ #when mitch mcconnell stepped down from senate andrew tweeted ‘hopefully next he steps down from life’ #unsurprisingly: this endears him to some people and makes others fucking hate him #and he’s such a shit. he does not care either way #he’s kind of just like: pr manager. you gave me a twitter and told me to tweet. i’m just doing what you asked me #they’ve threatened to change his password so many times #they actually did once but andrew reported the account so many times for defamation and fraud that it got suspended #and he made a new account out of pure spite #his pr manager is like: andrew nobody is going to want to sign you because of your public image #and andrew is like: ?? ok. they can lose every game then #(he knows he’s the best goalie) #ok i think that’s enough for now. however i will probably be back #andrew minyard #aftg #tfc #trk #tkm #the foxhole court #all for the game

[genericpuff]

girl math is making $670 for the week and then spending $650 of it on a credit card bill and now you're excited because you made a profit of $20 in your bank account and $650 more of free money

#this is a joke i am not excited #i am very much in pain #we cope with laughs #i hate the gauntlet of holidays and special occasions from december through to march #it's christmas then it's new years then it's valentine's and my husband and i's anniversary merged together and then it's my bday #all of that's done with now but both our wallets are hurting lmao #and worse yet i still can't even catch a break because now i need to prepare for conventions and tax season #at least one of those expo's will definitely pay for my taxes #and i'm thankful this year i have three to attend so i get to actually earn money from them LOL #but man the winter season this year was one of the worst i've ever seen for tattooing #it's starting to get a little bit back to normal now but i'm still on edge because it could go back to being dead again at any moment #i got this #i just wish i could breathe lmao

[hephaestuscrew]

I'm still thinking about that scene in Victoriocity S3E7 where Fleet runs back towards the Beast so as to lure it into the path of the train...

Clara's exclamation of 'Teamwork, Fleet!' after Fleet says he's got a plan reflects her conviction that any plan that Fleet has will be a shared plan, something they do together.

This conviction is a kind of trust, and that trust is part of the reason Clara takes a moment to realise Fleet has headed back towards the Beast. She trusts that he's following behind her. She keeps talking to him, her words full of optimism.

When she realises Fleet isn't there, she immediately realises what that must mean he's done, and her voice sounds more small and scared than I think we've ever heard it before.

Fleet's attempt at self-sacrifice is a kind of betrayal of Clara's trust, but when he echoes her celebration of their teamwork in a more somber tone, I think it suggests that he understands the weight of that betrayal.

If Fleet's plan is that Clara won't realise he's gone until it's already too late, then he thinks "Teamwork, Clara" will be the last words he'll ever speak to her. In what he imagines will be their final conversation, Fleet affirms Clara's understanding of them as a team who work well together, even as he is making a choice that rejects the possibility of their teamwork in this scenario. It's a recognition of what their dynamic has meant. It's a goodbye and an apology, even if Clara doesn't understand it as such at first.

I don't think Fleet sounds scared as he initially faces down the train. When he shouts "Yeah, this way, you stupid machine! Come on then!", he sounds defiant and grimly determined.

In fact, I don't think he sounds afraid until Clara appears, until she might be at risk of being in the path of the Beast or the train as well. It's when he shouts "Clara, stay back for God's sake!" and "Please, get back!" that there's real fear and desperation in his voice. He can confront the idea of giving his own life, but not the idea that doing so might put Clara in danger.

Another thing about these lines is that the move from 'stay back' to 'get back' suggests that Clara didn't obey his first instruction but got closer to him (and therefore to the path of the Beast and the train) between those two lines.

Then Fleet gives what might be another attempt at his last words: "I'm sorry! I'm sorry."  A repeated apology before an attempted self-sacrifice is an implicit acknowledgement of how much losing him would hurt Clara. He regrets causing her pain.

Even so, he's accepted that he is about to die and that it'd be worth it to destroy the Beast. But Clara very much hasn't accepted either those things. She's still trying to yell over the noise of the train; she's pulling off her ring to throw at him.

I think it's a good illustration of how Clara's optimism is a kind of strength. She always believes that they can "make a new plan" and that it'll be one in which no one has to die. I think Archibald Fleet needs someone like that, someone who'll tell him to drop to the ground when his death advances from both sides, someone who - even in a dark tunnel with an murderous metal monster and a speeding train - won't stop shouting that there's hope.

#Victoriocity #victoriocity spoilers #clara entwhistle #archibald fleet #I have feelings about them!! #I've listened to this scene a normal number of times... #Can't decide if it's more angsty if Clara heard his apology or if she didn't... #Also on the topic of Clara's optimism #I think it is a part of her temperament #but I don't think that means it's always easy or that it isn't something that takes active effort #The 'midnight overthinkies' scene showed us that there's a lot going on under the surface #As previously established I don't personally see Clara and Fleet romantically #but nonetheless there is something Orpheus and Eurydice #about two people who care deeply about each other #in a dark tunnel trying to head towards safety #and one of them trusts that the other is behind them #except Clara doesn't look back for a while and then he actually is already gone #and she's alone wondering if she's lost him forever #I think I can draw those parallels platonically #Oh also there's something impressive about a show that can literally raise a guy from the dead in the first season #and yet still have real stakes when he's in life or death situations after that #something deeply sinister about how in Even Greater London no death ever needs to be permanent #but we know that the vast majority of deaths would be because access to that technology is so restricted #inspector fleet #victoriocity season 3 #victoriocity podcast #Clara & Fleet #The empty man posteth

[makeoutstopcrime]

we really are living in a golden age for chenford right now

#chenford #the rookie #the rookie spoilers #tim bradford #lucy chen #I’m comparing it to another tv couple from an old fandom of mine #in which one half of the pair left the show a literal decade ago #and yet every time we even hear a HINT of a possible reunion everyone rises from the dead and comes back here #like we were hurt so badly and will never move on #ever #I would commit so many crimes to get what we’ve gotten and are getting for chenford for this other couple #we had to deal with character assassination and fake deaths and offscreen stuff and YALL IT WAS A MESS #I just #I feel like I’m constantly saying this #but it is so nice to be a fan of a ship that gets actual content and is respected and valued by the show and the network #bc that has NOT been my experience in the past #my deepest apologies for this rant in the tags #all of my love to chenford #they give me hope #yes their angst era is still the golden age

[youremyonlyhope]

It is so crazy to me that in the year of our Duck Lord 2024, there are still StarKid fans who are only just now learning that Curt Mega was on Glee.

#starkid #team starkid #curt mega #you could also say the year of our Wizard God or Dead God or Lords in Black or in the year of our AJ Holmes (iykyk) #but as we all know. duck is lord. so i went with that. #this is because of a reply on one of Curt's recent tweets. and i see tweets of people realizing it every few months. #Curt and Tessa didn't sing 'I Wanna Be A StarKid Actor' for people to forget why Curt wanted to be one but wasn't one yet #those of us who were StarGleeks back in the day went actually INSANE when Curt was announced in the cast of Black Friday. #i know because i was one of them. i lost my mind. (and finding out Kim was joining too was another shock to my system) #watching the evolution from LeakyCon to him being in JMOMS then Tin Can Bros then StarKid was a JOURNEY. #it's times like these that i am reminded i truly am a starkid fandom elder... and it makes me feel ancient #(no shade to these fans. but this is like an INTEGRAL part of starkid lore because Curt and Kim are so involved now.)

[tearlessrain]

seriously can catastrophes stop happening for five minutes my brain is already fried from the ones we're already experiencing

#I fucking. missed d&d tonight by accident #I straight up forgot #and just didn't show up to the session #my sleep schedule is absolutely fucked #I should be sleeping now but brain won't shut up #my creative output is the lowest it's ever been and I've been in some level of depressive funk since like early january #I am just deeply unfathomably exhausted #like mentally and spiritually #all the time #my memory and sense of time are both shit #my spelling is worse than it used to be for some reason?? #I really don't know what to do to make my brain start functioning again it's frankly worrying me #I couldn't even handle college so it should come as no surprise that I'm reacting poorly to the world being a perpetual screaming trash fir #and yet #idk it's been hitting again lately that I have never succeeded at anything in my life and just keep tripping and falling up for some reason #fucking everyone is in hell right now and with my overall success rate I should be dead in a ditch but I'm actually doing spectacularly #due to a series of improbable accidents and weird circumstances that happened to turn out in my favor instead of completely fucking me #aside from the looming spectre of my various failed attempts to have some kind of life trajectory #it just doesn't feel like this can keep up forever #like surely at some point the luck has got to run out I can't just keep living like some kind of folkloric trickster archetype #but my motivation and sense of purpose kind of died after the last failed attempt so I'm still just here #doing whatever this is #maybe I should drive out to the coast #maybe staring at the ocean would fix me I've been away from it for too long #I mean it can't make me worse #I should wait until further into summer though so I don't have to drive back in the dark #everyone around here has trucks with those goddamn LED headlights and I've got a little sedan that's directly in their blast zone

[scarlyrubies]

just saw a milkvan saying that byler was terrible because they constantly fought and never found common ground…

the sheer hypocrisy of it…I need a moment.

#also totally untrue but that we already knew #just a random post because i laughed and cried reading this comment #thought they were joking for a minute until i realized they were not #the question is: do they have actual valid arguments to root for their ship? cause if so #i’ve never seen one of them 🙈 #can’t believe we’re the ones said to be living in delusion. they’re trying to everything they can to bring back microchip from the dead #this was not supposed to be a hate blog?? yet here is my 2nd super anti-milkvan post. i guess i cannot be stopped. haters gonna hate. #anti mileven #anti milkvan #byler #me posts! ✰

[flowerflamestars]

Abattoir snippet

“Illyrians did this.” He spared her a look, unmoved expression somehow still telling her no. Sighed, before speaking.“If Illyria had magic like this, you’d have died the day Rhys dragged you in wearing a vow.” It had broken, when he did. When the Cauldron and the world did, too. No one in Velaris would re-tattoo the marks for her, refused flat out, no matter how accurately she could draw them. They offered her other things: knots of ribbon to hold secrets, compulsions that would last a year and a day, magical cakes and fiendish trickery. Slowly- even with her strength Feyre moved too quick or too slow, human or incised fae, both and all that she was- sleek and sliding as shadows moved, creeping to end of day, Azriel sank to the ground. Knelt, hands reaching into this endless, open grave. She had paintings like this. A dozen and a dozen more burnt. Rhysand, wings splayed, death incarnate. Only one dated from when he was alive, expression borrowed and borrowed again, memory all the magic left, sorrow realer than the feelings. And so it took a moment, to understand Azriel. To recognize the emotion, even on such a difference face. Reverence. Raw, complete, hunger. To have and hold and believe. Love. “The food,” Feyre whispered, heart suddenly pounding, “Is a gift. For who, Azriel?” “The oldest thing immortals know is debt.” Azriel raised his head, black hair, black eyes, black wings, riven in sparks. “It must be repaid.” He looked like a monster. He looked like- “Blood and bounty,” he murmured, half his mouth rising in a crooked, handsome smile, firelight from nowhere glinting off his teeth. Feyre’s mouth was full of bile. “Hunger and horror. They’ve always been sisters.”

#going to be a week late but not forgotten! #Luzriel if you squint #a secret right out of the corner of your eye #Feyre!! #not quite grown up yet #Azriel is solidly on the list of people better off with Rhysand dead sorry #Feyre is too #but she hasn't actually figured that out yet #who remembers secrets? #who would totally believe in predators wearing faery faces? #who HAPPENS TO BE IN LOVE WITH ONE OF THE PEOPLE THEY LEFT BEHIND? #Az fucked off from Velaris #missed Mor and Cassian's wedding #and crashed right back in to show Feyre a mass grave #frankly #in character dare I say #Carnassial sequel #came out of the Cauldron wrong au

[quietwingsinthesky]

anyway. lucifer demanding kisses from sam in return for helping him ever. and the thing is, he will help them, and he’s an archangel, his help is invaluable. people will die if sam doesn’t kiss him. and so sam makes deals again and again and again.

#tw noncon #again! sleeping beauty kiss to raise Sam from the dead!!! banging my pots and pans!!!! #even better if lucifer is all helpful and gentle with him. so long as Sam agrees to this. #even better even better if sam doesn’t/can’t tell Dean. even better even better if dean starts to warm up to Lucifer specifically because #he’s so sweet to Sam and Sam seems to be kissing him back of his own will. and more importantly lucifer isn’t trying to separate dean from #sam (yet <3) so. it’s fine actually :) they made friends with Crowley after he tortured and killed people. and who hasn’t tortured sam here? #Lucifer redemption arc in Dean’s eyes as Sam’s boyfriend while sam is going through the horrors (the devil wants to make out with him) #(and Lucifer won’t help if he thinks Sam is ‘faking’ it <3) #samifer #spn #sam winchester #lucifer spn

[angorwhosebabyisthis]

[pericky; a look into ricky's head during their meeting.]

---

"I'm glad you came, I wasn't sure you would." The wine pours, the sound of it drowning out the missing word in that sentence: back.

Of course, is the response, and the part of Ricky that's spent twenty years tearing itself apart to understand why vibrates with relief. It doesn't matter anymore. Of course, of course, he thinks giddily along with the words. He never needed to wonder why Pericles wasn't coming back in the first place; he was always going to.

I'm happy you invited me, and of course he thinks again. A lifetime of pretending he wasn't always going to either falls away. However harsh and lonely the world has been, all's right with it again; and the shy voice of the boy inside him that he's tried so hard to kill says, so quietly, I missed you.

#sdmi #scooby doo: mystery incorporated #pericky #ricky owens #professor pericles #anyway fucking end me actually. lay me down to die #i said i was gonna write more pericky and by fucking god i did #the 'why did you do this to me' to 'oh thank god you didn't actually do this to me' pipeline of abuse folks 🥲 #which like. their last conversation is yet another devastating example of ricky finally standing up to pericles' bullshit Too Late #ricky denounces him in the strongest terms he knows; based on his own feelings and opinions and the way he sees the world #(which: even then he can't bring himself to say 'i don't love you anymore') #(the closest he can get is 'i chose you and i can't take it back; the only way i can imagine not loving you is if i never had at all') #and pericles tries to go 'nyeh nyeh whatever i don't care' (and does a real bad job of pretending he is not obviously hurt lmao) #and ricky doesn't try to understand his logic; he doesn't try to reconcile a world where pericles didn't *really* mean to do anything wrong #his response is MAYBE YOU *SHOULD* CARE. #pericles' view of the world and what's right and acceptable are warped and *wrong* and he's the one who needs to get his shit together #'you shouldn't have abused me you shouldn't have killed cassidy you shouldn't have murdered a child in cold blood' #that is MASSIVE and i think it is really telling that pericles' response is to shut him down with force instead of trying to argue any more #and that in the end is the real true fucking tragedy of it all #ricky is making huge strides one after the other to take back his freedom from pericles emotionally #....and materially it makes no difference to improve his situation in the moment; because pericles doesn't have any less power to abuse him #he never has a triumphant moment where he Overcomes His Abuser and Breaks Out of His Control #there's nothing he can do to fight back until pericles is too Literally Dead to control him anymore #it is one of the rawest depictions of the reality of abuse i've ever seen and just. God. i love it so much #(at the same time i REALLY want to explore a version of events where he got the chance to expand further on that growth) #(the 'all witches are selfish; make all things yours; i have a duty' speech from the wee free men comes to mind) #whosebaby makes things #whosebaby writes #SDMItag #dyn: when i die i want you to die too

[heffrondriving]

soooo. that new big time rush album huh

#how we feeling today rushers (｡•̀ᴗ-)✧ #also yes i've come back from the dead just to post abt this like. i owe this blog *this much* at least ykyk #anyway its like 3 in the morning here and ive just woken up after a vv long and exhausting day yesterday so this was a pleasant surprise :> #i haven't really listened to it in full yet bc idk adhd things but when the mood hits right y'all know i'll be VIBING #i never talked abt it but waves and can't get enough were great earworms so i'm excited to see how the rest of the songs will turn out #also hope everyone's doing well here on the btr side of tumblr hehe y'all been absolutely fed this year <3 #is this gonna be allen's 2k23 tumblr comeback??? nah prob not i'm too in love with the fooo conspiracy atm but hey maybe also who knows 👀 #(*heckler from the back of the audience* NO ONE CARES ABOUT U AND UR TRASH CONTENT IDIOT STFU FOREVER ACTUALLY!!!!!) #but yep. life has been fuck work has been a headache and so many unwanted tragic plot twists this year. but at least we got new btr lezzgo! #also happy pride month y'all!!! just saying this for absolutely no rhyme or reason related to this post at all wdym lmao ¯\_( ͡° ͜ʖ ͡°)_/¯ #okay thats all promise i'll shush now and it's time for old grampa to disappear into the darkest recesses of the internet yet again hejdååå #btr #big time rush #another life #album #stop it forever #lmao i hardly remember my dumbass blog tags;;; it's for the best hdbfkgk

[maddieandangel]

Doodle page of Papyrus for an old Undertale AU of mine that I've been thinking of rebooting

#undertale #papyrus #undertale au #the au doesn't really have a name yet though #i don't think i'm going to keep its old name #it was/is a roleswap au (but *not* a personality swap!) and papyrus took on flowey/asriel's role #and paps ended up being revived as his old scarf instead of as a flower #hence this design! #i'm currently thinking that he still goes by ''papyrus'' in this form though. no reason for him not to #but that undyne might call him ''scraps'' or some other name along those lines #because she doesn't actually believe that this is papyrus. since. y'know. people can't come back from the dead #so undyne assumes that he must be some sort of ghost monster playing a cruel prank on her #by possessing her dead best friend's old scarf and pretending to be him #undertale: scattered extension #UTSE

[archiephd]

point and shoot, 6x08 / something beautiful, 4x03

#better call saul #bcs6 spoilers #hey uhhhh #something about nacho gus INVERTED parallels always inverted yet always there and i am going crazy #i noticed gus was shot in such a similar way to nacho and had to rewatch some scenes back to back and #something about gus being treated in the comfort of his own home by an actual doctor meanwhile nacho #and then afterward being faced with concern FROM the doctor and then a talking to but still Concern from mike and responding Like That #meanwhile nacho #guys i'm physically ill my brain won't stop pointing out inverted parallels and i hate it i hate it HERE #btw yes the backwards order of this is purposeful because it very much feels like a callback not. foreshadowing lol #i thought about putting nacho's caps in first order as to remain chronological but something felt off i think the parallels are like #so much more fucked up because it's hindsight it's a callback and nacho's Dead by the time the callback is made #wish i were dead bc of this. if you even care #ask to tag #also sorry if this is incoherent to everybody else it ruined my life #parallels #j.jpg

[pyrriax]

yeah so the grey particles are back. i think im genuinely just cursed (ignore my lack of health i was getting my ass handed to me by skyslimes then the server crashed pvfdnkmfl)

#haunted ecosystem #mind you im an angel so i have like no reason tohave particles?? i was searching for the end portal because i havent grabbed the waystone #for it yet but i noticed the particles again...... #they come and go and i have no clue Why they happen or where they came from but yeah its. something #also forgive my terrible inventory management i need to work on upgrading my backpacks. #i think i was looking for cod in that screenshot actually. i wanted to bring one with me to the end for an achievement :) #also wanna guess what piece of armor has mending. because its the only one that isnt like 90% dead at any moment #also respiration helmet saves my ass because i get like. slowness X in water. genuinely it took a minute and a half to get out of a #shallow ocean. its horrible. i cannot go Up. i have to use a sinking amulet so i can just build up instead. i parkour out of water #i still need to make a minecraft tag #i might just ask one of the admins for the coordinates of the main end portal and go from there #documenting the experiences on this server since ive been playing on my own for a minute... when i get back on i'll take some screenshots #of the progress on the base ^_^ since im making actual progress finally. i need to reset my home though since thats gonna be in the floor #aaaanywho i'll probably go end city raiding? maybe? honestly no clue yet i just want to get some things

[7-oh-ta1]

I've been having an existential crisis for the past month and the worst part is that it's the kind of thing that like, you can't sit down and talk to somebody about without feeling awkward. Vaguely, it's a thing where like, the answer you'll usually get is that "it's different for everyone" but I want to understand the other side, too and that answer is so useless. Like whats your reasoning? Explain in 4-5 sentence paragraphs, please. Not in a condescending "I'm right, so why do you think THAT?" way either I mean in like in a, if I hear it maybe I'll understand too! It's a topic with layers and I need someone on the opposite side to sit down with me and peel all of them back. It feels like... there's certain truths to all humans, except I'm human and I don't know them. I feel like I'm operating on an entirely different system and I want to understand the human way and the things that everyone else but me knows and understands on a basic level. To add to that because these truths are universal absolutely no one will sit down and discuss them; they just assume everyone knows and is operating on the same page to not talk about it. So now I, the one wanting to understand, don't even want to talk about it because I know the other person either won't take me seriously or will clam up! Not even worth it.

So anyway I'm trying to focus on old hobbies to take my mind off of it!!!!

#lindsay speaks #maybe. i don't knoww that's the issue #i feel like every little grain that i gain in understanding takes me two steps back #i don't understand humans at all 😭 #and my brain is just stuck like ''i don't understand yet :('' and won't drop it #i think it's because I'll never understand the human separation between mind & heart. like when ppl say their mind is saying one thing and #their heart is saying another I don't get that. first of all it's both your brain. your brain is responsible for your emotions. yes the sam #place your logical decisions come from. they come from the same place. so to say it's saying different things... the same thing (mind) #is presenting information and deciding what to do with it. that make sense? it's all your mind. to act like emotions don't come from your #mind is dumb. and even further on that emotions are not illogical. they actually make perfect logical sense. chemicals and hormones and #information recieved about what's happening around you it's all put together to affect your emotional state. it's not fuckin wizardry. #so why the hell does everybody act like it is? and why should i accept that when it's not true? emotions ARE logical. #if i see a dead bird on the ground i feel sad. why? because that's a sad thing. it makes sense to feel sad about it. #is that not???? a logical sequence????????? #i grrrr #can't even look to dostoevsky on this one because he was a sexist christian