#ahhh im so sad

[talk-it-out-outsiders-smp]

I genuinely want to draw so much for this with all the info and lore we've gotten from the outsider smp but I have no idea where to even start like the meltdown lore is so insane and I'm so sad to see it ending since I've been watching since the start but also it's so nice for it to get an ending and see these characters stories wrap up even if it's a tragedy. Anyway I'm gonna keep living in my little denial bubble over everyone who died if you have any idea for art you'd like to see I'm taking suggestions.

#outsiders smp #notAuStuff #krow is alive but changed and Ayngel and Owen and Ori #ahhh im so sad #everyone has been so great in the smp i hate to see them dropping off like flies like this

[bloodstainsontengensfloor]

Ballad of Songbirds and Snakes Movie: first response

⚠️SPOILERS⚠️

Okay so! There’s QUITE a few changes from the books. The funerals, which I read the book I always found so unsettling, were cut. Honestly, I was worried if I’d be able to stomach watching it on screen so honestly, those being excluded was a bit of a blessing. But, it’s not really clear if Didi and Apollo died in the attack on the Arena or not. The only confirmed mentor death is Felix, who has been upgraded from the president’s nephew to the president’s son!

The biggest change though, which after listening to the recording from the soundtrack I enjoy a lot, is how Lucy Gray wins her games. Rather than the snakes being released mid way through her games, the snakes are what ends her game. Dr.Gaul spirals, claiming that there doesn’t need to be a Victor and the districts MUST pay, especially because now the president’s son is dead because of these ‘rebels’. Lucy Gray poisons one of the tributes from Coral’s alliance, who’s name escapes me at the moment. I think it’s the one she’s kills with the snake. Lucy Gray’s (Rachel Zegler’s) performance in this scene is so powerful. It’s amazing. The way it’s reframed that she’s singing as the snakes shroud her and she’s the only one alive in the arena, is just chilling. Dr.Gaul refusing to end the games and Snow pleading for her to let Lucy Gray go, with the students chanting “Let her go. Let her go.” I’ve been a Rachel fan since the start. Since I was 12, I’ve been subscribed to her YouTube channel, and seeing the movie and her in it is so… AHHHH. This scene was just so powerful and I honestly still am not over it and can’t wait to see it again on my second viewing.

Reaper’s death also changed with this! He is killed with the snakes along with Coral and I believe two other tributes. Clemmie, sadly, is gone from the movie after the incident with the snakes. She also takes a much more like… not antagonistic per day, but cocky role. Reaper’s death was… it was good. His reaction to Wovey’a death being what triggers him creating the grave for the other tributes is amazing, and the performance of that grief and anger was so good.

The movie portrays the mercy of the games so well. Lucky Flickerman is HILARIOUS as a host which is so disturbing. “The odds are not likely but may they be in your favor” is what he says to Lucy Gray after her interview. His quips are funny and quick, and honestly a highlight of the movie. Only to be reminded of the dying children of course. It’s very Ceaser Flickerman and it’s amazing. After Lamina kills Marcus, Lucky even says “was it mercy or murder?”. It’s such a sharp contrast to Lamina and Marcus’ interaction. She gently reaches for his head, and he turns, face clenched with pain and sorrow, saying “please.” You can see how gentle Lamina is as she kills him, the music too really adds onto the tragedy of it. How Lamina, who is seen as weak and a cry baby for most of her screen time, offers such mercy. Lamina’s actress says nothing, but her performance is so beautiful.

The movie highlights on Lucy Gray’s grief and guilt too. When her and Snow reunite, she talks about how they are BOTH killers. She expresses such grief at how Dill (‘ill Dill’ and ‘Tuberculosis on legs’ WERE WILD ON LUCKY’s part) was the one who found the poison and the audience gets to see a lot of her live reactions to the game’s events.

THE LAST SONG OF LUCY GRAY

The way Rachel and Tom play the scene in the cabin is WILD. The movie’s tone SHIFTS so much the second Snow finds the guns. It becomes like a horror movie as Lucy Gray asks what is it and snow turns to her pointing the gun slightly at her, finger almost on the trigger ready to pull. Rachel’s performance of Lucy Gray in this scene is something I’ll be talking about for days. She’s a bit of a schemer, she is suspicious, and she knows what will come next. She tests the waters with him and when she says that besides the guns, she’ll be his only loose end, I can’t tell if Lucy Gray does it to taunt or test him.

SNOW. “Lucy gray. are you… are you trying to kill me? AFTER EVERYTHING I DID FOR YOU?” Something about the way Snow says this… it takes you out of context of the story because this is something that happens often in toxic relationships. It’s so real and raw, and honestly a little too close to reality than we would like. I personally see it as an effort on the writer’s part to make sure the audience doesn’t side with snow at the end. As we know, the Yassification of characters and if a bad person is attractive it’s okay yada yada IS such a discourse. Tom Blyth as Snow has been seeing a lot of this too. But this part? This part makes it a bit more real, which is greatly appreciated.

Everything about the last scene with Snowbaird was fantastic. The two people I went with said that they were honestly confused on who betrayed who. And who stopped trusting who first. And that’s what makes it so fun AHHH.

I have so many thoughts but not enough people to talk about it with, so word vomit on tumblr lol. I’ll prob have even more to say after round two! (My friend got to meet the cast today and I’m so jealous that I wasn’t able to go)

#ballad of songbirds and snakes #coriolanus snow #lucy gray baird #snowbaird #reaper #wovey #rachel zegler #tom blyth #suzanne collins #i have so much to say ahhh #hunter schafer #she was so good #the perfect Tigriss #tigris snow #OH and snow asking is this real #real or not real #everlark parallel #I’m still sad they didn’t include the scene where Sejanus and Snow get bread from the MELLARK Bakery. #like lol I’m 65 years im gonna put your grandson through so much abuse

[good-beanswrites]

A drabble for an anon asking about the prisoners watching their music videos! This is focused on specifically Mikoto’s initial shock at seeing MeMe for the first time, but just know that Double comes with a whole new set of shocks as he truly listens to John for the first time ;-;

Mikoto was no criminal. 

He didn’t know how to break into locked rooms, or hack into complex prison security systems. He figured there was no way in hell he’d be able to see these so-called incriminating videos that the Warden was recording, and had resolved himself to an eternity of wondering what they could be. He was shocked when he didn’t need to do a single thing to gain access to them – Es simply adjusted the computer monitor and told him he could hit play when (and if) he wished. Then they left the room.

“A-are you sure?” he called, but they were already gone.

Mikoto blinked at the screen. It showed a stretched version of his apartment couch, near his bathroom wall, broken to reveal sky above. He thought he could spot his tarot cards at the bottom of the frame. Had Milgram broken into his home to film this? 

He scoffed, and hit play.

Distorted guitar started up. He flinched as his own face appeared for a moment – looking directly into the camera and making a wild expression he would never have made if someone was recording. His body tensed up more as he heard his own voice start to sing lyrics he’d never spoken before in his life. He wasn’t even a good singer, and here he was sounding like a professional. 

There were plenty of ways to accomplish all of this, of course. Software could mimic one’s voice, making him say anything these crazy reality hosts wanted. A team could easily add some digital effects to a stunt double and match his appearance perfectly. Knowing that didn’t make the experience any less unsettling.

He watched himself commit a nasty murder. He watched himself return home bloodied. But it was all ridiculous. How could Milgram even claim that this was him? He’d never raised a hand to anyone in his life. Were the other prisoners’ videos as outlandish as this one?

But then, a switch. 

The song shifted to a new melody. He appeared to wake up from his couch, and suddenly Mikoto got the sense that this was him.

He was struck with how familiar this new segment sounded. It simultaneously felt like a favorite song he must have played on loop not too long ago, and one that he’d never heard before. As it played, each new note and lyric felt right on the tip of his tongue. 

It ended as quickly as it began. The song returned to the heavy-metal-murder aesthetic it had started with, and once again he felt like he was watching a cheap copy of himself onscreen. He watched another murder, a shower scene (had the warden seen all that? How embarrassing…) and then he turned to his bathroom mirror.

At the same time as his musical counterpart, Mikoto leapt backwards in horror. 

His eyes remained glued to the screen. His hand flew up to grab the lower half of his face. It was fake, he told himself. AI and CGI and all that. It was fake. It had to be. 

Something deep inside of him said “no. That’s real. That’s me.”

Something else deep inside of him echoed the sentiment.

The video was less than four minutes of music, but by the end he was panting and tugging at his hair as if he’d endured hours of prison torture. He burst out of the room. He sucked in breath after breath. The melodies still played in his mind, lines repeating in his memory as he tried to put as much distance between himself and that little television screen.

He found the others in the common room. They gave him a knowing look, but somehow he knew his experience had been very different from their own. Es approached him.

They studied his expression for a moment. Thankfully, they didn’t ask anything stupid, like “how did it go?” or “what did you think?” 

Instead, they just told him, “if you ever want to watch it again, just let me know, I can get it set up for you.”

He would want to see it again. Of course, it would be better, then. He would take a moment to calm down. He’d watch it later and everything would be okay. He’d have a clearer mind. He’d pick out all the little camera tricks they used to make it. He’d be sure it was a fake, and laugh about how ridiculous he was being now. 

Of course. Of course. 

He nodded to Es, unable to produce any words. Es left him.

The rules in this prison never made any sense, but in this case, he was grateful. He wouldn’t need to figure out any snooping or hacking to get access to the video again. After all, he was no criminal.

… he wasn’t, was he?

#milgram #mikoto kayano #thanks again!! this was super fun to do 👀 #i was so sad that they cant see their videos in canon so it made me so happy to work out how it may work/feel #you know when theres a song you used to love but its been too long and you sort of forgot the words #but as theyre playing youre like ‘ahhh i knew that’ #thats what im picturing #something unnervingly familiar #as mentioned in the hcs i think john would have a very different reaction #hed be happy to see himself but upset to see mikoto so afraid of him #:( #i like to think that john watching meme is what prompts some of his lyrics in double #i think the opening shots of bring it on would convince fuuta that someone had just hacked his cameras #but then there would be shots they shouldnt have any way to get #and the same for mikoto seeing his apartment/the train station and then suddenly himself in the shower… #he probably laughs it off with the others knowing that they came back a bit more calm than hes currently feeling #so he fakes it as long as possible before having another Moment alone in his cell that night #OUGH #drabbles

[honeydots]

weirdly late to post this i know but if it hasn't been clear im trying to rly limit my social media intake so im not gonna be on as much...!

#moots as always my discord is just honeydots and you're welcome to chat w me i just may take a bit to reply bc im also very busy #and i'll post my art and fics n stuff #but #i'll be real....! fandom has not been fun for me lately. #well that's not true the xnlw event was fun #but ahh. too much has been not fun to really balance it out well #i'll probably come on sometimes and maybe this'll just be a break. idk! #but ah. ahhh...... #im sad im surely missing stuff tho so if you see a particularly cute laslow tag me and i'll be happy #gjsngjsnfnsh #anyway otherwise i may also come on for my comm stuff #but ah if you've been wondering where i've been. im ok!! #and see you guys around :3 #dots on the soapbox

[skenpiel]

btw everyone look at this fucked up bootleg sans stuffie we saw at the con (i wouldve gotten him but i was out of money…………..)

#ahhh shit. i gotta write a damn email today #cuz the guy who sold these took pictures of us with his bootleg undertale stuffies n i was like lol can you send those to me or somethin #then i realized i dont have any socials……. so im gonna have to fuckin email the guy #SAD!!!!!!!! oh well

[murk888]

Hey! Everyone who reblogs me and adds tags/comments!!!

I just wanted to thank you for your support😭❤️ again! I read everything, and your tags are all so.. so.. amazing! They're so funny, relatable, expressive, I appreciate your emotions (I LOVE THEM!!!) and am very grateful for your reactions!

You🫵!! are the ones who warm my heart! Thank you!!!!💘

#text post #i want to be friends with you guys omg #i love you really #the raw emotions in your comments are just wonderful i love them (and you) so much #knowing that you feel something because of what i do brings me happiness #and your thoughts are so interesting #and i relate so much to what you say #ahhh!! #no im kinda serious about the friends part #im open for a chat! about anything!! not limited to our favorite salesman! #not guaranteeing anything but id be happy to talk to you! #...asking this feels like that sad ant meme #ok anyway not pressuring or anything

[rumplestiltrin]

seeing more and more comments and thoughts online where people are more sympathetic with demeter and not villainising her because she "gets in the way" of the "feminist" girlboss fantasy of persephone/hades

god it makes me so happy... hope this paves way for more adaptations that focus on their positive mother/daughter relationship. ill be happiest with persephones rejection her fate with hades too but im not picky LMAO i just want people to stop slandering demeter for the CRIME OF WANTING TO SAVE HER DAUGHTER

#AHHH im so picky with my greek myth i really am #the artemis and orion thing is another one but the one that makes me angriest is demeter #a mother whos turning the world inside out upside down seized by grief of wanting to save her child #and persephone herself happy to be reunited with her and sad to fulfill her obligation to go back to the underworld #AND SOMEHOW its feminist to make demeter the bad guy and marrying hades and revolving the narrative around him making it so #that HE is persephones freedom... I WANT TO SCREAM #should make a tag for my rambly textposts lmao

[altairring]

How can I live love laugh when I lost my mechanical pencil that I've been using for 2 or more years?

#in pain #distraught. #sorrows sorrows #i need prayers #tears in my eyes as i sharpen a pencil #i cant live #all in /lh but i am fr sad LMAO AHHH PAIN #holding this pencil feels so wrong i need u my dear mechanical pencil #life is not the same without you #im gonna buy a new one later...

[humanmorph]

i was reading the transcript of feros & samols last talk in SiH16 again and i did not remember this at all... but it literally hurts so bad “He’s gonna help. Because that’s who he is.”

#this made me sad about fero and samol because. yeah. but then this hit me out of nowhere like SAMOT.................. OH NO............ #samol believed in him so much ahuuuhuu and samot. ahhh the guilt. man. ok #rosa rambles #i just posted this on twitter but then i remembered i actually like finding things again. #seasons of hieron #fatt #friends at the table #lord the. i so wish fero and samot had like TALKED... about SAMOL... talked at all before the finale showdown #im imagining it in my minds eye but man fero just does. does not. and it wouldve had to be him approaching samot... #shared grief. whatever.augh #biting something.ok. kicking rocks. whatever #editing this to say i was reading transcripts for wiki work AND THEY DID TALK and it was just kind of a nice scene. and i 100% forgot about #it #hm!!!!!!!!!

[lllsaslll]

It's happening! Elvis' first movie to be released in 4K: Blue Hawaii🌺 Nov. 15, 22

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#ahhh! its happening! #yall know i have been hopping and betting and wishing for proper physical releases of these movies! #and finally were getting it! elvis' first fully rescanned and restored 4K release! #go preorder now! its currently marked down too! #lets show them how much the fans want vetter treatment of elvis' film and show footage! #hell even their new releases of EOT fkktage and the rereleases of the movies are poorly done scans from the 90s or early 2000s and in such #low resolution and audio its honestly sad to see so little care being taken #THANK YOU PARAMOUNT for taking the time to give this movie justice...nit just try to make the chealest release possible for a quick buck #elvis #elvis presley #blue hawaii #elvis movies #elvis in 4k #lmao im sorry im just so excited! i hope this release is successful i have my fingers crossed for more bluray and 4k releases 😭🤞

[magnusthepuppet]

hey guys. i’m back. and i’m a changed man. i will never be the same again. words cannot describe how amazing those episodes were to me. the symbolism. the tragedy. the pain. but most importantly, the hope. the hope that people can grow and change and love.

i knew they’d end episode three with some sort of cliffhanger, but jesus christ this was so much better then i could’ve ever imagined.

#MERMAID STEDE FTW #also i fucking called zheng yi sao so long ago #not even funny how much i screamed when they revealed her #EXCITED FOR ANNE BONNY AND MARY READ BTW #i’m thinking that’ll be in episode four #because it seems that ed hasn’t quite forgiven stede yet by then #yk yk #ANYWAY #AHHH #amazing #10/10 #god so many things happed #so many amazing and beautiful things #IM SCARED ABOUT JIM AND OLU THO #i just don’t want them to break up tbh #i’m happy to see poly rep obviously #it’d just make me sad to see people who clearly love each other so much not work out #i cant say anything about it tho #cuz the season isn’t over !!! #meaning that there’s so much stuff to figure out #uhhhh anyway sorry for the ramble #i’m just really happy rn #our flag means death #blackbonnet #gentlebeard #ed x stede #crew of the revenge #zheng yi sao ofmd #susan ofmd #ofmd s2 spoilers

[joy-fires]

I just finished reading all of the mechanisms once upon a time (in space) fictions from their website and hhhhh I'm having so many feelings oh my god

No happy ending hurts so much more to listen to now

Briar Rose my beloved

#cinders makes me so sad now #ALSO SNOW??? MIRROR MIRROR??? HOLY SHIT #ADAM AHHH FUCK WHY OUCH #i love rose and briar rose so much. i would die for them #im never gonna emotionally recover from this #the mechanisms #once upon a time in space #ouch ouch ouch #i want to make designs of the characters now

[good-beanswrites]

Hello! So like I've been having that Lights, Camera, Sing Your Sins AU rent free in my head for a while, and thought this up.

Since the prisoners weren't allowed to meet at first, they could hear the others practicing their singing nearby/next door. Some are awed by how passionate they put into their songs (eg: Haruka & Shidou), how into it (eg: Fuuta & Kotoko), how emotional (eg: Kazui), etc. This allowed the prisoners to imagine what the others are like.

...Then there's Mikoto with Red going all out with their MeMe song and it stunned everyone into silent fear until the prisoners meet him and go "YOU SANG THAT!?!"

I've been going so so crazy over this omg!!

No matter how big the facilities are, I'd imagine it would be difficult to keep ten people undergoing a full filming process completely separate from each other. Though they don't actually see each other, they overhear recording booth sessions while while walking down the hall. They spot unique outfits and props in the costume closet. They hear crew members giving Jackalope weird updates ("sir, where do you want the massive tarot cards when they're finished?" "the order of thousands of fake flowers has arrived" "we ran out of medieval outfits" etc.) They see teams lugging around massive set pieces from one stage to another. They hear a few hushed rehearsals from behind dressing room doors.

Mahiru totally tears up listening to Kazui. Meanwhile Kazui is blown away by Mahiru's enthusiasm and speed. Yuno thinks After Pain sounds really fun. Amane is awed at the other songs, (she's never even heard rock music before). Kotoko finds herself singing bits of Weakness. Muu is moved by Shidou. Fuuta is torn between being jealous of Mikoto's song and excited there's someone else with some yelling.

And so of course, the prisoners go crazy trying to piece together predictions about their upcoming cellmates. One the experiment begins, they subconsciously start matching up the voices they remembered hearing with their expectations. I think Shidou, Amane, and Kotoko would surprise people the most -- it seems hard hard to get a day-to-day read on them from their songs alone. Fuuta is simultaneously exactly what people were expecting and nothing like what they thought. Everyone's ideas of Mahiru were spot on. Haruka sang so confidently that the group is surprised to hear him stutter so often. Anyone who heard a bit of Meme is shocked when they meet Mikoto and make the connection. When asked about it, he just shrugs and laughs innocently, which only makes it harder to believe. Fuuta, excited to find someone else who did a rock song, is sorely disappointed at first.

#milgram #now im sappy over the thought of haruka getting really nervous in his own dressing room #but overhearing someone messily rehearsing/talking nearby and its very human and it comforts him ;-; #alternatively you know when you have to memorize something or just happen to repeat something a lot you start saying it in a goofy voice #when youre by yourself? #yeah #and i pictured mikoto trying to keep Red a secret to the others and really play up the 'i dont know why im here' bit #so that would be extra funny if it took them until his interrogation to be like oooohhhh that makes sense now #😂 #ahhh thank you so much for this! it made me so happy to get yesterday :D #i just love that idea -- i was sad that they couldnt interact even though story-wise it had to be done #so this is such a nice little exception to that ;--; #lights camera sing your sins #analysis/thoughts #ask #oh i forgot to add but kotokos va mentions she sings weakness to herself at home sometimes #hence that line :)

[evil-sometimes]

#jason todd #batfam #ahhh hes so tragic :(( #if i get drunk i will not shut up about batman #its a close thing when im sober as well #they dont know he has children with different ethical priorities and sad backstories #robin #red hood #batman

[newwave-lesbian]

i really just can't even make vent posts anymore because every word that leaves my mouth is just stupid :)

#i'm trapped!!!!!!!! hahahahhahahha im trapped AHHH!!!!!!!!!! #just kidding im normal and not scared! #no but really who the fuck wants to listen to my feelings. can you just think about something else for once #basically i can only think about my little music. and my sadness #gusssssss im so depressed!!!!!!!!!!!!!! #42

[peachy-n-bee]

sometimes you will have an entire evening to kill doing an art project and see that the exploring series had a five hour episode for an scp called mamjul/korar and think "oh, i will have a fun goofy time listening to this" and

and it will. not be a silly goofy time.

#scp #personal #i feel like my brain has been rewired #none of my friends know a lot about the SCP universe but i gotta rant about this somewhere #and idk where the SCP fandom people go to talk #maybe reddit or twitter but ahhh im never going to those places #idk what the scp fandom looks like here on tungle dot hell #but i can't stop thinking about galanis and greaves #i think that's what got me the most #i really like galanis as a character and I'm totally biased because they're nonbinary and i love being represented in media #but unlike a lot of other scp stories galanis's friendship with greaves really struck a cord #probably because the story is so long i was able to understand the characters better skjdholshdi #like how they friendship developed from tension between their two groups to becoming genuine friends and greaves defended galanis #like i know scp stories end sadly like ninety nine percent of the time so i was prepared for galanis to die or something #but i was not ready for greaves to be the one who #well #he doesn't die #but he's never going to be human again or even care and that hurts EVEN MORE #so sad #it's somehow worse that he's still alive and I'm just so sad over it #but i am excited that galanis is being set up as a returning character bc i really do love them #and im so excited to see what rounderhouse is going to write about the aditum and the sarkics #the world building for amoni-ram and mamjul/korar was so detailed and well done I really applaud the writer for how amazingly they've #reimagined these classic SCP stories #just #living in my brain rent free #i can't stop thinking about them #im never going to forget greaves ough #he gets to go have his eternal god nap while the rest of the world goes to shit