#all the tests came back normal

[ainawgsd]

Nurse: *checks blood pressure. Checks BP again* I'm going to go get someone to double check me *leaves room*

Me: well that can't be good

#text post #personal #and it was not #they sent me by ambulance to the nearest emergency room #i felt fine #but all the healthcare workers kept looking at me like i was about to drop #convinced i was having a heart attack or maybe a stroke #all the tests came back normal #but my bp was persistently high #like stupid high #so now im on hypertension medicine #5.5 hours in the er and they still never addressed my primary complaint #which is pelvic issues

[notllorstel]

Life/health update

+1 yr long covid and nerves issues????? very bad

biting me biting me one thousands times with burning on top

🤞find out who’s biting in 2024

#llorsnoises #lost quite a bit of muscle strength in the past couple of months #my last tests came back normal what it’s GOOIING OOOON #stay safe out there all #long covid

[densewentz]

exhausted health update because I have to rant somewhere lol

So we're ending day 12 of my mysterious right-sided numbness. It's moved from just my torso all the way down my right leg to my toes, so now I'm just hobbling around half numb rip. And now the torso numbness feels like im being vacuum sealed or something, just a horrible tightness and lack that makes it impossible to ignore. Went to the ER the other night and had 2 panic attacks within the span of the several hours I was there, got my bloodwork redone and a cat scan which all came back with a big Nothing on them. They told me I needed an MRI but that I'd have to go through my Primary Care and after I told them my primary wouldnt see me until May they referred me to a new primary not in my network so that's been a dead end rip. So far everyone is pointing at my horrific anxiety as the cause but not one doctor has actually offered me help for the anxiety despite me having the active panic attacks in the office lol. My Primary wont see me for several months despite the severity of my current condition and none of the mental health programs I've reached out to will get back to me so for now I'm just. Existing in this anxiety Ouroboros where my anxiety causes my numbness which causes anxiety which causes numbness. I'm trying stupid home remedies to try and minimize the active anxiety attacks but so far we've just been circling around alternating Holy Basil, Benadryl and literally just drinking Rum and going to sleep, which sure all help my anxiety a little maybe but also make it almost impossible for me to function normally during the day. This is making art difficult so commissions are going slow which is obviously making me more anxious lol. I also am home alone most of the week managing the household, which is made more difficult since right now the numbness in my foot/leg makes it dangerous for me to drive and difficult for me to get around my house to do daily tasks. Idk man I'm just tired as all hell and I seem to vacillate wildly between full anxiety breakdowns and depressive/dissociative episodes. At any rate during the week I'll just be constantly calling and harassing every doctor/therapist I can get a number for trying to find someone who will be able to either address my anxiety directly or can at least get me into an MRI to rule out MS or anything else that ISNT anxiety. I'm going to become the bane of the medical profession for a while. Wish me luck!

#personal #dense rants #medical stuff #ive been really absent headed and floaty today so im a little concerned im heading into a full dissociative episode but #guess we'll see #i moved from my temporary space in our spare room back into my normal room so that'll be interesting #and my weighted blanket idea backfired since i can only find my 30lb and not my 15lb #and the 30 is a little too constricting when im already half numb #my knee also feels like gelatin so walking has become.... precarious #but it is what it is i guess #here's hoping it goes away eventually #if anyone has any other weird back alley ways of handling their chronic and extreme anxiety hmu bc im basically ready to try anything lol #if nothing else i got the satisfaction of giving the double middle fingers to every family member and health professional #who couldnt FATHOM that all of my test results came back as a big No for diabetes #because as a fat girl obviously that's the only possible thing it could be #like im not even pre-diabetic im literally healthy as a horse aside from the numbness thing #so suck on that health and diet industry

[clerichs-xi]

tender as a bruise, sharper than a razor wrap her tentacles around me like she'll never let me go

klaus' backstory arc just ended heho and it was revealed he used to be the lover of the goddess of storms and pirates... she had basically kidnapped him and imprisoned him into murder and piracy for 20 years and needless to say it greatly damaged him on every level <3 its okay he's been able to be normal for once since the start of the campaign thanks to the party aka his new found family

get urself a surrogate middle-aged father who can speedrun a forbidden romance in one minute and then immediately go to confront the darkest version/a corrupted version of himself, as well as his toxic lover as she tortures him -w-)b

details and just the lines hehe

#clerichs.png #my artwork #original character #original art #original illustration #digital art #digital painting #digital illustration #dnd character #oc #oc illustration #im so unnormal about him. #he got hurt soo badly in isolation... thats where all the scars in his ref came from </3 #this portrait is of the one scar his goddess did not give him.... </3 #tfw ur jealous sea goddess lover pits you against other pirates and sea monsters to fight for ur life and test ur devotion #and she promised to love you wholly only for u to realize she doesn't understand or know what love is #and only wanted it bc everyone else who had love seemed so happy and she wanted that too #so after she destroyed everything you loved (literally your entire world) she merely treats u as a possession for 20 years #and you don't know how to ask for love because you don't know how to love either so you resent her and everything and everyone #leading rage to build up within you and you willfully slaughtering so many things because you cant handle your emotions and pain #and after deflating and sinking into apathy a rogue priest manages to break ur exterior and touch you deeply enough to let you love again #and because of him you're able to begin breaking free of everything and you lose everything again but this time #this time you wake up in a crate of fish to outstretched hands and people who love you as family even after learning who you are/were #filling you with strength and willpower even as your goddess lover comes back swearing she loved you and loves you still #and she tortures you and threatens to take everything away again if you don't come back to her but because of your love for everyone #and their love for you youre able to hold fast long enough for them to break you out #his goddess made a copy of him by warping the body and soul of a naive young man in an attempt to replace him and fill the hole in her hear #he had to literally kill the darkest version of himself that hurt everyone and he laid him to rest... catharsis if ive ever seen it #as i said. im so normal about him <3 the guy i project onto the most ever #klaus lierstark

[spacenintendogs]

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#cricket is going to be kept overnight at the emergency vet's office. #doing a bunch of tests #rose rants #blood tests all came back mostly normal except mildly high white blood cells #which could be due to fighting infection #red blood cells are kinda weird bc she could be anemic due to dehydration/stuff so it could be skewed but #everything else looks normal #getting x-rays done rn #edit: also no signs of major organ failure

[daz4i]

hate when i vent abt my pain and ppl tell me "everyone has stomach aches, it's normal" okay but are their pains bad enough to make them cry or unable to stand..... at least once a week...... bc i think that if this was normal society might've collapsed by now. but what do i know

#at least I'm on the way to get another test to see if it really is crohn's or not :') #my other tests came out negative but the last doctor i saw said it's worth checking again :') #bc. he claims. you're never gonna guess it. these pains are NOT normal ✨️ who could've thought! #sorry for the bitterness. as you may be able to infer from this i am in severe pain and having a hard time standing up or moving at all #btw through this doctor i went to i found out i actually had internal inflammation back in 2018 too and i was just. never told abt it. #like i was in the hospital and they ran a test but bc it was for smth else they didn't think to point it out?? #why do i have to learn 5 years later that i had smth wrong with me that probably got worse with time and that's why I'm like that now 😭😭😭 #(i wanna apply good faith to this. they probably thought it was a result of my other stomach issues so it'll pass once they do. #but like. if it really didn't go away and in fact got worse with time. i feel like i have the right to blame them yknow?) #vent #possibly a tmi one idk ajskflglh #sorry. i am very tired

[iloveyoumorethansoup]

I think I should get medicated for my adhd/depression not cause it’s like detrimental to my mental health or anything. I just wanna be able to model all of Luna Nova into Minecraft

#I can do it #if I can focus #and if I don’t rot my days away in bed #i am currently avoiding homework to write this post #soup talks #also yall look at project Luna nova recently???? it looks so good!!! #they are my goal #my proudest achievement is not my cit pack. it’s sending them so many screenshots #it’s not up for download yet. but you best believe no one will hear from me for Days after it release #I wonder if I could beta test for them. I have a headset. I’m in their discord as some sort of helper role #ooh I’m a collaborator!! #yeah. I should see one day when I’m not going thru it #omg. yall. i was in the er yesterday (totally fine now) #I’m 99% sure my appendix was trying to explode #but I had to go in to make sure it wasn’t. cause that’s really bad and all. they gave me pain meds ran some tests #I’m not anemic found out. all my labs came back normal #I’m genuinely convinced it’s from stress. I think my appendix tried to abandon ship due to stress #they sent me home. said I was fine. come back if the pain came back. it hasn’t. I guess I’m fine! #hell of a day tho #anyways. I guess I should go focus

[punkindness]

long rambling personal about chronic pain under the cut

on thursday's pt session they were having me work with someone different cause my usual was taking time off. he asked if anywhere hurt more during an exercise and i said my knees and he got all serious and had me do a thumb hypermobility stretch and asked if eds runs in my family, if i experience any other joint pain and for how long. i told him 'uh idk' and 'yes all over' and 'as long as i can remember but it's gotten really bad in recent years and i also have nerve pain' and then we just kinda looked at each other. and then he was like '...alright keep going with the exercise, i'm thinking' and at the end when he said goodbye he seemed like sad or guilty and opened the door for me and i didn't realize why at the time because the session had been harder than any of the others but not like insane but OH MY FUCKING GOD has my pain been bad this weekend. it's times like these that i'm glad i live with my family.

and also. i researched eds in more depth and. it's fucking uncanny. how the hell did this not come up when i was researching before because it is like exact and touches on some symptoms i hadn't even considered to be related to my pain. if it's not heds it's probably hsd i guess?? which is

#i was really weirdly happy at first when everything but the skin stuff was accurate to my symptoms #just cause for so long i've thought my pain was all in my head that i was going crazy #after the lower back xray and the arthritis blood tests came back normal i didn't know what else to think #so suddenly being able to find a community of people who are experiencing the same kind of symptoms and pain #and sharing tips for how to get through it? it's so cool! #but that sort of honeymoon phase in regards to it only lasted a day or so because this flare up is fuckin rough #now i'm mostly trying not to be worried about my abormally high heart rate #and trying not to give in to the allure of screens when i inevitably wake up in pain in the middle of the night #(i obviously broke tonight lol) #personal #vent #also the timing of this was insane because i made a friend with eds a few weeks ago and even did a quick google #afterwards cause we are both so similar that maybe our joint pain also has the same cause? #but i didn't even let myself get past the words “hypermobility” before exiting out because i've never considered myself to be flexible #if i had even kept scrolling for 10 more seconds i would have seen the line up of symptoms that almost completely matches mine lol #sorry for the rambling prolly gonna delete later im just tired and cant stop thinking about it cause yknow #pain

[tittyinfinity]

I can't stand when I talk to a doctor about the research I've done on my own health issues it gets blown off as "you can't trust everything on the internet" yeah sure whatever but where do you think students go when they need to research a project? the internet

Like I've lived with these conditions for years and I've been studying them from multiple sources for years. They maybe had a homework assignment about my health issues, and then spent 20 years never researching it again. No, I'm not smarter than a doctor, but I'm smarter about my own fucking body

#.bdo #''your test results came back normal so have you considered that you're just having Woman Problems'' #''you gained 40 pounds so all we're gonna talk about for the next year is how that's the main source of all your health issues - #that you already had before gaining the weight''

[solivagantingrebel]

I need to get back into roleplays so I don't hate my writing again.

#the instant validation of finishing a roleplay response & your rp partner liking it soothes all the ills that #working on wips normally brings up #i have to wrangle self doubt #my nonexistent ego #lack of motivation #and all of my insecurities working on fics 😭 #it feels like im being dragged through hell dante inferno styled test of courage #like. #i have this one old ghost soap rp with a friend right and i looked back at it #and it actually wasn't bad - honestly i was even proud and happy to read what we came up with #it was my only taste of cod rp but man i want to do that with someone again ‼️ #if you're interested let me know /gen #i think roleplays help with character voice anyway and it like #you can get better at writing through it too #because technically it is writing #depending on how you go about it #anyway rant end #send me a message if you do wanna ghost soap rp somewhere #i should go back to working on my fics sobs #camus muses

[siriusfelis]

Consistently, the highlight of my day is coming back from class and laying down in bed and taking a nap.

#im constantly in pain and aching and exhausted. whenever im not laying down i look forward to when I will be #and all my medical tests came back normal of course #🏕️

[smirk47]

Well that day took some turns I wasn’t expecting :/

#Just to be clear: the upshot of the whole day was pretty much that I'm fine #but today started with me going to a normal doctors appointment to ask about asthma #and then swerved into me spending about 6 hours at the ER getting lots of tests done #because one of the tests my original Dr ordered came back a little funky #again: all the really scary stuff got ruled out #but it was a very tiring way to spend a day #and not at all what I had planned #but hey! at least I'm home now!

[dumbdiscodragon]

All my tests came back normal. Yay.

#Why am I having these issues? IDK. But my blood looks great my blood pressure is great #I am so healthy except for all the health issue nobody can explain #Like I understand that it's technically good that my blood tests came back normal. I am thankful for that. #BUT I would like to know wtf is going on with me (:

[roxsas]

tmi tmi tmi tmi don't read the tags if you don't wanna know but i gotta celebrate somehow

#i had a check up and tests came back and im doing really really really good!!! #AND I THOUGHT IT WAS GOING TO ME BAD!!! #ive been eating like a beast lately but apparently my levels are down to a normal range!!! #my t is still high but what can you do when it root cause of all my problems 🙃 #yaaaaaaaaaaay #roxy.exe #delete later

[boycritter]

genuinely fucking sobbing at the shit my moms had to go through within the medical system

#like 3 years ago she had a really bad reaction to the covid vaccine #it went away after a few days but then she got her booster and it came back and never left #and for three years shes gone to so many doctors who have literally zero answers for her #and the vaccine gave her all the symptoms of rheumatoid arthritis in 2 days #which isnt how ra works at all #and every time she thought she had the answer it was wrong #and now shes just given up #shes had so many mris and cat scans and blood tests and physical exams and been to so many fucking specialists #and she just gave up #shes accepted that she will never have the answer and is focusing on treating the symptoms and living her life with her new normal #and i want that so badly for myself #to just be able to give up and live with my chronic pain and migraines #but i also need an answer #bc i hate unknowns #i just #i fucking hate the medical system and i hate the shit my moms had to go through #and the amount of our savings shes had to use to try and fail to find an answer #shes doing okayish physically i think #but she messed up her body a lot when she was a teen (ballet) and never treated that and her immune system is shit #and now all of this and its just #i feel so bad for her and i hope i dont have to deal with any of htis in the future but #who knows #tw medical #grahhhh i fucking hate . being sad

[consolecadet]

I need to not go into my chest echo later this week assuming everything in my heart is fine and normal. I went into that blood test for celiac feeling like it was silly to bother checking when I obviously didn’t have celiac and received a rude surprise. The surprise of having a heart problem would be much scarier, so I’m just going to. . .not assume anything, I guess?

#in my defense I've had a chest echo before #and they did a bunch of tests heart tests when my pcp misread my ekg and sent me to the emergency room #and all of those came back perfectly normal #but if my connective tissue is getting progressively floppier with use...idk. there could be a problem #Guess We'll Find Out #boring text posts #medical