#also i'm just so excited to be working in + learning about creative fields that i'm actually interested in!!!!!!!

[nitw]

i can't believe i'll be in school again soon i haven't been to any kind of school in like 2 years. terrifying. outrageous. but also exicting

#Not Gonna Lie i miss having a structured daily routine and feeling like i spend my time on something productive/useful. my adhd needs that #also i'm just so excited to be working in + learning about creative fields that i'm actually interested in!!!!!!! #while Also catching up on some of the general subjects that i've. yknow. missed out on due to my absence and /issues/ in high school HHHH #tfw you love school and want to improve yourself academically but your nd needs were never met once in your compulsory ed 👍 #leo.txt

[ettawritesnstudies]

Etta tell me more about Viola’s story maybe???

Vilotta is the fictional youngest daughter of the real world historical figure Marchioness Isabella d'Este who ruled the Italian city state of Mantua from 1492-1539. In 1499, she commissioned Leonardo Da Vinci to paint a portrait of her, but it's questionable whether or not the painting was ever actually finished. She herself was a major cultural figure who had a classical education and patronized the arts and ran the city state in her husband's absence.

In my story, when Leonardo Da Vinci arrives in Mantua, Isabella decides to supplement her daughter's education with some hands-on experience. As her youngest daughter, she won't be expected to inherit the throne so she has more freedom than the other siblings, but she'll need a well-rounded education to hold her own as an adult in the court or to be equal to a future husband in a political marriage. So she sends the 12 year old Vilotta to study with Leonardo Da Vinci as an art apprentice.

At first, she's bored by crushing pigments and mixing paints for her eccentric mentor, but she takes an interest in his work after seeing diagrams of the flying machines in his notebooks. She also learns that there's quite a lot of chemistry in the materials of paint and learns that there isn't such a big difference between art and STEM after all. Between painting, they start working together on a glider, and despite her young age, she's a clever inventor in her own right, and together they make several improvements.

All this intro is original to the story I wrote when I was 13, but everything after this is new and also better than what 13yearold Etta could come up with:

Impatient to test it, Vilotta sneaks into their workroom one evening after they've finished painting for the day, opens the windows, and launches herself into the sky on her glider. Hurrah! It works! She causes a huge commotion as she lands safely in the fields around the castle, met by a joyful, worried, relieved, and angry Leonardo who's astounded by her recklessness and excited his invention works, but he's mostly just thrilled she's not dead.

But horror of horrors, when they return to the workshop, the gust of wind from the launch blew over all the carefully prepared pigments and ruined the weeks of work on the painting. Leonardo is irate and terrified he's going to be exiled for A) endangering the princess and B) not finishing yet another commission, so Vilotta decides to take matters into her own hands to fix her mistake, and flies off to collect replacement pigments before it's too late.

Queue a fetch-quest style adventure that leads Vilotta all over the city states of Renaissance Italy, narrowly avoiding danger from highway brigands who find out she's a lost princess and try to kidnap and ransom her, and rival military generals who try to steal her miraculous flying machine. I'm imagining this turns into a comedic "Home Alone 2: Lost in NYC" situation where a 12 year old girl with enough chemistry and mechanical engineering skills to hold her own keeps tricking her pursuers into increasingly slapstick-style antics as she escapes with her precious pigments.

This ends in a somewhat tense situation as she finally arrives back at home, enemies on her heels, and needs to own up to her mistakes and make amends with both her mentor and her parents, who have dispatched half the army to look for her at this point.

I just think it's a really fun idea that has a lot of potential as a vaguely educational adventure book that blends mechanical engineering, chemistry, art history, geography, politics, and various creative mediums. The D'Este family is well known enough that there's material to research but they're also not one of the Big Names most lay people know off the top of their heads, so it's a perfect place to play around and invent my own plausible fictional characters, like Vilotta.

#etta rambles #Vilotta's Adventure

[paradoxcase]

Ok, so after the last couple AI posts, one about the inherent quality issues in sourcing AI training data from the unedited internet, and the other about how shitty companies have been using Amazon Mechanical Turk to outsource labor costs and pay people pennies for their labor as a contractor instead of hiring them as a full-time employee with benefits, I went back to look at what's up with Mechanical Turk after all these years, since obviously the content-generation jobs that I mentioned in the other post are probably being outsourced to ChatGPT now. And it appears that now Amazon is marketing Mechanical Turk as a system to make generation of machine learning training datasets cheap and quick. And yes, that kind of work is stuff that would work well on Mechanical Turk, it's somewhat repetitive labor that can't be done by a machine and has to be done by a human, and which needs to be done at huge scale to be effective. I didn't log back into the site to see what jobs are actually being offered there, but I believe that if Amazon is marketing it this way, there must be a high demand for that kind of labor now.

Possibly AI will someday make some job obsolete, or significantly reduce the number of people needed for some form of labor. I kind of doubt it, personally, but sure, it's a possibility. But I think it's also quite likely that the increased demand for labor in the form of generating training datasets may exceed whatever reduction of demand AI creates in other areas. Relying on the unedited internet for training data is not sustainable in the long term, eventually so much of that content will either be itself generated by bots or content that is produced specifically to foil the bots like those edited pictures. Eventually, I think if a company wants to really lean heavily into AI and be competitive in that space, they're going to have to commit to generating or curating their own datasets. Whether they actually hire full-time employees to do that versus just outsource that labor to Mechanical Turk remains to be seen, but I think in terms of just the demand for labor overall, the demand for labor may actually go up. And I suspect it's probably much cheaper to just hire full-time employees to create content than it is to create your own machine learning dataset so that AI can generate content for you.

I'm not saying that AI is good for labor actually, or anything like that, I still wish people would stop trying to use it for things it's not good at and definitely support its use being restricted in creative fields like with what happened with the SAG-AFTRA strike, because the invisible hand of capitalism doesn't actually work and just because something is objectively a bad idea doesn't mean capitalists won't try to do it anyway. I just think that some of the doom and gloom about AI putting people out of a job may never actually be realized. I suspect that a lot of the techbros who are getting excited about this now will eventually realize that it's actually more work than they bargained for and jump ship to whatever the next big techbro craze is in 10 years.

#ai #amazon mechanical turk

[coochiequeens]

Dylan Mulvaney and Phillip Picardi on Girlhood, Content Creation and More at Teen Vogue Summit 2023

The panel included reflection on Mulvaney's exponential success, future dreams and status as an “it girl.”

BY TEEN VOGUE

NOVEMBER 18, 2023

Performer, model, and content creator Dylan Mulvaney took Teen Vogue Summit 2023 stage for an in-depth conversation moderated by Chief Marketing & Communications Officer of the Los Angeles LGBT Center and founder of them Phillip Picardi.

Formerly, Picardi made history as Teen Vogue's first male beauty editor and later went on to become the Chief Creative Officer of the publication. He returned to celebrate Teen Vogue's 20th birthday in an engaging conversation with Mulvaney, discussing the changing media landscape, representation for transgender youth, and more.

Mulvaney rose to fame in March 2022 — a little over 600 days ago — when her “Days of Girlhood” series went viral on TikTok. In these video diaries, Mulvaney tells viewers all about her daily life as a trans woman, encompassing everything from dealing with prejudice to buying clothes and loving Twilight. Since then, she's taken the world by storm, appearing in major brand campaigns and walking the runway at New York Fashion Week.

With Teen Vogue Summit 2023 being centered around dreaming your future, Mulvaney took the stage to discuss her prosperous career and what it's like being a content creator who shares stories of trans joy. Revisiting Mulvaney's original post documenting her first day of girlhood, she said, “In that first video, I just remember hoping that ppl could see my intentions were good and i was the truest version of myself and I was ready to learn.”

Today, Mulvaney confirmed she's set to release a number of projects in new fields. Some plans she teased to the Teen Vogue Summit audience included acting and writing a book. This news comes after a tumultuous year for Mulvaney, who revealed that the hardships she faced this year have influenced her upcoming works.

“I think that is the one piece of this whole last year; I rushed a lot of things. I talked about a lot of things really fast and I think there were some little minute details that got lost in the mix and I'm doing those now,” Mulvaney said.

Mulvaney also revealed some dream projects she'd love to work on in the future, including a romantic comedy centered around transgender people finding love and success as well as a rendition of the musical Legally Blonde with transgender people. She explained that she believes that audiences seeing transgender people in these scripted roles will teach others how to love and support transgender people as well.

Mulvaney also discussed being in the fashion and beauty space. She noted that she's become more experimental with her style over the years, a major step from her traditional upbringing and past reservations. “I was so scared of being seen as a predator or all the things they were projecting on us... now, I feel like I’ve given myself permission to go there,” she says.

Content creation will also continue to be a priority for Mulvaney. Speaking to the audience, Mulvaney explained how she balances the pros and cons of the digital landscape. Some steps she said she would be taking included continuously creating content efficiently but tactfully, making meaningful friendships with other creators, carefully choosing who she collaborates with in the future, and more.

While Dylan Mulvaney and Philip Picardi kicked off the day with such an insightful discussion, it was just the first of many exciting panels to come at Teen Vogue Summit 2023. If you're not able to attend in person, don't worry because we have got you covered. You can livestream the event and keep refreshing teenvogue.com for more live updates.

OK not to be mean for the sake of being mean but this dude is 26.

No actual woman who looked like that at 26 would be featured in a Teen vogue summit.

#Teen vogue #Dylan mulvaney #Teen vogue summit 2023 #Grown ass men talking about girlhood #Los Angeles LGBT Center #them #Phillip Picardi #Were any actual women involved in this conversation? #Man who lost Broadway job due to covid turns to social media and becoming a stereotype of women #Days of Girlhood #Wasn't his first tiktok as a TIM about shopping and crying? #Is a tumultuous year a polite way of saying his endorsements backfired on the companies? #A man from generational wealth gave himself permission to do what he wants

[black-arcana]

NEW YEARS DAY's ASH COSTELLO Opens Up About Pregnancy Loss, Divorce And Dating

In a new interview with The Mistress Carrie Podcast, NEW YEARS DAY singer Ash Costello opened up about the personal tragedy and trauma that she went through during and after the pandemic. She said in part (as transcribed by BLABBERMOUTH.NET): "I don't talk about that stuff publicly ever, really. We were announced [for this year's] Rockville. Welcome To Rockville is a really amazing Danny Wimmer festival. We're playing with MÖTLEY CRÜE and JUDAS PRIEST. And the last time we were on Rockville, we had to cancel — we had to cancel all of our festivals last summer. And I saw the comments, like, 'Oh, NEW YEARS DAY's gonna pull out again.' 'I don't trust they'll ever make it.' 'How come they always cancel?' And I just wanna reach out to those people, like, you have no idea the personal battles I was going through that summer."

She continued: "I had to really learn to prioritize myself and my health. I went through a pregnancy. I went through a pregnancy loss, which was really traumatic because it was like a prolonged — tons and tons of tests, and it just kept getting worse and worse. And it was like an all-summer stressful event. And then a divorce and moving to another state. And there's just so much that happened, and I just wanna reach out to those people and be, like, you have no idea what any artist you're idolizing is going through. We're all human beings facing battles you know nothing about. But that was a big lesson for me because I was never putting myself first, and it showed. So now I put myself first, and we're getting way more creative, which I'm excited about."

Elaborating on her pregnancy loss, Ash said: "I didn't know how common it was. And although common, still not fun.

"I had plans to be on that 'Kiss Of Death' tour [with ICE NINE KILLS and IN THIS MOMENT last fall] seven months pregnant. That was gonna be the plan. I was gonna rock it. I was actually really into the idea of it, even though I'm sure it would have been really hard, but I was gonna do it. And everyone was on board and everyone was supportive. And then it just didn't…

"Life gives you what you need and taketh away what it's supposed to take away, and looking back, everything happens as it should, even though it's still sucky, but everything goes exactly as it should," Costello philosophized. "And it's not something I talk about. It's how you said, it's important to have a community of women in the rock world talking about their real womanly issues that go on in our lives. I don't talk about this in general, but this is a girl's podcast. So I feel super comfortable talking about mental health and self-care and prioritizing yourself and not sacrificing your happiness and your mental health just to grind."

Ash also talked the difficulty in maintaining romantic relationships while being in a touring band. She said: "I'm not a dater. I've never been. I hate dating. I don't do it. I'm the kind of person where it's, like, 'All right, we get married or not, 'cause I've got somewhere to be.' I've always been like that. And if someone freaks out over that, I'm, like, 'Cool. You're not my person. Next.'

Addressing specifically the breakdown of her marriage, three and a half years after she tied the knot with Jered Boeving, Ash said: "It was harder to make a marriage work while being in a band with maybe a person who's not from the industry and doesn't necessarily understand… 'Cause I always said I'm not gonna date anyone in a band. I'm gonna go with someone in a totally different field. And then that also came with its cons as well, because it was a little hard for the other person to understand what it takes. And I'm a very friendly person. I've always been one of the guys, just because I've always been in bands. And so that can be a bit jarring for someone who maybe doesn't understand what the camaraderie is actually like while you're traveling and stuff like that. So definitely difficult to navigate. It's gonna take a very understanding person or just someone in the industry."

NEW YEARS DAY's fifth studio album, "Half Black Heart", arrived on March 1.

#ash costello #new years day #interview #Youtube

[queenofcoquette]

What is your dream profession? Honestly, don't you want to be a successful K-Pop Idol? It's a really exciting profession. I want to become a K-Pop Idol, but I'm not sure about my decision. Should I continue my studies at Oxford University in Britain or become a K-Pop Idol? What do you think?

tysm for the question!

my biggest dream is to be an actress in movies and model, also do charity work. since ik that it's extremely hard to get into the industry (only 2% of actors make money im pretty sure) i have a solid plan for if that doesn't work out. pretty much im gonna double major in college and either get a job in psychology field or as an editor. during college i'll model if i can and work rlly hard to get acting roles, but if that doesnt work out i'll just have a normal career. rn all i can rlly do is learn abt the industry, make a plan and get a part-time job so i can take acting lessons. (also taking acting classes at the college close to me)

anywayss im not rlly into k-pop so ive never really wanted to be an idol ALTHOUGH i did want to be a singer for a long time (but i got rid of that dream for a lot of reasons) personally i think anyone who wants a career in the entertainment industry should always have a reasonable back-up plan just becuz luck plays a big role in becoming famous. so work hard at school and have a good back-up plan while also working on your creative goals on the side :) ofc i hope that you'll get everything u want

#queenofcoquette #anon asks

[slightlyrebelliouswriter23]

hi, em! how are you doing?

i just checked your ‘about me’ post and saw that you studied english and creative writing at uni. i will be starting that career path next year, and i know it differs from one university to another, but i was hoping you could tell me a bit about it? if you feel like it, of course.

have a nice day <3

Nonnie!! That’s so wonderful to hear. 🖤 Congratulations! I loved my time at uni, and I hope you do, as well.

Now that the academic year is upon us, I've compiled a summary of thoughts on Creative Writing (and English-related) degrees for you, which you may or may not find useful. Regardless, I'm excited for you and hope your journey takes you far.

English & Creative Writing at University

I. AMBITION CAN GET YOU ANYWHERE- even the places you never intended to go

The first thing they will tell you in this path of study is that it is almost impossible to make a career out of writing. This is not true. It’s just that it is very difficult to create the career that you expect out of such a course of study.

Many young writers will go into a creative writing degree and expect to spend their entire career as a novelist. Or a travel writer. Or an editor. Only a few will actually go on to do those things.

It’s not impossible, so if any of these are your dream profession, don’t get discouraged. Ambition is never silly or naive.

Having said that, I will also tell you that the stars are just as beautiful and important as the moon. Just because you have a goal, doesn’t mean you’ll have failed if you end up somewhere entirely different. With this academic path, you're simply giving yourself direction.

It's important to remember to keep yourself open to anything. And remind yourself every once in a while that most good things in life happen by accident.

II. ALL THE TOOLS IN YOUR BELT

Secondly, I want you to think about your degree not just as a way to hone your craft—which it very much still is—but as something with a broader scope than the small yet wonderful world of writing.

When we boil down what you learn in a Literature and/or Creative Writing educational space, it’s so much more than learning How To Write or How To Read. (These'll be the things that you can put on your resume if/when you apply for non-literature-oriented positions)

In my English degree, I learned how to:

Think critically -> I rarely read or consume content and take it for face value anymore. I look for meaning. I extract purpose and truth. I analyse. I do this all automatically now, whereas before my degree, critical analysis was like doing reps at the gym. I sweated a lot and hated most of it.

Research -> I am exceedingly good at skimming articles to find important bits of information that relate to broad or very niche topics. I’m good at finding what it is I am looking for, and relating it to whatever I’m working on.

Translate -> I don’t mean this in the way that one might translate a foreign language to their native one. I mean taking complex concepts, researching and understanding them, then compacting all of the information I’ve learned into something that is digestible to the general public. This is an incredibly valuable tool in a world where most people can't be bothered to read a whole news article, much less comprehend complex areas of study.

In my Creative Writing degree, I learned how to:

Problem solve -> Writing, whether it is a short story or a novel, is a big puzzle. There are a lot of parts and each part fits with the next and some don’t fit with others at all and there is a lot of shuffling things around to make a cohesive picture.

Think creatively -> This might seem obvious, and also not that important to non-creative fields. But creative thinking, no matter what field you’re in, is vital. Without creative thinking there can be no creative ideas or solutions. My mother is an engineer and, at the time I’m writing this, she is taking an online course on Creative Thinking, because it is essential to her work. Lucky for you, this is built into your degree.

Receive and build on criticism -> This also may seem like not an important thing. But it is. So many people get discouraged by criticism, when really, it can be a gift. You’ll likely have weekly critiques in your degree. When you are both receiving and giving critiques, pay attention to the tools this practice is giving you. Notice what stands out, what works, what doesn’t—and use this to your advantage.

And of course, I learned from both of these degrees how to work efficiently on a time crunch. Which doesn't require much explanation other than my propensity towards procrastination (I do not condone or recommend this method, though I feel it is an inescapable fate for basically anyone putting themselves through uni).

III. Unfortunately, People Are Ignorant

Lastly, be prepared for the inevitable question that every student in an English-related degree gets at least once during their final year: “What the hell are you going to do with that?”

It's a rite of passage for scholars of the humanities. And yet, it can be extremely discouraging, getting that question over and over again. But know that it comes from a place of well-intentioned ignorance.

People will assume you’ll either teach or go into publishing, because they see "English" or "Writing" and think "Well, everyone can read except kids. Everyone can write except kids", and the only other job they'll be able to conceive of is one where you are making the decisions about what is or is not "Good Writing".

I definitely used the “Probably go into publishing” answer, because I knew that teaching, while admirable, definitely wasn’t for me. But retrospectively, I think the answer I should’ve used sounds a lot more like: “Anything I damn well please! Or are you not creative enough to think of ways in which an English/Creative Writing degree is useful?”

These are just some of the more general thoughts I have about my university experience, now that it is nearly half a decade behind me. If you have any more specific questions about Creative Writing and University, please feel free to ask.

Best of luck to you, nonnie! Happy writing.

–Em 🖤🗡

More Writing Tips & Advice

#thanks for the ask!! 💜 #asked and answered #nonnie #writing #writing tips #writing advice #studying english #studying creative writing #english #creative writing #university #why is a raven like a writing desk? #my advice

[drewsaturday]

Oversensitivity About My Major hours

i know the backlash to business majors tends to be for like... stock bros who want to take over their daddy's company or see wages as a game, rather than the rest of us just doing it for survival purposes, but sometimes i do wanna shake ppl by the shoulders and point out a few things lmao.

business degrees, at least in the US, are some of the cheapest and most widely accessible fields to major in. every college that's known for being available online, cheap, and with options that make it easy for adults who already have to work, all at least have a business administration degree option, if not others in that field.

leaning on that, the kinds of jobs that are more accessible are ones with remote work options, and business degree jobs fall into that. i'm not going to major in something with entirely in-person job prospects when i can't go places in-person.

there is a certain level of privilege to be able to major in something you actually like, if your interests don't align with computer science or whatever. if i had any financial stability in my family (or more interesting online/cheap options) i would also go for the stuff i'm actually passionate about. but liberal arts degrees don't exactly pay well nor are they very conducive to avoiding student loans. if i majored in something i actually like i would be fucking myself over. if you're like me and are instead choosing to fuck yourself over for the sake of passion, cool! love that for you and i do genuinely hope it works out. but maybe examine the resentments you're forming to people who are trying to give themselves a better chance of survival as a way to distract yourself from how hopeless your own future now feels.

and while you can obviously take an occasional marketing class now and then regardless of your actual major, if you are in a creative industry you have to at least acknowledge that you're completely fucked if you don't know how to market yourself or track your business finances. if you don't get hired at a big business and have to rely on tiktok to get customers and clients, you're going to live long enough to become the #Girlboss you hate.

idk why this gets to me so much since i would rather be majoring in something else, but i guess that's kinda why it does get to me, which means i should probably chill out and join the bandwagon because i'm also suffering as a result of business degrees being propped up over everything else.

and i'm sure if i were lucky enough to be an in-person student actually meeting and dealing with other people in my major i would hate business majors too.

and a lot of other things come into play, like how we shouldn't Have to sacrifice income for pursuing our passions, or how you can still learn about business principles while in a different industry.

but... sometimes i think those attitudes mow over how many problems could be avoided if your favorite minecraft youtuber had an HR department for their server instead of having 0 understanding of what it takes for a proper business to run, because at the end of the day all the fun shiny exciting creative endeavors people want to make jobs out of do necessitate an understanding of paying taxes.

#txt #again i know it is more about the kind of person that willingly goes into that field #more than criticisms about the field itself or people like me #but it gets soooooooooo annoying so here we are

[feelbokkie]

pt 2 your writing????? i like it??? like lets be real this is a batshit insane plot but also you're doing an insanely good job keeping it? believeable? i'm down to clown i'm with it sometimes i read these aus and i'm like okay. we need to take a step back. this is a bit fantasy land right here. but like you've got me HOOKED i gotta know where we're going next, i can see the logical reasoning and the like, the emotions that are getting in the way of sound logical reasoning. and also most importantly it's highly entertaining like we're in the s tier of drama here, you can't really pile any more on top of what we're already unpacking 😂😂😂

If you saw all my old fics that I just orphaned rather than delete for some reason, you'd be like "how did we get here??"

S tier drama is correct. Even the book that inspired DLMLU is way more tame than this, at least I think it is I never finished it. Don't underestimate my ability to make things way worse because I can and will. Like in that book, the cousin stole mc's crush/ childhood friend from mc and then ended up cheating on him and marrying the guy she cheated with and invited her cousin whose she's fat shamed her entire life and said something like "you don't need a plus one because you're single" and she's like "actually, I'm dating your ex and we would love to be at your wedding" And I took that that simple fake dating plot and made it 100 times messier and we still have so much more to unpack!

Not only is DLMLU realistic, the bat shit nature is what's keeping everyone hooked and the fact that they want Bai and Chan to rot in hell while Felix and Y/n dance happily ever after over their graves. And while that's a believe and probable ending that everyone is expecting, it's just as easy for me to make Y/n end up with Chan because we can see how whipped Y/n is for Chan and some people do unfortunately end up with their toxic exes. And the exciting part it, none of you know which one I'm going to pick and you all have this need to see how it's going to end.

Disclaimer for anyone who is going to read below the cut, I'm not shitting on any fic writer at all. I'm just talking from experience as a seasoned fic writer.

But my main thing when writing, and reading, is that I love believability. Realistic fiction is my shit. Like, even when I'm writing fantasy, I need everything to be as realistic as possible. It's why I take so long to write, because I have to sit back and look at the situation and think "I'm not sure this works in this context" or "this doesn't make sense anymore." DLMLU already has a batshit plotline like you said, but readers still needs to be read this and be like, "oh yeah, that could happen." I spend a lot of time thinking about how to make everything connect like a beautiful puzzle.

Yesterday's chapter especially took a lot of planning because I had to do some mental math and realized that I fucked up the timeline a bit before I managed to fix everything. But that meant I had to get rid of some of my fantasyland details like Bai's engagement ring being Y/n's and the fact that Chan and Bai only had a one night stand.

I get the part of writing where you have so many ideas that you need to put them all down in one story, but yeah sometimes it does come out of left field. One thing I've learned in my 10+ years as a writer is that you need to be flexible. I understand being married to an idea but stories change and you have to learn to let go of a plot line or a small detail and go with the flow. Save those ideas for another story even. I'm a firm believer of believability over creativity.

#feelbokkie answers #dlmlu smau spoilers #dlmlu press tour

[sapphire-weapon]

As someone who is slowly working her way up to become a teacher in the future at 25, through my first couple of years in college, I still had no idea what to do afterwards. Then later on, I realized that I wanted to become a teacher, maybe even over achieve a little and become a professor because I am someone who has the tendency to overthink, and high school made college seem intimidating at first, but my college life was significantly better (with the exception of paying for my classes), and I wanted people to know that company people out there will be in college or won’t be in college who are also not sure on what they want to be or what they want to do for the rest of their lives.

It is never too late to keep on searching what you want to be. Always keep going. Like many of the journeys in the games you meta analyze, it can be a scary, yet exciting journey. Once you do find out what you want to be, that journey will end, and another will begin.

Hell, at this age, I don’t have my license yet, lol. But I am going to get it this year. Just need to keep the overthinking and nervousness at bay by thinking of my favorite characters from Resident Evil and Devil May Cry. 😅

not to sound ungrateful for your warm words, but... dude you're 25 and you have a life goal and ambition worked out. you have every reason to be optimistic. you have your whole life ahead of you and a plan to make things happen.

i don't. i didn't, at your age.

you know what i was doing at 25? working security overnights and gamestop in the mornings just to get my bills paid -- and i had to do that because i graduated college with a degree in criminal justice, and there was a nation-wide hiring freeze that was still in place from the financial collapse of 2008, so i couldn't just go right into my field. so, then, about halfway through the year, i dropped everything and moved to las vegas with no plan and no money, just hoping that things would work out.

they didn't.

and suddenly, my degree was worthless, because everything i learned in college was really only relevant to new jersey criminal law, and i was now living in nevada. so, even when the hiring freeze was lifted, i couldn't get hired anywhere here.

and then i joined a cult. and had every last shred of hope that i was still holding onto taken from me.

this is going to sound so shitty, but i look at my one coworker who's a failed creative (he writes music) and working a shitty low-wage performance job on the outskirts of vegas at age 51 because he doesn't know what else to do, and i'm just

terrified

because i don't wanna be him.

40 looming over me is so much scarier than 30 was.

you only get one life, man. just one. and i've wasted mine.

[payphoneangel]

For the ask game 1, 11, 24, 23 :))

what are 3 things you’d say shaped you into who you are?

Oh boy, starting off with a bang! Uhhh this question is very broad so I guess I'll interpret 'things' as like, events. I could go media but ehhh i think events are more interesting.

1.1 I had a rare and severe disease as a child that deeply impacted how I view mortality, comfort, and the field of medicine. Luckily, I have essentially 0 lasting health impacts from it so it's all just emotional stuff! Hooray!

1.2 My parents split in my early teens, changing not only my living situation but also how I viewed the concepts of home, family, and romance/marriage. It also was the catalyst for which started repressing all of my emotions, something I had to work hard to unlearn in my late teens/early twenties. It was a good life lesson, to say the least.

1.3 Also around my late teens, I figured out I was genderqueer! This has changed a lot, both the intricacies of my gender itself, and how it's impacted my life. Everything from the way I look/speak, how I navigate interpersonal relationships, and how I conduct myself in public are impacted by my complex relationship with gender. It's fun and exciting and freeing and enlightening, but it's also frustrating, isolating, confusing, and downright scary sometimes. I wouldn't have it any other way.

11. what do you consider to be romance?

Tbh, it's something that has been on my mind quite a lot recently! Short answer: I have no clue 😅

Long answer: I have only recently just had the revelation that I cannot tell the difference between platonic and romantic attraction. I'm not even sure romantic attraction is something I'm capable of experiencing. I can recognize (and enjoy) romance in fiction, I sing along to all the love songs, I do my best to understand the feelings of those around me when they talk about romance. But for me? I don't know. I know I've loved people, deeply and earnestly-- I love people now. But every time I try to enter a romantic relationship with someone, I feel like I'm just doing what's expected of me; going through the motions of 'what romance is supposed to look like' without actually feeling it. It's hard to say though, it's hard to identify the absence of something. How do I say I can't feel these feelings if I don't know how to identify them? Or is that in and of itself my answer? To me, there isn't anything I'd only do exclusively with a romantic partner. I don't know what romance looks like because I'd happily do anything passionate, caretaking, or intimate with a friend. But I'm told there's supposed to be extra feelings, so... here I am.

23. say 3 things about someone you hate

YESSS TIME TO BE A HATER. Okay uhhhh 1) expected me to be responsible for an entire dnd group's happiness despite my own joy becoming less and less frequent when playing (exacerbated by playing become a literal obligation) 2) assumed he knew my own needs and solutions to my problems even when I DIRECTLY STATED OTHERWISE 3) decided i had daddy issues because-- and I cannot stress this enough-- I played a warlock in his stupid campaign. Then he tried to therapize me about it. thru dnd. Needless to say I did not stay in that campaign (despite his best efforts to not let me quit)

24. what’s one thing you’re proud of yourself for?

Ahhh I could connect this to any of the earlier questions but I suppose since I'm answering these on here I'll say this: My improvement in writing!!

Spn really got me into writing fic. Outside of taking a creative writing class in college, I haven't done any writing outside of scientific writing since I was a teen. I had a lot to learn and relearn! It's been really rewarding to send my drafts to my beta reader, and watch the amount of edit suggestions lower with each project as my writing skills have strengthened. Of course, I still have more to learn, but honing my writing skills is something that brings me a lot of joy; and it's been very fun to write fics that other people enjoy too!

ask me some stuff

#vinny answers #ty for the questions birdie!! #did NAWT mean to get that deep w it #you just happened to pick a couple questions that were like. Well. tell me abt ur core being #love it tho great times

[88y53]

Maybe I just don't like Zack Snyder movies?

So I'm pretty far into Rebel Moon, and, at the moment, it has failed to really wow me with anything it has to offer.

Is it just me? Am I the problem here?

It's not like I wasn't giving this movie a chance–I was very excited to see a film he had complete and total creative control over... that wasn't Army of the Dead.

I understand that Zack Snyder movies have a lot of themes and metatextual messages. I know this mainly because he very openly talks about it, like a comedian explaining a joke when the audience remains silent after the punchline. And if that fails, he has a veritable army of people–most of whom I'm fairly certain are not astroturf accounts–who will sing from the highest rooftops that yes, indeed, this thing means a thing.

How clever.

This is an issue that I've been noticing with every single one of his movies post 300; they're all saying something meaningful, but in a way that makes it totally meaningless.

300 was a lot like that (to the point that people as still debating whether it can be interpreted as propaganda or not), but it had this raw, over-the-top machismo that gave it a crucial campy edge that made it seem like it was more self-aware than it probably was intended to be.

Pretty much every movie after that–this one included–is trying so hard to be multi-layered that it handicaps itself, turning everything into thematic white noise.

To it's credit, this film does have a surface-level story–The Seven Samurai with the cast of Star Wars–but it's completely smothered under the weight of the subtext. Can this even be called subtext? Having a long horizontal spaceship come out of wormhole in the shape of a vagina doesn't exactly scream "subtle" to me. Maybe we should make up a new term for this–what's the opposite of subtext that isn't just text? Astrotext? Supertext?

I know that Netflix has dreams of this becoming a lucrative franchise, and to that I say three things: "Good. Fucking. Luck."

It's not awful, it's just... not very interesting. There are these flash-in-the-pan moments that work and seriously threaten keep my attention, but they don't gel together into anything that keeps the crucial flow going.

And every character expressing themselves in these awkward, lengthy exposition-dumps also doesn't help. Maybe it's trying to keep within the style of Akira Kurosawa–I wouldn't know, I've never seen The Seven Samurai, and I most likely never will.

Rebel Moon, like most of Snyder's filmography–is either going to really fucking speak to you, or completely leave you cold; it'll all depend on whether you personally relate to the characters or world he's building like an over-excited dungeon master who spent 4 whole days hyper-focusing on this project and just wants one person to say they liked it to make it seem like all the effort was worth it.

"Bitch, we're here to fucking role-play! Not be your fantasy sounding-board!"

The movie didn't start out well for me either. We get a lengthy backstory narrated by Sir Anthony Hopkins (who seems to be willing to be in any movie, these days), and then it shifts to a woman plowing a field with an alien horse before having to dig a large rock out of the ground. And that was precisely the moment where the film lost me: I just couldn't believe that this girl would need to dig that rock out of clearly loose and freshly turned earth.

This is an an edited version, so maybe the director's cut is better. And on that subject I have to ask "did we learn nothing from Batman v Superman or Justice League?" You either let Zack Snyder make the movie exactly how he wants to make it or you get a shit movie. I mean you'd probably still get a shit movie, but at least it would have integrity.

Maybe this wouldn't be so bad if the film didn't have this subtle off-putting feeling of indulgence that permeates every single fucking frame. I understand you're making the movie you want to make, Mr. Snyder, but if this movie were to be even 1% more self-gratifying there would've been a 40-foot statue of your dick that pisses fire while Rock Me Like A Hurricane plays in the background and F-16s do barrel-rolls overhead.

Maybe 300 was just the one good movie he had in him? It happens. One day you're directing The Sixth Sense, next you're directing The Lady In Water.

According to a recent post in his safespace blog he's sworn off making movies for the "main stream," which is for the best, I suppose. The mainstream has not been particularly kind to him.

I'm certainly not wishing he'd stop making movies–you make all the weird films you possibly got in you, you mad bastard, but I think you're done surprising me.

And, in case you're wondering, no, I probably wouldn't say all of this to his face.

#Rebel Moon #Netflix #Netflix's Rebel Moon #Zack Snyder

[yanaequa]

In what ways do you relate to Woo Youngwoo and the drama? And do you think it's good autistic representation? Thanks for answering!

Hello anon, Thanks for asking! Time to talk about myself, woohoo!

First, the background.

I am 24 year old autistic woman, who got a job in my profession about a year ago. although I am not lawyer as Youngwoo, My job absolutely utilizes what I majored & learned in university, so I am using my knowledge at my full potential for my work, as Youngwoo does in her profession!

To talk about my job further, it is something close to debugging; I find out what the problem is, then test out what would be the reason of it, then figure out how to fix it. It's all about keen observation, deduction, and creativity (also organization. I suck at this so I really wish I could be like Youngwoo when I need it!); It feels like I'm solving whale quiz every time!

Next, the behavior.

I ABSOLUTELY love babbling out what I am interested as Youngwoo does (it's not fixed to one topic unlike Younwoo's fixation to whales, but I would say I am just interested in many things!), and my facial expression changes absolute joy (with tee-hee smile, according to my friend's observation) when I speak about such, I have hell of a reaction when I am surprised (I shout or flinch, or both), I hate loud noises (I can tolerate better than Youngwoo does, tho, so I don't have noise-canceling headphone, but I prefer quiet places like library or bookstore), I like running around all over places when I am excited or nervous; I speak in very considerate when I am focusing, but I slip out rude words when I am off-guard; I do "ah" when someone points out what I did not notice; I am cute and lovely as she does (joke intended, but I actually think I am!)

Also, it's bit embarrassing to say it myself, but I am really smart. in Wechler Intelligence Scale, I got 140(sd 15) in perceptual reasoning. That means, at least in that field, I am above 99.6 percentile. other section is above average, too. (I am aware that IQ is not comprehensive way to judge one's overall intelligence, but at least it means I am really good at something, I hope) I don't own a photographic memory like Youngwoo, but I am good at finding connection between things, and overall structures of how things are made up by just skimming through it, and deducing what people actually meant based on their behavior and words. It helped me so much on masking and making up lack of social intuition.

Well my friends say "man, Young-woo's behavior absolutely reminded you", so behavior-wise, I believe that we have lot of thing in common.

Now about surroundings.

I have a friend who has known me for about a decade; I met her in secondary school, she tried becoming friend as protecting & looking after me, then I helped her a lot when she had hard time. We are real besties right now, and she is super social and outgoing.

My boss has trouble figuring out how to handle me but also thinks that I'm good at my job and gives professional advice when needed. He does scold me when I am not acting professional, but also likes showing cats and accepts me as great coworker. I also have a mentor who gives an advice what action would been more appropriate for what I intended, and keep encourages me that I'm doing well. Also he warned me for loud noises before he started using air gun. I became openly autistic after EAW aired, then it became SO much easier to explain about myself & how I feel and think, and they understand my struggle & be kind to me.

I also had love interests, and recently started seeing someone; I knew him way before EAW launched, but as EAW launched, I could tell him that I am autistic, then we got close to each other as we discussed about the show. We are now seeing each other; he is like Junho to me :D EAW cleared some of the doubts I had in mind & gave the guideline to how to see a person & learn them, so I am thanking the drama a lot!

Oh and my mom is narcissistic. I love her & she loves me too. It took a long time to understand her, but I think I am getting her. I'm not sure if she understands me though, but I don't mind that much.

Hope this answers your question!

#extraordinary attorney woo #actually autistic #actuallyautistic #kdrama

[lilmisswhyso]

Hello! I'm excited about the anniv too. :) How about 6, 7, and 8 for the ruin album ask game?

i've already given some answers to 6 and 7 here, but i'll throw on some more beloved lyrics for both of them!!

6. What lyrics make you smile?

didn't the trees tell us their stories? yeah but we, we thought you were mental, you were talking to trees // when you open up the door, say something stupid like "you're lying on some coats," i say "i know. it's just sometimes nice to feel what it's like to be in someone else's coat" // gonna go home and show my cat some memes, cause he's awesome like me // they'd paint your eyes with sunsets // i'm not trapped with you, you see, you're the one who's trapped with me

7. What lyrics make you yearn?

we built our castles just to watch them wash away // we were the winter nights so you could be the morning snow // i'm learning to be so much more than my tiredness // we'll burn a hundred theaters if it means we get the wallpaper right // and i wish that i could take his hand, but where i'm going is for me and me alone

8. What lyrics are still unclear to you?

A lot of Old Witch Sleep, honestly! I've sat with the interpretation of the song as a sort of self-encouragement, and a rejection of the sort of dark thoughts that can come with depression and anxiety. But I also wanna look deeper into it, and the narrative it seems to be trying to tell with the actual characters of the Old Witch Sleep and the Good Man Grace. Though specifically, I think the line "'You don't have to be brilliant,' she says as she scrolls through the rolls that the millions of hollering hollow folk know how to play" is the one that trips me up the most. I've always seen it as a bit of an act of comparison to others who are in similar fields of work or creative communities, but I'm still just not really sure!

#tysm for the asks!!! #7 has been so interesting to find lyrics for bc my big tad yearning album is love run sfdsfds #ask #text #the old witch sleep and the good man grace #ruin (album)

[herefm]

🌟 Spotlight: Niege Borges

A canvas for (almost) limitless creativity, Here lets you create spaces that let you fully express yourselves. But sometimes, we need a little inspiration. Welcome to Here Spotlight, a series of interviews with some of our favorite artists and creatives out in the world.

Niege Borges is a Brazilian visual artist and graphic designer based in Brooklyn, New York. Her work is colorful, vibrant and playful. She likes to portray women, gender fluid people and explore different races and body shapes. Some of her clients include: Instagram, Apple, TikTok, Nike and Sephora.

Tell us a little bit about yourself, and how you found your footing into your career!

I was born in Brazil and studied graphic design there. I always loved art and was always creating something. I worked as graphic designer and illustrator in an agency in Brazil for a short period of time and then began freelancing full time. I moved to New York in 2015 and that helped me to see that I wanted to invest more time in my personal illustration work, which evolved and I started working on more projects that were my own visual aesthetic.

What inspires you as a creative?

Of course the internet inspires me a lot, I see a lot of fashion photoshoots and runaways online that inspire me, as well social media content. But besides that I love to get inspirations from walking around in the city, looking at art in galleries and museums, watching live performances and people watching in New York.

What makes your process unique? How do you express yourself in ways that may be different from others in your field?

I think everyone brings different references and stories that when combined can become something really unique, so I think that a lot of factors that brought me to where I am today influence the way I create and what I create.

What was a challenge that felt pivotal in your creative journey? How did you overcome it?

I had periods where I had a lot of commissions at the same time and I had to learn how to say no if I'm too busy. We are always scared to lose a client if we say no once but it is important to learn to not overwork yourself. I learned that it's ok to say no sometimes when I realized that working too much in certain periods wasn't good for my mental and physical health.

What are some of the musicians, artists or makers that you are excited about right now? What about them spark your imagination?

I love Nadia Lee Cohen's work, I love her way of bringing us into these eccentric worlds and portraying unique people. Chiquitettas is a performer based in Brooklyn that besides being beautiful and having amazing looks, she also organizes a lot of events and I can see how she is important to the drag, trans and LatinX community despite of her young age, which is really inspiring. Luiz Moreira is an amazing Brazilian photographer and I really like the way he photographs different body shapes and also how he incorporates a lot of the Brazilian culture into his work.

What gives you hope ?

That no matter what happens there will always be people creating beautiful things that can bring joy and inspire in different ways.

Do you have any advice for someone who is just getting started in their career?

To never stop creating even if you don't feel very confident and put your work out there, someone will like what you do, even if you don't think it's perfect. I hear that a lot of illustrators are afraid of putting stuff out there because their work "is not ready" - just upload it and if you don't like that art at some point anymore remember that you can always delete things from your portfolio or Feed later.

We are in currently in the 2022 Pride month! What excites you about Pride? What are your hopes and fears for the LGBTQ+ community this year and in the future?

I love Pride and how LGBTQ+ people can be celebrated and also reflect one the progress that we had all these years thanks to the people that were brave to come out and fight for LGBTQ+ rights. I am happy to think that probably a lot of people will be coming out this month and will be celebrated or at least will be doing the first step to live life the way that they want to. I am in New York which is a safe enough city for LGBTQ+ people but I always think of my home country Brazil and how there are a lot of places there where it is not safe to be out and proud. I hope that the LGBTQ+ community can continue to inch closer towards equality, especially our trans brothers and sisters.

Check out more Spotlights from Here and try out Niege's "New York Commute" template on Here.fm!

#spotlight #herefm #niege borges #brazilian #illustration #fashion #pride #pride 2022 #spotted

[nsfwhiphop]

Incoming Text for @YesJulz: Let me explain the secret power of writers, authors, particularly screenwriters, to YesJulz: Hey Julz, I want to share something intriguing about writers with you. Have you ever noticed that screenwriters are often very private individuals? It's fascinating, isn't it? Despite the fact that no one really knows what they look like or has ever seen their faces, they wield incredible influence and make a significant impact in Hollywood and the book business. Let me delve into why this is such a powerful and enticing career path, and why I think it could be an amazing fit for you. Firstly, consider the allure of anonymity. In a world where fame often seems like the ultimate goal, the mystique surrounding writers is refreshing. By remaining behind the scenes, writers can focus purely on their craft without the distractions that come with public recognition. This allows them to pour their entire selves into their work, creating stories that resonate deeply with audiences. Moreover, the financial success that many writers enjoy speaks volumes about the value of their talent. Despite their anonymity, their words have the power to captivate millions, leading to best-selling books and blockbuster movies. Imagine having the ability to touch the hearts and minds of people around the world with your storytelling prowess. Listen, Julz, I've seen your tweets, I've read them since the early 2010s, and it's evident that you have a natural gift for writing. Your words have a way of drawing people in and making them feel something. Just think about the incredible stories you could bring to life as an author and screenwriter. Your imagination knows no bounds, and I have no doubt that you would excel in this field. Writing isn't just a career—it's a calling. It's about sharing your unique perspective with the world and leaving a lasting impact through your words. I truly believe that you have what it takes to thrive as a writer, and I'm here to support you every step of the way. So, Julz, why not embrace your passion for writing and embark on this exciting journey? The world is waiting to be enchanted by your stories, and I can't wait to see where your creativity takes you.

This is my Tumblr page, don't forget that my tumblr page is like a Virtual film school, here you can learn a lot about screenwriting and you can find these lessons in my archives, I have a plethora of books on screenwriting along with numerous videos dedicated to this craft. These resources provide invaluable insights into the art of screenwriting. Don't hesitate to dive into them and dedicate time to learning. With commitment and dedication, you have the potential to become a brilliant screenwriter within the next two years. So, seize the opportunity to absorb the knowledge and hone your skills." I want to see your movies on our screens because I know you have a lot of talent, you write a lot on twitter and instagram, I believe in your talent.

I'm confident that your talent deserves to be showcased on the big screen, given the wealth of creativity you express on Twitter and Instagram. I believe wholeheartedly in your abilities.

Consider rallying your closest friends, your girlfriends, your BFFs, and encourage them to dedicate their weekends to screenwriting. By setting aside every Saturday and Sunday exclusively for this purpose, you'll find that having their support and collaboration will accelerate the completion of your screenplays.

Every saturday and sunday, two days in the week just for screenwriting, this will help you finish your screenplays faster because you have your besties working on the screenplays with you.

You could even establish your own screenwriting girl-group with friends from Twitter, like 'Curry Queen', 'Rubi Rose', and 'Tanaya Henry' and '@Vashtie' as your film director. I'm sure together, you can inspire and motivate each other to reach new heights in your screenwriting endeavors.

Also, don't forget that there is a lot of money in filmmaking, that's why I encourage you to share this knowledge with your girlfriends in Miami, teach them this new money making idea, show them that there is a way out of poverty and filmmaking is a lucrative field, there is so much money in filmmaking but your girls have to get organized, you have to meet people in the independent filmmaking industry and make movies with your besties, you will have a lot of fun.

I encourage you to focus on filmmaking and take a break from the Music world because filmmaking is where the money is for you and your besties.

Here are a few Film production companies in America that will agree to fund your films, see these wiki page links:

Here is a wiki page of all the Film production companies in America, click the link below:

Here is a wiki page of all the Film production companies in the U.K, click the link below:

Here is a wiki page of all the Film production companies in France, click the link below:

Now that you have all this knowledge about film companies in America, France and the United Kingdom, I encourage you to chase these film contracts, secure the bags in the film industry.

You can call this woman for advice, she is a French woman and she is the best friend of Natalie Portman, her name is Sophie Mas, this is her Imdb page, click the link: https://www.imdb.com/name/nm0556021/?ref_=nm_mv_close

Sophie Mas will become your Godmother in French cinema, call her for advice when you need funding from French film companies, she will give you the support you need in France.

Read this article about Natalie Portman's film production company with her bestie Sophie Mas, click the link: https://www.hollywoodreporter.com/movies/movie-features/sophie-mas-may-december-film-natalie-portman-1235598421/

Fun Fact: "Natalie & Sophie Mas are co-founders of this independent film company and they are looking for talented women like you, if you have a dope screenplay, you go to see them and they will help you find producers to fund your movies."

In conclusion, my dear @YesJulz, I encourage you to motivate your besties, your BFFs and your girl-gangs to chase the film industry money, there is a lot of money in the film industry and you can do this, if you get organized.

Also, call this U.K. man, his name is Kano (@therealkano), he is an old school friend of @Debbycoda from the United Kingdom.

He has a lot of friends in the film business in U.K. and America, so don't hesitate to call him and ask your friend @DebbyCoda to introduce you to him.

Important Reminder: "To help you finish your screenplays faster, quicker, use a voice-recorder and tell all your girls to use a voice-recorder to record their ideas for the screenplay. Never forget that your IDEAS are the Most Important Part of the screenplay, so keep writing down your ideas, ideas, ideas, and then some more ideas until you have hundreds of ideas and then, and only then, you start writing your screenplay, it's a very simple creative process that helps you finish the screenplay faster. First you write down your ideas and then Second you start building your screenplay by using those ideas.

Okay, my dear sister Julz, this chat was fun, I wish you success and good luck in the film business.

Love you, YesJulz! Have fun, big hug for you!

P.S.: Kano (@therealkano) is a good friend of Debby Coda and he is an actor too, he works with Drake, see picture below: