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star1117-archives · 2 years

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𝐀𝐭𝐞𝐞𝐳’𝐬 𝐧𝐨𝐧-𝐢𝐝𝐨𝐥 𝐣𝐨𝐛𝐬

➵ Genre : Crack

➵ W.C : 1148

➵ Warnings : N/A

➵ © 𝐬𝐭𝐚𝐫𝟏𝟏𝟏𝟕-𝐚𝐫𝐜𝐡𝐢𝐯𝐞𝐬. Do not steal, plagiarise, translate, repost or use my work in any way, shape or form.

𝐒𝐞𝐨𝐧𝐠𝐡𝐰𝐚: Teacher or Actor

Teacher:

Kindergarten teacher

Do i really need to explain myself further

He deals with 6 kids already, without a coffee-addict’s help

He seems like he’d be really good with kids

Would be the favourite teacher

Of both the students and parents

Would literally be the kindest teacher ever

Always organising fun ways to learn

Tries to connect with his students so they always have someone to talk to

Actor:

Y’all actually need an explanation for this one??

Or are you just blind

Definitely has the visuals for it too

He’s very emotional so i think he could cry on cue

Even if he was bad he’d be famous

But ofc my dude is one of the best

because hello??? it’s Seonghwa

Would probably love acting in dramas with love storylines

Just wants to tease his fans

trained with Jongho to get that Hollywood star look

𝐇𝐨𝐧𝐠𝐣𝐨𝐨𝐧𝐠: Judge or Producer

Judge:

Hongjoong is the leader of ATEEZ and is a peacemaker who settles disputes between members with an unbiased viewpoint

He is very good at making the right decisions for the group

He would look hot ASF in the robe

He’s also a source of discipline for the members

Overall a very level-headed guy

Would look sexy in the robe

Probably would be known for being sarcastic during court

Or he’d be super cutthroat

tried to give mingi the death penalty for a parking ticket

Producer:

Pretty obvious point

I feel like if he couldn’t be an idol he’d still wanna work in the music industry

He’s THE KIM HONGJOONG stan talent bitches

He has such a deep love for music as well

Would probably become well-known

Wants to know artists on a personal level so he can connect with them

He’s caters to the artist’s desires but also add his own ideas/thoughts

Produces club bangers

𝐘𝐮𝐧𝐡𝐨: Dancer or Doctor

Dancer:

Yh yk why

Literally so talented

easily could win competitions

would end up as a backup dancer for really popular artists/groups

like NCT SKZ maybe even BTS-level artists

might even join a dance company that tours

known for flipping a switch on stage

one minute he’s smiling and waving like the cute little bean he is

next minute he’s hip thrusting in the air that chris brown stage

taught san how to strip

Doctor:

He probably would just love helping people

He seems like someone who always gives more than he receives

always grateful when patients compliment or thank him

probably’d be a paediatrician

because he loves kids

gives them lollipops after their shots

would call them strong and brave kill me now

always has a smile on his face

sings to patients that are scared

Treated Yeosang’s burns after he made an explosion again

𝐘𝐞𝐨𝐬𝐚𝐧𝐠: Engineer or Barista

Engineer:

The man has a fascination/obsession with drones

probably gets him into technology

pulls things apart to see how they work

his house is a mess of wires and nuts

mad scientist vibes

blew up his garden once

burned his eyebrows off too

woo didn’t let him live that one down

took an interest in bombs too

Barrista:

Wants to be qUiRkY

Has his own little café

super homey but also minimalistic

just feels calm and relaxing

has piano playing softly in the background

he makes the best coffee

but loads of people come to just stare at him

Man should’ve been a model

could’ve been rich and famous but just wanted a normal, quiet life

owns Seonghwa’s favourite coffee place

𝐒𝐚𝐧: Stripper or Model

Stripper:

Self-explanatory

stage demon

would literally start it as a joke/dare

realises he’s pretty decent

supports himself through his studies with it

gets a degree to pursue a job when he’s more older

probably gets scouted for modelling while being a stripper

gets plenty of tips

spends nearly all of it on snacks

super soft when he’s off-stage

Model:

Loves to walk down a runway

knows damn well he looks good in anything

does cute photoshoots a lot

does a lot for toy companies

who wouldn’t buy a plushie that looks like the one he hugged??

isn’t afraid to do underwear ads

everyone wants him to model for them

models for brands like gucci and calvin klein too

softest boi hours

or demon choi hours

helped seonghwa train for a drama he was playing a model in

𝐌𝐢𝐧𝐠𝐢: Underground Rapper or Bartender

Underground Rapper:

Lowkey could see him at AOMG or H1GHR

Like even after ateez i could see him becoming a solo artist tbh

spits bars periodt

hangs out at all the best clubs

is well-known in the underground scene

but also begs people to listen to his Soundcloud

frequently caught falling downstairs (DEAN PLS SKJSJKSJ)

pretends to be cool

but is just a ball of fluff

literally gives up being hardcore outside of rapping

is AOMG/H1GHR’S child and is babied 24/7

collabed with hongjoong and made golden music

Bartender:

Ngl Mingi pretty clumsy and i dont trust him with kids

So like keep him standing still as much as possible

Broke a few glasses

But it’s okay he’s cute

attracts more customers

so acc makes the bar a lot more money

gets chatted up so much-

he just giggles and smiles

pls im whipped

he lowkey can’t fucking hear now

he’s always like huh h u h HUH?

𝐖𝐨𝐨𝐲𝐨𝐮𝐧𝐠: Stylist or Youtuber

Stylist:

Fashionista hello

Sassy diva

Needs everything to be perfect

Or he screams

knows all the dirt on everyone

yk that one auntie who’s all up in everybody’s business?

that’s this mf

hella talented tho

has worked with loads of idols and actors

joke-flirts with them

does makeup for model san sometimes

needs caffeine or will riot

slightly unhinged in the mental category-

YouTuber:

Reaction vids

or mukbangs

or cooking channel

or all of the above

funny af

earrape warnings at the start of his vids

screams into the mic for no reason

crunches his cereal all up in it

slurping and thumbs up to the camera

accidentally ate one of yeosang’s cookie robots

freaked out when yeosang said it could explode

dw he’s not dead…. yet

𝐉𝐨𝐧𝐠𝐡𝐨: Boxer or PT

Boxer:

Strong af

could kill a mf

knows how to use his hands (yessir)

constantly working out

drinks raw eggs (cue rocky scene)

famous all over korea

makes yt videos on different exercises to do

wonho in lockdown style

has more fans on his yt channel than irl

sometimes posts pics of him in a date-like setting

forever flexing his muscles in pics

Personal Trainer:

still the strongest in korea

super expensive trainer

pt to the stars

trains all of ateez

made model san cry once during a workout

and rapper mingi too

sounds like an army general

‘harder! harder! harder! do you know what that means mingi?! it means more hard!’

high-strung af when doing classes

pretty chill outside of them

jongho: demon>angel

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yungisstar1117-writes · 3 years

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ATEEZ’s Non-Idol Jobs

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I’d like to make it clear this is fiction. This is not a realistic/fact-based representation of the guys it’s just my opinion.

Could you make one where it's like ATEEZ in a certain job or something?- @keullaesigbeogeo

Genre: Fluff, Crack

Word Count: 1.2k+

Warnings: explicit language (from me but-)

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Hongjoong: Judge or Producer

Okay these may sound totally random but hear me out

Judge:

Hongjoong is the leader of ATEEZ and is a peacemaker who settles disputes between members with an unbiased viewpoint

He is very good at making the right decisions for the group

He would look hot ASF in the robe

He’s also a source of discipline for the members

Overall a very level-headed guy

WOULD LOOK SEXY IN THE ROBE

Probably would be known for being sarcastic during court

Or he’d be super cutthroat

tried to give mingi the death penalty for a parking ticket

Producer:

Pretty obvious point

I feel like if he couldn’t be an idol he’d still wanna work in the music industry

He’s THE KIM HONGJOONG stan talent bitches

He has such a deep love for music as well

Would probably become well-known

Wants to know artists on a personal level so he can connect with them

He’s caters to the artist’s desires but also add his own ideas/thoughts

Produces club BANGERS

Seonghwa: Teacher or Actor

Teacher:

Kindergarten teacher

Do i really need to explain myself further

He deals with 6 kids already, without a coffee-addict’s help

He seems like he’d be really good with kids

Would be the favourite teacher

Of both the students AND parents

Would literally be the kindest teacher ever

Always organising fun ways to learn

Tries to connect with his students so they always have someone to talk to

Actor:

Y’all actually need an explanation for this one??

Or are you just blind

Definitely has the visuals for it too

He’s very emotional so i think he could cry on cue

Even if he was bad he’d be famous

But ofc my dude is one of the best

because hello??? it’s Seonghwa

Would probably love acting in dramas with love storylines

Just wants to tease his fans

trained with Jongho to get that movie star look

Yunho: Dancer or Doctor

Dancer:

Yh yk why

Literally SO TALENTED

easily could win competitions

would end up as a backup dancer for really popular artists/groups

like NCT SKZ maybe even BTS-level artists

might even join a dance company that tours

known for flipping a switch on stage

one minute he’s smiling and waving like the cute little bean he is

next minute he’s hip thrusting in the air that chris brown stage

taught san how to strip

Doctor:

He probably would just love helping people

He seems like someone who always gives more than he recieves

always grateful when patients compliment or thank him

probably’d be a paediatrician

because he loves kids

gives them lollipops after their shots

would call them strong and brave uwu kill me now

always has a smile on his face

sings to patients that are scared

Treated Yeosang’s burns after he made an explosion again

Yeosang: Engineer or Barista

Engineer:

The man has a fascination/obsession with drones

probably gets him into technology

pulls things apart to see how they work

his house is a mess of wires and nuts

mad scientist vibes

blew up his garden once

burned his eyebrows off too

woo didn’t let him live that one down

took an interest in bombs too

Barrista:

Wants to be qUiRkY

Has his own little café

super homey but also minimalistic

just feels calm and relaxing

has piano playing softly in the background

he makes the best coffee

but loads of people come to just stare at him

Man should’ve been a model

could’ve been rich and famous but just wanted a normal, quiet life

owns Seonghwa’s favourite coffee place

San: Model or Stripper

Similar ideas but shush

Stripper:

Self-explanatory

STAGE DEMON

would literally start it as a joke/dare

realises he’s pretty decent

supports himself through his studies with it

gets a degree to pursue a job when he’s more older

probably gets scouted for modelling while being a stripper

gets plenty of tips

spends nearly all of it on snacks

super soft when he’s off-stage

Model:

Loves to walk down a runway

knows damn well he looks good in anything

does cute photoshoots a lot

does a lot for toy companies

who wouldn’t buy a plushie that looks like the one he hugged??

isn’t afraid to do underwear ads

everyone wants him to model for them

models for brands like gucci and calvin klein too

softest boi hours

or demon choi hours

helped seonghwa train for a drama he was playing a model in

Mingi: Underground rapper or Bartender

Underground Rapper:

Lowkey could see him at AOMG or H1GHR

Like even after ateez i could see him becoming a solo artist tbh

spits bars periodt

hangs out at all the best clubs

is well-known in the underground scene

but also begs people to listen to his Soundcloud

frequently caught falling downstairs (DEAN PLS SKJSJKSJ)

pretends to be cool

but is just a ball of fluff

literally gives up being hardcore outside of rapping

is AOMG/H1GHR’S CHILD AND IS BABIED 24/7

collabed with hongjoong and made GOLDEN MUSIC

Bartender:

Ngl Mingi pretty clumsy and i dont trust him with kids

So like keep him standing still as much as possible

Broke a few glasses

But it’s okay he’s cute

attracts more customers

so acc makes the bar a lot more money

gets chatted up SO MUCH-

he just giggles and smiles

pls im whipped

he lowkey can’t fucking hear now

he’s always like huh h u h HUH?

Wooyoung: Stylist or YouTuber

Stylist:

Fashionista hello

Sassy diva

Needs everything to be perfect

Or he screams

knows all the dirt on everyone

yk that one auntie who’s all up in everybody’s business?

that’s this mf

hella talented tho

has worked with loads of idols and actors

joke-flirts with them

does makeup for model san sometimes

needs caffeine or will R I O T

slightly unhinged in the mental category-

YouTuber:

Reaction vids

or mukbangs

or cooking channel

or all of the above

funny af

earrape warnings at the start of his vids

screams into the mic for no reason

crunches his cereal all up in it

slurping and thumbs up to the camera

accidentally ate one of yeosang’s cookie robots

freaked out when yeosang said it could explode

dw he’s not dead.... yet

Jongho: Boxer or Personal Trainer

Boxer:

Strong af

could kill a mf

knows how to use his hands (yessir)

constantly working out

drinks raw eggs (cue rocky scene)

famous all over korea

makes yt videos on different exercises to do

wonho in lockdown style

has more fans on his yt channel than irl

sometimes posts pics of him in a date-like setting

FOREVER flexing his muscles in pics

Personal Trainer:

still the strongest in korea

super expensive trainer

pt to the stars

trains all of ateez

made model san cry once during a workout

and rapper mingi too

sounds like an army general

‘harder! harder! harder! do you know what that means mingi?! it means more hard!’

high-strung af when doing classes

pretty chill outside of them

jongho: demon>angel

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mendesbhraanth · 3 years

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Hi beautiful sending you love mwah 😘😘 just wanted to know if you can write something were you hear Shawn talk badly about you so you distance yourself. Please.

Thank you so much for requesting!! 😘😘

Pairing : Shawn x y/n

Warnings : language and angst

Word count : 2.8 k

The first thing you heard when you opened the door to Shawn's condo was basically loud laughter of people including your boyfriend's. You just came back from work, a bit earlier than usual because shawn had been complaining about how he doesn't get to spend time with you because work has been crazy for you and you had a lot of files to finish and you were hella tired of your boss being a complete asshole, who never lets anyone stay home and he was no different to you. Anyways you were not at all aware of the fact that he had guests over.

The sound was coming from the living area of Shawn's penthouse apartment and apart from Shawn's, you recognised the laughter as Brian's, and Connor's. A small smile creeped on your face. You absolutely adored Shawn's friends so you walked towards the living to say 'hi' to them.

You were close enough to hear what they were talking about when your legs came to halt at the mention of you name.

"So how's life with y/n? Tour's over....You're free and now that y/n is staying with you, you must have a lot of cheesy things to say" Connor said whilst laughing.

"Oh yeah I actually do but not right now because why the hell would you mention my so called clingy girlfriend?" Shawn said and Brian laughed so loudly at that but your heart stopped.

"What??! What are you saying?!?" Connor said because shawn has been the most "I'm obsessed with my girlfriend and she is my goddess!!" Type of guy he had ever met.

"I said y/n is extremely clingy and annoying and I don't have anything good to say about her right now so please stop talking about that hoe!!" Shawn said and started laughing like crazy with Brian. Both of their laughs clouding your mind. You just stood there not able to comprehend anything.

You turned around silently, grabbed your keys and left the apartment in the same clothes you came in.

You got in your car and started driving slowly. You were now driving to nowhere for about 30 mins.

The moment you processed the words shawn said you slammed the break and your head came down on the stearing wheel with a plasticy bang.. must have been painfull.. ow poor y/n.

Did he really say that?!? Does he think I'm an annoying clingy hoe?!? Hell! "HE" was the one who wanted me to stay home and spend time with 'HIM'!! And I'm clingy?!? Is this the guy you've been in love with for what? Like 3 years?!! How could he call you a hoe!?! Why would any boyfriend disrespect his girlfriend like that??!? This is the worst day ever!!

All these thoughts were knocked out from your mind by a loud honking sound. You were basically in the middle of a road and by now, there were tons of cars parked behind you. Wow! You just created a big traffic block in the middle of Toronto city. Go you!! *Claps of sarcasm*

You quickly turned around and took another route to make your way back to Shawn's apartment like nothing happened. Haha asshole! but sometimes you gotta act like you weren't the cause of a huge ass traffic block..

You didn't know exactly why you were going back. To lay it onto him?? To get your things?? I don't know but you got home with slouched shoulders and an emotion less face.

You were about to reach and open the door when Shawn opened the door and a bright smile appeared on his face on seeing you which almost made you forget about the things he just said. Eh but not really.

"Baby!!!! I missed you so much today!!" He said and went in for a hug and you hugged him back it was as if someone was clawing at your heart.

"I'm just gonna walk these guys out and I'll be back in a second okay? You get freshened by then" He said sweetly but right now his words seemed anything but sweet!

How dare he say that to them and then act like nothing happened?? That too infront of them?!?! Which speaking of-!

"Hey y/n!!!" Connor and Brian said at the same time and both hugged you and you silently hugged them back, with a fake smile that could basically convince anyone but not Shawn.

"You guys go ahead I'll come in a sec" he said and turned to you.

"Okay then Bye y/n" they both bid their goodbyes and made their way to the lift.

"Hey what happened baby? Any problem with your boss??" Shawn asked tilting your chin up to look you in the eyes.There was evident hurt in them.

You were debating to weather tell him or push him away but you didn't choose any of that.

"Yeah..had a bad day at work"

"Aww baby you go inside and sit down okay! I'll be back after properly saying goodbye to the guys and you can tell me all about your day. Alright?" He asked sweetly but it sounded like straight up sarcasm to you but you chose not to call him out right now.

He gave you a short peck and there he goes ....'probably gonna talk more shit about me' you thought to your self which and it made you feel like your heart was stabbing itself.

You went inside and sat yourself on the couch. The same couch where the love of your life talked shit about you being a clingy hoe. (Sorry I'm just over dramatic 😅)

About 5 mins later shawn came in and sat by your side.

"What happened baby?? What did your crazy boss do this time?" He asked while taking your hand in his and slowly stroking the back of your hand with his other hand but you didnt move.

"Nothing..just the usual..I have...work...just...I-!...I'm going to take a shower" you said. A slight frown appeared on Shawn's face. But he understood....some days you were like this when work really stressed you out.

'Maybe she doesn't wanna talk about it' he thought.

"Okay baby" he said and you stood up from the couch and before you walked 4 steps shawn caught your hand and pulled you into him.

He craddled your face in his warm huge palms that always made you melt like it wasn't even a big deal at all and kissed your lips sweetly.

You kissed him back but pulled away quicker that shawn would have liked which caused a small pout on his perfectly soft pink lips and all you wanted to do was kiss it away so that's what you did but quickly reminding yourself that he thinks your a clingy hoe and pulling away again.

"Let me kiss my girl properly first" he said smiling at you and you'd be lying if you said it doesn't do things to you even if your upset with him. How could he do this?!? One time he's saying he hates you and now he's all over you as if he really is?!?

"I'm tired shawn I wanna take a shower" you said while planting the same fake smile on your face. He frowned at you and them pulled you into a hug and you only dropped your hands low...not embracing the hug.

"Want me to join?' he asked playfully smirking at you and it literally made you feel all sorts of way but you knew it was all an act and he just.. thought you were a hoe.

"No I'm really tired shawn" you said now turning around and walking to the bathroom with tears forming real quick in your eyes.

"Okay... baby I'll start preparing dinner then" he said and you didn't fail to pick up the hurt in his voice. But why??? He doesn't care at all!! What a great ass actor?!? Your seriously doubting if you dreamed all that. But nah...its real..he hurt you.

You took a long ass shower washing yourself and feeling all your emotions get warmed up by the warm water and you just...started crying. You cried silenty under the shower where one couldn't distinguish tears from water. Maybe you were clingy. But that's only because you love him but why would he call you a HOE!?! Why?? Why would he disrespect you like that?? After 3 years of relationship, was your love for him making you look like a hoe??

After you got out of the shower, usually you would've just put on one of Shawn's hoodies and then go chill on the couch but today you just.. couldn't bring yourself to wear his clothes. So you put on one of your band t-shirts and some shorts and walked to the kitchen where Shawn had already prepared and put out dinner on the table and was waiting for your company.

He came to you with a toothless smile on his face which quickly dropped by half when he noticed you weren't wearing one of his clothes..but he didn't let it bother him that much or let's say... tried to act like it didn't bother him as much as it did. You still noticed it though..and it gave you a weird feeling.

He hugged you which again you didn't return.

"You smell so good!" He said pulling away from the hug and you gave him your half assed fake smile AGAIN.

Shawn was fully aware that something was wrong but he thought you'd tell him while having dinner.

He led you to the table and pulled the chair out for you like he always did and you both sat down to have dinner.

Awkwardness was all around the table.

You did not talk at all and even though shawn tried his best and asked you stuff to get you to talk about what's wrong or let's say..make it less awkward, all your replies were just..yes, no and silence.

After dinner you washed your plate and mumbled a goodnight that didn't feel like it was to ANYONE and went to sleep.

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It went like this for a few days.. you being extra awkward to Shawn and purposely avoiding him and distancing yourself from him and being really down. He was really sad and hurt and frustrated because he would ask you whats the matter and you would either tell him "nothing" or just shrug your shoulders. You didn't even look him in the eyes anymore. Shawn was really really confused and even more worried.

Well how could you talk to him?!? After all he called you clingy and annoying which means he doesn't want you around and also he called you a hoe.

One day Shawn came back from the studio and saw you reading a book on the couch. A small smile creeped on his face knowing that you were reading some sort of romance novel.

"What are you doing?" He asked while coming and sitting next to you.

You were pretty lost in the book so you did not see him coming in.

"Oh just a stupid book haha... I have to get back to work now.." you said and got up to leave only to walk two steps and stop at the mention of your name.

"Y/n" you turned around to see Shawn now standing up from the couch with a very hurt look on his face.

"I don't know why but I noticed that you've been purposefully avoiding me for a few days..why are you doing that?? What did I do??please talk to me.." He asked now looking straight into your eyes and you could see right in his eyes that he was hurt.

"What? I don't know what your talking abou..-!" You were cut of by Shawn showing his palm infront of your face.

"Y/n stop...you know what you've been doing.....Is it me?? Did I do anything wrong?? Please talk to me.....you can always talk to me you know" he said now reaching for your hand but the moment his hand touched you you shook it away and backed off like he attacked you or something.

Shawn looked at you as if his heart just broke.

"No shawn..you should've thought about that before calling me a clingy, annoying hoe" you said for once and stormed in your bedroom slamming the door shut.

Shawn followed right behind you and got the door shut right on his face.

"What are you talking about-!? I- I-..! Dont understand! I never called you any of that!" Shawn said now leaning on the door.

"Stop fucking lying shawn I heard you talking with connor and Brian that day and you called me all those things!!" You barked from the other side of the door.

"Shit! Baby I can explain! Please open the door for me! I swear I didn't mean for you to hear it!" He said now banging on the door.

"Of course you didn't! And Explain what?!? That I'm being delusional and maybe even say some half assed lies?? How did I ever believe that you love me?!? Maybe I am clingy...But you called me a hoe!!"

"No baby please listen! I know it would've sounded so very wrong but just wasn't being serious! We were just joking around and I said that" he tried to explain and it did not even harm a hair of your anger.

"Haha what are you saying shawn?! That would never convince anyone! Try harder with your lies and leave me the fuck alone!" You said.

"Baby please believe me.. you are the most gorgeous and amazing women I've ever met and I could never ever say such things about you! I love you! Please believe me!" He said with tears threatening to spill from his eyes.

"I wish I could believe you shawn..but I actually heard this with my own ears.." you said.. now wiping your own tears.

"Please open the door for me I will explain it all please just...hear me out!" He said now bringing his hands to his face to catch the spilling tears.

You opened the door to him kneeling on the floor. You sat next to him resting your back on the wall.

After a few seconds he came and sat next to you..... Both of you staring at whatever that was ahead of you.

"Explain" you said.

Shawn wiped his tears and started talking.

"So...that day..you went to work and connor and brian came over and we were chatting on the couch and you know how connor loves you and me together like he ships us so hard haha so me and Brian were just pranking him and joking around so I just said I don't like you to prank connor....it sounds so fake...I know but that's the truth..I should've never said that..even if it was a joke I'm so sorry baby. You can even call Brian or Connor right now and ask them if you don't believe me " he said

By now you felt almost dizzy..you're so dumb!! 😬..you were making such a huge ass deal about this. OMG you're so stupid!! Wtf?? How could you be so stupid?? Like..all of this would've never happen if you just opened your mouth and talked to your boyfriend!!!!

"I..-! I'm sorry" you said, looking at Shawn who was already looking at you.

"I'm so so sorry baby I thought you didn't love me anymore I mean..I know I'm not that good looking and you could basically have any girl you wanted and I just-! I'm so sorry!! Ya know I always am terrified that one day I'll wake up and you don't love me anymore and I just-.... I should've just talked to you about this. Shit! I'm so stupid this is all my fault!!" You were full on crying right now and shawn just pulled you to his chest while you cried.

"Hey Don't say that!! You're the most beautiful girl I've ever laid eyes on and I can't even imagine living a life where you hate me and it's okay bubba I mean..if I was you this is exactly how I would've acted but from now on ..please talk to me if I did something that upsets you....I hate it when we cry" shawn said cracking a small smile.

"I'm sorry again" you said pouting your lips only for shawn to grab your face and kiss your frown away replacing it with a genuine smile, Something that has been lacking from your face for the past few days.

"It's alright now do you wanna make dinner or get Mc Donalds??"

You smiled at your sweet boy. He already knew the answer.

"Mc Donalds it is!"

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themoonisalwayschanging · 4 years

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Do you trust me? requested

REQUEST: Can you write about a female reader who meets Ashley and she just sees right through her, like the real her. It's about the first time they have sex and the reader is really self-conscious but ashley makes her feel really safe, and secure?

As I stand in the middle of the crowded room, alone, I curse Teagan under my breath for leading me here once more, she swore she wasn’t going to disappear, yet once again is nowhere to be seen. I text her repeatedly, hoping she tells me where she is so I can get my keys from her purse to leave.

Teagan is obsessed with Hollywood parties. She has been talking to some actor on instagram for a while and he invited us (her) here, while I came to make fun of all the Hollywood clichés together, she uses her time to hook up with the stars.

People all around the room are dancing, high couture and expensive alcohol. A drunk guy that was making out with Teagan earlier pushes me to make his way to the bar and I follow, resigned since Teagan won't text me back.

The bar is almost empty, there are a few guys on the side, shouting as one of them is drinking tequila shots nonstop, next to me there’s a girl playing with the straw in her drink, she is wearing a short skin tight silver dress over her body covered in tattoos and when I take a sit next to her she turns around and smile. She has deep hazel eyes, her nose is covered in freckles and her hair is long and black.

“having fun?” she asks ironically before sipping from her glass. She somehow fits here perfectly though, in this party and with this people, even when she is sitting here all alone. I realize she is someone important, probably famous, but I can’t tell who.

“You have no idea” I reply sarcastically. She offers me her glass and I doubt. She drinks again, showing me there’s nothing weird in it.

“bourbon” she says and I accept her glass, sipping slowly. “I´m Ashley” she offers me her hand playfully and I shake it. Her voice is beautiful, it sounds familiar, it's soft and raspy.

“nice to meet you Ashley, I’m y/n” she smirks and I feel my legs getting weak, she is extremely beautiful.

“Why are you here all alone?” Ashley wonders playing with her hair. The guys that were shouting seem to be over it now, and despite the whole party scenario, this corner is quite quiet, enough for us to speak without screaming.

“Ugh, my friend is nowhere to be seen and she has my keys, so I’m stuck here. Why are YOU here all alone?” she laughs, gosh her laugh is so cute.

“I hate coming to these things, but my friends are having fun” she says pointing to a group of people dancing on the side “at least I get free alcohol, right?” Ashley calls the bartender and orders two shots, she handles me one and I lift it up, she offers me a toast, laughing, “to the shitty party that led me to meet this beautiful girl” I blush and clash my glass against hers, Drinking all of the content inside of it.

After some time, Ashley leads us to the backyard and we spend all night talking.

“What do you do for a living?” she asks me eventually as we are sitting side by side with our feets inside the enormous pool that decorates the backyard of the house. She has been acting flirty since we started talking but I try not to get my hopes up since she seems to be too gorgeous to see me like that.

“Oh, I have nothing to do with all the people in here! I work in a small bookshop downtown and I’m majoring in English literature” she smiles widely “what do you do for a living? You seem to fit in here perfectly” Ashley laughs again.

“I'm a singer, I don’t go by Ashley though, Halsey is my stage name” She says this with a deep sigh, as if saying this was both relieving her from a burden and also scaring her. it took me a bit to realize what this meant, of course I knew Halsey, this confession startled me since I have plenty of her songs on my playlist, but I didn’t recognize her voice before.

“Oh my god, of course I know Halsey! You are so talented” she moves uncomfortably in her chair and when I notice I add “but I like Ashley better” she bites her lip and moves her hand on top of mine.

“so, do you like Ashley?” she asks and I realize the weight in my words. I nod, she smirks, leaning into me and I close the gap between us, kissing her eagerly, when we pull away she holds me and we spend the rest of the party talking and stealing kisses from each other in that backyard.

The night ends too fast, she asks me for my number and Teagan appears after what seems ages, she looks confused as she clearly recognizes Halsey in the first look but I introduce them anyway. When we left I was never expecting to ever hear from her again, she’s gorgeous and successful while I’m just not pretty in comparison, but a day later she asks me out again. We go to have dinner at a beautiful restaurant, and then another date and then one more.

Since she has been the one inviting me to all of these dates, I decided to take the lead for once, inviting her over to my place for dinner and to watch some movies she has been telling me I MUST watch since the first time we met. I told her she can sleep over and she happily agreed.

I'm good at cooking, so I take care of the food, making homemade pasta, her favorite. I finish the food by 7, she is coming over at 8. I set the table and wait for Ashley putting some comfortable clothes on, though it is true that I was still trying to look pretty for her.

I wore my hair down, a pair of Nike pink short shorts and a white tee, I couldn't help myself but wear cute underwear, just in case since all of our dates have limited to making out sessions, mostly because of me, since I have been quite insecure in this topic, especially considering the way Ashley looks and the way her exes do compared to me.

She arrives early, bringing a bottle of my favorite red wine with her. She kisses my lips briefly when I open the door for her and I invite her in. She is wearing grey leggings and a basic and tight shorts sleeve that ends mid stomach, fuck, she looks amazing. She moves around my place, my apartment Is small and its walls are mostly covered in books, she stops to read the titles and smiles with some of them.

“would you lend me one, pretty please? your choice” I nod walking up to where she is standing, she smiles.

“of course ash, what about this one?” I move in front of her grabbing one of my favorite books, she sneaks her arms around my waist and drags me closer, she is shorter than me but she manages to rest her face on the crook of my neck and I smile.

“That one seems perfect” she leaves a kiss on my neck, I close my eyes for a second, she grabs the book from my hand and takes me out of my trance. Ashley removes herself from my body and makes her way to the small kitchen. I ask her to sit down in the living room so that we can eat while we watch whatever she wants to show me.

I prepare everything on the coffee table quickly while Ashley looks for the movie she wants me to watch, “Eternal sunshine of the spotless mind”. She stands up from the sofa and pours some wine on each of the two wine cups resting on the table in front of her, I place the last plate in front of her and she compliments my cooking skills, “oh my god, baby, this looks amazing” we put our plates in our laps and rest comfortably in the sofa, Ashley press play and we start eating.

We ate in a comfortable silence, occasionally looking over to each other, the movie was actually amazing and I understand why she insisted on watching it so much. When we leave our plates on the table once we are done eating, she motions me to come closer and I wrap myself around her, watching the film ending with my head resting on her shoulder. When the credits start, we both feel tired.

“So? What did you think? It's amazing isn’t it?” Ashley asks me excitedly, interested in my opinion.

“it was great honestly, which one are you going to show me now?” Ashley yawns and I giggle “Ash, baby, wanna go to sleep and we can watch whatever tomorrow morning?” she nods, smiling shyly.

“I am getting old so I’m sure I won’t be able to stay awake throughout the three hour movie that’s left” I get up and leave the leftovers of our dinner in the kitchen, Ashley following with the cups on her hands. I wash the dishes quickly as ashley hums to some song looking at the few photos around the place. She finds herself in one.

“Oh my god, when did you print this one? You look so pretty in it.” I laugh, a bit uncomfortable because she looks like a goddess next to me. It’s a photo we took last week when she drove me home after one of our dates. I am smiling widely and I look happy but she looks even better. “What?” She says when she gets not response, “I mean it, you’re gorgeous y/n”. I roll my eyes and walk her way, sneaking my hands around her waist and I shrug her off.

“Do you need me to prove it to you?” she asks, raising her eyebrows and grabbing my waist again half jokingly, but tighter this time. I freeze in my place under her strong gaze and she moves her hands slowly from my waist, up my back to my neck, where she moves my head so I'm looking right into her eyes. “Because I would like to do that” she adds, smirking and waiting for my reaction.

The truth is I have been over this scenario about a million times in my mind. Indeed the woman I'm dating must be the most beautiful woman on earth so it's just expected I´d fantasize about her a lot… However I can't help but get very self conscious when things escalate, I get afraid she might notice I am not as pretty as she seems to believe, because next to her, I'm definitely not. She notices I get lost in my thoughts and stares with a curious smile, I decide I might as well do as my body urges me too and surrender to the desire.

I move my face closer to hers, our lips almost touching and she closes the gap between them with a tender kiss. My hands find her face and I cup her cheeks allowing myself to let go for now, Ashley's smile grows bigger and she deepens the kiss, I oblige chucking softly at the sudden change in her mood.

“Can we move this somewhere else?” I ask, getting a little braver for a second, unconsciously biting my lip as I wait for her answer. She nods and asks me to guide her. Our lips meet again and I blindly guide Ashley into my bedroom. She takes control again when the kiss becomes rough and her hands find my ass. I let out the smallest moan and she smirks again, my body clearly reacting to her actions.

Ashley pushes me on the bed carefully next,she is on top as her lips make their way down to my neck where she bites and kisses getting some loud moans from me, her mouth moves to the sweet spot in my ear and to my collarbone before she starts kissing on the fabric of my shirt. She looks up to me asking for permission with her eyes “can we take this off?” I Nod and I help her take the shirt off, however, I notice my hands moving down to cover the newly exposed skin “why do you cover yourself in front of me?” Ash asks softly while leaving kisses down my collarbone to where my bra is “you're really beautiful y/n” her hands grab mines and she uncrosses my arms from over my body, again she kisses down where my arms are not covering me “I have never seen anyone as beautiful as you, Y/N, Do you trust me?”

I don't know if I believe her, I don't know if I’m the most beautiful girl she has seen, but i do know I feel safe under her touch, in her arms, in this bed and exposed under her gaze. everything it’s okay just because she's here “I trust you Ash” I say unclasping my bra reassuring my words.

Ashley compliments my body once again, staring at it as she takes off the bra I unclasped for her “is this okay?” she asks moving softly over my boobs. I moan in return and even though I see a cocky smile on her lips she is waiting for my permission before doing anything. I shakily answer a simple “yes baby” and she is kissing me again. Her tongue meets mine and the kiss feels desperate already as she hovers over my body.

Her lips move down again, except this time there's no fabric when her kisses descend. her hand grabs my boob and her kisses tease my neck until loud moans leave my lips. Her hands replace her mouth as she takes my nipples between her lips and I don't longer try to hold them back. I want to press my legs together to get some relief and Ashley notices my squirming movements. “What's wrong y/n?” she teases me “is everything okay?”

“Ash”

“hm? what baby girl” she asks, drawing on my ribs with her finger.

“Please Ash, I need you!” Ashley chuckles, I notice she's holding back from teasing me any further when her lips meet my neck again and she leaves a wet path down her hand meets one of my boobs and her lips the other; when she bites on my nipple, my hands go to her hair and I pull, earning a little groan from her and I need to push her head further down. Her mouth keeps moving eventually until she finds the hem of my underwear where she stops one more time to ask for permission. I am close to taking off what's left on me myself as I tell her once again I need her touch. She seems satisfied with my answer as she pulls my shorts off in a quick move.

Ashley uses her nails to scratch down my exposed thighs “Y/N, I love your body” she reassures me one again every few seconds. She is now kneeling in front of me, right in front of the place where I need her the most, and her fingers keep getting close to my sex all of her movements make me whimper in return. I attempt to close my legs once again due the impatience and she keeps them open and moves my panties to the side, touching my center.

“Oh baby, you are so wet for me” She says and I can only reply with a loud moan when her finger moves the wetness up to my clit and starts circling it slowly, I bite my lip to stop the sounds I'm making and she stops.

I am about to complain as she pulls my panties down and ties her hair in a ponytail in a second. each of her palms rests on a thigh and she then holds them in place when she tastes my entrance with her tongue. I grab her left hand from my thigh as she pleasures me, intertwining our fingers. Her tongue persistently moves to my clit, and her free hand moves to my entrance once again, eventually introducing one finger.

I cry out loud, pulling her hair carelessly, and she picks up a slow pace with her finger, matching it up with the movements from her tongue. “Oh, fuck!” I mumble in between gasps. She hums, sending vibrations through my body, signaling she is proud of the reaction she is getting from me.

She introduces another finger when I start to get used to the feeling of the first one, her movements are fast and steady now, and her tongue keeps teasing me. I notice the way my walls start to clench around her fingers and so does she.

“Come for me, princess” she says, moving her fingers to my clit and her lips to my entrance.

In no time I feel the orgasm hit me, hard. I scream her name as I climax, as if I was thanking her for it. When I come down from my high, I see Ashley licking on her finger that was inside of me before. Her eyes find mines and she smirks.

“Here, wanna taste yourself?” She brings her fingers to my mouth and I suck, feeling my own juices on her fingers “You are very sweet” she continues, seductively and proceeds to kiss me on the lips. I kiss her back, moving her underneath me and straddling her, the wetness in between my legs leaving a little spot on her clothes. Her hands rest on my ass when we kiss.

Her short tshirt leaves her abdomen exposed when I push her back in the bed and I move my hands underneath the fabric, slowly, my hands right under her breasts and our lips break apart again. My hands stop moving and my lips go to her neck.

“Can I?” I ask whispering in her ear. Her grip on my ass tightens and she nods.

“yes, please” she smirks.

Part two?

Please send your requests!

#halsey imagines #halsey fan fiction #halsey smut #fanfic #smut #gxg smut #halsey #halsey edit #halsey x female reader

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almaasi · 5 years

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reaction post typed while watching JIBcon videos (part 1 of ?)

Cockles panel

in which Misha still has an unapologetic pee kink and Jensen is way more submissive than I remember him being

03:44pm (may 24th nz)

i legit don’t know if i have the energy to watch and type about this but i’ll try. might pause and come back a different day if i need to

watching this first

“JIB10 - Jensen Jared and Misha panel part1″

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=fRPKIAeNoFA&ab_channel=thiniassk

03:54pm

needed a break already but hi i’m back feeling less sick

LET’S BEGIN

03:55

misha: “he was like “let’s do this”... and i went on stage and... jensen went to the bathroom”

pfft

FINAL JIBCON??? OH NO??????????? OH NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO

;n;

i’m sad now

danella: “some issue backstage, we don’t talk about what happens backstage”

misha: “did he not MAKE it to the bathroom?”

misha !!....

mishaaaaaaaaaa

i wanna squish his face between my hands and just sigh lovingly

kinky little asshole, i love him

seriously he’s been on stage less than three minutes, jensen’s not there, and he’s already pulling stories out of nowhere implying that jensen pissed himself

i can’t even

04:02pm

https://youtu.be/fRPKIAeNoFA?t=2m54s

jensen: “do you need help?”

his voice is so gorgeously deep and warm

misha: “do you need a pair of dry pants?”

i can’t think of words but

//clutches my head and whines

does jensen have context? does he just get on stage and the first thing he’s asked is whether he needs fresh pants??? whY DOES HE THINK MISHA IS ASKING

jensen: “i’m not wearing any pants”

THEY

ALL THEY DO IS FLIRT

04:08

this was such a soft and submissive hug??????????/ jensen just??? slid up and???? aWWWH

AND THEN HE JUST

“I LOVE YOU”

RIGHT OFF THE BAT

OKAY

OKAY I’M ON BOARD

GIVE ME MORE OF THIS X10000

jensen: "and there’s a reason i haven’t told you that today”

misha & jensen: “”’cause you/I don’t”

STOP THIS

jensen: “I’M KIDDING”

CEASE AND DESIST

misha: “about what”

EXACTLY

misha looks at jensen like., oh man. :c he laughs after but he’s a tiny bit jilted there. love is always a joke ;<

but also misha gets it, jensen’s a wee bit awkward in front of an audience but he’s MAKIN’ AN EFFORT DAMMIT

04:14

they’re sitting so close

jensen: “alright, driver, what are we listening to?”

DID HE JUST

(i mean, driver picks the music, shotgun shuts his cakehole, obviously)

jensen just gave misha the driver’s seat

he’s so goddamn submissive????? i just

i haven’t watched or seen anything with fresh jensen in like. months. MONTHS. maybe a full year since the last jibcon. and i completely forgot he was like this

especially with misha

i know i often interpret dean as submissive but actually?? in comparison to jensen those lil occasional traits are nothing. jensen’s just openly and unapologetically putting misha in charge with words and with the way his body moves

he’s so soft.

SO soft.

and when misha doesn’t answer for a few seconds, jensen looks over, first into his eyes, then down to his lips, checking his expression

misha was kinda stiff before but he got stiffer, ponderous

i honestly, HONESTLY didn’t think i’d be analysing body language this time round but i can’t help it, its so obvious to me, more obvious than it ever is with ANYONE else

these two just give off MASSIVE signals, all the time. maybe because they’re actors and they’re not currently acting, but are performing their own selves, so they perform a heightened version of their personality. but there’s so much to see

plus like. you can see in the background how jensen holds the mic. both protective and phallic at the same time. flirty and nervous and relaxed

and THEN MISHA SAYS “we’re listening to the song “why are there so many songs about rainbows”

everything is not-so-secretly gay

this is a rainbow bullet train heading for rainbow city and there’s no stopping it

04:26

https://youtu.be/fRPKIAeNoFA?t=5m5s

misha pushed the mic down to whisper to jensen, then jensen’s like “no~. no~!!” and then flirty and winky and “teeease”

WHAT DID THEY TALK ABOUT

maybe about how far they wanna go on stage idk. THIRD BASE MAYBE

or how much of season 15 they can talk about

either way misha was tryna keep it private and jensen was literally broadcasting his answers into the mic. jensen is 100% an exhibitionist.

you know what, i love that look he gets in his eyes when he’s flirting with misha in front of people. you know the look. dark eyed, uncontrollable smile, head set a little down. really open shoulders, probably swaying hips, if he’s standing. ugh i love that

but like. i’m pretty sure he flirts different if nobody’s watching. i think if nobody’s watching (or if he doesn’t realise people are watching) he’s just a regular guy talking to his best friend/wife. except his wife is sometimes misha. some of that big smile, definitely some unnecessary touching and preening and back-of-neck-holding

the crazy thing is i’m essentially making that up, but we all know his movements and behaviour with misha so well i don’t think any of us would struggle to imagine it was true

idk

04:37

i will never get tired of seeing them lay their heads on each other’s shoulders

also sidenote: in my opinion this is the best beard + haircut combo jensen has ever had

04:39

jensen: “misha......... what’s your latest dad joke?”

jensen: “we’re telling stories about CARPOOL now”

i love that they already know each others’ stories and jensen’s like OOH THIS STORY and comes back to sit down to listen

04:41

crowd: “we love you misha”

jensen: “thanks, misha’s mom!!!”

and then he looks at misha so softly and so lovingly, he’s not joking any more, he just loves misha as much as the rest of us, maybe more

someone called “we love you jensen” but he didn’t react at all because he was appreciating misha, didn’t even blink

(also as i re-read this post i realise he said “misha’s mom” in a way that’s like “hey stop flirting with him, he’s mine” not in a “dear misha’s mother, thank you for giving us misha”)

jensen: “you speak in more puns as a dad. yeah~”

the way he says that with a smile and a nod. like he observed that in misha and also in himself maybe

but he just finished misha’s sentence

they are MARRIED

but i for one ADORE puns and even if i was the only one in my year 10 economics class who laughed at my teacher’s puns i STAND BY THAT LAUGH

“when salmon spawn in a stream, and then they die, and an otter eats the carcass”

HE’S TALKING ABOUT HOW HE MAKES MORE PUNS NOW

AND HE’S RELATING IT TO THE CIRCLE OF LIFE

MY LOVE FOR HIM GROWS BY THE HEARTBEAT

04:48

there we go, hand on the back of the neck/shoulder

THE FIRST QUESTION WAS “can you maybe take a sip of the apple juice”

GET DRUNK !!!

AND THEN MAKE OUT !!!!

yes please

jensen looks at misha checks with him, and then says “no!!!!!”

because he knows flirting will happen

BUT THEn MISHA

GETS UP

GET THIS BOY DRUNK

HELL YEAH

nesnej is much flirtier and we all enjoy it

but like. jensen said no but then he shuts his eyes and shakes his head when misha gets up, knowing what’s gonna happen. ‘cause like. he could say no again. but he already consented to misha leading this thing, right? and if misha hands him a drink he’s gonna drink it. that’s just what’s gonna happen.

and he knows misha’s not getting up just to get himself a drink. there’s something very specific about getting jensen drunk. he knows what he’s like drunk. and so does misha.

i just need to enjoy for a moment how jensen’s vehement resistance to getting himself a drink is immediately completely overridden by misha’s choice to get a drink for him, and jensen gives zero argument. the moment misha moves jensen’s gives over to knowing he’s gonna get tipsy

i have literally never in all my life seen anyone as easily and happily submissive as jensen is with misha

05:00

HE COULD SAY NO. HE COULD SAY NO

BUT MISHA DOESN’T EVEN FORCE HIM HE JUST OFFERS IT AND SAYS NOTHING

AND JENSEN GOES “awww mannnn” buT THEN TAKES IT with an “alright~” before he’s even done complaining. as though the complaints were all a farce to begin with and he was eager to say yes?? maybe he likes being drunk and flirting with misha, no surprises there. maybe the look he gave misha before saying “no!” was a permission look saying “yes but only if you make me”? they clearly communicate a lot unsaid, i wouldn’t be surprised by that either

i swear to god this is a sex scene. i’ve written this but with water instead of booze. nobody can convince me they don’t do this in private, drink a lot so they need to pee and get drunk and flirty. *o*

and i am kind of reeling right now. i should sound like i’m making this up but OH BOY THE WAY THEY TALK. THE WAY MISHA OBSESSES WITH PEEING (and has done so consistently for years, especially with jensen). THE WAY HE JUST HANDS JENSEN AND DRINK AND JENSEN TAKES IT. misha wants jensen flirty and REMEMBER THAT TIME HE WAS DIRECTING AND HE MADE JENSEN DRINK THE SAME DRINK ON CAMERA 20 TIMES OVER

jensen watches misha drink first

and then he drinks

i’m so wrecked by all of this right now

legitimately

their energy is so sexually charged??? and so comfortable and so loving

this is not at all the same aggressive sexual energy jensen brings to the stuff we see in the gag reel, i.e. “pranks” i.e. flirting. but it has equal magnitude imo, it’s just quieter because he’s being himself, not dean (and jared’s not there)

misha knows jensen so damn well and even that bullshit about whether or not jensen loves him was understood to mean “i do but i’m self-concious about being firm about it in front of an audience” and then jensen shows his love instead of saying it (but even then he made a point of saying it straight away)

but oh LORD the biggest thing i’m getting from this so far is that jensen is indeed misha’s princess-slash-cabin boy. and we should never ever doubt that misha used those terms in an affectionate, dominant sort of way. (on the one hand i’m wary about the use of a ~feminine~ term as a means of domination, in general, but on the other hand, I AM SOOO INTO IT for them specifically. maaaay have written "princess” into a destiel fic that one time)

anyway where was i

oh yeah jensen just agreed to get drunk because misha wants him to

05:25pm

you know what, i’m gonna stop here and come back maybe tomorrow. i didn’t finish this video yet but there’s still a part 2 of this panel, and then other panels and i’m definitely not getting through them all today, these last 11 minutes of footage have taken me almost 2 hours to watch

i’ll post more of my reactions under #Elmie watches things so ... stay tuned!!

#Cockles #Misha Collins #Jensen Ackles #Elmie watches things #jibcon #post of postiness #the kink that must not be named #submissive!Jensen #body language #my Cockles meta

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nvrissa · 5 years

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hello laid ease and furries ( u know who u are )......hahaha....are u ready for this ? zimzalabim ! my name is xan ( she/her pronouns ) and my laptop has been broken for a good 3 years now i have to use an onscreen keyboard so if u see me typing for 20000 years on discord only to send u a single sentence u know whats up x JSDBJWBJW here is the intro....im really winging this no one call me out for that WOOO....tw: medication, mental health, body image ? perhaps just to be safe <3

ok ! so im not gonna talk too much abt family stuff bc yuno and i are doing the collab of the century here and art takes time people ! JSBDJBWDJW but so u get a good idea...i will write a little abt it lets get it

so the kwons were two of the biggest faces in hollywood ( and tbh they are still considered icons / hollywood royalty no matter how old they get they stay #Relevant ) think bradgelina ! literally everyone knows who the kwons if u dont u probably live under a rock /:

their parents are very into the fame thing...so when it came to their kids ( nari and wolfe ) they SUPER pushed the famous life onto them, really expecting both of them to be just as obsessed and enamored by the public. idk if u guys ever say that vid of gigi and bella hadid before they were huge were their mom was pressuring them both to get into modeling and to stay skinny and to be stars etc....it was kinda like that !

so narissa, being the first born, really just internalized that shit...like imagine being told ever since u were a baby that fame and status and ur last name are wildly important and not being able to remember a time when u werent being watched by cameras / a third party ( the public ) bc that was her life ! nari has....no experience as to what life is like without cameras and without having to create this image of herself that ppl are gonna be into

obviously that’s NOT normal....and it had it’s toll on her /: as a kid she grew up so fast like u know those kids that seem so mature and wise for their age ? that was nari. she always had two versions of herself: inside nari vs outside nari. she was so good at being good just bc she knew what stuff to express and what stuff to keep inside ( spoiler alert: most of it was kept in x )

she is still very much desperate to please her parents despite it all /: i feel like for a long time she kinda excepted and agreed that fame is everything ( hence why shes known for using her last name to get her places ) but shes starting to realize just how FUCKED it all is and just how much it’s messed her up so stay tuned for more fun !

ok so career stuff ! nari started off as a child model bc she was um super cute and super good at knowing what to do / not freaking out in front of cameras <3 but she was always obsessed with actors ! she used to sit in front of the tv for hours legit study and memorize ppls mannerisms and various movie lines.. she was literally always just quoting random lines / imitating various actors so often her parents were like ok word go act !

she landed her first role at 12 and it was a pretty huge role as a lead chara in a mini television series that revolved around a cast of kids ( think stranger things but not plot wise just how some of the mains were kids ) with zero acting experience before hand ... so it was pretty clear to the media nari got the spot bc she was a kwon ! there was a bunch of controversy around the show before it came out but once it was released...there was no denying nari had talent

after that it was just a whirlwind of acting doors opening up for her. everyone wanted nari bc of her last name and all the attention that came from it, not to mention every director wanted to be The One that helped narissa kwon become one of the most famous actresses of the 21st century. most of the time she was getting cast for selfish reasons but nari never realized it /: she was just happy to be acting bc it really was like therapy for her to become different ppl

flash forward to age 15 when narissa was finally diagnosed with generalized anxiety disorder and was prescribed meds to help ! it was actually a director from a movie she was working on that suggested to her parents nari might be struggling after witnessing her have a panic attack on set. not wanting a scandal, her parents agreed it was best to get her “help” which included pills and weekly therapy !

so nari actually didnt mind it too much tbh she HAD been struggling for a while she just assumed her anxiety was normal and just like something all famous ppl were dealing with but that wasnt the case. she was hesitant to open up to her therapist just bc she was still obsessed with this idea of inside nari vs outside nari, and she was very scared to cross that line so it took....years of sessions to build up that trust

as she got older though and as she got more famous, everyone just assumed she was better. she was more famous and loved by the day, she had become a chanel ambassador ( thank u jennie x ), her interviews on youtube always brought in record views, she’d started in plenty of movies critics agreed would become cult classics, her social medias were nearing kardashian level in terms of followers: everything was on track....

....except nari had actually never been more unstable. she had become so dependent on her meds she couldnt go anywhere or talk to anyone without popping a few in. all the watching eyes were starting to make her paranoid, not to mention the pressure from her parents ( who couldn’t be happier with nari being so famous ) was at its all time high. she had been nominated for an oscar at 21 and everyone was expecting her to win...and then she didnt

narissa kwon famously fainted at the 2018 oscars after it was announced she had lost the award. her actual fainting wasnt caught on camera or televised, but it WAS witnessed by some of the most relevant names and faces in hollywood who were in that room. the scandal took the media by storm, the hashtag #getwellnarissa trending for over 42 hours until a statement was released she had fainted bc of dehydration and other undisclosed causes and that she was okay & currently taking it easy at home surrounded by family

in reality it was the abuse of her medication as well as all the stress, but when your last name is kwon manipulating the press is as simple as making the right phone call. unfortunately for nari and her parents, the article about the brat pack came out a week later, and there was no manipulating that source /:

for narissa, it was all a wake up call. she decided to go off her anxiety meds altogether. after falling out with the brat pack she spent that year trying to figure out who she was separate from her fame and her last name. despite some offers from a few casting directors ( surprisingly some people still wanted her despite the scandals bc she was still a kwon, after all ) narissa rejected every role except one in a coming of age indie movie that explores womanhood and mental health as well as strained relationships with mothers. the movie is set to release sometime mid august hehe (~:

she agreed to come to milan to reunite with the brat pack bc she’s still searching for herself ! nari figures the people who quite literally grew up with her might give her some answers......not to mention there is still a part of her who is desperate to reclaim the image and status she had before everything fell apart </3

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narissa is....complicated to say the least. growing up in front of the cameras and in a family who prioritized fame and outside opinions of you as the most important thing, she is quite literally desperate for praise and approval. because she legit has no idea what parts of her are real and what parts of her she’s created for her public persona, she often looks for understanding in others!! shes very very good at analyzing people and understanding people in the hopes that its gonna make her better at analyzing herself, but to no avail.

libra sun capricorn moon !! THIS is super accurate and telling if u wanna read but i kinda just summarized it in the last bullet

she is such a perfectionist with everything she does and a bit of a control freak in the sense that if she’s not the one doing something, she doesnt have faith whatever that is will be able to live up to her unrealistic standards. directors are often concerted with nari bc whenever she gets big roles.....she is so hard on herself, often asking for take after take bc she monitors every little thing abt her expression or her movements. she’s often left frustrated and disappointed with herself bc again, her standards are SUPER unrealistic ):

she’s relatively sweet!! growing up with the brat pack they probably knew her as the life of the party, very bubbly, confident, and very easy to have fun with as long as you’re being tolerable. however, she can get kind of opinionated at times so it’s very hard for you to gain her trust and respect back if you lose it. she’s also prone to random mood swings / periods of isolation, but whenever she returns its with a big smile and a soft voice assuring you everything is okay

very good at lying and deceiving ppl but she hardly ever does it on purpose ( unless her publicists asks her too ). she’s carried this persona / public image of herself curated for consumption from others for so long, sometimes she has no idea when she’s being sincere or if she’s just convincing herself she’s being sincere. most of the time she only deceives other people about herself. she can come across as kind of elusive because of this ( think daisy from gatsby’s perspective ) but it’s not on purpose. she just legit has no true sense of self isnt that sexy?

speaking of sex. JWDBJWBDJWBD she also uses that as a coping mechanism / a weird affirmation that yes, she IS wanted by others and yes she IS seen as someone beautiful and that she IS something to be consumed by others ( like i said in my tags....male fantasies male fantasies ) but then at the same time she feels guilty abt this and so unsatisfied and disgusted at how she’s living her life as an object / manifestation of other people’s projections rather than as a normal person...rip </3 its a cycle

ever since her relationship with micah that was so hated by the public it actually ruined and ended their relationship, nari has been too scared to publicly have a relationship again. the media seems to love seeing her on casual dates with other stars, but not to see her tied down to one person, as that kind of “damages” this super accessible persona she’s put out ( think idols and why they cant date )

she loves poetry, french music, all of marilyn monroe and audrey hepburn’s movies, nonfiction essays abt womanhood and identity, anything chanel, is particularly fond of silk dresses but is partial to velvet as well, wears lacy bralettes under everything bc it makes her a little more confident, actually prefers large parties to small ones because small gatherings are more personal therefore give her more anxiety, would only eat fruit and drink champagne if she could live like that, doesn’t know how to swim so she’s scared of the ocean as well as the dark, used to study ballet as a kid and misses it terribly, doesn’t know how to drive and isn’t planning to learn, can be materialistic at times, is probably an introvert masquerading as an extrovert for 22 years now, the only movies she cant stand are westerns, loves to travel but is scared of flying, doesn’t drink coffee, and is allergic to nuts.

last but most important fact about narissa is that she loves her brother wolfe more than anything in this world so messing with him is the only way nari is bound to 100% hate you. she can bully him all she wants ( ex. starting very real rumors he IS in fact a furry ) but no one else is aloud to actually be mean to him or she will kill you

also very random but i had a hc that when she was 6 and her pet cat jinx died she caused enough fuss at home her parents actually made it a national holiday in about thirteen different states. the anniversary of this death is december 4th and yes . the brat pack better mourn jinx with nari every year......

pls spare plots im sorry this is so long.....JBDJBWJDBWJBWDJBJ i promise it will be worth it also im sensitive and very small ... how can u say no ?

#bratsintro #╰ ♡ . 𝒎𝒂𝒍𝒆 𝒇𝒂𝒏𝒕𝒂𝒔𝒊𝒆𝒔 𝒎𝒂𝒍𝒆 𝒇𝒂𝒏𝒕𝒂𝒔𝒊𝒆𝒔 ── ooc !#yes this tag is inspired by the margaret atwood quote....bc i am Literally haunted by it #so is nari x #also this gif ? inspired by her furry brother<3 #this intro is a whole mess pls . plot with me anyway ?#THIS IS RIDICULOUSLY LONG HOLY SJBWJBJWBDJW yea i...am so sorry oy my god

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even if nobodies gonna read this i just wanna share my”story” ..at least a fragment of it.

im 16, my first actual “attack” was the day before , when i was sleeping right next to my mom and suddenly got a though “what if i strangle her right now?”, u see i dont hate her, but nether do i love her...i can say this because thats just how it is, we dont have best relationship, she is controlling, obsessive, sickly religious, manipulative..those are just some of the traits..but of course i shouldnt want to kill her because of this right?..like im not that grate of a person myself...im hot headed , easly angered , i love ..oh god how much do i love saying hateful words towards her...it just makes me think ‘’yes yes make her hate u , u yourself know how disgusting of a person u are” ..but now that im looking at it those traits are at its extreme when im talking to her.

back to the actual event, as i said i twas sleeping right next to her, at first i was just thinking about human existence (yes this is strange and i will takkl about this too just a bit later” ) ... the though” what if i strangle her right now” wasnt just out of nowhere...i had thoughts related to this but nothing that extreme...but as i started thinking bout it harder i started shaking/shivering...then as i looked at her i started smiling like crazy...i didnt even feel bad for having this kind of thought...more like i didnt have time to feel bad. i was talking to myself in my head and like...at that time it hit me hard”” u are crazy arent u””how can u live on after havng this king of thoughts”” you’re going to go to school and look at your friends as if nothing happened?”” how can u even like someone after this?””..but most importantly at that time ..i was planning things out...like if i strangled her with my hands and then just slept like nothing happened ..thenn when u wake u u can make a scene out of this start crying and call your neighbors like nothing happened...u know youre a good actor and they will believe u...she just died in her sleep thats it.....but than i was like... what if they check it...like fingerprints and the cause of death..ill b discovered...but then i was like u can just pretend u dont remember anything..pretend u are “crazy” or like something else happened...i knew i could simply act out of anything and no one would suspect me.......

but thats not everything...i also thought about using scarf to choke her ...also about living with my cousins in a big house( me and my mom live alone in really really really small apartment..like its just one room...)...it was dream come true....worse...i even got that goddamned scarf and held it for quiet a while...i was still shaking and

nothing happened ..i dont know how but i got up and went to the bathroom...looked into a mirror gt back and looked at my mom...didnt even feel anything got into a bed and went to sleep with a thought” im crazy “

next day(yesterday) while getting ready for school i had only one thing in my head” u were going to kill your own mom : in school our first class was math...even there while sitting with my friends i was thinking about that night....and i didnt feel anything...i was kinda shivering so i went to my teacher and asked if i could go to the bathroom... i talked so quietly that she almost didnt hear what i said...and in the bathroom..i just set there...blank...staring nowhere..then got beck to class as if nothing happened...whole day was like that..normal...like nothing like that night happened and even if i tried to think about it everything was klnda blurred...like something was shielding that memory from me...when i got back home i still got that thought when i saw my mom...”what if i kill her for real tonight”.....but why.why. do i not feel bad for that i dont know....

i discovered that i had ocd(harm)..to be more specific pure o ....at least i have most of its symptoms...so.. know self diagnosing is bad and i should go see a doctor but i simply cant..i just cant do that right now....

this is not everything but i wanted to write this down..because im forgetting about it..that feeling..idont know what to do...am i just ling to myself?....pretending to be sick?.......i dont know i dont know i dont know i dont know

#ocd #harm ocd #pure o ocd #pure c #pi #pure o #mental disorder #health #obsessi #anger #mentally ill #panic disorder #help #self diagnosis #obsessive compulsive disorder

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My Top 10: Motivational Songs

I'm fairly new to the whole "Daily Motivation" thing, but ever since I've started it, it really has helped me. As someone who enjoys music immensely, in a myriad of genres, I have a tendency to make playlists to work to on YouTube.

The wonderful thing about YouTube is that, as long as you have an internet connection, be it at home, at the library, at school, or just as a wireless hotspot on your phone, you can enjoy all the music you want for free, though you can also find all the songs listed here on Spotify. So, to try to make your day a little more triumphant, without hurting your wallet, I thought I'd share some songs with you that often have helped me get through the day. I'm sure that you've heard many of them before, though you may find some new gems to get yourself up and going.

The first band I want to mention is My Chemical Romance. They are and always have been one of my favorite bands. Their message has always been one of hope and self-love. This song I want to share is no different. It has a bouncing beat that's wonderful to dance to, especially in a club-type setting, with a message that is important to the crowds that may gather in such a venue.

To me, the message behind the song has always been one of not letting yourself remain one of a massive number. Someone who blends in with the crowd. And not letting yourself be dragged down by people you consider friends or family who tell you to do the same. It's about standing up for yourself, being yourself, and if you don't fit into the place where you are, go exploring. Be adventurous and be who you wanna be, even if it takes you out of your comfort zone. Sometimes especially if it takes you out of your comfort zone. And to surround yourself with friends who are willing to support you, no matter what happens. The lovely thing about this band in general is that throughout their entire career, they were always sending the message that even if you didn't know the band members personally, they would always be there to back you up if you had no one else to do so. To support you through the bad times. Even the end screen to the video for their song "Teenagers" has a message featuring the Suicide Hotline just in case you're feeling lost and alone. To be honest, as much as I've always loved other music, this band really did get me through the angst-ridden teenage years that we all experience, and made that part of my life just a little bit easier. It still continues to do so today.

Song: Planetary (GO!) Artist: My Chemical Romance Album: Danger Days: The True Lives of the Fabulous Killjoys YouTube: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=UvfNmXbVHi4

Before I discovered My Chem, though, one of my friends introduced me to the essential modern punk rock experience known as Green Day. It all started with their album American Idiot, and then I backtracked through their earlier work from there. Though I don't have any of their older songs listed here, I can still say that my favorite album by them is Warning.

I chose these two songs because they give me the strength to keep going, even when I'm feeling down. They remind me to be who I want to be, and that even though times may be tough, I'm still breathing. I'm still alive. And I need to keep going.

I'll never forget the intro that singer Billie Joe Armstrong gave to "Holiday" on their concert DVD Bullet in a Bible. He shouted out to the crowd, "This song is not anti-American, it's anti-War!" An inspiring sentiment, and one that today still rings true, and to me, as I’m sure it is to many others, this song has always been one of satire, blatantly stating that though we may take a "holiday" from our day-to-day lives (the chorus), inevitably we must return to our capitalist, corporate, government-regulated lives and, in essence, are forced not to speak up for ourselves (the verses). Honestly, Green Day founded my love of punk rock and it doesn't matter if you listen to their older music, such as Kerplunk and Dookie, or their newer stuff, such as Revolution Radio, their message will always be a timeless one. Timeless, that is, until we, as a people, stand up and change things for the better.

Song: Holiday Artist: Green Day Album: American Idiot YouTube: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=A1OqtIqzScI

This next song reminds me of troubles that I've been through, troubles I'm still going through, and the troubles that we all go through in our everyday lives. But no matter what, here we are, still alive, still breathing, and still walking those streets. Still going to work, and school, and still interacting with those around us. It's those minute actions, the mundane ones of getting up, getting dressed, doing the things we need to do that sometimes, are the only things that are keeping us alive, and sometimes, that's okay. That's all we need until we find something better.

And sometimes it's that act of just keeping ourselves alive day after day that is in itself a call for help. A hand reaching out, waiting for someone, anyone, to come along and grab it, to pull us up. It can be a friend or family member, a coworker or authority figure, anyone, so long as it's genuine help. I think that like the end of the MCR's "Teenagers" video, this would be the perfect placement for the Suicide Hotline, just in case. And also like My Chem, sometimes, it's a band of magnificent people that you've never met that get you through the day just by playing the music that they do.

Song: Still Breathing Artist: Green Day Album: Revolution Radio YouTube: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=pnTZa4FY_7I

Continuing along the lines of 1) songs that make you feel that even though you are different, you matter; and 2) my top three favorite bands; let me introduce you to Steam Powered Giraffe. A quirky little band from San Diego, California where the entire band is made up of robots! Or rather, pantomime actors that play robotic characters who are themselves the band. That's not to say that they are auto-tuned though. Oh no. These wondrous thespians do all of their own make-up, vocals, and instruments, and even puppets!

The song I want to share with you can be easily explained in the official music video. It features fans of the band, and even the band itself if you look carefully, holding up signs stating what their "malfunction" is. What society looks down on them for. They range from the silliest, such as a smiling dog with the sign "Pitbull" to something serious, such as depression, anxiety, autism, or being transgendered. It's in listening to the song itself, and the representation on screen, in public media, that the band is conveying that even though you are considered flawed, you are not broken. You do not malfunction. You simply function in a different way, and that those who function normally, who are not “broken”, are uninteresting. Though, in making such a varied representation, the people are in fact showing that no one is perfect. Everyone has a little malfunction, a little quirk, that makes them who they are, and that's not something that is okay to laugh at or put down them down for.

Song: Malfunction Artist: Steam Powered Giraffe Album: Quintessential YouTube: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=BE01dViWqAM&t=18s

This song is another that I really enjoy from the female character in Steam Powered Giraffe, Rabbit. It's Rabbit when she's not Rabbit. It's Bunny as she normally is. This song is specific to her in that she is a transgendered woman, and that if only she were accepted as the way she wants to be, as a "she" rather than the "he" that she was born as (the silver robot The Spine is her identical twin brother), then she wouldn't care if they looked down on her. She wouldn't care that they didn't like her. She'd be happy to just be left alone to live her life as she saw fit. And that's all any of us ask for, truly. Just to be ourselves. To be accepted as ourselves. As the quirky, art/media-obsessed nerd that I am, I can absolutely relate, as I'm sure a lot of you out there could. There's no reason to be cruel to people just for being who they are, unless of course who they are is one of those... well, I'm sure you can fill in the blanks.

Song: Transform Artist: Isabella Bunny Bennett Album: N/A YouTube: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=irQClUTaWJA

Okay, and now let's pick it back up. Like "Planetary (GO)", "Victorious" by Panic! At the Disco is what I would consider a dance-like-no-one-is-watching song. Or dance with people watching. Who cares? The important thing is that you're having fun, and it's a great song to have fun to.

Maybe you've had a bad day, a bad week, a bad month, or even a bad year. Sometimes it's that moment of pretending like you didn't, that fake-it-til-you-make-it mentality, that keeps you going. And eventually, every so often, it works out so that you don't have to fake it anymore. That's what I think about when I hear this song. Celebrating what you can. What helped you make it through the day, even if it was the littlest thing. Because even if you have a lot go wrong in your life, focusing on what went right can help it seem more bearable. Eventually, you'll be able to take the bad and deal with it like a boss!

Song: Victorious Artist: Panic! At the Disco Album: Death of a Bachelor YouTube: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=AUChk0lxF44

Now, up until this point, I've mentioned bands that you may or may not heard of, but now it starts getting a little more obscure. Maybe. The following are bands made up of YouTubers. This first one isn't even sung by the guy in the title, but is rather an auto-tuned version of him by another band made famous by doing auto-tuned songs of YouTubers and other celebrities. But the result is still the same: An awesome song that makes you want kick the butt of anyone and anything standing in your way. This is one of my absolute go-to motivational songs, which just so happens to coincide with the singer's newly established motto of "Positive Mental Attitude!" No matter where you're going, no matter what you're doing, no matter how many setbacks you have or how many mountains you need to climb, don't stop halfway through, or you'll never get there. You need to go all the way!

Song: All The Way (Jacksepticeye Remix) Artist: Shmoyoho Album: N/A YouTube: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=BJPc49z57bU

This next band is one I found that, to me, is rather silly and ridiculous, and it hearkens back to my boy-band days, but it's really just a bunch of guys having fun and singing about their favorite video games. Four YouTubers, including the singer of the last two songs on this list, dress up as or are animated as their favorite classic title bosses. There's G-Cash (Ganon from The Legend of Zelda series), Ronik (Dr. Robotnik from the Sonic the Hedgehog series), Big Bow (Bowser from the Mario games), and Sephy (Sephiroth from Final Fantasy VII). By combining their strength and resourcefulness, they take out their heroes time and time again in this video, showing that no matter how many times someone tries to stand in your way, you can be the boss and take them down. Now, I'm not promoting villainy here, just self-confidence, something that I think we can all agree on needing every now and then.

Song: I'm the Boss Artist: Big Bad Bosses Album: Power Overwhelming YouTube: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=H841uTdr5S0

And finally, this last artist is one that I found through his covers of big name titles such as Green Day's "Holiday", Fall Out Boy's "Thnks fr th Mmrs", and, funnily enough, Chip Skylark's "My Shiny Teeth and Me." (Extra cookies to whoever gets that last reference.) But not only does he do covers of big name songs, on top of his personal work, but he does songs from television series and movies.

The first one I want to share is from the children's show Steven Universe. It is originally sung by one of the main gem characters, Garnet, who is a fusion of the two female gems Ruby and Sapphire. Yes, a lesbian couple, but since all gems from the gem homeworld identify as female, making Steven the only male gem, lesbian/polyamorous relationships are inevitable. One thing that the creator Rebecca Sugar has consistently gotten flack in the media for, both unsurprisingly and undeservedly. Steven Universe is by far one of the greatest children's television series to come along in several years, and it's not stopping anytime soon.

I think that for Nathan to do a cover of that song, and do it well, is a testament to how powerful a statement its message really is. It doesn't matter who you have in your life that loves you, and that you love, it's that love itself, that bond, that can be stronger than anything that crosses your path, and you can use it to its full advantage. It's that confidence in that relationship, that trust, care, and compassion that makes you so strong. And that strength can carry over into your environment, including your children, your parents, your friends, until no one gives you any grief for anything. Any petty argument saltily flung your way reflects off your ward of awesome and falls to the ground, invalid and useless.

Song: Stronger than You (from Steven Universe) Artist: Nathan Sharp (NateWantsToBattle) Album: N/A YouTube: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=GkVbucbpZiw

Finally, I want to share one of Nate's covers of a big name song: Shakira's "Try Everything" from the film Zootopia. The premise is simple: You never know what you like until you try it, and you'll never be good at anything unless you keep trying, so pick yourself back up, brush yourself off, and try again. They only way you're going to learn is by fixing the mistakes, so why not fix them? If it's something that you really want to do, or to be, then it takes vigilance, persistence, and hard work. Be Judy Hopps! Be the first bunny cop in the history of Zootopia! Be you! Just make sure that you're the best you that you can be.

Not that I think Shakira's version is bad, I think I just have a preference for deep voices. (The Spine from Steam Powered Giraffe does an amazing cover of Rihanna's "Diamonds"!) But seriously, if you haven't seen Zootopia yet, you definitely should. Like Steven Universe, it's one of the best options for children's entertainment to come out in a long time, without being exclusively for kids!

Song: Try Everything (from Zootopia) Artist: Nathan Sharp (NateWantsToBattle) Album: N/A YouTube: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=VoKpPBM7fas&index=91&t=0s&list=PLTK7jKjKw3NU1karAt6LJAVsgYgPC1iAJ

That's all I've got for you now. If any song on the list helps you in any way, or if you have others that you think would add to it, feel free to post them in the comments. Tell me what you think of these songs, or artists. And if you'd like just hear all them in order instead of individually, here's the link to the playlist I created: https://www.youtube.com/playlist?list=PLTK7jKjKw3NU4mnyMIqCm6nknV3FRLth_

Have a great day!

#My Top 10 #Music #Motivation #My Chemical Romance #Green Day #Steam Powered Giraffe #Panic! At the Disco #Jacksepticeye #Shmoyoho #Big Bad Bosses #NateWantsToBattle

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