#always fucking doing this!!!! ahhhh!!!!!!

[ilwonuu]

AHHHH IVE JUST FINISHED READING UR FIRST TIME WITH YEOSANG AND THE SAN VERSION!!! I AM IN LOVEEEE WITH THIS!!! I was also wondering if you could do a Jun version of this since I saw u also write for Seventeen! 🩷

oh my gosh thank you so much!! i’m so happy you enjoyed them,,,i would love to do a jun version,,,lmk what you think and thank you for requesting <3

first time

·.༄࿔ wen junhui

ೀ pairing- established relationship, nonidol!jun x fem!reader, softdom!jun x sub!reader

ೀ warnings- smut with no plot, fluff!!!, first time, dry humping, making out, slight blood, unprotected sex(he pulls out), dirty talk, pet names(angel,baby), jun is a sweetheart<3, they take a bath together after, they say i love you for the first time (yuck), lmk what else!!!

ೀ a/n- i was having WAY too much fun writing this. where’s my jun at 🙂

you and jun have never rushed into anything in your relationship. you met him a few years ago but only started dating him for 5 months. you two didn’t get intimate until 2 months into your relationship. you have gave him a couple handjobs, gave him head a couple times. he’s more shy about what he does to you but he has always offered which you agreed. he was quick to offer to eat you out once before which you both enjoyed very much. the casual fingers in between your legs as you two watch a movie. jun was shy but he wasn’t scared to not do it.

he’s had sex before. that made you a little nervous but you were ready. you two were making out in your shared bedroom. his hands were on your hips as you started to grind against him. his hands are big against your waist. you are already drunk on your boyfriends touch. “you’re so pretty.” he says in between kisses. “j-jun.” you moan out as he starts to move your hips faster against him. you throw your head back in pleasure when he starts kissing your neck.

“jun- p-please i need you to fuck me.” he pulls away from your neck to look at you. “what- are you sure?” you nod as you grind against him harder. “y-yes junnie- i need you so bad- i’ve been thinking about it so much.” you look at him nervously. “fuck- i need you to but i want to make sure you’re 100% sure.” he holds your waist tighter as you continue to move. “i’m so sure- i want you so bad jun.” you moan as you feel him get harder underneath you.

“okay- tell me if you start feeling unsure.” he smiles at you as he pulls you to kiss him. he hands are touching you softly. the fabric of your underwear and your boyfriends sweatpants being the only thing keeping you from each other. “i’m g-gonna cum jun.” your moans get louder as he helps guide you against him. “yea? cum for me. you’re so good for me love.” his voice so close to your ear sending shivers down your spine. “j-jun.” you cry out as your legs lightly shake.

“i know angel, feels so good. let go for me.” he leaves open kisses against your neck and your jaw. you move your hips with juns hands a couple more times as you come undone. “feels so good angel.” he whispers into your neck as you slowly move through your high. “you’re the prettiest thing.” he smiles at you innocently.

“can you fuck me please j-jun?” you sigh as you start to climb off his lap.

“i’ll give you whatever you want my love.” he moves off the bed as you lay back. “you’re so perfect.” he moves your panties down your legs in a swift motion causing you to blush. “gonna make you feel so good. god i can’t believe this is all for me.” he kisses your thighs as he smiles softly at you. his hands snake to your thighs as spread your legs a little. you reach down to take off your white knee high socks that he got for you but he stops you.

“keep them on you look cute.” you smile and nod as you’re left in just your (his) loose t shirt and your socks. “you don’t even know how crazy you’re making me right now. i’m so hard.” all of that shyness that jun is usually full with is gone when you’re alone and now you’re under him? he’s surprised he hasn’t came in his pants yet. your look so beautiful to him.

“jun hurry- i’m impatient.” he leans down to kiss you quickly before pulling his sweatpants. he wasn’t wearing any underwear so he easily pulled them off his legs. he moved in between yours legs before looking up at you. “are you sure you want this?” you nod grabbing his arms. “i need you jun.” you smile to yourself as you look at your boyfriend. you mentally thank yourself for taking his shirt off him earlier.

“okay okay.” he smiles at you before lining up with you. you suck in a breath as you look down between you. you feel him slowly push in looking up at you. your face scrunches in pain as he stills. “you okay baby?” he kisses your face trying to comfort you. “y-yea just feels a little weird- keep going.” you sigh as you try to relax your body. he pushes in a little more still not bottoming out yet. you knew jun was big but him being inside you- he just felt so much bigger. you whine a little at the slow pace. jun pushes in fully finally bottoming out.

“tell me when baby. i don’t want to hurt you love.” you nod as your try to not focus on the pain. “j-jun i think you can move.” he kisses your lips again as he slowly starts to move his hips. “jun- feels- fuck so good.” you don’t even remember the pain you felt shortly before.

“f-fuck i know angel. you’re so t-tight.” he groans as you nod with his words. his thrusts are slow because he’s scared ro hurt you. “faster j-jun.” you moan as you spread your legs a little wider. “s-shit are you sure love?“ he looks down at you a little. “p-please.” his hips start to speed up making your body jolt more. he grabs the shirt you’re wearing pushing it up so he can see your chest.

“you’re so pretty- fuck you’re taking it so good.” he groans as he watches your tits bounce with his thrusts. “j-jun- oh my god-“ you throw your head back as his mouth attaches to one of your nipples. his thrusts are quick but he’s making sure to be gentle with you. “you look so pretty like this. i’m gonna cum- can i come on your chest? please.” you nod as you feel yourself get closer to coming.

“jun- r-right there. f-feels so good.” your eyes shut as you melt into the pleasure. you cum hard under your boyfriend with a loud moan. “j-jun-“ he kisses your cheek. “fuck- love i’m coming.” he leans down to pull you into another kiss as he pulls out of you. he strokes himself a couple more times before he’s coming all over your chest. you whine at the unfamiliar feeling. he smiles at you as he kisses you again. “are you okay angel?” he asks you as he grabs something to clean you with.

“j-jun i think- there’s blood.” you look at him in slight fear as you see red in between your legs. “angel- let me get a bath ready for us. are you okay?” he asks you as you cleans you as gentle as ever. “y-yea i don’t feel pain or anything just scared me.” he nods as he runs to the bathroom starting a bath for you. he quickly comes back to your side as he helps you into the bathroom. you admit to feeing a little sore.

“i’m so sorry angel- was i not being gentle enough?” he helps you take your remaining clothes. he helps you into the bath before he climbs in behind you. he rubs your back as you sigh into his touch. “jun- no you were perfect. it was all perfect i just scared myself.” you lean back into his chest as cups water over you.

“okay- let’s just relax for the rest of the night yea? i got you my love.” he smiles as he rubs your thighs softly. “jun- i love you.” you blurt out breaking the short silence. he looks at you shocked but his expression quickly changed to a very happy one. “i love you even more.” he kisses your head holding you close in his arms.

#moon junhui #seventeen jun #seventeen junhui #wen junhui #junhui x you #svt junhui #junhui imagines #junhui fluff #junhui smut #junhui x reader #svt jun #seventeen #svt #svt fanfic #svt smut #svt imagines #svt fic #svt scenarios #svt fluff #seventeen fics #seventeen fanfic

[barkingangelbaby]

kill me kill me kill me kill me why did I stay up so late 😭😭💔💔💔

#always fucking doing this!!!! ahhhh!!!!!! #i miss being able to sleep in gahdamn #at least i love my job but :) i am not a morning person AT ALl #ALL* ew it looks so gross not all capitalized #save me almond milk mocha cold foam latte i WILL be getting in the am #bless n for driving me to work lmao im too tired in the mornings #rAMbles

[rainymoodlet]

alsace dieudonné is the name on my grave, boy. that does not make it mine. 🦇

#ts4 #ts4 screenshots #ts4 cas #ts4 edit #ts4 vampires #sim: alsace #there are so many spoilers i could give abt this guy but him appearing before he's supposed to is ENOUGH (bites cheek) #i've been spendin time on his pinterest board and lil baby gen 3 was just born and ooOOOO i am so excited!! #tjol gen 3 is going to be more story-based!!! bc i am just all abuzz with ideas for lil baby krueger :') #here is all i will give abt this man for now: he is older than vlad #much older - he's always Been. he existed before written history and now he is just Fucking Tired. forgotten hollow is hidden by magic and #veils of amnesia spells in my universe and he's decided to shack up there (at vlad's allowance - tho he's older than and technically outran #s* the old fart - think greg vs kristopher) to hide from the upstart vamps who'd kill him just for the honor #alsace dieudonne is not his real name :)))) #anyway dfkjhsfkj i love you all i'm so excited for more kmik and for my tjol updates :'))) #i hope you're all doing welll ~ #also his voice claim is 30000% kratos i'm sorry but i'm not rly #also i guess spoilers but baby gen 3 is a BOYYYYYY AHHHH IM SO EXCITEDDD

[stabbyfoxandrew]

me, rereading my writing:

#ahhhh currently knee deep in my mafia restaurant notes! #i love all my aus so much but i think i severely underestimated how long they were gonna get (like always) #i have sooo much planned and i am so excited to show yall! #like when/ if i get all my notes built up enough i wanna remove the One Each limit from wipw so i can go insane but... that will be a while #probably #unless i go batshit this weekend lmao #also i have Another au i really fucking want to start but it's barely even started at all. i have the beginning the middle and the very end #but no Guts for it. it involves andreil being... <whispers> mermaids. and i've been in love with it since i had the dream #and i wanna start doing the vampdrew/kevin prequel thing too! but idk when that will start either TWT #basically i'm excited! i have a reason to be alive! yippee #also i love you ok <3 #diaerie

[fangmich]

I never in my life saw unsented pads in a normal store and idk do people really love this fake flowery smell??

#moo i say #ahhhh fucking companies and their shite products #I always buy the unsented ones but I am all out and idk what to do

[backroadboy]

the thing is, I know it wouldn't change anything, but damn I really want to leave everything behind

#but i can't #because i still feel responsible for my siblings even tho they don’t really care #because they have their own lives #and i am here and i feel like I'm living a life i don't want to live and i am tired and i feel guilty for feeling tired #because there are people who are so full of love and light and they deserve time on this earth #i want to give them whatever i have left because fuck dude i always thought I'd die before i turn 30 #which is dumb because there is no reason just this little thing in my head telling me that's how it's going to be #and idk man i have wasted so much time being the responsible one but i have no idea what to do with myself #i need to feel useful and i need to be reminded that everything isn't about me and i just w– yeah j can't even say it #man...watch me unpack all of this while writing my stanford fic i guess #txt. #yearning for a home that never was and searching for a home that never will be #ahhhh #i am going insane

[mainfaggot]

I thought it was suspicious that I hadn't cried in 7 days. and then one minor argument with my mom led to a full blown screaming match and now im on the kitchen floor LOL

#im so predictable #suddenly it's like ahhhh the world is ending im a bad person it's all my fault I should've never been born #no im acting like a victim this is self victimization im self pitying but its true its all my fault why was i born #nothing i do will ever equate to my mother's sacrifices for me it would've been better for me to have died in the womb #if she knew back then how much pain i would eventually cause im sure she would have wanted the same #etc etc #i was mad at my mom but now im just so fucking sad and annoyed at myself #it always ends like this #i cant ever be mad at her i can only be sad that i exist #z.post

[cosmic-kaden]

*makes weird popping noises with my mouth*

#Sorry I haven't been super present the last 2 days. I have family court on friday and I always get on edge #even though it's an uncontested trail because dumbass ex literally messaged my lawyer and was like 'I can't participate because #I'm ''busy'' with criminal court. like nice bs excuse. you fucked up big time too bad if you're dealing with criminal court what a good way #to say you want nothing to do with your daughter. not like I'd ever let you near her. plus she never wants to see him again. #hell she doesn't even call him dad she calls him by his first name! which i don't fault her. he needs to rot for what he did to her #anyways sorry im venting im just wound the fuck up #im frustrated because court says nothing concrete can be done in terms if sole custody which considering he is being charged for abuse #to her the family side should just give sole custody to me... he's made it clear time and time again that he doesn't fuckin care. #ahhhh SORRY I'm in overthink mode and I'm frustrated with the court system. #tw: abuse mention #venting.tw

[kirayamidemon]

oK BUT CAN WE TALK BOUT SHROUD BROTHERS EVENT SSR CARDS THO? ? ?? LIKE I JUSTT? ? ?? I LOVE IT SO MUCH? ? ??

THE CONTRASTTTTTTTT

THE CONTRAST BETWEEN THE TWOO IS JUSTT ITS SO FUCKING GOOOD FUCKK I LOVE

LIKE HEAR ME OUT JSUTT

Idia’s event SSR was for Gosmari n we got groom Idia

His card was dark, had mostly cool colors n generally had more of a gloomy aura than anything, even if the event wasn’t that gloomy itself. Black n blue were the very prominent main colors with some purple in there as well n was just generally dark, enhanced even more by the fact that the only lightings were from the floating candles, his hair, n the floor reflection. Even the cake was kinda dreary a bit, with the skulls lining a tier n just covered in white(? ? ?) n darker colored roses.

It just gives off a deathly melancholy feel n aura to it n honestly it just kinda fits with Idia n his character? ? ?? Like it just kinda captures that depressing atmosphere that is kinda inherent to him? ? ??

N then you look at Ortho

Ortho’s being the complete opposite of Idia’s

Where Idia’s was dark n depressing, Ortho’s is just so fucking bright n vibrant n just? ? ??

Full of life in contrast to the emptiness of his brother

All that white n bright colors n vibrance n radiance n just Ortho’s fucking smilee? ? ???

He jUST LOOKS SO FUCKING HAPPY N FULL OF LIFE N JUSTTT HHHHH

THE WAY YANA-SENSEI ALWAYS DOES THESE FUCKING CARDSSS GODDD ITS JUSTTTT SOOOOO SOOOO GOOOOODDDD I CAN NEVER GET ENOUGHHHH HFLDJLDSK

#kira talks #twst #idia shroud #ortho shroud #twisted wonderland #ORHTO JUST LOOKS SO FUCKING PRETTTY TOO LIKE HOLY FUCKK *HIS LEGS? ? ??? ALL THE BUTTERFLY WINGSS? ?? ??* #N HIS FUCKING SMILLEEEEE AHHHH #i still wanna do that (dumprot) half analysis(? ? ?) of the tweels cards n the octatrios cards but wRITINGGGG HHHHDHFDSK #SERIOUSLYU YANA SENESEIS GENIUSS N HOW SHE ALWAYS DOES THESE CARDDSSS GODD ITS JUST SOO HHHHDFLSDK #ALL THE DETAILS N THE MEANINGS( ?? ??) N JUST ALL THE LITTLE THINGS HHDHFLSJ #IDIAS GOSMARI WITH ORTHOS FAIRY GALA #THE CONTRAST N OPPOSITE BETWEEN THE TWO IS JUSTTT HH ITS SO FUCKING GOOODD HHHFHHDS #IM SUPER WEIRD I KNOWW FLKJSDLKFJDS #N IM PROLLY READING TOO MUCH INTO THIS LIKE ALWAYS N SEEING THINGS THAT ARE NOT ACTUALLY THERE SDLKJFDSKFDS #also i am not the most well versed in either shrouds chars so i could also be entirely wrong LJKDSFJKLDSKJL #but also one of my friends had also mentioned how idias groom ssr groovy was kinda bright n kinda lively in contrast #n got me thinking if orthos ssr groovy would be kinda dark in contrast sicne theres so much of it in their ungroovied ver right now ljkfjksd

[thatkinkyboi]

Me: how do you like the dinner I made?

Partner: it's good. It tastes good. Would have preferred rice and less potatoes but it's still good.

My sensitive ass today: ..... so you hate me

#fuck rsd #rsd vent #ahhhh why do i always think people hate me dont like me why do i get so butt hurt over the smallest shit

[rosicheeks]

what’s something good that happened today?

-🌸

You’re in my ask box 🫣🥰

#ahhhh thanks for reminding me I need to reply to your cute asks 🫣 #whenever I see your 🌸 I always start blushing #you’re so fucking cuuuute 🥰🥰🥰🥰 #but I also was able to paint today 💖 #it’s been hard not being able to paint cause I don’t have a set up at my new place yet #buuuuuut my dogsitting place said I could paint there whenever I want #so I was able to chill with puppy and paint 🥰 #also thankfully my Etsy painting was delivered safely and they received it and loved them!! and gave me good reviews #so honestly I’m doing pretty good 🥰 #just don’t wanna go home #but that’s why I’m chilling in my car 💖 #how was your day lovely?? #what’s something good that happened to you? 💖🌸 #ask #🌸 anon

[leatherbookmark]

BECOMES HORIZONTAL, i know there’s no such thing as perfection but i was looking for good watercolor sketchbooks and it’s helllllll maybe i shouldn’t check reviews on am*zon because Everything Can Happen Over There (my favourite etchr lab watercolor sketchbook had one star, included one photo and no text and the title was “THERE WAS A SHRIMP IN THE PACKAGE”) but. sits and suffers

edit: ironically i think i kinda like the way watercolors look in my. talens sketchbook. which is like 140gsm and so Definitely not watercolor paper lmao

#i sat down to test some papers and to my endless surprise i liked canson student the most for a casual sketch #yes arches basically does a smooth wash for you. you don't need to try at all the paint just Does That on this paper #but good luck trying to paint a shape with smooth borders. they're always feathery and i think it's because of the paper texture #i mean yes you can minimize the feathering by being v e r y slow with your brush but like... come On #and i don't want to use hot pressed paper because i LIKE the texture! cmon! i just don't want it to do This #canson is textured as well (although differently) and the borders are nice and smooth but the washes aren't as flat and. well. it's paper #meanwhile w&n... i kind of hated it because the borders were not only feathery as fuck -- the paint sat on top of the paper as if it was #oiled and didn't want to cooperate AT ALL. you'd think my brush was dry as a bone with how the paint behaved on this paper #so like. 'you don't need to spend much money to have fun doing art' does apply! just. not to watercolors #unless you have an irl friend who'll show you around and you only buy what you're 100% sure is Good #and so far i remain sketchbookless. i wanted to try the etchr one but ahhhh i don't know. what if it does the same thing as w&n #shrimp thoughts

[polaraffect]

venting in the tags yippeee

#damien.txt #gender talk time 🤪✌️ #.................................................................................... #screaming crying throwing up rolling around on the ground <- said completely deadpan #uhm. as always. thinking abt gender. and questioning. my whole life. bc. i cant stop doing that #soooooo like. my big thing. abt gender. is as much as im like. he/they-ing it here and irl. its kind of... complicated? #as ive gone on ive realized more and more that i dont. really. feeling Anything towards those pronouns #neither do i she/her. or they/them. #and just generally the whole Concepts of male/female? so like. im always like hmm. whats happening here #and other completely incoherent statements djbdhdbf sorrry anyways #i keep having these moments where im like. hmm. maybe. im leaning too hard into the masc. maybe i am not. he at all. #but ive like. really full committed to the bit yknow? like esp irl. all the ppl ive introduced myself to in the last 2 years have known me #as 'he'. and as someone who wears mostly masc clothing and generally attempts to present masc #and like. i bought a skirt a while ago and i was trying it on today and i was like oh. wait. #and before u @ me i KNOW!! clothing does not equal gender!! but there was just something abt it #and recently (the past like. year lmao) ive really been contemplating like. what i actually want out of transitioning or whatever #bc like. increasingly its become more obvious how... fucking difficult that is. #and the more i think abt it the more im like. bro its not even worth it for me? tbh? also like. sometimes i look in the mirror and am like #hmm. this does not feel better than it did when i hadnt transitioned at all. yknow? #like the last 10+ years ive been existing in this state w my body where im basically just. tolerating it. ignoring it. even. #and that hasn't... changed. after t. and ik thats not like the fix-all but its got me wondering if some of it/a lot of it #is just body dysmorphia? rather than dysphoria? bc like. god knows i have that too. #and just. idk. i feel Really Really anti-gender most of the time. would in fact. not like to be conceived of at all. #but on some level im trying to think abt it practically bc if that ^ is my thoughts on gender fr. i have to decide whats worth it #and like. i miss cool clothes. god men's clothing is so fucking boring. holy fuck. #and AGAIN i KNOW gender doesnt equal clothes but also like. i am Aware to the wider world it still works like that #and truly if i rocked up to work/class in a skirt everyone would be like What The Fuck #and i kind of want to!! but im also scared of that reaction lol #AHHHH why must gender be so complicated. i want to lay on the floor #lol there was literally more but i ran out of tags LMAOO sorry everyone. gender complicated. peace ✌️

[suncaptor]

i think i do have PEM since the covid vaccine thinking back on the last three years of my life like. the patterns. but i dislike that bc i would like to believe that if i engage in intense compulsive behaviours I'll actually be able to fix my body and be okay again. which is why I've spent the last few years lowkey convinced the reason why i was so much healthier at 19 than my early/mid 20s was because I was bulimic. like bitch get real you have had excessive compulsive exercising moments too it just doesn't do the same thing to your body anymore.

#tw eating disorders #the idea of having PEM is soooo distressing but it would. make so many things make so much sense. #i definitely have some form of cfs and dysautonomia or whatever #like it seems really clear that i've had lowgrade health issues during my life that were probably based in underlying autoimmune responses #causing inflammation which makes sense considering my mom has crohn's and glaucoma and there's a lot of stuff like that on her side #but I was able to work with it i just got migraines and horrific pms issues and collapsed a lot and was always dizzy and stuff like #i could move my body and live and function i just sometimes got fucked up yknow? #but then when i got the covid vaccine it made me SEVERELY ill and i never could get better #bc it sent off this overreactive immune response that couldn't modulate and sent a cascade of inflammation across multiple systems in my bo #(and to not sound incredible about this and back it up I have a record for ulcers/gastrisis/optic nerve hemmorage/optic neuritis since thos #can be seen or whatever) #but it did it like. everywhere. #so all my old issues were worse in a way i was not used to #and also doing things like getting very in shape did not actually help any of the ways Doing Things In The World caused me to get so tired #/in so much pain/crash #or how bad my EDS and fatigue is #etc #also soooo many neurological issues my least favourite :) #which is just ahhhh #but no one will tell me how to fix it :( #i think it's probably similar to Long Covid not because the vaccine gave me covid or something #but because LC seems to be a similar issue of multisystem inflammation due to the body continuously fighting off covid #even after the acute viral symptoms pass? #but i don't know bc no professionals will talk to me about it :( #you know how hard it is to have severe living instability and mental health issues then having your body literally not working at all and #not being able to fix it and also having no one even believe you about it because it's so rare and all #i'm SICK AND TIRED #god #i just want to be able to fix it with enough passion like. can't i just over extend myself until my body is stronger? #but i do think i have PEM. maybe I should try really really hard anyways and see if it makes it worse or not :) haha!

[29121996]

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#it is . Only Thursday n to recap the last 48hrs Alone; #i got fired . had a job interview . hung out w AFew People n did so mucb socialising . #had a Breakdown and a BreakThrough . and saw [redacted] uptown . #that alone is smty i amnprocessing bc what the fuck was tonighy . genuinely what the fuck am i doing and wit essing rn. #AHHHH nope. i cannot rmb this tmr i will habe to kms #oh my god . no. #fuck that mf for always makinf me feel that Thing bc damn if he doesnt . look good n set of a set of alarms i mn me #dawg . i am forev mer fuckrd as long as i live here fr . some9nes gotta move ! bc i cannot . move on romanrically if he is just . #iut here existinf and showing up to places im at . n sendijg me odd mssgd at fuck ass hours of the night like . #everything abt this n him isnso Intrigueing to ne n its addictive . #yea im fucked. truly fucked #i know i could like . Potentuslly Move On eventually and i Will . #but i know how icwork . n i do hate what that mwans tocme. awful. fucking awful. #why a MAN . whyd i have to add anothrr man to that room !!!!!!! dawg !!!!!! #rmb joking abt how if it didnt work out w him id have ti date women #n i fear i may have been right tbh. like no man is Cutting It Close. nocone does it for me like him :/ #i checked mt tumblr following today . theres abt 13 #1.3k of u fuckers #logically mosy od them are dead or bots #but still . thats an insane amt #anyway . my insane obsessuon w . how hr works . dawg. #sometimes i will see him or come across a photo of him n i will rmv why i do love him . #n its so fucking awful bc i am just . Fucked. im so fucked. n all of this Sucks Ass. #n idk what tocdo abt it. eho the fuck am i supposed toctslk to abt it. #logivslly him but i cant do that . even tho him brekaing nc tecgnicslly means freegame vc Dawg what thebfucj #but . i genuinsly do Not know what to fucking say. n that Sucks lol. #like.