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the-last-quest · 5 days

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Shadow was tired.

He just needed to wait until morning.

He just needed to not look at the mass in the center of the room.

(Sonic dhmis au)

[1456 words]

Tw: Major Character Death, brief description of injuries (it’s mostly left to imagination)

Shadow was tired

Kneeling on the tiled floor of the kitchen it was taking every bit of him to not close his eyes. To not let himself succumb to the cool release of sleep.

Or death.

Whichever came first.

Today’s lesson had been a brutal one, though Shadow supposes most of the lessons were brutal.

It started when he and Tails were cooking lunch, when the kid had accidentally nicked himself with the knife. Of course that caused a lesson to start. The teacher, this time taking the form of a talking knife block, preached to them all the joys of kitchen safety. Which then, of course, led to the two of them having to dodge multiple sharp kitchen utensils.

Shadow didn’t come out of that unscathed. He took a hit from a knife that was clearly aiming to take out Tails. At the time it was worth it to him, saving the fox from the pain from the blade. The large gash on his side bearable as long as he saved the kid from death at that moment.

Now though he wished he let Tails die then.

Gritting his teeth Shadow pushed himself off of the floor. Shooting pain emerged from his wound, but he bore through it. He’d handled worse before, not joking when he said lessons were brutal. He just had to leave the kitchen. If Shadow was going to bleed out he wasn’t going to do it with that looking straight at him.

The lesson didn’t end with the knives. They never ended with the knives. With Tails being the one who started the lesson the teacher’s attention was solely on the fox, and with Shadow already injured there wasn’t much he could do to protect the boy. He doesn’t know if he should be happy that the lesson ended at the blender before the teacher even acknowledged the overheating oven.

Using the wall for support Shadow kept his eyes glued to the ground as he made his way out of the kitchen. He didn’t want to see what remained of the fox again. It was bad enough the first time, as he watched the unfolding of the lesson, not being able to do anything about it.

As Shadow was just about to reach the doorframe, just about to leave the chaos forsaken room he stopped. He could feel the eyes on him, watching him as he left it all alone. He couldn’t do that, as much as he wanted to leave and wait until morning, to have his memories of this day fade into a dull ache in the back of his mind. He just couldn’t leave. Sighing he mentally prepared himself, turning to look at the center of the kitchen.

Shadow couldn’t call it a body, refusing to even think of the life the mass used to hold. The only thing that remained intact was the head. It was a cruel joke he supposed, something the teacher did to ensure the lesson stuck.

Blue eyes seemed to haunt Shadow.

First it was Maria on the Ark. Even with his memories of the outside world growing fuzzy he still remembered his sister and her eyes. He remembered the wonder they held when she looked down at the Earth, the love that he left when she looked at him, the pain as her life faded away.

Now it was a different pair of eyes, but to him they meant the same thing. The eyes that at first marveled at the new world they found themselves in, before either of them knew what it held in store, the eyes that constantly sought him out for some semblance of stability after they figured it out, the eyes that he had to watch constantly fade because he couldn’t save him.

That's how they were now, a brilliant blue faded to a dull gray.

Tears gathered in the corner of his eyes. Swiping them away angrily, Shadow growled at himself. He shouldn’t feel like this. He knew this was going to happen. He knew that by the end of the day one, or both of them would end up dead. He’s been through this enough times by now that he knows he can’t change anything. He knows that he can’t save anyone.

So why does he feel like this? Why does he feel a paralyzing helplessness whenever one of those damn teachers comes to life? Why does he feel so guilt ridden over something he knows he has no control of because he himself is a victim? Why does he feel the same way he did back on the Ark?

Shadow sinks down against the wall, as those same questions swirl through his mind. Over and over again. The same questions never relenting. He knows the answer to them. He knows why, but he can’t bring himself to admit it. If he does things would change. It would just give them more ways to inflict pain and there was no way that he would ever give them that opportunity.

Right now though there’s nothing they can do. The lesson for the day was done, the sun having already set below the horizon. Morning needs to come again.

Knowing this Shadow gives up. He allows the tears to flow down his cheeks. His sobs irritated his already sore throat, his heaving breaths causing even more pain to spout from his wound. He doesn’t care though nobody is watching him, the only eyes open right now are ones that don’t matter.

Those eyes aren’t seeing anything. They won’t think he’s weak because he failed to protect someone. They won't remember it in the morning when they seek him out for comfort. Right now he can let everything out. He can fall apart and by morning he’ll be put back together again.

He cries until his lungs give up on him, when the blood loss finally makes itself apparent. He opens his eyes and finds the other ones staring back at him. He knows his will look the same soon.

Shadow lets himself drift off, the night finally winning.

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Somewhere, up above, gloved hands pick up two figures out of a small model kitchen.

They take care to fix them up, the fox figure having more repairs needed than usual, while the hedgehog only had a scratch.

Placing the figures into a model bedroom, the hands making sure to tuck the fox into bed. It’s the least they can do.

Sighing they begin to turn the crank.

The model house spins around while distant piano notes play a repeating tune.

It’s morning once again.

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Shadow was in his bed again. A small bit of light shining through his eyelids told him it was still early, the sun's rays just peeking over the horizon.

Taking a deep breath he let himself enjoy the moment. The peace that came with the early morning the only time he could find himself getting the closest to a semblance of relaxation. He knew the silence wouldn’t last forever so he took this time to enjoy it.

As if right on que soft footsteps made their way over to Shadow’s bed. Without opening his eyes he lifted the blanket, inviting Tails in. The bed dipped as the kid crawled under the blanket, curling up against the hedgehog, gripping onto his dark fur as if his life depended on it. As if Shadow could save it.

Lowering his arm, Shadow pulled Tails closer. He doesn’t know for whose benefit it was, they both needed it.

Time continued to pass as they lay together, the sun coming up over the horizon, the alarm ready to go off in any moment.

Tails shrunk into him, shaking as it drew nearer for them to leave the comfort of the bed. The kid didn’t cry though. He hadn’t cried in a long time. Shadow doesn’t think that’s a good thing.

Running his fingers through yellow fur Shadow tried to calm the fox, even though his anxiety was also rising. He doesn’t remember exactly what happened yesterday but he knows it was bad seeing that Tails sought him out this morning.

Today he’s going to make sure he takes the brunt of the lesson. He’s made this vow before, but this time he’s going to try harder, to draw the focus of the teachers towards him.

Because deep down, even if he would never admit it, Shadow cared for Tails. He cares for the kid that is stuck in this eternal torment with him. Even though it will kill him, Shadow will try his hardest to protect him.

Tails was his brother now and he’d be damned if he had to watch another sibling die in front of him.

#me writing for my au???#it’s more likely than you think #had this idea for a little while and decided to get it down on before it faded away lol #anyways #they’re both totally okay at the end guys 👍 nothing to worry about #they’re totally not in a loop where they only rely on each other #and totally don’t worry about the mysterious hands I’m sure they can’t do anything to change the current situation #it’s just one happy family :)#anyways (x2)#this was my first time writing for shadow and to make that harder on myself I decided to write him in the middle of extreme mental torment #idk what to tag man I’m just real long at this point #sonic the hedgehog #tails the fox #miles tails prower #sonic tails #shadow the hedgehog #ark siblings #sonic dhmis au #tw major character death #tw injury #❄︎♒︎♓︎⬧︎ ♒︎♋︎⬧︎ ♑︎□︎■︎♏︎ □︎■︎ ●︎□︎■︎♑︎ ♏︎■︎□︎◆︎♑︎♒︎ ●︎♏︎⧫︎ ⧫︎♒︎♏︎❍︎ ♑︎□︎#-. --- - / -.-- . - / .... . -.. --. . .... .. --.#.. / ... - .. .-.. .-.. / .... .- ...- . / -- ..- -.-. .... / -- --- .-. . / .--. .-.. .- -. -. . -..

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faelapis · 8 months

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whenever there’s discourse like some gay guy listed his fave queer movies and didn’t include enough wlw or whatever, all i can think is. holy shit you guys are cis.

#vent / rant #if i called out everyone who didn’t include trans media in their fave queer media the list would be ALL OF YOU #personal lists are subjective and expecting someone’s taste to perfectly match up with ideals of equal representation is #insane but also extremely revealing about what your blind spots are #catty arguments about whether cis gay men or cis lesbians have the most rep just unintentionally reveals the insane gap between #cis gays and trans people here #you are both very very very spoiled in comparison. i would know. i’m mlm myself and not once has it given me 10th the pain of being trans #yes this is technically oppression olympics but it’s also really fucking honest #so cope + accept cis privilege and stop arguing about catty dumb bs #and don’t ask me for trans rep recommendations either because the whole point is we have scraps of crumbs and most of it is bad #certainly not a lot of the happy fluffy safe and comforting media that we see more and more for the cissises #not su /

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honeykyeom · 1 month

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hey! please don’t do this!

#i can’t speak for everyone only for myself #and while i’m so happy that people are excited #it truly gives me a lot of anxiety getting these kinds of asks #i won’t trauma dump here except to say that i suffer from extreme imposter syndrome #and also finding my own identity and joy in writing again ever since the traumatic experience that happened to me-#in this space a couple of years ago. i’ve been mentally depressed and checked out since #i’m working as fast as my brain will allow. i want to bring track 3 and ik it’s been almost a year but please #please please please just be patient with me.#also not to be petty but this coming from a mass like and someone who doesn’t reblog my fics just makes me feel even worse #so yeah! just a heads up! again i love that people are excited about my writing too!#but cut a girl with severe anxiety disorder some slack #🍯.txt

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eijiroukiriot · 1 year

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eighty three average (krbk)

- College AU - bakusquad all together in a house - the pining stage of Friends to Lovers - 5k - Rated T -

Prev: “In high school, did you do physics?”

“No way. APES.” As Ashido shakes her head, her earrings catch the pink neon light of the wall behind her. It looks like a little swarm of fireflies is caught in her hair. “Soooo much cooler. Our final exam was camping.”

“Oh, sick,” Jirou says.

“Well. Camping while digging up a lot of worms.” Ashido wrinkles her nose. Tomo must have been in the same class as her. In the few months after that exam, he remembers hearing a lot more about worms than a high school guy normally would put into a conversation. Maybe Tomo was doing it on purpose, to freak him out. It kinda worked on Tanaka. Tomo must’ve forgotten how many worms Eijirou moved back to the grass with his bare hands when they were kids.

On the lowest string of her guitar, Jirou plays a waaah waaah waaah sound. “See, Kirishima. It could be worse. You could be digging up worms right now.”

With his bare hands. “Nothing is worse than physics.”

Summary: In which Kirishima does no physics, works his way through all three floors of he and his friends' college house, and accidentally solves a problem that has nothing to do with the lab he has due tomorrow.

Note: happy 5 years of krbk!! 🎉 no matter how much time goes by, everything is good when it’s with them

Read on Ao3

#kiribaku #my hero academia #bnha #kirishima eijirou #bakugou katsuki #my writing #i’ve been in such a slump. and this is such a silly self indulgent one but it really pulled me out #it’s so slice of life and just them all having conversations about nothing but i really really loved writing it #and mostly i’m so happy to have something for krbk day!!!#couch drawing mayyy or may not happen this week. but this fic was such a chance to just sit and think abt them #it was mostly written in big long sitting sessions #i have this thing where if I’m really really into writing a fic I wanna think abt it all the time but try to limit myself #so I don’t get tired of it before i can actually sit down and work on it #this one though i was tweaking on the bus and daydreaming abt in spare moments at work #that’s really building it up for something so extremely up my own alley #only like the back third of this is krbk #but still i liked writing it so much. i love krbk but i also just love bnha and its characters #and i have for 5 years!! woohoo!!#have a nice end to your weekend everyone and think of krbk today for me

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cinnamonsly · 1 year

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i’m so excited to FINALLY get to talk about the album cover. u guys have no idea how hard it was keeping that a secret for the past month

people have mentioned it and IM GLAD YOU DID cause i’ve been thinking about it nonstop but Yes. My Designs Are Now Canon (/lh) And Heart Now Canonically Has Wings. You’re Welcome.

#for legal reasons this is a joke don’t smite me mr jash #i’m just going to tell myself that they are canon because it makes me extremely happy LMAO

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jenosdaemi · 2 years

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Dear Everyone,

I just got engaged!! 🥹🤍

I never imagined I would reach this kind of happiness that it actually scares me that something bad might happen, but for now, in this moment, I’ll let myself to feel nothing else but happy. 🥹

#daemi talks #im the biggest fluff ball right now like i ran out of angst in my body #im just grateful that i have you guys to share this news with because i honestly i cannot stop myself to brag this to everyone else #i will exhaust every way possible to let as much people know that i’m getting married 😂😂#but im just extremely happy

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ungalobrando · 4 months

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Debating if I should change my aesthetic to MTL or if that would set me off again

#right now this blog is relatively safe #but I fear that stepping back into the fandom could set me off again #my BPD gets triggered extremely easily lately #what used to be once every few weeks is now once every few days #i relapsed almost daily tbh #I feel slightly better since removing myself from the tumblr fandom #I still get triggered a lot but like… not EVERY day #only every few days #so I’m kinda torn #I hate that I’m like #hyperfixating on it a lot #and at the same time I KNOW it will set me off more frequently if I engage in the fandom more #i‘ve gotten my meds changed a while ago and they don‘t help btw #so I’m asking to get different ones again next week #I’m just either absolutely numb or in excruciating mental pain #I haven’t felt really happy since. august

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akkivee · 1 year

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bat’s spring lines!!!!

this cd i borrowed from jyushi’s got a nice sound to it. makes me wanna get up and take a walk.

it’s warm out, nice!! since i got the time i’ll go and buy some dango and invite jyushi and hitoya out for flower watching training!!!

a gale that blows so mild thick attire isn’t required, and it gently carries the petals along its breeze…. the new season’s blooms that harken an old world’s end….. oh what joy, for this is the time that i have been waiting for!!!

i got an invitation to kuukou’s flower watching party!!! there’s going to be dango and karaage…… and i’m sure there’ll be some drinks too!!!! it feels like the season’s really here, this is kinda really exciting!!!!!

since the weather’s been nice this spring, people have been pretty absentminded lately. even during my trial today, the opposition’s argument barely had anything together and was full of holes, so it was easy money.

oh, kuukou’s holding a flower viewing party……… it’s been a while since I’ve taken a moment to watch the sakura bloom. i can’t bring any alcohol for those two but i’ll buy something tasty for the outing

#vee queued to fill the void #the arb chronicles #as always take with a grain of salt and if actual translators take a crack at this trust them and ignore me lol #i just didnt see casual translations of bat’s lines on twitter.com and decided to do them myself lol #it’s been a very long while tho???? so forgive me if the character voices are a little weak lol #i feel like new kuukou interpretation just dropped lmao yeah training for him sometimes means having fun #but to the point jyushi and hitoya can tell he means just plain hanami and not a training session??? that’s what’s up lol #(that or kuukou left out training in his invite lol)#lol i’m very happy jyushi’s birth month also happens to be in the season he prefers most spring is his season y’all lol #and uhhhh does jyushi have a spring card……..??? i felt so weird using the hand sign card when his team had visibly spring cards lol 😭😭😭#also glad to see hitoya’s thriving too get that bag man lol 💪#both jyushi and ESP kuukou tend to start btching when the weather is extreme so i’m glad for all of them spring’s treating them well lol #c: kuukou👑#c: jyushi #c: hitoya

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