#and by so many i mean over 30

[milquetoad]

of the many injustices put forth toward the show by fans i think the most overall damaging and telling of a complete lack of critical viewership is the idea that sam riegel builds his characters with nothing more than the bit in mind. like you are only telling on yourself if you think characters like scanlan shorthalt and veth brennato are one-dimensional and depthless

#if im being exTREMEly generous i can maybe understand this view of scanlan if you started c1 and then gave up 30 episodes later #he played the long game with him more than any other and a lot of his growth could be looked at as shallow if you DIDNT watch til the payoff #but any time this opinion is used as a blanket over all of his characters including tary and even FCG.. like be serious #i mean at this point im definitely biased bc he is my favorite player at the table. However. that wasnt always the case #and even when i was myself writing some character choices off i NEVER applied that to the characters themselves. how can you?? #seen sooo many ppl criticize him for making veth an alcoholic or scanlan irreverent & hedonistic as tho it’s only possible #to play these traits as shallow jokes or at best played out satire…. and then the same person will turn around #and praise how percy was built to be pompous & superior and jester immature & self-centered and caleb steeped in self-effacing hubris #why are these characters and their players given a near universal acceptance of nuance and acknowledgement of growth & healing #but SAMS CHARACTERS ARE NOT!!!! #this turned into such a rant but it bothers me SO much. everyone at the cr table is so goddamned talented #and takes the game as seriously as it deserves #so many more points i could argue but this is already so goddamn long no one is reading this far. i love sam and all of his characters <333 #critical role #sam riegel #scanlan shorthalt #veth brennato #my posts

[quinloki]

Canon Characters vs OC vs x Reader

Disclaimer: This is just my two cents, and my perspective on things, and I'm not trying to lay down the law for everyone. I needed to just put this to words though, in order to sleep.

I was thinking about this because of a post I saw, and some, we'll say, kind of useless comments associated with the post. Mean-spirited stuff.

Normally, in one ear and out the other, but the vibes just kicked me off down a rabbit hole of sorts an I wanted to try to put some of my thoughts to words.

First, some style vibes:

Canon x Canon Canon/Canon stories are, to me, like reading an episode of that show. I'm sitting down in front of a TV or whatever, and I'm experiencing the story As A Viewer. I like this style because I don't really have to expend much energy and I just kind of roll with whatever's happening. Generally some sort of 3rd person perspective.

OC x canon OC/Canon stories are like being on a carnival ride. I'm sitting in a car on a roller-coaster, and maybe the OC is sitting next me. I'm experiencing the story more deeply than strictly canon stories, but my connection with the OC is no deeper than say, my connection with Katniss Everdeen when I read The Hunger Games. Sometimes 3rd person, sometimes first person.

Reader x canon Reader/Canon (or Reader x/ OC) is like putting on a VR helmet. I don't get much physical input about the "Reader OC" because I'm experiencing the story through their eyes. I don't expect the reader to be me, but there's a bigger feeling of immersion to be had. Some description might happen cause it's relevant to the story, and it's still a type of ride, I can't jump the rails on the roller coaster, after all. (Even with a VN you still follow the tracks). Sometimes first person, sometimes second person (I'm partial to 2nd person perspective, but that's just me).

I love Fan Fiction, I love it. All of it, and man even more than anything, what I love is that I'm going to dislike 80% of it. Because that 80% was written for someone who is not me. (Hell, that number's probably closer to 99% if we're looking at ALL fandoms, but I digress).

Second - The VENT:

What got me the most in the post that prompted this, was someone saying "Bring back the Mary Sue OCs!" and then they went on to describe something more detailed, and I just -

Look, respectfully, fuck you.

The point is, you're not going to be happy no matter what. Whether it's "mary sue" OCs, or x readers, or alternative universes, or a ship you don't like, you're going to find something to be unhappy about.

Cause people have been bitching about all styles of fan fiction since the first "You've Got Mail" chimed in 1991. And until 1998 and ff.net you really had to hunt for it, and until 2007 and Ao3 the idea of tagging a fic for any reason wasn't really a thing. Every click was a surprise! \o/

I just have seen the same song and dance a dozen times. It's exhausting. People become okay with OCs and decide x readers are the enemy, and before that OCs were *all* Mary Sues and cringe and people who made OCs were the enemy, and before OCs people who wrote even a little OOC were the enemy, and people who wrote AUs were the enemy, and you can write fan fic but it HAS to be Canon Compliant, and everyone MUST be in-character at all times - "They would not fucking say that" was the enemy.

Look, just please - please - in any capacity, stop it with the "All X style of story telling is crap" mindset. There's over a dozen different ways to do x readers alone. I know 20 x reader writers and I don't think any of us have the same style, preferences, or vibes.

I've had a lot of comments along the lines of "I thought I hated x readers, but I really loved this." on a few different fics I've written. Sometimes it's not the style of the fic, sometimes it's the style of the writer, and my Brother In Christ - you're going to have to read some awful shit to shuffle through the thousands of writers out there to find the vibes that resonate with you.

Ostracizing entire swathes of fan fic because you need something to be "The Enemy" so you can lift up something else, and then bitching you can't find anything new to read seems like a personal problem.

And I know y'all are scrolling by TONS of posts that don't interest you, every day, as a matter of course. So don't give me that "clogging up the tag" BS, because we deserve to be here same as anyone else in the fandom.

#quin grumbles #I'm so aggravated I don't even really know how to tag this #like almost 30 years of it I'm just so done #I just wonder what amazing stories we're not getting #cause of some fucker using Mary Sue to belittle someone #or someone beating someone else over the head with plot armor because their protag survived something terrible? #How many “Oh.” moments have been missed because someone criticized the very concept of reader insert? #I'm way past my usual bedtime so I'm just rambling at this point #and I am being meaner than I'd like #but JFC #I'm not going to let people's bullshit opinions stop me or anyone else from writing if I can avoid it. #Write what you want #gush about it #talk about it #TELL ME ABOUT IT #IDGAF if it's cringe or overpowered or broken or flawless or an OC or a reader with a name or WHATEVER #If it brings you joy #then do it #and if people are too mean to scroll by it when it's not their thing #and then complain like they're entitled to do so #block 'em. #and tell me who they are so I can block them too #then write more #cause I promise it'll bring someone else joy too

[sesamestreep]

30 Day Writing Challenge - Day 6

Write about a blackout (from this list) ➸ totally cheating once again and using this as a one-word prompt instead of probably how it was intended??? oh well. have some canon-verse angst and I’m sorry…

“Do you want to know the stupidest part?”

Foggy looks over at Matt, who’s hunched over his drink like someone might steal it from him. Then again, the fake IDs that got them into this bar were honestly not the highest quality, so it’s not an entirely baseless fear.

“Granted you’ve told me like three details total about what happened between you and Elektra, I will take any additional information you want to divulge, stupid or otherwise.”

Matt blinks at him with hollow eyes. “You just said a lot of words to me.”

Foggy sighs. “What’s the stupidest part, Matt?”

“I thought—it’s just—you’re going to think I’m a moron.”

“I won’t,” Foggy says, grabbing his shoulder and giving it a firm squeeze. “I think you’re extremely smart, buddy. You might be the smartest person I know, okay? Just tell me. I promise I won’t judge.”

Matt looks so utterly fragile and lost in that moment that Foggy honestly doesn’t want to hear what’s going to come out of his mouth next, because he just knows it will break his heart. It’s been hard seeing Matt in such bad shape and to know almost nothing about what happened between him and his girlfriend after he’d disappeared with her for two weeks. Foggy had been a wreck about it, beside himself with worry and yet without a legitimate reason to excuse himself from classes and responsibilities, so he’d walked around for those two weeks like a shell, keeping up appearances, until Matt came back. His relief at his reappearance was quickly replaced by a new kind of worry, when he saw how miserable and unstable Matt was in the wake of…whatever happened. Matt still couldn’t be induced by any means to give Foggy a straight answer on that count.

“I thought I was going to marry her,” Matt says, quietly. If Foggy hadn’t been actively trying to hear him, that statement would have been lost to the noise of the bar.

“That’s not stupid at all,” Foggy says, allowing the hand on Matt’s shoulder to slip over to rub his back between his shoulder blades.

“I thought she was my soulmate,” Matt adds, with some vitriol, in the direction of his drink, like he wants to spit the words in there to drown them.

“She wasn’t,” Foggy replies, firmly, because it seems like the right thing to say up until Matt’s face crumples.

“I think she was,” he says, miserably, as he buries his face in his hands. “I think she was and she left anyway and that’s it for me.”

“I don’t—hey, listen, Matt,” Foggy says, shifting his chair over so he can wrap his arms around Matt’s shoulders completely. “I’m sorry, okay? I’m sorry I said she—I didn’t know her that well. Maybe she was your soulmate. I don’t know! I’m not convinced that’s anything but a nice story we like to tell ourselves to make life more bearable or to impose meaning on random events.”

“This pep talk sucks,” Matt says, in the vicinity of Foggy’s collar. Foggy can feel his breath on his neck and it’s weird but not enough to get him to move away.

“Sorry. What I mean to say is, if soulmates are real, and Elektra was yours, then it’s not over yet. Maybe you’ll meet again someday.”

“I hope not,” Matt says, darkly.

Foggy resists the urge to roll his eyes at yet another vague but still concerning allusion to this terrible breakup. He’s trying to be sympathetic but Matt’s whole Catholic guilt lone wolf shit does test him sometimes, if he’s being honest. Still, one look at Matt’s pale, sorrowful face in the neon lights of this dive bar is enough to remind Foggy what they’re doing here.

“I think it’s much more likely that, if we have soulmates at all, we probably get more than one,” Foggy continues, hoping that if he just muses vaguely enough, he’ll stumble on something that makes Matt feel better. “So, you’ll get another chance to—”

“You mean like you and me?” Matt asks, and Foggy’s brain does a full factory reset as he tries to parse that question. He can’t possibly mean…

“Oh, like—yeah, you and me and, well, everybody could have more than one soulmate. Exactly.”

“No, that’s not—” Matt shakes his head, which, given his current position, is functionally just nuzzling his face into Foggy’s neck. “I mean, how you and me are soulmates. Kind of.”

“You and me?” Foggy asks, casually despite not feeling casual at all. “You think so?”

“You’re—yeah. I mean, you’re basically—you’re family to me but…also more than that. If that makes sense.”

It doesn’t and Foggy’s been holding himself back from drinking too much tonight because he wants to be able to get Matt home safely, but he does feel like he might throw up on this table right now. He tucked away the part of him that found Matt attractive somewhere deep and secret and well-fortified in his soul a long time ago, in the interest of not fucking things up with his best friend in the entire world, and he certainly can’t trust anything Matt says now when he’s drunk and lonely and heartbroken. But he’s never loved anyone as completely as he loves Matt and it’s such a pathetic, hopeless situation that he doesn’t let himself think about it except on really special occasions when he wants to feel bad.

“I’m not sure anybody has ever loved me as much as you do,” Matt says, like it’s not a crazy thing to say, here in a shitty bar near campus, after a breakup with his girlfriend, to someone he’s never even kissed.

“I doubt that,” Foggy says, even as he, selfishly, wants to claim it, even as he knows it to be true. “You’re very lovable.”

“We should get married.”

Foggy laughs, because what else can he do, under the circumstances. “Now? It’s pretty late. The courthouse won’t even be open.”

“No, I mean, we should get married someday,” Matt says, petulant like Foggy’s the one being ridiculous here for not following his thought process. “When we’re older. If we haven’t met anybody else.”

That last condition is enough to break Foggy’s heart all over again, but he does an admirable job hiding it, he thinks. Matt’s drunk and very distracted, and more importantly doesn’t know anything about how Foggy feels, really, despite his proclamations on the subject a moment ago, so it feels safe to assume he won’t notice any signs of disappointment or hurt in this split second before Foggy swallows those feelings and pretends to be his usual upbeat self. That’s who Matt really needs right now, and so that’s who he’ll be.

“How much older?” Foggy asks.

“Old,” Matt says. “Like, thirty.”

“Okay,” Foggy nods, already able to find this funny. Matt won’t still be single by the time they’re both thirty. He’ll be married by the time they graduate law school, most likely, so it won’t be an issue. Foggy doesn’t like to think about it, but he knows it’s true.

“You’ll do it?”

“Maybe,” Foggy says. “Ask me again when you’re not blackout drunk.”

“I’m fine,” Matt objects. “I’m not blackout. Not even close.”

“Then we can pick this conversation up in the morning, no problem!”

Matt nods, drunkenly. “Absolutely.”

Matt doesn’t bring it up in the morning, of course. Foggy never really expected he would, either, and doesn’t permit himself to be disappointed about it, no matter how much he would like to.

#I used the word ‘blackout’ here and therefore I have fulfilled the prompt #if you knew how many versions of this I wrote and then threw out and then started over #you would forgive me for utterly phoning it in on this prompt #anyway #finished is better than perfect so…. #HWS30days #30 days challenge #writing challenge #homelywenchsociety #that’s my writing tag! don’t worry about it! #…….sigh I really want to trash this in the tags but that’s not allowed #slowly killing the perfectionist in my brain by churning out absolutely MID prompt fills like this #mattfoggy #matt murdock #foggy nelson #daredevil #idk idk idk I’m going to listen to a podcast by which I mean fall asleep to a podcast #bye

[esmeshardwoodfloors]

me calling Esme a milf when she's 5 years younger than I am 💀

#Esme Cullen #I mean I know she's over a hundred technically #and also fictional #but STILL #what I wouldn't give for smeyer to have actually let Carlisle and Esme just have been turned in their 40s/50s #it would have solved so many problems with their whole dumb 'family' cover story #curse smeyer for thinking anyone over the age of 30 is a decrepit old hag #I mean I am obviously #BUT STILL #Local Hag Still Kinda Into Twilight In Her Own Twilight Years #more news at 10

[daz4i]

how and why is there discourse about whether or not certain queer identities exist/if people should be allowed(???) to use them. why is "people know their own identity better than you ever could, and they're the only one who get a say on what they are" such a tough concept to grasp

i think if you find yourself offended by the label someone uses (especially if they're a stranger) or think it invalidates your own, it's a good idea to look inside yourself and question why that may be. more often than not, it's a result of insecurity or uncertainty of your own identity (or many other things, but i won't make a whole list here). whatever reason it is, until you resolve it, you shouldn't take it out on people for having an identity you don't understand

many have said it before but it's worth saying over and over. infighting only helps our oppressors. conservatives don't care if you're a cis gay or a xenogender aegosexual aplatonic lesbian, they hate all of us either way. trying to fit in by going for people who are easier targets for them isn't gonna help you, it'll just alienate you from your own community, and you're never gonna please them. the momentary rush you get from hearing you're not like "one of /those/ gay people" is not worth it and is gonna do more harm in the long run, i assure you

also, it is important to me to say this, but having some less than nice kneejerk reaction caused by confusion about an identity you don't understand doesn't mean you're a bad person or anything. as long as you aren't mean to that person, and you take a second to think smth along the lines of "wait a minute, this isn't any of my business" after having said reaction, you're good 👍 a lot of reflexive reactions we have to things are ingrained into us simply by. well. living in a society 🤡 and you're not terrible for having those thoughts. it's your actions that matter, and your second thought (the "wait, why did i just think that?") is more defining of your actual character and morals than your reflex. i know that having thoughts like this, even tho they're unwanted, can very easily make one spiral, so it's important to me that whoever needs to hear this knows this doesn't make you a bad person 🙏 you're good, keep taking actions to be good, accept other people even if you don't understand them, and you're on the right track :)

#i considered adding that last part in the tags but i figured it'll be too long for that 😭 #i noticed i'm posting a lot of rants lately. sorry. but i do wanna make sure no one's actually feeling bad over them #if i complain about something that you do or call it mean and such. that doesn't make you a bad person #you can always work to change and grow 👍 it's not easy but it starts with smaller steps than you'd expect #and now i just switched to a whole other topic from my original point. oops #i do firmly believe that any discourse about someone's identity is dumb as fuck #seeing it in poll blogs always makes me 😐😬 like how is it any business for any of us. why is this up for debate #if a person says they're queer then they are. they don't need to pass some test or go through initiation to be accepted #if they feel comfortable with a certain word that's awesome. why does it matter to *you* which word they use #'they're only using this microlabel to feel special' so? is there anything wrong with that? #'this label contradicts [insert other identity that falls under the same umbrella]' ok. but does that hurt anyone in any way #a lot of identities can even be self contradictory. does it matter tho? does it affect anyone in any way? #'they might realize that label is wrong later' again. what's the harm in that. #i don't blame anyone for these thoughts bc like. this is how cishets view a lot of the even more common labels #so you're basically taught to think this way from day one. that doesn't mean you need to stick to that thought process #you might have these reflexes forever no matter how hard you try. but you'll get quicker about moving on from them #but you do have to try. you do have to realize that other people's identities aren't about you #anyway. this post feels like batting at a hornets nest. really hope i don't get some bad faith readers here lol #(i noticed a lot of places one could apply bad faith but like it's 3:30 am i'm too tired to add this many disclaimer. #so i'm gonna trust you to not jump to conclusions and to approach this in good faith okay? mwah 🖤) #also my whole ramble abt morality (in the tags too) is relevant to. any topic really #i may just make a separate post about it really. .....tomorrow tho.

[oceandiagonale]

As I understand it, Guzma is the SURVIVOR of the original Team Skull. Basically an old Kahuna pulled some shit, the original group got smited, and Guzma rebuilt the team but as a haven for kids that had nowhere else to go that he had wished for in his own childhood (those golf clubs wtf Gamefreak).

that's what it totally feels like it's implying, but some of the wording is so ambiguous, I wish we had a clearer picture of everything 😭😭😭

#oceandi answers #kriss-watches-stuff #team skull #the way they say that it came from one of the old kahunas -- when nanu seems to have been kahuna for a while -- really makes it confusing #though I guess that also depends on how old we think nanu is???? his age is pretty unclear he could be anywhere from 35-60 skjdfksjdf #considering how long ago the first UB incident was and looker seeming to be younger than he is and LOOKER looks like.... maybe 30-40?? nanu #is probably solidly 45-50????? maybe????? and from hapu and olivia we know people can become kahunas at a young-to-young-adult age #but on the other hand if he was in interpol back when he was younger and then the UB incident happened and THEN he became kahuna -- or he #was both at the same time/? interpol and kahuna?????? anyways if guz took over directly after the previous kahuna did some shit then nanu #would have become kahuna shortly after and we'd have to base everything around nanu's timeline #man but the wording -- ONE of the old kahunas #it could mean so many things. anyone know what the original japanese lines are?? sometimes the translations add or subtract nuance skdjhfkj

[johndonneswife]

someone really should be talking about how difficult it is to plan a wedding - a gay wedding - when both of your families fucking suck

#who is talking about this!!!! let me know #idk i have 0 expectations for my family but they still somehow always manage to let me down which #i was anticipating #and i didn’t think i would care because i have never cared before #but liiiiiike. #i wasn’t expecting to feel sad rofl but my family is so fucking flaky. again i KNOW THIS i know i cannot rely on any of them #it’s annoying when i have given them a year and a half to make plans and i have had so many people tell me they would be there #just to back out or ghost or come up with some excuse #like do you know how expensive weddings are 😭 JUST fucking be honest with me and rsvp no #anyway i was very intentional with the few family members i did invite #and specifically invited people i have a rapport with / had a good (ish lol) relationship with growing up #people i have bent over backwards trying to please!!! and dropping everything to help them out #and they can’t even be bothered to communicate with me lol it’s fine. like. i do feel like it’s internalized homophobia at this point #or maybe they have hated me this entire time which is totally plausible #but they KNOW how much ayesha means to me and knows that no one from her family is coming to our wedding #at the end of the day it’s going to be like. 5 people from my family 1 from ayesha’s (her brother) and like 30-40 friends #which i am so grateful for obviously #i sound like such a brat but it’s also like - watching your family continuously choose drugs/alcohol over showing up for you - lol #AGAIN i’m used to this and expected as much but i’m still feeling bad #just rsvp so i can move on with my life please. stop telling me you’re trying to make it work when we both know you aren’t #i have so much more to say but i’m going to sound crazy even though i knooooow it is homophobia like i Know it #i think there are certain people i will finally go no contact with for good after this #which is a freeing thought but i only invited v few family members to begin with. there’s abt to be no one left lmao #probably for the best #ugh whatever #again i can’t help but feel a certain way when they have done more/traveled further for relatives they hardly know #meanwhile i was forced to spend so much of my life living for these people and for them alone #AAAAAAAA i just want to scream #text

[torchickentacos]

anyways. having fun with the album project thing I mentioned. Using the flat small brush from here for krita. One brush only, no undo button, all done on 1/54th of a 1.5k x 1k canvas. it's actually pretty therapeutic, I listen to the album I'm drawing while I draw it. This does mean that for AM I got to like. track 2 though and most of that was bc of formatting issues lol.

#vent in tags though bc i need. somewhere that isn't yet another 4:30 am vent google doc. too many of those and they're not helping #i don't want to talk but i don't want to be fully alone right now but i can't just spring this on someone in dms either so . tags it is #tw death. like really not a fun time over on torchickentacos dot tumblr dot com right now. genuine warning here #but i'm not doing well and i need this right now. anyways told my therapist i feel like i should be more okay right now than I am #and he was like. you. think you should be MORE okay after someone you knew died? #like. ah. hm. i see. now. how that might not be rational thinking. #i mean in my brain it was like. okay we're approaching day three and i haven't reached back out to my other irls #and i'm awake at 4 am #and i feel like need to pull it together because other people need me for stuff #and like. this happened before but harder. i should KNOW that there's no way to expedite this #because unfortunately I've been through this before!!! people make that choice to leave and it sucks and that's that! #like i KNOW how hard this is especially since it's a very personal topic. #but i'm still trying to rush myself here #it stresses me out to think that I'm not there enough for myself to be there for other people right now #sigh. i wonder how much of it's because i feel like i should have been there for those friends more even though it's irrational. #because that's genuinely not how it fucking works and I KNOW THAT PERSONALLY yet I still put that on myself. #people can have all the support they need and still choose to not take it. and there's not a damn thing you can do about it. #well. tomorrow i return to socializing and being a human person again #little bit at a time.

[silverduckie]

....okay so I dmed someone to remove a gif of mine because they reposted it from a watermarked set that explictly said in the body of the post that those gifs are not allowed to be resposted, right? (and the watermark was still in the gif even 😂) And like they did it, and in the time it took me to type a thank you message, they just deleted their account????

#like dude i was just gonna let it slide after you removed my gif like... yeah I did warn them if they didn't remove it I was gonna like #make a public post about the theft but like... you removed it - all I care about. Other gif makers will defend their own gifs like #i'll be honest when I went into the actor's tag for self-care because this week is rough and saw that I was pissed so I was mean for me lik #wasn't my harshest moment in the dms with this stuff but definitely wasn't my normal super friendly hey i assume you didn't #see the disclaimer but- message style either - i was very firm #listen there's only so many times you can be nice and someone tells you to kill yourself before you're no longer nice in the initial messag #i've been giffing over a decade i'm tired and that scene alone took 30+ minutes to color because it came out of netflix's asshole i stg <3 #like i offered to reupload the scene for them too if they wanted to just gif it themselves okay but god #wish fanfic writers understood the whole if you wouldn't want someone to steal your entire fic don't steal gifs #like literally i can only speak for myself but I work with fanfic writers who dm me BEFORE they steal the gif like... just shoot me a #message - I'm usually pretty nice unless you literally stole my shit after I asked you not to

[christianborle]

there’s a local theater near me putting on something rotten! and I kind of want to go but I also feel like it’s gonna be so weird to see the show again????

#if you didn’t know i saw something rotten 27 times on Broadway #it was a big hyperfixation #so when you’ve seen only one or two casts perform it in a certain production so many times #and on broadway level scale #it feels so weird to see it in another context #if this was any other show I’d be like nice cool! #but this is a show I know like the back of my hand like I’m so specific about it #like what if it’s bad idk!!! #it’s also $30 #which I totally understand why they are charging that much it makes sense #but reader I’m poor I don’t spend over $10 these days #and if I decide I’m uncomfortable and want to leave then i wasted my money #it’s like. that musical transports me back to 2015 #and it’s a huge emotional toll to go back to that time for me #if I’m gonna rewatch SR and put myself back there it’s gotta be WORTH IT u know #listening to the score opens a whole can of worms it’s overwhelming #I can’t just Casually go see a production of SR because of what it means to me #is anyone reading these novel of a tags lol #does anyone understand my hesitation

[violettierre]

I just watched oshinoko and im really confused about the concept

#there's so much going on just from the first episode #im hesitated to continue #im curious about this revenge plot but also not that interested i really didn't get it as much #like like let me get this straight so the doctor and the random girl reincarnated as her kids and they're just simping over their mom ?? #ew dude reincarnated ir not it's still your mom #im mostly disgusted about the 'love' concept in there not gonna sugarcoat it #And by that i mean tf is a grown ass doctor most likely in his 30 doing falling for a pregnant 16 y/o #aside from unprofessional AND illegal the reasoning is really dumb like ? just cuz a sick kid is a fan of hers you're just in love now? #what? #that's just some of the stuff #i suppose it's like a mystery crime drama musical romance supernatural or some shit what's the genre again ? #i suppose i understood some ideas about what the anime is about #like the dark side of the entertainment industry i think #but just saying the way it was narrated is weird #alot were hyping the anime this spring so there's probably more to it than i saw #i understand many saw the good stuff in it that i didn't #so i don't know

[love-fireflysong]

I AM A PLATFORMING GOD!!!!!!

(...except not really cause I still need the 38 time trial relics for that coveted 106% 😭)

#crash 4 #holy shit can't believe i finally did #took me for fucking ever but all the n.sane relics are officially mine #now all that's left is to do the time trials and that shiny platinum trophy will finally be mine 😤 #fun thing though is how im supposed to respond if someone asks how long it took me #if we're counting from when i played the game for the very first time back in june #then eight months #but if we're starting from my ps4 harddrive shit the bed and i had to do EVERYTHING over from scratch #(and i mean literally everything like i had 30/38 of the n.sane relics) #then just 4 months #which is funny cause it took me like only a month to get 29 of those n.sane relics the first time #and then THREE MONTHS to get crash landed's #only to lose all that progress the very next day after i finally beat it #that level was giving me so many problems and for absolutely no reason #that being said this time i beat it in like a couple of hours so that was a plus sjkhskdfhsdf #contrary to what i sounds like though i actually beat each level WAY faster the second time around #only reason it took me longer was because i was only playing the game for like an hour a day and not the 8+ i had been doing before #successfully caught up to where i was before the fated crash (hehe) just before the new year #and completed the last eight levels plus the 6 flashback tapes i was missing over janurary #now to see how long those platinum time trial relics will take me lol

[sheerioswifties]

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#so today i broke down and fully cried over realizing the reality that i probably won't be able to go see Taylor on this tour #and i felt so stupid for it like crying over not getting to see a concert seems so trivial and i mean so many reasons but like #and like i don't cry much anymore like I've been through and am in so much pain and horrible stuff constantly and so much stress and trauma #but I've built up strength to not cry over those things like if i did I'd just be crying nonstop so i channel my emotions into trying to #solve the problems and like still I'm so unbelievably stressed but like also as an empath i feel everything really deeply but usually lately #the things that make me cry are more like sweet animal rescue videos acts of kindness touching stories or really deeply inspirational or #relatable things in books etc but so like I'm like mad at myself for crying over this but #i checked the stubhub like prices for what tix are going for and it's fucking over 500 a pop for nosebleeds i just #it's infuriating the scalping and how many hard core fans are unable to go bc of that but rich ppl who aren't really fans i just. 1000 bucks #for 300 level is just no I'm sorry that's not ever gonna happen and i just #i really thought I'd just find tickets over time closer to the event like that's how I've done several concerts but then i looked and saw #that and I'm like oh my god and that's before fees and then there's the gas to get there the repairs that need to be done to the car to get #there all the other fees involved and in realizing oh my god like I've been overconfident and now i don't see a way and I'm so sad and i #just broke down its i know iy seems stupid but first this feels like something that might not happen again anytime soon if ever the way the #world is going out could be last chance and rep tour was the first time I'd been able to see Taylor to begin with and the experience was SO #amazing it's like the one thing i looked forward to this year that lifted me up in really dark times and again i feel shitty when there's so #many fans who never get to see her international too i just. I'm sorry I'm just like this breaks my heart on levels and like #i hate how money dictates everything i hate that i went to eds last tour tickets in the same venue were 30 DOLLARS and even the Taylor ones #i think were like 75 and now it's so high bc only scalping it's so fucked up and like I'm already in a really bad hole money wise bc of #an emergency issue that happened and I've got some scary medical things going on waiting on tests and having trouble with rent and food and #gas so like i can't even try to be like. you know? like justify trying to save up that much even when i got all this #i just.

[aeide-thea]

not to be like 'if your mental picture of Men is a dismissively vitriolic generalization based on (a) some bullshit you dredged up on twitter and (b) the men you personally know, all of whom are apparently blinkered cishet white conservatives and may or may not be your father, you may want to expand that picture and also your social circle,' but.

#like. misogyny is real and poisonous. #also some of the people in my life most outraged by the dobbs decision are men. VERY much including my 69-year-old cishet white father. #i really think it's doable to discuss how misogyny works on a structural level #and even acknowledge the ways many men benefit from it‚ both systemically and individually #without saying No Man Understands That Misogyny Is a Thing #bc i promise you many of them do‚ in fact‚ and are even themselves adversely affected by it in a variety of ways #but that would involve being open to sites of solidarity—being careful with each other so we can be dangerous together‚ etc— #and so many people would rather regurgitate reactive‚ chauvinistic‚ binaristic circling-the-wagons rhetoric #because it feels good to be the one sneering for once #like. god knows obliviously sexist men (and for that matter actively deliberately sexist men) are really‚ really real #there's no 'but' there: they're real #AND it's easier to move towards better things if we take better men by the hand and ally with them #such that the shitty ones become the marginalized‚ ostracized minority #i don't know. everybody loves an angry over-general rhetorical flourish‚ and i'm not immune to that urge #but i just think. the more we do our social surgery with scalpels instead of cleavers‚ the more precise our work will be #which means less collateral damage and easier healing #anyway. forgive the tag spiral. i get frustrated. #that said presumably no one will actually see this bc it's like 2:30 AM‚ lol #theory

[2nd-mushroom-circle]

update on my murder mystery fairytale campaign: i become absolutely obsessed with each new character i write. which is the ideal scenario, but it’s hard to write puzzles when i’m on hour 46 of rotating a non-binary family disappointment with anger issues in my brain like microwave popcorn

#their name is tal #short for nemetal auguste #they’re the king’s younger sibling and they’ve spent the last 10 years since their divorce #getting into fights all over the country and getting bailed out with their trust fund #(the kingdom is part of a larger country. it’s like a state but the governor is called king) #anyways their brother is about to cut them off and that will cause Problems #i’m so affectionate about this 30-year-old disaster and their rock bottom self worth #the other new character i wrote is a trans wizard #she’s trying to solve immortality #using a synthesis of magic no one’s ever used before #she’s brilliant and antisocial and maybe doesn’t care quite enough about ethics #which of course means she’s incredibly hot #like so many characters in this campaign #she also uses a cane and i’m trying to decide what animal should be carved into it #anyways that’s your worldbuilding update #tal and genevieve #i’ve also written a couple fey but… that’s another problem #wktk #wktk tal #wktk vieve

[daydadahlias]

just wanted to say how much I appreciate your fics. I'm in a really hard chapter of life right now and reading your fics allows me some much needed happy escapism. I've read everything on your AO3 several times and I'm always so excited when you post something new. so big big thanks 🤍

I’m sorry things are rough for you right now; I genuinely hope they get better soon (and I know they will!!) but until they do, I’m so glad that my fics can help in any way. Writing has always been a much needed happy escapism for me so it’s a wonderful thing to know that what I write to help me can help others. That’s reason enough to keep writing right there! All the motivation I need. Thank you so much for telling me this. 💙🥺

#pigeon #anon #sigh #trying to make me cry at 1 am I see u #I haven’t had much time to write lately bc ✨school✨ and i already miss it sm #I know new stuff is gonna be scarce from me in this coming year which I’m bummed abt ofc #but it just means everything I DO get to post is going to be made with so much love and dedication #this upcoming fic I’m writing is one I’ve wanted to work on for a While now and I’m really excited to finish it and share it #whenever that may be #it’s really nice to know that — even when fandom is kind of… quieter these days — there are still people who look forward to my stuff #it’ll also just never fail to… really hit me when people say they’ve read All my stuff y’know #like 2-3 things I get #but I have… how many fics? 60? #to think someone has read all of those — or even just over 30!!! that’s insane #that’s so many stories #yeah. #it’s a really powerful thing and… kind of overwhelming in the best way to think about #anyway thank you thank you thank you