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neoarchipelago · 1 year

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And they were Roommates (Part 20)

A/N: there is.. SO MUCH happening in this chapter like.. Even i was overwhelmed. here it is my darling.

WARNINGS: mention of death.

The team was a mess. You had immediately driven back to the base, Kate meeting you there. A team was gathered with the squad to find any clues. You were sitting at your desk, viewing every single camera on the base trying to find a hint. You had a feeling they were alive. Your anxiety was making a mess out of you. You were nauseous.

"Y/N."

You turned your head to Kate. The firm and stern look on her face betrayed her own anxiety.

"Hopkins is here."

You got up, following her out. The squad were right outside the door.

"Kate." Price said.

"We're meeting Hopkins." She informed.

"Very well. I'm sending Soap with you, I have to brief the team you got me."

She nodded soap hurrying up to you. He stood, sharing glances with Simon, a hint of a nod sent to each other. He had orders from Simon to remain with you. You knew it. He was worried too. Worried about the girl's and worried about you. It had crushed you already to lose him a little over a month ago.

If you were honest with yourself, you didn't know how to feel. You were broken. They meant so much to you. A part of you was in denial, trying to convince you that it wasn't what it seemed. That they were ok. That Eric didn't take them.

Because it was obvious to you. It was Eric. Walking to the meeting room you felt your anger rise. The doors opened and the view of the general was enough to make you snap.

"You incompetent asshole!" You let out.

Soap was taken aback. He let a 'damn…" under his breath.

"Sparrow, I would like to remind you that one of my men is dead." He answered in an angry tone.

"It wouldn't have happened if literally any FUCKING criminal wasn't able to get into this high security base like a fucking candy store!"

"Sparrow, calm down." Kate tried.

You took a deep breath soap trying to pat your shoulder. You turned to him, his little scaredy look made you calm down a bit.

"Listen. We're doing everything to find them and discover what happened. We got all hands on deck." Hopkins countered.

"You better fucking be."

"Sparrow. Our priority is to find them. To find the girls but to also catch Sergeant Eric."

You frowned, something was telling you that he had other goals in this story.

"What are you hiding?" You asked, crossing your arms.

"Excuse me?"

"Don't even try to fucking lie to me."

He stood silent.

"What did they promise you? What price did they put on Eric's head?"

"It's not-"

"You make me sick."

"A little over dramatic sparrow." He stated.

"No! Literally. You make me sick…"

"What..?" Soap asked, confused.

"I have to throw up…"

You felt absolutely horrible. You could feel the nausea. It was so sudden. You spun around running for the door, hoping to reach the bathroom on time.

"Sparrow! What?!" You heard Kate.

You were already out the door. You could hear soap running after you in the hallway. Barely making it to the bathroom, you swing the door open before dropping to your knees feeling your stomach clench. God… you hated to throw up. The burning sensation, the lingering taste. Two hands wrapped around your hair, lifting it up. Looking up for a split second you threw a thankful look at soap before another fit of nausea hit you.

"Are you ok? Shit Y/N…" soap worried.

Another person ran in, you heard it but you couldn't look behind. The voice was very recognizable though.

"What happened? Kate told me to get a water bottle and come here… Y/N are you throwing up?"

"No bishop… I'm trying to find Nemo…"

You didn't need to see her to know she had rolled her eyes. She chuckled behind you.

"John, are you alright? You look terrified." She teased.

"She's throwing up… why is she throwing up? LT is going to murder me…"

You let out a very weak laugh.

"Did you make her throw up?" She kept teasing.

"What?! No! I think Hopkins did!"

"What?" Margo asked, confused as well now.

"Yeah she said he made her sick!"

"I don't think he actually made her sick John…"

"Guys…" you interrupted.

Bishop walked closer wrapping her hand around your hair, placing the cool water bottle at the back of your neck. You yelped at the cold feeling, but it soothed you.

"You alright?" She asked.

"I think so…"

You opened your closed eyes, sitting back. You heard her flush, thankful for not having to do it, you'd probably puke again if you had to look. You felt a soft wind on your face, opening your eyes to Bishop fanning you with some file.

"Thank you Margo…" you whined.

"No problem, love. You ate something bad?" She asked.

"I think… I think it's the stress. It's been a wreck for the past few hours." You tried.

"You haven't rested… have you eaten something? It's pretty late…" she checked her watch, wincing. "Come on, let's get you up."

Soap scrambled behind you, helping you up with Margo and walking you to the sink. You washed your face, gurgling to try to erase the awful taste lingering on your tongue. Bishop handed you the fresh water bottle.

"Are you alright?"

You met Soap's eyes in the mirror. You smiled at him, throwing a small nod.

"Could you please call price… tell him to finish the meeting with Hopkins and Kate?" You tried.

"Yeah yeah yeah…"

You smiled, turning to look at bishop. You melted at the soft look she sent the man dialing on his phone. Meeting your gaze she winked before wrapping her arms around you.

"Sergeant ?" You heard.

He had but it on high speaker.

"Huh captain. Could you finish the meeting?"

"Finish the meeting? What happened?"

"Hum… Hopkins made her sick…"

"Soap!" You and bishop countered.

"Sergeant, what?"

"Y/N threw up, I'm with her and bishop."

"She what?!" Another voice called.

Fuck…

"I'm fine! I'm ok! It's probably just stress. Simon.."

"Alright. I'll get on with the meeting, lieutenant take care of the brief. Soap, get to the brief."

You heard a faint 'pass it over' on the other side before soap turned off the high speaker and passed the phone to you.

"Simon…" you started.

"Are you alright?"

"I'm fine really… it's just the stress… the anxiety…"

"Baby. I'll find them. Rest."

"Simon…"

"Get one of the rooms and rest. Baby please…"

"What if something happens?"

"You'll be the first to know. I'll make sure."

"Alright…"

"Good girl… I love you."

"I love you…"

Handing the phone over to soap you heard bishop chuckle in your ear. Soap nodded both your ways, throwing a wink at bishop before running out the door.

"Come on let's get you to rest."

"You heard?..."

"I'm literally standing right next to you. Come on baby" she teased.

It had been a few hours. Kate had asked to prepare some meeting room for you and the team. Computers were set messily around the room where everyone kept typing. You were sitting on a pile of pillows and blankets dropped on a giant bean bag. It irritated you. Being treated like a little doll. Tiredness was screaming otherwise. You sat with your laptop on your lap. Riley laid down next to you. His protectiveness increased in the last few days.

Two things had been uncovered. Firstly, it was Eric. You could clearly see on the video cameras. Secondly, they had left the base already. To your luck, he had only left the base a few hours before you discovered the body, probably realizing that you'd all find it strange. Everyone had switched to a bigger circle of search.

Hopkins had sent pictures to all airports, bus stations, train stations and police stations.

You didn't rest. How could you? Time kept ticking, the more it ticked the less chances you got to find them. Snacks were brought to you, some take-out food that you had very quickly downed, not realizing how hungry you were. The nausea came and went, thankfully not bringing you down to your knees again.

"Got it!!"

You jumped at Coyote's voice. Liz brought everyone's attention to her screen, a camera pointing to an old decrepit motel, two figures and a child entering one of the rooms.

"Send location to Hopkins and local cops." You ordered, trying to stand.

"Already on it." Grim added.

It took five minutes for the boys to get to the conference room. Simon had immediately rushed to you, holding you close.

"Simon…" you whispered to him.

"I'm right here. Whatever happens. I'm here."

It wasn't anxiety anymore. It was something much worse. A heavy sword seemed to linger over your head, ready to slam down on you. Eternity stretched through the seconds, silence and heartbeats filling the room. Hushed breaths, and hugs around. Price held Liz close to her, bishop nested in soap's arms as grim's small body was engulfed in a big bear hug by Konig. Gaz remained close to Richard and Aquila. Kate remained close, hawk gaze watching everyone. Everyone was turned to the wall where a projector showed the current operations on field.

You couldn't breathe. The only thing echoing was the few operation calls and orders the cops were throwing around on the field. The closer they got to the room, the sicker you felt. The sword kept trembling dangerously, threatening to fall. Your hands were fisted in Simon's tactical shirt, his arms tight around you, making sure to trap you in his warmth.

Your heartbeat was deafening to your ears. It crushed the little sanity you were trying to keep. You were unsure if you heard correctly when the news fell. When the captain on the field broke the news. You felt Simon's hand tangling in your hair bringing you to his chest as he kissed the top of your head, the other hand rubbing your back. Your voice was shaking when you repeated the news out loud. Trying to fully grasp the reality.

"She's dead."

And then, the sword fell.

You cried. Yes you did. Silently. Simon had held you the entire time, he hadn't left. The team had gotten back to searching, this time to an obsessive extent. He was still out there. With Amy. You felt like you had no time to grieve. None. Amy was the only thing on your mind. The boys had shifted. Cold gazes and threatening voices. You had never seen them like this. Ever. The rage and anger filled them and Simon was more than restless. When you had let him go he had immediately turned to his gear, getting ready. Riley remained close to you, never leaving your side, but keeping an eye on Simon.

Glances and touches were still shared. Silent comfort and promise. You were glued to your screen. Long gone were the legal ways to track them. Between anger, worry and rage especially against Hopkins, you hated yourself. For not protecting her. For not doing something sooner.

Suddenly you were hungry. Starving. You frowned.

"Y/N… you alright?" Liz asked.

You looked up, now feeling very scrutinized by everyone.

"Y-yeah… I'm just a bit hungry."

Bishop frowned.

"Come on, let's get something to eat. I think we all need it. John, will you come with us?" She said.

You were going to complain, refuse, unfortunately Simon fully agreed. You looked at him, pleading, but he dropped another kiss to your head, before asking you to please go with them. The rest of the team reassured you they wouldn't let go of their objectives. You were finally convinced. Mostly because they were still working. And they deserved something to eat. Heading out with the couple, you followed silently, not participating in the small conversation. Bishop had excused herself while you and soap met with Kate, planning something for everyone to eat, whether it was take-out again or not.

The sun was already rising, now realizing everyone had spent the night awake. Your mind wondered, remembering the first time you and Melissa met. Her warm smile and welcomingness. The gossip, chit chat and movie nights. It brought tears to your eyes. You wanted to crumble again. Cry out, the pain in your chest constricting your breathing. Or.. was it something else? You were having heartburns. You frowned through tears. You brushed it away, mind focusing back on Amy.

Little Amy. She must be terrified. You didn't think he'd hurt her. He'd want to keep her for him. What Melissa had feared was slowly becoming reality, it was up to you and the team to stop it. Get Amy back, and be there for her.

"Hey, sparrow!"

You looked up, seeing bishop. You wiped your tears, walking to her. She grabbed your wrist pulling you behind her, Soap soon following, curious.

Pushing past a door, you looked around.

"Why are we in the bathroom again?" You questioned.

She rummaged through a plastic bag before handing you a box. You read it before gasping. You were going to say something but Soap beat you to it.

"A pregnancy test?! Are you pregnant?"

What? Couldn't be possible. You were on the pill. You shook your head.

"Margo… I'm on the pill… I can't…"

"Are you sure? Didn't miss a day? I recognize the signs I have a kid."

"No..no… I took it . Even…"

You froze. Did you? When you had received the news of Simon's death. When you had given up on working or when you had met them on field. Did you take it? Now doubt settled in. Heading towards the stalls you questioned yourself. Through the whole test you tried to remind yourself if you had missed something.

You walked out putting down the test, waiting.

"Listen it's ok."

"No… it's not. Melissa just died. I need to find Amy. We didn't talk about kids with Simon. How will he even react if that test is positive?!"

Panic swept you like a tidal wave. The nausea was back.

"Ok, just breathe Y/N. Whatever happens you are not alone. We are going to find Amy ok? " Margo comforted you.

"Honestly… I don't think Simon will back down. He's not that type of man." Soap added in a serious tone.

"I'm not scared of that johnny… but I don't want to force him into something he doesn't want."

Margo reached for the test, and you looked away. Soap looked down with her.

"What does it mean?" Soap questioned.

You found the courage to look at them, Margo looking up at you.

"It's positive."

Leg bouncing, you kept staring at the screen. Riley put his head on your leg, trying to soothe you. You were so close to getting them. So close. Thoughts kept running around in your head. You'd throw glances at Simon when he wasn't looking. Positive. The test was positive. How could you tell him? Especially right now? You wanted to find Amy and bring her home. That's all you wanted.

"Bunny…"

You shivered, looking up. His hand rose to your cheek, eyes filled with worry.

"You alright?"

You didn't know what to answer. No. You weren't. You were angry, sad, worried… happy. You were feeling too much.

"I'm… tired. I want Amy here." You let out in a whisper.

He dropped to a crouch in front of you, getting to your eye level. He held both of your hands.

"I'm going to find her. I'll bring her to us. I give you my word."

His gaze was intense. Feral. Angry, possessive, determined. You felt yourself melt, but you needed to test the waters.

"We're going to have a kid running around the house."

He took a deep breath.

"Yes we will."

"Simon… this is my responsibility… you don't have to-"

"You think I'll run away? Do you think so low of me?" He looked hurt.

"No! No… it's not what I meant. It's just… we didn't discuss this."

"I don't need to discuss. Amy is as important to me as she is to you." He explained, brushing his thumb across your cheek.

"I'll be there for my princesses."

You smiled. You wanted to tell him. You wanted to. But you were frozen. This was so much already. So much. How could you just let out that he was going to be a father. More than just a father figure to Amy.

"FOUND THEM!"

Both of your heads snapped towards car keys.

"Richard ?!" You yelled.

"Sending location right now!! Grim help me keep track!!"

"I'm on it!"

"I'll get on it too!" Liz added.

"Gear up! Let's go!" Price ordered.

Simon dropped a hurried kiss on top of your head before rushing out. You stood up, you and bishop following them.

Everyone hurried up the stairs, Kate joining near the humvees.

"We got accepted to intervene. Try to get as few casualties as possible and less chaos. Just bring the kid back." Kate explained as the team was finishing up, boys getting in the humvee, Riley following.

Simon brought you to his arms, foreheads connecting.

"Bring her back… please bring her back Simon…"

"I promise. I will."

You smiled at him as he separated.

"Guess I'm gonna have to step up as a father now." He teased, a hint of a smile on his face.

"Oh you already told him?!" Soap rang from the window of the humvee. You frowned before opening your eyes wide.

"Can't fucking WAIT to be an uncle! I mean a pregnant woman and a child around the house is going to be-"

Simon's head snapped back to Soap, eyes wide in shock. You were hyperventilating. Margo hugged your shoulders. Trying to calm you down. Simon turned to you, eyes wide in shock. Soap slowly returned inside of the humvee, pretending to not exist as he realized he fucked up.

"What..?" Simon asked, eyes shifting to your stomach.

You opened your mouth but you froze. What could you say?

"I… I'm going to find Amy." He simply added, turning around before getting into the humvee.

You wanted to cry again. Unsure if you could even do it, after all the crying of the last 16 hours.

"Hey. I'll make sure you guys talk. I won't let him run away."

You turned to price, nodding slightly before he also rushed to the humvee.

Did he hate you? Was he angry? God. Too many life changing events in the couple of hours.

"Come on. Let's get back to the conference room. We got to help them. Take your mind off of it for now."

You took a deep breath, a few tears running down your cheeks. You nodded heading towards the building.

Pacing back and forth you took deep breaths. Your mind tried to rewind through the day's events. Two hours had passed since the boys left. Your friend… was killed. Her daughter was kidnapped. You were now the child's legal guardian. You were pregnant. You were pregnant.

"Oh god…" you let out, letting yourself lean forward on the table.

"Everything's going to be alright…" grim assured you.

"I'm pregnant…" you repeated, more to yourself than anything.

"What?" Car keys asked.

"She's … pregnant." Bishop added.

"Oh my god! That's amazing!" Liz claimed happily.

You looked up. The team was beaming. Smiles and happy expressions surrounded you. Congratulations and warm praises sent your way. Yes. It was good news. Right? Not only will you be Amy's legal guardian, though the circumstances are horrible… but you're going to be a mother.

You wanted Simon. You needed him. You just wanted to see him walk in, Amy in his arms.

"Boy or girl?" Bishop asked.

"Excuse me?" You blinked.

"I say boy!" Car keys added.

"Nah. Girl." Liz added.

"I agree with Liz. Girl." Grim chimmed in.

"Guys…" you tried.

The lighthearted conversation could almost make you forget the horror the last day had been.

"You think we'll have a little sparrow or a little ghost running around?" Grim asked.

A little ghost… a little Simon. The idea made your heart melt. Oh god. You were falling in love with the idea. But you couldn't. Not yet. It was… too early. You couldn't think of it now.

The door slammed open, making everyone jump.

"They're back." Kate announced in a stern voice.

You ran. You flew out the door. The stairs were jumped two by two. You vaguely heard Kate tell you to slow down, that you were going to fall. Fortunately, you didn't. Everyone on the way just stepped away. The sun was almost blinding. The humvee came to a stop, price and gaz hopping out. Soap and Konig followed before finally. Finally. Simon appeared, a small frame in his arms.

You let out something that resembled a cry of relief and pain. Amy saw you, her rosy cheeks soaked with tears. Little arms extended to you. You immediately took her in your arms, holding her close.

"I'm so sorry… so sorry… I'm right here princess." You let out in between hushed cries.

Feeling two arms surround you, you looked at Simon, his eyes stuck on you.

"Thank you…"

His gaze softened.

"I gave you my word."

You smiled up at him, a hint of smile under his mask. The team stood not too far, warm looks and heavy hearts. Simon suddenly tensed.

"You did good captain."

The voice made you freeze. Hopkins. You spun around, still holding the little girl close. You frowned, looking at the woman in a suit next to him. Kate frowned, stepping in front of you.

"General?" She questioned.

"This is Miss Kenneth. She's a social worker for-"

"No." You interrupted. "I have legal guardianship, Amy isn't going anywhere."

Riley growled next to you. Simon grew furious.

"The documents will have to be checked, if you do have guardianship she'll be back in no time." The woman explained with a soft smile that made you sick.

"No. You don't understand." Simon growled. "She's not going anywhere."

"Lieutenant -" Hopkins started.

"Kate. Get me on a meeting with the secretary. Right now."

Was it the pregnancy? The fact you had lost too much. The threat in Hopkins's voice when he called your man's rank? Perhaps the way the little blond curls hugged you tightly, terrified.

"Sparrow."

"No. You're done." You spat.

You walked away, everyone following you, Riley at your side, on alert. You felt incredibly thankful, for the way everyone surrounded you, making sure to shield you and Amy. Simon's hand rested on your lower back, never leaving.

"I'll go get the jeep." Simon whispered into your ear.

You nodded, feeling him walk away. Price and soap followed him, getting their own cars. You stood, waiting, with the rest of the team surrounding you. Amy sniffled in your arms.

"Ma..mama…"

You felt yourself break inside. The little voice filled with hiccups.

"I know… I'm… I'm here my love."

"You… stay?...pwomise?"

"Oh baby. Forever. Me and Simon. I promise."

The black jeep flew into view, before coming to a sudden stop. Two cars following right behind.

"Go home. I'll take care of things here." Kate said, already typing on her phone.

"I'll help. Everyone go." Price added.

You didn't need another word. Simon opened the car as you sat down, Amy still in your arms. Riley jumped in the back before Simon sat back down at the driver's seat.

"We're going home. It's ok darling…" you hushed the little girl.

She sat on your lap, getting her head out of your neck for the first time. The blond curls were tangled, blue eyes filled with tears, rosy cheeks. Her little hand held onto your shirt tightly, as if you were going to vanish. She looked at Simon, as he glanced at her, she extended one of her hands. He gave her his, her hand holding his pinky finger.

You remained like this, driving off and heading home.

The evening was stretching out. The sun was lowering itself in the sky. You sat down in your chair, in the corner of your room, looking at the little girl sleeping in your bed. You had given her a bath, made her eat, soap and bishop had rushed back to Melissa's house getting clothes, toys, and other necessities. The little girl slept soundly, a little raggedy plush in her arms.

You turned your head to the silhouette at the door gaining your attention. Simon stood, mask off, looking at you and the little girl. He has showered too, switching to gray sweatpants and tshirt. He walked to you slowly, taking a seat in your desk chair, making it roll towards you.

"How are you feeling..?" He whispered.

"I… I'm a mess." You answered honestly in a hushed tone.

He grabbed your hand, rubbing it in between both of his.

"I… I still can't wrap my head around the fact that Melissa's gone…"

"I know… it's… it was really sudden."

You wanted to laugh, but you held back, not wanting to wake the child.

"Sudden? Everything was sudden in the past few 24h. Melissa and Amy being kidnapped… Melissa… is gone. I'm… pregnant. Fuck…"

You let your head fall, hand falling over your eyes.

"Hey… breathe. Let's talk this out."

You looked up at him.

"How did it happen? Aren't you on the pill?" He asked.

You frowned.

"I'm not putting the blame. There's no blame. It takes two to make a kid… and it's not like we don't do it…"

Hushed voice were heard, you glanced at the door, gaz and soap waving and looking angrily at Simon. You frowned.

"Hum… they're supposed to be here for morale support.." he whispered, looking confused.

Price appeared in a flash, grabbing the two man by the collar before pulling them back. He reached for the door handle, closing it with a soft smile your way. You bit your lip. You wanted to laugh. You needed a deep breath to finally get your head back into the very serious discussion you were having.

"I forgot about it. My pill, I mean. When… i received the news that… you've been KIA… i kinda broke down for a few days, including the trip on the field."

He listened carefully, still holding your hand. His features seemed to have softened. He did look panicked, although less as you spoke.

"I think… the… bath we took together…" you blushed. You remembered that moment. The love making in the tub, holding each other close. Feeling all the relief to be back together.

"Yeah. Probably." He grinned.

You rolled your eyes softly.

"Listen. My father… was not a good man. He was. Horrible. Abusive."

Your other hand reached his, now holding them together.

"I always thought. I would never be able to be a father. Because I never had a good example. I… was scared." He continued.

"I understand… I don't think you'd be a bad father at all. I see the way you act with Amy… but, what made you change your mind?"

"Price. I realized I did have some kind of father figure example. And… a very good one."

You melted, letting your head fall to the side. One of his hands rose to your cheek, thumb softly caressing the skin.

"I… will do everything, to be a good father. To be the best for you. Amy. And… the baby…"

You felt tears prickle in your eyes.

"I know you will… I trust you with everything."

He smiled. Soft cries made you jolt up, Simon immediately rising to his feet. Turning to the little girl, squirming in her sleep you rushed with him to her side.

"Hey.. hey… monkey, we're here…" you softly hushed her.

Her blue eyes blinked open, already glossy with tears. She extended two little hands towards you and Simon, each of you holding it as you laid down next to her.

"It's alright princess. No one will ever touch you again." Simon murmured to her.

She cuddled up to him as you felt your heart ready to burst. Yes… he'll be an amazing father.

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ok first of all... i'm sorry

second of all, we are getting dangerously close to the ending... and i would like to thank you guys.

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pineappleciders · 1 year

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heyy first of all its me the fucked up dream anon (now going by dream anon how original) second of all ive decided im going to learn about south park purely through your work so can i get some tweek (ive latched onto that boy) and whoever else you want (probably the main boys) with a reader (all platonic ofc) who's got that #anxiety? thanks even if you dont do it <33

🌌🌟/dream anon

main 4 + tweek with a reader who has anxiety; platonic headcanons

A/N: haii :3 i apologize if this like, distorts your vision of the characters or something. i am so glad you are being converted to the religion of tweek!!!!!!

TRIGGER WARNING: anxiety disorders, light mental health topics, paranoia, panic/anxiety attacks, death mention on kennys part

stan marsh

i think stan has a normal amount of anxiety. like he's so regular. he's your average joe

like he gets anxious over tests, and giving speeches, and over wendy. other than that he doesn't experience it to the extent of a disorder

so it might be a little difficult for him to imagine getting anxious over simple things like ordering food and stuff like that

he'll try his best to listen though, although he'll probably try to kinda reason with you, esp if you're feeling paranoid or something

"dude, i checked twice, it's locked. relax, man."

he'll try to distract you, by playing games and watching stuff, and just generally kinda trying to be funny to take your mind off of things

if you're having a panic/anxiety attack, he kinda panics too at first, before quickly pulling you away and asking what's wrong. he is sweating very hard

if you're unresponsive, he tries to stay calm but is honestly considering calling an ambulance. like he thinks you're having a stroke

"shit, a panic attack? uh, okay, errr.... take deep breaths, okay? in.. and out. in.. and out. okay, that's good.."

he looks up grounding techniques on his phone and relays them to you until you calm down and catch your breath. he like sends you images off of google of the 5 senses technique randomly and says he figured you'd need it someday

he tries to keep your anxiety in mind, and might slip up sometimes, but for the most part he tries to be careful with his words and actions as to not worry you. he shows his care in subtle ways!!

kyle broflovski

he tries to kinda. logic it out a bit. like if you're feeling insecure he tells you how unrealistic it is for someone to think about one random passerby's appearance forever

he does feel bad though. he doesn't completely understand, but whenever he's feeling insecure he tends to get really anxious about people at school

he usually gets anxious whenever he's doing something wrong or sneaking out. like he's actually sweating and shitting his pants thinking about what his mom will do to him if she finds out

he'll encourage you to order food for yourself, to get yourself out there more, and if you succeed he'll pat your shoulder and smile a lil

if you don't want to, he might dramatically sigh but he'll do it anyways. cuz he knows how hard it is

i do think he'd get a little anxious about asking workers for help and stuff, but he'll be the bigger person... he supposes... smh my head...

when you have an panic attack for the first time, he's like really confused and gets super concerned that you're having a heart attack, and pulls his phone out to dial your parents or 911

"i'm here for you dude! listen- hey, listen to me. it's okay. can- can you-"

he tries to talk to you to de-escalate it, but he gives up and has his hand on your back, while looking up what the fuck to do

'friend havign panjc atgack what to do'

if you're okay with it, he probably talks to your parents about it. he doesn't really trust himself to be able to always calm you down, so he encourages getting outside/professional help

he does try though, and he'll always be there for you in different ways!! like when you need help with something or just need company to distract you, he's at ur door with his xbox 360

eric cartman

you can tell that eric gets a little uncomfortable if you're freaking out or feeling anxious. whether it's because he actually feels bad or just doesn't know how to handle your emotions, you'll never know

but either way, he'll probably just like. sit next to you like "dude, what's up with you?" or in other cases he'll sneakily slip out of the room unseen

he does try to be kinda logical about it, but that's solely because he physically can't speak words of comfort.

"i mean, dude, be seriously. nobody cares about you that much to notice." you speak such kind words eric!!

he doesn't really like it when things get serious, so he'll generally try to transition the situation into something more casual. like he'll try to ease your (his) mood by getting snacks and playing games together, or even begging his mom to take you both to KFC

if you have a panic attack, all of his alarms are blaring and his brain is screaming flight!!!!! flight!!!! run the fuck away!!!!

and he probably tries to, but when you notice him and call his name he physically deflates

he awkwardly turns around and slowly strolls over. "Y/N... heeeeeeey... what's up... duuude..." you can hear the strain in his voice

if it gets to be too much, as in you won't stop hyperventilating or can't breathe, he'll probably alert an adult or take you to the nurse or something. he tells himself it's because he doesn't want to be a suspect of your death

if ur having trouble ordering food he'll gladly take ur place and make a scene to get all eyes on him. "erm excuthe me they athed for no pickleth🤓"

other than when you're voicing your anxiety, he probably treats you the same. i don't really think he'd take advantage of your anxiety unless you were like. butters or heidi or something and he was really trying to get you to do something for him or just trying to. stick himself in your mind. because he's a narcissist and he loves that!!

kenny mccormick

he doesn't relate necessarily, but he definitely understands.

he lives a lot of his life in fear of his next death, and is constantly praying it be quick and painless

kenny is more of a reserved fella, but not really shy or anxious. so if you're having trouble speaking up or ordering something he'll step up and do it gladly!!

i think he'd be pretty decent at comforting. like he'll pat his hand on your back and speak assuring, muffled words

"mm, mmph mmph mmmph! mmph mph mph mmmfmf mmf mph mph mmph!" (aww, it'll be okay. i'll walk you every step of the way, buddy!)

he tries to take your emotions into consideration more, and grabs your hand and squeezes it sometimes if you need a boost of confidence. sometimes he forgets your anxiety and says something rude and feels really bad about it

when you're having a panic attack, he's honestly really scared and expects you to start foaming at the mouth or something

he'll hesitate, but he'll pat your back and try to help you with grounding techniques. the 5-4-3-2-1 in particular is his favorite, and he'll tell you how to do it in like a rlly sweet and calming voice

he's still spooked though, and gets you a water bottle and like a washcloth. he's incredibly thankful you aren't dying or anything

kenny is very good at comforting! sometimes all it takes is a simple moment of eye contact and seeing his eyes crinkle that gives you a surge of calmness you didn't know you needed

tweek tweak

tweek is no outsider to anxiety and stress. he's literally a living beehive with all that damn vibrating

to anyone else, it would seem like tweek had a severe anxiety disorder, or even ADHD. but it turns out it's just a result of his crippling meth addiction and caffiene overdoses

he tries to think about what craigs taught him, about grounding techniques and how to handle a panic attack, and tries to apply those for you

he's shakily take your hand and wrap you in a blanket, making you hot cocoa and helping you slowly come back to your senses

"okay, okay, what are 5 things you can touch? or- no- AGH! was it 5 things you see- hear? no, ACK! i can't remember!"

most of the time if you're feeling on-edge about something, his main goal will be to just listen to you talk and validate your feelings. he doesn't really make it a point to give you advice or try to be logical, unless you directly ask for it

he's great at listening!!! he also doesn't trust his own advice enough to say it to someone else.

he really tries to think hard about what comforts him when he's anxious, and so he tries to use the tactics for you. for instance, he tries to help you get into a hobby like painting to have a bit more control over yourself

hc that tweek loves to draw with crayons so he'll make little drawings of you and him as stick figures being all happy and give them to you. as a treat

overall he is very attentive, and cares a lot. he tries his very best to be there for you, and a lot of the time that results in you two just hanging out or gaming together, so you can both get your mind off of things for a while. it makes him happy to be able to be there for someone else like craig was for him

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rainbowsky · 4 months

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Hi rbs, stupid question maybe but do you know why Yibo never stays during events like this one?

(I mean he just walks the red carpet very fast and then we almost don't see him for the night, he doesn't sit with other celebrities)

Hi Anon! ☺️

It's not a stupid question at all.

Of course no one knows for sure, we can only theorize. However, there are a few excellent reasons that immediately pop into my head for why DD doesn't linger and hobnob with others at these events.

He wants to avoid being a disruption

Let's face it, wherever DD goes the cameras and fans follow, and his mere presence can be a huge disruption to any proceeding. DD always tries to stay in the shadows so as not to steal other people's fire. Not just because he's humble and respectful - which he definitely is - but also to avoid anti attacks about him 'taking up too much space'.

A perfect example of this happened last night at the event. Eric Wang - his costar from Hidden Blade - was onstage speaking, and DD's face appeared on the screen briefly and the fans screamed really loudly, interrupting his speech. He was startled and looked around in confusion trying to figure out what had set everyone screaming.

This is the sort of thing both GG and DD no doubt want to avoid. They wouldn't want to be the reason other people's moments in the spotlight get derailed. Eric Wang is a friend and colleague, onstage in his own special moment. DD wouldn't want this.

And this isn't just an issue with the event itself, but also all the discussion and buzz that their appearance generates online.

Yes, of course it's important for them to be talked about a lot and viewed as popular and in demand, but that can often tip over into being seen to take up too much space - too many 'public resources' - which can lead to public criticism and viewer fatigue. It can also heavily contribute to the 'traffic star' 'teen idol' reputation, which I believe they're both trying to shake (for various reasons it's better if they can be viewed as serious actors).

He and his team want to minimize risk

This goes along with my first point - he and his team will want to do everything they can to minimize the risk associated with unscripted moments in the spotlight. Of all the reasons, I think this is actually the number one reason they lay low at events.

Whenever a star is out in front of people in a live public setting, there is tremendous opportunity for them to become the subject of embarrassing, hateful or even career-jeopardizing anti attacks, gossip and hotsearches. Especially at an event where other stars are present. Every move they make, every choice about where to look or how to stand, every facial expression, becomes an opportunity for misinterpretation or incitement of fan wars.

This is likely also why GG and DD are never in the same room when accepting awards at these things. When one is onstage accepting an award, the other is backstage. This ensures that there can be no camera cut to the other one, which would be massively disruptive (as with point 1) and potentially inflame fan wars.

And it's not just onstage moments that are a problem; all time spent in the room can be a minefield. For example, any time one star is seated next to another star every micro-expression, every slight move or action is analyzed and conclusions drawn about how the two feel about each other. This can lead to harmful rumors ranging from dating rumors to rumors they hate each other - all of which can lead to negative gossip and fan wars.

If a star is really friendly with another star and one of them ends up embroiled in scandal, that can lead to the other one being dragged into the same scandal just by association. DD especially is constantly the target of hate attacks. It wouldn't do for him to be seen getting too cozy with the next star on the chopping block. Antis would have a field day making it seem like DD was part of the scandal somehow.

Both GG and DD are at the level where frankly they don't need this kind of exposure anymore. They don't need the risk, and they don't need the 'rewards'. They simply don't need to be seen quite as much as some of the newer up-and-coming stars do. There comes a point where the risk/reward ratio shifts to where it's safer for their careers to not be so constantly in the spotlight.

He is at work

I know these kinds of events can be a lot of fun for fans and feel like a big exciting party, but ultimately for the star, they are at work. It's work. Because of the issues I pointed out above - along with so many others, no doubt - being put in the spotlight like that has to be incredibly high pressure and high stress.

These are tightly managed events, and a lot goes on behind the scenes to ensure that things in front of the camera go smoothly. They have to be at certain locations at certain times (for example, they have to be at the end of the red carpet when it's their turn to walk, they have to be in their seat when their award is announced), and they have to be looking their best and on their best behavior.

They have to look beautiful but not too flashy. They have to look relaxed even if they don't feel relaxed. Their facial expressions and behavior have to be appropriate. They're appearing, after all, in front of millions and millions of people - appearances which are being recorded, photographed and livestreamed from every angle.

Behind the scenes there are people managing their makeup and wardrobe, there are often interviews and photos with media, there are often brand-related bits that need to be captured on film.

It might seem glamorous to get all dressed up and go to a party and get an award, but for the top stars it's a high stakes public appearance where every moment is closely managed and timed up to the minute - even second.

Things are simultaneously fast-paced and incredibly dull. Top stars like GG and DD are usually the last to appear on the red carpet or onstage, so there would be a lot of waiting around in unfamiliar spaces surrounded with work colleagues and management.

With events like this the stars are often starving as well, as they don't have time to eat or don't want to risk ruining their outfit or having digestive issues while in the spotlight.

I'm sure being a surgeon or a detective also seems exciting to those outside the profession, but really it's always work, and these are some of the most high-pressure, high-stress, high-stakes jobs.

A public appearance like this is ultimately a promotional activity, not a party, celebration or social occasion.

He's a very busy guy

This is another huge reason GG and DD often sweep into an event and leave the first instant they're able to. Because they have incredibly packed schedules and many conflicting demands on their time. They simply don't have time to dicker around at an event for any longer than necessary.

They've left events like this to go straight to a filming set to get back in costume and back to work. It's just how things go when you're that high profile and in high demand.

It's too public

GG and DD have private lives, even just in WeChat groups, etc. where they can socialize with friends and colleagues out of the public eye. I doubt they get excited about being under the scrutiny of so many people at events like this.

This is just the norm

I feel the need to add that DD's behavior isn't unusual at all. I think sometimes fans get the impression that GG and DD make themselves unusually scarce, but it's just not true. All the top stars tend to vacate their seats the moment they have a chance.

Just look at this footage from last night when DD was accepting his award. Look at all the empty seats behind him as he's walking to the stage - all along the entire length of the stagefront where the top stars are always placed. Soon DD's seat will also be empty.

Anyway, like I said, no one knows for sure. It's not something he or his team is ever likely to speak about publicly. But just looking at the situation some features do stand out.

#bjyx #yizhan #ggdd in the public eye #tencent all star 2023 #ask

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nickeverdeen · 1 year

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Hii! It's been a while since i last requested here! I hope school isn't torturing you that much.. Wanted to ask if you could right an Eric Coulter headcanons or imagine having feelings and/or dating a fellow dauntless leader? She's a dautless, so were her parents, so she doesn't feel like she has to prove herself to anyone and is easy going but baddass when fighting?? (Not important, but if you could add her being an expert in Brazilian Jiu-Jitsu i would love you forever)

Eric falling for you:

Eric always knew he had a weak spot for you, but he tried not to show it

At first for him it was just a little crush he thought he’d move on from quickly

He was wrong

His crush on you grew and it didn’t take long before Four knew about it

Four was definetly teasing Eric from time to time, but not in the childish way

Eric ended up asking you if you wanna help him with training the new members

He wanted to show off so he asked you to fight with him in front of the new members

Boy didn’t know you were skilled in Brazilian Jiu-Jitsu

Normally Eric would feel angry that he lost to anyone, but he didn’t get angry at you at all

After all, he had a big feelings for you

Although after losing a fight against you he feels a little bit embarrassed, but it quickly washes away

Four started teasing him about his protectivness towards you as he always did his best to keep you safe while training

He’s not gonna let you win “War Game” to be honest

You falling for Eric:

You had feelings for Eric for a long time

As a leader of Dauntless you couldn’t really pay much attention to it

You had a lot of things to do as a leader after all

When Eric asked you to join and help him with training you agreed not thinking much of it

Your feelings for him started to grow more and more as you sometimes caught yourself staring at him

When Eric asked you to fight him you flexed a little and pulled out your best Brazilian Jui-Jitsu skills

You could tell that Eric wasn’t angry about losing to you which made you suspect that he may have a soft spot for you

You and Four were close friends and when you caught Eric glaring at Four you’d be confused

But Eric is Eric after all

You noticed that sometimes when someone tried to flirt with you and you were uncomfortable Eric would often do something about it

You noticed that Eric got kinda jealous at Four for being your right hand as you are the leader

The fact that you knew you didn’t have to prove yourself to anyone was something that many people liked about you

You’re not much of a show off or anything like that in general

But when you have to fight… you’re the most badass bitch of all of them

Dating:

Eric can get easily jelaous of others, despise knowing you would never leave him

You two are a very powerful couple

As a leader your day is full of responsibilities so after your day Eric would help you relax

You sleep in his room with him for sure

He doesn’t have a problem with sleeping on the floor if you want him to, but he’d prefer sleeping in a bed with you

Eric would probably just lay you down on his chest while sleeping

You are the only one who can calm Eric down and prevent him from doing something very stupid

If someone would flirt with you he wouldn’t even give the person a second warning before fighting him

His first warning would be very intimidating

Eric isn’t much of a PDA person, but he surely is down for flirting with you in public a little bit

Eric has a very teasing and flirty comments sometimes during the day

You’re a very respected woman not only because you’re the leader, but mainly because of your personality

Eric is very protective of you in your relationship

He knows you can handle yourself, but still

You’re his girlfriend after all

He doesn’t want anything to happen to you

Eric doesn’t like to let other people know that you’re his soft spot

He is absolutely shocked and also smirking when he sees how good you are at Brazilian Jiu-Jitsu

And how badass you look while fighting

You’re really not that agressive or badass looking normally so he wouldn’t think that you can be such a badass

The only time when you go against each other is when you and the new members are playing “War Game”

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Hey, thank you so much for requesting. I haven’t done any requests in a while so yeah it means a lot to me.

I’m truly sorry if this ain’t what you expected and feel free to tell me what I should change

And unfortunately the school is torturing me, but it’ll get better. Thank you for asking in the first place 🫶

I might try to also do an imagine, but I’m not sure what it’d be about tho

#request #headcanons #eric coulter #divergent #eric coulter x reader #insurgent #eric coulter x oc

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lovesickheize · 2 years

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𔘓 sex with the boyz based on tarot . . .

maknae line version ( kevin new q haknyeon sunwoo eric )

kevin moon:

really hot and sudden sex, an amazing sexual partner, understands his s/o's needs and desires and is up to bring them in the sheets if that makes them happy.

probably likes to top/dom.

mutual masturbation.

any lack of confidence (either his or his s/o's) will disappear. worshipping/praising. needs constant validation.

amazing aftercare, definitely sweet and funny.

gets jealous easily

looking for his true soulmate

choi chanhee (new):

lots of good sex, bringing new kinks in the sheets, creative sexually and doesn't mind if things don't turn out the way they are supposed to. experimentalist.

into one night stands. not very selective when it comes to partners (prefers strong and powerful ones), prone to infidelity, risk taker. not good for any long term deal.

probably has a dark secret or experience that made him act the way he does, related to him becoming a part of someone's happiness feels like a loss of freedom.

sweet lies and "darker seductive side" definitely heighten libido.

extreme passion and lust.

constantly looking for people to satisfy his needs, has probably turned into an addiction.

feminine energy, probably a sub/bottom.

ji changmin (q):

something abt it confuses him, but he is filled with good energy and ready for anything.

trust issues / intense jealousy. jealous/angry sex

passion, lust, dazzling in the sheets.

HIGH SEX DRIVE. continually on the lookout for others to help him satisfy this need of his.

cozy, prefers indoors sex, not really into exhibitionism.

sensuous, generous and will take care of his s/o's sexual needs and desires.

willing to put time and effort into understanding his s/o's needs, but finds it difficult to show his true feelings/kinks or own needs. likes giving more than receiving.

adventurous, experimentalist.

needs changes every now and then. 100% switch. can be full on vanilla one day and full on bdsm the next. otherwise he gets bored easily.

ju haknyeon:

isn't exactly sure about what he wants/likes, seems a bit inexperienced.

he still doesn't feel ready to go all in. he feels the need to take some time to think abt his likes and dislikes, what he is okay with and what he's not.

imaginative in the bedroom, and ready to play along with his s/o's fantasies, as long as they are not extreme.

romantic dates are often following by romantic sex. he isn't having sex, he's making love.

he might have been into one night stands for a while now, but he realised they don't really help him evolve sexually and emotionally.

he feels the need to spice up things, he's bored. however, he is still carrying his ex-partner's negativity and bad energy. he's not confident in the sheets anymore, might feel unloved.

he needs to feel loved and appreciated during sex. kinda surprised when he realises people are sexually attracted to him. into praising and body worship (mostly receiving).

kim sunwoo:

100% dominant & raw.

a lot of unachievable sexual fantasies and desires. sexually at a dead end; doesnt know exactly what or how he wants it. might be an experimentalist.

seeking for something prohibited, something exciting that's not allowed to be done. may be an exhibitionist.

threesomes!

stains ur mind. sex w sunwoo is a once in a lifetime type of experience (not bcz he is an idol, but bcz it's rare to find people as sexually active and excited as him).

hiding passion/desire bcz hes scared of norms. might be linked to a sexual trauma or a sexual experience he would rather forget. has certain sexual fantasies but is too shy to express them in a relationship.

sex filled with passion. teenager-like sex with great stamina. sexual adventures with a fun-loving person.

kinky ASF. is in search of someone that can spice up his sex life as much as he needs & make him confident. might be a sadist.

sometimes forgets to do basic stuff to get his s/o ready for what's abt to happen, hes too caught up and crazy-horny, gets right into the main thing.

might cheat. he is not fully emotionally available, might be up for an open relationship, cannot stand being repressed and values sex more than the romantic aspect of the relationship. he WILL cheat/break up if his sexual needs arent satisfied.

sohn youngjae (eric):

good energy, great sexual encounters.

might introduce something new into your sex life. exploring new fantasies and successfully taking them to the next level. experimentalist.

open to fresh ideas but has to talk abt them before practicing them.

he won't let you have bad thoughts about your appearance. is probably into body worshipping and praising (giving & receiving).

great balance: stability and nurturing energy. absolute harmony, great creativity. slight boy energy, but can go into dom mode rlly quickly. basically 100% switch.

angry sex & letting frustration go this way. probably gets jealous easily, likes marking.

• high sex drive.

i hope you liked my first tarot related post as much as i enjoyed the process<3 any feedback will be appreciated & requests are open!

-lita.

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mimiwritcs · 10 months

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FIGHT FOR YOU (1/?)

FANDOM: Divergent

PAIRING: Eric Coulter x Fem!Reader

SUMMARY: this is after four+eric's initiation and before tris'. this will be the build up of the characters as we got introduced to them as well as maybe the society. not just a love story but we aim for characters' growth and storytelling.

WORDS: 2.6K

A/N: not only my first time writing on this fandom but also in general in a very long time. kinda letting myself go with the flow. bc the best writing is just writing and letting the story tell itself ;) took 5 days and 3 drafts to complete this, so hopefully muse isn't too off by the end of it lmao if anyone loses time of their day to read this, hope you like it & thank youu <3

You were shocked by what you had done. You couldn't think due to Dauntless' ovations. WHAT DID YOU JUST DO? Before turning over to your new faction, you took a few steps back to observe how your blood blended with the scalding coals. Some Dauntless approached you and whispered "congratulations" or "hi" before one left their seat to you in the front row and slipped into the back to see the rest of the ceremony.

You didn't regret your choice. That's what you had to do. It was really startling to learn on the aptitude test that you were Dauntless rather than Erudite. Did you always think Dauntless was the coolest faction to be at? Yeah. Did you think you could be strong enough to be a part of it? Hell no. Your first emotion was not fear but respect towards it. You felt like a fish out of water. This was something you never expected. 95% of the initiatives belonged to the faction to which they were born. How the hell were you the one chosen to be into the 5%? You were unsure, but a spark had ignited within you after that.

You were unable to stop thinking about it. Did you believe you can handle it? You were unsure. Yet, how could they possibly have failed? All of their propaganda to believe the ceremony and the test to become who you genuinely are rather than who you wish you were. In the Choosing Ceremony, you weren't fully certain about your choice. Erudite was always so intelligent and clear, but you were always doubting it. Guess it was true, you were not part of the faction. They really did say something prior that caused you to make a last-minute choice change. You couldn't be where you weren't meant to be. You had something inside of you that had the potential to blossom into Dauntless, and you couldn't survive without discovering what it was. Could you have securely remained in Erudite without letting anyone know your result? Sure. Even if you weren't yet aware of your inner Dauntless, you still needed to remain true to yourself.

So you swallowed it and moved your hand swiftly just as the first drop of blood entered the Erudite bowl. You apologized while looking for your parents' eyes amid the crowd. They certainly did not anticipate it. You adored your parents and were aware of how much both of you would miss each other after you were gone. However, they would comprehend. They would have to. Even if they could never have imagined making this choice, you know they would. Faction before blood. Because you were so preoccupied with your thoughts, you hardly notice the rest of the ceremony. Knowing that you had made the right choice for yourself and would have to live with it, with your truth, you were able to relax. Wasn't that a brave thing to do anyway? You choose the reality, throwing yourself into the unknowing rather than staying safe where you were. Guess you belonged there too.

As soon as the Ceremony finished, all factions started to orderly march in turns. However, the tranquility was short-lived. The moment everyone reached the front door, all Dauntless began to scream and flee. Confused, you changed a few looks with some new transfer Dauntless like yourself. You were grinning as everyone applauded, and you began to run with them into the city, feeling as liberated as you had ever been. After being stiff for so long in the ceremony, it felt exhilarating to be able to move your body, running and jumping with everyone else. It also seemed like everyone was celebrating a new beginning, their arrival. And before you knew it, they were claiming up to the train station.

After attentively observing a few of the more experienced members, you started to follow them. You didn't want to be the last person to give it a go or the final one to fall short. You had heard so many rumors and of course, Dauntless had to be tough. We needed them to look out for us. They were necessary. But even on the first day, they were giving you a brutal workout; could this be typical of their routine? God, you had to get fitter if you wanted to keep going without stopping for breath.

What you were unaware of was that this was merely the beginning. Although you were aware that you would need to undergo training in order to match their level of toughness and fitness, you didn't anticipate that this would serve as your welcome to the faction. You started hearing and seeing the train speeding into your way, and before you realized what the intentions were, you were shocked they were doing this to the newbies. You thought they must have started training them to jump in and out of trains moving at slower speeds. But you guessed not. After someone pulled you slightly to the side, so they could continue racing with their Dauntless colleagues, you snapped out of your thoughts. You began to run as well, and you watched people pulling themselves onto the wagon by helping themselves by grabbing the door handle.

As you approached, you stumbled into the wagon just barely before pushing yourself to the side to make room for others and in an effort to catch some air. You were trying to control your breathing by looking at the ground, when suddenly, you notice how a girl bumps into you.

"OUCH" you both exclaim, as she moves away from her towards the door, you quickly get up.

"Sorry, I didn't even-" the black girl starts to speak.

"No, don't worry, I've made the same landing, I hope it gets better with time" you smile at her as you offer your hand to help her get up and out of the way, as you see a teammate who has to do wonders to avoid walking on her. "My name is Y/M" you introduce yourself.

"Winter, nice to meet you" she smiles at you as she takes your hand and she stands up. Yellow cloths. Amity. "What a welcome" Winter whispers, it wasn't a complaint, but from her tone it wasn't a compliment either and you understood it. You were just as tired.

As Winter struggled to catch her breath, you started to gaze inside your wagon. You noticed that both initiates and adults were conversing in a corner with other Dauntless companions, and that the color that stuck out the most was white. Candor. There was no one from Erudite that you recognized when you tried to look around the wagon. You now wish that you had paid closer attention to the ceremony to learn the identities of your new colleagues. You imagine you'd learn the answer quite quickly.

"Why are we moving towards Abnegation?" asked a boy from Candor who was standing close to you but whom you had overlooked.

You couldn't believe it; this was your first time riding a train, and you were preoccupied with the interior rather than the outside scenery. You turned around and scan the area. Winter mused, and you nodded. "Perhaps they are giving us the difficult route; try to picture the landscape a bit; after all, we will have to travel a lot. That, or just give us time to catch our breath." The three of you laughed as she spoke.

"At least I'm glad all of us transferees are equally dying." The boy replied sincerely. "I don't think much could have trained us for this." Winter continued. "Yeah, but that's what initiation is for, I'm sure we'll all learn how to uncover our advantages", you said.

The three of you stood there in silence watching the train as it accelerated forward, away from Abnegation and toward the fence, with distant views of Amity's factories.

"It's fantastic, I've never seen this far from the city" Remarked a girl as she left a big group and headed towards the unoccupied window in front of them to get a better view. White clothes, she was Candor too. "It's lovely, I've never seen so much green combined" You added as you got closer to see better next to her, and you felt that your companions did the same. "Nature is what I'll miss the most." Winter introduced herself, and the girl turned to greet her. While she was looking at all of us, she began to call her name, "Cor-" but when her gaze landed next to her faction mate, she tightened up a little. "Alvin"

You noticed he hadn't introduced himself, therefore that was his name. She received a little bow from Alvin with his head, "Corinne" The girl grinned at him and said, "There was no question that you were going to be a Dauntless." "Yeah, I can't say the same about you." He said, a little dryly, there was some friction because these two weren't exactly best buddies. You cut the conversation short, "Nice to meet you Corinne, I'm Y/M," and Corinne smiled at you, seemingly thanking you for the change of subject. "Likewise. Hey Winter, your lands are huge, aren't they?", she asked.

"Yes, but this is just a portion. We only come here to labor and gather some supplies. Our primary land is located in the northern part of the city. Although you can't see how huge it is from a train because we've already passed it all, this train moves quickly", she said, and you agreed. You had read a lot about Amity, so you were familiar with everything. "Yeah, we're already heading back to the city, so I guess it won't be long for us to go down" You said.

And before you knew it, the three of you females started chit-chatting about your prior lives while Alvin quietly left to find other company. After a while you started hearing knowing on metal and scanned the wagon looking at one of the Dauntless members trying to get everyone's attention. "Stop talking, we're almost there,"

And suddenly it was over. Everyone began to jump once more. Winter continued to whine, but there was no time for it. The train was going quickly, there was not much time to second guess if you didn't want to miss it. You gave a side smile and noted out of resignament before crossing over to the other side in an effort to gain speed as you impulsively leaped.

Your body felt the shock of your short fall on the roof, but you were unharmed. Adrenaline running through your body. Corinne and Winter fell exactly next to you, and as your eyes crossed, you both couldn't help but giggle at the absurdity of the scenario. Even though this was crazy, you were okay. And going forward, everything will be easier, or so you believed.

The three of you stood up and made your way over to the large group that was assembling on the opposite side, where one boy was standing on top of the roof and giving everyone a somber look over his shoulder. "Alright, listen up. My name's Eric. I am one of the leaders of your faction. Several floors below us is the entrance for the members of our compound. If you can't muster the will to jump, you don't belong here." Specifically focusing on those who stood out the most in the crowd of people wearing black clothing—transferred people like you—he said, "Initiates any volunteers?" Despite the fact that, in your opinion, you shouldn't have to prove yourself, he was putting you to the test.

Everyone turned to look when a familiar male voice shouted "Me" As soon as you laid your eyes onto him, you recognized him. Milan. Fellow Erudite like you. His transfer wasn't a surprise, everyone could tell Erudite wasn't his place, but you weren't paying enough attention at the Ceremony following your turn to observe his entry. After all these changes, you both attempted to greet a familiar face as he passed between you by exchanging glances and nodding slightly to one another as you smiled awkwardly.

Although you couldn't see Milan's face, you could tell when he lost confidence and his shoulders stiffened as he looked at the darkness beneath him. He took a moment to inhale deeply and jumped. But once he did everyone carefully stayed in silence as if that would help them hear better any sign of his existence. Other few seconds passed and a fellow Dauntless-born stepped out to the edge to jump off without thinking with a smile on her face and at that moment, you realized. There could not be something dangerous down there, what could be the point of losing all their new members? After that realization, you relaxed your shoulders and as a Candor member started to climb into the edge, you started making your way to the edge as the fourth volunteer.

You took advantage of the small amount of time while the third jumper was jumping to get a better look at one of your new leaders, Eric, and his colleagues who were standing to the side. He definitely had a Pug face that was at ease. His thick black tattooed stripes on his neck and pierced brows gave him a decidedly unfriendly appearance. Was it just his demeanor, or did he have to put on an act to lead initiatives? All the other Dauntless teammates were equally intimidating-looking and well-groomed. You recall how fantastical you always thought they were when you were little. So tall and powerful, covered in so many tattoos. You've always questioned whether they altered the new initiatives, chose their new look and suddenly they became fearless. Before the Aptitude Test, you had trouble picturing anybody from Erudite as Dauntless. As you grew older, you came to know how absurd that notion was, and as you stood a few feet from their position, you were aware that everything was about to unfold for you.

When the leader looked up after checking the bottom of the hole, he discovered your eyes were fixed on him. He turned his head as a signal for Next, and you immediately ascended and looked below. Knowing that you were about to leap off to nothing made for a definitely terrifying-looking vista. However, there couldn't be nothing there. You simply knew it. You inhaled deeply before making a leap of faith.

And despite your best efforts, you couldn't help but tighten up as you descend under the hole swiftly. Soon you were struck with something that coins the impact. A net. There's a fucking net. Your body unwinds, and you begin to chuckle. You were beginning to understand the significance of this. Looking around, you see someone attempting to assist you. Quickly turning to the edge with his assistance, you roll out. The man asks, "Your name? You cannot change it after the fact, so consider your options carefully," he said with a warm smile. However, there was nothing you were running after. You didn't need a fresh start just to keep growing. "Y/M" You grinned, he nodded, and you followed his eyes as he turned to look at another Dauntless member who appeared to be in charge of arranging the group of your fellow initiatives as well as a group of people standing behind whom, based on their behavior, you assumed didn't want to miss this.

When the man who pulled you out of the net announced you as the fourth jumper, the gathering of people from your new group applauded you on, and you raised your fist in celebration as you joined the others who had jumped prior.

#ffy #ffy1 #divergent #divergent imagine #divergent stories #divergent fanfiction #fanfiction #eric coulter #eric coulter x reader #eric coulter imagine

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I would love to hear what you think about Sheila and Liane regarding kyman (and just in general I love seeing what people think about those silly geese)

This is such a fun question!!!!! Oh my gosh okay, I want to start off with saying that I love both Liane and Sheila’s characters so very much. They both have very interesting story lines, backstories and character traits, as well as have very unique relationships with their sons that not many people talk about- I am not here get into whether I think they are the best of mothers or not, it’s obvious that both of them care very much for their precious boys, even if they show it in interesting ways.

I think Sheila would be the more accepting and supportive mother of kyman out of the two. I see Sheila being more supportive of her son being gay and being in a homosexual relationship, specifically with Eric. Sheila is a tough mom, she is loud and persistent, she is open minded and aware, she has very clear rules, boundaries and structure in her house. I see all of these factors of her personality being so because she loves her family and her sons so much, it is her way of ensuring her babies are taken care of and are being brought up right. Ultimately, whatever Kyle decided to do in his life, I know Sheila would be there in the crowd cheering him on- she is always so very proud of her bubbeleh! I personally HC that Eric and Kyle’s relationship gets found out by Sheila first (as she is a very persistent mother wanting to know what her son is up to and how he is doing). I see Sheila being a little surprised and confused, wanting to talk with the boys to understand the situation and I see her ultimately sitting them down and giving them a pep talk about healthy relationship habits and advice as well as responsibility and respect, talking them through a few concerns she may have. While she may not be the most patient mother, she loves her son so much, she just wants to see him happy but also make sure he makes smart choices. So she becomes kyman’s biggest advocate, supporting them rough patches and questioning situations. Even though Eric was a little shit to Sheila growing up, he has been around Kyle and his household for long enough to get a few good parental moments from Sheila. Kyle definitely keeps him in check as well.

Liane is an interesting case, and I say that because she has had many moments in the show expressing her homophobia and religious stance on homosexuality, yet she also has had quite a few canon moments expressing being some part of the lgbt community herself. Liane and Cartman have a much different relationship than Sheila and Kyle, Liane may appear more loving, soft and motherly, but she doesn’t exactly play a heathly role as a mother. I HC that she does not take Cartman’s homosexuality seriously, nor does she take kyman’s relationship seriously. Even though Liane is very devoted to her little poopsiekins and will stop the world for him in certain situations, I feel by the time and age Kyle and Eric get into a relationship, Liane just can not care too much to support it, she and Eric have drifted apart as mother and son and their relationship is pretty rocky. I feel she will acknowledge kyman and go on about how adorable they are, how they are “such cute and loving friends”, but it doesn’t get much deeper than that. I believe Liane would be too ridiculed with religious trauma, sexual trauma and relationship trauma to appropriately understand kyman’s relationship. I feel she will have her own prejudice based on her upbringing and normalcy in her own eyes, but she won’t voice it or take action against kyman’s relationship. She lets Eric live his life as she lives hers.

#kyman #south park #sp kyman #eric cartman #kyle broflovski #kyman fanfiction #south park kyman #kyman comic #kyman fanart #liane cartman #sheila broflovski

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muzwoom · 4 months

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Like deruth has to make the first step and i want the angst of them finding out it was an act before cale attempts to let the act go can you tell more?

YES DEFINITELY

So a lot of fics have cale making the first step to make amends with his family which honestly? Realistic. I have never in real life experienced a parent actually owning up to their mistakes and taking the first step to apologize and be better its always the (often teen or adult at that point) child who makes that first step in my experience

And i think in canon it would probably be og cale trying to make amends as well, so i honestly read fics like this happily anyway

But in an ideal world parents take responsibility for their actions and try to be better for their kids! While deruth obviously loves and cares for cale he shows it in a very roundabout way (like making his servants report on what cale has been up to). I imagine this is more normal in a noble household instead of a normal household. However theyve very obviously just been waiting for cale to get better on his own instead of actually doing anything, while not knowing that it would never stop bc its largely an act and cale acts like that on purpose to help his siblings and stepmom

Im rambling at this point so im just gonna outline what in my eyes would be the perfect progression for cale and deruths relationship (and by extension the rest of the henituse family):

- somethinh happens that makes deruth try to sort of talk to cale (fuck if i know what, maybe its a situation where cale regressed and got ancient powers and has been throwing up blood like krs!cale, maybe cale went to an event where he caught the attention of someone dangerous like adin)

- cale is like “what the fuck my father is actually talking to me. What does this mean”

- somehow after a while of deruth trying to be more of a parent, lily and basen taking this as a chance to try and get closer with cale, and cale just being confused and feeling like a fish out of water, they find out about him faking the trash behavior

- idk how, maybe he just hinted at some things being the way they are bc of reasons to lily or whatever not thinking much would come from it??

- but yea they find out and theyre *not* happy bc cale has been doing this self sacrificial self destructive act on his own for ten years now and they want him to actually be happy

- cale at hearing that goes shocked pikachu face

- “oh i care abt my family but i didnt expect them to care about me back” 💀

- he does NOT wanna let the trash act go bc he thinks if he stops the vassals will just be pieces of shit again and it also a deterrent against gossip abt his family in general (hes also a depressed little fuck who thinks he doesnt fit in with the family, who thinks he deserves the scorn a little and who likes some of the benefits the act gave him (he also doesnt rlly know who else to be hashtag identity crisis))

- family is determined tho bc their boy just spent 10 years being self destructive like this while hiding that he really loved them ALL THIS TIME and they wanna show him they wanna spend time with him and that they love him back

- shit can still get a little tense sometimes, just bc of the baggage between deruth and cale and also just bc recovery isnt lineair and in really bad situations like for example the vassals making a really shit move cale would def put himself in the line of fire in a heartbeat and do smth trashy again

- i would love to see eric wheelsmans face when he finds out cale was faking it this whole time, man has been trying to stage interventions and shit while cale was doing it on purpose

#just talking dmm #asks #tcf #I KNOW THIS IS GENERIC BUT ITS ALSO MY FAVORITE #I EAT UP THIS KINDA STORYLINE TIME AFTER TIME AGAIN #cale just wants to rot in his room but his family will not let him JSNJSMS

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I get overwhelmed by emotions really easily and cried the only time I ever did the deed because of it so like quick question, if I may-

MTL of TBZ to cry during sex? Or who in TBZ would cry during sex?

Like it's very emotional and maybe they're just so in love with their S/O that being so intimate with them brings out their emotions a lot? I'm more thinking of like, the first time y'all do it but just in general works as well.

I feel like Eric would definitely cry during at least the first time and probably after that sometimes as well. Hyunjae and Sunwoo would maybe cry during the first time? Despite their "bad boy" personas they're definitely big softies who would cry over finally getting to be so intimate with someone they love. Jacob, Kevin, and Younghoon also strike me as potential criers. Changmin, Juyeon, and Sangyeon confuse me. I don't think if Hak or New would cry though lol.

What are your thoughts/opinions, though?

Hi babe! Sorry this took a while, but here are some of my thoughts:

Tbh I've never really experienced crying during sex BUT if I had to pick the members who might cry during sex because of intense emotions:

Younghoon - okay I know deobi’s and members clown him for crying when he’s pouring his heart out when he’s reading a letter for fans but honestly it might even be the same with sex with someone he intensely loves or cares about!

Sunwoo - I’ve always thought Sunwoo is a romantic guy at heart and not the bad boy everyone thinks he is. He generally seems sensitive so I wouldn’t be surprised if he cried because of high emotions during sex especially if it’s someone he’s really into!

Eric & Kevin - probably might cry the 1st time or if it happens to be an extremely intense moment where they’re just feeling incredibly in love with you and would want you to know how intense their love is for you!

The rest I can’t really decipher them because I base it on observations of them through various videos I've seen! But the ones I feel like would not cry / it would take a lot for them to cry are:

Sangyeon, Hyunjae, Juyeon, Chanhee

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hatsunevitu · 10 months

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i was thinking a lot about stan and kyle’s attitude to romantic relationships and romance in general. and what about stan’s mental problems, i’ve decided that i strongly headcanon him as a hyperromantic person.

like, when he grows up he starts having constant romantic thoughts, he “crushes” on every person he had barely talked to and has an endless anxiety on the basis of intrusive hyperromantic made up scenarios in his head.

i just find it somehow suitable for him cause he has shown to be very sensitive + he’s the only boy having such a long term relationship and he genuinely CARES about romance.

and i honestly think he gets REALLY confused when it comes to any romantic feelings (that, and also he’s still in denial of his bisexuality + i hc him having a big one-sided crush on kyle that he hasn’t realised yet)

BY THE WAY kyle, on the contrary, is very much indifferent about romance except for when its eric.

like i strongly believe that any “normal” kind of relationship makes him bored so he can only experience romantic feelings when there had been a looong rivalry-like connection and constant fights first. he also is very slow to develop these crushes.

and he, just as stan, doesn’t really understand his feelings (remember how he was told that he is in love with heidi and he’s like “no im not!!! …….am i????”) boyyyyyy😭

#south park #sp #kyle broflovski #stan marsh #sp stan #sp kyle #can u tell im self projecting into stan

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thestupidhelmet · 10 months

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Were you watching that 70s show when it was premiering on tv? I ask because I wonder what the audience reception was to Jackie and Hyde getting together in season 5. Was it excitement or confusion etc. I know by the end of the show their relationship was a favorite amongst fans but was it that way from the beginning?

I did watch T7S when it originally aired. I also, many years later, became co-moderator of Fan Forum's recently-closed T7S message board, which was active very early into T7S's original run.

My interest in T7S waned a bit in S4, but once I saw the promo for "Going to California" (5x01), I was super excited. I shipped J/H hard, and "Jackie Bags Hyde" (3x08) ended their arc as far as anyone knew. The show became a must-watch for me, and my friends knew not to call me during that half-hour. 😅

People on the T7S message board had shipped J/H from season 1 (I started shipping after seeing "Kelso's Serenade" in season 2). The original ship name for J/H was *Hide (Hyde) and Seek* before the episode "Catfight Club" (S2), which is such a significant episode for J/H's development, provided *Zenmasters*.

When promos for "Going to California" aired, fandom went crazy with happiness. A lot of J/H fics had already been written in the years before season 5. So, yeah, J/H was shipped almost from the beginning of T7S by a lot of fans.

Then a shipping war started between Eric/Donna shippers and J/H shippers (like, what?!). Seems to have stemmed originally from E/D fans not understanding or liking how much fandom focus there was on J/H once they were finally together in S5 -- and J/H fans essentially shoving that fact in their face. Arguments ensued about which couple was better (by what standards?), etc.

Unfortunately, a good portion of active online J/H fans at the time (remember, this was twenty years ago) were a mean-spirited bunch (egged on by one person in particular who purposely went against Fan Forum rules and was, quite frankly, abusive to the T7S moderators who tried to moderate and keep the peace).

After getting fed-up with feeling controlled by the mods who had to enforce the site's rules (but they did so diplomatically, not like despots), this group of J/H fans migrated to a different message board on Fan Forum solely dedicated to J/H. But the leader of this group continued to break the site's rules, ignored all warnings from that board's moderators and was suspended -- then, eventually, banned -- for continuing inappropriate behavior.

Meanwhile, Eric/Donna shippers felt relieved the hostility had stopped and could enjoy talking about their ship in peace.

I'm very glad I joined the fandom years after that unpleasantness was over. I became friends with people who were on the receiving end of the J/H fans' hostility (and some of the verbally-attacked people shipped J/H hard, too!), and they shared what they'd experienced.

Then (once I became a moderator myself), I read through all -- and I mean all -- the posts ever written on the T7S board and the J/H board, which allowed me to witness what the online T7S fandom was like from the start and how it evolved, devolved, and evolved again.

I discovered lots of links to fansites and fanfic sites dedicated solely to T7S fic in general and J/H fic specifically, and these gave me more insight to the early fandom (thank you, Internet Wayback Machine). It was very J/H-centric.

Sadly, a lot of the T7S stories were lost when the people running the fanfic archives shut them down due to a lack of time. FFnet existed then, where a portion of these stories were posted afterward. If AO3 had existed back then, too, these archives of now-lost T7S fic could have migrated there.

To sum up, Jackie/Hyde fans have been the most actively involved and creative (writing fanfic, making art, . gifs, wallpapers, icons, and so on) from pretty much the get-go. That's not to say fans didn't discuss other T7S ships, but the J/H thread on Fan Forum, for example, reached the site's three-hundred post limit faster and more often than any other ship or character thread -- meaning hundreds of three-hundred post J/H threads are archived on the board.

J/H was also big on LiveJournal during T7S's original run and afterward for a few years. Fanfic was posted there, many special T7S *mood* .gifs were made for people to, well, declare their mood on any given post or day. A very cool and funny T7S RPG was conducted there, too, with all the main characters.

During season 8, a campaign was conducted by the J/H fandom, asking the producers to put J/H back together by the end of the series. This campaign consisted of hundreds of letters in a packet brought to a S8 taping by one of the T7S board's moderators. She brought the letters to someone working on the show, and that person said (I'm paraphrasing), "Jackie and Hyde are done. Nothing will change that.")

Also during season 8 tapings, the audience would boo whenever Samantha went on stage (or on set) for a scene. The audience was full of Zennies, who were told to stop booing or they'd be kicked out.

But the producers got the picture and wrote Samantha off the show, which wasn't the original plan. Sam was supposed to be S8!Hyde's endgame. Just like Jackie was S7!Hyde's endgame until Fox ordered another season halfway through S7's production and episodes were already airing, and the scripts -- including the original series finale -- had been written.

A lot of rewriting happened after S8 was greenlit. J/H weren't supposed to reconcile at all until the end, where Jackie spills her heart out to Hyde about her job opportunity in Chicago and that she'd give it up because being with him is the most important thing to her.

He lets her go (and I have no clue if it was the same way or reason as we see on the show: was it a fear of commitment on his part as the episode portrays it, or was it more in line with "On With the Show," where Hyde puts his own needs aside so Jackie can have her very important moment of confidence in her independence -- one of, if not *the,* most in-character moments for Hyde in S7).

But Hyde realizes he wants Jackie in his life forever, drives to Chicago, and proposes to her in the motel room. No towel-wrapped Kelso to disrupt it. That was J/H's originally written endgame. They get their happy ending.

#that 70s show #that '70s show #Jackie x Hyde #Eric x Donna #Jackie Burkhart #Ask #Anon #Essay #Meta #My Essay #My Meta #T7S Fandom History #Personalish

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anangelwhodidntfall · 11 months

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I sorry but like exams are killing me but now and I did say probably

i want a poly Ariel and Eric hybrid! Reader alt alt ending where Ariel and Eric were already married and then they heard singing which turned out to be Reader singing but ran off after hearing a friend call her name

But Ariel and Eric we're stunned by her beauty and grace so they organized a party for the entire village in the evening but Reader isn't a big fan of crowds or people in general so she steps outside into the beach to have an evening swim but Ariel and Eric followed her so they now know and tell her how they feel

But Reader is a little skeptical because who would want a "commoner" but she likes them back regardless

Thinking about a part 2 of this so when you're done I can they you

Have a good morning/afternoon/evening/night

Thank you in advance ❤❤❤❤

A/N: Ahhhh okay as someone who is in the final weeks of her college classes, I totally understand. I hope you do well on your exams and I will be here when you get back <3

Shy Siren: Poly Eric & Ariel &Hybrid Reader

Ariel and Eric were walking along the beach sharing some laughs about something that had happened at the market when they heard the most beautiful voice. They stopped laughing and could hear whoever it was singing so clearly now, which made them start heading toward the sound of the voice. As they made their way toward you, they could hear your voice more clearly and louder now, and they began to pick up the pace hoping to see who it was and talk to them.

You were sitting by the shore singing a song your mom used to sing to you as you watched the waves, wishing both of your parents were still here. You were so wrapped in your thoughts that you didn't notice how late it had gotten or the royal couple peeking around the corner watching you with total love in your eyes until you heard your best friend call your name.

"Y/n! It's time for dinner." She said as you got up and ran to catch up with her.

Eric and Ariel watched as you ran off to catch up with your friend with smiles on their faces, they had never seen you before but knew that they had to have you, especially after hearing your voice and not to mention your unmatched beauty. That night when they went home they asked around about you but no one from the castle knew who you were so they had Grimsby organize a search party in hopes of finding you.

"Y/n the royal couple is looking for you." Your best friend making you look at her confused.

"What do you mean they're looking for me?" You asked her.

"I don't know the details but it's all they are talking about in the market. Did you talk to them or something?" She asked you.

"No, I've only passed them at the market before." You said to her.

You were at work but due to a search party being held, the market was way more crowded than normal and it was becoming too much for you so you decided to step away and go for a swim to clear your head but you didn't realize that you were followed.

"Please don't go." You heard Ariel say making you turn and see her and Eric a few feet behind you.

"What? What are you two doing here?" You asked looking at them as they walked closer to you.

"We've been looking all over for you since we heard your voice last night." Eric said.

"Why were you looking for me? I'm not anyone important." You said to them.

"Oh but you are, your voice and your beauty are just unmatched, I know this is very sudden but we like you a lot and would like the chance to get to know you better if you are interested." Ariel said.

"But I'm a commoner, I'm not royalty. What could you guys possibly see in me?" You asked them.

"We don't care about that y/n. We only care about the heart that is inside of you, when we were looking for you all everyone kept saying is how sweet and caring you are. Please just give us a chance and if you don't like it then no hard feelings?" He asked you.

"I would like that a lot, plus I've kinda always had my eyes on you two as well." You said with a shy smile as they hugged you.

#prince eric x ariel x y/n #ariel x reader x prince eric #prince eric fanfiction #prince eric x you #prince eric x y/n #prince eric x reader #ariel x reader #ariel x eric #the little mermaid 2023 #the little mermaid live action

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killerandhealerqueen · 4 months

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for the ask i just reblogged from you- 4, 6, 8, 11, 12, 13, 18, 22, 24, 27, 28, 31, 35, 36, 41

Ooo damn, lots of questions! My favorite

4. How do you choose which fics to write?

Honestly, whatever idea catches my fancy is what I want to write about. Or if I'm craving something that hasn't been written yet, then I'm like "well god damn it, looks like i have to do it myself"

6. What’s the last line you wrote?

He then reached up and cupped the back of his neck before he pulled him down into a kiss

8. Post an out-of-context spoiler from a wip.

“I didn't know anything about any gate code. And besides, I couldn’t have killed Matthew. I’m vegan. I would never touch raw meat” one woman argued as she sat before Eric and Walter, Walter testing her hands for animal blood. Eric hummed.

“Good to know” he grumbled as Walter shook his head.

“She is negative for animal blood” he declared.

11. Do you write scenes in order, or do you jump around?

I tend to write scenes in order, it's very rare that I jump around, unless a particular scene is screaming to be written first. Then I'll usually write it and put it to the side to be pasted in later

12. Do you outline your fics? If yes, how detailed are your outlines? How far do you stray from them?

Honestly, my outlines are just the fics in bullet form. Like I will write the dialogue, the scenes, and all the lovely stuff in bullet form and then go back and transform it into the actual fic. But that's only for oneshots. For multi-chaptered fics, I will have like...the general idea for what I want a chapter to be about, unless I'm doing a multi-chaptered fic inspired by a tv show or manga. Then the chapters just sort of flow how the show flows and the cuts and what not, if that makes sense.

13. Do you listen to music while you write? If yes, what have you been listening to recently?

I do, sometimes. But sometimes the music that I listen to either throws off my groove or throws off the vibes I'm going for, so I'll turn it off. Or it distracts me. But, since I'm currently working on a mafia au, I'm listening to songs that have that sort of vibe, so like

(her songs really scream mafia vibes and honestly, love that for her and me)

18. Do you enjoy research? Which fic of yours required the most research?

I do enjoy my research every now and then. The fic of mine that required the most I would have to say is my CSI: Jing City au, just because I have to know some of the testing that they're doing and how to break down what they're doing into layman's terms. Of course I understand what I'm writing about, but most normal people don't have a background in forensics, nor do they have degrees in them, so I gotta make it scientific enough to fit with the story but in layman's terms so that my readers aren't confused by the procedures and what not.

22. Do you title your fics before, during, or after the writing process? How do you come up with titles?

Oo, good question. I usually title my fics after the writing process, but sometimes a title will just come to be before hand. As for how I come up with titles, I usually use like a dialogue or a sentence from the fic itself. Sometimes the titles are inspired by song lyrics, or my fics are titled after the tv show or manga I'm taking inspiration from

24. How do you choose whose POV to write in?

I like third person past tense to read in, so that's what I write in. I'm not really a big first person writer/reader (like if I see it's in first person, I nope the fuck out) so I don't write a lot of fics in that pov. Sometimes third person present, but only for headcanons

27. What area of writing do you feel strongest in?

Dialogue, I guess? It just flows so easily and comes to me no problem, so...dialogue. And maybe understanding the characters? Like, not being ooc? If that's an area of writing idk

28. What area of writing do you want to improve in?

Action scenes maybe? Because my Killer and Healer rewrite has a lot of action scenes and while I can see them in my head, translating that into words fucking sucks ass

31. Do you use a beta reader/editor?

Not usually, only when I've stared at a fic for too god damn long and I'm starting to hate it. Then I'll ask @ahhhnorealnamesallowed to look it over for me. She's honestly the best when I need a new pair of eyes

35. What’s your favorite fic you’ve posted?

That's not fair, I love all of my fics that I've posted...I can't pick a favorite

36. What fic are you proudest of?

Oh, 恨君不似江楼月 | Killer and Healer 100%. Just the amount of time, energy, and love I've poured into this fic...this fic is my baby and I love her

41. Who’s your favorite character you’ve written?

Ah, I love writing about Jiang Yuelou and Chen Yuzhi. They're honestly a packaged deal at this point. I can't choose one over the other, they are packaged. Do no separate. They're both just so complex and they work well in any au that I throw at them so...they're great. I love them

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faeriexqueen · 11 months

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i just saw the little mermaid live action and i LOVE your mermaid!alma concept! would you mind sharing some head canons of him and prince!kanda? thank you!

AAAAA. I was literally just telling a friend I need more people to see The Little Mermaid (2023) so I can talk more about headcanons, so I’m absolutely happy to share! ^o^ (I’m going to probably share more than you anticipated, so I hope that’s okay — I’ve been itching to spill to someone all this. XD) I’ll be answering below a cut just to avoid spoiling anything relating to the new live action film (I’ll only mention minor spoilers for others who don’t care, but I’m erring on the side of caution for anyone who comes across this.) Headcanons below the cut!

Mermaid!Alma Headcanons

Both versions of Ariel are really curious about humans in general, so I think that would translate over to Alma for certain. In canon he’s so inquisitive already about the world outside the lab (and wants to see the sky!), so I can see him being really fascinated with humans and the above world.

I really like how in the live-action Little Mermaid that Ariel doesn’t go to the surface until Prince Eric’s birthday celebration (similar to the original fairytale!), so I’d keep that for Alma. I like to think that for whatever reason, he’s never been to the surface before so it’s a major unknown for him. (On a side note, Ariel reaching toward the surface during “Part of Your World”? Holy, the parallels to Kanda/Alma reaching toward the sun!)

I think Alma would have a family in this AU — possibly the Changs or Epstains? I’ve written him being related to both, though I lean toward the Epstains for this since they feel stricter.

This is more a general mermaid headcanon, but I like to think merpeople are more “community oriented” — all about protecting their kind, the oceans, etc. I think Alma is a part of that too, but I feel like he’d view things from humans as an opportunity to learn more and improve things. He’s very idealistic in that way, but I think it’d cause a conflict with him being a little more individualistic (I can see there being tension with his family/other merpeople for Alma not being as centered on merpeople when humans are viewed as dangerous).

I like the idea of all mermaids having a “siren voice” as one of their gifts, so I’d want to keep that for Alma (I could see it being a way for him to calm Kanda down in the future.)

For when Alma becomes human, I definitely would have him lose/trade in his voice for legs. I feel like he would be so animated with his gestures despite any awkwardness, and Alma is such an expressive character in general. (Also, the angst with Kanda not thinking Alma is the one who saved him because he has no voice, and Alma realizing this like Ariel does in “For The First Time”. The angst potential!)

Alma being curious about everything when he’s on land. And also awkwardly biting/trying to eat things. (Ariel when she bit the soap in the bath and then bit the flower in the marketplace had be howling. No one can convince me Alma wouldn’t do that. XD)

Instead of coming his hair with a fork/dinglehopper, he’d try to comb Kanda’s since it’s longer.

Alma being a human and discovering things like fresh baked bread and mayo! He immediately decides it’s his favorite food to the confusion of everyone else.

Despite his desire to be on land/with Kanda, I think he’d definitely have a natural longing/pull back toward the sea. It’s in his blood!

I like the idea of Ariel and Eric wanting to travel more, and could see that apply to Alma and Kanda both in this AU. Especially with parallels to their canon counterparts wanting to escape the Order.

The idea of Alma discovering a lotus flower and it becoming his and Kanda’s flower because it unites the sky and water. <3

Prince!Kanda Headcanons

First and foremost, Kanda has a dog like Eric. XD Hoshino has confirmed Kanda is a dog person, so I have to keep that here! (I like the idea of the dog being named Rin, or something relating to a lotus.)

I’m split a bit on Kanda’s backstory in this AU! I like the idea of Prince Eric actually being an orphan boy adopted by royalty, and can see that working with Kanda’s demeanor and how he maybe doesn’t feel like he “fits” into a role. (If I were to give him an adoptive parent, I might stick with Anita — or if I wanted to change it up, I could use the Changs for Kanda’s family and the Epstains for Alma’s.)

If Kanda is born royalty, I think I’d keep him an orphan, but he has someone like Anita who’s acting as regent (possibly like in my Swan Lake AU).

I actually headcanon that unlike both versions of the Little Mermaid, Kanda is already engaged in this AU to Lenalee (a princess from another kingdom). However, neither of them have romantic feelings toward each other. (But they’re good friends, so they’re going along with it).

It’s after a trip to Lenalee’s kingdom to discuss marriage/engagement arrangements that Kanda is sailing back to his kingdom when the storm hits that Alma saves him during.

During the storm, Kanda absolutely saves his dog like Eric does (also Alma helping to save the dog like in the live action film — my heart!).

After being saved and brought to shore by Alma, Kanda hears Alma’s singing and just barely catches a glimpse of him against the sunlight (the parallel to Kanda remembering Past!Alma is strong here.)

Kanda, though not romantic, definitely feels...something? He’s not the type to fall in love at first sight or anything. But he can’t get “that person” out of his head and wants to know who saved him. (I feel like Kanda would be more private about this too, and wouldn’t do a whole search like Eric tried.)

For how Kanda meets Alma, I kind of would combine what happens in the animated and live-action version. After the shipwreck, Kanda probably wouldn’t be allowed to just wander on the shore, but I can see him on official business near the docks when some fisherman trap Alma in a net and fish him out (it probably causes a bit of a scene).

Kanda is probably sort of wary of Alma at first? He doesn’t know what to think, except that Alma is a bit strange and can’t talk. However, I think because Alma is so open Kanda would start to warm up to him swifter than normal. :3

Kanda slowly opening up to Alma about how he feels about his royal status, and feeling like Alma is the first one to listen. <3

I’m still figuring out how Kanda learns Alma’s name, but I like what the live action did. I’d figure something like that, or maybe Alma gradually learns to use a kind of sign language to tell Kanda his name.

General Headcanons

I’d want to keep what the live action does with having the merfolk being wary of humans, but also humans being wary of the ocean and the “sea gods."

Since the live action Little Mermaid starts off with a quote on mermaid tears (and ends with Ariel shedding a tear at the end because she’s finally human), I’d like to maybe keep that element? If not, I like the idea of mermaids’ tears being innocence (or maybe their hearts can create innocence?). I’d want to loop that element in somehow.

Tiedoll is Grimsby! (And can tell Kanda and Alma have a thing, and absolutely supports it.)

I love the idea of Miranda being a maid, and possibly the one who helps Alma get acclimated when he’s first brought to the castle.

That’s the bulk of what I have! I realize it’s a lot, but thank you for asking. I’m always happy to talk about AUs and concepts like this, so please feel free to reach out with other asks/messages. <3

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The Little Mermaid (2023)

I just saw the new Little Mermaid movie. It was okay. Not horrible, not great. But decent. I'll start with the negative and work my way to the positive.

The weakest trait of the movie is the pacing. It's over a half an hour longer than the original version and they add new songs and it drags at point and yet they rush some very important scenes and even chop out a lot. They changed Ariel giving up her voice. She still does it but it's no longer Ursula's payment and- probably to avoid accusations of sexism even though it's a villain singing it and you're supposed to see it as wrong- they removed a big chunk of "Poor Unfortunate Souls." This bothered me. Disney does know it's okay for villains to say not nice and untrue things right? If characters like Gaston in Beauty and the Beast or Ursula in The Little Mermaid say something sexist we know it's wrong. They're... villains... Why would Ursula help Ariel without definite payment? If the voice isn't payment and by some chance the prince did kiss Ariel before the sunset on the third day, Ursula gains nothing. Ursula wanting payment in the form of Ariel's voice made sense because it suggests to Ariel that Ursula thinks she can win Eric's kiss before the end of the third day and it gets rid of the suspicion of "Why would she help me for nothing?" Grown adults were already confused about this in regard to the animated one and forgot that the voice was a payment and Ariel would NOT get it back after the kiss. It was (supposedly) gone forever. This will just add to the confusion. Also they added to the spell where Ariel now can't remember she needs Eric to kiss her. Why? What's the point with that?

Some CG is pretty awful looking while others look great. You'll know the bad computer generated imagery when you see it. The new songs aren't that good. The lyrics to Ariel's new "while mute" song is kind of awful. But the worst song is Scuttle's new song. It's up there with giving Iago a song in Aladdin 2: Return of Jafar. That's how bad it is. Prince Eric's song is okay but probably should have been worked on a little more. It kind of (unintentionally) reminded me of an Old Spice advertisement the way he suddenly was on a ship. It reminded me of "Ladies, look at your man. Now back at me." that commercial. It feels like there were edits that should not have been made such as not revealing why there's a statue of Eric on the ship. That's kind of important, isn't it? One thing I don't understand about these Disney remakes is why they don't just adapt the Broadway musical version into a live action movie? As with Beauty and the Beast there are some gorgeous songs that are not in the animated version. And I would love to see those in live action. Ursula being King Triton's sister is from an early longer version of "Mysterious Fathoms below" from the animated movie, verses that weren't used in the movie. It was also later used for The Little Mermaid Broadway musical. So like with Beauty and the Beast they borrowed aspects of the Broadway musical version but not the new song numbers. They'd rather try to get a "best original song" nomination by adding a a new song (or a few) and they never feel like much effort is put into them. It's not just Disney who does this. This was also done with the Les Miserables musical movie as well as many others. But honestly I think Disney should have made movies out the Broadway stage versions. That being said I DO think Lin-Manuel Miranda is overrated. I'm sorry. I just do. I'm not a fan of the new songs added to The Little Mermaid. Also King Triton feels like he's been medicated. He's so mellow that it's actually kind of creepy when he destroys Ariel's collection. I guess someone thought his temper and yelling came off as abusive but somehow him being calm and dispassionate makes it worse. Some people might appreciate Under the Sea being longer, like it is in The Broadway Musical version but frankly that was always my least favorite Little Mermaid song number so for me it dragged on even though I liked Halle Bailey's Ariel joining in the singing. They also changed Ariel signing a contract to giving a scale from her tail. I guess this was because Disney is intent on quieting old questions like "If she can write how come she didn't tell Eric who she is in writing?" You could just say they write in different languages, it takes more than three days to learn how to write in a new language if the alphabet is written differently. Though I actually do like the contract being "In blood." Lots of it felt rushed. I don't remember seeing Ursula's previous victims being freed from her enchantments like we saw in the animated movie and there's more emoting in the animated movie.

Now for the good... Halle Bailley has an incredible voice. Her singing is gorgeous. She's a perfect Ariel, especially in the vocals. I also didn't mind the change to Kiss the Girl. They changed "There's only one way to ask her." to "Use your words, boy, and ask her." And that's a fine change. I don't mind it at all. It makes sense. They do give Eric more of a personality but I wish it was more like in the Broadway musical where he taught Ariel to dance to express herself and eventually decided he loved her more than the mysterious voice that rescued him. And Eric's song is the only new song I find tolerable. In general it's an okay movie featuring a great singer. Not the worst Disney remake but not something I'd ever consider a favorite. Note: I used to have a non-white Little Mermaid doll. I was very proud of her because I customized her, myself. I had a broken eight inch Non-Disney Little Mermaid doll. And an eight inch non-Disney Pocahontas from the same manufacturer. I made her a small bikini top from a modified Princess Jasmine top. And I put the Pocahontas from torso up on the Little Mermaid tail. It looked so good that other kids mistook it as having been made that way. I was very proud of her. I think someone threw her out on me after my most recent move. It's a shame. I had her for nearly thirty years. People never noticed she was a customized doll and yet, ironically, some people mistook my prince doll from Beauty and the Beast (Actual Disney product) as being a "Barbie head on a Ken body." That's... there's no words for that one...

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